#to not lose <33 as tho it wasnt obvious

[femmefaggot]

ok well im telling you that you need to have serious discussions about formatting/etymology/existence/etc while also actively talking about feelings. what is not fucking clicking.

[hurtmeg00d]

1. Are looks important in a relationship? Im confused on this question

2. Are relationships ever worth it? Yes... but make sure that person is worth all the hardships..

3. Are you a virgin? No..

4. Are you in a relationship? No..wont be until my aching heart is healed

5. Are you in love? Yes but im in love with someone who no longer cares for me ..someone who’s moved on and i look pathetic for begging them to come back..aint ever did no shit like this before

6. Are you single this year? as of now and for years after now, yes.

7. Can you commit to one person? Of course, why date if you aren’t working towards that?

8. Describe your crush : Its more than a crush.. this man is strong-willed, stubborn, passionate, driven, and everything you could ever want in a man.

9. Describe your perfect mate : Id rather not

10. Do you believe in love at first sight? In a sense yes, vibes are real, but its unlikely

11. Do you ever want to get married? Yes, that’s a goal of mine

12. Do you forgive betrayal? Honestly....i only give chances to those willing to continue to fight for me ...there’s a point in which it can become insane tho.

13. Do you get jealous easily? Yes, as fuck, but i hide it.. i want you to show me who you really are ..

14. Do you have a crush on anyone? I think its obvious

15. Do you have any piercings? Duh

16. Do you have any tattoos? Yes, 2, on both arms

17. Do you like kissing in public? Yes, but not to the point where we’re making others uncomfortable.  

20. Do you shower every day? Shiiiiit twice sometimes three times a day, i could live in my shower.

21. Do you think someone has feelings for you? Nope, I know for a fact.

22. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now? Why would they lol.

23. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat? Of course, longest relationship was 2 1/2 years and THEY cheated on me the whole time... thats a horrible feeling.

24. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years? Ha... with the ways things are going rn in my non-existent love life, NO.

25. Do you want to be in a relationship this year? If its not Jbaby then fuck no, everyone can fuck off for all i care, im stuck.

26. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you? Yes but did they make the effort? No. Didn’t mean jack shit

27. Has someone ever written a song or poem for you? No

28. Have you ever been cheated on? Almost every relationship, ALMOST.

29. Have you ever cheated on someone? No

30. Have you ever considered plastic surgery? If so, what would you change about your body? Every woman has, but just workout.

31. Have you ever cried over a guy/girl? Ha. Are you kidding? im the king of sorrows

32. Have you ever experienced unrequited love? Yes numerous times.. i love too hard..

33. Have you ever had sex with a man? Yes..

34. Have you ever had sex with a woman? Yes...

35. Have you ever kissed someone older than you? I prefer 21+ so yes

36. Have you ever liked one of your best friends? Only once but we both didn’t want to ruin the friendship

37. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated? Ha yes 

38. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to? Oh wow, of course .. i never expect to because im so closed off

39. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have? Currently !!!!!!!!!

40. Have you ever written a song or poem for someone? YES.

41. Have you had sex so far this year? eh yeh

42. How long can you just kiss until your hands start to wander? I love foreplay, it just depends on my mood and how much im arousing the other person, i wait till i hear heavy breathing.

43. How long was your longest relationship? 2 1/2 years

44. How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had? My whole life i have 6 boyfriends and 1 girlfriend

45. How many people did you kiss in 2012/2013? One because thats when i had my first kiss

46. How many times did you have sex last year? What kinda question

47. How old are you? Nastyyyy Nineteeeen

48. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say? Thats their choice, what can you say?

49. If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, what is your favorite thing about him/her? Well i don’t but when i did, it was hard to pick a favorite thing when everything about him was perfect

50. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept? FUCK NO HAHA

51. Is there a boy/girl who you would do absolutely everything for? .....Yes

52. Is there anyone you’ve given up on? Why? Currently...i haven’t even tho i know i should.. he blocks me on all social media.. i uhh.. thats all i got for this question..

53. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are? Im not but if i was and there were, FUCK EM

54. Is there someone you will never forget? Yup....

55. Share a relationship story. I cant ...too sad....

56. State 8 facts about your body : nah

57. Things you want to say to an ex : He knows how i feel about him. I still love and adore you. You still have a home here with me. I pray for you everyday... need i say more???

58. What are five ways to win your heart? You can’t rn its out of service

59. What do you look like? (Post a picture!) nah

60. What is the biggest age difference between you and any of your partners? 4 years

61. What is the first thing you notice in someone? intellect 

62. What is the sexiest thing someone could ever do for/to you? For me? lol fight for me.. and to me? choke me the fuck out and call me his little princess

63. What is your definition of “having sex”? passionate rough love making

64. What is your definition of cheating? GIVING MF”S THE YOU THAT YOU GIVE ME

65. What is your favourite foreplay routine? Ayyyyy nah im not bout to say all that

66. What is your favourite roleplay? Never done that

67. What is your idea of the perfect date? Anything could be a date if youre just spending time with that person

68. What is your sexual orientation? Bisexual

69. What turns you off? inconsistency 

70. What turns you on? a couple thangs

71. What was your kinkiest wet dream? not telling

72. What words do you like to hear during sex? ooooooh theres alot, just whisper a bunch of shit about how pretty i am, how im yours, and what you gonna do to me

