#tofeelathome

[brittonmichaelftm]

Life.

My life right now. I don't normally write on tumblr, but I need a way to get this all out. I have been really depressed the past week or two and it's been really hard. I got my T letter written and sent to an endocrinologist, whom has yet to call me. Which super upsets me. But I guess I need to wait it out. I really need to know what is going on though, I'm worrying, I'm not sleeping, it really sucks. I have had a long week and tonight I was looking in the mirror and I don't know how many people on here feel this way, but I was looking at myself and I hate the person that is looking back at me. I hate the person that I see. That alone is scary... I had to stop what I was doing and shave my face. While I was looking in the mirror I noticed how much they had grown out and for a second I felt peace, then it all went back to where my head was before. It just continues to get worse and I don't know what to do about it anymore. My heart hurts, my body is not mine, and I don't know where to turn anymore. But I guess that is all I have to say for tonight.