#to learn his url just like he didn't care that I'm a girl ...

[voskhozhdeniye]

Feeling paralyzed, I've sat down at the synths a few times this month, but have been unable to finish anything. I don't save unfinished patches. I treat the computer like the modular, things that can't be saved, once it's turned off is gone. If it's posted on here it's saved.

I've watched more movies within the past week than I have the last two, maybe three years combined. One last week really fucked me up. Another finally cemented that I really don't like French films. I like certain directors, but......

You know what, fuck it.

I've been bookmarking every picture of mutilated bodies I've seen on Twitter since May. I don't go looking, I don't have to. You can imagine what I've seen. I don't want to like the posts, but I want to acknowledge what I've seen, commit it to memory, unable to deny.

I had to get up and walk out the room last week during one of the films. A character had to publicly proclaim his love for his boyfriend to break up what was basically an arranged marriage.

I saw a little girl last week who was just head, upper torso and one arm. Everything else was gone. But watching this boy stand up to his boyfriend's father, who beat the absolute shit out of his son when he found out about the relationship, made me tremble, my pulse quicken. It also made me remember why I like movies in the first place. I'd forgotten what that slap felt like.

What does this say about me? Am I more afraid of love than violence? I think it's the threat of violence anything that doesn't resemble hetero relations draw in this society.

I think it's a hold over from my parent's religion, but I have always felt like at some point in my life, I'm going to have to make a stand that will put me at odds with everything in my life. Kendrick has a song where he refuse to give a homeless man any change. Later on, he learns the man is god testing him. Real shit like that.

Would I pass this test?

There's a reason I chose this url. In the film, the two characters are tested. One passes and one fails, but not who you think, and the reward for passing is death.

There's a reason I chose the dance of death tattoo. Will you put your skin on the line to help someone?

What's the first crest from Digimon?

If I had to stand up to the abusive father of my boyfriend, could I do it? What if that was my test? I couldn't handle it in movie form.

Since October I keep thinking about that quote that's like speak the truth, even if your voice trembles.

I have watched so many people who I considered beacons for truth go silent on Gaza. They'll criticize America's anti-blackness, but apparently only care about the oppression they face firsthand.

People who are way more educated than me, but fall in line immediately. If they're failing this moment, what does that mean for me?

The movie doesn't end well for the couple. A jealous, deeply closeted, and highly religious third wheel, who snitches at the beginning to the abusive father, can't change their stripes. The old if I can't have you...

Also, remember years back people on here bemoaning queer films with sad endings? Fuck all those people. I was nice back then. I won't be now. Denial of some of our realities helps no one.

While I'm at it, remember years back people on here calling anyone prude if they complained about sex scenes in movies? Fuck all of those people too. That French film last week. The story only existed to move the main character from hook up to hook up. That would be fine if it didn't market itself as something more.

Experimental storytelling, Malick like use of voice over, fuck outta here.

I'm having trouble eating again, and now I'm having trouble sleeping.

[beholdthemem]

Y'know, I feel like even if the 1986 school year had been completely uneventful and gone off without a hitch, Chrissy still would've dumped Jason.

Not because of Eddie. Not because she discovered 'Oh, maybe I'm into girls'. Honestly, not even because of Jason himself.

I think Jason was never aware of it, but he and Chrissy's relationship had had a time limit placed on it for a while- because Chrissy's number one goal was to get the fuck out of Hawkins, and a romantic relationship was not conducive to that at all.

Part of playing a character that won't be around long while still giving them depth is to build who they are as a person off screen- who they are, what they're like, what they want. Even if half that shit never makes it to air, YOU knowing that about your character helps you portray a human being rather than a cardboard cutout. There's a personality to draw from. There's unspoken experiences that created that personality. During a brief period of time last summer when people weren't being anal worms for no goddamn reason, Chrissy's actress did a Q&A, giving us a chance to learn some of those things. Including:

(Weirdly cropped, I know, but I didn't know if the question asker would want their url included or not, and didn't wanna be rude. At any rate-)

Maybe season 5 will roll around and it'll turn out I'm wrong, but based on what we know of Laura, I really have trouble believing she would've just let Chrissy go. Chrissy's Vecna visions showed her being trapped inside that house. A recurring theme was her inability to get away.

