#to 18-22 yo girls and to literally anyone

[hewwointernet]

Angel Reese they will never make me hate you

[aevyk-ing]

I'm bored and I need to get my mind out of stuff (life's getting impossible again, thanks), so I'm doing a whole bunch of questions to distract myself:

1: 6 of the songs you listen to most?

I tend to listen again and again to the last songs that I've discovered recently, so I'm going to share my favorite ones:

Patience- Take That

I want my tears back- Nightwish

Take on me- Aha

Spirit in the sky- KEiiNO

Moonlight shadow- Mike Oldfield

Yo contigo, tú conmigo- Álvaro Soler

2: If you could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?

My soulmate.

3: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 23, give me line 17.

The book closest to me it's actually the last one I've written and I'm revising it so it's not published yet... I'm going to take the second nearest... huh, The Neverending Story:

Original line (Spanish): (Lle)vaba en la mano derecha una diminuta bandera blanca, que tremolaba a (sus espaldas).

Gonna search for the English version...

In its right hand it carried a tiny white flag, which glittered behind it. 

4: What do you think about most?

About how lonely and unlucky I am.

5: What does your latest text message from someone else say?

Morning!!@ thank you

It's from a group and they weren't talking to me.

6: Do you sleep with or without clothes on?

Eh... skip!

7: What’s your strangest talent?

I can detangle the cord of headphones (the tiny ones) quite fast.

8: Girls… (finish the sentence); Boys… (finish the sentence)

Okay, I'm actually having trouble with this one. Remember about my last book? It has a lot of gender identity issues, so...

9: Ever had a poem or song written about you?

Does it count if I'm the one who wrote it? I used to write a lot of poems while I was in high school and depressed (I still write some from time to time). And guess what? I collected some of them in a book.

10: When is the last time you played the air guitar?

LOL, last Tuesday. It's actually the last dance move in one of the songs from my Zumba videogame.

11: Do you have any strange phobias?

I have trypophobia.

12: Ever stuck a foreign object up your nose?

Nope. But in my first nose surgery, they stuck like one meter of gauze there.

13: What’s your religion?

I'm baptized, but I don't believe in God since high school (guess why?). Right now, I define myself as a pantheist. I like to believe in the energy of the universe that surrounds us.

14: If you are outside, what are you most likely doing?

Doing errands.

15: Do you prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?

Behind.

16: Simple but extremely complex. Favorite band?

Probably Nightwish, but KEiiNO has been fighting hard for the spot.

17: What was the last lie you told?

That I hadn't try the last sweets my mother bought. I had carefully opened the bag and took one the day before.

18: Do you believe in karma?

Yes. But I think it takes its time.

19: What does your URL mean?

First it was "aeviking", which was literally my two initials "AE", plus "viking". I used that name for my drawings and stuff. Since I change it to Aevyk, my URL is now "aevyk-ing", which is like "doing my own thing".

20: What is your greatest weakness; your greatest strength?

I have a really low self-esteem. I'm stubborn, so if I want to do something, nobody is going to stop me.

21: Who is your celebrity crush?

I don't have one. It used to be Orlando Bloom.

22: Have you ever gone skinny dipping?

Nope.

23: How do you vent your anger?

I listen to really loud music and write.

24: Do you have a collection of anything?

Maybe books? I have too much stuff anyway (even thought most of it is in boxes right now).

25: Do you prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?

On the phone. It's bad enough trying to do your best when you don't see the face of the other person, but I hate seeing myself while video chatting.

26: Are you happy with the person you’ve become?

I don't know. I'm glad I'm stronger and I've improved in a lot of ways, but I'm still not 100% (not even an 80%) happy with who I am.

27: What’s a sound you hate; sound you love?

Babies crying. Hearing the first notes of my favorite songs when they play on the radio.

28: What’s your biggest “what if”?

"What if I had known I'm neurodivergent sooner?"

29: Do you believe in ghosts? How about aliens?

Not ghosts per se, maybe spirits or spiritual forces. I do think there has to be another planet with life, even though not in the way we expect it.

30: Stick your right arm out; what do you touch first? Do the same with your left arm.

My stylus pen. My desk lamp.

31: Smell the air. What do you smell?

I think it's the rest of the watermelon milkshake I had one hour ago.

32: What’s the worst place you have ever been to?

Anywhere with scorching sun and no shade, like that time I went with my sibling so they could skydive and I was so pissed off I was waiting in the sun they thought I was the one whose jump had been postponed.

33: Choose: East Coast or West Coast?

Spain doesn't have an West Coast (we limit with Portugal there, if you don't count Galicia). If you're referring to the USA, I'm going to say East Coast.

34: Most attractive singer of your opposite gender?

Shawn Mendes.

35: To you, what is the meaning of life?

Finding what you will be remembered for.

36: Define Art.

Letting your soul show while creating.

37: Do you believe in luck?

I believe I have the worst luck ever, so I guess so.

38: What’s the weather like right now?

Sun, not a cloud in the sky, too hot for this hour and month.

39: What time is it?

19:52.

40: Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed?

No, I hate driving (I wonder why?). I've had a lot of dreams where I crash my father's car.

41: What was the last book you read?

Howl's Moving Castle. It was nice, but too convoluted at times.

42: Do you like the smell of gasoline?

I don't mind it.

43: Do you have any nicknames?

Aly.

44: What was the last film you saw?

The Cat Returns. It was weird.

45: What’s the worst injury you’ve ever had?

I broke my nose when I was four years old. It was too bad my nose grew crooked and it needed several surgeries to make it look normal.

46: Have you ever caught a butterfly?

No. I like them, but they're still bugs and I don't like touching them (only ants because we used to have a lot of them in our garden).

47: Do you have any obsessions right now?

One of the Webtoons I'm currently reading: Your smile is a trap, Ghibli movies and the last songs I've discovered, including Escaping Gravity by TheFatRat.

48: What’s your sexual orientation?

I'm straight and ace.

49: Ever had a rumour spread about you?

Yes. A lot of them. All of them bad.

50: Do you believe in magic?

I try to, but it's getting hard to keep on believing. Also, I mean "magical" moments, like when you have some good luck or something good happens to you. For me, it happens almost never, so it does feel like magic.

51: Do you tend to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong?

Oh, yes. I don't forgive easily.

52: What is your astrological sign?

Leo, but I don't identify with it.

53: Do you save money or spend it?

Both?

54: What’s the last thing you purchased?

Some fabric for a commission.

55: Love or lust?

Love.

56: In a relationship?

No.

57: How many relationships have you had?

Zero (can we please switch topic?).

58: Can you touch your nose with your tongue?

Nope.

59: Where were you yesterday?

I went to a shopping mall.

60: Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?

A rubber or eraser.

61: Are you wearing socks right now?

No.

62: What’s your favourite animal?

Cats.

63: What is your secret weapon to get someone to like you?

I try to make them smile.

64: Where is your best friend?

My ex- best friend? I'd love to know.

65: Give me your top 5 favourite blogs on Tumblr.

evermore-fashion, akindplace, justgotawesome, folkfashion and chibird.

66: What is your heritage?

I did a heritage test a while ago. I'm mostly Iberian, with North and East European blood. I also seem to have Jewish and Central American blood, according to my parents' tests.

67: What were you doing last night at 12AM?

Trying to sleep.

68: What do you think is Satan’s last name?

He doesn't have one.

69: Be honest. Ever gotten yourself off?

(I had to Google the meaning) WTH? Skip!

70: Are you the kind of friend you would want to have as a friend?

I'd do everything for a friend, so I guess so.

71: You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late one more time you get fired. What do you do?

Save the dog and take a picture so they know I have a good excuse.

72: You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? b) What do you do with your remaining days? c) Would you be afraid?

a)I won't tell anyone because they usually don't trust what I say. b)I'll put my projects in order and try to do what makes me happy. c)It might be because I'm feeling quite down right now but... sometimes, I wouldn't mind dying.

73: You can only have one of these things; trust or love.

Love.

74: What’s a song that always makes you happy when you hear it?

The Nights, by Avicii.

75: What are the last four digits in your cell phone number?

1617.

76: In your opinion, what makes a great relationship?

Caring about what the other person wants and needs.

77: How can I win your heart?

Listen to me and hug me.

78: Can insanity bring on more creativity?

Yep. I don't recommend it, though.

79: What is the single best decision you have made in your life so far?

Going to therapy.

80: What size shoes do you wear?

A 38.

81: What would you want to be written on your tombstone?

Maybe one of the lines from my Legends of Gingaria books.

82: What is your favourite word?

I don't have one. But "rielar" comes to mind. It's the Spanish word for when the moonlight hits the water.

83: Give me the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word; heart.

"Heart and soul..."

84: What is a saying you say a lot?

I don't know.

85: What’s the last song you listened to?

Escaping Gravity by TheFatRat.

86:��Basic question; what’s your favourite colour/colours?

Blue. Also purple, turquoise and quinacridone.

87: What is your current desktop picture?

It came with the computer. It's a road in a field at sunrise.

88: If you could press a button and make anyone in the world instantaneously explode, who would it be?

Not going to say names but it's someone that has been hurting my family from a year or so.

89: What would be a question you’d be afraid to tell the truth on?

"What's wrong with you?"

90: One night you wake up because you heard a noise. You turn on the light to find that you are surrounded by MUMMIES. The mummies aren’t really doing anything, they’re just standing around your bed. What do you do?

I'd try to talk to them and show them the door.

91: You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What is that power?

Shape-shifting.

92: You can re-live any point of time in your life. The time-span can only be a half-hour, though. What half-hour of your past would you like to experience again?

I'd go back to the worst time of my life and make sure it doesn't happen.

93: You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?

What I said before. If you need to know, it involved my crush and the rest of my schoolmates. And it ended up with me depressed.

94: You have the opportunity to sleep with the music-celebrity of your choice. Who would it be?

Guess what? I'm sticking with Shawn Mendes.

95: You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go?

Disneyland Paris.

96: Do you have any relatives in jail?

No. Two of them are actually cops.

97: Have you ever thrown up in the car?

According to my mother, once when I was little.

98: Ever been on a plane?

A lot of times.

99: If the whole world were listening to you right now, what would you say?

Read and buy my (Legends of Gingaria) books!

[springbons]

5, 7, 18, 22, 56 AND YOU KNOW IM GONNA GO WITH FRY ME- I specifically want answers for Riktor but you can do whoever-

Hell yeah, here we go. 5. "Can they cry on command? If so, what do they think about to make it happen?" I had a feeling this would come up. Riktor can cry on command. He doesn't think, he just does it. Alligator tears. He'd never use it for bad though. Kurt WISHES he could. He can cry despite being a skeleton, but he can't cry on demand. Moira's always crying. She's a snake, literally. Vyra can't cry on command. 7. "What would you (mun) yell in the middle of a crowd to find them? What would their best friend and/or romantic partner yell?" Riktor - Riktor. Just his name. | Also Riktor, just his name. Kurt - "YO THEY GOT FREE TACOS!" | "DIPASS!" (Lover Only Title, but Sparrow gets a separate pass.) Moira - "COMMANDER BITCHY!" (Proud Title) | "HEY COUNTRY!" (Short for Country Girl (despite not being southern (she just doesn't have an accent))) Vyra - You don't find her, she finds you. | You will feel eyes in the back of your head for the rest of your life

18. "Who do they love truly, 100% unconditionally (if anyone)?" Riktor has conditions for everyone. He's very kind, and very good, but he doesn't trust anybody, not fully. Moira is the type who you THINK doesn't trust anyone, but she would die for literally anybody in the group. Riktor, Noah, Sparrow, Vyra, Jackson, (Especially those two because she feels she owes a debt to them,) and especially Kurt (he's a special case.) Kurt? ...Sparrow. And Kelp, but we aren't cracking open that can of worms right now. Vyra hasn't formed much of a relationship with anyone yet, but she likes Riktor the most. Psychic links usually help with that.

22. "What simple activity that most people do / can do scares your character?" Riktor will cower in a corner if you so much as mention Marmite. Kurt is scared by... Humanity as a whole. Wars and the fact that people genuinely fall for the lies and tricks of propaganda terrify him more than anything. Moira is Scared of Vegans. Vegetarians are fine though. Vyra has immense social anxiety, she could not bring herself to talk to a cashier even if she had to. Life or death.

56. "If they’re scared, who do they want comfort from? Does this answer change depending on the type of fear?" Riktor, surprisingly, for his kind nature goes into Fight instead of Flight, so if you tried to comfort him it wouldn't work. But for ambient fear like thunderstorms or something he would appreciate anyone who wraps him up in 50 blankets. Moira will jump into Kurts arms like scooby-doo if she so much as comes across a cockroach. Kurt internalizes his fear, as he's not very good at sharing anything emotionally. He just takes it and acts like eeverything's fine. Reminds me of that one scene in Steven Universe where they get this ominous message from Lapis and everyone's terrified but Garnet just whistles and goes "Good work team! We got the message! Let's call it a day." Vyra will jump into Riktors arms like scooby-doo if she so much as comes across a cockroach.

[daegalfangirl]

love maze ; huang renjun

❝ oh my god! you're cute. ❞

you've been popularly known as a bitch, and you agree. that's not the issue here. you enjoy messing around with boys for quite a while, their heart in your hands. you never expected for it to go the other way when you bump into a boy at the corn maze. yep, and it gets worse when you find out you're not the only girl head over heels for him. you're becoming a better person, but karma was bound to strike for what you've done in the past. maybe it's about time you understand how it really feels.

