#tldr is people need to calm down about the second season ending the way it did and remember that-
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contagious-addiction · 1 year ago
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Bruh i legit just finished watching good omens 2 and I’m soooo pissed at the shit part of the fandom who’re upset about how this season ended.
I can’t tell you the amount of small things I saw just in the end alone that make me absolutely certain Az is gonna get into Heaven specifically to mess with or find out about the Second Coming.
Like!!! His expression when Metatron said Second Coming - that’s not the face of a man who’s stoked about leading that and damn well knows a second one isn’t a good idea. And if their thousands of years together is anything to go by this is not the end for Crowley and Aziraphale. They both obviously care about each other a lot and that isn’t gonna change just cos Az didn’t choose “us” at the time when his verson of “us” was something Crowley didn’t want.
I am so soooo excited to see the next season. The end was painful for season two but honestly it felt good. I’ve seen sooo much queer baiting and bs queer rep in media and honey this ain’t any of that.
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svynakee · 5 years ago
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castlevania s3 thoughts
Well more like complaints. Although I do find it worth watching; maybe after S4 comes out, though. Because S3 is really just a fancy teaser for S4.
I really don’t like how Castlevania S3 felt like a waste of time (except for 30% which was very good). I mean yeah I watch shows to waste time in general but hear me out.
By the end of S3, it feels like nothing happened. The status quo is kept. There’s a lot of setup with a tenuous promise of S4 payoff. There might be growth, but really, everything feels more like the catalyst for growth to happen later. It’s like following your GPS and it says “You’ve arrived at your destination :)” but you find yourself at some dusty crossroads and there isn’t even a petrol station in sight.
That’s basically all I can say without spoilers. I have a lot more to say with spoilers. So-
If Castlevania S3 was divided into 4 basically unrelated stories (Styria, Lindenfeld, Isaac’s travels, Alucard’s castle), at least half of them ended up saying/contributing nothing to the overarching plot, setting and characterisation. It felt like an extended trailer. Action, twists, your favs making an appearance…then goodbye, screen fades to black, see you next season.
TLDR version: get rid of Isaac’s entire arc, develop Sumi and Taka or get rid of them, Lindenfeld sorely needed more focus, no need to change Styria but more Styria would be nice.
Compare to S1, which was also mostly setup for the plot resolution in S2. It didn’t feel like a waste of time. Why? Because of the threat of Dracula? I don’t think so. It’s because when we first meet Trevor, we’re presented with a very solid image of who he is. He’s alone, he’s purposeless, he doesn’t want to take up his family legacy. 3 episodes later and he’s got two “friends” and a clear goal to pursue. And he’s no longer a nameless drifter – he’s the last living Belmont, vampire hunter, returning to his ancestral home so he may arm himself to face Dracula.
Alucard
Alucard’s story was the worst offender in my opinion. We start with Alucard being alone and sad in his empty castle. We end with Alucard being alone and sad in his empty castle. While this could be an interesting start of darkness for the dhampir, the fact that we don’t really see the results make it an overall unsatisfying season. Suki and Taka contributed nothing. We learned almost nothing about them. Their motivations were frankly generic – they want to fight vampires? Well we already know people who do that. Their obsession with the castle’s engine? Goes nowhere. Their friendship with Alucard? Shallow, not really built on mutual points of interest. Then they die.
The truth is, Sumi and Taka were dealt a bad card to begin with – Alucard, to be exact. Because a ranged and close quarters fighter duo of vampire hunters has direct competition with the previous season’s S&T, Sypha and Trevor. Instead of giving them the time and development needed to grow apart, they seemed more like plot devices to get Alucard to where he needs to be in S4. Or just to prove he’s lonely and gullible. And a bottom.
I feel like there’s a lot of potential in this storyline. Perhaps Taka and Suki’s interest in the castle is more nefarious; maybe they were part of a bigger group. Their betrayal of Alucard could cause him to reconsider his father’s stance on humanity. As a stepping stone, I have no complaints about this storyline. But that’s because there’s nothing to say. Its impact all depends on S4 and S4 isn’t out yet. So, the entire thing just feels frustrating, a pointless distraction from the other storylines.
Isaac
Isaac should not have gotten as much screen time as he did, unless they actually did something useful with him. As much as I love his character (Casually putting Godbrand down? Instant fav.) his presence in S3 feels like pointless pandering. Because he spent all that time doing nothing.
We know who Isaac is, because of S2. We know what his motivations are: return to/avenge Dracula. We know his general worldview, the thing that makes him what he is – he has a low opinion of humanity, is highly disciplined and loyal to Dracula. And the thing is, NONE of these things change in S3. Instead we’re treated to Isaac repeatedly almost thinking humans are okay, then getting proven wrong when he tries to give them a chance, then killing everyone.
This is would serve a purpose if: Isaac was seen as ambivalent towards humanity or conflicted about condemning them in S1 (more like Hector, perhaps). Isaac was more like original Isaac, an unhinged sadist and being saved by Dracula starts him on a path to redemption which is repeatedly denied.
But no. Isaac is always shown to be calm, disciplined and set in his views. Having him go through this completely unchanged makes his character ‘arc’ a waste of time.
The problem is Isaac’s storyline also feels unnecessary plot-wise. Isaac finds humans disgusting and his power is to be a monster spawn point. The fact is, if Isaac shows up one day with a monster army and wants to kill humans, we don’t need an explanation for it. Isaac himself is the explanation. The only thing that needs resolving is ‘how did he get from the desert to bother the heroes’ and that can be solved by “I took a boat” or “I found a transportation mirror” or even “I used a night creature to carry me”. He can just tell us. It can be a shot of him travelling. Or a cheesy montage set to rock music I don’t care.
So the fact that character-wise Isaac is just going through a series of resets is made even more tedious when you realise that plot-wise he’s also been completely useless.
His big fight was fun, but it lacked emotional impact. The wizard wasn’t opposed to Isaac, either in terms of good/evil or ideologically. There was no catharsis to the wizard dying because we never knew those townspeople. Who got turned into night creatures anyway. By Isaac.
Belnades and Belmont (the dancing bear)
The Lindenfeld plot I would say has all the elements of an excellent story but needed more time. More focus. I hated S3’s style of constantly jumping between the four storylines, especially when one of them involved Isaac going through a banal cycle on another continent and the other had the Discount Belmont and Belnades.
In my opinion, Lindenfeld only suffered because there wasn’t enough focus to really build up the almost Lovecraft-esque mystery for Trevor and Sypha to investigate. Germain barely interacted with them, we only got his story via infodumping and a bad dream. Their relationship with the Judge didn’t feel deep enough that his ‘betrayal’ had impact (besides, it was bundled up with Alucard and Hector’s betrayals so there’s a bit of overexposure apathy). And it’s hard to be sympathetic towards townspeople when, for most of the series, townspeople are shit. Townspeople blamed Belmont for Dracula’s horde. Townspeople tattled on Lisa. Townspeople antagonise Isaac. Showing us 1 family eating dinner isn’t going to change that.
There was something of a start to an emotional arc where Trevor questions Sypha’s naiveté, his future with her, etc. which would have been stronger if it wasn’t just the start of an arc. Leaving them horrified at the truth of the Judge, the destruction of the town and their inability to prevent disaster is absolutely fine. But when it’s also paired with Isaac’s Are Humans Bad Merry-go-Round and Forever Alone Alucard, yet another “to be continued” ending instead of closure was frustrating.
Hector but not really
Hector, similar to Isaac and Alucard, starts and ends in the same place. I have no complaints about the Styria storyline though because Hector isn’t the character carrying this subplot. Lenore is.
