#to the guy whose name i can't remember right now lol

[mitchellbernford]

Theo,

Hey mate! I just wanted drop you a line and apologize for my teammate's unsportsmanlike behavior last night. You played a good match. You and your two rookies. He's a hot head, as you know. Someone not on his team might even call him a real arsehole. Anyway, hope you're alright.

Mitch

[fixfoxnox]

omg wait a second so that ask of “what celebrity/known person resembles your roach” sparked an idea

remember earlier when i gave you the scene prompt of roach doing like music therapy and singing his heart out in his room on base with his old guitar and yadda yadda??

What If!! he Does get convinced by his community to go into music and he ends up getting Really Fucking Popular and like his stage name is Roach and maybe the boys(soap and ghost at least, maybe the rest of the team too idk) end up finding him and really liking him for his really deep, down to earth, heartfelt lyrics and in like interviews and interactions he’s this adorable little skrunklo and during leave one time they go to a concert and like get backstage passes or something and have one-on-one time with him and poor buggy has to fucking keep himself in line cuz he just So DESPERATELY wants to jump their bones or just weep in their arms but he’s Not Supposed To Know Them and like UGH

work your magic boo😘

Ngl, this is lowkey not my best work especially toward the end, but its a very cute idea. I just really like the idea of celebrity! Roach with Soap and Ghost who are whipped for him lol

Missing Pieces

"Ghost!" Soap nearly trips over himself running into the room, his entire face red with excitement. As he barrels into the small rec room on base, he catches the attention of his entire team. Gaz, whose boyfriend had made time to come visit him on base, was cuddled up on the couch, already rolling his eyes at his friend. He knew that tone that Soap had. He could tell exactly what this was about already.

"Oh great," he muttered, burying his face into Jackson's neck with a sigh. Jackson only glanced down at him, confusion on his face as his eyes tracked Soap running up to throw himself down on the couch opposite of them, a big grin on his face as he cuddled up to Ghost.

"Johnny," Ghost muttered, "Everything alright?"

"He's on tour!" Soap told him excitedly, shoving his phone into Ghost's face, "He's on tour, and he's here. Right fucking now Ghost!"

Ghost's eyes scanned over Soap's phone for a moment, his eyes going wider and wider as he continued reading over the screen. After a moment, he responded, "How the fuck did we miss this?"

"I don't know," Soap wailed, shoving his face into Ghost's shoulder. "We have to figure out a way to get into that concert. Maybe backstage," he ranted to the man, pulling back to grab onto his arm desperately.

"I'm sure you can find someone selling their tickets," Gaz called with a roll of his eyes. "Maybe seeing him in concert will finally make the two of you stop drooling over his interviews. It's getting a little pathetic you guys." Soap and Ghost both shot the man a withering glare.

After a moment, Soap turned back to Ghost, "I've already tried to find tickets but it's like no one is selling them for a reasonable price! I can't find any that we'd be able to afford."

"Even if we dip into the savings?" Ghost asked, his voice sounding desperate. It was clear that he was hoping that would help them. Gaz gave a snort at the sound of hope in his voice.

Soap gave a whine, falling against his shoulder dramatically, "Even if we dip into the savings!"

"It's probably for the best," Gaz called playfully, "It would be hard to explain why two of the taskforce's men kidnapped a country singer. No offense you two but I don't think 'we're in love with him' would be a good excuse." He snickered at the glare that the two men sent him. he was clearly enjoying their suffering.

"Country singer?" Jackson spoke up finally, surprise clear in his voice, "I didn't expect you two to be into country music."

"We aren't," Soap explained quickly, a pout still on his face, "We just like this artist. His music is so much more than country, it's incredible!"

"They've been obsessed with this guy for like a year now," Gaz explained to his boyfriend. "They're in love with him. They watch all of his interviews and any video he uploads to his youtube channel. They're like teenage girls with the way they gush over him." He paused, bringing his hands to his chest and raising his voice just slightly to mock his friends, "God, his voice is so pretty, he's like an angel. That cooking video he uploaded was so perfect, his ass looked so good! Gaz, you don't understand he's so humble and passionate in his interviews! Did you know that he's gay? That means we have a chance!" He dropped his hands down, grinning at Soap and Ghost as they glared at him. "And that's just Ghost," he teased playfully, "You should hear Soap talk about the guy."

"Fuck off," Soap flipped his middle finger up to his friend.

Jackson had to cover his mouth as he laughed, the antics between the three men slotted away in his memory for later. He knew one person who would love to hear about this. After a moment, he asked, "Who is this guy, hmm? I'm curious now."

Soap's face lit up and soon he was jumping off of the couch to hold his phone out to Jackson. Jackson stared at the image in front of him, his face blank as he tried to figure out whether he should laugh or not. "His stage name is Roach," Soap replied dreamily.

There was a moment as Jackson tried to figure out what to say to the man. His mind was running over itself. This was fucking something, wasn't it? A thought struck his mind then and, before he could stop himself, he was blurting out, "I know him."

Silence hung over the room as three pairs of eyes burned into his skin. After a moment, Ghost's voice rang out, "You what?"

"I know him," Jackson tried to keep his voice steady, "We're friends. I could get you guys tickets to the show tonight if you want? I have standing tickets for any of his shows."

Chaos erupted around him, several voices speaking at once with excitement, confusion, and thanks. Jackson had to grin at the chaotic sound, this was certainly going to be something.

"So, how the hell do you know this guy?" Price was the one to ask, leaning back in the seat that he'd claimed as his own. The entire taskforce plus Jackson were currently in a private box, overlooking the venue below them.

Soap and Ghost had claimed seats at the front of the box, excitedly whispering to one another. It made Jackson grin, he was definitely going to get the reward for best friend in the universe after this, he just knew it. "We met on a squad," he turned to Price, "He was in the military before all this." He tapped his prosthetic leg carefully, "He saved my life, whole reason I'm alive right now is him. They discharged him right along with me after he beat the shit out of some fucker who made a comment about me losing my leg."

"I didn't know he used to be in the military!" Soap leaned closer to Jackson excitedly, "tell us more about him, please."

Jackson couldn't help but snicker, "Why don't you and Ghost just ask him when I take you back stage," he turned to hide his laughter in Gaz's shoulder before adding, "trust me, I'm sure he'll be more than happy to answer any of the questions the two of you have."

Music started then, the lights of the arena dimming down as the opener for the show was introduced, the crowd cheering something fierce in response. Soap and Ghost seemed completely focused on the stage, though Jackson could tell is wasn't really the opener they were interested in, but rather making sure that they could see Roach as soon as he stepped out onto the stage.

It was a bit of time before the opener was stepping up to the mic and telling her goodbyes to the crowd before beginning her introduction of the main event. It was the same introduction that Jackson had heard before. Roach's name was called and, immediately, the music started for one of his quicker paced songs.

The second that Roach stepped out onto the stage, both Soap and Ghost were standing. They were both showing more energy than Jackson had ever seen from either of them and the sight was enough to have his eyes widening. He realized fairly quickly that when Gaz had said that the two men were obsessed with his friend, he very much meant it.

It was interesting to watch the men, especially Ghost, quietly sing along to several of the songs, cheering loudly after each one ended. Soap's face was a bright red from how excited he was, a grin permanently plastered on his face. Ghost's face was still somewhat obscured by his face mask, but Jackson could see that on the tops of his ears and sitting high on his cheeks was a blush. That plus the gleam in his eyes was enough to give away his excitement.

Eventually there was a pause in the music, Roach stopping to get a bit of water before stepping up to the mic. He sounded breathless still, but anyone would be able to hear the grin in his voice. "How are y'all feeling?" There was a resounding cheer from the entire arena and Roach gave a joyous laugh into the mic, clearly excited about the response.

"I, uh, I'm so excited to be here tonight. I was a little nervous, not going to lie," he chuckled into the mic, "I kept worrying no one was going to show up but, I guess I didn't need to worry about that." There was another cheer from the packed house. "Really quick," Roach started again, "Then I'll get back to singing for you guys but, fun fact, my best friend is actually here tonight." Roach could feel the eyes of everyone in the 141 turn to him and he couldn't help the smug smile that crossed his face. "Jackson is both the coolest and most annoying mother fucker on the planet, but I love him, even if he didn't tell me he was coming tonight." Roach chuckled into the mic and Jackson rolled his eyes at his friends words, "Anyways, I've not performed this song in a bit, but it's his favorite, so I'm going to do it again."

The music started up and Jackson could feel himself softening, a feeling of longing filling his chest as the music flooded through the air. It was one Roach had written about their situation, about them both remembering. Only they knew what it was really about, Roach usually skirted around the question in interviews. He couldn't help the smile that crossed his face.

"Alright, don't be weird," Gaz chided Soap and Ghost for what had to be the sixth time since they'd been waiting in the little green room. The two men were practically vibrating in their seats, both clearly very excited for getting to meet Roach. "This is my first time meeting Jackson's best friend and I don't need him thinking that my friends are weirdos."

"Relax," Jackson chimed from his seat, grinning up at where Gaz had been pacing, "Roach is going to love you guys."

"God I hope you're right," Soap muttered excitedly, leaning closer to Ghost to take his hand in his own. The two shared a soft look, one that communicated their feelings to one another clearly.

A few more minutes passed by before finally the door to the green room was pushed open, a familiar voice ringing out as a man backed into the room, clearly trying to get away from whoever was on the other side.

"Yes, yes I understand, but I told you that I was- listen, you're just going to have to reschedule it, I put the time in, it isn't my fault that you didn't listen to it! Okay yes, well then go talk to Doug, he'll tell you to deal with it, now if you don't mind." Roach pressed the door to the green room shut, an exhausted sigh leaving his lips as he leaned against the wood for a moment, his head in his hands.

Jackson stood up, making his way over to his friend. "Les giving you trouble again?"

"Trouble upon trouble," Roach muttered out. He turned quickly, barely looking at anything as he wrapped Jackson up in a hug, "You didn't tell me you were coming asshole, I thought you were spending the week with Gaz?"

Jackson pulled back from the man, turning him just slightly while giving him a wicked grin, "Yeah, about that," he turned Roach, holding his hand out so that he could see the entire group. He knew the moment that his friend had seen Soap and Ghost, his entire body freezing as his face slowly flushed. "Turns out, that Gaz's two friends, happened to be huge fans," he placed his hands on Roach's shoulders, "So I thought I'd introduce you to them." He leaned forward to add in a whisper for the man, "Get your boys Sanderson, they're already whipped for you."

He gave a good slap to Roach's shoulder before moving back over to wrap his arm around Gaz's shoulder, grinning as he watched Soap and Ghost stand to cross the room, standing in front of Roach who's face was only going redder by the second as he stared up at the two shell-shocked.