73. What’s something sweet you’d like someone to do for you? i dont want anything... i do the giving

74. What’s the most superficial characteristic you look for? i dont 

75. What’s the sweetest thing anyone’s ever done for you? uh cant recall

76. What’s the sweetest thing you’ve ever done for someone? .....too much to write out

77. What’s your opinion on age differences in relationships? 5 years is the limit

78. What’s your dirtiest secret? hm

79. When was the last time you felt jealous? Why? eh 

80. When was the last time you told someone you loved them? last month..

81. Who are five people you find attractive? nahhhh only the one and only JBaby

82. Who is the last person you hugged? Mommmmmaaaa

83. Who was your first kiss with? Gio lmfao

84. Why did your last relationship fail? Because i suffer from PTSD and i wasnt mentally ready for such an amazing beautiful man to sweep me off my feet so i started trying to cope in ways that hurt him.. im a piece of shit for that but it was too late you know? I fell in love with him when i knew i wasnt ready and still gave it a chance and then ii fucked it all up...im getting a tattoo to remember it..

85. Would you ever date someone off of the Internet? no

[survivorbangladesh-blog]

EPISODE 10: “ELLIOTT IS A FLIP FLOPPING SNAKE (so am i tho) ” -Eddie

Yeah, about that dream final three with Eddie and Sarah, scratch that. It's now Sarah and Steph please and thank you.

oh................................................................ [11/9/16, 10:10:06 PM] Eddie Bracco: I’m sorry Sarah, but I just have the feeling in my gut that going with rob will be detrimental to both our games, he has literally flipped on every single person on this tribe. And my god tells me I have to do this. I really hope you can forgive me [11/9/16, 10:10:30 PM] Sarah: is rob going [11/9/16, 10:10:39 PM] Sarah: omg [11/9/16, 10:14:51 PM] Sarah: u just fucked my whole game over fuck you [11/9/16, 10:15:21 PM] Eddie Bracco: please come on call immediately with me [11/9/16, 10:15:28 PM] Sarah: no [11/9/16, 10:15:33 PM] Sarah: were not friends [11/9/16, 10:15:38 PM] Eddie Bracco: sarah come on call with me [11/9/16, 10:15:42 PM] Eddie Bracco: so i can explain to you [11/9/16, 10:16:13 PM] Eddie Bracco: Call  14 seconds [11/9/16, 10:17:04 PM] Eddie Bracco: Call  39 seconds [11/9/16, 10:17:10 PM] Eddie Bracco: Call – busy [11/9/16, 10:18:33 PM] Sarah: you had one chance and you fucked up [11/9/16, 10:18:35 PM] Sarah: congrats [11/9/16, 10:18:37 PM] Sarah: fuck you [11/9/16, 10:18:47 PM] Eddie Bracco: Call – busy [11/9/16, 10:18:56 PM] Eddie Bracco: Call – busy [11/9/16, 10:19:27 PM] Eddie Bracco: Call – busy [11/9/16, 10:40:56 PM] Eddie Bracco: Call  32 seconds [11/9/16, 10:45:49 PM] Sarah: WHY WOULD U THINK FOR A FUCKING SECOND THAT JOES FRIENDSHIP IS MOR EIMPROTANT THAN MINE [11/9/16, 10:46:08 PM] Sarah: HONESTLY EDDIE YOU SAY U FINALLY THINK FRIENDSHIOS ARE MRE IMPORTANT THAN THIS GAME BUT U KEEP FUCKING UO LIKE SERIOUSLY [11/9/16, 10:46:12 PM] Sarah: HOW FUCJIJBGTDARE U [11/9/16, 10:46:20 PM] Sarah: HOW FUCKING DARE YIU DO THIS TI ME [11/9/16, 10:46:22 PM] Sarah: FUFK YIUY [11/9/16, 10:46:24 PM] Sarah: FUCK OFF [11/9/16, 10:46:25 PM] Sarah: I HATE YIY [11/9/16, 10:46:26 PM] Sarah: NEVER [11/9/16, 10:46:28 PM] Sarah: SOEAK [11/9/16, 10:46:29 PM] Sarah: TOM [11/9/16, 10:46:29 PM] Sarah: ME [11/9/16, 10:46:30 PM] Sarah: EVER [11/9/16, 10:46:31 PM] Sarah: AGAIN [11/9/16, 10:46:33 PM] Sarah: EVER [11/9/16, 10:46:34 PM] Sarah: TEDDY [11/9/16, 10:46:37 PM] Sarah: WAS RIGHT AOIUT UY [11/9/16, 10:46:45 PM] Sarah: YOIU DOBT CARE ABOUT ANYIBNE BUT URSEKF’ [11/9/16, 10:46:49 PM] Sarah: HAGE FUNCKING FUN [11/9/16, 10:46:51 PM] Sarah: BUE’ [11/9/16, 10:46:53 PM] Sarah: FUCKING ASSHO,EL

ya idk what to do at this point bc the two people I trusted the most in this game are gone. What the fuck was eddie thinking when he made this move?!? Did he think I would forgive him for clearly putting joe before me? AND I LOOK LIKE A DUMBASS FOR THINKING HE EVEN CARED SO YEA. great. Fool me once shame on you, fool me twice shame on me so it looks like im the fucking joker. Congrats Eddie and Joe, you stayed for one more round. Fuck you both.