Jason didn't know there was anything wrong in Chrissy's home life. If she was planning to leave as soon as she graduated, anyone she wanted to stay in contact with afterwards would have to be well aware why she was going, and why it needed to be a secret- loose lips sink ships. Anybody who didn't realize there was a reason not to talk about Chrissy's post-grad plans in front of Laura ran the risk of destroying of destroying her exit before she even had a chance to use it. If Jason didn't know about Laura, I don't think he knew about anything.

I do believe Chrissy cared about him. Not in a marriage/children/white-picket-fence-future kind of way, the way he seemed to think about her- but it sounded like there was some affection there. She wasn't willing to risk her safety, sanity and future to stay with him (because he seemed to have pretty positive associations with both Hawkins and the people living there, and I don't think he would've been willing to cut them off. Staying with Jason meant that no matter how many miles she ran, there would ALWAYS be an avenue for Chrissy's parents to get to her again) but she didn't want to put him through his girlfriend disappearing on him with no explanation. So... break up. If it was done early enough in the school year, it would theoretically give him enough time to heal and move on. He'd be able to pursue his life, and she'd be able to pursue hers.

Now, whether or not that ended up being how he reacted to the break up in PRACTICE is a different story. Jason is obsessive. If Chrissy dumped him, there would have to be a reason, and no matter what she told him to the contrary, I cannot see him accepting the idea that there wasn't someone else. He needs a bad guy. When something goes wrong, he needs someone to oppose. Prior to Spring Break, Chrissy might not have been in a position to see that side of him (The fact that Vecna tormented her exclusively through her parents make me think that whatever issues she and Jason may or may not have had, he never actively contributed to her trauma) but if she'd lived long enough to end their relationship, I suspect he would have made himself into a big fucking problem.

[foone]

I've said before, the problem with the human pet guy was never the content of his fetishes. All of these are things that are perfectly acceptable fantasy shit, it's just about context and consent.

Like, yeah, we meme on him for going zero to sixty with extreme fetishes because it's hilarious, but the real problem with the human pet guy is not actually the content of those fetishes. If you wanna fantasize or roleplay his sort of stuff, that's fine and there are communities for it, and many of them are right here on Tumblr!

But his actual problem, the thing that made him into "human pet guy", is that he didn't respect context and didn't seem to care about consent. He'd come into a conversation about breastfeeding your infant in public and be like "what if I had a pet human on a leash? Could I feed him in a public restaurant?"

Or he'd go "you know the UK is facing a milk shortage, so I think this can be solved with a combination of capitalism and putting trans girls in chastity cages".

In the right context (like a discord of BDSM kinksters), perfectly normal things to talk about. In a nonsexual politics/etiquette discussion, fucking not OK in the slightest.

And it's not like this was a on off incident where he misjudged a situation. This sort of shit kept happening, despite him getting yelled at every time. Personally, I suspect that was the point. He's getting off on violating boundaries and the humiliation of everyone (rightly) dogpiling on him.

But yeah. At the end of the day I agree with this post and hope that people remember to learn the right lesson from the human pet guy.

It's NOT that he's a Known Figure because he had weird fetishes. He did, but that's fine. You can have all the weird fetishes you want. Just keep in mind the idea of consent and context. There are places for any fetish. Feel free to talk about them, draw about them, write about them, do them (where possible and safe and ethical)... But do all that in the places for that. No one is gonna label you "the human pet guy" if you are posting on forums.petplay.egg, because that's what everyone is there for. Everyone there consented to seeing that fetish when they typed in the URL.

No, human pet guy is that infamous person because he brought up and talked about his fetishes for human pets and chastised trans girl milk in contexts ans conversations that were entirely nonsexual up until he butted his head in.

It's like, the difference between your partner saying "I'm gonna lick the sweat off your toes" in the middle of a sexting session, and a stranger saying that to you, having just rang your doorbell. One is fine. The other is not.

the biggest problem with human pet guy is he isn't hot like if a mentally ill twink or trans girl said the things he said about me id have less of a problem with it

[valkyrieandstrangeridingaragorn]

Just got back from L&T. Thoughts under the cut. But first, a pic of my girl (sorry, I mean, Your Majesty 👑):

So I have a few negatives to talk about but let's start with the positives.

