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srvphm · 2 years ago

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oh no the guy you dated for less than a year before having a kid with most of which was spent doing coke and smoking inside is not a good father, the guy who went to prison for crimes against a child, the one you’re completely financially dependant on and have no way to leave, who has physically abused you before and refuses to communicate until he explodes at you, he’s not a very good man maybe. who would’ve guessed, who could’ve possibly seen this coming.

#I love this person I genuinely love my friend #and I would do anything for him and his child #but JESUS FUCKING CHRIST WHY DID HE HAVE A KID WITH THAT GUY #like were the signs not all there?????#I feel responsible somehow #for not idk for not encouraging him more to leave the man who hit him #to please calm down on the baby fever and idk spend a year without trying to kill himself before he has a fucking kid #at the same time that wasn’t my decision to make. it’s his body his choice to have a child #but MAN #he’s in such a fucking bad situation #like his life was never good. he navigated crisis to crisis to trauma and more trauma #but I always had hope that he could make it out. that he’d find stability. health. peace. heal #now I genuinely don’t see how it’s gonna get better #cause he can’t put himself first anymore. he has a child #which yeah ofc he should. thats his responsibility as a parent and he gets that #he’s a damn good father #but . we’re in our 20s we’re meant to have fun and heal from our teenage years #its like he skipped that part to have a midlife crisis right now #I feel terrible I hate his man and I resent his choice to have a kid #and seeing him (my friend) makes me fucking depressed cause all he talks about is how bad things are #but I can’t abandon him #but I also kinda. don’t like to see him anymore.#it just fills me with regrets and rage and despair #and I can’t even really be happy when he talks about his kid and how much he loves him #cause all I see is how he’s trapped in this life now forever #I miss when he’d ask about my life too tbh #all I do is listen and listen and listen to all his problems #and he keeps repeating them like a broken record like he hasn’t told me the same stories a thousand times #my life is easy next to his so I kinda. feel like it’s not my place to interject when he cuts me off to talk about himself #idk man I’m stuck. stuck in his life along everything else. trapped in the mess.

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