"Hi," Soap sounded surprisingly nervous, "We're huge fans, we love you." He paused, before adding in a panicked voice, "I mean your music, not like you. But I mean we do love you but not like in a weird way, more like an admiration way which is way less weird. Probably."

"I'm," Roach's voice was high in his throat as he stared at the two men. So many things were running through his mind, there were so many things he wanted to say to the two. There was a part of him that just wanted to kiss them silly. He couldn't though, they didn't know him like he knew them. "I'm Roach," he said after a moment. "Which," he winced slightly, "now that I think about it I guess the two of you would know." His face went another shade of pink and he looked over to Jackson with clear panic in his eyes, completely missing the look of adoration the two men were giving him.

"You're adorable," Ghost muttered to himself, his eyes tracing over Roach's face. Roach heard though, a shiver running down his spine as he looked back to the two men.

"Can I get your names?" Roach tried to react normally, giving the two men a bright smile despite the heat burning his face.

There was a pause as the two men stared at him before Soap was blurting out, "Can we take you out?"

"Soap!" Gaz scolded from across the room, his voice horrified as both Jackson and Price devolved into laughs beside them. Apparently all it took was to be faced with their celebrity crush for Soap and Ghost to forget how to communicate like normal people.

Soap turned to look at him with wide eyes before turning back to Roach, his own face a bright red now. "Sorry." He sounded sheepish, rubbing a hand along the back of his neck as he shuffled closer to Ghost. "Soap," he motioned to himself, "Ghost," he motioned to Ghost. There was a pause before Soap was rushing, "Sorry, I didn't mean to make you uncomfortable," he fumbled through his words, "we just think you're so cool and sweet and you have such a nice voice-"

"And you're a good cook and a very interesting person and we like to hear you talk," Ghost added on for the man, his own nerves just as frazzled as Soaps as he tried to help the man out of his blunder.

"Yes we really like to hear you talk," Soap agreed, "we just think you're great and we're huge fans and I really didn't mean to make you-"

"You can take me out." Roach cut him off with a grin, his chest feeling lighter as he realized that when Jackson had muttered that these two men were whipped for him already, he meant it. "Tomorrow," he turned away from the men with a wink, "I have a day off. You can take me out tomorrow."

He made his way toward Gaz then, his hand extended so that he could finally greet Jackson's boyfriend for the first time. He allowed himself to look back at Soap and Ghost exactly once, his heart stuttering over itself with excitement as he realized that he'd left both of the men in a shell-shocked puddle on the floor.

Maybe he wasn't in the military anymore. Maybe life had taken from him. But maybe there was still a way for things to work out in his favor. Maybe he could still find that missing pieces from his first life.

[fnaffersblog]

Wawawa you're fine! I love reading your thoughts about the show. You always have great takes so it's always a treat to read! Honestly you are completely correct that both Sun and Moon have too much problems to work through alone. Like they're getting better, but if someone doesn't intervene soon something is going to happen that might actually cause unfixable damage.

I can't help but wonder if part of New Moon's improvement in the emotions department has to do with Earth. Like it's a given that the old Moon didn't know how to deal with social issues at all, but honestly considering how he came to be it's surprising he wasn't worse off. The newer Moon though had a much more tolerant beginning. Sure it sucked that he literally woke up just to find out that he has a lot of problems to look forward to, but at least he had a supportive family (even if he didn't know them) to help him get his footing. I feel like that helped Moon a lot in being able to process things and helped him have a more healthy mindset. Earth probably led to a good chunk of the positive coping skills. Moon knows Earth is probably the most emotionally intelligent of them all so why not try to emulate some of her caring nature though emulating can only do so much if you're still clueless on the emotional cues :')

Also thank you for saying the part where the old Moon and Sun really didn't know each other as well as they thought they did. I've always sort of had that thought in the back of my mind but I never really gave it much thought, and now I'm sad thinking about how Sun really never got to know old Moon personally before he got erased. Sure the newer Moon is basically the same just reset but there are certain things that the old Moon experienced that the new one will never truly get because it didn't happen to him.

As for the name choice, Spigot is what Lunar named the toy reindeer he got for Christmas :) Also for your consideration, Cherrim for Sun.

I’m so glad folks like my deep dives! Everyone has been so kind in my comments n stuff, I appreciate that a lot, it makes me really happy. I love seeing other people’s long posts too when I pop into the various SaMs tags. It’s always interesting to see how someone perceived an episode differently than I did, I always end up being like ‘I thought that too!’ or ‘I didn’t even notice that!’ when I read other people’s stuff. It’s great, my favorite part of this. :D

“If someone doesn't intervene soon something is going to happen that might actually cause unfixable damage.” So, this. Yes. Yeah. Took the words right out of my mouth. I’ve been thinking this for awhile now.

It’s… a weird situation. Moon’s reset, even though it happened months ago at this point, has thrown a wrench in the situation.

At this point, Moon… doesn’t really have any issues?

Yeah this is all… a mess to talk about lol.

Old Moon? Yes. Old Moon had a LOT of issues he needed to work through. Had he not been reset, I think he’d be at a breaking point right now right alongside Sun, if he wasn’t actively pushing Sun towards one. Or both.

New Moon is… well, I don’t think we’ve really gotten any sort of indication that he’s having trouble reconciling with the reset. In fact, I don’t think we’ve gotten ANYTHING in regards to how New Moon feels about the reset. I did SAY that in the previous post but it was more me waxing poetic and less concrete proof has been provided that he’s struggling with any emotional turmoil due to the reset. At most, maybe he’s stressed with all the stuff that he’s dealing with all at once?

Like, yeah, he’s annoyed and disturbed by the actions of Old Moon and he thinks Old Moon was a dick but like… does he see that as himself? As a different person? Does he ever think about it at all? Is it on his mind a lot, or is it just something he’s reminded of sometimes? Like, Old Moon is just some guy to him people bring up, or whose stuff he has to sort through sometimes. We’ve gotten nothing as far as I can remember. I don’t think we have any perspective on how New Moon sees the reset at all. We don’t know at all. NOTHING. Which is funny because I really did think, well this was such a huge event for us and for the show, there’s gotta be something unresolved there for New Moon but… I don’t know? It feels more like, considering the way he’s reacted when Sun has brought up stuff Old Moon has done… Like, when Sun talks about stuff Old Moon to New Moon did he says things like, ‘you used to do’ or ‘you did before’ or ‘when old you’ and New Moon always just kinda seems to go ‘huh’ or get quiet, sometimes correcting Sun ‘well I can’t do that now’ and then the conversation moves on. At the very least he must know Sun sees it as Old Moon or previous version of Moon and New Moon or current version of Moon. I can see that causing some contention no matter how New Moon perceives Old Moon in relation to himself.

He’s stressed out because he’s juggling a lot of plates right now, for sure. I mean, he was basically just born and now he’s trying to save the world from six different angles, on top of re-learning/learning everything for the first time. I’d be a little irritable too. But I think that that’s it. He’s at most annoyed and a little burnt out, but all that previous trauma is gone and it’s gone for good, if the most recent lore ep told us anything.

Suns isn’t. Obviously, lol. In fact he kinda called this out himself, that Moon just got to start over and Sun doesn’t. Which is going to cause contention from Suns side.

It’s a mess.

Earth is a TREASURE. I love her. She’s a wonderful character and I’m so happy for her inclusion in the show. She fits so well into Sun and Moon’s dynamic, she’s like a piece that was always missing that no one knew about. Had I more time, I’d talk about her for awhile, because she’s such a sweetheart.

But I agree with literally everything you said in the paragraph about her and Moon. I couldn’t say it better myself. Her being around to help contextualize New Moon’s formative experiences alongside Sun has definitely been a massive factor in his changes.

It makes me curious about her relationship with the creator. The Creator refers to her as daughter and Sun and Moon as mistakes (Though he also talks about her as an object, much like he does the others, tools he created to do things. Even so, he is miles more respectful towards her than he is towards Sun and Moon). If she’s anything like Sun and Moon she was ‘raised’ in the sense that she had programs written into her, but her experiences after she turned on were what shaped her current personality. She is SO MUCH MORE well adjusted than Sun and Moon. Does he… love her? She refers to him as father and is defensive about his actions towards Sun and Moon, she took care of him. It makes me super interested to leanr even more about her ‘childhood’ so to say.

I like Earth.

There’s a lot to grieve about in regards to New Moon. I know a lot of folks were holding onto the idea that perhaps there was a way to return Moon’s memories and I’ll admit I was one of those people. But with what amounts to a concrete confirmation from Golden Freddy alongside just the fact that it happened at all, I think it’s safe to say that Old Moon, ALL of Old Moon is gone. There’s more to say about it, but that’s a longer discussion for a different post.

I did not remember that detail about the reindeer for Lunar! That’s perfect. Also how did I not think of Cherrim for Sun?? It’s literally the perfect Pokemon for him! It’s whole gimmick is the sun AND it’s rays look like petals just like Sun’s rays, I LOVE that. Perfect perfect perfect.

[randomshyperson]

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Hiii, ik it's been a while sorry about that pooks but I watched it, they're so cute, Bobbie is so pretty I'm gay lol, and honestly same I haven't watched all of them bc I mostly watch the wlw seasons sorry not sorry, but Evak season it's just so good also I love how the use social media I think that's one of my favorites things, abt the vilde/Nora season oml actually that was the only one I watched besides the gays, but I genuinely don't like the Nora and other guy relationship it's so icky I'm sorry, and vilde is so cute I'm sorry I forget the name in Spanish I'm so bad with names, also the special clips with Joana that last season ate fr, and I too have beef with skam France 😒 and about the new fic

Ok so maybe I'm a bit dumb, but are we dead on the WandaVision fics, bc most of the time, I like to believe we for some reason, situation, circumstance we just grew apart yk, bc it's too sad to imagine we're actually dead, unless the fic very specifically says so, but, I want to know what you say dear author

-🐜

Oh my god, I love talking about Skam so it's your fault I got carried away and this got long.

YES, Nell Cattrysse (Bobbie) is insanely beautiful, both girls are in fact but that's no surprise because Skam has a talent for finding these supermodels for their roles, I remember seeing the Norwegian version as a teenager and being speechless at how beautiful Noora was. But anyway, I'm glad you liked the seasons!! I love knowing that someone else liked it, because it's my favorite series ever and I don't have any friends who watch it to talk about it. I can't judge you for going for the gays seasons, I think you're absolutely right actually. Time is precious and we must always prioritize queers' narratives. In the Spanish version, I think it was the intention that the couple (Nora and the toxic guy whose I don't remember name) gave us the ick, she would only be with Alejandro (the William of this version) at the end, and I heard something about the directors having decided on the narrative of an abusive relationship for Nora precisely because Norway William was toxic and the relationship was not well worked on. It was a dig at the original, I would say. In the end, none of the straight couples really interest me in almost any version. For me, the best Vilde to date is from NL Skam, she was very sweet and I feel so bad that she never got her own season. Druck's Vilde (Kiki) has the most striking personality and was very shippable with Mia (Noora in this version). MY BABY JOANA I HAVE NOTHING BUT PRAISES ABOUT HER - I can hardly believe she had a happy ending that didn't ignore the difficulties of her illness. And she was so beautiful in the extra scenes, it was so special. And I think we all have problems with Skam France, right? I still can't believe that of all the couples, the sapphics were the ones they separated. It was really frustrating. Good thing fanfics exist.

