#to goro's boss battle i just break down in tears

[fellhellion]

kind of obsessed w the way goro got served with a "you don't actually hate akira do you, i saw you smile when you realised he was alive" by the catsona of hope and just had a mental breakdown about it

[serenescribe]

for the fic writer ask: 🍚🍜🍡🍘

Fic Writer Asks

🍚 What genre do you have the toughest time writing?

answered here!

🍜 Do you ever feel pressured to write?

sort of! not by other people, but mainly by myself. i often have limited time to write, and can only really sit down and focus during breaks between semesters and school years. i oftentimes cannot write at all during the ends of my semesters! so i end up pressuring myself somewhat to write while i can, because i don't know when i'll be able to do it next.

that aside... i can also feel pressured if i'm racing against canon (see: writing 15k words in two days just so i could get glaciers chapter 2 out before episode 19 of fhjy dropped). i also sometimes pressure myself to write because i love it when people enjoy my work! which is a much lighter pressure, but pressure nonetheless ��� it isn't imposed on me by readers at all, but merely my own desire to return the amount of enjoyment everyone's comments have brought me :)

🍡 Which of your fics was the most emotionally difficult to write?

i want to say "pénthos" because it was a grief fic, and i wrote it while coping with emotions surrounding the impending loss of a beloved pet. but it wasn't so much emotionally difficult to write as it is impossible to revisit without shedding a tear.

on the other hand, i remember feeling so many powerful, visceral emotions while writing "we've got history." i cannot encapsulate how much i felt writing these chapters. i channeled the pure fucking rage of espresso in chapter 1. i was dying writing madeleine in chapter 2. what the hell. i felt like i came out of a boss battle and lost despite finishing the fic. finishing it gave me relief like nothing i had ever known.

🍘 Is there a fic or idea for a fic that you've abandoned?

OH BOY. DO I HAVE AN ABSOLUTE TREASURE TROVE. i'm answering this under the cut. this is going to get long.

i wrote an espresseleine fic in 2022, clocked in at just over 40k words, and never posted it. it's more or less abandoned despite being finished because i pushed myself too hard writing it and burnt out so badly i couldn't stand to look at that writing ever again. maybe someday it'll see the light of day, but it's already been two years, and i don't know if i'll ever write for crk again.

on another note, i had a mcyt fire emblem au back in 2022. i was making it with the help of a beloved friend. unfortunately i never felt confident enough in writing the characters so it never came to be — but i think this short, simple sentence is still the best start to a fic i've ever written, and i'm sad that it will never see the light of day.

this isn't so much abandoned as it is half-shelved, half-reworked (i like the au too much and have repurposed it for a different fandom, BUT i also love the original so i want to return to it someday. two cakes), but i had a fire emblem awakening fic. can't say too much about it but here's morgan and lucina siblings from 2022.

pretty sure i had a p5 au idea where third semester played out differently with akira taking maruki's deal, and goro being forced to step into the role of wild card instead. never got too far into writing that though but i found this.

i found a silver and lilia roleswap while i was digging for stuff????? i BARELY started it i straight up forgot this existed

anyways the very nature of being multifandom with constant, shifting interests means that i definitely have a lot of abandoned works. these ones are all from recent years, but i know, deep in the depths of my soul, that there's more.

let's not even get started on ideas. if you get me started on ideas, we'll be here all day.

[bxhindxthexmxsk]

More palace stuffs

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I'm gonna not down some specific rooms in Goro's Palace.

The final room containing his treasure has 4 locks on then and almost each of these rooms have a key. Goro hesitantly entrusts the key to those that wish to help him escape himself, though bc he is hesitant he will continue to ask for it back (which...denying will be dangerous) before handing it over again. Handing him a false key found in his playroom will prevent one from having to hand over the real key and not having it when it is needed.

Goro's playroom

A rather creepy carpeted room that looks like...well, a child's playroom. It's one of the few rooms dimmly lit by candles and the only entrance is via a vent. It's only accessable from a vent to keep shadows out as well as add to the secrecy of the room's meaning. This room is mostly filled with stuffed toys many being general teddy bears and puppy dogs...others bearing ressemblence to people in the real world. Most have a frown fixed upon their faces, others: nervous smiles, blank expressions, looks of despair and oblviousness, and finally genuine happiness. Those deemed important are placed on neat shelves others that seemed used up and destroyed are left in a pile of fluff.

Aside from stuffed toys there are toys that resemble weapons (blunt objects, knives, guns) that despite looking toy like are...rather lethal.