Lenore starts out with a clear goal and obstacle to that goal. The other vampire sisters seem unconvinced that she can solve it, or that any of them can. Lenore succeeds despite these odds, proving her own strength, cunning and patience. She also shows how her way, the diplomat’s way, has the same value as Carmilla’s schemes, Striga’s military knowledge and Morana’s talent for governance. She has an arc. Sure, it’s a villain arc, but villains need them. S2 had Carmilla working against Dracula, putting her forces into place, manipulating the war council, stealing Hector to her side. S3 has Lenore.
Meanwhile, the Styria subplot also sets up the new villains for the heroes to face – cunning Carmilla, strong Striga, strategic Morana and manipulative Lenore. Along with Hector the army spawn point. We have the new location, Styria. We see the dynamic and power hierarchies of the new villains. We learn about their overarching goal and how they mean to achieve it. Lots of setup, even more than the other storylines, but it has a satisfying arc within it that means it gives closure.
If S3 was freed from Static Isaac and Sumi/Taka (who have expiry dates and arrived half stale), the Styria storyline could benefit from the extra time. Better establish the dynamic between the four sisters (as opposed to Striga-Morana, Lenore-Hector and then a little bit of Carmilla). Give Hector more time to show his emotions; his despair, his loneliness, his genuine desire to have a friend despite his better judgement.
Final thoughts and Season Finales
Overall, the strongest parts of S3 are bogged down by subplots that really didn’t deserve so much screen time. I question the editing style of constantly jumping between the storylines; it comes at the cost of emotional investment into each one. The finale is especially strange to me. Two fights and two sex scenes that clashed, broke tension and made it tough to respond emotionally. Isaac’s fight should’ve happened earlier, a mid-season spectacle that really doesn’t have emotional impact. Lenore’s manipulation and betrayal could have been a second-to-last episode thing. The heroes naturally deserve the prime spot of season finale; the disastrous end of that fight also sets up the gloomy tone of the ending.
Sumi and Taka can die whenever, however. I literally could not care less whether they tried to kill Alucard after sex or over dinner. I barely care about their reason for attempted murder. I don’t know what part they play in the grand scheme of things and I am not invested in them as individuals.
If the entire point of the arc was to prove that Alucard was a bottom, just have him absent the entire season and add a post-credits scene of him using a dildo. Then he accidentally smashes it with his vampire strength and cries on the floor.
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beautifulspacegays · 6 years ago
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Opening the Blinds
Set in canon universe, around the beginning of season 3 (aka shortly after Shiro's disappearance & lion switches). Lance and Keith have recently started dating, but Lance has yet to experience/witness Keith's depression. Since leaving Earth, Keith's managed to keep it together, but after Shiro disappears, everything hits him at once. 
tldr; Keith struggles with depression, and Lance helps him through it. 
Keith hated when he got like this.
He felt disconnected and far away, desperately trying to escape the present but having nowhere else to go. His mind had floated somewhere just beyond reach but his heart had stayed, locked in his chest and aching. With every beat it felt nothing and yet everything all at once, spreading the overwhelming pain of both throughout the far reaches of his being. The sensation had transformed his body into a weight he could no longer carry, and thus, he found himself curled in on himself, unable to leave his room and clutching his chest. How many hours had he spent like this? Four? Five? Time was something he’d lost the ability to measure.
Slowly, he had fallen into this. He’d known it was coming, could feel it creeping through his bones and tugging at his skin. Although he knew the warning signs, he was incapable of stopping the beast once it had stirred, slowly beginning to stretch and unfurl after it’s long, heavy slumber. Usually, training was a release; something he enjoyed, something he craved. But as he fell, and as the beast awoke, it started to exhaust him. Gradually, it became a burden he could no longer bear. On a good day, the diplomatic meetings Allura had them all sit through were tiring. Now, they were impossible. Even being with the team at the end of the day, the mere act of chatting and forcing a smile, had become something he was incapable of. Helpless to do anything but watch his own life go by in a blur of colour, he had retreated into himself and into the dark.
Keith liked to equate his mind to a small, empty room. It had four walls and four windows. When he felt like this, it was as though he was trapped in that room. The windows would lock and the curtains would draw, leaving him to feel his way around in the dark. It was the best way he’d learned to understand this feeling… of being trapped and halted in place. Of his mounting frustration at his own inability to do anything at all when he was like this, let alone live his life. Of his constant inaction born from being too tired and too afraid to make any real decisions. Nothing had been his decision for too long, and he was tired of everything being hard and everything being empty and everything being frustrating. Nothing was the most tiring thing he’d ever experienced. And so he sat, frustrated and blind, screaming and screaming in the dark room of his mind where no one could hear him and no one could see him.
He didn’t stir when he heard a soft knock at his door, or when the door to his room slid open. He remained quiet and still where he lay in his bed, curled and staring at the wall. “Keith?” he heard a soft voice call out into the darkness, followed by quiet footsteps easing their way into his room.
“Lance,” Keith breathed, and, sensing the unspoken question on the other boy’s lips, abruptly followed with “I’m fine.” Keith wanted nothing more than to sink into himself and disappear. He did not want Lance to see him like this, especially when they’d only recently confessed to each other and everything was still so new. For now, he wanted Lance to see him at his best, and not for the mess he truly was.
“When was the last time you ate?” He felt his bed dip softly as someone sat at the end of it. Lance was approaching cautiously, keeping his distance, but Keith could tell by his tone that he wasn’t planning on leaving.
“I don’t know.” Keith mumbled into his pillow, praying to the Universe to carry him off to another dimension where he could be far, far away. “I’m not hungry.”
“Well, that was a rhetorical question.” Keith tensed, eyes glued to the wall. “I know that the last time you ate was last night. You haven’t been out of your room since.” When Keith didn’t say anything, Lance continued. “And do you know what time it is now?”
“Lance.” Keith managed to breathe out, frustration mounting.
“That was also a rhetorical question. Everyone just finished dinner… it’s been a day, Keith.”
“Lance… please…” Keith’s voice was getting quieter and quieter, his ability to fight fading with every breath and comment from Lance.
“Keith… everyone’s been… we’ve all been worried about you,” Lance’s voice softened as he spoke. “I’m worried about you. We thought we should give you some time but… you’re not taking care of yourself.” Again, Keith didn’t answer. He didn’t know what to say. After a moment’s silence, Lance spoke again. “Are… are you still wearing your training gear from yesterday?”
At that, he flinched. “Lance, I promise, I’m fine.” He was desperate now, voice breaking. “This happens to me sometimes. It happened to me back on Earth too. I’m fine, really, just let me deal with this.” It was quiet for a while, as what he said settled into the darkness. He buried his face into his pillow, wanting so much to tell Lance to stay but not wanting the boy to look at him, to see him like this. He felt the weight leave the end of his bed; Lance had stood up. Relief and disappointment crashed over him all at once, but on the outside, he didn’t move. He was surprised to feel the weight return to his bed, but this time, right at his side.
“Keith,” he felt a warm hand press against his shoulder “Keith, look at me.” He shook his head into his pillow, and the hand resting on his shoulder tightened. “Keith, I’m not sure what’s going on with you, and I won’t ask you to tell me. But I’m not leaving you here like this. Whether you look at me or not, I’m not leaving. I’ll stay here all night if I have to.” The hand on his shoulder softened, and he could feel Lance’s thumb begin to rub soothing circles against his shoulder blade. Although he tried his best to stop it, he could feel his eyes begin to swell and burn as he quickly became overwhelmed.