NOW SPEAKING OF WANDA -

I didn't think of an exact plot for these rewritten scenes; they are just one-shots really. Reader replaces Vision in the story and that's it - In one of them I mention that Reader is on the other side of the world being stitched back together giving the idea that the original was really dead but I didn't really think about any plot. We can pretend that Y/N is a representation of Wanda's love and grief created by the stone as Vision was, it is really the choice of whoever is reading. If I'm ever going to do a series about Wandavison, I'll definitely start from scratch and ignore these ones haha

now this is too long so byee <3

[aubins]

TOA Anniversary Munday!

Celebrating TOA and the people who contribute to make our group what it is.

Repost, don't reblog. Only fill in what you feel comfortable sharing!

Happy anniversary, TOA! Here's to many more years spent together.

NAME. darcy, but i also go by elio in other places

PRONOUNS. they/them

BIRTHDAY (NO YEAR). january 9

WHERE ARE YOU FROM? WHAT IS YOUR TIMEZONE? sea & gmt+8

ROLEPLAY EXPERIENCE. i couldn't give you an exact timeline tbh i do it very on and off for the most part

GOT ANY PETS? not at the moment!

FAVORITE TIME OF YEAR. there aren't really seasons where i'm from, so more generally my favorite time of year is the start of it! something nice about seeing the year turn over i think

SOME INTERESTS AND THINGS YOU LIKE. my life is a constant cycle of consume new media > fixate on said media > repeat so my current interests really depend on what i've gotten into recently haha (rain code right now i fear) otherwise some things i always like to talk about regardless are atla, orv, ace attorney, and specifically venti from genshin & ryuki from somnium files. i'm sure there are other things that i can't remember rn tho haha. in general, i also like math, reading & writing (i mean. you know LOL), photography, and music (i play the piano)! i also just like to learn in general

SOME FUN FACTS & TRIVIA ABOUT YOU. i speak three languages, though i can only confidently say i'm fluent in two. my mandarin has unfortunately suffered from years of disuse

WHAT NON-FIRE EMBLEM GAMES DO YOU PLAY? ace attorney, somnium files, rain code…there is a pattern here lol but those aside, other games i like that come to mind are 13 sentinels: aegis rim, hades, pokemon, and honkai: star rail

FAVORITE POKEMON TYPE & POKEMON. fairy types & ditto :] i just think it's a silly little guy

HOW DID YOU GET INTO FIRE EMBLEM? my brother came home with fe3h one day and i decided to play it too because he seemed like he was having fun

WHAT FIRE EMBLEM GAMES HAVE YOU PLAYED? fe11, fe12, fe16 (+ hopes), & fe17! though i got a little bit through awakening before i stopped, and i've watched play throughs of the tellius games & sov

FIRST FIRE EMBLEM GAME. three houses

FAVORITE FIRE EMBLEM GAME. i don't know if i would say i have a specific favorite to be honest

ANY FIRE EMBLEM CRUSHES? hm, not really? if i had to say one, maybe yuri, but that's in part gender envy i think haha

IF YOU'VE PLAYED THE FOLLOWING GAMES, WHO WAS YOUR FIRST S SUPPORT? WHO WOULD YOU S SUPPORT NOWADAYS? — THREE HOUSES. claude…probably yuri these days though haha — ENGAGE. technically no one because i immediately reset it after, but i gave the pact ring to veyle before i did

FAVORITE FIRE EMBLEM CLASS. mages are fun! in general i just like magic conceptually

IF YOU WERE A FIRE EMBLEM CHARACTER, WHAT WOULD BE YOUR CLASS? i used to do archery so probably an archer!

IF YOU WERE A THREE HOUSES CHARACTER, WHAT WOULD BE YOUR AFFILIATION? i am heavily biased toward the golden deer because they were my first route haha but i'm an ashen wolves liker at heart so probably between those two

IF YOU WERE AN ENGAGE CHARACTER, WHICH EMBLEM WOULD YOU ENGAGE WITH? ooh…byleth? goddess dance is silly methinks

HOW DID YOU FIND TOA? i was struggling a lot with my writing at the time and stumbled upon the heart & soul ad on twitter! it was rather serendipitous timing i think

CURRENT TOA MUSES. one mister yuri leclerc

WHO WAS YOUR FIRST TOA MUSE? IF YOU DON'T HAVE THEM ANYMORE, COULD YOU SEE YOURSELF PICKING THEM UP AGAIN? my first muse was the lovely marianne von edmund :] she is very dear to my heart which unfortunately means i was very hard on myself when it came to writing her so probably not, but i think of her time in toa fondly

HAVE YOU HAD ANY OTHER TOA MUSES? caeda very briefly from when i first picked up the archanea games, and est whose app i wrote on the spot in the middle of the night after rereading her base conversations & supports

DO YOU THINK YOU HAVE A TYPE OF CHARACTER YOU GRAVITATE TOWARDS? i'm sure i probably do, but i wouldn't be able to put my finger on it myself. i think the process that happens for me when it comes to muses is that i find characters with certain aspects that i find interesting and would like to explore, then i learn to write them. and very rarely a character will just hit me over the head with a steel chair (yuri and est namely for muses i have/had in toa haha)

WHAT DO YOU BELIEVE YOU ENJOY WRITING THE MOST? i love exploring a variety of relationship dynamics, though antagonistic relationships and found family in particular are my favorites (paw against the glass for the ashen wolves..) and i like writing the disparity between what a character thinks internally versus what they would actually express externally. more generally, i really enjoy writing combat!

FAVORITE TOA-RELATED MEMORY. i think any silly rng moments with the dice. two that come to mind immediately are est & sirius whiffing their attacks against one another in arena and, far more recently, waking up to yuri immediately getting bodied in team zofia. those made me laugh a lot haha

HOW DO YOU PRONOUNCE TOA? by the letters! t-o-a

GOT ANY DELUSIONS THAT DIDN'T SEE THE LIGHT OF DAY THAT YOU'D LIKE TO SHARE? fun fact of the day is that edelgard was going to be my first muse before i got intimidated at the idea of writing a lord mfksldjflskd i unironically have delusions of writing sommie haha but otherwise i have half-written apps for clarisse, both solm royals, lysithea, and shez

[heroes-fading]

hello good morning you have altered my morning with your fic and here are my point by point thoughts

“Love is being there, it’s being solid, it’s being nothing like the back of a man he hardly remembers the face of now.” this line?????? not to trauma dump but as someone whose dad left her 🤪 I’m in so much pain over this one line because yes!!!!!!! it’s not that at fucking all 

“Joel isn’t his father. He’s worse” notes app apology right now. 

no bc Joel bringing up not leaving Ellie but I know this mf says the “You’re not my daughter” line and I’m balling my fists ready to Fight bc as someone (again not to trauma dump) but who has had something similar said, Ellie is better than me I would not forgive as easily LOL 

all I am is crying over the “You’re not my daughter” scene and Joel convincing himself he has to leave her god it’s too early to be hysterical 

“He hopes it’s not a death sentence” well. it’s not Ellie’s death sentence (TLOU2 stares in the distance) (hey let’s think about when that happens and leaving her and he can’t even do anything about it)

thank u for speeding up the forgiveness timeline bc my GOD nothing hurts me more than knowing it was Years they were distant

once again you have hurt me with taylor swift. joel is my emotion support father figure and this fic is the case and point. but this was SO FREAKING good you amaze me

this is me giving you a hug

joel is truly an emotional support father figure for the Community at large. we saw a mass murderer with attachment issues and went "yeah that man? that's my father now. thanks." a bunch of adults and teens went "yeah this is making me mentally ill again i can't wait to write and read a bunch of Scenarios about Fatherhood".

(fun bluestoplights lore -- my dad's dad actually bounced on him before he was even born, probably borne out of an affair. dude went on to become a heart doctor with a building named after him, had kids, married a few times, died nine days after my dad did when my dad was fifty-three and the guy was in his nineties...never once checking in on my dad after he got sick...my dad never said a word about any of it -- he just so happens to look exactly like the guy and i did internet research on obits with nothing but a last name that isn't ours -- but i think a lot about how he tried to show up for us and hung in through hell for the sake of his kids when his dad never once did it for him. add that in with my own deep seated fear of becoming my mother...YEAH oh i put a little flavor in here of my own trauma that's what makes the broth complex i suppose. i don't believe in 23andme or whatever but if i did i could make those kids' lives exciting. everyone loves family trauma!)

anyway, i think every time we write in this lil pool together we're putting bits of ourselves in there. not in the cannibalism way. just the trauma way. so to feel solidarity with that, to explore those feelings in a safe lil space, is so meaningful so i'm glad it resonates and i'm glad we get to feel these feelings together.

[clotpolesonly]

Tag game tuesday: The MySpace Survey

tagged by @mzkora!!! <3

What’s your name: Jess(ica)

Sun sign: leo but like, just barely 😂 idk what being a cusp means but i'm one of those, like first day of leo

The last song you listened to: i haven't listened to any music today except for one of those musical comedians, this one was about a guy whose friend was flirting with his dad and it was a banger lmao, twas hilarious

What are you wearing right now: the practical all black outfit i've been wearing (unfortunately) for most of the last 3 weeks as i work backstage crew for a musical. usually i change between work and the theater, but my sister starts a new job today which means there will be commute time added as she comes to get me, instead of her being here right at 5, so we won't have TIME to go home and change and get food before we have to head to the theater, so i'm just cutting out the middle man and wearing it all day. this is the third weekend of performances though, show closes sunday, so it's the only time i'll have to.

How tall are you? 5’8

Piercings? only ears, and i don't wear earrings very often, really only for special occasions

Tattoos? i've got one tattoo, as a memorial for my dad who died in 2017. it's a snippet of lyrics from one of the songs he wrote, behind my left ear. i'm planning on getting a memorial tattoo for my grandmother who died in november(?? i think) but we can't currently FIND the drawing she did that i was gonna get. so. if we ever find that again, i'm gonna get it on my hip.

Glasses or contacts? contacts, all day almost every day for about 20 years now, i put them in before i even get out of bed in the mornings. i hate not having peripheral vision in glasses.