The scene with Thor and Zeus when he's trying to convince him to join him against Gorr reminded me so much of his talk with Odin in TDW. At some point I thought they were trying to draw some parallels... but honestly I don't know if it's just me seeing things when there's nothing. Either way, I liked it.

Thor's speech to the kids towards the end was touching.

Val handling King duties and enjoying it was lovely to see.

Jane explaining the Einstein-Rosen bridge while under chemo. She was never boring and that enthusiasm is contagious. "You just destroyed your book!" - "Yeah! But now you understand wormholes!". She's lovely and I'll miss her.

Heimdall! My beloved. Only for 10 seconds but hey, I'll take whatever they give me, I love that man. Shorter hair too!

And this is something between a positive and a negative: I like that Thor said to Quill something in the lines of (I'm paraphrasing here): "You have a team that cares for each other, I never had that". I actually liked it because from what we've seen in the movies he had 4 friends who seemed to follow him and look up to him but we never saw him having a deep conversation with them, to me they were more party/battle friends than anything and Thor always stroked me as a very lonely person despite being a prince. Not to mention the Avengers never truly showed any interest, let alone compassion, especially in EG. So that line is interesting to keep in the movie...... that is, if you do something with it. But they just had him say it then ignored it for the rest of the movie. It's such a lost opportunity. Imagine Thor shit-talking the Avengers and setting the record straight after EG... if only.

Now, the negatives.

I don't understand all this talk about worthiness. If Ragnarok was supposed to teach Thor and the audience anything is that being worthy is utterly meaningless! Lifting Mjolnir was always entirely subjective, reliant on a bunch of rules dictated by a deeply flawed character like Odin. Thor is supposed to know he doesn't need that hammer or the axe or anybody's approval. He's the golden child, if he doesn't learn that then his arc keeps going in circles, and round and round it goes. It makes no sense.

I can't believe 2 movies in since she was introduced and my girl Val does not get a name. I appreciate people calling her Val but surely she's got a name, right? And her horse? I'll say this though: I don't remember them giving him a name but I'm grateful, if they call him anything but Aragorn my URL is truly fucked 😜

Why bring Sif back? She's the LAST connection Thor has to his old life. I was so happy to see her again since I genuinely thought he was going to lose it or they were gonna have some chat or something, but nah, they share one scene that's eerily similar to Thor 1 and they're good to go.

Once again character development is done in a rushed one-minute sequence. I watch these movies because I care about these characters, if that means you add 25 minutes to the damn movie then do so. If that means you cut a few fights then do so.

Thor realizing he wants and needs love is nice but giving him a kid is not the way to go, that's giving him someone to care for when he should be caring ABOUT AND FOR HIMSELF.

What kind of relationships does he have with Val and the others? A bunch of scenes with the Guardians and all I saw were screams and nothing more when that team is more a family than anything else, they wouldn't go about it like the Avengers (battle together then each member goes their own way), the Guardians care.

I would have wanted to see how the Asgardians are adapting to Earth or a bit more from New Asgard. Jane gets a statue, that's cool, no statues for anybody else though?

Oh the """queer rep""".... we were told she would look for her Queen but of course that didn't happen, I wish I could say I'm surprised but I'm not. And she doesn't even get to say anything, it's Korg who says "girlfriend" and leaves it at that? You know what, it's far worse to have this, I'd rather not have anything. If this is as far as they're willing to go please STOP. Everyone is straight, that's easier to digest.

Also, it's so fucking annoying to see people erasing her identity and saying she's a lesbian. No she isn't, Valkyrie is bisexual. We have enough bi erasure as it is, don't contribute to it.