You'd think that she was the one that I idoled out not Ned....... [11/10/16, 3:14:37 AM] Sarah: ive literally been crying for the past 4 hours because I still dont know why you literally put joes game before our own friendship and deceived me like that. You didn't tell me, you made me lie to joe, you lied straight to my face for 3 days and now my game is over because of you and so is our friendship and im just really sad and as soon as ned went home because of you, i couldnt even enjoy my night out with aiden because all i wanted to do was fucking cry so congrats you blindsided me i really hope it was worth it [11/10/16, 10:02:28 AM] Sarah: still thinking about how you said you would never betray me over a game and you played me like a fool and i just want an explanation [11/10/16, 10:06:51 AM] Sarah: and if you think for one second if taking joe or elliott to the end guarentees you a win you thought wrong [11/10/16, 10:07:05 AM] Sarah: because no one in jury likes you [11/10/16, 10:07:06 AM] Sarah: like [11/10/16, 10:07:07 AM] Sarah: ????? [11/10/16, 10:07:10 AM] Sarah: wtf [11/10/16, 10:09:06 AM] Sarah: and dont even sit there and pretend this wasnt a plan to get me out [11/10/16, 10:09:08 AM] Sarah: like [11/10/16, 10:09:13 AM] Sarah: i know youre reading all of these [11/10/16, 10:09:18 AM] Sarah: so dont ignore me [11/10/16, 10:09:53 AM] Sarah: you backstabbed your bestfriend eddie...how is that a respectable game play. [11/10/16, 10:10:56 AM] Sarah: YOU LIED TO ME FOR 3 DAYS [11/10/16, 10:11:04 AM] Sarah: AND I WAS FUCKING THERE FOR YOU [11/10/16, 10:11:16 AM] Sarah: AND I SAID I WILL ALWAYS BE THERE FOR YOU [11/10/16, 10:11:21 AM] Sarah: BUT THEN YOU DID THIS [11/10/16, 10:11:26 AM] Sarah: LIKE WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT TO ME [11/10/16, 10:11:28 AM] Sarah: WHY [11/10/16, 10:11:36 AM] Sarah: YOU MUST REALLY FUCKING HATE ME HUH? [11/10/16, 10:12:18 AM] Sarah: and i literally cried all night because i just lost you as my bestfriend and i cant trust you ever again [11/10/16, 10:15:13 AM] Sarah: i know you're online and you've seen all of this so just fucking answer

SoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoO SAM AND I HAVE FINALLY COME UP WITH THE NAME TO OUR ICONIC SECRET FINAL 2 AND IT'S BONNIE AND CLYDE SINCE WE'RE PARTNERS IN CRIME AND WE'RE STEALING THE WIN FROM EVERYONE SINGLE ONE OF THESE PLAYERS LEFT IN THE GAME.                                                                                                               So I’m going to go to Sam about this today but so basically, since I played my idol on the Joe who was my rival and saved him when he was a dead fish in the water, he trusts me so much and wants to go to final two with me. So he told me that the Elliott has an idol and what I’m going to do, is have Sam go tell Sarah that the Elliott has an idol, and that’ll get Sarah to want to blindside him and Sam will play both sides while i pretend that I’m 100% with Joe and Elliott and i’ll have her tell Elliott and Joe that they are going to vote me but are going to tell us its joe to blindside me, so that Elliott feels 10000000% safe, and I’m gonna have Sam vote with them and blindside Elliott with the idol and ill vote with Joe and Elliott to not expose myself and then the next round Sam will flip back to take out Sarah because Elliott is a serious comp beast and he could go on an immunity run and this round is the perfect round to take him out because in the pressure cooker that just happened he took a temptation so he can’t compete in immunity and him going on an immunity run with an idol in his pocket is even more dangerous