Last drink: water yum yum

Last thing you ate: a chicken and cheese quesadilla and a banana/strawberry smoooooothie

Favorite color: big fan of purple

Any pets? not any of my own. had cats and a dog growing up, and had a rat for a few years a while back, but they have all since died 😅 i'm not inclined toward all the upkeep required for larger pets, so no cats or dogs if i have to actually take care of them entirely myself, and i would be down to get another rat or two, but my sister was DEVASTATED when Freya died and refuses to be traumatized by any more pets with short life spans aldkfjg. so no more rats lol.

Do you have a crush on anyone? nope uwu

Favorite fictional character: currently i am deeply fixated on Declan Lynch, somebody send help

A movie you think everyone should watch: uuuuhhhhh A Christmas Carol, the musical version with Kelsey Grammer?? first thing that came to mind, very random 😂 but that version is a banger, i love the music, clearly the superior adaptation of the story

A book you think everyone should read: mmm gonna throw darts at the wall and say Two Dark Moons by Avi Silver, cuz i read it fairly recently and enjoyed it a lot?? idk, i want there to be a fandom for that, i went looking on tumblr for stuff about it and found a grand total of like two posts and was very disappointed lol. somebody else go read it so i'm not alone XD

The last place you traveled: i don't go anywhere aldkfgh. i think the last place i went waaasssss alabama? Mobile maybe?? fuck i don't remember, we went to the Winona Judd concert, wherever it was.

Something you’re looking forward to: strike for this show i'm working 😂 probably the first time i've ever looked forward to strike (the process of disassembling a show's set and clearing out the theater and dressing rooms, huge ordeal) but after dealing with these obnoxious fucking difficult to maneuver set pieces for the last month, i think i will greatly enjoy reducing them to piles of wood and screws.

And I am tagging: @adamprrishcycle @cheeeryos @alloverthegaf @alisonhales @mayonnaisetoffees

[zuckarr]

10, 12, 14, 19 for the vegan ask game~

40 Vegan Questions Ask Meme 🌱☀️🐰

10. What convinced you to go vegan?

I've lived most of my life with a typical rural family, we used to raise chickens and ducks and I loved them as a kid. I went on daily walks with the ducks in the backyard, and they followed me happily. They ate flowers off my hand and often fell asleep in my arms. I still vividly remember the touch of their soft feathers and the tiny teeth in their beaks. I used to hide in the chickens' shed because I didn't want to go to school. Knowing that the chickens loved to eat their own eggs, I broke one or two occasionally, unbeknown to my parents, and fed them. I also cuddled with them, named them all... but then, every December, my grandparents came and killed the animals for our roasted Christmas dinner. They even attempted to teach me, but I responded with loud cries. I didn't want them to die, and yet, I ate their flesh the very next day. And it felt wrong, even back then, as a 6-7 years old.

This feeling persisted in the back of my mind as a teenager, then as a young adult. But it was just sitting there, I wasn't doing anything with it; until one day, during a break from work, someone casually mentioned that one of my coworkers was a vegan. I had worked with this person for months, and yet I never noticed. A spark followed: it was like I had suddenly remembered about the vegetarian inclination I've had in the back of my mind for years, and I had finally found the will to know more about it.

So I googled 'veganism' and started reading - it took less than a week to make the choice. The last nonvegan food I ate was sushi at a chinese restaurant, where they had a fish tank with live fish inside. I looked at the dead fish on my plate, then at the tank. The answer to all of my doubts was staring straight at me. I went vegan overnight, because everything about it felt right and sounded undeniably correct. All of it resonated with my beliefs and I was overwhelmed with happiness at the thought of my actions finally aligning with my morals.

TL;DR - I went vegan because it always felt like the right thing to do, and simply finding the will to educate myself on it sealed the deal.

12. Are you dogmatic or live-and-let-live with your vegan principles? Do you lecture about your ideals to others unasked?

For now, I prefer to only share my principles with people who show curiosity. Most people tend to be quite opinionated on veganism, but they don't realize that they actually don't know much about it - and it's seldom a good idea to let them know about their ignorance. It's not their fault, though. I also wasn't educated on veganism before deciding to read into it. Live and let live sounds respectful enough, as long as I'm given the same respect.

I don't know if this will change, though. Maybe one day I'll tolerate less? People can really get on your nerves with the usual anti vegan stances, and maybe I won't be so nice when I'll have had enough of their shit. I know some vegans who concluded they wouldn't bother being nice any longer, and I can't blame them. Being a vegan attracts idiots debaters who will do their best to bother you lol. I very much prefer people who show interest and ask questions.

14. Is there anyone in the vegan community who inspires you - in attitude, recipes, vigor, etc?

Earthling Ed is a fantastic activist and a pleasure to listen to, Mic the Vegan is great for information and fun, SweetPotatoSoul inspires me with her gorgeous smile and delicious recipes, Nico & Louise make the best vegan desserts, Simnett Nutrition is wholesome and incredibly encouraging! Since we're on tumblr, it's impossible not to mention @vegance whose blog is a goldmine of vegan posts and @acti-veg whose blog is the most resourceful I've seen! Thank you guys!

19. What do you always make sure to have? List your pantry essentials.

OHHHHH YAY FOOD TALK! I've always loved food but even more so as a vegan! I can't be without soy milk or rice milk. I have to have one of the two or both. Pasta, rice and canned beans/lentils are also essentials. I love to keep some maple syrup, too. Kale and spinach in the fridge. A basket of various fruits would be ideal (especially kiwis and bananas). And of course, spices like basil, paprika, rosemary and cinnamon. The list could go on because I just love being surrounded by my favourite foods, but I think these are the ones I just can't be without!

Thank you for the asks! ♥

[theothersarshi]

Sometimes, my mother watches movies and gets ideas. Those ideas are not good.

I don't know how else to explain this.

I guess she's trying to explain some things to herself, or she romanticizes the past, or... I don't know. But whatever's going on, sometimes her fixing shows up into my life to bewilder me. Not in a good way.

It's not bigotry or whatever. It's just... odd.

Have a story.

My mom and my dad divorced when I was so young that I can barely remember them living together at all. I didn't care much. I mean, I must have, on some level, but on another level I cared way more about my mom being a mess. Dad, however... He's great in his way, but as a kid I quickly saw the advantage of rarely having him around. He's an absolute slave driver when it comes to homework, as my younger siblings can testify, and I have always been a selfish little shit. Seeing him more rarely meant he pestered me less and we got to do the cool stuff more.

Anyway.

My mother dated a bit, then found a guy and asked me if I was ok with him moving in with us. I said yeah, because, well, whatever made her happy and floated her boat (this is a very philosophical attitude for a <10 year-old, I'm aware).

That guy and I didn't really... interact. I can only remember us having a longer talk once, and it was during a half-hour trip when I was already in my 20s. I am aware now that this isn't precisely normal, but as a kid (and later a teen), he was just... there. I didn't think about it much. He was the roommate I was uninterested in, and who was uninterested in me. My biggest negative interaction with him was that he insisted a certain knife wasn't appropriate to cut bread with, even though it was; it was a 2-minute conversation and it stands out in my memory because we interacted at all, so that was unusual. (I can't name my biggest positive interaction. I dunno, he gave me money on my birthday? That was nice. Although I remember the fact, without having actual memories of the gift giving.)

Like. This is all. Mild annoyances. Roommates who don't have anything in common. I told my mom this repeatedly, because she would keep making excuses about why he wouldn't come over and visit me, and I was like, no excuses necessary because he's just the awkward roommate who would be sitting there quietly while we'd be talking about work, you know?

So mom decided recently that I need to be Reassured and she's been telling me that this he's proud of me.

"...what," I said. I would have felt less confused if she'd told me one of her colleagues at work was proud of me.

"He's always got this shine in his eyes when people ask him how you've been doing."

"O...k... Good for him, I suppose, if it brings him joy...?"

Like, again. We never interacted. This wasn't him trying to connect with me after who knows how many years or whatever. This is a man whose phone number I have in case mom forgets her phone home and has him call me, or I call him to get her whereabouts. He doesn't call on my birthday or Christmas, lol, which is something I've only realized now that I wrote that thing about the phone number.

And mom's "fixing" is getting to such an absurd degree. I've tried telling her I don't know him, I don't care, and it's fine, but she's insisting.

"He told me that he couldn't really get close to you as a kid because he's also divorced, and every time he looked at you, he remembered he had his own daughter whom he couldn't be near, so it tore him apart..."

Ok... As a kid I didn't care, but as an adult I have to say: what the fuck, that is the shittiest excuse I've ever heard to treat a kid as non-existent. We're all lucky that I just have no fucks to give if people leave me alone as I enjoy being, but he's a shitty person, you see that, right?

How. How is this making anything better? I don't have any beef with the guy. I don't have any good feelings for the guy. I just don't care. Why should this change? Why solve what doesn't need solving? Why stir shit when it doesn't need stirring?

As I've said. Bewildering fixing.

[hoghtastic]

About Nightwatch, there was a story (I honestly can't remember whose) back late last October/early November that said they were having a wrap party for the movie. There were stories with Alex, Fanny, and the GOT guy (I can never remember if his name is Nicholas or what, but I know I'm close lol sorry) and some other actors who I didn't recognize. I assumed they were finished filming it then. Also, I swear I read somewhere that Alex didn't have a big role. I've searched the world over for that and can't find it now. The GOT guy did post about the movie, and I think Alex and Fanny had a story or two in addition to the cute story of them talking about, "Where's lunch?"

Also, the 1st movie was released internationally and I'm hoping that means this one will be as well. The film festival in London makes the chances of this look promising. 🤞🏼 Would be nice to see him in something new.... anyway, that's my 2 cents...not even sure if it was helpful.

Thank you for adding to the discussion about “Nightwatch”, anon! 😃

And yes, you were pretty close! 😆 The GOT guy is Nikolaj Coster-Waldau.

Also, you’re absolutely right! Since the first movie was successful, let’s hope this one will also get an international release, so we can all watch it worldwide. 😊

[castle-dominion]

c4x15 pandora

Liveblog

oh I feel like this is a little bit plot heavy but not really

THIS one is the who killed markiplier episode with a billion causes of death! Ye! tho tbh I remember this one & it is kind of intellectually stimulating & I am not on my meds yet this morning, I just took my meds I forgot last night & I want to give it some time in between to prevent nausea

MR: Oh, you’re making me your fabulous pasta Carbonara. Ohh, you shouldn’t have.

RC: I didn't

Castle is so allowed to be concerned for his baby's internship

(I've seen gifs tho ik what it is)

Your better half lol martha

MR: Ah, ah, ah, ah. My lips are sealed.

RC: Then you won’t be using them to eat my…pasta Carbonara.

MR: (sigh)All right. Well, let me say this. This internship has my personal Seal of Approval.

RC: That doesn’t make me feel any better.

hellacious? that a word? Is it the 80s?