And speaking of my girl... where the fuck is her arc? She gets no story, her pegasus is only on screen a couple times, she seems to be enjoying being a King so why not show that and how she's growing from being a warrior raised to kill to becoming someone trustworthy who loves her people and learns the humans' rules so she can defend them? Also she's still not redeemed, she has never said anything about how she feels after being raised to kill and commit genocide, how she felt about Odin (when Gorr was telling her I was almost begging! for her to speak up). I will admit I jumped when she was stabbed though. I may have a weird definitely non-healthy attachment to her lol

The problem about introducing new and powerful cities and weapons while Feige keeps parroting all that bs about "connected universe" is that it makes previous movies absolutely useless. So Thor knew about Omnipotent City? Why not go there in IW instead of Nidavellir then? Once you open the portal to Eternity why not kill Gorr and ask for anything...

Gorr the God Butcher who's shown on-screen killing the crazy amount of......... one god in the entire movie. So much for butchering.

"Lady Thor", "the name is Mighty Thor or Dr Jane Foster", I knew she was going to say that. Way too forced. You want feminism, Marvel? Flesh out the female characters and stop giving them the suits and powers of their male counterparts.

And lastly, what Mjolnir means to Thor. What that hammer represents is his past, his family, the time when stability was ensured and he had everything he wished for, back in the day when he didn't know the lies and what was hiding underneath the golden palace and his father's machinations. His attachment to Mjolnir in reality what it hides is his subconscious desire to go back to that time, which is exactly why he should despise that hammer! Not through hate for Hela but disappointment and anger towards his father.

All I keep seeing in these movies is Thor not growing up or out of his golden child status and I HATE IT. And it seems the only way they know to make characters "grow" is by giving them a romance or a kid... these characters need self-love, how is it possible that these writers and directors don't understand that familial, romantic, etc love is not the same as self-love? That you can have a million people who love you and still not love yourself?

Overall this is clearly the worst Thor movie for me, worse than Ragnarok, and I give it a 4/10 and I'm being generous (3,5 of those are for Val 😂). I still love Thor though, there are.... flashes of his old self and while short they remind me why I've always been a big fan of his.

Thor honey, you deserve so much more than this.

[percy-ils]

Nooo I have become unrecognizable even to you I don't even really like my new url but I didn't know what else to come up with

I have been feeling pretty bad apparently one of his editors called him a horrible person on Twitter today? I'm not very sure but after learning about that I decided to uninstall Twitter and just chill out for a while basically

Sorry for not answering right away as well it's because I literally stood up and went and busied myself I have started coding and you know just yesterday I was thinking wow I'm doing something Dream was doing at this age too I wanna make him proud which maybe it's rather silly but it helps me keep wanting to do it

You shouldn't abstain yourself from your own coping mechanisms because of what other people could possibly think about you if you know hearing his voices and seeing him would make you feel better then go ahead and do so you don't have to punish yourself or anything it makes me really sad and worried to hear you are going through so much pain right now I wish I could be there and give you a hug

You put it into words but now whenever I log on I just feel the same pit on my stomach that I felt when we learned about Techno but just like back then I'm sure we will make it through

I also don't really understand it very well I also think so many people were just fed up and saw this as a good moment to dip like they saw his face the meetup the live panel and the pictures it's like their storyline was finished and now they can move onto something new

But remember it's not your fault the fact that you got a special interest isn't your fault you are in your full right to have it and to keep enjoying and loving Dream I know for a fact I'm staying on Dreblr and whenever lore drops I'm watching it and whenever he streams I'm watching it and whenever he makes a video I'm watching it because at the end of the day no matter what I can't help loving him

Also remember it's only been like two days since this whole thing has started there's a lot we don't know yet so we just gotta wait and see

I still think very much that by the next Saturday everybody will have moved on and those who stay will continue to enjoy it and those who don't will be missed and we will all come out stronger from it and more united

Don't lose hope after just two days we will get through this eventually

I love you too <3 sending you all my hugs and strenght and hope :) - Beloved and idk how to introduce myself anymore ex-Drellumina I suppose

You literally mean the world to me thank you for taking your time to write this all <3

I didnt answer this until now because I had to make my mind about things and I'm pretty clear about what I think now.

I'm not changing my blog, im not leaving the fandom or Dream. I read so many things and listened to many people and I'm pretty sure that Dream is innocent and I trust him. I'm not gonna apologise for loving and following him and there's so many people already sure that he's innocent and this Amanda girl's story makes no sense and it keeps changing, it's just untrustable and inconsistent and she's just seeking clout.