Keith lifted himself slowly with unsteady hands, sitting upright, but still facing the wall. “I really don’t want you to see me like this.” He could feel his voice hitch as he spoke, cursing his body for betraying him so easily. He felt so vulnerable, his inability to control his emotions in his current state leaving him completely and utterly exposed. He had spent his entire life trying to hide this side of himself from people. He was too rough and too messy to allow himself to truly rely on someone, the fear of being seen overwhelming the need to reach out, always. Keith told himself that it was just a protective instinct, an innate need to shield himself when he was broken and bare. But a small part of him knew it was also because he was ashamed. He was ashamed of what he saw in himself, and of what other people might see in him. His thoughts were interrupted by gentle fingers tucking loose strands of hair behind his ear. Lance’s thumb lightly brushed the curve of Keith’s cheekbone, the rest of his fingers threading into the hair at the base of Keith’s neck.
“Keith.” Lance’s free hand reached out, tentatively cupping Keith’s other cheek and turning his face so that they could see eye to eye. Panic flared through Keith at the touch, the closeness. At Lance seeing his face, pale and patchy from lack of sleep, and his red-rimmed eyes, full and close to spilling. At the thought of Lance’s fingers touching his hair, which he had been unable to summon the energy to wash. Lance drew their faces together, firmly resting his forehead against Keith’s. “Breathe, Keith. Breathe. It’s just me.”
“But I-“ panic edged his voice. Lance was so close, and he was looking at him. Really looking at him. A thumb began to trace up his cheek, feather light and calming.
“I want you to be comfortable around me.” Lance sighed, breath heavy. “I want to help you. I want you to let me help you.” His voice was just above a whisper, just loud enough for Keith to hear. “I want to see you.” Keith’s breath came out unsteady and broken. He could feel his entire body begin to tremble. Both of his hands reached up to grasp at Lance’s arms, scrambling for something steady to hold. He knew he was squeezing hard, probably too hard, but Lance didn’t flinch away. Rather, he responded by lightly tightening his grip around Keith’s face, pressing their faces closer together. “I mean, a pretty untraditional second date if you ask me,” He could hear the slight smile in Lance’s voice. “But unlucky for you, I’m not so easy to scare away.” Keith’s next breath, while still unsteady, carried a ghost of a laugh.
“I’m not so sure I’m the unlucky one.” His grip on Lance’s arms softened, his body finally beginning to relax. Whether he liked it or not, he was slowly easing into the comfort that Lance offered.
“Oh, you definitely are.” Lance pulled back, grinning at Keith. “I mean, I traded up but you definitely traded down.” Keith’s perplexed expression drew out a small, breathy laugh from Lance before he continued. “I mean, I know I’m the total package. But it’s not often you stumble across an 11 who’ll take you.”
“An 11?” Keith smiled through the words. It was small, but it had Lance beaming.
“Oh yeah, you definitely broke the scale. I didn’t think they existed until I met you. I mean, look at you. Your eyes, your face, I mean, your leadership skills could use some work but boy do you have a nice-“ Keith cut him off, playfully punching him in the gut.
“Don’t say it, for the love of God, don’t say it.” Lance playfully feigned hurt, hands clasping his stomach. For a moment, Lance had made Keith forget about his self-consciousness; had crept into his mind to knock at the walls of his little room. Of course, the walls did not give. But the impact had been enough to shake them, causing the windows and blinds to sway. He melted at the thought, basking in the warmth of the small fragments of light that now peaked through the cracks in the blinds. “Lance… thank you.” At the sudden tone of Keith’s voice, Lance stilled. As Keith opened his mouth to continue, Lance shot out a hand.
“Nu-uh! Nope!” he shook his head for effect, not letting Keith get another word in edgewise. “Don’t wanna hear it Keith. I’m honoured for this chance at our second date and I wouldn’t change it for the world. No thanks needed.” Keith sat in surprised silence, the words he was about to speak dying on his tongue. He had been so quickly and efficiently shut down, Lance addressing his unspoken words with ease, that he was now at a loss for words. “First order of business,” Lance stood up, placing his hands on his hips “Is getting you out of these clothes.” He walked over to the light switch and flicked it on in one fluid motion.
“I…” Keith started, suddenly anxious. He fidgeted lightly, threading his fingers together in his lap and avoiding Lance’s eye. “I don’t know what I have… haven’t really gotten the chance to do laundry in awhile.” At this, he looked directly down at his hands, too mortified to look up.
“Small problem, easy fix.” Lance abruptly turned on his heel and marched straight out of the room. Keith looked up instinctively, astonished at his quick, confident reply. Before he could process what Lance had said, the boy was already sauntering back in, a small pile of clothing folded between his hands. “I just did a load of laundry today. Luckily, I’ve recently worn my smallest pair of shorts. Should fit!” He beamed, clearly pleased with his solution. At the thought of wearing Lance’s clothes, Keith’s breath caught. “The sweater will probably be a little bit big but… who doesn’t like a good oversized sweater, right?” As Lance continued to smile at him, genuine and wide, Keith thought that this boy might actually be the death of him.
He stood up slowly, having been unsteady and off his feet for the majority of the day. His stance was a bit uneven, but he was relatively stable. Lance, sensing that Keith’s posture was more fragile than usual, was by his side in a flash. Keith rested his hand on Lance’s shoulder as he straightened, gratefully taking the offered help. When he was fully upright, he looked at Lance and smiled. Lance smiled back. One minute, their eyes were locked. The next, Lance’s eyes were flashing wide. Lance quickly looked away, suddenly blushing and sheepish.
“Uhm… Keith?” Lance coughed uncomfortably into his fist, still withholding eye contact. “Do you uhm… need any help…?” He extended his arm forward, offering Keith the folded clothes. His eyes looked down at the pile of clothes and then quickly up at Keith before darting away again.
“O-oh!” the realization quickly sunk in “No… I can change myself.” He quickly took the clothes from Lance, sure that he was breaking out into a furious blush of his own.
“Alright, uhm, cool.” Lance took a step back, one arm reaching up to scratch at the back of his neck. “Cool… cool…” he trailed off, looking at his toes as he continued to step backward. “So I guess I’ll just… wait for you outside?”
“Yeah… that should be good.” Keith tentatively looked up, offering a weak smile.
“Alright…” Lance spun around so fast it almost blurred Keith’s vision. “Cool… cool… I’ll just be out here then.” And with that, he was gone. Keith let out a long sigh of relief he hadn’t realized he’d been holding. Lance really was going to be the death of him.
Within moments, Keith was stripped and almost fully changed. Lance had given him a small pair of black shorts that now rested snug around his waist. As he pulled the dark purple crew neck over his head, some faded alien logo embellished on the front (likely one of Coran’s old sweaters), he realized that he was currently wearing Lance’s clothes. They were clean, and still slightly warm from the drier. They had been recently folded and placed in Lance’s room, and they smelt like him. The feeling of having Lance’s clothes wrapped around him, clean and warm and hugging him in all the right places, made him feel an ease he hadn’t felt in days. When he was finished changing, he walked out of his room with a shy smile tugging at his lips.
Lance quietly led him down the hall, the castle dark and silent. It was around the time of night when the ship usually started to settle, everyone finally having retreated to their rooms for the evening. Lance walked about half a pace ahead of Keith, slowly guiding him to the kitchen where he had proclaimed he would make Keith anything he wanted to eat. As the lights of the hall illuminated their path, Keith became increasingly aware of his hair. Specifically, how the lights likely showcased the fact that he hadn’t been able to wash it recently. He unconsciously tried to tame it with his fingers, trying to make that fact appear less obvious.
When they reached the kitchen, Lance instructed Keith to sit at one of the barstools in front of the long island that was situated across from the main cooking area. Once Keith was settled, Lance rounded the island and faced Keith, the oven, countertops, and fridge to his back. “So, what can I whip up for you today, Mr. Kogane?”
Keith looked up and smiled, one hand still loosely tending to the hair resting against his neck. “Hmmmm,” he took a moment, pretending to think long and hard about the question. “I’m not sure chef. What’s your specialty?”