LP: No I.D., but lots of causes of death.

RC: You mean, other than gravity?

LP: Oh, yeah. See that bullet wound?

[Lanie shines a light on the corpse.]

KB: So, he was shot before he fell?

LP: And stabbed.

KB: Shot and stabbed?

LP: And choked, and has a pencil jammed in the side of his neck.

RC: ouwa!? Gives new meaning to the term “overkill.”

JE+AC: *don't make eye contact don't make eye contact don't make eye contact*

RC, leaving, absent-mindedly: Hey alexis

AC, approaching Dr Parish: Hey *don't look suspicious don't look suspicious*

RC:

RC: ALEXIS????

jdshafkjshdfjk great interaction

RC: It’s—I just—I don’t know if you should be exposed to crime scenes and dead bodies.

AC: Oh, I’m already used to it. It’s equal parts gross and cool.

LP: I heard that and I couldn’t agree with you more.

You really don't bleed that fast. & if you're wearing clothes it wouldn't happen like that. I've even done autosurgery & it would be hard to get a trail of blood that bloody.

He did not stand there for "a minute" he stood there for like two seconds while he opened the door, judging by how close the other droplets of blood are

KR: *talking abt the case* *watching the video* ,, Hey. Pretty cool about Alexis’ internship. *looks at castle* Or Not.

tbh I would totally keep the sandwich in my hand when it is in the air & I'd bring it with me

Ooh holy crap ryan's jacket is navy blue with black plaid-type stripes patterning it & it's pretty af, & then he's wearing a nice light blue shirt with no tie. I wish we got to see more of Luke Reichle's pants & shoes. That man is the bomb.

She's so calm talking abt her kidnapping & murder threat

Tina Massey: All he told me was that the man doesn’t exist.

Cut to LP: The man doesn’t exist as far as I can tell.

more broken bones than Evel Knievel. You’re not gonna believe his x-rays. I WANT TO SEE THE X-RAYS LETME SEE

Espt is looking nice today. Deep red maybe burdungy dress shirt & tie, grey jacket.

& Gage is gone!

Look up! Look up! People never look up!

Nice music

RC: Okay, hang on. Listen to me. I’m glad you weren’t there, because the kind of person who took John Doe’s body is the kind of person who wouldn’t think twice about hurting whoever got in the way.

That is the truth

VG: I assume he snuck out of the back exit.

KR:

JE:

KR: Actually, he went out through the front door

They call them blues, huh. Like how us chefs call them our whites.

btw I can't help but think that his name is phineas gage, the guy with the railroad pipe in his head or smth.

Whose desk is that??? Why is espt not doing this on his own computer? Why was he standing hunched over instead of sitting? Esp since he sits down now?

caskett outfits are also pretty btw.

Hold on the bullet is still in her head. She was shot in the back of the head & since there is no huge horrible exit wound or any exit wound at all, the bullet must still be in there. But where did all the blood come from? She is still bleeding out her nose but that would not have been enough blood

What is with ryan's shirt today? It seems pink but the collar (nice wide collar btw) is white.

Stay put to keep an eye on the body lol

Steaming cup of tea, sus.

& she lost her gun many times but always gets it back & it's ryan who is traumatized by 3xk having his gun

LP: Crazy. [...] The fact that Richard Castle, a man unburdened by regret and guilt, has a child that carried the weight of the world.

Well there was the time drug sellers stole their body

LP: Bodies just don't disappear

*enters a house with no body*

omg a NUMBER PAD for floors?? You have THAT MANY?

wait older bro said that the hospital he works at has number pads too nvm it can't be that much

*sexy lady walks up to castle*

Are we going to get to see Agent Gray?

So it's the detective beckett of the cia.

lmao treason is punishable by death? Screw that. U shouldn't be allowed to kill people & treason is a weird concept in the first place.

Thomas gage speaks 11 languages? I want that. He speaks english, german, french, spanish, portugese, greek, russian, arabic, cantonese, mandarin, urdu,

the cia: *does all the crap they did, a lot of which is a matter of public record*

The cia: *surprised pikachu when someone goes rogue*

Y'all sent ONE person to go pick up gage?

Becks has cell service down here?

Beckett you probably SHOULD have asked if u could answer seeing as you're in the cia & all

JE: She has a notation in her day planner, but all it says is....... *finds it & clicks on it even tho it is literally one word & I'm sure he could have remembered* “Pandora.”

Wow spies how sus.

What work have they done? Y'all are insane & stupid & lmao these spy stories are so weird & stupid.

Girl no you are not the cop here

RC: Ooh, wait. I’ve gotta see those direct-dial icons they put on our phones.

*beckett's has a CIA logo; castle's is a panic button*

ngl I feel bad for gates

Walks right thru espt lol

KR: So, seriously, what’s going on?

KB: Guys, I’m sorry. We really can’t talk about it.

JE: Come on. This is us.

*Beckett gives them a look*

*They turn to Castle bc they know they won't get it out of beckett & a musical bass plays*

RC: No. Hey, sorry, boys. Classified. Top secret. Our eyes only. Defcon 1. & if I did tell you, well, *looks them up & down* then I’d have to kill you.

JE, stepping forward a bit: Yeah? Good luck with that.

RC: Yeah, realistically, that’s not—

JE: I’m gonna go on record and say that this sucks.

KR: Sucks.

Mum def noticed the chess clock

castle adhd moments

woah that is pricey af! I'm glad I live in canada where we have space

Ew. It's like that tiktok trend where girls that are "not like other girls" show off by talking cars. Who cares? Cars are boring to me but cool to you good job have fun but I don't care. I like rocks & minerals & rocks are a dirty boy thing but do you care? no!

who laps whoM

Castle's right

Car phone?

Oh lol. *69?

Whoa ok that was fast & seemingly risky. I watched that at 1/16 speed & still idk what's going on it's so fast

Why phones on the ground tho... please don't break them ugh ok fine whatever. That's spy stuff for you

KB: (whisper) Castle. *Beckett turns on her flashlight. She finds Castle cringing.*

KB: Castle, what are you doing?

RC: Bracing myself to shield you from a hail of bullets. *goes back to cringing*

KB: Yeah, well, that’s very gallant of you, but you can stop bracing. I think he left.

RC: Oh. Man, my life was passing before my eyes. I think I lost track of time.

Punch out the tail light?

Aren't you supposed to tell people where you are going now?

KB: ... You pressed the panic button, didn’t you?

RC: Well, if there was ever a time to panic, I think this was it.

KB: Yeah, especially since it was Detective Ryan who found it.

Sophia Turner: By using all the coolest toys.

Just like Jesse or Jacquie or whoever the fbi lady was.

Edit:Jordan shaw

What if it was a call NOT to new jersey or OVER 60 seconds?

Math guy? Tracy was a math fellow too

lmao spy shit & USA shit

As a deaf person: no

Tracy played chess

Sus girly

*says their plan right in front of the cia elevator boy*

that would be a sad job you're a highly trained spy & your job is to stand in the elevator

surprised her hair is that nice

RC: I’m not in a--… How did you find out about that? No, wait. Let me guess. Beckett to Lanie to Alexis to you.

RC: Is nothing sacred?

MR: Not much.

What if it is not a chess play maybe it is people & locations

JE: I found one from ten years ago. Tracy and a bunch of her grad student friends went on a white-water rafting trip with a Dr. Blakely, their professor, although it wasn't a good time for him. He drowned during the trip.

*Esposito hands Beckett the accident report.*

KB: So he faked his death and Tracy was in on it.

JE: WHO faked his death-- BLAKELY??

[ugh the way his voice cracks a bit on "blakely" oof]

*Esposito grabs the report back.*

KB: Uheuah… I'm sorry. I can't tell you.

JE, shaking head: You know, a man can only take so much.

RC: She isn't my partner. You are.

That little smile he loves her

I don't want to ask a question.

*asks question*

sus

Vulnerability assessment...?

Big bro didn't realize this was POST 2008

y u asking abt the linchpin? He wouldn't trust u

dun dun dun & then he dies & then the car goes omg bro open a window before u go under

aaaand they're under. If you are in a car, you must open the window BEFORE you get under the water.

Ok that is the end of the disc. I just watched the blue butterfly & I saw the commentary recently too so I won't be transcribing that today. The deleted scene is good tho. Alexis is talking abt all her internships & says she's going to apply to them all & whichever ones she does NOT get into, well, good. It eliminates them for her. Good idea.

Welp that was fun. I might go back & film some clips to post obsessively now.

[knowlessman]

bnha ep 10-13 I think. oh yeah, the big boss guy, that's what was up. handface. professor facepalm.

(watching OP) author really said "I am going to make a character that is the most hateable little shit. I'm gonna make sure nothing about either him or his design is likeable. gonna put him in a fucking diaper." -- stg the most mid anime op I have ever seen this many times

League of Villains? not Every Villain Is Lemons?

greninja to the rescue! …did you really have to save him tho? -- see, not having to listen to mineta in english is like, idk, a third of the battle

they want to kill him because he is batman, yes

oh, he didn't even teleport them far, just to random parts of the dome 'XD

the name does stick : ]

stop giving this guy lines, why does he have lines now

'XD it cuts to three of the villains in the water while Deku's talking and you have two normal-ass-looking people and a fucking Cenobite

k thanks for sharing, worst character

oh stop being generous, froppy, you were always the only way anybody was gonna get off that boat and you know it

"episode 11: game over." well that's cheery. also I saw spy kids 3 recently, dang is that not a good movie but it isn't, like, not fun. they say "game over" so many fucking times tho, I did not remember that and was not prepared for it. fun guessing-game at the end tho where characters keep showing up to fight and only the ones that absolutely shouldn't be here get to have shots of them actually fighting. I wanna see danny trejo punch a giant robot goddammit. -- ahem. anyway. anime.

…so, todoroki. cool guy. how is a guy this cool in the same show as mineta, anyway?

