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karrahkshatria · 5 years ago

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Get Closer With Me

Hi guys! I was supposed to work on my articles today but I ended up procrastinating the whole day. Is there such thing as a productive procrastination? I guess, this must be a great example of such.

Quarantine has made me think of some worthwhile activities, including this. The other day, I found myself looking through my cabinet and discovered a bunch of nostalgic things. It made me realize how simple life was way before. Indeed, life is a never ending cycle of going through changes. Sure, we can never turn back time but at least, we have these things that would help us reminisce our past moments.

I also remembered a note I published on my Facebook wall way back 2011. I got to scan and copy its content here and figured I could compare my perspective 9 years ago to present time.

So here it is! It’s a bit long but if you have time, just take time. Hahaha!

NAME: Karrah Kshatria B. Seronay

AGE: 27

BIRTHDATE: January 27, 1993

PRESENT ADDRESS: Butuan City

WHAT WAS YOUR:

2011

1. last beverage = too big.

2. last phone call = from my mother, dugay na to.

3. last text message = quote man to. gm actually.

4. last song you listened to = Papa Amerikano haha

5. last time you cried = feb 2011 burial sa akong lola.

2020

1. last beverage = water,still O_O

2. last phone call = from an unknown number. Food Panda. haha

3. last text message = BPI OTP O_O but if from a person, Innah – we text whatever we like to tell each other. hahaha

4. last song you listened to = haha how jeje was Papa Amerikano before? Last night, parents were in the mood to listen to old songs. From what I remember, it was Somewhere Over The Rainbow.

5. last time you cried = I think weeks ago, when I was watching a KDRAMA. Haha. If I remember it right, it was Ep 13 of I’m Not A Robot. Hands up, fellow Kdrama fans?!

HAVE YOU EVER:

2011

6. dated someone twice = no

7. been cheated on = no

8. kissed someone & regretted it = wala

9. lost someone special = idk

10. been depressed = YAH

11. been drunk and threw up = nope!

2020

6. dated someone twice = no, not ever

7. been cheated on = No. And I hope it will not happen.

8. kissed someone & regretted it = Nope, never had a first kiss…

9. lost someone special = Yes! If lost is defined as walking away from your life. Or if lost means death, still the same answer as my grandparents were also special.

10. been depressed = Yes. We all deal with hard times in our lives but what’s most important is how we get up from those and the people who were there to support us.

11. been drunk and threw up = still, no coz I don’t drink. It’s a personal and my doctor’s choice. So, I can always get away with it. haha! But I throw up on a normal basis before when I was sick. O_O Is that valid? Haha!

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:

2011

12. Sky Blue

13. Purple

14. White

2020

12. Sky Blue

13. Pink- the only thing that changed. Haha. Girly naka ghorl?!

14. White

LAST YEAR (2010/2019), HAVE YOU:

2011

15. Made a new friend = YEAH!

16. Fallen out of love = NO

17. Laughed until you cried = YEAH YEAH

18. Met someone who changed you = maybe

19. Found out who your true friends were = YE

20. Found out someone was talking about you = I can't remember

21. Kissed anyone on your FB friend's list = yeah! my family.

2020

15. Made a new friend = Yes! Shoutout to my new friends! :)

16. Fallen out of love = No

17. Laughed until you cried = Yes, the last time was with my laughing buddy, Alex! We understand each other’s humor because great minds think alike. hahaha

18. Met someone who changed you = I think so. Some people change you, without you noticing it. Because even the smallest things matter.

19. Found out who your true friends were = I’ve always had my trust in my friends. I don’t have a lot but the ones I have, I know they are all true.

20. Found out someone was talking about you = No? Not curious though. I mean, we all talk about certain people. But that does not necessarily have to be anything negative.

