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robotsprinkles · 1 year ago

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my mum likes to do this thing where she'll say "you're an adult now so you can make your own choices and if you disagree with me or your dad on our decisions you can tell us"

but the moment I say "hey. I want to take a gap/break year from uni to get myself in order and build the skills I need and recover from the last few years of everything"

she goes "yep. nope. you can't do that [insert whichever reason she's decided on this year]"

and I'm just sitting here wishing she 'd either stick to her word or just. not lie to me for once.

#I'm not arguing with her on this because arguing with her has never gotten me anywhere on anything #also her argument that ''pretty much everyone learns on the job or picks up the basics and fundamentals in class so you don't need to spend #a year prelearning everything'' would hold water if I were a remotely competent or functional person #but the only period in my life where I wasn't outright failing my way through school was the period where they made me go to knockoff kumon #to prelearn all the crap from the next two years #so. y'know.#anyway it's really fun knowing all the possible solutions to my problems and what I need and being unable to do any of them #because for all her posturing and claims that I can make my own decisions and choose what I want to do none of her words hold real truth #(well. her words about me being able to trust her and me being able to make my own choices.#her stated disbelief in scientists and belief in conspiracy theories and her antisemitism and queerphobia are honest)#like yeah sure I *shouldn't* need a gap year. but I do. because I'm an idiot who can't do anything

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