EDDIE IS THE BIGGEST IDIOT OF THIS WHOLE GAME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HIM AND I WENT ON CALL AND THE REASON HE WENT BEHIND MY BACK IS BECAUSE OF THE PANCAKES AND I TOLD HIM IT WAS FAKE!!!!!! IT WAS ONLY FOR ROB NOT TO FLIP ON US AND HE FELT SECURE AFTER THE F5 OF SAM, NED, EDDIE, ME AND ROB WERE DONE HE WOULD THINK THERE WAS A CHANCE FOR HIM AND LITERALLY HE BLINDSIDED EVERYONE BECAUSE OF A FAKE ALLIANCE AND ITS LIKE !??????????????????????????????????/ WHAT THE FUCK ARE U DOING?????????!?!?!?!? WE HAD another fight on call because he doesnt listen and just talks incessantly without reason,....but the fact that i have to be nice to him for a possible jury vote is like ugh ew gross   anyways so girls alliance now + rob. I dont KNOW what to fucking do now and im just so fucking shocked at how eddie would literally blindside everyone for ....JOE? Like if he makes it ftc and im in jury im going to make sure he doesnt win at all. Hes so fucking ugly and yea im bitter. At least he sank his own egotistical big ass ship. I FUCKING HATE HIM HES SO DUMB I HATE HIM SO MUCH HE HAS EXCUSES FOR FUCKING EVERYTHING AND ITS LIKE EDDIE STFU YOURE SO FUCKING ANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNOOOOOOOOOOOOYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYING AND HES GOING TO SEE THIS AFTER THE SEASON BUT IDEC BECAUSE WE WONT BE FRIENDS :) I NEED TO CALL SAM SOON AND TALK GAME WITH HER AND FIGURE OUT WHAT THE FUCK WERE GOING TO DO BECAUSE AT THIS POINT ....SHES THE ONLY ONE I TRUST and now i have to make sure rob doesnt flip and make him know im taking him to f2 and do the same thing with steph and honestly after this blindside if i make it to ftc i better win because im truly the underdog who keeps losing allies and who keeps getting blind sided and my name is yet to get written down and its f7 nice.............. ugh smhsmhsmhsnmshsmhm joe is so ugly and so is eddie EVERYONE IS LOOKIN G FOR THE IDOL LIKE.....YA OK USE IT BITCH IDC FUCK OFF IM DONE

Whew, okay, so Final 9. I knew going into Pressure Cooker that there would be another tribal council either before or during it. So i brought the idea up to my "alliance" of Joe, Chris, Sam, Rob, and myself. We decide to go for Ned since he would be too busy to appear for Pressure Cooker, so there would be a shot he wouldn't be there for Tribal and therefore not be able to play his idol. So we get to Knight Moves which is kinda weird with 9 people, but there were a few things that were CLEARLY obvious that were happening. First, Ned, Eddie, and Sarah (pretty sure them three) all chose spots the were Joe's next moves, meaning they were clearly blocking him in and trying to keep him from winning. Which also meant that they were working together. It was also clear that Ned threw the competition to Eddie because there were multiple moves Ned could have made that would have ensured him like 3 more moves than anyone else. But Joe won immunity anyways which was hilarious. During the comp though, Sam and Rob flipped and decided to vote out Chris instead of Ned and not bother to tell me. So Chris gets blindsided which sucks cause like Chris was the last person I had in this game that hadn't actually lied to me (at least that I know of). Prior to him getting voted out, he told me his two clues to the idol which put the idol in either River or Marsh. I then won the reward challenge and got the third clue to the idol of looking for a low number. So then I knew the idol was in River or Marsh 1-4. The Brawn idol was in River so I felt that the merge idol would not be there. So during Pressure Cooker I start figuring out the idol. Joe and Eddie were yelling so much at each other that I knew they were planning on going much longer than I cared to go in Pressure Cooker. So I take a deal for F8 Immunity but can't play in F7 Immunity. I took that deal for a few reasons: 1) it was Immunity without having to beat Eddie and Joe. 2) If Joe won, Eddie could still play his idol and who knows who would have gone. 3) If Eddie won, he still could play his idol and who knows what kind of deal Joe and Eddie would make after I drop. 4) I had a very good shot at finding the idol. Then something extremely interesting happens shortly before Tribal. All of the sudden I'm given all of the power to decide who goes at Tribal. The plan was to blindside most people and have 5 votes on Joe and Eddie use his idol on Joe, they would vote Ned to blindside him, and I would vote Steph in case Ned played his idol. I don't think they thought about those implications when they decided the plan. I could have told Ned to play his idol and therefore save him, and I could have voted for someone else and that person would have gone instead. I was very tempted to do this, buuuuuuuuut realized that this was a moment to "build trust" with Eddie, Joe, and Sam (a new "alliance"). Ned was also someone I knew had that idol and also someone I did not feel I could beat later. He was also a comp threat and therefore a threat to me winning immunity here on out. So I decided to let the plan stay and have Ned get blindsided and vote Steph so the "alliance" thought I was fully with them. Voting Steph also allowed me to go to Sarah/Rob/Steph and tell them I had no idea yet again what the plan was and that I was blindsided too. Which Sarah has completely bought. I would feel bad if I hadn't been lied to and left out so much since merge. So oh well on them. So I find the idol right after F8 Tribal. This Idol is now the 4th Immunity I have had since Merge and I have only won one Immunity Challenge. The game has changed for me. I am no longer thinking how to not lose, or how to not get voted out next. I am now thinking about who does have to go next in order for me to win. I think I can win this game now. With that, I am now going on the offensive. In our "alliance" chat, Joe mentions not knowing where the idol is and that he hopes the other side doesn't have it. I mention i did not find it. I am the first person to look for the idol in merge. Joe is the first person to look after me. Joe's first place to look is Marsh 4, which is where I found the idol. So Joe knows I have the idol before he even messages the chat. But that's where he messed up. While not looking like anything overtly, he called me out for having the idol and not telling the group. Why he called me out if we're "together" I do not know. Which means we are not together. If we were together, then he would have politely asked me in a PM or call, and not in front of others. So I try and play that off the best I can, but the damage was done and I know Joe and probs Eddie are gunning for me. Eddie and I also have a conversation in which he claims the votes he know he doesn't have if he is in the Final 2. And what he said is true about the votes. But that's what makes him dangerous. If he knows he doesn't have the votes at the end, he knows who does. He also said that I am not a front runner to win this game. I am both flattered and highly offended at this comment. Flattered because my lying low is working. Offended because I'm pretty sure if I'm in the FTC I have a pretty good shot at winning. Taking the right people to the end with me, I know I have Drew's, Chris', Sarah's, Ned's, Sam's and probably Eddie's votes. So with all of that, Joe is my first target. I also know that Sam has to go in order for me to win. Ideally, I'd want to go to F3 with Steph and Rob. I think I could still win with a F3 of Steph and Eddie. Sam would split my vote, and I think Joe and Sarah have a fair shot at beating me in FTC. So that's what I have right now. I'd like to not use my idol at this Tribal, but I might have to because Joe might be up to some shady shit. I need to talk to Sarah more and figure out if Rob and Steph are okay trusting me with this vote to blindside Joe or Eddie. 