└> PAIRING; renjun x fem!reader

└> FEATURES; all the female main characters from the other stories + all of dream + jaehyun

└> WARNINGS; swearing, reader is a bitch (mostly towards men), sex jokes, mentions of infidelity, both reader and renjun are flawed in the romance field

└> STATUS; completed ✔️

└> AUTHORS NOTE; okay so they meet at a corn maze and stuff but i literally have never been to a corn maze in my fucking life so if it's different from how it normally is IM SORRY i'm just assuming it's like a normal maze. removed the tags of some people that i am aware that are minors because there is no explicit sex scenes between anyone but the reader is implied to be on the sexually active side with other men SOOOO ya. i cant check every single one of you though so if you are a minor please advise me so that i can remove you from the taglist.

└> SCHEDULE; monday, wednesday, and friday whenever i feel like it but usually around 8pm

└> TAGLIST; @sunflowerhae @neoteez01 @ashesandfanfics @cacaubs @dayandnighthyuck @neokats @furryllamas @eggoyu @blossom-rea @scented-morker @loveleejn @sunshine-skz @vantxx95 @seolrose @legbouk @mark-wife-renjun-whore @yunoshandholder @heetrbl @amindpalaceofmyown @jaeminslut @girlfiendsss @heyitsbreeeeee @yo-dreamrush @mrkleelvr @yvtaverse @jiye0n0 @flower-lise @thejungjaehyun @todorokiskitten @rynshyuckies @hiraarri @tacojisung @multihoe-net @b1awhore @squiishymeow @bbanggami @maddypool31 @aminihhj @meltinghershey @treasuretaeil @markhyuckgotmyback @yunhodeobi @resceluwu @simplicitysbabe @beegobuzzzz @faiirybread @ihaveacheseeadiction @hae06 @samsemsame @astereads + more but i hit max mentions 😭

└> COULDN'T TAG; @kyuwoyo @alltothelee @mqrkfrl @athuwu @hirouiii @xiaoflwr @hyungwinning @lookloony

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m.list to "from the seasons, to us" (my smau series)

0.5 | intro: the girls

1 | wrong idea

2 | I CAN EXPLAIN

3 | 🥺🥺🥺

4 | bella

5 | mine

6 | what do we do

7 | FUCK YOU

8 | trying

9 | Omg! suddenly i am too busy

10 | NVM EGO SHATTERED

11 | "bad"

12 | YOUR fault

13 | twins

14 | i had fun

15 | true, True, TRUE

16 | filler bff

17 | let's talk

18 | best friend

19 | people like her

20 | thank you i know i'll need it

21 | (pending) character development

22 | sacrifices for the ones we love

23 | poor jisung

24 | "pity"

25 | i AM emily cooper

26 | the other woman

27 | rights and wrongs

28 | boyfriend & girlfriend

29 | oops sorry... anyways im horny

30 | woah!

31 | the things i do for my pookiebear

32 | i like the way you think

33 | meddling

34 | 4 me, 4 u

35 | forever

epilogue

[rnegitsune]

Ok so I thought I'd put together some horror stories from my time as a babymetal fan bc of how drastic the shift in the fandom has been the past year or so. For context I got into babymetal in like june of 2014 (all 3 girls were still underage at the time, I was 22; when I first got into them I thought I would be considered an older fan lmao the naivete, the innocence of new fan me wow I know now I'm not at all in the older half of the fandom esp considering I was born the same decade as su and moa), and I made this blog in I think may of 2015.

I've had people say I should compile men being gross into a post and I just couldn't do that out of fear for my own mental health but this will be pretty close. These are all my experiences with this fandom over the years; I'm definitely missing some but what I do remember should do well to cover most of how this fandom used to be vs now. It's gonna be a lot and tw for men being gross about minors.

Back in my first year or so of this blog I on multiple occasions got dms from men asking to be friends. At the time my bio only said my name and my pronouns. I've always been cautious of dms so I'd ask their age and every single one was considerably older than me. I wouldn't usually answer after that bc no thanks but they would generally try to continue convos til I blocked. The only one I still had was this one

After I put my age in my bio, which was 23 at the time, I never got a dm like that again; take from that what you will. But if you're young please be wary of this hell fandom even now. And if you're an older fan and esp an older male fan reading this, don't dm people trying to be friends. I was over 18 and it still creeped me out to no end.

One of my real first men in this fandom are disgusting moments was a blog back in like 2015 or 2016 who I had some contact with due to common interests; he was a huge yui stan and made bm content. He was like 28 or 29 at the time and I eventually noticed he would tag idols, mostly kpop girls, by their body parts (legs, butt, etc) which is disgusting enough as it is but then I saw him do the same for literal minors, like tzuyu from twice. I messaged him asking what the hell he was doing objectifying women but also actual children and he blocked me lmao. He later unblocked me to let me know that's just how he tagged things and it was my fault he had anxiety and then he blocked me again.

Back before the tumblr purge this fandom was repulsive to a degree I cannot even begin to describe. Someone would reblog something from me, I'd go to their blog and it would be underage jpop idols and japanese p*rn all the way down. I even stumbled upon a man editing underage su into p*rn gifs. Obviously no proof of that but I did go find my initial reaction to it

The number of times I'd get a follow from someone then go to their blog and it would be as mentioned above or their bio would be the most misogynistic trash I'd ever read was staggering. I genuinely considered giving up and deleting this blog so many times bc i felt oberwhelmed and outnumbered by these gross old dudes; and so the fact that this fandom has evolved into a bunch of chaotic wlw?? Amazing, I could cry.

Fun phenomenon of women running bm blogs was men sending messages asking if we liked babymetal. No joke. I think this happened to me two or three times but I spoke w other female creators at the time and it had happened to them as well. My entire blog is babymetal, and yet???

He said the weird guy idk bc he sent some random ass messages vaguely insulting me and when I responded coldly, he acted confused so I said you're some guy idk, hence the above message starting as such. Also that pic and the one up above that has my current pfp bc I just took those screenshots. Like I said I typically blocked weird dms but I guess these passed me by so I still had the messages.

Most people know the sub reddit is the worst and don't need me to tell you but it's a hellscape and I highly recommend avoiding it. A short list of things I've had to see as a result of going there: men discussing at length kano and momoko's appearances and how they look in costume vs in normal clothes. Men discussing at length the hope that the girls would marry men who aren't Japanese, a thread that was from when all 3 girls were underage. They aren't gonna marry you dude they're really not.

The insulting of billie Eilish, a 17 year old at the time, was horrible too. Su and moa got to meet her, something they were extremely excited for, and they posted a pic; the comments were disgusting as you can imagine. The yui rumors were terrible too, fatshaming, slutshaming etc all based on nothing. Some man saying the rumors about yui leaving bc, no joke this was a real rumor, she "got too fat" couldn't be true bc "look at saya." Saya being a barely 18 yo back up dancer who covered the third spot after yui left but before the avengers. Not to mention the upskirt shots from when they were minors, the constant editing of their faces onto explicit photoshoots etc. I remember being a new fan looking for a su pic on google and being horrified at the fact that one of the top suggested results after her name was “bikini;” she was 16 at the time. Also, the uptick in massively creepy posts and messages sent to bm blogs as each girl, but esp moa and yui, approached 18 was disgusting.

Now for some personal nonsense. A big reason why I haven't touched my youtube channel in months is bc I got tired of dealing with the men of this fandom. I poke fun at metal and get told I deserve to die. I say ped*philes and creepy men are gross and get a swarm of middle aged men cursing at me. Had a guy cry about how men are shamed for liking bm and then he turned around and said some gross shit about wlw. Had a guy call me racist for liking a band he also likes (and despite him having no way of knowing my own race) and tell me the babymetal fandom doesn't need my kpop feminist bullshit, which is honestly a great description and I thought about putting it in my yt about lmao. Had a middle aged man unironically say he'd never seen a man be creepy towards bm but fans su and moa's ages calling them hot was creepy. The disillusionment....the level of unawareness is astounding. If you want to see screenshots of some of these comments they are fairly recent in my don't mind me tag; I don't want to see them anymore tho bc they're infuriating so I'm not going to look at them to post here.

Essentially I haven't looked at my channel since may bc men are exhausting and rude and refuse to examine the fandoms they're a part of no matter what. They're told by a woman of the fandom that she's had bad experiences personally and they all start crying about how it's either a lie bc they haven't seen it or unimportant. I did stop reading comments in may and I will never read another one again probably as a result of this shit. Trash men being trash are not worth my time and I refuse to give them anymore of it. I do plan on making more videos tho and let my ~feminist kpop bullshit~ live in their minds rent free.

I will also continue to make fun of metal and the creepy men in this fandom bc it's important and I'm a spiteful asshole who likes disrupting these dudes perfect bubble of a fandom. It genuinely brings me so much joy seeing all the new fans recently (which sidenote if you got into them recently I am kinda curious as to how you found them; I've gotten tons of new followers and considering how inactive they are rn I'm curious). People sending messages about how they finally feel like they belong or that they have a safe space....like I don't even know what to say and I never feel like my responses fully convey how genuinely wonderful that is and how thrilled I am that this is where we're at now and I have had at least some part in it. As this post shows, my experiences have been negative for the most part so the shift recently is such a relief I cannot even begin to explain my gratitude.

So to anyone who read all of this and hasn't disintegrated from the male bullshit, thank you. Keep being yourself and fighting for your place in this fandom, esp if you're a young woman; keep making fun of the creeps and keep making wlw memes!! Babymetal's music is in such a huge way meant for girls and to see more and more finding their way to this previously hellish beyond belief fandom is incredible.

[heyyylittlemo]

Ask game

1. Where did you hide the body??

Me: *pause* No, where did you hide the body—

*police stare at me with disbelief*

Me: there’s no—there’s not a single body here—well stop looking at me like that, you’re the cop! You should know! Why are you asking me for! Body? Whaaaaaat. Ahaha.

*cops shake head*

*whispers to my friend* Guys I think I pulled that one off

Police: you know we can hear everything you’re saying

me: 👁👄👁

2. Favorite rock? The 1975. Dominic Fike. Arctic Monkeys. Bad Suns. The killers. Pale Waves. Etc. That good good shit 👌

3. Most aesthetic season? Fall. Love them orange colors. The leaves falling. Though spring is also neat if you have a bunch of flowers bloomin in shit and winter is only aesthetic when it’s snowing. Boring ass summer tho just be heating me up.

4. When texting do u shorten words or spell out? I used to write stuff out all the time mostly but now it’s like half and half bcuz its just faster and nobody got time for it 🤣🤣

5. Vintage stuff? Hell yeah, but maybe not anything too expensive since some old stuff IS hyper expensive.

6. Colors that pop or blend? Not sure I understand what u mean abt them blending ahaha u mean like when they’re so similar to another?? Well I think it’s nice but honestly I prefer a pop and a bang, y’Know?

- At this moment I realized I was answering the last few questions from a completely different ask and felt like a dumbass 😂 anyways the actual number we’re on is three so imma just kickback

3. Worst dream u have ever had? I had sleep paralysis but was imbetween that and a lucid dream. At first I was paralyzed and could see my bed but my eyes felt closed and open at the same time?? A giant dark demon looking dog had towered over me and began to tear at my neck. It looked and felt very real I started to try to scream and it felt like a scream was coming out but no sound exited. Then I went into a lucid dream where I was being chased by this dog and running for my life I was running by and nobody could save me nobody in the dream when it caught up to me I was back in my bed and it was trying to eat me again. I was so terrified I couldn’t sleep for a whole week.

4. Lyric that comes to your mind? “And I don’t think I can be there. I’m paralyzed,I’m terrified of being alone. When you said I deserved what had happened.”

5. Blood make u uncomfortable? Yes, I passed out once when getting my finger pricked and a VERY small blood sample and another when dissecting a fish.

6. Even or odd numbers? Well I like the number 5,7,9, 3 so odd. (Like me 🤣🤣)

7. Something I hate that I love? Anything I’ve ever loved becuz love can be frustrating. Bruh.

8. 1st initial of someone I hate? Hmm...do I hate someone tho? Not that I can think of...

9. *Skipping down the lane* NOPE

10. Corn dogs? It’s funny cuz when I think of corn dogs my mind will always go to when we first moved to our current house because at our initial town we never had Sonic and while we were getting the house fixed up and moving stuff we use to always get Sonic since it was the closest to us most times to eat and that was a bunch of corn dogs and hotdog days 🤣 so thnk u corn dogs for ur service

11. I’m not a huge movie person so...I looked up movies from 2005 and movies Inlike from this time are Brokeback mountain bcuz it’s gay af, Shark Boy and Lava Girl damn I rewatched the shot out of it when I was younger, Narnia and the Chocolate Factory(although it low key creeped me out as a kid, and idk why).

12. Least fav music genre? Most country, most EDM, dubstep, screaming/really hard rock, some pop music, mumble raping.

13. As someone who waits on tables, my job is my least favorite restaurant experience 🤣🤣 just dealing with ppl...like ok, I’m half Hispanic right?? But I look white. Well, I work at a Mexican restaurant and so sometimes racist costumers will say shady shit just bcuz I guess they think it’s appropriate to say it to me just bcuz I’m not Hispanic in their eyes?? But it pisses me off and I feel like I can’t say anything without causing a drama which I hate and when the “costumers always right” it can be hard to budge and stand up and say “bitch wtf did u just say??” And there’s just folks who take things the wrong ways or ask too much at once or give u a hard time or just say something that sticks onto you for the whole day. One bad move can turn my whole day upside down.