'XD who is this silly goof? "audio girl used Aimed Kick! dumbass learned Volt Tackle!" -- jiro and kaminari. got it. also Quiet Metal Gear's quirk doesn't even benefit from her boobs being out, she literally just shat an entire rubber tarp out of her back, which was covered -- momo, right. also creators please just stop writing teenagers and then Doing This Shit, wtf

"when he overuses his quirk, his brain short-circuits" well that's a problem; he didn't look like he had much dumber to get

nooooo, not hat-n'-clogs D:

six-arm guy's secret ability: really good hugs

bakugo's learning to pretend he's got anything other than violence in his head when somebody calls him on it ("I'm gonna beat up that portal guy! not because he stood in front of me, but because if he's gone, the enemy can't escape"), and I guess that's character development?

he fuckin said the spy kids 3 thing. is that gonna be a thing here, too, have I been bamboozled

also yay for emergency exit makin his exit in an emergency, gotta love it

and now the other guy said it. maybe it's just this episode tho, they've said episode titles a few times

-- "'game over?' what are they planning?" to put sylvester stallone in a giant robot, by the sound of it

im sorry how long has this disaster dome had a bouncy castle in it

walk faster dude you're gonna go poof any second

"we got a Continue" maybe facepalm is just all arcade lingo and that's his deal. maybe his villain origin is that he tilted a pinball table too hard

gotta be at least one or two heroes here who do illusions, right? could be all might isn't even here.

walks right past Thirteen "sorry, Aizawa"

Kirishima. got it. the guy who reminds me of a certain danganronpa character whose name I also forget is Kirishima

o_o dang, this one-punch villain reject goes harder than I expected -- oh nvm lol he's just a freaky-looking namekian

"the joker is the good guy actually" -- "he's already figured me out?" elle woods what, like it's hard?

aye, the shonen way. all the chips, right now, they'll either come back later or they won't but that's a problem for a future that won't exist if the present isn't saved. -- I thought he was gonna blast mojo piccolo to bits, but instead he just blasted off again

…oh damn, I got confused and thought this was ep 13. welp. was figuring on finishing the season this sitting, so here goes

every time this opening starts and it shows deku in the school uniform I think I'm looking at yu yu hakusho or mob psycho or something, and I've never even watched those

jiro asking a libertarian with a hostage why he doesn't have a job, like that's a good idea

not missing the fact that we're seeing a villain stimming btw : / -- "these casuals are wrecking me, all might OP, plz nerf!"

"it might be the case that I can't move right now, you warthog-faced buffoon" (geddit, might)

holy shit it's mccrassidy overwatch how in fuckaroo did they get the rights to him

there's that spy kids 3 nonsense again

probably ain't much more dangerous than a villain who learns from his defeats and doesn't take it out on his underlings. wassit called, the Evil Mastermind List? that.

CAT PERSON. …the bell is a little much tho

deku: literally exists bakugo: "and I took that personally"

ayup. next season next time. maybe with less of a break between, but fucked if I ever know when I'm gonna do what. : |

[ineffablyat221bboilingisles]

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[michelleleewise]

Forget Me Not

Pairing: Loki x reader

Warnings: mentions of injury, sadness, depression, all the angst, very minor death ideation, mentions of memory loss, anger, minor accusations of cheating, mild swearing

Summary: After you left you try your to accept your Loki is gone, you just hope he's happy.

*the response to this was amazing!! It means so much to me that you guys read and share my work, and I'm so glad you like it. So, because I love you all (and with an insurmountable amount of peer pressure lol) I give you........part 2💚💚

Part one Part two-

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It had been three months since you left the tower, since you left your life behind and the pain hadn't lessened. The man you love haunted your mind. Some nights you would dream of you and Loki, cuddled on the couch and you would wake crying, others you would see him and Mellissa from that night in the kitchen, and you wanted to scream, hit something, burn everything. You had everything you ever wanted and it was snatched from you in the blink of an eye.

Last night, it was the latter. You woke up screaming as your sobs racked your body. Could you die from a broken heart? If so you yearned for it, if nothing else so the dreams would finally cease. You climbed out of bed, making your way to the tiny kitchen, pouring a cup of coffee before going out onto the porch. You sat watching the ocean, trying to clear your mind. You had settled on a small island in the middle of nowhere, only you and one small village on the other side. Secluded, peaceful, lonely.

Deep down you hoped Loki was happy, you had no way of knowing, deciding to go off the grid you had no way to contact anyone, it was better that way. You would never be able to love anyone the way you loved Loki, your heart died the day he didn't know who you were, you had become a shell of who you once were. You knew you were alone, and you always would be.

"Loki! Loki wake up!" Melissa half yelled shaking Loki awake "w...what is it love?" He asks rubbing his eyes. "You were saying her name again." She said glaring at him. "Whose name? What are you talking about?" He asked sitting up. "Y/n! You've been saying her name in your sleep for months, what is the deal?" She asked crossing her arms. "Darling, honestly I have no idea, I don't..." he said looking around. "Do you love her?" She asked "i....I don't know. I don't remember her before my accident, just that she took care of me after, and was kind to me." He said sitting against the headboard.

"I can't do this Loki, I can't be with you when your thinking about her." She said getting up. "Darling, please. She's gone now anyway, and Thor said she most likely won't return." He said getting up following her. He grabbed her waist turning her around "I adore you darling, you know that." He said hugging her, she sighed hugging him back. "I'm going to go get coffee." She said, pulling away getting dressed. "I'll be right there love." He called out as she left.

He sat on the bed, his head in his hands. "Why can't I remember you y/n." He sighed sitting up. His dreams had become flashes of you and him, cuddling on the couch, watching TV, making love to you, if they were dreams or memories He wasn't sure. Thor had told him before you left how much you loved eachother, but his mind was blank, nothing of you was there before the accident and now, you were gone and he couldn't even talk to you about it. He ran a hand through his hair, heading towards the kitchen.

The sounds of Melissa laughing drew his attention as he slowly crept to the doorway, seeing her and the soldier, standing very close, smiling at eachother. He was about to walk out when something down the hall caught his attention. "Thor, what are you doing?" He asked walking towards him. "I'm packing up y/n's things. Its been months, I don't believe she is returning." He sighed setting some boxes down. "Do you need help?" He asked "if your up to it, I would appreciate the help, stark wants all of this in storage." Thor said unlocking the door.

He walked in, setting a couple of boxes on the bed looking around. It felt familiar, comfortable. "Ok, I'll start in the closet, you start with the nightstands." Thor said grabbing some clothes packing them. Loki walked to the nightstand on the right, picking up a book of Shakespeare's sonnets, opening the drawer seeing a small dagger, a green blindfold and a picture of the two of you, the ocean behind you both, his arms wrapped around you as you both smiled at the camera. He packed the other things away, still holding the picture. "Thor.." he called out "what is it brother?" He asked coming up next to him.

"Maybe someday we can come here on our honeymoon." He said holding you tighter "we could stay in a cardboard box, as long as I'm with you Loki." You said smiling at him.

The memory flashed to the front of his mind "Thor, was i......" he started as Thor sighed "Yes, that was the trip you told me you were going to propose, you said she was the one." He said pointing at the picture "But it matters not, she is gone." He said going back to the closet. He slipped the picture in his pocket while Thor wasn't watching and continued packing.

He made his way to the desk, emptying the drawers into a box as he started clearing off the top, seeing an envelope with his name on it. He looked up seeing Thor packing the dresser before folding it and putting it in his pocket, he needed answers and you may have left them for him. They finished packing everything, stacking the boxes by the door "let's go have lunch before we move everything to storage yes?" Thor asked patting his shoulder.

They made their way to the kitchen, seeing Melissa was gone he remembered what he saw this morning "I'll be right back brother." He said heading to his room. Not seeing Melissa there either, he headed for the training room, peeking in he saw her and the soldier, sitting on a bench with her legs draped over his lap, her fingers combing through his hair. Loki slowly back out, leaning against the wall sighing before heading back to the kitchen. "What is wrong brother?" Thor asked handing him a sandwich. "I believe my beloved is going behind my back." He sighed sitting down.

"How do you know?" He asked sitting across from him. "I just saw her and the soldier in the training room." He said looking up as Thor nodded "I am sorry Loki, she was never deserving of you If im being honest." Thor said taking a bite as Loki nodded. He went back to his room that night after helping Thor, seeing Melissa packing her things. "What are you doing?" He asked closing the door. "I can't deal with this Loki, I need someone who loves me, not someone else." She said continuing her packing "like the soldier hmm?" He asked sitting in the chair as Melissa stiffened.

"Did you fuck him?" Loki asked glaring at her "you don't have to be so crude." She said crossing her arms. "Well?" He growled "No, I haven't. But he cares about me." She said "gives you attention more likely." He said rolling his eyes. "I'm over this Loki, enjoy being alone." She huffed, grabbing her box "I'll have the rest of your things packed and outside my room, I don't want you back in here." He growled as she got to the door "Oh don't worry, I won't be." She said slamming the door. He got up locking it before settling on the bed, pulling the picture and letter from his pocket, setting them on the nightstand.

He leaned his elbows on his knees, holding his head in his hands "Dammit! Why can't I remember!" He yelled as he felt his seidr pulse through him. He leaned against the headboard picking up the letter, turning it in his hands, hoping you had the answers he seeked.....

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[diedbutterflies69]

Will you stay?- Bang Chan imagine.

Contains: friends to lovers au. , Divorce, smut, fluff, blindfolding, oral sex, explicit sexual stuff etc . Minors don't interact.

Never once on your life, you thought you could get your shit together and laugh genuinely at the worst in world. falling out of love is worse but it's even more worse if it's your it's not you who fell out of love. Married at 22 and the honeymoon phase hardly lasted for a year and by the age of 26 got yourself labelled as a woman who sabotaged her own marriage in thirst of money. Your ex husband was bitter about your success even before you got married. He thought as a woman, you just did bare minimum and got yourself a high positioned rank by sleeping with one of the rich rags. You tried hard enough to hold on to that rotten red string , but he had the scissors and just cut you off. You weren't willing to sacrifice your career just because of his Immature mindset, yes you loved him, but can't a women love her own hard achieved success more? That's the question you wished to ask everyone who pointed there fingers at you. After divorce you didn't feel pain just numbness. Your self-hatred coming more stronger than ever, even hating the job, you tried Saving since years, getting life on track seemed impossible and at the end just quitted. Moved out of the city just to move back to your home town, the root of your real pain. It wasn't really a town but rather a more flashy city, expensive shits which you were unable to afford in childhood but now it wasn't any big deal. Earth is round and sometimes precious people find you all by themselves. Your highschool friend, the only friend you had throughout your lifetime because of your anti social tactics.

Bang Chan, the social butterfly who almost knew every single student in whole school, he was the hottest guy you ever saw in your life and also the kindest. You had crush on him even before you both were friends, he was your senior,used to help you with those shitty math sums, crack jokes every now and then and scolded you whenever you procrastinated. He came to congratulate you even on your graduation day, even though there were many more students whom he met you were still glad atleast someone bought you a beautiful bouquet of tulips and bellflower. The last time you saw him was before you moved out in search of cheap collages without informing him, as you thought you were just one of many friends he had and won't ever notice someone like you existed.

But god, how much wrong you were.

You met Chan after almost 9 years in convince store and his reaction was almost priceless , like finding treasure. He was now more handsome, beautiful and god-like even after all this years his style of dressing didn't Changed much, he still looked like Kim Kardashian at 2021 met Gala. nevertheless his smile still had those healing properties with his Cresent moon eyes. He was absolutely stunning.