ELLIOTT IS A FLIP FLOPPING SNAKE (so am i tho) 

OK BUT BASICALLY HERES WHAT JUST HAPPENED [11/11/16, 8:14:38 PM] Eddie Bracco: [11/11/16, 7:29:35 PM] Eddie Bracco: Sam I just got off call with rob and did hella damage control and he told me something really big that has me shook jdfkjsnkjdj [11/11/16, 7:30:22 PM] Eddie Bracco: He told me Elliott went to Sarah about creating a final 4 with Him, Sarah, Rob, and Steph and them 4 going to the final4 together. And he told me that Sarah wants to do it. [11/11/16, 7:35:20 PM] Eddie Bracco: And I don’t think he’s lying about it because he also told me about the alliance that was created between you, Sarah, Steph, and him [11/11/16, 7:36:29 PM] Eddie Bracco: He also told me that Elliott told them that he has the idol and he couldn’t have made that up cause I had not told Rob that Elliott has the idol SO WE’RE SCRAPPING THAT PLAN THAT I TALKED ABOUT YESTERDAY IN MY CONFESSIONALS AND WHAT IM GOING TO DO IS HAVE JOE, SAM, AND I VOTE TOGETHER AND IM GOING TO TRY MY DAMNDEST HARDEST TO BRING ROB IN AN CONVINCE HIM TO BLINDSIDE ELLIOTT. ITS SUCH A RISKY MOVE BUT AT THIS POINT ITS OUR ONLY MOVE BECAUSE IF ELLIOTT REALLY WANTS TO GO TO FINAL 4 WITH THEM THAT MEANS HE WANTS TO TAKE ONE OF US OUT THIS ROUND FUCK MY LIFE Im in the bathroom right now relieving my body of all the toxins that I have filled it with today, and I think I just thought of the perfect way to convince rob to vote  elliott. 

I’m going to go to rob POSSIBLY tonight but I think it might be too early to do this tonight so I might do it tomorrow. And I’m going to bring up a conversation about who we should go after next. And I’m gonna let him tell me what he thinks and make him think I’m thinking about it and what not. And them I’m gonna be like “OMG ROB I THINK I JUST THOUGHT OF THE PERFECT PLAN” and I’m going to say what do you think about maybe taking out Elliott? And I’m going to tell him Elliott is really dangerous, he’s the person who is the best at comps, and he has an idol and he could go on an immunity run this might be our only chance to do it. BUT THATS NOT WHAT I THINK IS GONNA 100% CONVINCE HIM TO DO IT, WHAT I THINK WILL CONVINCE HIM TO DO IT, Is that I’m going to tell him that if we take out elliott this round. The next round will be Sarah vs Joe, and that Rob and I would be positioned perfectly where joe would trust me, and sarah would trust rob, and Rob and I would be in the middle and would be able to make the decision of which one of them is voted out. And I’m going to tell Rob, that if he votes Elliott out this round, as an apology for what i did last tribal council, I’m going to give him my word and swear on anything he wants me to swear on that I will do whatever he wants next round (which is a big fat ass lie). So basically I’m going to tell him that I will allow him to 100% make the decision on whether we side with Sarah or whether we side with Joe in the final 6. little does he know there’s no way in hell I’m not writing Sarah’s name down in the final 6 (angel)