14. 3 things never come near me? Cockroaches, Needles, and close mind ppl

15. Worst way to die? With regrets. Something really brutual, random, or where something just happened to go wrong (accident). Being killed by someone u love.

16. Unusual habits? Doing a Michael Jackson esque “hee-hee” after every sneeze I make, being extremely clumsy and making every task 100% more difficult, having the ability to talk as if I have an accent that comes from nowhere in particular just stupidity also I can’t speak my own language half the time 🙃getting words confused or misusing them in a sentence so I sound dumb having a very weird imagination and thoughts, I swear it like I never went to school and don’t know how the world works, plus many many more

17. Clothing style u want? I want to dress in a way that screams who I am and is a blend of both femininity and masculinity. A little vintage. Grunge. Urban maybe?? What do I know abt fashion 🤣🤣

18. Song or artist that deserves more? Dijon, hands down. I love his stuff. He’s like Frank Ocean meets light-singing beautiful lyricist with a more rock vibe?? Hidden gem. I also think Durand Jones & the Indications needs more love along with BadBadNotGood they sound like old-times but are new!! Oh, and Pale Waves is like a female The 1975 and kicks it. Bad Suns is a good alt rock band that no one seems to recognize :,D Toro y Moi too! His song with Flume “The difference “ is a banger!! Kid Cudi is my man when I want a blend of rock and rap. Also Dominic Fike,King Krule, and Roy Blair, who are all amazing!! Ok I need to stop 🛑

Duck I answered the past questions from a different post I’m sorry 😐

17. Emoji never used? There’s a bunch since I reuse the same over and over again. Lmao

18. 3 sentence Gatorade horror story? A faint quiver overtook the small freezer the Gatorade lay in; no one had come by in days, hours, weeks; when was the last time he met the lips of a thirsty body? They’d forgotten about him, as his last sips remained glued to his hollowing entrance. ‘Help, ‘it wanted to say, but it’s frozen lips could not be moved; It’d stay here, die here...just like the rest.” What am I doing with my life 🤣🙏

19. Do u know what an old bay is? A bay that is old? And old ocean? Idk!!!

20. Can u dance? Sometimes I dance when I’m alone but nothing spectral lol

21. What first comes to ur mind when u see ropes? 2 extremes. Sex and death. Hm. Ok. Moving on.

22. Make an obscure reference. “Even a bra couldn’t hold these nipples” *Holds a water gun to chest*

23. Fav balloon color? Pink or yellow.

24. If u were in court would u be innocent or guilty? Depends, what am I in court for 🤣 lmao jk honestly idk bcuz I don’t think I’d wind up in there

25. Are u hungry ? Nope

26. Unlucky number? Hm I don’t think so but I have a lucky number “123”

27. What’s “JMD”stand for? I’m guessing...Jamming my d—- 💀lol jk ahaha why am so dirt

28. Random inside joke? *chirpy squeak* I’m making a double batch of cookies

29. What sends chills up ur spine? Seeing disgust food or smell disgust or talking abt disgust things like gore

30. How many questions are in ur inbox? A pathetic zero ahaha no one want to ask me anything 😂

31. Someone real who scares u. 2 of my ex friends. One when I was 10 said disturbing things and I was kinda forced onto the friendship and everything they said make me fear for others lives...and then a different ex friend who seemed normal at 1st but became both low key psychopath cult leader type stuff and I booed out of there—-.

32. Run or hide? Uhh probably hide because I’d say even if ppl say “u can run but u can’t hide” u CAN just hide! that’s the point of hiding they not find u xD also why not combine them? Hide then run somewhere far away once I got them off the trial.

33. Last person who made u angry? A frickin beetle that flew at me and pinched me in the middle of singing in the shed xD also my autocorrect

34. What’s going on in ur head? I should probably pee soon—

35. Little thing that makes u Smile? A lot of little things bruh.

36. Are u a descisive person?

Not sure.

*pAuse *

Ok, I guess I’m not then 🤣

37. Would ppl say I’m paranoid? Hm maybe about certain things social situations, singing in front of others what ppl think abt me etc etc

38. Store least likely in? Any southern clothes shop, Abercrombie & Finch types shit, lol

39. Do I like hats fave type? Hm not wear many hats but I think they’re cool any type is cool for different ppl and their aesthetici just can’t rock a hat.

40. Bow ties or ties? Don’t really care but now want to see more bow ties

41. Who? You.

42. What? Reading this shit

43. Where? In ur ass

44. When? Now.

45. Why? Not even u know why.

46. How? We all want to know

47. Do u collect anything? Vinyl records.

48. What tome is it? Time to get a watch

49. Fav transportation? My car or walk is possible

50. Would u ever kill someone to save someone? Don’t want to think about that

51. Make a joke. Yo, it’s time to make a joke—so the other day I was working. And I was practicing my Spanish, yes? Anyone whose trying to learn anew language k n o w s that sometimes words can be so close to another u just confuse then! So apparently churros in Spanish is a desert but if u say it more harshly (it literally sounds almost the same) it makes a whole different meaning—diharrea, but like I didn’t know that so I legit just walked up to this person and asked if they would like some shit to eat. So yeah, that was great. Let’s not forget that I mixed up blood, watermelon, and sangria which is a wine. I legit once said I had mixed wine in my vines and another time watermelon 🤣

52. I’m really confused so I skip

53. Would ur dash be confiscated SFW? By dash do u mean this account? Um not 😬

54. Do I like to cuddle? Hell yeah and manhandle ppl all the time it’s my affection

55. What makes u angry? Close minded ppl or ppl who jump too fast to conclusions, strict schedules just dumb stuff that people try to force when I just want to be carefree 😭✌️

56. How many voices are in ur head? 😐

57. Do U consider urself mentally stable? 😐

58. Are u easily offended? Well U just called me mentally unstable and asked it there was voices in my head!!

59. What’s wrong with taking the backstreets? Uhm...

60. Any questions u want ppl to ask u? Nothing in particular but it’s be nice if someone care to ask me something abt me from personal question to my opinions on shit to 19 days fandom related junk 😌

Woooo I’ve finished this game! Thanks to @seiji-amasawa for introducing me to this ^^

[kyliexc]

BUENAAAASSSSSSSSSS ! soy yo , mini from da 6ix , again . coming at you with my original kid . she’s changed just a bit , but still pretty much a god damn  M E S S .  and bad bunny’s vete came on shuffle soOoOooOoooOOOOOOOOOOOOO LEGGO !

chicago’s very own Kylie Castillo has been spotted on madison avenue driving a BMW X5 , welcome ! your resemblance to Becky G is unreal . according to tmz , you just had your twenty second birthday bash  . your chance of surviving new york is uncertain because you’re impulsive , but being loyal might help you . i think being a Aries explains that .  3 things that would paint  a  better picture of you would be a bottle of patron, late night partying and 20grams of weed . 

hit the mfng like button for plots bc I WILL mssge u or else

BASICS ! 

Full Name: kylie valentina castillo

Nickname(s): ky, kyky, k, kybby

Age: 22

Height: 5 ft

Date of Birth: April 15th 1997

Zodiac sign: aries

Hogwarts house: slythindor (slytherin + gryffindor)

Ethnicity: mexican

Nationality: american

Gender: cis female

Pronouns: she/her

Orientation: bisexual

Religion: agnostic-catholic

Tattoos: a peach on her ass, #2 tramp stamp and canon becky g tattoos

Language(s) Spoken: english + spanish

Accent: american with a hint of spanish

BACK STORY ! 

kylie castillo is the third born child from alejandro and lupe castillo ! alejandro was a renowned soccer player from jalisco, mexico . he played for the mexican national team AND for Barcelona FC . lupe castillo is also from jalisco , mexico , but she attended school in spain where she began as a seamstress for a small vintage boutique before going off on her own to start her own exclusive brand that made it big - as in , only those who could really afford the clothing could wear it . lupe is owner to ROSARIO . lupe and alejandro met in spain , but ultimately moved to chicago to settle down with their kids since kylie’s paternal grandparents lived there.

Kylie was born in Chicago , Illinois , but throughout her childhood , she bounced between Chicago, Los Angeles , and Barcelona ! 

kylie took after her dad , immediately falling in love with soccer since she was little . it wasn’t like the castillos pushed her into it , she found the sport herself . kylie , along with her siblings were a sports family in general . most of her siblings got into some sport growing up , whether they took it seriously or not was up to them , but kylie definitely did. 

kylie and her dad are really close for the fact that he basically coached her throughout her entire athletic career . kylie is very competitive because of this , and super into keeping herself fit . she sees a goal , she wants it , and she’ll do anything to get it . her jersey is #3 !

besides soccer , she really loves to sing and it came out of nowhere but it was due to all the family parties she has . often an acoustic guitar would be brought out and everyone , including kylie would be singing along to vincente fernandez - heck , you know the castillos hired a mariachi band to be part of these gatherings . 

ky spent a lot of time with her grandparents who would ALWAYS be blasting old mariachi / love songs , singing at the top of their lungs to each other , and from this kylie enjoyed what music did for her . performing was just another thing that came easy to her . the stage , whether it be an actual stage or just a small little space where she was surrounded by family , it was home to her , and she was never afraid . the one place where she could vocally express herself is through her lyrics . ky and her cousins often would write down song lyrics , pretend to perform for thousands of people - but it wasn’t something she ever thought she’d do . it was just for fun , and she took up extra curriculars besides soccer that related to it . i . e dance , acting , etc. 

yet , that was something else , her eyes were on the prize , and that was soccer . sort of . 

kylie had everything set for her to continue playing soccer after high school , to eventually make it onto the US Women’s Soccer team - yet she deadass started to slowly give it all up at the beginning of her 4th year of high school , hanging with the stoner kids , practicing less , putting less effort. she eventually found the underground rap scene -  she loved soccer , but it was time for something else , especially when her dad was mad at her , the field didn’t feel like home like the stage did .

on soundcloud , and youtube , kylie lent her vocals to some guys she met , being on their tracks . her sound was unique because she sang and rapped in both spanish and english . she was earning a name online , her followers going up and tbh , she wasn’t trying but it came to her and when she saw the numbers rise , and her name get out there a bit . she rlly started working on that part of her life . 

A MESS ?! * TW : abortion , drugs , etc .

in high school , she met giovanni ho ho hoe narciso . they were friends for a long time until finally , they started dating . definitely one of the reasons, but not the main reason why she also didn’t care about the sport as much - but kylie’s dad blamed gio a lot fo kylie not playing soccer . so her dad didn’t like gio , and to make matters worse , he didn’t like gio’s dad . so it was a HOT MESS . kylie ultimately had to choose between her family and gio , and when she said yes to marrying gio , she chose gio .  

18 years old and she ran off to marry gio - except that didn’t happen . 

she woke up one morning , he was gone and she couldn’t get a hold of him anymore . ky really didn’t have a choice besides going back to her family , and BET her dad was all ‘i told you so’ 

she couldn’t contact gio but YOU BET she ended up finding him eventually to get in the lasdt mfng word but that conversation ended up with her just being hurt , and it was the last time she really saw gio . he moved on , whether she believed it or not , he did .

so fast forward not long after that meeting . kylie found out she’s pregnant . obviously , it was gio’s . and she had two choices , keep it or get rid of it . 

without telling anyone , except her best friend , kylie got an abortion . which , no one knows , not even her family , not even gio .

SECRET ! 

        ***again , not many people know this ? but the                  one above is a secret too ?? she’s just full of          secrets. JKFDHDFKG

from 20 - 21 , kylie moved out , hopping from place to place within chicago . but she definitely went off grid . not caring for social media , not contacting her parents . 

kylie went into a strip club and at first it was for jokes , but when she got on the pole - she was actually good ?? JDKHGDKFJHDFKJH so the manager offered her a job and well , bitch took it . so she did that for a year , hanging with the wrong crowd, drinking every day , smoking weed which is a staple for her , but she started to do blow - which is .. not a staple for her . it was a dangerous year for kylie .

but doing blow , and selling it for awhile while working the pole gave her the connections she needed to meet rich guys with status in the music industry. 

so eventually , her EP made it in the hands of a producer for sony music latin . 

so she left the pole and started being featured with big time Latin names 

think cardi b’s start up and yeah , she definitely drugged men and stole from them while doing this too DKJGFHDKFJ

PERSONALITY + CURRENT SITUATION !

kylie’s back bitches ! as in people already knew her but she’s been M.I.A for a year , so she’s back and ppl are like wtf KDJGHDKFJGHSFKDJ and she lives in New York now

currently she’s working on her first album release.

besides the mess , she’s a GOD DAMN GOOD TIME. if you ever need to get drunk and party. kylie is your girl . if you need to get fucked up, you better have her on speed dial.

kylie’s the bitch with the bottle of patron , serving tequila shots , and then dancing on top of tables.

highkey always ready for a fight . she doesn’t care where she is , she will always SWING. don’t play games thinking she’s gonna back down from a fight bc she won’t. if u want a fight , ky will give u one KJDHGKSFJDHGKSDJGH talk shit get hit is her motto and i hate her for it

she has a black cat named mijo

her friends and family are the loves of her life . literally , if you mean something to her , there’s nothing she won’t do for you . she will ADORE YOU

if ur her enemy .... that’s fun too. :)

confident AF

she’s an all around bitch i hate her , but she’s a mess , and she’s funny , and she’s too much sometimes .

too stubborn for her own good all the time bc she thinks she’s always right. 

she’s also really goofy when she wants to be

has a hell of a good work ethic , will get shit done when it needs to be done . is definitely the pushy friend to encourage others to do the same.