“I’m glad you asked,” Lance flashed a grin “This chef doesn’t like to brag but… he can make a mean grilled cheese.” Keith couldn’t help but laugh.
“Prepare me one of your finest.”
“On it,” Lance shot him a wink before turning around to rifle through the fridge, quickly grabbing what he needed to get started. “Whole wheat or white?”
“Hmm…” again, Keith pretended to take some time to ponder the question, scrunching his eyes in mock concentration. “I think I’ll take… whole wheat.”
“Good, because I was going to give it to you anyway. You need your grains.” Keith scoffed, feigning shock.
“Don’t forget who’s the customer here.”
“You’re right, I’m a chef who respects his guest’s preferences. I would have accidentally given you whole wheat.” He buttered the bread quickly and efficiently, lighting up the stove once he was done. “Would have been an honest mistake.”
“You’re lucky you’re cute, or I might not let you get away with that.”
Lance gasped, reacting with faux shock. “You would never withhold a poor chef’s tip, would you?”
“Depends,” Keith leaned back, folding his arms across his chest. “I think… I would only forgive him if we happened to be on our second date.”
“Ah man, looks like I’m out of luck then,” Lance smiled as he placed the prepared sandwich on a heated pan. “There’s no way this humble chef could ever convince an 11 to go out with him.”
“You never know.” Keith marvelled at how easily Lance was able to draw this out of him, at how easily he was able to make him feel so comfortable. But most of all, how Lance managed to find this part of him, that was currently small and buried deep, and completely unearth it. For the first time in days, he felt slightly human. He couldn’t stop the fondness from creeping to his face, expression gone completely soft. He watched as Lance flipped the grilled cheese, now quietly sizzling and turning golden. Keith let himself relax, closing his eyes and savouring the warm smell. Now that he let himself think about it, he really was hungry.
“Ta-da, one grilled cheese,” Lance said. Keith opened his eyes quickly, unaware that he’d completely spaced out. In front of him was a finished grilled cheese sandwich, radiating warmth atop a plate that was somehow already in front of him. Lance had finished cooking, cut the sandwich in half, and placed a jar of ketchup on the table without Keith having noticed. “And… some carrots and celery, to sweeten the deal.” He set a small plate in between them, full of freshly chopped vegetables."The carrots are a bit... purple. But hey, we're in space. I'm sure Coran wouldn't put anything in here we couldn't eat." Keith blinked twice, slowly taking in the scene and trying to comprehend where exactly he had gone in his mind to be able to miss all of the effort Lance had been putting into this small meal.  
“Wow, Lance, you really didn’t have to-“ Keith breathed out, eyes wide and cheeks turning a light shade of pink.
“What kind of chef would I be if I didn’t serve a side?” Lance casually intervened, now washing the few dishes he had used. “Besides, it’s not too often we come across fresh vegetables like this. Figured now was a good time to use them.” Keith stared at Lance’s back in quiet awe for a few moments before digging into his sandwich.
“Is there a reason you keep fiddling with your hair?” Lance said as they walked back down the hall toward Keith's room, a step ahead of him. He spoke as he walked forward, eyes facing ahead and expression unflinching. Keith hadn’t noticed he’d been playing with it again until Lance pointed it out, and his hand, which had been twisting around the long strands by his ear, shot down immediately. He stopped abruptly, attempting to regain himself.
“H-how did you notice? You didn’t even turn around!” Keith managed to stammer out, now a few paces behind Lance who hadn’t stopped to wait for him. Keith was thankful that Lance had continued walking down the hall, a furious blush having crept up his neck and beginning to spot his cheeks.
“I could see you out of the corner of my eye. You’ve been doing it all night.” Lance said so softly, matter of fact. It took Keith aback, realizing how much Lance must have been paying attention to him in order to notice something so small, even while he was busy cooking and cleaning the kitchen. Something about this realization melted his insides, turning them gooey and soft. He relaxed into the feeling, taking a few deep breaths to calm his nerves. When he looked back up at Lance, the boy's face still held the same expression, but a light blush now coloured the tips of his ears. A comfortable wave of warmth spread throughout Keith’s body, lowering his guard and laying him out bare.
“I haven’t washed my hair in a few days,” he shrugged, walking slowly and looking down at his feet “…been kinda hard to do much of anything, you know?” Lance came to a sudden stop, Keith nearly bumping into his broad shoulders. Lance’s index and thumb reached up to rest against his chin, like he was thinking hard.
“You know what, change of plans. I have an idea.” As he spoke, he cocked his head to the side and grinned.
“A change of plans…?” On a good day, Keith had trouble keeping up with Lance’s abrupt ideas and general antics. On a day like today, when he wasn’t in his right mind, he felt as though he was constantly three steps behind him.
“Don’t worry about it, just follow me.” instead of continuing forward, Lance quickly turned down a hallway leading to their left. Keith didn’t have time to process the new plan before Lance had him by the wrist and was leading him quickly down the hall.
Lance’s long, gentle fingers kneaded at Keith’s scalp, shampoo foaming around each tendril of Keith’s hair. When Lance had led Keith straight into the bathroom and promptly announced that he was going to wash his hair for him, Keith had nearly lost his mind. Lance had laughed at the dumbfounded expression on his face, and before Keith had the chance to protest, he had already been ushered over to the side of the bathtub.
He currently sat on a small stool, head bent backwards over the opening of the tub. Lance stood to his side, lightly bent over him and softly working shampoo into his hair. Normally, Keith would have been embarrassed by the situation. But the sensation of having someone wash his hair was something he’d never experienced, and he found himself completely consumed by how relaxing it felt. Lance’s hands were firm and gentle as he worked the shampoo into his hair, and every time Keith took a breath, all he could smell was clean laundry and vanilla. All he could smell was Lance.
“Lance.” his voice was quiet, but it cut through the easy silence they had built. It made Keith tense, shoulders becoming rigid.
“Mmm?” Lance’s response was just as quiet as he continued to work the shampoo into Keith’s hair.
“I just want to say-“ Keith watched as Lance opened his mouth, and became instantly aware that he was going to protest. “Let me say it, McClain.” Lance paused, but quickly gave in to Keith’s glare. He bit the inside of his cheek and pouted, earning a small laugh from Keith. “I just want to thank you. Helping me… taking care of me like this, they’re all things you don’t have to do.” Keith had never been very good at expressing his feelings, and this conversation was no exception. He found that his throat kept tightening, eyes burning and threatening to spill. “Nobody’s ever really done this for me before. I… just really appreciate it, I guess.” His voice trailed off, becoming quieter and quieter until Keith felt like he had no more air in his lungs. Lance turned on the faucet, rinsing Keith’s hair without saying a word. It wasn’t until he began conditioning Keith’s hair that he finally spoke.
“When I was younger, my abuela used to watch me and my siblings every day when my parents were at work.” He began coolly, just as Keith had begun to panic in the growing silence. “Believe it or not… you know, looking at me now,” he paused and winked down at Keith, who stuck his tongue out in response. Lance simply grinned as he continued; “I was pretty… frail when I was a kid. I used to get sick a lot. While my siblings played outside, I usually had to stay inside with my abuela.
“Sometimes I would hang around the windows, watching everyone. Anytime I ever started complaining about how I wanted to go out, she would drag me away from the windows by my ears.” He laughed to himself at the memory. “We’d usually end up playing snakes and ladders or something after to distract me. Needless to say, we were pretty close.
“Every time I was sick, she would always do the same things.” He paused then, face turning a bright shade of red. When he spoke next, it was a cross between a mumble and a whisper. “She… would take me to the kitchen, and sit me down. I’d watch as she made me… a grilled cheese…” a low cough “…with carrots on the side. I was a picky eater, and this was the only time she’d indulge me.