"HOW DID THEY JUST STRAIGHT UP LIE TO MY FACE?!" I literally feel so bad for Sarah because she's SOOO MAD!! and I'm like YEAH SAME, but really I'm just like 'bitch I knew...' Sarah's gunna hate me when she finds out but like omg I can't believe how FLAWLESSLY I've been playing both sides. pretty soon I'm gunna have to pick a side I know but like they both think I'm with them, I'm not sure, if Elliott really did find the idol it won't be until NEXT vote, so at final 6 I'll have to pick a side, but like damn I went from the bottom to literally being perfectly in the middle from 10-6 Eddie told me that Elliott found the idol so if Elliott really found the idol, I find out who the #Blindsided alliance (me, Sarah, Steph, and Rob) are supposed to vote for and then I vote with them again but tell Elliott who to play the idol on and hopefully they vote for Sarah honestly because once she's gone Steph's vote falls to whoever, hopefully me honestly, then Rob is also kind of lost because he strikes me as the kind who really needs someone to tell him what to do but literally vote 10 I tell Sarah, Ned, and Eddie that it's gunna be Ariel and they think I'm with them so I'm gunna vote for her and keep their trust then find out who they're voting, 9 I vote for Chris and find out that Rob also voted Chris so I can tell Joe and Elliott that I found out last minute blah blah blah and literally Rob comes to me to make sure I'm not mad at him when I was planning on voting Chris before he even was, then for 8 I was already going to but Joe comes to me and tells me to vote him and tells me Eddie's whole plan when I literally came up with the plan WITH Eddie, and for 7 I can still vote with Sarah and all of them but tell them who to play the idol on, I'm so proud of just being able to play the middle for so long and I do feel bad lying to people and eventually I'm gunna have to turn on them but then I just remember that they all straight up lied to my face in the first two votes and purposely left me out even when I ASKED WHO THE VOTE WAS! so like fuck these people, I'm playing a cut throat fuck you game now and I'm gunna avenge Drew and Andreas's death! they did not die for nothing

CAN I JUST SAY I LOVE HER SO FUCKING MUCH I SERIOUSLY AM SO HAPPY TO HAVE MET HER IN THIS GAME AND THAT WE WORK SO WELL TOGETHER. SHE COULD LITERALLY VOTE ME OUT AND I'D SAY THANK YOU. [11/11/16, 10:58:10 PM] Eddie Bracco: I LOVE HER SO MUCH [11/11/16, 10:58:13 PM] Eddie Bracco: [11/11/16, 9:23:01 PM] Eddie Bracco: did he end up calling you? [11/11/16, 9:37:52 PM] Sam (Westeros Host): Yeah he did, he told me everything and literally has no idea we're together, we talked about me and him and possibly Elliott or someone else now since Elliott is being weird and I would NEVER want to go to the end with you :P blah blah blah other stuff make Joe feels like I'm gunna do whatever he wants [11/11/16, 10:35:44 PM] Eddie Bracco: I’m on call with him right now lol he told me everything you told me you told him lol [11/11/16, 10:46:38 PM] Sam (Westeros Host): I love it, he thinks he's this little messenger and it's like bitch we know [11/11/16, 10:56:22 PM] Eddie Bracco: JFDSJNSAKNALSK IM SCREAMING AT “ITS LIKE BITCH WE KNOW”

so apparently miss bitch Sarah is ready to get rid of me! her and Rob want me gone because they think I have a good shot to win the game, they're not wrong but like shhh don't tell people that! Thankfully, Eddie is 100% on my side and told me IMMEDIATELY! Eddie makes my life so much easier honestly because he's just there for me and I know that I actually have someone who's always got my back, it's nice. SO anyways, yeah Eddie told me that and then had Joe go and tell me all the same stuff because NO ONE KNOWS WE'RE TOGETHER WE'RE THE ACTUAL SECRET PAIR BEWARE! So yeah, Joe tells us that I'm the plan and Sarah wants to throw 5 votes on me 2 on Joe so Elliott should play his idol on me and then us three vote Sarah but as soon as he said it I was thinking that Elliott wouldn't want to use it on me because 1) we're not that close and 2) why would he trust that Eddie is telling the truth? if it were me I would immediately think it was a plot to get me to flush my idol and they vote me out instead and of course that's what he was thinking