BEST HYPE WOMAN EVER

she loves assholes.

her lito, lita, ita, tito {grandparents} are her favourite people ever

will cuss you out in spanish and english

hella hot tempered and uhm...

YEAH THERE’S A LOT BUT YEAH I THINK I GOT IT COVERED KGJHDSKFHG

[kaiokentimesten]

1-50

BRUH 

1. Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it? 

Probably. 

2. Would you date an 18-year-old at the age you are now? 

Yeah 

3. When’s the last time you were aggravated and happy at the same time? 

Few hours ago 

4. Would you ever smile at a stranger? 

Yep 

5. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are?

No?

6. Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today? 

Yeah 

7. What exactly are you wearing right now? 

I'm wearing my smeg head shirt, black shorts, and striped green socks 

8. How often do you listen to music? 

All the time. I'm literally listening to music right now 

 9. Do you wear jeans or sweats more? 

Neither. I wear leggings. If I had to pick, though, sweats 

 10. Do you think your life will change dramatically before 2013? 

LMAOOOO. My life changes dramatically every year, usually for the worst 

 11. Are you a social or an antisocial person? 

Social 

 12. Have you ever kissed someone whose name begins with the letter ‘A’? 

Nope 

 13. What about ‘R’? 

Double nope 

 14. Can you drive a stick shift? 

I can't even drive, yo  

15. Do you care if people talk badly about you? 

Depends 

 16. Are you going out of town soon? 

I fucking wish 

 17. When was the last time you cried? 

Earlier today 

 18. Have you ever told someone you loved them? 

Yeah 

 19. If you could change your eye color, would you? 

YES. 100%. If it had to be a realistic color, I'd want it to be this bright, icy blue 

20. Is there a boy who you would do absolutely everything for? 

Not at the moment, but it's possible 

 21. Name something you dislike about the day you’re having. 

Still fucking depressed over [redacted] even though I really shouldn't be 

 22. Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead? 

I don't know. I've never been kissed on the forehead by a guy 

 23. Are you dating the last person you talked to? 

I was 

 24. What are you sitting on right now? 

Desk chair 

 25. Does anyone regularly (other than family) tell you they love you? 

No 

 26. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have? 

Yep 

 27. Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night? 

Sky(or Bea as she’d rather be called now)

 28. Do you get a lot of colds? 

No  

29. Where is the shirt you are wearing from? 

Eddsworld. I know, I'm a loser 

 30. Does anyone hate you? 

I'm what we like to call an "acquired taste". So, yeah. A lot of people 

 31. Do you have any empty alcohol bottles hidden somewhere in your room? 

No 

 32. Do you like watching scary movies? 

Eh. Depends 

 33. Do you want your tongue pierced? 

Nope 

  34. If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be?

Either this year or 2017 

 35. Did you have a dream last night? 

No 

 36. When was the last time you told someone you loved them? 

Yesterday 

 37. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years? 

No  

38. Do you think someone has feelings for you? 

Probably, but they shouldn't 

 39. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now? 

Probably, but they shouldn't 

 40. Did you have a good day yesterday? 

No 

 41. Think back 2 months ago; were you in a relationship? 

Yeah 

 42. In the next 48 hours, will you hang out with a girl? 

In person? Probably not 

 43. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you? 

Maybe, probably not 

 44. What’s the best part about school? 

Talking to my friends 

 45. Do you have any pictures on your Facebook? 

Bold of you to assume I have Facebook 

 46. Do you ever pass notes to your friends in school? 

Yeah 

 47. Do you replay things that have happened in your head? 

All the time. I can't stop living in the past 

 48. Were you single over the last summer? 

Nope 

 49. Is your life anything like it was two years ago? 

Double nope 

 50. What are you supposed to be doing right now? 

Writing, probably.

[bo0zey]

Pick your favorite questions from the list.

i will do them all for u 0.o

1. Name cianna [see-ah-nah]

2. Nationality mexican irish german romanian hungarian french

3. Age 20

4. Birthday december 17, 1999

5. Zodiac sign (or your primal zodiac sign) sun: sagittarius; ascendant: leo; moon: aries

6. Gender female

7. Sexuality uhhhhhhhhhhhh idk but i will willingly kiss either gender

8. Your looks (add a picture or describe yourself) /tagged/my-face or u could just google pictures of fat rats

9. What do you/did you study? I’m currently a sophomore nursing major!

10. What's your current job like?/What job would you like to have? I’m currently a microbiology TA and I love it :) My dream job would be something with animals, like a vet tech or veterinarian

11. Your birth order i’m the oldest!

12. How many siblings do you have? 2 younger brothers

13. Do you have good relations with your family? my mom was my best friend, my dad and i get along better now that i’m in college, my brothers and i get along pretty well & we’re staring to get closer now that they’re getting older n growing up n developing their own personalities lol

14. How many friends do you have? errrr idk this is a hard question. i have a lot of acquaintances but i’d say i have maybe like less than 10 real friends??

15. Your relationship status single :D

16. What do you look for in a SO? funny!!!!!!!!!must be humorous!!!!and sarcastic and a little weird w darker sense of humor so we can laugh n be dumb together!!!!!!! also i would like them to be kind to me and those around them bc mean ppl suck. also they have to like animals. also i would like them to be loyal and trustworthy and 110% in love w me. and for physical stuff idk kinda attractive but NOT CONVENTIONALLY ATTRACTIVE like i personally don't really like the typically ‘attractive’ person??? 

17. Do you have a crush? currently in love w the cute chinese boy who lives across from my dorm room even tho i have never even spoken to him n he is totally unaware of my existence!!!!!!!! hahah oops :D

18. When did you have your first kiss? i mean technically 3rd grade i think but that doesn't really count so like maybe 16????

19. Do you prefer serious and meaningful relationships or casual dating/one night stands? i mean in the long term i would definitely like to have a serious relationship but at the moment i’m only into casual stuff bc my heart isn't ready to be broken again sknfkjdbnkjd

20. What are your deal breakers? errrr i’m not sure....cheating is a no no, ppl that are interested in fucking every single person they see is a turn off, DUMB PEOPLE like ppl you can't even have a proper conversation with bc they're so DUMB, and ppl who r mean/judgmental/arrogant

21. How was your day? ok! accidentally slept thru my math class but caught a glimpse of my crush across campus when he was abt to smoke a cig and i got chipotle n i online shopped a ton from shein

22. Favourite food & drink deep dish spinach pizza from giordano’s & orange vitamin water

23. What position do you sleep in? i fall asleep on my left side hugging a body pillow

24. What was your last dream about? ate a braid of hair and inside the braid was bacon

25. Your fears not going to make it thru nursing school, not being financially stable as an adult, not having a family of my own, probably more but those r currently top 3

26. Your dreams i don't have any idk....maybe having like a house of my own and having as many animals as i want?? and i would like a loving partner with a daughter of our own

27. Your goals survive nursing school and lose 40 pounds and don't die before my cat

28. Any pets? i have a dog named cherry Cola, a cat named Leto, and a betta fish named Perc

29. What are your hobbies? writing stories about people in love, listening to music

30. Any cool places in your area? in my college town??? NO it sucks. in my hometown??? Not really it’s a small lil village with only restaurants and parks. but at home i’m near downtown chicago so that’s cool i guess

31. What was your last awkward situation? the first thing that comes to mind is my FIRST and so far ONLY encounter with my crush. we live in the same dorm building and i was wearing my nursing scrubs and had no make up on and about to go upstairs to my dorm, and then i heard footsteps and i was like ‘hahaha what if its my crush’ AND THEN HE FUCKIGJNG appeared from down the hallway to go back to HIS DORM [which is RIGHT ACROSS FROM MINE] and i literally STARED at him, then threw open the door and RAN UP THE STAIRS LIKE I LITERALLY DIDNT EVEN HOLD THE DOOR OPEN FOR ME AND HE WAS LIKE SO CLOSE BEHIND ME I WAS JUST SO NERVOUS MY FLIGHT OR FIGHT RESPONSE TOOK OVER AND I FUCKING FLED I LITERALLY RAN AWAY FROM HIM I AHTE MYSELF SO MUCH IM SUCH AN IDIOT!!!!!!!!!

32. What is your last regret? errrrr idk i regret a lot of dumb things.......

33. Language/s you can speak English n a LITTLE bit of Spanish

34. Do you believe in astrological stuff? (Zodiac, tarot, etc.) i’m really into zodiac stuff and i have got to say they are pretty spot on in accuracy idk

35. Have any quirks? ummmm ofc!!i am the quirkiest person i know hajnjfxbkjx like if u asked my roommates/friends they’d probably be better at answering this than me bc i don't see anything abt me as quirky but they always tell me i am quirky and do weird things but idk man I'm just existing 

36. Your pet peeves err idk currently its ppl that constantly brag about dumb shit

37. Ideal vacation somewhere warm with me + the ocean + the loml + unlimited alcohol

38. Any scars? yeah :D both emotional AND physical!!!!

39. What does your last text message say? ‘ok thats a more than fair statement’

40. Last 5 things from your search history how many carbs should i eat, chipotle bowl calories, is the grim reaper the angel of death, ceftriaxone adverse effects, red man syndrome

41. What's your [device] background? lockscreen is a peach-theme background i made and home screen is my weight loss goals

42. What do you daydream about? the characters in my stories.................and being skinny 

43. Describe your dream home pretty brick house??? flowers outside??? 3 floors--main floor, basement and upstairs??? 3 bedrooms n 3 bathrooms maybe??? master bedroom has its own bathroom!!! and open concept main floor. big kitchen and very homey n warm all around. as for like an apartment i want something cozy and aesthetically pleasing and warm 

44. What's your religion/Your thought about religion i don't have a religion but if ppl do have a religion then thats not my business

45. Your personality type entj but only bc i got 3% extraverted; i am very closely related to intj tho n i think i fit that one better

46. The most dangerous thing you've done uhhhhhh probably operating a vehicle while high out of my mind. definitely the dumbest thing i ever did 0/10 would recommend anyone ever doing that

47. Are you happy with your current life? its ok but it could probably be better. i want to be done w college and skip to the part where i have a successful career and my own home and i can lay up w the loml every night

48. Some things you've tried in your life alcohol???weed??gummy edibles....

49. What does your wardrobe consist of? sweaters/sweatshirts/leggings

50. Favourite colour to wear? black, maroon, peach, purple, gray, idk

51. How would you describe your style? oh jeez idk i wear whatever i want so like e-girl when i really try and basic white girl when i don't care

52. Are you happy with your current looks? no i hate everything about myself lol

53. If you could change/add something to your appearance - impossible or not - what would it be? more freckles on my face....also be thinner n have longer hair

54. Any tattoos or piercings? my nose and septum are pierced!

55. Do you get complimented often? kinda by my friends but i always yell at them to stop so they don't compliment like as much bc they know i hate it but they still do it sometimes idk

56. Favourite aesthetic? i wanna be an e-girl yo!!!!!!!!! 

57. A popular trend that you dislike nobody has a crush on me and i hate it

58. Songs you're currently obsessed with? pied piper by BTS

59. Song you normally wouldn't admit you like. anything by BTS lol i used to like be embarrassed for how much i like k pop but now i don't really care lol #stanBTS2020

60. Favourite genre? rap/r n b/alternative

61. Favourite artist/band/genre? i listen to every genre except country sooooooo yeah i really like billie eilish, BTS, the weeknd, juicewrld, lil nas x, trippie red, post malone,

62. Hated popular songs/artists? i don't rlly like selena gomez or justin bieber or taylor swift

63. Put your music on shuffle and list first 5 only - RY X i.f.l.y. - Bazzi novacane - frank ocean jungle - drake bang! - trippie redd

64. Can you sing or play any instruments? no and no

65. Do you like karaoke? no but i like to sing along to songs when I'm alone

66. Own any albums? haha noooo i got apple music son

67. Do you listen to radio? What stations? errr RARELY i used to listen to r n b stations tho

68. Favourite movie/series? idk donnie darko?? i also just finished tharntype n that was really good. also i liked tokyo ghoul. AND GIVEN IS REALLY GOOD

69. Favourite genre of movies/books/etc i like horror/scary/paranormal/funny movies and i like love stories in books

70. Your fictional crush/es danny phantom, ken kaneki

71. Which fictional character is you? uhhhh idk...

72. Are you a shipper? List your otps, if so frerard, ryden, taekook, mewgulf

73. Favourite greek god? idk they all kinda suck but maybe hades

74. A legend from where you live that you like i don't really know any:(

75. Do you like art? What's your favourite work or artist? i like to look at art! i think van gogh is cool

76. Can you share your other social media? ig: ciannnna venmo: ciannnna

77. Favourite youtubers? i don't really watch youtubers but maybe shane dawson and emma chamberlain

78. Favourite platform? twitter

79. How much time do you spend on the internet? too much time

80. What video games have you played? Which one's your favourite? i once played GTA5 that was fun!

81. Your favourite books (manga also counts) idk i don't really read anymore:/ i was into the hunger games and the twilight series when i was young. now i kinda read online manga and i really liked BJ Alex and killing stalking. and like for online books the unholyverse series, a splitting of the mind, the anatomy of a fall

82. Do you play board/card games? no but i like to play checkers and uno and cards against humanity

83. Have you ever been to a night marathon in cinema? nopee

84. Favourite holiday halloween is cool also christmas is alright bc gifts

85. Are you into dramas? i’ve been getting into thai boys love dramas lol sue me

86. Would you use death note, if you had one? um YES.

87. What changes would you make in the world, no matter how impossible, if you had the power to? everyone needs to be a little kinder and have a crush on me

88. Could you survive a zombie apocalypse? absolutely not I'm not physically fit and don't have useful skills

89. If you had to be turned into a paranormal being, what would it be? vampire duh [or maybe ghost]

90. What would you want to happen to you after your death? i want to see my mom

91. If you had to change your name, what would be your pick? idk something cool ... i love the name Daisy

92. Who would you switch your life with for a week? idk probably kylie jenner

93. Pick an emoji to be your tattoo idk the alien? 94. Write 3 things about yourself - only one of them must be true -im very productive with my time management skills -my favorite color is purple -i don't get nervous when I'm alone in public

95. Cold or hot? cold

96. Be a hero or be a villain? anti-hero

97. Sing everything you want to say or rhyme? sing if i’m good at it but if I'm not good then rhyme

98. Shapeshifting or controlling time? shapeshifting

99. Be immortal or be immune to everything aside from natural death?immortal

100. ..... or .....? ......?