“After I was done eating, she would scoop me up and give me a warm bubble bath. She never let me wash my own hair. I used to ask her why she did all of these things for me every time I was sick… which was pretty much all the time. She would always say the same thing: ‘Leandro, you never need a reason to take care of someone you love.’” He paused for a while; long enough that Keith questioned whether or not he was going to continue. Lance took a deep, steadying breath before moving on.                                                    
“About a year before I entered the Garrison, my abuela… she got sick.” His voice was calm, but it came out just above a whisper. Keith’s breath caught, but before he could say anything, Lance was looking down at him. Although his face was sad, he was smiling. The smile was small and closed mouthed; yet his cheeks still bore small traces of the dimples that appeared every time he grinned big and wide. His expression was completely soft, almost soothing, smile reaching his eyes and crinkling the skin around them. It was so impossibly warm; he could almost hear Lance whispering into his ear “It’s okay.” Keith reached upward instinctively, grabbing at Lance’s wrist. He squeezed once, drawing Lance’s hand away from his hair until it was in front of him. Lance looked surprised at first, but his expression quickly eased into the closeness of the touch. He slid his wrist down in Keith’s grasp until they were hand-to-hand, and slowly laced their fingers together. He mimicked Keith’s squeeze, the conditioner on his hand soft and sticky and bleeding through the cracks in their fingers. Lance’s next breath came out hot and shaky. “Alzheimer’s. It was… pretty awful, to put it bluntly.” He took another breath, this time, it came out steady. “My siblings were all pretty busy with school. As the youngest, I had the most time. I was usually the one who would go and see her at the home.
“Their meals were always pretty strict and scheduled, so I could never cook for her. I was pretty determined to do something though… I wanted to help take care of her. Eventually, the nurses let me wash her hair for her. It took a lot of convincing, I think they really only gave in once they realized they couldn’t stop me.” He smiled, small and soft, eyes looking somewhere far away. “Near the end she… was pretty confused. She could tell that I wasn’t one of the nurses, so she would always ask me why I was taking such good care of her.” Lance’s grip tightened around Keith’s hand, and Keith responded with a squeeze of his own. He moved his thumb up and down, caressing the back of Lance’s hand in soft strokes. “I always told her the same thing… ‘Abuela, I don’t need a reason to take care of someone I love.’
“The very last time she was able to remember me was after I said that.” He paused for a few minutes, staring down at their joined hands. Keith met his every squeeze, breathing slowly with him in the silence until he was ready to continue. Lance finally looked up, meeting Keith’s eyes. “It just… it used to bother me. Being asked why every time I visited. It made me understand what she meant when she used to say that to me when I was younger. You don’t do these things because you have to, or because you feel like you should. You don’t need to thank me, Keith. I’m doing this because I want to. I want to help you; I want you to feel better. I… care about you.” He blushed, but he didn’t turn away. After a few moments, he broke their gaze, straightening to place a soft kiss to Keith’s forehead. He reluctantly broke their fingers apart, reaching forward for the tap to begin rinsing Keith’s hair.
“The fact that nobody’s ever done this for you… that nobody’s ever taken care of you... it’s, I don’t know. All I know is that it makes me want to go back to Earth and kick the ass of anyone who ever left you alone to struggle like this.” He turned off the tap and began to gently squeeze the excess water from Keith’s hair. Meanwhile, Keith’s mind had gone completely blank. Although his head was quiet, his heart felt so full that it ached. Ached for Lance, for his pain and for his loss. Ached for the boy who had dragged him from his room, empty and cold, only to offer him a piece of his own heart to try and keep him warm. The way Lance had said “I don’t need a reason to take care of someone I love” echoed over and over again in his mind, to the point where his eyes, which had been full and near spilling all night, finally overflowed down his cheeks. The second Lance pulled back from squeezing his hair, Keith had him by the collar of his shirt. He pulled him down until their lips met, hot and messy, conveying the entirety of his feelings in the best way that he knew how. Lance gasped into his mouth, and Keith’s heart hammered in his chest. The erratic beats rang in his ears and the overwhelming intensity of everything he was feeling spread through his veins like a spark travelling down a wire. Lance quickly eased into the kiss, into Keith, leaving his head spinning and his heart so full he thought it might burst.
Lance had pulled back once he realized Keith was crying. His wet hands had reached up to cradle his face as Keith finally broke. He cried for himself, all of the pent up emotions he’d been unable to express pouring out of him. The long days he’d spent alone, the countless hours he’d wasted staring at nothing, the frustration of knowing he couldn’t control any of it and how it would likely happen again, all washing down his cheeks and soaking into the sweater Lance had lent him. He cried for Shiro, the only family he’d ever known, lost, then found, then lost again. Whose shoes he’d never be able to fill and whose shoes he never wanted to. But mostly, he cried for Lance. For his loss, and how he had felt comfortable enough to share it with him. For how easily he’d been able to break right into Keith’s little room, where no one else had been before, and where no one else had ever tried to be. He’d opened the blinds in a burst of colour and lifted Keith until he was able to look outside, hands resting against panes of glass, gazing beyond and into the far corners of his mind. He didn’t flinch or shrink away, rather, he’d bent down and whispered right into his ear: “It’s okay, we’ll leave when we’re ready. But right now, we’re here together.” He shook and shook into the comfort of Lance’s arms until he was ready to look at all of his broken pieces, jagged and messy, and begin to put them back together again. As Lance soothed and held him, pressing his hand over Keith’s on that pane of glass, Keith knew he wouldn’t be picking them up alone. 
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EPISODE ONE: “GAMERS NEVER STOP GAMING” - SHARIFA
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As castaways got to know each other, or catch up with old cast mates, the inactivity of others set the wheels in motion for a vote off.
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WOW! Season 93 holy cow. This season has started out to be anything but normal. Within my tribe, I’ve played with 5/9 members previously - which is not what I expected. I’m extremely nervous about Ricky and Emma because based off our calls and chats, they’re worried about past drama from Easter island and other ORGs being a factor in our relationships. I’m trying to let go of everything but they seem to disagree. I’ll make a more in depth review of my tribe at a later time!
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Ok, so so far I've spoken with a few people. Birch, Keegan, Cheatham, Olivia, Ned, Kurt and Trent. I'm feeling Kurt and Trent so far, Kurt I found out through him we've know each other from possibly an old mini or something, and Trent we have the same interests. So far so good. I know Chris, we had a great bond back in the day but it doesn't mean we will here. Me and Emma used to talk but I saw she recently unfriended me so...and Sarah I love her, Andreas I hope is the same Andreas because I miss him. Matt I lowkey want to meet because distance wise he's the closest to me, so we could maybe bond about similar areas and such, and he seems cool. I may have more to same later but this is how I feel right now!
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I cannot believe I was uber nervous last night! I have no clue why either, guess it was because it was a lot at one time and like seeing others say it was a super strong cast was a lot. Given I just got into this community like a month ago I think I was able to see my biggest obstacle will be getting to somehow squeeze in and be comfortable since I am like extremely shy ahhhhhh
* a little while lateR*
A lot of my tribe seemed really cool! Dennis I feel the closest to already and then Andreas was so nice to keep me informed on things. Matt is also like the bombdiggity, Sarah is a sassy omelette, Kage is like the second coming of Shaggy Rogers, Ricky/Niklas I look forward to talking to more and the others I hope to talk to some more but because I woke up 10 minutes ago my memory sucks
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WHY TF IS MATT SUMMERS HERE NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO Anyways I like everyone on my tribe. Birch is once again making friendship bracelets (they never sent out the ones they made in tashirojima lmao) and everyone is so enamored and I’m just like yep mhm. I’m getting along well with Ned, Keegan, and Kurt. Sharifa and I finally have a good dialogue going this morning and I really like her but she’s won like twice and I know trent has her high on his kill list for that. Malik and I finally talked today more which was nice. Cheatham seems cheeky and we talked a little bit not much and I’m really dropping the ball with Jake I feel bad like I def need to talk to him but agh it’s so hard trying to keep up with nine people lmao. It’s like birch and I are just going through the motions like we don’t even know what to say really other than hi how’re you I’m good thanks bc of all we went through in the game we just played. I wish I could vote them out so I wouldn’t have to deal with all those emotions. Also I’m very distressed about matt summers being here he probably doesn’t even remember me but oh sweet jesus GC was so horrible for me and I don’t hate him or anything but he double idoled me out like why tf did he have to be here 😭😭
Malik is not a lotr fan rip him
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Alright, I've had some time to sleep on this game and I have some early thoughts. I think yesterday I put my guard up to soon. This season I am going to be more cool, calm, and collected then I have in previous seasons. I know I have a past with some people, who I really don't trust. I think it would be stupid for my narrative to be based around drama that occurred 5 years ago when I was 17, so I am going to be the bigger person here and hope other people aren't.
