#to those who don't follow me feel free to ignore me thank you 🫣

[fallenhunnyapple]

This is just a really basic disclaimer because it's something that I've been thinking about a lot lately. Especially because of how prevalent it is in the Adamsapple community.

I have not nor will I ever do Mpreg stuff with my AUs or Works. No giving Lucifer or Adam afab genitalia, and no Feminization of either of them either. In all honesty, all that stuff gives me Major Dysphoria. This is in no way any kind of kinkshaming or moral judgement. Just, that content personally really squicks me out and makes me feel bad, I have the mpreg tag blocked. Its why I gave them a spontaneously spawned Egg in the one AU. A way to still have the domesticity and resulting child while avoiding the things I don't like/can't handle.

I just kinda wanted to get it out there because it basically seems almost Expected by this point and its even been joked about that bottom Adam/Adamsapple fans are all into Mpreg and I just don't want that generalization put on me when it's in fact something that genuinely bothers me.

Thanks for reading 🙏 Now back to your regularly scheduled dash

[29daffodils]

When you get this you have to answer with 5 of your fav songs and then tag your mutuals to do the same :) (no pressure <3)

thanks for the tag @peachym00 🩷🌸 i would have done this under the reblog chain but just didn't feel like scrolling so much 1 in the morning I'm so sorry 🫣

so here's some all time favourites and current ones. might be a little more than 5 songs. but oh well. when have i followed rules 👀

in no particular order :

1. yellow by coldplay

this is the song that helps me not give up sometimes. in my incredibly lonely life, this gives me hope that even if no one else is by me to tell me they love me, maybe one day i will love myself.

2. make my sun shine by swim deep

this is the song i discovered through my favourite BL manhwa "the shape of your love" and never looked back. this was also the first time i ever saw music used in a manhwa, music that was readily available and of course i fell in love with the mc who was quite similar to myself. this song is peppy and sweet and just so fluffy it can rot your teeth.

3. the aspidistra flies by stars

i found this song through a sasunaru fic once upon a time when i still used ffn. the fic was great and so is this song. a perfect ode to love, if you ask me. i loved it so much that i actually wrote a fic to it for my favourite boys and I'm still not over it. it's been over a decade.

4. stranger by jeff satur

jeff has so many good songs and I'm fairly new to thai pop artists, but god damn, this man knows how to write love songs. this is my favourite from him simply because no one talks about it and the atmosphere it creates. I'm a sucker for rare things lol, be it a manhwa or this song. and maybe i have a thing for snow and cold and relationships falling apart and mending at the same time. i dunno. i love the melancholy in this song.

5. first love by BTS (min yoongi)

You say don't leave like this Don't worry even if I leave You'll do well on your own I remember when I first met you Before I knew it you grew up

min yoongi, the man that you are. i love pretty much everything by him. I'm also new to BTS's music but this guy is something else. i started with his solos and then listened to BTS. but goddamn, the moment i heard this one, i was done for. this could have been a tie with amygdala or snooze (both of those are my favourites), but the passion in this is unmatched to me and, well, this reminds me of the person i lost. somehow it feels nice to know someone else felt the way i felt back then. also it always makes me cry.

p.s. : i also discovered this song through an incredible taejin fic lmao so if you wanna read that, i'll drop a link.

some honourable mentions :

1. epiphany by BTS (kim seokjin)

this is the first bts song i ever listened to, back before i even cared about any kpop. let's just say, i hope i learn to love myself too.

2. paratiisi by ville valo & agents

this is a song i found after i lost my best friend to suicide. i was recced this by her cousin and i instantly fell in love with it. sometimes it reminds me of her, though V's taste was more sabotage by chisu 😂

3. moonchild by RM

this is the song that gives me hope these days. that's all i gotta say.

4. awake by BTS (kim seokjin)

this is the song that puts into words my current state of mind. i really am in a super shitty place at the moment and i dunno if i'll ever get out of here but i wanna hope.

5. diphylleia grayi by jonghyun

yeah okay this song just makes me howl cry alright. i love it very much even though i haven't dared look up the lyrics. i hold most of jonghyun's songs very close to my heart. so.

ahhhh i think this is it! tagging @boyslovecorner @ae-azile @lilitblaukatz @thisautistic @goodbyeapathy8 @justfionn and if anyone else wants to do it! feel free to ignore otherwise!

edit : tagging @skyfish7 in this because i've finally found her!!!!