[deathtotheangels]

For the “Ask Me Things” ask, I order you to do all of them

ASK ME THINGS

1. You woke up naked next to the last person you texted, what would you say?

Good morning!

2. What’s going on between you and the last person you kissed?

We’re about to go grocery shopping

3. If your boyfriend or girlfriend was into drugs, would you care?

Depends on the drugs.

4. Is your last name longer than six letters?

No

5. Was your last kiss drunk or sober?

Sober.

6. Have you ever wanted to have someone but you messed it up?

Of Course.

7. What does your last received text say?

Bog mood.

8. How many times have you kissed the last person you kissed?

Over a million?

9. Where was your last kiss at?

In bed.

10. When is the last time you saw your sister?

I don’t have a sister.

11. What do you drink in the morning?

Coffee.

12. Where did you sleep last night?

In my bed.

13. Do you think relationships are hard?

They can be.

14. If you could go back and change something in the past 5 months, would you?

Yes tf I would.

15. You’re locked in a room with the last person you kissed, any problems?

Absolutely not.

16. Would you rather it be sunny or rainy?

Rainy.

17. Do you know anyone with the same middle name as you?

Yes.

18. Are you wearing jeans,sweatpants,or pajama pants?

Sweatpants.

19. Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 years from now?

I sure fucking hope so lmao

20. Does anyone like you?

Yes.

21. Have you ever kissed someone with a name that starts with an S?

No.

22. Is the last person you kissed gay?

Yes.

23. Is there a person you CANNOT stand?

YES.

24. Have you ever considered getting a tattoo?

Since I have two, yes?

25. In the past week have you cried?

Yes.

26. What breed was the last dog you saw?

English Bull Terrier.

27. Do you dry off in the shower or out of the shower?

Out of the shower.

28. Have you ever kissed a football player?

Yes.

29. Do you think you’re old?

No.

30. Do you like text messaging?

Yes.

31. What type of day are you having?

An average day?

32. Have you ever thought about getting your nose pierced?

No.

33. Do you prefer warm or cold weather?

Warm.

34. Is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you?

I guess so.

35. Would you prefer a relationship or a fling?

Relationship. Flings suck.

36. Are you a simple or complicated person?

I’d like to think I’m pretty simple.

37. What song are you listening to?

We looked like lighting by the wonder years.

38. When you say you’re sorry do you mean it?

Yes.39. Is there a person that knows everything or almost everything about you?

Em knows everything about me. 40. What made you start liking the person you like now?

Honestly a dorky drawing of Castiel.41. When did you last receive a text message?

Like, 10 minutes ago.42. What is wrong with you right now?

I’m ungodly tired all of the time.43. How well do you know the last person you texted?

Pretty well.44. Does anyone disgust you?

Ofc.45. Would you date someone right now if they asked?

I’m already engaged to someone. 46. Are you in a good mood right now?

Not really. But I’m not in a bad mood?47. Who was the last person you talked to in person?

Em.48. What color shirt are you wearing?

Light Blue.49. Has someone recently told you something you didn’t want to hear?

Lmao someone told me I didn’t get a job that I interviewed for so yeah.50. Anyone you’re giving up on?

Not yet.51. Do you hate the person you fell hardest for?

No.

52. Have you ever thought about giving up on someone but couldn’t?

Oh yeah buddy.53. Do you like rain?

Yes.54. Do you care if your boyfriend/girlfriend drinks?

I don’t care. 55. Have you ever liked somebody and never told them?

Ofc. All of highschool?56. Do you like to cuddle?

FUCK YEAH I DO.57. Are you shy?

Kind of. 58. Do you get along with girls?

I’d sure hope so.59. Have you dated the person you texted last?

Currently.60. What do you carry with you at all times?

My phone, my wallet, my cigarettes, my lighter. 61. If you were paid 1 million dollars to spend the night in a supposed haunted house, would you?

OH FUCK YEAH BUD.62. Do you think you can last in a relationship for five months?

I’ve been in a relationship for 6 years.63. Think back to October, were you in a relationship?

^^^ I’ve been in a relationship for 6 years.

64. The person you like kisses you on the forehead, do you find this cute?

Boy howdy I do.65. Did anything “cute” happen in the last week?

Yes. Christmas was cute.

66. How old are the last three people you kissed?

23, 22, 21.

67. Would you rather pay to get your nails done or do them yourself?    

Neither.68. Which do you like better- Zebra print or leopard print?   

Neither. 69. Do you have any stickers on your car?    

I have an Ithaca is gorges sticker on my car that a friend of mine got me!70. Would you rather listen to Luke Bryan or Lil Wayne?    

Lil Wayne.71. Blackberry, Anroid, or iPhone?    

I’m an iPhone bitch.72. When’s the last time you had pizza from Pizza Hut?    

Like. 5 years ago?73. Do you like diet soda? 

Nah.    74. What color are the walls in your room?    

Horrible beige.75. Are you 16 or older?    

I am 23. 76. Do you watch Pretty Little Liars?    

No.77. Do you have a job?    

NOT YET DON’T RUB IT IN. 78. What are your initials?    

NES like the video game console!79. Did you ever have braces?    

I was literally just talking about it. Yes. 80. Are you from the south?    

No, but I did live in NC for 18 months.

81. What does your last status on facebook say?    

It’s pictures of my animals from christmas.82. Do you still talk to the first person you ever kissed?    

Yes. Occasionally.83. Are you closer to your mom or your dad?    

My dad.84. Have you ever done cheerleading or gymnastics?    

No.85. What’s the last movie you saw in theaters?    

Rocky Horror?86. Do you smoke?    

Yes.87. Would you rather wear heels or flip flops?    

Flip flops.88. Is your phone touch screen?    

Yes.89. Do you normally wear your hair straight or curly?    

straight.90. Have you ever snuck out of your house?  

Yeeee.  91. Would you rather swim in a river, lake, or pool? 

A river.   92. Have you ever made out in a car?    

Yo ofc I have.93. …Had sex in a car?    

Yee YEe94. Are you single or in a relationship?    

In a relationship. 95. What were you doing last night at midnight?   

Laying in bed playing a game. 96. When’s the last time you saw fireworks?    

A long time.97. Do you like the camera on your phone?  

Kinda.  98. Have you ever had a friend with benefits?    

Lmao yeah. Don’t do it kids. 99. Have you ever passed out from drinking?    

I don't think so??? I’ve come close tho???100. Are you friends with people on facebook that you actually hate? 

No.    101. Have you ever had a pregnancy scare?  

No.  102. Name your favorite Kesha song:    

None of them?103. Do you have any tan lines right now?    

No. I wish lmao.104. Would you ever wear cowboy boots with shorts?    

Nope. Never. Thanks. 

Thanks for asking me these awesome questions!

[metriorhynchus]

OC Interview.

Thank you so much for the tag @rainofaugustsith. That was awesome. :D Tagging... @the-sith-in-the-sky-with-diamond @cyrraluu. No pressure ofc. Sorry if you've already done that. :’D

Meet the most ridiculous commander in the galaxy. Yo!

1. What is your name?

The-Legendary-Amazing-Commander-of-Awesomeness at your service. *laughs* I’m joking, buddy. Leo Naomi is my name. Or just Leo.  2. Do you know why are you named that? I already love this question, pal. Cuz’... well, actually, I gave myself a name. It just sounds good and, more importantly, it's... empty. And it has nothing to do with my family and my past. *smiles* Maybe someday I'll tell you about my real name, but... not now, okay?

3. Are you single or taken? Aw, с’mon, look at me. How can such a girl be single?  4. Have any abilities or powers? Honestly? No! I really don't know why everyone thinks I'm f*ckin’ queen of the boy scouts. Or... commander. I'm just good at my job, nothing more. 5. Stop being a Mary Sue. But it's fun. *laughs* C’mon, don't be so boring, Marty.  6. What’s your eye color? Red.  7. How about your hair color? I'm surprised you've never seen me. I'm blonde, in case you haven't noticed. And yeah, it’s natural. 8. Have any family members?

Lana is the only member of my family. But if you mean my parents... I dunno. As far as I remember, they remained on Coruscant. But I have not had contact with them for eight years.  Ahem...  Can we talk about something else?

9. Oh? How about pets? Pets? You mean Theron? *laughs* He's still buying me drinks after the incident with the Order of Zildrog. But, seriously, I wanted to have a kowakian monkey-lizard on my ship. I'm glad Risha talked me out of it. 10. That’s cool, I guess. Now, tell me something you don’t like? Hmm... I don’t like... when someone steals my spaceships, you know. You'd be amazed how often that happens. 11. Do you have any activities/hobbies that you like to do?

Shooting, flying, drinking. Spending time with my girlfriend. Did I mention the shooting ? 12. Have you ever hurt anyone in any way before? Look around you, buddy. Of course, more than once. 13. Ever… killed anyone before? Um... we're literally at war, you know? Do I really need to comment? 14. What kind of animal are you?

Hmm... Annoying, insufferable and wild, but cute at the same time, I guess? Some kind of... hyenax? 15. Name your worst habits? Silly and inappropriate jokes, I suppose. I mean, that's why I'm not allowed to negotiate. Never. I can't do anything about it, I swear. Lana tried. You know what she said? “All right, this is officially useless.” 16. Do you look up to anyone at all? I... don't think so, to be honest. 17. Are you gay, straight or bisexual? “Hah, gaaayyyy!” *laughs* I’m sorry, I’m sorry. But it's true, yeah. 18. Do you go to school?

Nah, for what purpose? Spending years doing something useless? Life gives you far more useful lessons. My parents didn't care about my education, you know. The gang cared. 19. Ever want to marry and have kids one day? Was that a proposal? *laughs* Damn, I dunno. Maybe I'll get married someday. But kids... no. Definitely not. It would be a tragedy for the galaxy. 20. Do you have any fangirls/fanboys? I think I left my autograph on the asses of half of Zakuul. 21. What are you most afraid of? This is... a really difficult question. I'm afraid of losing friends, loved ones. I'm afraid of becoming completely helpless. I'm really afraid of a lot of things. I just can't show it. 22. What do you usually wear? In fact, anything that comes to hand. Shirts, jackets, hoodies, chinos. Something simple and comfortable. And I prefer dark colors. 23. What’s one food that tempts you?

Did I mention I'm great at making fish-ramen? Buddy, this is worth living for.

24. Am I annoying to you? Nope. What makes you think that? 25. Well, it’s still not over! Okay?.. 26. What class are you (low/middle/high)?

I have no idea. Really. I am the Commander of the Alliance, of course, but... aw come on, look at me. I'm still a street jerk.  27. How many friends do you have? Well, let's count. Lana, Corso, Risha, Dachir... That's all. 28. What are your thoughts on pie?

I don't take food from strangers. *smiles* Seriously, I think I'll pass. 

29. Favorite drink? Pale ale. Or black tea. Depending on my mood. 30. What’s your favorite place? My bed. 31. Are you interested in anyone? I have Lana, you know. Being interested in someone else is... dangerous. 32. That was a stupid question… *laughs* Well, yeah, sort of. 33. Would you rather swim in a lake or the ocean? In the pool.  34. What’s your type?

Do you realize I'm going to be in trouble if you keep asking questions like that? *laughs* I dunno, buddy. I see personalities, not “types”. 35. Any fetishes?

Whoah... slow down. I don't even want to talk about it! 36. Camping or outdoors? I like to spend time outdoors. I can sleep there if I have to. No problem.

[mini-pretzel]

alright dude yea EVERY NUMBER FOR SWEETHEART ASKS

… what have i signed up for?

//cracks knuckles

grab a juice box, grab a snack.

we’ll be here for a while. what have i gotten myself into

1. Talk about your first love. 

oh jesus. i actually recently found my old journal lol

from way back when. 2009 i think? i was 13 or some shit. jesus. ok. so my first love was actually over the internet.

yeah, i know. nowadays we’re spoiled with tinder n shit, but back in 2009, all we had was myspace and msn and i met this fucker on skype.

i was so ahead of my time.

anyway, it was october 25, 2009.

here’s a snippet from my journal entry:

well i met a guy on skype. he’s a month younger cause my b-day is on oct 14 and his is on nov 18. but i don’t mind it.

yoooo i was into younger guys even at 13, jfc hahhaa //kill me jk hmu

and then on the next page hahahhaa omg

december 2, 2009

well me and ___ are no longer together. well we never began. he broke my heart two times already. going in depression. please don’t bother. first love, ha!

omfg damn, two months. yeah, that lasted long. also old me: ur so dramatic lol

also i was a feisty lil fella, jeez.

