#to have tk validate what he was feeling and promise he was on board

[theghostofashton]

some messy thoughts bc i finally got around to rewatching 2x04 last night and god my heart aches for carlos this ep. like....thinking about how it must've felt to be blindsided at the farmer's market. all this time trying to avoid a situation like this and suddenly it's all happening and there's nothing he can do to stop it. thinking about what he avoided before tk, him wrestling with whether to put himself out there or not at all, because things with his parents would eventually come up and he didn't feel ready to deal with it yet. thinking about him throwing caution to the wind because he'd met someone who made him feel things in ways he didn't think was even possible, who made him forget everything, and how overwhelming it must've been to wonder if he could lose him because of this. thinking about how unsafe carlos had been feeling for years, and how much this must've shaken him. trying to figure out how to explain this big thing he was still struggling with, so worried it would be a dealbreaker, not quite sure how to communicate just how scared he was.