Last night a couple people jumped on call. This included Kage, Matt, Sarah, Emma, Chris, Ricky, and I. The call brought me right back to 2015 - it was wild. We kind of had a little chat about our past games. Anyways, then Ricky out of the blue brings up my FTC in Easter Island - a season which had so much tension. There were two sides - My Alliance and Ricky's alliance. Ricky's alliance pretty much maintained control of the game the entire game, and seventeen year-old Andreas was salty about it. I thought it was interesting he did that..... it concerns me he may still be mad at me for things that happened five years ago.
*Andreas walks away from the camera, does a big sigh and plops himself back down on the rock*
Time for a review of my tribe: 
 Sarah - LOVE OF MY LIFE!!! Sarah and I go back way far in Bangladesh. We spent my entire game together where she blindsided me. Since then, we've become great friends and I even flew to Vancouver to meet her IRL. She's my #1 in this game for sure. 
 Kage - Eastern Canadian King! I met Kage in Great Lakes where we didn't see eye-to-eye in a game sense but got along on a personal level. The GL cast remains one of my fav casts I've ever played with and I'm excited to meet this new Kage.
 Emma - Emma is a dangerous player. Every game I've ever played with her, aside from Jordan Pines, she has done me so dirty. After the last game we played, my guard is really up with her, so I am going to try to not get too wrapped in her web.
 Ricky - Not sure how he feels about me, I would like to work with him because he is smarter then people give him credit for. Hopefully it all works out between us. 
 Chris - I like Chris. I think Chris is buttering me up though, not sure if he really wants to work with me or this is all an act. Either way, he has made it clear he has no connections and is a hero so he for sure someone I'd like to go far with :) 
Matt - Matt fucking Summers (in the words of Laure LMAO). Matt is a really nice guy, but has the reputation of being very dangerous. In a weird way, I think I can kind of be the watered down Matt Summers depending on the day. I would love to work with him, because I think he's a big personality that could place me in the background of the game. 
 Dennis - I find speaking with Dennis so easy! Not only is he nice and personable, but easy to have a good chat with. I would like to work with Dennis if I can. 
 Lukas - I find chatting with Lukas a bit harder then I should, but I expect it just based off our personalities. I am really trying hard to socialize with him, so hopefully it shouldn't be terrible. 
 Nick - Nick is in a similar spot to Lukas for me - but I don't find it as hard to chat with him. I'm drawing from my improv expertise this season and doing a lot of 'yes and' ing to stuff. With him, that's what I've been doing in the hopes I can build a stronger relationship. So far it's working. 
 That's all for now! Let's see what happens with Kage at the island thing haha
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 SOOO Emma is amazing. I really hope she's not good friends with anyone else in the cast cause I love her and I want her to be my #1 Jake is chill. I'm gonna keep him around for a bit, but he ALWAYS backstabs his friends so I don't trust him Chris seems cool. He's gonna be a schemer/utr I feel it. But I enjoy talking to him Matt, I'm still trying to get a feel for. He's from WV so I started talking to him about Noah Salvatore and somehow they went to the same school together so he clearly has bad luck. Dennis and I have been getting along. I talked to him a lot about my game last time tho. That made me realize I need to keep my friendships with Jake and Emma on the LOW. Kage is messy. Even this morning he's still talking to me like this: it’s terrivle nothing bere i haven't really talked to anyone else yet. Ricky and Kage both just seem so hard to talk to one on one. 
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Hi!! so I am the first one on my tribe to go to Ancient Thera. Kage came from the other tribe and HE IS NOVA SCOTIAN!!!!!!!! F2 right there!!! I am so hyped that I met him!!! he lives an hour from me!!!! AHHHHHHH!! I also betrayed him already and went for tribal advantage instead of personal as we agreed. also, the chances of me and him are so high I'm actually so excited!!. I can Picture me and hm becoming good friends, he and I have a lot in common. this tribe is also amazing!!
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Oh god I’ve never played this challenge and I’ve always felt bad for those who did fuck
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First Confessional! It's been about a day since the season began and this tribe is rockin'! I've had some pretty great conversations with most of the tribe. However there have been a couple people lacking in the social department. Most notably is NED, who I've apparently played with before but I can barely remember him. I guess he's just been busy all day, and it's only been a day so I'm not holding it against him much. SHARIFA has not been the most social with me but we have discussed some New Years resolutions and how poorly we do with those. Aside from that, I really like BIRCH, MALIK and KURT. I think they're top notch people so far and I'm hoping I can plod on forward and actually form an alliance of sorts with them. My biggest struggle right now is trying to decide whether I want to initiate any game talk this early, or if I should just hold out for a little longer so I don't come across like I'm playing too hard right out of the gates.
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How does one turn a convo from fun and friendly to strategic without just straight up being like “how do you feel about everybody” bc that’s such a loaded question but the easiest route to what you wanna talk about lmao. TLDR I’m trying to talk to Kurt strategically and I’ve typed and deleted a message about a million times. Ned and I bonded super well we called for a minute and I feel so bad bc he’s like “I get close to one person and we’re together to the end I’m super loyal” and I’m like ME TOO NORMALLY BUT I ALREADY HAVE LUKAS AND TRENT and like I already love Ned I wanna be his friend and I know he trusts me super well already so that’s good I’m just worried for if/when he finds out I already have a tight twosome ahdjsks. But that’s way ahead I needn’t worry rn. I want a four person alliance with Kurt, Ned, Trent and myself. Ned said he liked Kurt and Trent so that’s great and Trent is obviously down so I just gotta grow a pair and talk to Kurt. I also really like Kellogg (can’t remember his real name ever but it’s similar to Kellogg; I’m such an ass) and Sharifa too she’s super cool. She’s won twice so I’m a littler nervy but I like her a lot. I talked with Jake a little bit more but still not much and cheatham I think I ignored all day yikes. Birch is beloved in the eyes of the tribe rn but hehe I’m still not buying into it sorry!! I like them a lot outside of the game but I’ll never ever trust them in a game. I was talking with Ned and he said he hasn’t connected well with them and wouldn’t mind voting them out so woo. It’s gonna be tricky to try and get that to have any traction since she just did something generous for the tribe sigh. Gonna have to be patient like I was patient with someone else in Mykonos. I can be patient, certainly.