So many people are just acting weird and I cant understand them and you know what. I'm giving up on trying to understand. They do what they want. I'm gonna keep watching Dream. I was saying that I'd trust him with my life last week, that still stands and I trust him with his. He's gonna handle it and it will pass.

But I'm still mad at these people for treating Dream like shit and ruining everything only for a little bit of attention, or the "fifteen minutes of fame" as it is. I'm pretty calm and content right now, just gonna wait for it to pass.

Take care of yourself :))

[insane-male-alphabeticalsymbol]

Actually the point the artist was making, besides the fact that their is no real artistic value of the girl acting as a secondary message since she clashes with it so much that she might as well be sending an entirely different message than what the artist of the Fearless Girl (Kristen Visbal) intended, comes off pretty clear once you figure out the statue was put up by a company that wanted brownie points after people found out that at the time before the statue was placed, less than 30 percent of their executives and over all work force was made up of women and paid roughly about 530 million dollars in fines for it (which was the State Street Corporation by the way, which also was reported for under paying female employees in October of this year, link below for the October event)

https://mobile.nytimes.com/2017/10/06/business/fearless-girl-settlement.html

The point of the pissing dog being that feminism was literal getting the piss to the leg and ignoring it, much like how you seem to be pretty ok with

A: How someone that was willing to act and call out a corporation on their shit that, by what I'm gathering, you claimed, committed suicide being a positive thing (great way to promote people feeling safe speaking up about something or giving criticism, by the way)

B: Find it entirely justifiable to wish extreme violence on a person willing to take a similar approach to their criticism of current events as this well adjusted woman here

But apparently for him it wasn't ok, because people like yourself, lack the ability to self reflect and think "maybe saying the world's better off because a guy with an opinion I don't like is dead, and that maybe he had a family he cares about that I don't have the guts to go up to and say that I'm glad that her son is dead."

Because I've said and done things I definitely regret. I'm not afraid to admit in the past that I have made statements that are Aphobic and generally pretty dickish that I learned from.

I am no longer the edgy drunken jackass that I once was a few years prior, now I'm just a drunken jackass who just knows better.

Because I know that saying it's a good thing that someone who hasn't done anything wrong or illegal with their demonstration of something decided to kill themselves is a pretty aweful fucking thing to do.

It's one thing if they're an aweful person who's done something along the lines of systematically killing an entire race of people to near extinction, but generally speaking, doing that is borderline the same as what happened to the one artist who about killed herself because people hated the shit out of her just because she made Steven Universe fan art they didn't like.

But you most likely told yourself "Nah, it's fine that I said that. He was mean to women", didn't you?

It's ok for me to say that since we're making assumptions of people, from what I can understand since you can't be fucked to look up information about the event of Alex getting hit by the train, since there isn't anything pointing to his death as a suicide attempt or looking up any history of State Street that took me less than half a minute to find.

I understand that in an argument it's important to supply accountable and reliable information, so here's an article from the Wall Street Journal talking about how less than 30 percent of their work force and executives was made up of women, since I provided a link to their more recent escaped of making you look like an idiot for defending.

https://www.wsj.com/articles/SB895016067542422500

(It's a mobile link, by the way. I could have gotten the actual url for you, but the more I think about how you'll write this response off simply because you can't be bothered to read this and not understand that I'm mostly writing this because you think someone like Alex supposedly committing suicide is a thing worth praising is a shitty fucking thing a terrible human being would do, I just can't give enough of a fuck)

And the company most definitely has more discrepancies under their belt, what with them being one of the oldest firms in U.S. history, being established around 1792.

Ah, who am I kidding.

What's the fucking point of me doing all of this if all you're going to do is call me a woman hater because I have a problem with a piece of "art" that is a poor excuse at an attempt to represent woman which was made as a piss poor apology by a company that most definitely has a history of fucking over women for over 200+ plus years, let alone how I believe you to honestly be an even worse person than me of all people?

Yeah, I'm probably the one at fault here. You're doing the human race proud.

MASCULINITY SO FRAGILE

“I decided to build this dog and make it crappy to downgrade the statue, exactly how the girl is a downgrade on the bull.”

- sculptor Alex Gardega