The first sentence he spoke after confirming your identity was 'I missed you' and then tons of lectures and questions . Knowing how narrow-minded you were he gasped dramatically. Cheesiest ways of saying how could I forget my best friend and so on. That day was probably the best day of your life and maybe even the day after years you really smiled. You both exchanged numbers and addresses and his home was just 10 minutes away from yours. Destiny indeed.

Now it's been over 7 months since you met Chan again and he never made you felt like you were just one of his 109 friends. Chan made you feel special, after knowing what kind of disaster you faced he was even more supporting of you, you both used to spend weekend together watching variety of shows and movies going to stargazing, best friend goals. After many years you knew even if Chan had many people to confide with he never really did. He was alone, just a night owl obsessed with work. You were happy. And he was happy too. Being just friends was enough for you, but not for him . He was slowly trying to find courage to confess his love to you. He liked you fuck from highschool days. He found you once randomly staring at him across the room and when you suddenly disappeared all his fantasies were scattered, he knew your dreams and was willing to help you with your every step. knowing how messed up your household was from your neighbours he felt guilty for not being able to give you happiness. He loved you, but was helded by his own insecurities.

Not anymore though, he wasn't the same coward who just stared at the love of his life from distance. Being the extra human he was, he bought you one of the most expensive restaurant of the whole country, man was loaded. After driving for almost 5 hours you both finally reached there .

Now a nervous Chan sitting infront of you. You being oblivious to the fact that he has a beautiful diamond ring and a confession to make. Chan handed you the menu card and every single dish had an extraordinary name, without much thought you placed the order.

"atleast tell me now, why are we here?" You asked the man infront of you who was behaving extra weird today, he looked sick and was occassionally asking you random questions.

"No reason, I was in mood for long drives and... You know have a nice meal" Chan said fidgeting with his fingers he was acting like a flustered high school guy it was clearly indicating that he was lying but you didn't really care, Chan was weird sometimes.

"Sounds fake, but okay. By the way you aren't sick right?" You asked Chan out of pure concern as he was sweating profusely even in an cold AC room.

"I am fine, just feeling a little hot. Don't worry", Chan said it was more like he was convincing himself that he was fine and shouldn't worry. He wasn't a teenager but a human with responsibilities who once again fell for someone out of his league, he used to think that and he still sees you as a literal goddess. While he was lost deep in his thoughts, the waiter came with food , and this was his opportunity to shoot his arrow. You both started eating and talked like being in paradise.

"did you liked anyone in highschool?", Chan asked you out of blue making you almost choke on food. The only person whom you liked throughout your highschool days was the guy sitting infront of you and you didn't really remembered much guys and the best answer was probably saying a lie with little truth.

"no one lol", you answered trying to sound chilled but since highschool crush topic was out you weren't able to keep your curiosity with yourself.

"What about you, liked someone?", You asked trying to sound nonchalant and not desperate and bitter.

This was the Exactly the conversation that Chan planned in his mind. And here started his way to either heaven or pit of rejection.

"I loved someone", Chan said and you this time you really choked from the depth of your heart, you thought Chan was anti romantic type of guy as he never talked about of his female friends with you or bragged about his non existent dating life. Trying again to not sound jealous or bitter you spoke again.

" Who was that lucky bit-- I mean girl yes girl? Who was she?", You asked, almost letting out the bitch loudly. You weren't sure but you saw Chan smiling cheekily, he was really getting old acting weird more and more everyday.

"Well... Someone from our school",Chan said and you swear you didn't made a disgusting face showing pure jealousy. The best human in your life and your first ever crush had crush on somebody, you didn't knew why you were feeling so fucking bitter but you weren't able to handle the curiosity anymore.

"Tell me her damn name", you asked Chan in a frustrating tone not being able to keep jealousy to yourself.

"Why you being angry", Chan asked followed by his small laugh.

"I am angry, just the food was a little spicy you answer me now, her name?", You answered Chan with your defenses up and still sticking with your previous question.

Chan in response got a little serious now,you thought he was being childish now, he wasn't a kid who was given a dare to name out his crush yet he was acting like one.

"You won't leave me right, I mean after I answer your question?", Chan asked you and you didn't knew what to say in response you were now a little sus about him.

"fine don't answer, keep secrets", you said and continued eating. The next thing Chan said made you now choke and die on food.

"I loved you and I still love you" Chan said looking down at the table head hanging down like his teenage self just confessed he watched porn infront of his parents. You were shocked, frozen and the your heartbeat 10x faster, you didn't knew how to react and tried to find humor in this extraordinary situation.

"Chan, you kidding right?", You asked Chan with a nervous smile on your face. Chan looked up at you , his eyes trying to find yours but you avoided the eye contact.

"I am serious, I liked you from HighSchool times, I saw you for the first time in library when you were looking at me, I swear you were so beautiful and even now after all this years after seeing you I can't, I can't help but fall for you all over again, sorry"

Chan confessed, his voice filled with sincerity and vulnerability his sentences were scattered here and there and incomplete explanation but still you understood everything he really poured his heart to you, you felt like crying even if you both weren't such stupid cowards back then, then today you won't have turned out a divorced women and Chan a guy who grew out lonely even if he had a world for him.

"What should I say Chan?", You asked Chan you were sounding like a girl whose bf told her to breakup even if the situation was exact opposite. Even if you love Chan , you didn't think about him reciprocating same feelings back to you. You were beyond insecure with your love emotions. One thing was sure you won't be able to love Chan without being a bundle on him. Your emotion Baggage was too big and you didn't want Chan to get his heart too with your stupid emotions.

"I love you and I will be really really good to you. Please try staying with me I will try really hard to earn space in your heart, please?" His confession was like literally begging. You weren't able to believe if he was real or not, if it was a dream that will end as soon as cruel morning comes, this felt like fantasy. Chan was a amazing man, he had everything money ,honour ,beauty a nice heart. He was like a character written by women so perfect so delicate yet strong, and he loves you this fact was enough for to lose your mind. but you thought you were a taint to his beauty, you were a character full of inferior complexes and a person too easy to dislike thats what illusion you made about yourself. A random extra in her own story.

"I will pay the bill, let's talk later", you said and walked away immediately to pay the bill leaving a clueless and disheartened human behind. Chan was able to see how you stopped yourself from saying love you too and throwing yourself in his arms. He wasn't same from HighSchool a guy who gets overwhelmed by his own emotions and gets unable to see others. He knew you had atleast a small space for him in your heart and to make a big room for himself he had to throw out all your insecurities and self hatred. He followed you like a lost puppy and he wanted to pay for food but you already did and now you were already out of restaurant searching for his car to get back.

Chan sitted beside you, without doing anything silence and awkward air surrounding you both.

"start the car", you said breaking down the silence, you were extremely worthless and trash as you made the only one person whom you love feel like nothing.

"Just answer me, will you try dating me please", Chan said his voice again passing draggers into your heart. Trying to form any logical explanation you spoke again.

"I am not looking for relationship right now, see Chan you are amazing, but I can't make you happy now and did you forgot that I am divorced, please understand" you said expressing your real insecurities and fear, fear of not being able to keep a man happy.

"you don't want relationship because you divorced that fucking trash of a man?", Chan asked he was getting frustrated you thought but he just wanted to make you happy and not deny what your heart wants.

"my mind isn't stable, I might just irritate you everytime with my mood, you will will get tired of me and leave me -- I don't want to be alone again I will die if you leave me", you confessed tears threatening to fall out of your eyes there wasn't any doubt that you loved Chan he filled the void in you in just months made you happy but you didn't wanted to just take and take and give nothing in return. Chan's hand found yours interlocking your fingers with so much delicateness that you might cry.

"you think so low of me, just stay by my side I will make you so happy that you will hardly get time to think about your past, trust me", Chan said his fingers slightly lifting your chin up to look into your eyes, you looked in his eyes filled with so much care and this was your last straw before breaking down in his arms.

"I love you, I love you so fuckin much, you were my first love my only friend, my everything, please-- please love me", you confessed tightening your arms around Chan, his scent making you feel safe and like home, his one caressing your hair and other wiping away the tears. Even though the scene was more like a dramatic clique scene whatever emotions you both felt was unexplainable.

"So you my girlfriend now hmm?"Chan asked you for first time in night his voice containing pure happiness and excitement.

"I have a sexy boyfriend", you said smiling from ear to ear against Chan's chest. The label boyfriend making your heart flutter, you didn't knew happiness like this can even exist.

"My love", Chan said his voice sweeter than honey, suddenly the night was more starry."now can we go home?" You asked Chan finally breaking the hug, reality hitted you now Home was 3- 4 hours away.

"I made a reservation in hotel, we gonna spend night there", Chan casually said making your heart jump out of your chest.

"pervert, you planned everything seriously", you said dramatically and giving him a playful digusting look.

"I booked two rooms", Chan said now starting the engine making you feel embarrassed. "Who is pervert now~" Chan said in air teasing you more.

The rest of the ride you both talked about anything and everything. Confessing how you used to find ways to always be in each others vision etc. Both of you finding a new thirsty side of each other. Nothing felt uncomfortable, it was happiness those inhumane laughs crazy tricks you both used to pull everything was heaven. After some time you both reached infront of a gaint hotel , it looked expensive af but regardless Chan knew how to waste money and you were tired of lecturing him about savings.

"let's go", Chan said removing your seatbelt and getting out of car to open the door for ya. He was being so cheesy gentleman and you were enjoying every minute.

"room 42 and 43" Chan said to the receptionist and she handed two keys to him. Thanking her then getting on elevator, you were a little disappointed that you weren't sharing room with Chan, yes you were pervert and total simp for Chan, he was too hot and your sexual drive was getting higher each passing second. The elevator doors opened and you got off. Chan handed you the room key and softly kissed your forehead, both you wished it was your lips.

"if you want anything, just knock okay?" Chan said in his lovely tone, I want you you internally screamed, nevertheless you gave him a nod and got inside that expensive room .

Starring at the ceiling while lying on the bed your mind was full of Chan, you knew he wasn't probably sleeping and was wasting time in watching random shit on internet and you were hungry, hungry for Chan, it wasn't your fault that Chan was so hot. Trying to fall asleep and fidgeting here to there you finally decided to knock on Chan's room door. A danger zone. You noticed how the door flunged open in less than few seconds.

"Hi" you said scratching back of your head and trying to think what next to say.

"Hi..?"Chan said being confused.

"there is cockroach in my room, let me stay with you" you said a clear white lie. Taking impulsive action were never good for you.Chan sighed before opening the door fully and signalling you to come. This was your happiest day ever.

"whY you lying", Chan asked you as you plopped yourself on sofa besides bed. He asked the sentence in a sarcastic way.

"Do you you wanna kiss me?", You asked Chan with a straight serious face catching him off-guard, you didn't wanted to waste more time, you wanted to do everything with Chan, yes fucking on first day of dating was a little too early but you fantasized about this gorgeous man since ages, in your eyes he looked total dom but his reaction to your question was making you doubt your thoughts.