2. What’s the most beautiful songs you’ve ever heard in your opinion? 

this one

3. How’s your heart feeling right now?

a lil stressed. im like, hoping i can get through all of these questions without my computer crashing. pray 4 me.

4. What kind of self care is your favorite to do? 

ok, first thing to note, i fucking love self care. like, too much if im honest.

baths with bubbles and nice smelling scents, lotions, a face mask, taking my time with washing my face and hair and putting on the cutest clothes after. also snacks, always snacks.

when im feeling like spending money: massage. full body. best thing ever. i treat myself to it at least once a year for my b-day.

5. What’s your skincare routine? 

ok so i just got a new skincare line. it’s from nature republic. i have a cleanser, a toner and a moisturizer. it’s fairly simple (unlike 9 steps in korean ahhahha, but like i’ll probably get there in time) also i have a peel mask that smells like bananas that i put on twice a week to get rid of dead skin cells. oh and sometimes i do korean face masks, too.

6. How did you get to be so beautiful?

answered that q here

7. Do you have any stuffed animals?

NO! //hides them all away

8. Best trip you’ve ever been on?

thailand. my parents took me w/ them on their honeymoon.

lol idek why either. trust me.

i was just there for the swimming, riding elephants, getting food poisoning and downing two banana splits in one afternoon. good times.

9. Favorite thing about your room? 

i live in a jungle. but also in an art gallery cause my mom buys paintings online and resells them, but it’s become such a habit for her they are literally EVERYWHEREE I CANNOT.

also sorry mom i keep forgetting to water the GAZILLION plants THAT YOU HAVE MOVED INTO MY ROOM FOR SOME REASON. they’ll be dead by the time ur home. srry ilyyyyy.

also tae hmu if u want some paintings. i got way too many.

10. Opinion on love? 

dude. idk. i mean. it’s definitely not something one can describe easily or fully grasp.

im still waiting for my big love to come along, so like, we can talk about that when we get there.

otherwise, i’ll say this quote that i heard in a song:

give your heart, but keep your head.

11. Are you affectionate? 

with certain people. im weird.

with some people im like no, don’t touch me pls. i bite and scratch.

and with others you cannot get them out of my death love grip.

12. Who do you look up to? 

i look up to bts a lot. they’re doing a lot of good and they’re very respectable artists.

but i also look up to a lot of writers on here because i want to create worlds and writings like them. i won’t tag them cause rip them trying to find why i tagged them in this long ass post haha.

13. Favorite poet? 

@psycho-slytherin

lol sorry bae

ur gonna have to scroll to find out why i tagged u. and then go red and yell at me. hahah.

i also like silentium! by Fyodor Tyutchev

also everything by pushkin (esp ‘i loved you’ fuck that one gets me every time). seriously. that man isn’t called the golden poet in our country for nothing.

i actually don’t read a lot of poetry nowadays unless its my own or my friends’

but im open to recommendations

14. Song that makes you happy? How about one that calms you down when you’re in a bad place?

answered here!

15. Do you play an instrument?

lol no. i was almost taught the piano (lol rip me, i wanna kill my younger lazy ass self) and i dabbled into learning the violin. but that’s like a whole story and a half hahahaha.

16. Do you do art? Using what (pencil, watercolor, etc)?

i used to pencil draw, nothing special tho. a lot of naked ppl lol. butts n boobs were my fave. also pecks whoo.

17. Do you dance? What style of dance? 

i don’t! but i want to. i’ve been looking into dancing schools. i might do hip hop n stuff. see if i have the rhythm, i can’t tell from just jumping around my room lol

18. What’s your zodiac sign? Do you believe in astrology? 

im a libra yo. diplomatic and indecisive af.

i kinda do? there’s some sense there, but it’s too vague. i think ppl need to look into their charts to really grasp their character.

and for some it may not be true at all, so like. idk. we’re all just doing our best here.

19. Favorite old film? 

a russian film that i always watch over the new year. my mom would always joke that the new year doesn’t start till we watch it lol

the irony of fate

20. What’s your hairstyle? 

idk

u

tell

me

21. What weather is the most beautiful, in your opinion?

cloudy but warm. so there’s not too much sun but u can enjoy a nice walk outside without getting rained on.

22. What upsets you most about the world? 

i only have two hands but there are so many cats and dogs. i cannot pet all of them.

23. Are you in love right now?

answered ;)

24. Do you have a crush? If so, talk about them!

here u go

25. Do you have pets? Talk about something sweet about them! 

i don’t! but i wish i did i would shower them with my love.

but @the-trth-untold dogs are the cutest and @psycho-slytherin cats make my day. pls spam meeeee. also i love @paristae cat too.

26. Do you have a lucky number? 

yup. 22.

27. Have you ever wished on a star? What about on a fallen eyelash? 

i’ve never seen a fallen star, so no.

but i’ve wished on a fallen eyelash, always.

28. Do you believe emoji spells to work? 

emoji spells??

bruh i’ve never even heard of it till this ask wtf is that shit

bruh i mean if it works for ppl all power to them??? idk i never tried it

29. Do you believe in magic in general? 

i believe in magic tricks. but magic died for me when santa stopped existing.

30. What’s the most beautiful thing in life, In your opinion?

here

31. Opinion on the color pink? What about baby blue? 

gorgeous colors. i quite like mauve pink and deep dark blue tho.

but baby blue looks amazing on some folks. oof.

32. What instrumental sound is your favorite? 

piano. always.

33. Do you like the sound of wind? What about the sound of rain? 

answered :)

34. Who makes you happy? 

bts and all of my mutuals

35. What makes you happy? 

sleep, food, music, writing, cuddles. and forehead kisses.

also more listed here

36. Imagine your ideal life, the life you wish to make, what will that look like? 

i live in a nice apartment. doesn’t have to be expensive, just nice and clean with wooden floors and spacious windows.

i have all the necessities that i need and im never lonely.

i have also touched countless hearts by my books and am able to live comfortably just from my works.

haha. you said ideal, right?

also have someone to spend it with. someone i’d write poetry about daily. a bestfriend first and foremost before a lover.

37. Do you wear makeup? If so what’s your favorite type of makeup or specific makeup product? Favorite store to buy makeup?

answered this fella here

38. Do you wear dresses? If so what’s your favorite dress you own? 

i used to have dresses. but not anymore.

i liked the long sleeve sweater black one i had with a low cut. it was gorgeous. i dont have much of boobage but i always felt like i was sexy in it.

39. Ever been heartbroken? How do you deal with it? 

yep. you just kind of take it one day at a time. some days will be better than the last. some days you’ll cry a little harder and some days you move on a little further. it takes time. make sure you have good people around you so you don’t fall into depression.

40. Who’s your closest friend? What do you love about them? 

ah, to be honest i don’t have a closest friend. i’ve always been the kind of person that always had friends around her but never anyone too deep. and i kinda wish i did. i just don’t know who would come to fill that spot. people always leave, so i kind of gave up assigning that spot. i think the people that want to be in that spot will show themselves and tell me. otherwise i will not assume or assign.

41. Introvert or extrovert? 

introvert. but i have my moments. i can be charming and friendly when i want to.

42. Do you like MBTI? What’s your MBTI? 

i had to look it up cause i forgot what it was lol

i took the test a while back: im infp.

there’s not a lot of us, apparently. which is cool. shout out to all infps out there!

43. Would you be a fairy, a mermaid, a vampire, a siren, or an angel? 

hmmm. what kind of fairy tho? lol

maybe vampire? idk i’d be a sexy immortal lady that’d bite innocent boys and girls that just want to have a good time lol

44. What’s the best song a friend has ever introduced to you? 

this oneee

45. Parlez-vous français? 

no~

46. Most beautiful place you’ve been to? 

butchart gardens

47. Where/when do you truly feel at home? 

here

48. Does smiling put you in a better mood? Try it right now, you’re smile is gorgeous! 

kdjfalkfjdlkdsaf //hides

this ask is flirting with me…

well that’s as much action as im going to get this new years eve lol

49. Favorite shoe you own?

my sweet rose gold kicks, yo.

50. Can you walk in stilettos? Do you like them? 

lol no. i cannot. and i do not. im not made for heels. im tall enough as it is.

51. Do you feel loved? 

every time i talk to my mutuals yes //cry

52. How do you express love to those you care about? 

by saying cute words and by clinging to them like a koala.

53. Favorite term(s) of endearment? 

sweetheart, dear, idk im just like anything honestly. love, baby. go crazy.

i also love mean terms like idiot and stuff. or nicknames that hold inside jokes, something between the two of you only.

54. Most romantic thing someone’s ever done for you? 

hasn’t happened yet. so yeah. any takers? lol

55. When is the happiest you’ve ever been? 

reading a good book for the first time. or just experiencing something new that i end up loving for the first time. nothing can replace that first feeling.

56. Are you happy right now? 

happy im almost done hahhahahahaa. ha.

no but srsly i am

57. What makes you smile? 

stupid jokes. puns. someone laughing and showing themselves fully.

58. Do you laugh a lot? 

i mean. i think so? i try. i make jokes a lot and laugh at myself if that counts?

59. What’s your favorite kind of aesthetic? 

ughhhh comfy bf aestheticcc

60. Do you want to marry for love or for some other reason (like money)? 

i have a sour view on marriage. so only if i love someone hard enough. but even then i don’t know if i’ll do it. it hurts too much to think about marriage and wedding rings for me.

61. What would your dream wedding look like? Do you want to get married? 

see above.

62. Favorite flower?

orchid.

63. Favorite artist?

claude monet.

64. Favorite music artist?

bts lol

no surprises there.

65. How kind do you think you are? Is kindness important to you? 

its not something for me to decide. i try to be kind to everyone, but how it is interpreted is different for everyone. i’d like to think i’m kind.

and yes, very important. especially being kind to yourself.

66. Ever made a playlist for someone? 

yes i have. i love making playlists for people. i don’t get asked that enough.

67. Do you have anything you do to physically comfort you when your sad? Such as a favorite blanket? Or a relaxing bath? 

music. music always helps. and tea.

ideally i’d love for someone to massage my scalp, but hahah no one’s been able to do it the right way. when it’s done right i melt and forget about everything.

68. Early bird or night owl? 

night owl.

moonchild, lol

69. Morning routine? 

wake up, look in the mirror, look away from the mirror, go back to bed.

70. Night routine? 

SHOWER N NICE SMELLING LOTIONS. AND SKINCAREEEEEE OOOOF.

also fresh sheets.

71. What is the most lovely quality a person could have in your opinion? 

answered here

72. Do you cry often? Does crying help you get the emotions out? Do you feel better after? 

i only cry when i watch or read something. and it does help. i always feel better after. but i tend to keep my emotions hidden away, the negative ones at least.

73. Do you like hugs? 

i love hugs. come hug me, bro.

u must smell nice tho.

74. When was the last time you kissed someone?

august.

75. Are you small or tall? 

tall. 175cm.

76. Do you like wholesome memes? 

answered

77. Favorite thing about the past? 

cd players. chia pet commercials. flip phones. mom jeans.

78. Do you ever wonder about the future? 

all the time. esp mine. i have no idea what the fuck im doing.

79. Have you ever lived in a different country than you currently live in? 

yep. i’ve lived in america and canada before. and traveled a lot.

80. Do you like plane flights? Airports? 

i don’t mind flying. and depends on the airport. some are better than others.

81. Sunrises or sunsets? 

sunrises. every day is a new day~

82. The beach or a forest? 

bitch- i mean beach. :)

83. What time of day do you tend to be in the best mood? 

any time i am eating. or sleeping. or reading.

im so close to being done omg. this is fun tho.

84. Do you push yourself to act together and in a good mood even when you aren’t? 

always. ain’t nobody gonna deal with that baggage lol

85. Favorite kind of tree? 

japanese maple tree

86. Do you care about the health of the Earth? 

i mean i don’t even care about my health that much tbh, i need to work on that.

87. What did you like most about your childhood, if anything? 

that i got to travel and learned english very young.

88. Do you read a lot? What’s your favorite book? 

answered here

89. What are you most nostalgic for at the moment? 

old school disney

90. What’s your favorite personality trait you have? 

answered this bad boi here

91. List at least ONE thing you love about your appearance. 

eyes. have to work on my ass tho. squats baby.

92. When was the last time you truly felt calm, without much of anything to worry about? 

after a massage.

93. Do you worry a lot? 

eh, i worry enough, i suppose. there’s just some stuff you can’t control.

94. The dazzling lights of the city or the relaxing countryside?

dazzling lights of the city. especially in the evening. and in the winter. ahhhhh. someone hold my hand and walk with meeeeee.

95. Ever changed the shoelaces on one of your shoes? For what reason? 

no i haven’t had that pleasure, lol

maybe next year

96. Favorite pastry? 

BUTTER. CROISSANT.

97. Do you like doing little acts of kindness? 

yes. uwu

98. How’s your day/night going? 

well im finally done with this ask holy shit, and i need to resume writing my namjoon fic so… fantastic. i also have noodles. whoooo.

thank you for reading this whole damn mess of an ask.

ily

[dontdowhatisayandnobodygetshurt]

Even numbers. Fuck you 💙

:’) 🖕💙

Under the cut… oh my god… lord give me strength… if any of y’all wanna get to know me… read this monster X’D

2. Are you outgoing or shy?

I think a bit of both?? I’m the type of person who’d willingly get lost in a strange city but also suddenly develop a stutter when I try to communicate with my fellow humans. :)

4. Are you easy to get along with?

lmao no.