I FORGOT MALIK he’s so kind I like him a lot but he’s not as giving in a convo as others so I feel like I don’t know him as well but we’re developing that relationship
I just really like our tribe
*a little while later*
Malik is so sweet, I think he needs an emoji tutorial tho 😂 sometimes he’ll send an emoji and I’m a little perplexed why he chose that one but it’s all very endearing
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So Kage and his Thera shit... SHADYYY. He said if they won the challenge they get themselves an advantage in the game but if they lose, the TRIBE gets a disadvantage in the immunity. He specified the tribe and the immunity thing. But didn't specify that winning the comp would give the TRIBE an advantage. But here we are. Birch's tribe got an advantage and we got a disadvantage. I. Call. Bullshit. I think Kage got an advantage in the game in exchange for a disadvantage and it just trying to keep it secret. I'm honestly gonna keep pushing this theory so other people wanna vote Kage later. I asked Kage questions about the challenge and... Me, A psychology major: "He's giving a LOT of details here. Liars tend to do that" Also me, a psychology major: "Okay but these details sound right. That's a lot to make up" There's been a few people that I feel like I haven't been able to strike good convos with yet I'd put my ranking like this Emma > Chris > Dennis > Andreas >>>>> Kage/Lukas/Matt > Sarah > Ricky. But that big gap feels like a disconnect. AND I haven't fully talked to Emma because she keeps getting distracted when I try to chat with her. I'm just banking on our connection before the game I do feel really good about Chris and Dennis and I think Andreas was trying to talk game with me today. So we'll see. It could be a decent group that gets formed. But I'm sure those 3 are being super social with everyone else so idk where that puts me Post Tribal Reaction: "Advantages were for the taking. Kage gave me way too much power over his tribe and the advantages so I snaked him" - Birch I'm trying to sus out what that's insinuating cause it SOUNDS like you could just take advantages. Smh at Kage
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I already knew trent was like my dude but HE LOVES LES MIS TOO
Yesterday’s word of the day: hedgehog Today’s word of the day: morning morning morning
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So this game started at a very inopportune time. I have an exam in 2 hours and another one tomorrow, so I haven't been super active in the tribe chat-- but after realizing that, I've decided to use it as a strategy. I'm not going to talk much in the tribe chat, but I'll have individual conversations with people. That way, it seems like I'm very invested in each individual relationship but am not super connected with the rest of the tribe, so people will hopefully see me as a trustworthy ally! I've connected really well with Olivia and we seem to be on the same page-- we're loyal to our ride-or-dies and hate drama. We called and I think this is an alliance to watch. I was also aligned with Jake in Crossroads, my most recent TS season, so I think he's going to be a built-in ally. Apart from them, Trent and Kurt seem cool and I won't be sad if anyone else gets voted out. Most of my conversations with other people have been very surface level, but I think that's fine since it's only day 2. On the other tribe, there's Sarah and Andreas-- in every game I've played with Sarah, we have never lied to each other once. She's been my closest ally out of every ORG I've played, so I know 100% that if we're able to link up we'll run the show. After Bangladesh, I got close with both Sarah and Andreas, so I'm feeling pretty confident about a swap. 
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Okay hi, first time playing a TS in a year weeeeeee!! The only person I know on this tribe is Ned S. and we haven't talked in 2 and a half years so GREAT good tribe lineup for me. However he really wants to work with me and I do too so hopefully there's some leverage there. Tbh I haven't connected with anyone on this tribe yet, every convo is like pretty surface level so im like dsjnsfnfjsd i need people that I can turn up with. I wanna turn up w Nicklas and Sara but theyre on the other tribe so this is rigged and of course we lost first... i always lose first.... idek who to vote out cus no one is inactive this is so fun for me goodbye
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We lost the challenge, and I’m sad about that. Then I’m told by Keegan that there’s talk of a group with me, Sharifa, Olivia, Keegan, and Trent. How do I feel about that? Good except for the fact I feel it confirms the suspicions of Trent and Olivia talking either, and the fact that Kurt and Jake aren’t involved. So me and Kurt said we’d tell each other everything that’s going on, so I feel I do need to tell him about this alliance, but I can’t have him asking people about it or people might know I told Kurt through Sharifa if she thinks I actually did that. So now I need to let him know, and I need to keep him safe. I’m glad to be in a group I just need to protect Kurt at all costs.
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Well we lost the first challenge and boy does that suck. I was really hoping we could pull out a few wins at the start of the game and have no issues moving forward. But that didn't happen and now we have to go to tribal council. Yuck! Right off the bat after losing the challenge I went in and did something I've never done before and never been comfortable doing before. And that's building an alliance. I sat for a few moments (and that's really all it was) before I jumped right into some conversations. Those first few minutes consisted of OLIVIA, TRENT, SHARIFA and MALIK. And now we have the MCDONALDS GANG. It's currently only a group of five but that's most likely all we'll need. It should be easy enough for us to wrangle in one or two people to vote out whoever we want to get out. I'm so proud of myself for really jumping right in there and getting things done. OLIVIA was the biggest factor in that. We immediately decided on who we liked (SHARIFA and TRENT) and pulled in MALIK for being a great dude. I'm really trying my hardest to step outside my comfort zone and get shit done this time around. As of right now (only a few hours after the challenge) my first choice for a target would be NED, solely because he's been the least talkative to me out of everyone. But that doesn't mean he's an easy choice. Everyone on Ammonia tribe is so great. We've still got a full day to decide who we want to target and get out. If it's not NED, perhaps JAKE might be the next best option. However, now that I've got this group together, I'm not going to be too pushy. We'll decide things as a group moving forward until later on in the game. I don't want to overplay too hard and I don't really want to be seen as the ring leader of the group.
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I’d like to pat myself on the back because I was about to make a joke about how Sophie had to pretend to be religious in her game and how hard that must’ve been but then I remembered Ned is religious and I managed to hold back!!! Not making bad jokes upgrade woo
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Well, this game is already not what i expected. I wasn't expecting mixed tribes, i wasn't expecting so many old schoolers, and i wasn't expecting everybody to be so nice. So far i'm just trying to be super social with everyone. My biggest fault in Indonesia is that none of the jury felt like they truly knew me. So i'm trying to be more open and more personal. and so far i think it's working. At first i really didn't want to work with Sharifa. Just looking at her stats I can see how dangerous she is. But we've really bonded over the past few days and shes one of my closest friends in this game right now. Her and Olivia are the ones I trust the most. I could be a fool and falling right into her trap, but we will see. I know Sharifa will be a huge target if we all make it to merge together so she's good to keep around as a shield for right now, but eventually I'm not going to be able to work with her any longer, but I dont know when that day will be. I am now in an alliance with Sharifa, Olivia, Keega, and Malik. We all seem to be on the same page for the first vote. Ned and Cheatham have been a lot less active than the first so one of them will be the first boot. I hate that it's probably Cheatham because I really did want to work and play this game with him. But if he's not going to put forth an effort then theres no way I'm going to risk my neck saving him. I just have to find the right way to tell him it's him. because if he hears it from someone other than me he might have a messy exit. Just need to get through this first vote and then the 5 of us will have a majority and should be ok until a swap. I've also been added to a smaller alliance of Olivia and Ned. I haven't really had a chance to talk with Ned but Olivia says he's great and that we will get along great. And i trust Olivia's judgement. But at this point Ned is just an extra vote to use because I'm not going to risk my game to try to save a player I barely know.