21. Kissed anyone on your FB friend's list = Still the same, family

GENERAL:

2011

22. How many people on your FB friends list do you know in real life = 90%

24. Do you have any pets = way uso

25. Do you want to change your name = di ko, mahal bayad.

26. What did you do for your last birthday =celebrated with friends and family

27. What time did you wake up today = 1pm

28. What were you doing at midnight last night = nag internet

29. Name something you CANNOT wait for = COLLEGE GRADUATION

30. Last time you saw your Mother = minutes ago

31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life = none, I <3 my life. char

32. What are you listening to right now = sound sa TV ug sa electic fan nga gatuyok

33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom? = wa, di ko kastorya niya kay iring sya. nag joke ko. HAHAHA

34. What's getting on your nerves right now = boredom

35. Most visited webpage = facebook, twitter, yahoo and everything

37. Nicknames = karrah, kar, yang, yang2, yangertz, karyang, yangerz, shat2, karyatot

38. Relationship Status = SINGLE

39. Zodiac sign = Aquarius

40. He or She = She

41. Elementary = Urios College Grade School

42. High School = Agusan National High School

43. College = XU

44. Hair color = Black

45. Long or short = medium

47. Do you have a crush on someone? O_O

48. What do you like about yourself? can't think of, daghan musulod sa akong mind, haha feelurs!

49. Piercings = none. bisag earrings wa

50. Tattoos = wala, sauna nuon kanang pataban sa mga pagkaon na tag pisohon

51. Righty or lefty = righty! I wish both :))

2020

22. How many people on your FB friends list do you know in real life = 90%, I think the same. I accept only the people I know. Artista ka ghorl?! haha

24. Do you have any pets = Yes, we have pets now! A dog and a cat. Cookie and Minggoy! And we love them both dearly in spite of their imperfections. Hahaha Drama ka ghorl?!

25. Do you want to change your name = Before, I don’t like my name. Now, I have learned to appreciate its unique nature. Kshatria… At least, smaller probability to be “HIT” in applying for NBI Clearance.

26. What did you do for your last birthday =celebrated with friends and family, same same. Anyhow, I still feel special and thankful that I reached this age. Every day is a blessing, after all.

27. What time did you wake up today = 12:30PM, 30 minutes earlier than before. Not really a morning person. #quarantingz

28. What were you doing at midnight last night = procrastinating. I was supposed to do my task for my online job, but I took time to delay important things and played Trivia 360. So ended up sleeping at 4:30 AM. O_O

29. Name something you CANNOT wait for = Waah, it’s been 7 years since college graduation! Time flies! Now, I cannot wait for this quarantine to be over. But I’m taking my time to enjoy and be productive. I can’t wait to travel. I also can’t wait to figure out where I want to be for the rest of my life. I can’t seem to dig deep inside what it is that I really want. So,might as well just live in the moment and be amazed by what’s in store.

30. Last time you saw your Mother = She’s actually in front of me right at this very moment.

31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life = None. We are where we are now because of our past. As much as I struggle with contentment, I still would choose to have this life at the end of the day. We are here for a reason. We are here for a mission.

32. What are you listening to right now = I am listening to my family’s random conversation. I also hear a car machine being turned on by our neighbor. My mom is humming a Tiktok music. My younger sister is listening to old songs. It’s quite fascinating that our ears can hear all of these sounds all at the same time.

33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom? = Hahaha! Sir Tom! Tomas! My BPI officemate. The ever mighty and passionate employee, Tom!

34. What's getting on your nerves right now = None. Positive vibes all the way!

35. Most visited webpage = FB and IG. Sometimes, Twitter.

37. Nicknames = karrah, kar, yang, yang2, yangertz

38. Relationship Status = SINGLE

39. Zodiac sign = Aquarius

40. He or She = She

41. Elementary = Urios College Grade School

42. High School = Agusan National High School

43. College = Xavier University

44. Hair color = Black

45. Long or short = So now I’m quite confused whether this is pertaining to my hair or my height? If hair, medium. After 1 year, it has finally grown. Hahaha. If height, then I have long accepted I am short.

47. Do you have a crush on someone? I don’t admit my crush before. But now, my crush is Jo In Sung. So, I guess I have a crush.

48. What do you like about yourself? Modesty aside, I think I am an understanding person? Patient? Kind? Hehe. Char lang.

49. Piercings = Still none, no earrings also since a couple of years ago.

50. Tattoos = None

51. Righty or lefty = Righty!

FIRSTS :

2011

52. First surgery= wala

53. First piercing = ears

54. First best friend = hmmm.. *thinking* *reminiscing* :)

55. First sport you joined = pingpong kanang sa pe. hahaha

56. First vacation = la nako ka remember

58. First pair of trainers = ha?

2020

52. First surgery= Way back 2016. My first and hopefully, only surgery. It’s termed as Small Bowel Resection wherein a part of my intestines where a tumor has grown was cut and removed. It was a life-changing moment and I could not be more thankful to God for giving me another chance to live. Life is precious!

