#to be honest i havent grown out my hair since idk age 9? | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

mejomonster · 4 months

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I genuinely like long hair. I aspire to have long hair and look like a lot of men whos looks i admire.

I got compliments on looking so feminine and pretty recently

I cannot tell u how urgently i desired to shave all my fucking hair off. How unpleasant it felt to just Bam get reminded the way i intepret my own choice for wanting to look Any particular way in this world is always overshadowed by anyone outside me deciding theyd Prefer me a certain way for their own reasons

#rant #anyway. ive sure felt fucked up since then #i love how i look with short hair #to be honest i havent grown out my hair since idk age 9?#at age 22 i had long hair but i was peak dyke/engineering gayboy #i looked like Pat from Bad Buddy all cut sleeve shirts only with long bleach fried hair swept to one side #but i cut it off cause lol. it was dead.#anyway like. i love wearing lolita and wigs. so i was tryibg on some of my new wigs #and then i got comments on how Pretty i looked and i about wanted to jump out of my fucking skin #i do not see myself in long hair wigs as Peak High Femme #but goddamn the person commenting sure did #i just. i havent been so overtly sort of Expected to Be Femme as GOOD since #i used to work customer service and fuckers would come in and hit on me and say ladyyyyy maammmmmm nonstop #i used to have 1 inch long hair. binder flat chest. baggy sweaters. no makeup #and at that old customer service job just many strangers like ur so Cute so Pretty little Lady maam blah blah AAAAAA #and it was about then that i learned. i didnt feel like being butch just to avoid social comments #since it didnt deter the fucking comments. so i decdied back then okay fuck it ill dress and look however i Actually Like Best #for Me. since fuckers will say comments i dont like regardless.#but damn. been a long time since a person actually MADE a comment like that to my face #just. the implication i Ought to have Longer Hair and Look More Feminine. makes me wanna scratch my skin off

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