CAN YOU FUCKERS WHO PLAYED THE TOUCHY SUBJECTS TONIGHT PLEASE TELL ME WHY I AM THE MAJORITY FOR THESE ANSWERS Who absolutely needs to get voted out next? EXCUSE ME? Who's the real puppet master of the season? ok.....but thats not ok for ppl to think Who do you think will win this game? :~) awe thanks but THATS STILL NOT GOOD Who is the shadiest player? @ ME NEXT TME BITCH Who will be the most bitter juror? I MEAN IT AINT A LIE Who mistakenly thinks theyre running this game? HOW U GONNA SIT THERE AND SAY IM THE “REAL PUPPET MASTER” AND I CAN WIN THIS GAME AND THEN SAY IM NOT ACTUALLY RUNNING IT!?!? ! Who are you afraid to betray? YEA THATS RIGHT! DONT FUCKING DO IT AND THOSE ARE THE ONLY ONES WE PLAYED I COULD BE IN MORE AND IM JUST IN SHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOCK and im sitting here like..........yall really gonna do me this dirty??!?! and these are the people im playing with............ NED WHERE ARE YOU? I MISS YOU WE COULD HAVE RUN THIS WHOLE GAME IF YOU WERE STILL HERE so anyways i called rob after immunity to congrats him I HATE HOW HE WON AND I CAME IN SECOND PLACE AGAIN FOR THE FIFTH TIME !!!!!!!!!!11 I AM LEGIT CURSED!!!! AND THERES ONLY ONE PERSON TO BLAME [2016-11-09 5:31:53 PM] julia: I am literally so sad freaking 15th place is like wtf [2016-11-09 5:32:00 PM] Sarah: sorry julia [2016-11-09 5:32:38 PM] julia: Its okay i hexed u to hell, so sooner or later you will bleed from your eyes, and your skin will randomly bubble and feel like i poured acid all over it JULIA PLS DKLJFDSK;LFJDSLKFJ ITS ENUF!!!!!!!!!!! ANYWAYS ROB AND I TALKED AND TBH I DIDNT EVEN PAY ATTENTION TO WHAT HE WAS SAYING because I was still shook about how i was literally the answer to all these questions fuck you alllllllllllllllllllll! but anyways eddie and I fought at the immunity which is so cute because we ended talking after :~) and GUESS WHAT1?!?!? SO like i lowkey hinted at eddie that i thot elliott had immunity which i already know but ya know and hes at the bottom rn and i dont want him going in all honesty because the way things are playing out sam and elliott are going to be sitting pretty and its like NUHUH BITCH NO WAY I think sam and elliott are lowkey close and theyre f2 but ANYWAYS Eddie and I came up with a plan to get rid of sam incase elliott plays the idol and even if he doesnt he def will next round after sam is gone!!!!!!!11 and i was totally worried about steph and rob not being on board but SAM GAVE ME GOLD TONIGHT AND MENTIONED STEPH AS A RANDOM THROW VOTE and im like THANKS SAM NOW STEPH WILL BE EASIER TO PURSUE AND now i just have to work on rob...which is gonna be hard so honestly pray for me BUT EDDIE IS GOING TO TALK TO JOE AND ILL GET BACK TO U YOU GUYS ARE PROB THINKING SARAH U LITERALLY CRIED ABOUT EDDIE BACKSTABBING WYD I HATE MYSELF THATS WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!1 no im jk ...i think i have a better shot at the end if i keep eddie over sam in ALL HONESTY Even if i dont win sitting beside him i would rather lose to him than elliott or sam who ppl are prob rooting for and thats just extremely ugly to me sam is just super sus and you never know what shes thinking and i need elliott to go and i need ppl on board with me and just sam and i came up with a plan of 4-3 elliott-joe but thats legit so risky because if joe and elliott compare notes they can idol me out and im just not here for it..truly ugly AND I REFUUUUUUUUUUSEEEEE to get idoled out AGAIN AND GET 7TH BECAUSE THAT 7TH PLACE CHAT IS JUST.....no thanks fam AND I WANT TO MAKE NED PROUD but hopefully if things go my way (WHICH THEY NEVER DO) it will be a 5-2 vote with sam and elliott being the two... ugh i hate trusting eddie again but after our fight at immunity ppl will never suspect us working together again HEHEHEHEHEHEH HOHDIOFKHJDPF'

[11/12/16, 6:48:00 PM] Eddie Bracco: I’ve been on call with rob for 6 hours [11/12/16, 6:48:13 PM] Younior- TS: Bangladesh Host: please [11/12/16, 6:48:33 PM] Eddie Bracco: i love him so much [11/12/16, 6:48:46 PM] Eddie Bracco: it’s gonna be hard to vote him out if i eventually have to [11/12/16, 6:48:55 PM] Younior- TS: Bangladesh Host: im shooked But basically ill copy and paste to you what i sent to sam to show you where my head is at. [11/12/16, 6:16:20 PM] Eddie Bracco: I think i might have been able to pull rob back in [11/12/16, 6:17:56 PM] Eddie Bracco: he wants swapped sundarya to be the final 4, or so he’s telling me [11/12/16, 6:18:19 PM] Eddie Bracco: he thinks we have the best chance at the final 4 with steph and joe [11/12/16, 6:18:48 PM] Eddie Bracco: i talked to him about elliott a bit and it seems he’s down for it [11/12/16, 6:19:51 PM] Eddie Bracco: his bootlist is: 7th: Elliott 6th: You/Sarah 5th: You/Sarah 4th: Joe 3rd: Steph And the me and him at the end if it’s a final 2 [11/12/16, 6:21:49 PM] Eddie Bracco: but i think we could get him to do sarah [11/12/16, 6:23:29 PM] Eddie Bracco: because i think he’s really being honest with me cause he said he wants to take out sarah because he was like saying he wants to take out sarah but that he would feel really bad about it because after the ned vote he promised sarah he would never right her name down unless he was in the jury and she was in the final 2