53. First piercing = Ears. Yeeeeaaaars ago!

54. First best friend = My sister! My ate! It has got something to do with our 1 year age gap. Too close. Haha!

55. First sport you joined = Same same! Not yo’ sporty girl!

56. First vacation = Still can’t remember.

58. First pair of trainers = I still don’t get this. *puzzled*

RIGHT NOW:

2011

59. Eating = nope

60. Drinking = wala

61. I'm about to = sweep the floor.

63. Waiting for = ♫ tonight wooooo ♫

2020

59. Eating = Chocolate!

60. Drinking = none

61. I'm about to = Werk. Have to write articles. So, I’m currently procrastinating by doing this. LOL

63. Waiting for = you. *oops* haha

YOUR FUTURE :

2011

64. Want kids? = maybe

65. Get Married? = I can't say basin diay mag madre ko :)

66. Career? = businesswoman!

2020

64. Want kids? = still a maybe

65. Get Married? = I am open. It feels good to have someone you can be with for the rest of your life. But we never really know what our future holds.

66. Career? = Now, this question has become so hard to answer. But, I have always dreamed of working in ADB or BSP. Taas ng pangarap, ghorl?!

WHICH IS BETTER :

2011

67. Lips or eyes = eyes O_O

68. Hugs or kisses = hugs.

69. Shorter or taller = taller

70. Older or Younger = same age?

71. Romantic or spontaneous = wa koy hanaw ani

72. Nice stomach or nice arms = nice everything haha

73. Sensitive or loud = ambot ui. bahala sya

74. Hook-up or relationship = uhmm... relationship.

75. Trouble maker or hesitant = trouble maker hahaha

2020

67. Lips or eyes = eyes, still

68. Hugs or kisses = hugs.

69. Shorter or taller = taller

70. Older or Younger = same age. Hasn’t changed.

71. Romantic or spontaneous = Spontaneous!

72. Nice stomach or nice arms = nice arms

73. Sensitive or loud = Sensitive?

74. Hook-up or relationship = relationship, definitely! I must have not known what a hook-up means before.

75. Trouble maker or hesitant = Now, I don’t get this question. hmmm

HAVE YOU EVER :

2011

76. Kissed a stranger = nope!

77. Drank hard liquor = nope, I'm a good girl

78. Lost glasses/contacts = nope, I have a good eyesight. haha

79. Sex on first date = NO

80. Broke someone's heart = wa nay uso sa ako

81. Had your own heart broken = nop

82. Been arrested = never

83. Turned someone down = don't know

84. Cried when someone died = syempre

85. Fallen for a friend = no.

2020

76. Kissed a stranger = nope!

77. Drank hard liquor = I tried San Mig Light and Red Horse once… Haha. Realized how distorted my thinking about alcohol was way before. It’s not that bad to drink, but you have to know your limits. Drink moderately. I mean, I even go with friends when they drink, although I usually take the listener/watcher role. It’s fun to talk and laugh about anything under the moon!

78. Lost glasses/contacts = nope, I have a good eyesight. Haha. Still holds true, now.

79. Sex on first date = No

80. Broke someone's heart = I think so?

81. Had your own heart broken = Yes! Part of growing up!

82. Been arrested = never

83. Turned someone down = Yes?

84. Cried when someone died = syempre

85. Fallen for a friend = no.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

2011

86. Yourself = sometimes

87. Miracles = way-e-es!

88. Love at first sight = I don't think so

89. Heaven = YEAAAH!

90. Santa Claus = sauna.

91. Kiss on the first date = nope

92. Angels = yeah!

2020

86. Yourself = We have to. Otherwise, we’ll get nowhere.

87. Miracles = YES! Our lives are a miracle! I witnessed a great miracle when I faced my first ever surgery. God was there. God is here.

88. Love at first sight = I think this has changed. I kind of believe this now, but not absolutely.

89. Heaven = YEAAAH!

90. Santa Claus = sauna.

91. Kiss on the first date = depends? hahaha

92. Angels = yeah

That’s it! The 18-year old me vs. the 27- year old me. Some have changed, some have also remained the same. We grow up. Our view about life changes. But one thing constant among these is the love of family and of God.

If you’re still reading up to this point, I suggest you make one as well. It’s a great exercise to know yourself better. You realize things you have never actually thought of before. Enjoy answering! Stay safe!

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