6. What kind of people are you attracted to?

Kind ones. Who can tolerate me.

8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind?

An ex friend/abuser atm. :))))

10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?

What qualifies as deep?? I guess, my Dad?? Maybe??

12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?

Dodie Clark - Monster

Easy Life - Pockets

Lorde - Buzzcut Season

Zack Hemsey - The Way

Fits and the Tantrums - Roll Up

14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?

Yeah, I think so?

16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

I kissed my Mum on the top of her head. So, yes. XD

18. Do you still talk to your first crush?

That would be Jesse. So, yes. Hope he doesn’t find this blog yikes. X’D

20. Do you like your neighbors?

Yes on one side. No on the other side.

22. Where would you like to travel?

America firstly. Then all over the place to visit other friends. I promised my Mum I’d take her to San Francisco one day, so I gotta keep that promise.

24. Favorite part of your daily routine?

PETS :DDDDD

26. What do you do when you wake up?

Try my best not to murder anyone while I get my cup of tea liquid life ready. XD Say hi to doggos and beep babies. Check to see if any of my friends need me urgently. Then eat toast.

28. Who are you most comfortable around?

My pets. My parents. My friends.

30. Do you ever want to get married?

I really don’t mind getting married or living in sin. XD It would depend entirely on what my partner wanted, I’d do whatever would make them happy.

32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with?

No one. Guess you could say I’m demisexual.

34. Do you play sports? What sports?

Does horseback riding count?? I’ve dabbled in a bit of cricket. But my lungs don’t like intensive exercising, especially cardio stuff.

36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?

Story of my life, every single time. I’ve never told anyone I liked them. I’d rather die than make them feel bad or uncomfortable bc I know they don’t feel the same way.

38. Describe your dream girl/guy?

At the moment all I can think of is my crush lmao. :’)

40. What do you want to do after high school?

Absolutely nothing bc I’m a dropout. XD Be a completely self-taught author, hopefully.

42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean?

Online, I’m probably just really tired and don’t have the energy to be upbeat and/or talk to people. In real life, it’s nothing abnormal; I hate my voice so I don’t talk much and I like quiet. If I’m not using a bunch of emojis (you know how I normally do) when I’m talking, you know I’m either being super serious, or I’m pissed off, or both.

44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?

NEITHER YIKES I LIKE MY SOLID EARTH THANK U VERY MUCH

46. What are you paranoid about?

Being annoying.

48. Have you ever been drunk?

Nope. Not really planning on it, either. I’m kind of curious as to how I’d be, though. Like I have deep-rooted buried anger issues so I might be angry, but I’m also depressed so I might be a puddle of tears and sadness, BUT my personality is v energetic and happy so… who knows, dude. X’D

50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore?

Blue and grey. It has “yo” on the hood. :D

52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself?

Biologically male. please.

54. Favourite store?

?? don’t have one. 

56. Favourite colour?

Navy or a kind of dark aqua-navy kind of colour, like a bit of a green tinge as well? I’m also really fond of yellow too.

58. Last thing you ate?

LEFTOVER HAMBURGER AND IT WAS DELICIOUS I FORGOT HOW MUCH I LOVED HAMBURGERS!!!!!!1!!

60. Ever won a competition? For what?

Yeah, dog training competition with our German Shepherd when I was 11.

62. Been arrested? For what?

No yet lmao.

64. Tell us the story of your first kiss?

I’ll be sure to tell you about it when it happens. XD

66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends?

I don’t have any irl friends so… HELL YEAH!!

68. Twitter or Tumblr?

Tumblr. Obviously.

70. Names of your bestfriends?

I could literally just list all my Tumblr friends here. I’ve learnt not to get specifically close to any one or two persons. So… all my beans!!! Love you!!

72. What colour are your towels?

Blue! :D I was forced to use the pink towels in the set when I was little and not out as trans so now I surround myself in all the gendered blue bullshit X’D

74. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?

….. maaayyyybbbeee.

76. Favourite animal?

D O G

78:Chocolate or Vanilla?

Neither.

80. What colour shirt are you wearing?

It’s my very yellow button down!! :D

82. Favourite tv show?

S E N S E 8

84. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2?

Never seen either oops.

86. Favourite character from Mean Girls?

¯\_(ツ)_/¯

88. First person you talked to today?

Enna aka Cinnamonpuff aka steverogershield

90. Name a person you hate?

My brother, Mackenzie. :)

92. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?

Anyone who mistreats animals.

94.How many sweatpants do you have?

I rarely wear anything but sweatpants, so I have 8. THEY’RE COMFY OKAY. And since it’s usually cold or hot here with no real warm in between, I’m either wearing shorts or sweatpants. It’s only in the rare in-between weather (like now) that I wear my jeans.

96. Last movie you watched?

Can’t remember. I watched the first season of Jessica Jones tho, so… show instead of movie. XD

98.Favourite actor?

TERRY CREWS

100. Have any pets?

YES!!! 3 dogs (one German Shepherd named Ria, a Whippet named Granger, and a mutt named Maude), 3 chickens (Haymitch the black one, Cinna the dark brown one, Effie the pale brown one) and 2 ducks (Peeta and Katniss.) THEY’RE MY BABIES AND I’D DIE FOR THEM!!! :’D

102. Do you type fast?

LMAO APPARENTLY I DO??? My Dad thinks I must type gibberish and makes me type out what he says because he doesn’t think I can type that fast. I only type with 2 fingers normally too. X’D

104. Can you spell well?

w e l l (idk. maybe.)

106. Ever been to a bonfire party?

Yup.

108. Have you ever been on a horse? 

Many times. I LOVE them SO MUCH.

110. Is something irritating you right now?

Yeah.

112. Do you have trust issues?

No. *insert canned audience laughter here* Yes, I do. Big time. Just bc I’m friendly doesn’t mean I trust anyone.

114. What was your childhood nickname?

Matt, actually!! :D

116. Do you play the Wii?

Used to, now I don’t have one anymore and it wasn’t my favourite console.

118.Do you like chicken noodle soup?

Y E S. GIMME!!!!!! :D

120.Favourite book?

Bird by Crystal Chan.

122.Are you mean?

I think I definitely can be very cutting when I lose my temper. But I haven’t done that in years now and I try very hard to be a good person. Luckily my first reaction is normally hurt, so by the time the anger kicks in I normally try and get out of the situation before I can say something harsh.

124.Can you keep white shoes clean?

NOPE. I can never keep anything clean, probably why I like dark colours so much. I literally do not own any white clothes anymore because they always get stained within a few hours of me wearing them asdfghjkl. 😅

126.Do you believe in true love?

Kind of. I believe that no relationship is ever perfect, but if people gel well and COMMUNICATE OFTEN AND HONESTLY the relationship can be amazing. I guess it’s its own kind of perfect relationship. I definitely think there’s people you get along brilliantly with, better than anyone else. There’s somebody in the world for everyone! :D

128.What makes you happy?

Animals. My friends. My OCs. :’)

130.What your zodiac sign?

Pisces!! I definitely think I’ve grown into it over time. X’D

132. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?

??? depends on whether I like them back or not, obviously. If I do, I’ll probably scream for a solid week and then decide if I want to drag them into my mountain of bullshit with a relationship, or leave it be. If I don’t, let them down as gently as I can. Also I’m a raging bi, so gender wouldn’t matter. :P

134.Favourite lyrics right now?

My all-time favourite lyrics are from The Judge by Twenty one Pilots:

“When the leader of the bad guys sangSomething soft and soaked in painI heard the echo from his secret hideawayHe must’ve forgot to close his doorAs he cranked out those dismal chordsAnd his four walls declared him insane”

136.Dumbest lie you ever told?

“Did you let Haymitch jump on your back again?”

“Uh… noooo.”

“Then why do you have massive scratches in the clear shape of chicken feet on your back?”

“UHHHHHH-”

i”M A HUFFLEPUFF OKAY I’M NOT GOOD AT LYING X’D

128.How tall are you?

I’m not.

140.Brunette or Blonde?

Like, people I’m attracted to, or for me? I honestly don’t care attraction wise. For me, I guess brunette bc I think I look really weird with pale hair lmao.

142.Night or Day?

NIGHT. Dear god, night.

144.Are you a vegetarian?

NOPE. Honestly think I’d go insane if I didn’t eat meat. XD I mean, I would if I had to, but I’d really prefer not to.

146.Tea or Coffee?

TEA. I hate coffee, I’ll leave that to other people. XD

148.Mars or Snickers?

SNICKERS. Mars are good but… Snickers!!!!

150. Do you believe in ghosts?

Hell fucking yes you bet I do pal!!!!!!

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All the 2's

WELP I HATE THIS FUCKING SITE WHEN TRYING TO MAKE A POST, SO @alotteofchar HERES YOURS TOO. And I slightly hate you for putting all of them….

1.You woke up naked next to the last person you texted, what would you say? 

UH, well it’s one of my best girl friends so, prolly “what the fuck”

3. If your boyfriend or girlfriend was into drugs, would you care?

Immensely, but that’s just cause I care about their wellbeing?

4. Is your last name longer than six letters?

Exactly 6

5. Was your last kiss drunk or sober?

Kinda tipsy tbh

6. Have you ever wanted to have someone but you messed it up?

Absolutely

7. What does your last received text say?

😂😂😂😂

8. How many times have you kissed the last person you kissed?

Hosnestly too many to count

9. Where was your last kiss at?

My house!

10. When is the last time you saw your sister?

In June on my vacation to my home town!

11. What do you drink in the morning?

Monster during the summer and coffee in the winter!

12. Where did you sleep last night?

My broken ass bed 😂

13. Do you think relationships are hard?

No? I dont know. I mean they can be, just depends I guess

14. If you could go back and change something in the past 5 months, would yo?

Yes!!

15. You’re locked in a room with the last person you kissed, any problems?

Nopee!!

16. Would you rather it be sunny or rainy?

Sunny!

17. Do you know anyone with the same middle name as you?

Lol my mom.

18. Are you wearing jeans,sweatpants,or pajama pant?

Work pants ftw

19. Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 years from now?

Uhhhhh, yeah! Probably

20. Does anyone like you?

Well, I fuckin HOPE so. Unless this means like, LIKE-like, then I still have my doubts,

21. Have you ever kissed someone with a name that starts with an S?

Yeah! Just one though!

22. Is the last person you kissed gay?

Nope!

23. Is there a person you CANNOT stand?

A few, but usually, I’m easy to get on with

24. Have you ever considered getting a tattoo?

Hell yeah! I’ve got 2, but I’m about to be getting my quarter sleeve started in a few weeks!!

25. In the past week have you cried?

Yeah, but hear me out, it was a SUPER cute commercial about a dog,

26. What breed was the last dog you saw? 

Uhhhhhh, in person? My aunts beautiful mutt.

27. Do you dry off in the shower or out of the shower?

Kinda both?

28. Have you ever kissed a football player?

Not totally sure on this one

29. Do you think you’re old?

Pfft, nah. I fuckin feel it though

30. Do you like text messaging?

Eh, its not too bad, but I have to switch apps and I’m lazy af about it sometimes

31. What type of day are you having?

Tired, at work dealing with finicky equipment

32. Have you ever thought about getting your nose pierced?

Yeah! But uh, fuck that.

33. Do you prefer warm or cold weather?

Hot as fuck weather with almost no humidity tbh

34. Is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you?

YESSSS

35. Would you prefer a relationship or a fling?

Uhhhh depends upon the person.

36. Are you a simple or complicated person?

Haha, yes.

37. What song are you listening to?

Steady hum of my equipment right now. But the last one was Hooked on you by Aranda

38. When you say you’re sorry do you mean it?

Well fuck yeah, I wouldnt say it if I didnt fuckin mean it.

39. Is there a girl that knows everything or almost everything about you?

Yeah!! My sister

40. What made you start liking the person you like now?

Personality!!

41. When did you last receive a text message?

11:16pm

42. What is wrong with you right now?

Pfft most things, but, these old finicky cunts of equipment are really getting on my nerves

43. How well do you know the last female you texted?

Well, it’s my mom now, but okayish?

44. Does anyone disgust you?

Ugh yeah, a few actually

46. Are you in a good mood right now?

Yes!

47. Who was the last person you talked to in person?

Winan worker who comes to my part of the plant

48. What color shirt are you wearing?

Black!

49. Has someone recently told you something you didn’t want to hear?

Yeah. But like, it was about equipment breaking, so

50. Anyone you’re giving up on?

Yup!

51. Do you hate the person you fell hardest for?

Nahh, they cool

52. Have you ever thought about giving up on someone but couldn’t?

Yeah! Only once though

53. Do you like rain?

Yeah! Only when I’m not in it

54. Do you care if your boyfriend/girlfriend drinks?

Nah,

55. Have you ever liked somebody and never told them?

Yeap! Regrettably

56. Do you like to cuddle?

Aha, well yeah!

57. Are you shy?

Honestly depends.

58. Do you get along with girls?

I get along with, but can get super annoyed, but that’s with everyone I guess

59. Have you dated the person you texted last?

Lol, no

61. If you were paid 1 million dollars to spend the night in a supposed haunted house, would you?

1 night of horror is nothing to getting out of debt tbh

60. What do you carry with you at all times?

Phone, mostly

62. Do you think you can last in a relationship for five months?

Yeah!