At this point i can literally copy and past what i say to sam in my confessional cause i don’t lie at all to her. Like anything I say in my host chat I would say to her cause I literally tell her EVERYTHING. Like I trust her with all my life. I really hope she doesn't cut me but she may be afraid I've played too good of a game since I literally tell her everything about my game. I'm just gonna go with it and hope she doesn't snip me. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Okay so, after the vote, I was really sad/mad/upset/disappointed/pissed. Eddie blindsided almost everyone, he used his idol on freaking Joe. Ned was voted out, however, in the process, he called me out. That's what pisses me off the most, that he did that. I NEVER did that to him, I never called him out. I can't trust what he's spilling, I don't know whether Eddie, is actually being fake to me. Whenever we talk, he seems so gentle and nice, but in VL's and live events, he's sort of a dick. He apologized, and he made it seem like he was helping me too, apparently Ned and Sarah had complete control of the game because they had Sam and Steph, and they actually didn't trust me.  I'm not sure whether that's true or not, from speaking to Sarah about Eddie, he's a really good speaker, so he's possibly trying to play me. I do believe that it is a possibility, and I'm going to take advantage of what he did if that's the case, however, I still don't trust Eddie anymore. There's now two alliances of four. Me, Sarah, Steph, and Sam: which I do prefer. Then there's Me, Sarah, Steph, and Elliott. I don't trust Elliott, we barely talk, but when we do, he's a dick, he's a good competitor in challenges, and he has the idol, he told Sarah, who told me. After the last tribal, my activity has been down. I barely talk to people, I basically talk to one person each day. So, winning the challenge was very good for me because I don't know what people are truly thinking now. The challenge was also very telling. Sam is a threat, which I already know, and I don't think she respects me as much as I respect her. Joe is a dick. Eddie is still being a drama queen. Steph is inactive and can't win. Sarah is shady and is a threat too. Me and Sarah had made a deal to be the final two in the challenge, and in the game. I was sad to see that I got "playing for second place," but I think that it could benefit me and my game. I have to play up the part, pretend to be beatable in the end. I do believe that I do have a chance, but I am bias so... Stephanie is going to be very threatening to me if that's the case, because we're both beatable, and she is much easier to beat. I hope they don't decide to take her instead of me. Seeing that I won, goes to show how I do know how people are feeling, I did in fact throw some questions, like the first one, because I couldn't show what I was truly thinking. People didn't cut my rope till I was in the lead, so that shows how much people like me. Heading into the vote, I hope that it's Joe. I haven't talked to him, and I want to be the last beauty standing, for sheer irony. I have talked to Eddie, and he told me that Sarah is going to make a move on Sam, whether that's true or not, because she is worried about Elliott's idol, I don't know. I wouldn't be against voting Sam out, because she is the person that's going to win in my opinion. It would depend if Sarah is actually going to do it. She may be spewing BS to Eddie. Also, Eddie has been annoying the shit out of me today. He's being so paranoid, which is understandable, but it's getting on my nerves. All day he's been like "oh, Sarah's going to tell you about the Sam vote." Sarah's been out with her boyfriend, and he knows that. He's like "did you talk to Sarah yet." Boy, she is still out, I told you that I'm trying to do my homework, yet here you are trying to ask me whether she's told me or not. I thought you cared about my education! I'm sorry Eddie, but it's bugging me.  <.< I think I talked about most everything?

SO........ THINGS ARE REALLY REALLY MESSY AT THE MOMENT.

I can't believe it. Sam was trying to get me out, that little bitch. Browneyedgirlxsg, I'm hurt. Okay, so I did try to get her out at final 8, but nothing came out of it, Eddie turned down my idea. I knew I couldn't trust her rat ass. Freaking "let's go with joe and elliott." She's going to win if this doesn't happen. Her, or the dickhead alliance of joe and elliott. One of them has to go, and if Sarah leaves, bet that there's going to be some dicks chopped tonight. Gordon, I have a little pene a la mode made from three cows ready to be served. WTH??? DID I JUST WRITE.

so apparently miss bitch Sarah is ready to get rid of me! her and Rob want me gone because they think I have a good shot to win the game, they're not wrong but like shhh don't tell people that! Thankfully, Eddie is 100% on my side and told me IMMEDIATELY! Eddie makes my life so much easier honestly because he's just there for me and I know that I actually have someone who's always got my back, it's nice. SO anyways, yeah Eddie told me that and then had Joe go and tell me all the same stuff because NO ONE KNOWS WE'RE TOGETHER WE'RE THE ACTUAL SECRET PAIR BEWARE! So yeah, Joe tells us that I'm the plan and Sarah wants to throw 5 votes on me 2 on Joe so Elliott should play his idol on me and then us three vote Sarah but as soon as he said it I was thinking that Elliott wouldn't want to use it on me because 1) we're not that close and 2) why would he trust that Eddie is telling the truth? if it were me I would immediately think it was a plot to get me to flush my idol and they vote me out instead and of course that's what he was thinking So Elliott doesn't know if he wants to play his idol on me which is totally understandable! Why would he? We barely talk honestly so like I get it, but if he doesn't play it then Eddie has to show his hand and vote for Sarah with us, so I told Eddie that Elliott probably isn't gunna play his idol on me so he agreed to vote for Sarah we just had to make it seem like Joe convinced him, so I told Joe he should try to sway Eddie because I don't think Elliott will play it on me so Joe did And I have to pretend like I have no idea that Eddie is 100% voting Sarah and the 4 of us SHOULD be voting together so And I have to pretend like I have no idea that Eddie is 100% voting Sarah and the 4 of us SHOULD be voting together so