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firebuug · 1 year ago

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the stupid thing about anxiety that leans into straight up paranoia territory is that you can be weirdly paranoid and expectant of something terrible, worst case scenario ever to happen like, all the time, but since it's never happened to you you know it's unreasonable. but the moment one of the things you're crazy about actually happens, all those other extremely way more unreasonable things suddenly become plausible in your head by association, so now you're just on guard ALL the time. it's like throwing your anxiety a bone and because it was good that time and did a good job of preparing you for it now it's like ok! I will do this for everything else too and i will do a good job. but really it just needs to be put down

#in my case its like. i was highly paranoid of car incidents happening. but i was able to like. nap in a car comfortably cuz it never hapened #but i was ALSO unreasonably so paranoid about likr. inexplicably suddenly just getting a bullet to the skull. like out of nowhere anytime #so now that a terrifying car incident HAS happened to me now im like okay #im super high guard about that now and can barely close an eye in a vehicle without shaking. but. now that thats plausible.#whats saying im not gonna be sniped any moment any time while in public . who says.#i as a perosn know its exteemely unreasonable and sily especially considering where i live. but now that my anxiety has been fed #it's basically all gone downhill into insanity #anyways i need therapy but i dont have time energy or transportation. SLAYYYY!!!!!!!❗❗❗❗🫡#txt #to detract this from myself therefore cancelling out any vulnerability on main: if i give an oc anxiety please know #it is this level of crawling up walls 'my head is going to blow off in five seconds and you need to shield me' bullshit and not 'oh no ppl.

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