63. Think back to October, were you in a relationship?

Yep!!😁

64. The person you like kisses you on the forehead, do you find this cute?

I’d probably fuckin swoon honestly

65. Did anything “cute” happen in the last week?

YES, I CAUGHT A TINY ASS TOAD AND IT WAS ADORABLE

66. How old are the last three people you kissed?

21, 21, and 21. (Now)

67. Would you rather pay to get your nails done or do them yourself?  

Well, get them done, but that’s just because they know what they’re doing, lol

  68. Which do you like better- Zebra print or leopard print?   

No

 69. Do you have any stickers on your car?    

Yeah! Like 3

70. Would you rather listen to Luke Bryan or Lil Wayne?    

Uh, I dont know?

71. Blackberry, Anroid, or iPhone?    

Is BlackBerry still a thing?? Android though.

72. When’s the last time you had pizza from Pizza Hut?    

Like a week ago now

73. Do you like diet soda?    

Only the fruit flavors of diet rite!

74. What color are the walls in your room?   

White!

 75. Are you 16 or older?   

Yuh

 76. Do you watch Pretty Little Liars?    

Naj

77. Do you have a job?    

Yes!! And I love it!!

78. What are your initials?    

Hmf!

79. Did you ever have braces?    

Nope.

80. Are you from the south?    

Lmfao yess

81. What does your last status on facebook say?    

It was years ago, and I’m not fucking up this post again to look at it. This is the farthest I’ve gotten

82. Do you still talk to the first person you ever kissed?    

Nope!

83. Are you closer to your mom or your dad?    

My dad definitely!

84. Have you ever done cheerleading or gymnastics?    

Tried to! But I’m hella uncoordinated

85. What’s the last movie you saw in theaters?    

Incredibles 2!

86. Do you smoke?    

Yeah….

87. Would you rather wear heels or flip flops?    

Heels, I fucking hate flip flops

88. Is your phone touch screen?    

Yes!

89. Do you normally wear your hair straight or curly?   

Uh, wavy or straight.

 90. Have you ever snuck out of your house?   

Lol yes, but my dad never caught me.

 91. Would you rather swim in a river, lake, or pool?    

Uh, pool probably, I’m kinda weird about this shit tho

92. Have you ever made out in a car?    

Yep!

93. …Had sex in a car?    

Ahaha, well yeah, just not my preferred method

95. What were you doing last night at midnight?  

I was out cold

96. When’s the last time you saw fireworks?  

July 4th!

  97. Do you like the camera on your phone?    

It’s not bad, I guess

98. Have you ever had a friend with benefits?    

Yep!

99. Have you ever passed out from drinking?    

Too many times, lol

100. Are you friends with people on facebook that you actually hate?    

No doubt!

101. Have you ever had a pregnancy scare?    

A few

102. Name your favorite Kesha song:    

Tik-Toc!

103. Do you have any tan lines right now?   

More like burn lines….

 104. Would you ever wear cowboy boots with shorts?   

I have before and I will again!

This took literal hours, blood, and tears, cause this hell site kept fucking up!

And @zerxes96

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story time !

Time has given me more perspective on things.. This is a long post abt my previous (and first and only) relationship

He was a relatively wealthy, 18 yo German guy. A big family, a big house, a job and a car. Meanwhile, me: Finnish, unemployed, 22, living alone, only mom and three sisters as family. We couldn’t have any more different lives and he was so out of my league, but I don’t know if he knows that. We met through the internet, playing O*erwatch, and became fast friends, but then I went on a vacation and we couldn’t talk, and I missed him so much that I confessed I liked him.

So we started dating. I flew to Germany to meet him several times, each time more perfect than the last. We were really happy and in love, and me leaving always made us both cry for days. Neither of us had dated before, so we experienced everything together and it wasn’t always perfect, but it was amazing. Our personalities were similar but very different, we fit together like pieces of a puzzle. We talked about the future, and the plan was always for me to move to him.

But. I started to feel the (often imagined) pressure, because it’s important to me to be liked and accepted, I have to be perfect, and I don’t know how to deal with mistakes. His family always showered me with expensive gifts when I visited, perfumes, chocolates, traditional German food, handmade things from his grand-grandmother, even gifts for my family.. I couldn’t give them the same. I couldn’t even speak German, and the one time I met his more distant relatives they scolded me for it. Nobody else had said a word, except that they were happy I was learning some words. I felt ashamed, and out of place. I cried about it more than once, and he was sorry. I’m very shy, so talking in English to his family and friends was difficult as well, so I often just smiled and sit silently through the family gatherings. I felt like I was disappointing him and his family, even though his mother seemed to like me. I just knew it would be a lot easier for him to just find a cute German girl, he’s very attractive and talented in music, it should be easy for him.

As the day came closer when I was supposed to visit him again, I felt like I was choking with anxiety. I was just waiting for the inevitable moment when he would realize I was too difficult to be with, or his family would convince him to find a better girl. So I did the hardest and the easiest and the most cowardly thing I could. I didn’t go. I broke his heart. I hurt him more than anyone ever had, and I hurt myself too. He didn’t break up with me until about six months later, but in truth, it was me who ended that relationship long before that. We could never be the same again, and by the time he left me he didn’t love me anymore. I still did, but deep down I knew it would never work, we were both too young for anything serious, and living in different countries was painful.

I still maintained hope for a few months after that, that he would still like me like that again. But he became cold and distant, treating me as less than a friend, and eventually told me he had had a new girlfriend for a short time now. I got upset, we both said things we didn’t mean, and I cut all contact with him. I was deeply depressed, suicidal, it was the worst time of my life (he’ll never know about that). He made an attempt to contact me several months after, and I found out that his girlfriend broke up with him two days after he told me about her. So basically he lost me for.... nothing.... lol. We’ve been in touch on-off since then, not really like friends, because he only wants to talk when he’s bored and literally nobody else is available. Which isn’t often. I never text him first, I’ve been over him for a long time (that’s like 5 months now lmao). I miss it sometimes, but I’m able to think about the good memories with a smile and not sadness.

[hyuwujin]

♡ random tag ♡

I was tagged by my amazingly talented hyunjin stan besties, @hyunjinh and @hyuunjins ! Ty for tagging me bbs, ILYYY!

1) 5 favorite groups?

Stray Kids

BTS

ASTRO

GOT7

BlackPink

2) Top 5 on your bias list? (no particular order)

Hyunjin

Yoongi

Vernon

Bambam

JinJin

3) Ult Bias group and why you love them?

okay,,,woah, this is reaaaally hard to answer bc stray kids came into my life recently whereas BTS has been around for about a year askasd Okay, if you asked me in December who my ult was, no doubt I’d say BTS. All of them are so hardworking and to come from a small label and be such a huge sensation? Imagine the amount of work that had to be put in. Imagine the sleepless nights and meals they didn’t eat because they were working so hard. Esp, with Burn the Stage on yt, we’re learning so much of their hardships during their trainee days and it really breaks my heart. On another note, their lyrics! They aren’t all typical and pointed toward girls and I love that! We have songs about society, hate, and government (i’ll get into stray kids in a bit) I could go on. I appreciate every single one of those boys and I’m so proud of them, even if i haven’t been there for them since the beginning.

Whew;;;

Okay now? Am i allowed to have two ults? Bc I also love Stray KIds with my whole heart. They’re the group, I’ve spent the most time and money on alksjsad I’ve been there for them since predebut and that holds a special place in my heart! Watching their journey from being trainees to debuting is really going to stick with me. I was there when minho and felix were eliminated i’m sorry for bringing this up agiksjdh and I WAS ANGRY AS HELL AND SAD AND WANTED TO KILL JYP. I was there when they returned and I remember my heart swelling to see them again. Overall as a group, I just love these boys so much and I’m excited to see where they go with their music. They’re already questioning society and the thoughts going through teens/young adult minds and I JUST LOVE IT ALDSKSD

4) Ult Bias and why you love them?

As much as i love love love love love Hyunjin, I think my ult has always been Yoongi. He’s the guy i literally handed my heart to askldhs BTS was probably the group that really got me into kpop and my oh my, Yoongi just came on screen and I was breathless. i’ve got a thing for rappers alright? dont @ me. Anyway, don’t get me wrong, I love ALL of bts but Yoongi has a special place in my heart and I’ll always know him as that guy who drew me more into kpop sdjasd I COULD GO ON ABOUT HOW HARDWORKING HE IS BELIEVE ME! 

5) Favorite Kpop Meme

hmm, fav kpop meme? I think i like jungkook’s “pardon” the most asldkjsd

6) Favorite pic of your ult? (I dare you to only pick one)

oooooooh, this is difficult. I love blungi (blue haired yoongi) with all my heart bUT WHEN HES BLONDE? IM DECEASED;;;

(not my gif)

7) 5 Favorite Kpop MVs

I tired not to repeat artists alksdasd

Euphoria - BTS

Trauma - Seventeen

Baby - ASTRO

Hellevator - Stray Kids

Hate - 4minute

8) 10 Favorite Kpop songs?

Go Go - BTS

Grow up - Stray Kids

Crazy Sexy Cool - ASTRO

As if it’s Your Last - BlackPink

Lost - BTS

Don’t Wanna Cry - Seventeen

YAYAYA - Stray Kids

Just Right - GOT7

Daydream - Jhope

Change Up - Seventeen

9) Favorite Kpop crack video?

askdhasd The reason I grew to love bts so damn much was because of the crack videos. Deadass, I spent my entire spring break of last year ONLY watching crack videos. Hm, i think my favorite has to be the “waKE ME UP iNSidE” or “When Suga forgot his SWAG” adkhas

10) Favorite content creator within the fandom?

I think we can all agree that everyone blog made in the stray kids fandom is talented af and amazing!!!

11) What fandoms would you say you’re an active member of?

I used to be most active in the ARMY but...ive lost inspo for writing buT I STILL LOVE MY BOYS. i’ve been the most active in th e the stray kids fandom, much more than ARMY, i can tell you that. For bts, i’ve written fics and done fake texts but for sk? I’ve done that AND made moodboards, video edits and some shitposts asldkjsd

12) Take your top 3 biases- fmk

F(riendly convo with) - Vernon bc he just seems so funny and memey and ilh

M - uhh hyunjin bc we’re the closest in age and um,,,i love him???

K - Yoongi bc whenever i see him i wanna punch myself in the face lasdjd

13) If you could be best friends with any idol, who would you choose?

He’s a bias wrecker and it’s Kim Taehyung! Ngl, i wanna marry the hell outta that boy but i think we’re more compatible as besties adasd He just seems like he would be my personal bubble of happiness and he’d be there for me when i need a good laugh or someone to vent to.

14) If you could date any idol, who?

Okay so he isn’t even my bias but Jungkook???? Idk i just...whenever i see him, my heart just swells and i just wanna hug him sometimes and he looks so cuddly and he’s so funny and memey and omg i need to stop. so yeah, i love jeon jungkook and idk what to do with myself....

15) What’s one Kpop album you think everyone should have listened to?

BTS - Wings (that entire album kILLS me)

16) Are you a soft or a hard stan?

uhhhh i think i’m more of a soft stan but i’m not toTALLY innocent as hell.

17) An idol that makes you go into soft mode?

Jeongin. Have you seen that bbs smile? 

18) An idol that makes you want to smash the empire state building with one single punch?

Definitely Jungkook asdljasd

19) Favorite vocalist?

Kim Taehyung, no doubt. His voice is just so low and smooth and woah it can put me to sleep. 

20) Favorite Rapper?

Okay, i’m mentioning A LOT of bts and i’m sorry oops. I love Yoongi’s rapping ssosososo much but Changbin’s growling kind of rap? GIVES ME DEATH. AKSDH not gonna lie, i was intimidated the first time i heard him but after a while (and knowing he’s actually a big softie) i really grew to love it so much ah.

21) Favorite dancer?

Hyunjin! Any mv or dance video i’m watching, my eyes linger to Hyunjin bc I JUST LOVE HOW HE DANCES SO MUCH AHHHH

22) Things you have in common with your ult?

Nothing. Honestly, i doubt Yoongi and I have anything in common sldakjsd so i guess i’ll go with my 2nd ult. So ppl tell me i’m soft and shy like Hyunjin? So there’s that but I also notice how CUDDLY hyunjin is w/ everyone. AND ASK ANYONE I KNOW PERSONALLY (i’m looking at you, chels @pcysconverse​ ) IM SUCH A KOALA AND HUG AND CUDDLE EVERYONE ADLJSD

23) The most beautiful trait any idol can have?

i love modesty aslkjasd You know, those idols who work so hard and then brush it off and don’t bother to brag about just how hard they’ve worked. I love that.

Physically, smiles are the way to win my heart. 

24) Songs that will always make you jam along?

District 9. On friday, my friend and i were listening to it on the train and we were jamming, all the while people probs sent us weird looks.

25) Your worst wrecker?

Jeon JungkOOOOOk! *jimin’s voice* 

26) Any kpop concerts you’ve been to?

I went to an ASTRO fanmeeting back in February! 

27) Favorite choreo?

GoGo;;;; YOLOYOLOYOLO YO :))))))

28) Favorite live performance?

LITERALLY ANY FIRE by BTS PERFORMANCE. This one is a personal fave tho.

29) Favorite debut mv?

i DONT’T HAVE ONE ASDLJSD

30) Recommend a rookie group

stray kids bc i think they’re tho only one i know adlksad

31.) A kpop song you could listen to every day for the rest of your life?

Euphoria bc i have been listening to it everyday asldkjasd

32) Tag some cute mutuals you’d like to get to know better (and to do this challenge)!

@seungchanie @hyyunjinn @jeongin @straykidzz @straycuties @minhomygod @realstraykids @changbeanie @felixthekoala and anyone who’d like to do it!