"Are you sure", Chan asked you clearing his throat.

"Are you virgin?"you asked Chan, he was being too nervous.

"Obviously not"Chan answered you in duh tone, rolling his eyes. And it was getting awkward.

"The cockroach must have gone by now I should go, bye", you blabbered and got up ready to leave, you were about to open the door but Chan grabbed your hand and before you knew anything his hands were on your cheeks cupping them softly and his lips so close to yours, Chan's eyes were looking straight in your orbs , your heartbeat stronger than ever.

"Can I?", Chan asked your consent his thumb softly brushing against your lower lip. This man had totally made you insane, something stirred inside you. Chan was perfect he was everything you wished. You gave him a small nod and slowly his lips touched against yours, you wanted to cry, his lips felt so good, he didn't rushed his movements everything was happening in slow motion, he holded you with such a vulnerability like he was afraid that you will go, your hand reached his head, fingers moving through his soft locks. You felt his tongue inside your mouth , you felt a electricity run down your body when the kiss deepened.

We kiss again. The next kiss is the kind that breaks open the sky. It steals my breath and gives it back. It shows me that every other kiss I’ve had in my life has been wrong.

Breaking the kiss Reluctantly in need of air, Chan rested his forehead against yours. He was hot almost like burning, sweating.

"Why are you so nervous, Chan?", You asked Chan hugging him tightly clinging like the last leaf to the tree.

"I am scared, I just love you", He said engulfing you in his arms. And you Finally felt, what real love feels like.

"Love you too", you replied softly.

"Do you wanna continue..?"Chan asked you his tone little less scared.

"Off course", you said looking at him with smile, something inside you told it was okay to let out your freaky side infront of Chan. Chan smiled back and suddenly turned you around , the large bed infront of you.

"Lie down there",Chan whispered in your ears , his low register sending shivers down your spine. This was exactly how you pictured Chan to be, your inner submissive almost died. You followed Chan's word and laid on your back on the bed, now you were feeling like a virgin. His eyes roaming through the room in search of something.

"Are you okay with being blindfolded?", Chan asked you as he came back with the tie he wore today and was rolling it slightly in his palms, and you swear you never saw a man so hot in your entire life. Getting blindfolded was one of your unfulfilled kinks.

"ye- yes", you replied your tone filled with thrill and excitement. Chan came back to you standing near you, his hand softly cupped your cheeks , before bringing the tie to use it in sinistrous way tonight. The cloth felt strange to your eyes, his cologne smell hitting you and Chan caught your shy smile, His heart felt so fluffy. Tieing a comfortable knot Chan sat on bed near your waist. His hands slowly crept near your stomach leaving a direct lingering touch on the sensitive skin, eventually going upwards while giving a little squeeze to add stimulation, his hands reached your boobs, you didn't wore bra, and he wasn't surprised maybe your nipples perked up enough to get noticed, his middle and index finger Rolling your sensitive bundle of nerves, the blindfold making his every touch more intense, your breath was heavy you let out a suprised moan when Chan gropped your right boob in an erotic way, this sole action increasing your wetness down there you were getting impatient. You moaned his name a little loudly when his lips came in contact with your sensitive neck, sucking in a painful way, inorder to leave a hickey.

"Should I touch you here", Chan asked you as his hand reached to your area where you needed him to the most, hands going directly inside your panties ,but not touching he was a teaser.

"yes please", you moaned almost breathlessly too tired of intense foreplay. You just wanted Chan to rip off your clothes and fuck you till sunrise. Getting satisfaction with your answer Chan finally removed every clothing of your lower body, leaving you completely bare, all at his mercy. His finger moved up and down on your opening , the wetness making Chan easily slip his one finger deep inside you.

" my baby is so wet, because of who?", Chan asked you as his finger was moving slowly inside of you and thumb rubbing circles on the bundle of nerves.

"because of.. you", you admitted without any hesitation trying to grind yourself on his hand, begging for more.

"Good", Chan said and without saying anything he added another finger inside you moving a little faster inside your cunt, rubbing your walls with a little pressure, scissoring them inside you painfully and making way for a third finger too and by then you were a complete moaning mess, his fingers were pleasure yet torture the blindfold making your senses weak. Mind full of whatever Cham was giving you. Your legs were shaking sign of your orgasm approaching you, by one hand Chan holded your thighs tightly to their place fingers now moving more faster to make you reach the peak of pleasure.

"Chan.. I--I-I-- wanna cum please", you moaned your little squeaks and begs almost making Chan's cock cum right inside boxers. With some final thrust of his fingers, you cummed the hardest you could imagine, squeaky sounds coming as Chan was fingering you through your orgasm, you almost crying from overstimulation. Moaning his name like a chant.

"you did well",Chan praised you finally removing his fingers from you leaving you empty, but it won't have last wrong. Chan removed your blindfold , the bright lights hurting your eyes, you adjusted your vision and the image of Chan sucking his wet fingers coated with your liquid came directly in front of your eyes. Letting out a helpless whine.

Chan plopped himself on knees on either side of your thighs, finally letting his cock out, leaking with precum, and he was big, thick , you didn't thought he could get even hotter.

"Ready baby?", Chan asked you as he fully undressed himself as well as removing your top, your mind hazey . The scene which you pictured since highschool finally happening.

"yes", you replied Chan, he came down to kiss you passionately and slowly entering inside you. You moaned painfully, tears pulling your vision, it was a painful pleasure. Chan kissed away your tears and hand interlocking with yours after finally being fully inside you he started to move at slow pace.

"you feel so good Chan", almost screaming from pleasure, your whines were fuel to Chan's ego and he increased the pace. Body slapping sound filling the room, his groans were most sexy thing you ever heard. Again and again his tip hitting your deepest spots.

"I am close", you moaned out breathlessly, pleasure becaming too much to handle .you released around his cock, reaching the peak second time at night.

After giving a few more thrusts Chan cummed at your stomach, he was still sane enough to not curse you with kids while being lost in pleasure."I love you", he said as he settled beside you hugging you tightly. This was heaven.

"love you too", you said , your voice a little hoarse.

"by the way I forgot that I bought a ring to propose you", Chan said, realisation hitting him, that he forgot to say the long ass paragraph that he was supposed to say while sitting on one knee. You smiled at his guilty face.

"don't worry, propose me after having shower", you said heart filled with pure joy and happiness . Happiness of knowing that You love someone who will always love you back.

[cigaretteparfum]

that wasn't a question.

so the story goes: Musa (also known as Moses) was just vibing when this rando asked, "who's the smartest person around here?" and the 14th Islamic major prophet out of the 25 major prophets said, "why, me ofc."

and this got god aka Allah so pissed so god was like, "chill with the arrogance a bit. there's actually someone sooo much smarter than you like. fr."

so musa was like, "wait, legit? can i meet him though? like i actually want to learn from him." so god told him to go this particular spot bringing this particular thing both of which i forgot bc it's not that important to the core of the story. some sources say he went alone, some said he went with his bestie whose name i also forgot. point being: musa did as he was told, and he met my blorbo of all time Al-Khidr. or just Khidr for short. sometimes also spelt as Khadir or Khidir.

NOW KHIDR. i cannot tell you enough how committed this man is to the bit. but i guess when you're like. one of the only four people god granted immortality you just gotta find ways to entertain yourself right. well anyway.

Khidr told musa (yes Khidr's name will be the only one consistently capitalised from here on out bc i only love him That Much) that he's not going to take the prophet for his internship because. musa's a bit of a hot-head. and man's simply won't be strong nor patient enough to deal with Khidr's antics (FORESHADOWING) but musa was like, "no, no, dude. i got this. trust me. i'll handle it." so Khidr was like, "well. all right, but you can't question me no matter what and if you do, three strikes then you're out." and musa, not knowing what he's walking into, was just all like, "lol yea sure. no probs."

so the two began their journey, right. and the first thing they had to do was cross this big river or a lake -- can't remember which -- and they hired a boat with this boatman, who Khidr just proceeded to absolutely stab in the back once they got close to their destination by making a hole in his boat and sinking the whole fucking thing. and musa was like. "that. that's fucked up. why'd you do that???" and Khidr was like. "dude. one strike." so musa was like, "shit, ok ok no more questions. that was weird and fucked up 'cause this is the only source of income for that boatman but all right."

they continued walking and got into this town where they met two poor orphaned kids who, despite can barely feed themselves on a daily basis, still hosted the two prophets in this old broken house their parents left them, which was also pretty much the only material thing they owned aside from the clothes on their bodies. Khidr and musa ate, slept, and chatted with the kids. then the next morning, right before they left, Khidr just absolutely demolished that fucking house making these two orphaned kids homeless. imagine that!! musa lost his mind, obv-fucking-iusly, and man was all, "WHY'D YOU DO THAT? AFTER ALL THEY'VE DONE--" and Khidr just said, "two strikes."

that got musa to shut his mouth so the two continued their journey despite all his internal grumbling and questioning. honestly props to musa because at that point idgaf that i spoke face to face with god after trying to lead my people out of slavery i'd just fucking dip. but the man kept his faith in god, who told him Khidr knows more and better than he does, so he kept following Khidr despite everything else.

after they left the town, the two met another kid that Khidr -- that stone-cold motherfucker Khidr -- just killed the first chance he got. absolutely no hesitation man went for the jugular and he went for it literally. well that is it!!! musa can't keep his silence anymore! so he started berating this guy that could've been Adam's direct grandchild or something and he was like, "I'VE HAD ENOUGH!! WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT?!" and Khidr just went, "third strike. see, told ya, kid."

then Khidr proceeded to explain everything that he did -- as some sort of a parting gift, i guess. he said:

"when we were on that boat, i saw bandits following behind. they would've stopped the boatman on his journey back, take his boat, and kill him. i sunk the boat so that he could at least survive.

when we were on that house, the parents actually stashed some wealth for the kids to inherit. they haven't found it yet, but the townspeople would soon enough. and when that happens, they'll take the inheritance and sell the kids into slavery.

finally, that kid back there would grow up to be a murderer. i killed him, so that the lives of the people who would kill in the future can be spared.

any questions?"

and musa pondered this for a long while, and he was like, "but how could you know?" and Khidr just went, "eh."

the story ends with musa admitting that he isn't as smart as he thought and this guy god pointed him towards whose actions just seemed absolutely bonkers and sadistic actually ... kinda have a good reason for it? so the two parted with musa a changed man forever with more wisdom to his mind, whilst Khidr just stayed ... Al-Khidr.

and that's the buckwild story of Al-Khidr, one of the four immortals in Islamic lore, one of the only few acknowledged prophet outside the main 25 prophets, and Musa-slash-Moses.

thinking about al-khdir and musa again.