This room shows Akechi's relationships with people. The plushies that have met the business end of his weapons have been people Shido assigned him to execute as well as others that have gotten in his own way. The tense expressions on some of them are those that know of Shido's deeds and the few that know of Black Mask that Goro is to keep an eye on. And the happy ones are the people Goro is stringing along with his manipulation.

There's plushies of each phantom thief on the highest shelf in his room as well as a wooden Shido puppet. Despite both sides knowing what's up, much to Aketchi's dismay, he thinks he's playing rhem well and thinks of them as important in his plans.

There's a special doll in this room on a absurdly high shelf thay doesn't look like it belongs to a child. A beautiful porcelain doll dressed in expensive fabrics with a saddened expression that is turned facing the wall as if Goro would be ashamed of her seeing everything he's done. In her hands is a key. It wouldn't be hard to guess who she is...

Moving on...

Goro's courtroom

Attached to his playroom is a much smaller room that resembles a court room. The jury and crown seats are full of stuffed toys and he takes the seat as the judge. He tries the stuffed citizens in court which 9/10 times either ends in his own favor or the favor of the plush lawyer he likes more. These trials usually end in a execution of the stuffed toy in the former room for all to see.

Shido's Tower

Up a long winding staircase with many lethal owl shadows there's a single office room. There cognitive Shido stays leisurely sitting at his desk. The cognition cares nothing for those that enter his office and, of course treats them even more poorly if they question and or pester him. Plays out as a mid boss, sending shadows to fight for him. Akechi sees Shido as a pompous coward that makes others fight for him so he doesn't have to get his own hands dirty. Most of the shadows he sends out eerily resembles Aketchi but with his eyes blind folded. They follow orders without question or concern; false praise raise their attack/defense/etc drastically while ridicule may either lower or slightly boost their stats. Once they're defeated, much like Okumura, Cognition Shido is easy to take out. He bitterly hands over a key and hurries them out.

The tall tower symbolizes how Goro sees how long and hard his goal is but knows eventually he's going to topple this tower with his father in it.

Aketchi's theater

Here is where Akechi is dragged to occasionally by shadows. Just about the only lit room, as well as Shido's, that is lit by actual lightbulbs...well in this case stage lights.

Here shadows as well as Cognitive Shido watch Akechi perform a play that's basically his own tragedy that's his life for their own amusement; symbolizing how he feels everyone views his existance as a sick form of entertainment. He plays through the scenes of seeing his mother's corpse, living in a orphanage before going through several foster homes and schools before being thrown out harshly as a teen that aged out of foster care. All the while, props and sounds elude to his psychosis he tries to desperately hide from others. Then one would see his cold bitterness to people before discovering his father and his plot for revenge. Usually as the play reaches the present, Goro shifts into his Warden form and tears apart the stage and crowd as they all rush out.

A key is found in the floorboards however only once the palace shifts into the blinding light when Goro goes Warden mode.

Solitary confinement

Behind the four locks in a grad door hides away Aketchi's treasure....

However, despite having all four locks unlocked the door refuses to open. Shadow Aketchi seems hesitant despite leading them here; he remarks that either "I'm too scared to open up" or "How do I know you wont break it?" and scurries off to avoid question. Here, they would have to get the Aketchi in the real world to open up to them about, well, anything but it can prove to be hard. Once that is done, Shadow Akechi will open the door for them.

The cell, despite having no light, is brightly lit by a terribly cracked, ruby red crystal heart that sits upon a pedestal. Even though Goro wishes to be saved and opened the doors to his treasure he flies into a fit of frightening rage when his treasure is touched.

Execution grounds (Boss fight)

Walls to the cell are smashed down and the battle is taken to where the courtyard would be in the dark palace but is now more of an execution ground now that Goro has shifted into his Warden form. It plays out as a double battle, his Warden form being more monstrous, larger, and a quadreped and his child self upon its back in a judge's robes. The child acts as the host of this creature, controlling it to inflict status effects as well as devastating physical moves. He also uses the creature to replenish his HP at the cost of the creature. In this aspect, it's shown why Goro sees himself as a parasite.

They would have to wipe out the creature before attacking child Aketchi since he would no longer have his strong physical attacks, a wall to hide behind, or a means to heal himself. Here he fights with the 'toy' weapons that were seen in his playroom; this defense is poor however his evasiveness can prove to be annoying but ofc taking him down can be done.

Being defeated, the child wails loudly. Spilling out about how his life hurts and that he can't live for anything else other than revenge, lamenting on how he can't be 'normal' as well as how he lost his childhood/innocence/self control/ can't wash his hands of the atrocities he's done. He hates how he cant open up to people and will never have friends because of the life he leads.

After calming down he offers his heart to them and back into the real world it turns into a replica of a rather thick and beat up diary that Goro's been writing in since he was little.