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I think this game is off to a great start! Our tribe won immunity which was great, it allows me more time to build stronger relationships within the tribe. Some key things I wanna note: Matt expresses about how he wants to work together and I was like ‘yeah sure’ but he also messaged Sarah a much more genuine message about how he trusts her and I think that’s SUS ... I trust him for now but who knows . Ricky wants to work with me this game ?? Idk if he’s lying but I’m giving him the benefit of the doubt and I will believe him because we do a good rapore so it makes sense to work with him. He continues to say I’m the the only one he 100% trusts at this moment and i want to believe he’s not buttering me up and he’s loyal. I’ve been having meaningful discussions with everyone else. Emma is on my radar because she doesn’t want to talk to me unless it game talk and normally that’s what she does when she doesn’t really want to work with me... honestly would prefer her to go first but she seems well connected based off prior connections so that’s that. I’m not telling anyone but Sarah about how I feel about Emma truly because I can’t have her sniffing me out ... and plus loose lips sink ships. I’ve also been lying to a lot of people in this game for the purpose of appearing more personable to them... LOL.... like Lukas asked me about my thoughts on normani’s new music video and switch games and I lied through my teeth and looked stuff up to have shit to talk about. I wanna form strong connections now so people feel allegiance to me later. Hopefully we can go to tribal soon so I can test these loyalties ... anyways that’s all for now xoxo
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Tribal day and I’ve found myself stumbling into yet another alliance, this time with BIRCH and MALIK. We’re just waiting for MALIK to get online but it’s a pretty sure thing that this alliance is happening. That means MALIK and I are both in the two same alliances which covers 6 of the people in the game. Unfortunately that means JAKE, NED and KURT are (at least to my knowledge) not in any major alliances. It’s certainly possible they have something going on with other people so I’m not going to rule it out entirely. I know it’s super early in the game but I’m feeling like I’ve found a good solid footing.
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Hi im on the villains tribe...shocker Andreas is my #1 and when ned and I get on a tribe i will get him to be my number #1 and i know jake will want to work with me and matt summers wants to be close too so im thinking im good I dont trust emma or anyone else 
 Dusty
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okay, we have tribal tonight, YAY. I am feeling okay. right now it is between Cheatham and Ned. I might push for Ned to go because I really like Cheatham. How I am feeling towards the other people is as follows Olivia- just played with you, did you real dirty in that game, sorry. I want to ally with you in this game more. Keegan- I really like you! you're awesome, i feel very comfortable with you and are allied with. stan. Tea Sluts 4 Lyfe. Sharifa- Not going to lie, you scare the hell out of me. we are allied, ily. everyone else: you are really nice, not strong feelings towards anyone.
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I really like Kurt I wish we had included him in the alliance :( I feel like he’d be so fun to call
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It is WILLLLLLD to be back, had no idea what I was getting myself into. Coming into Heroes vs Villains 4 I had the entirely wrong perception that I would be on a tribe with all Villains. Twistos Twist, it’s mixed….but you could have told me I was on the heroes tribe because everyone is so fucking nice….DO I LOOK LIKE A HERO WHO CARES ABOUT YOUR LIFE ALKJSDF. I feel like Colton in Blood vs Water on the kumbya tribe. So here are my thoughts on the flower children of the Ammonia tribe. My one solace is Kurt. We played together before on Generations, and he was actually my number 1 before Jakey was. What happened you ask? Liana and Andrew decided Kurt’s head would look great around their necks, and I could either vote with them, or go to rocks. So to avoid a tie, I ended up voting him out...and honestly it's one of my FEW regrets I have from the game. And it’s weird because I won Generations, but I still wish I had gone to rocks for him. I’VE CERTAINLY GONE TO ROCKS FOR LESS IN CHALLENGERS VS CHAMPIONS FKLAJSDF. Needless to say, he’s my ride or die, and I hope he can put the past behind him because I’m loyal as fuck to my ride or dies, just ask L’Shei and Jakey <3. Trent is probably the second person I’m trying to talk game with. He’s a biggggg strategist, even if he wants to pretend that he’s not...your that girl I knew you were. It’s been a big strategy of mine to play a wolf in sheeps clothing. This time around I can’t, my record is intimidating and there’s no way around it. So the only way I feel I can be successful is by amassing an alliance of heavy hitters. The only problem with that, is gamers never stop gaming, and they are going to want me out at some point. So I’m working hard to invest with Trent, and to play with him, but I’m FULLY aware he wants me out. It’s WHEN he wants me out, that’s the real question. And can he benefit my game, before then??? Malik is so fucking nice, super geunine, I like him, BUT he’s playing with his dick. He has this whole showmance with Kurt and it’s like habibi...what is you doin. It’s good for my game because he’s loyal to my closest ally, but it’s also like...we’re playing a game, play it. I do think Malik is someone Kurt and I can rely on, and I really adore him. It would be nice to play with another queer poc. I just don’t know if he’s a big gamer if we’re going to be real. Birch is….SO HARD TO TALK TO. Literally today I told them I was nervous after the challenge, because my strategy didn’t work, their response? “I BET!” FLAKSDFKJASKJFASD BRUH. Despite the teeth I want to pull, trying to have a conversation with them, they are genuinely nice and I feel it’s worth investing in talking with them. The only thing I’m nervous about is their relationship to Trent. Trent talks about them as a number, so I wonder if Birch is in his back pocket, especially considering the lack of game they talk. Olivia is a RE-HEALLLLLY interesting one. She doesn’t talk much, has her own language, that I do not speak, yet the SECOND we lost the challenge, her and Keegan orchestrated this whole majority alliance. And despite her being voted out by Trent, at the final 4, they seem to be working together. I think she’s 1) a villain not a hero, and 2) playing a lot more than I initially suspected. I think she likes me, we have a “we’re the only two girls on the tribe” thing going. LISTEN I WILL USE ANYTHING I’M A VILLAIN FOR A REASON. And she was the one who I think brought me into this magical majority alliance, so I guess we have a good relationship??? Definitely keeping two eyes, and two ears on her, she’s a player. Keegan….all I know about him is I think he’s close with Olivia, and that he’s spearheaded the alliance. I barely spoke with him, but we sent music to each other so clearly I’m gaming harder than I thought FKLAJSDF. He’s a tough one to figure out, I don’t trust him, and I think he has more relationships than I initially surmised, but right now he feels good with me so let’s celebrate that.gif Ned is INCH-RESTING. Barely spoke until after the immunity, now we’re talking fairly consistently. The two names being brought up for the vote are Ned and Cheatham, but Ned is putting in work to save himself. Ned is transparent and straight the fuck up, which is so necessary to build trust. Meanwhile Trent’s over here holding his cards to his chest closer than a new born baby. I’m very interested in working with Ned down the road, he just needs to make it past this rough patch, which I’m doing everything I can to make sure he does. At first I was really turned off by Jake….HIS BIO VIDEO WAS SO FUNNY. “My last expierene was horrible, fuck tumblr survivor, BUT IM SO HAPPY TO BE BACK KISSES”. But I realized once you speak his language of “white gay” he opens up ALOT. He also has an amazing record, and that is a plus for me not a minus, it has to be considering how scary people think my record is. I’m interested to see how he’s a good player, because right now he’s been so quiet and on the chopping block. I’m keeping my options open with him, not saying I’m going to work with him, but not not saying I’m going to work with him. Finally Cheatham. He’s honestly the only person on the tribe that I don’t have a relationship with, and because of that, he’s my target. This time around I HAVE to play calmer, and as much as I want to flip things on this majority alliance consisting of Trent, Malik, Olivia, Keegan and myself, I need to use it to get past these first couple votes. What has me so paranoid, is it makes the MOST sense to take me out right now. I haven’t solidified connections, I have an intimidating record, the strategy didn’t win the challenge, and everyone finds me likable which should be a GIANT red flag. I would be who I would go after, so why aren’t they??? And then that makes me paranoid, but it would be a lot of effort to make this alliance just to make someone feel comfortable. So if the path of least resistance is sending Cheatham home, I have to fight every desire I have to cause chaos, and make sure that’s what happens, because strategically it’s the smartest thing to do. Anticipating this season having a lot of swaps, if Cheatham leaves then I have a solid relationship with everyone else going into a swap, and swaps are when I’m going to be the MOST vulnerable. That and the merge but let’s survive this vote before we even start THINKING of that. 
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There’s always that major fear that like everyone is lying their ass off to you and it’s actually you but I pray that ain’t true
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Your girl Lili Reinhart really needs to stop tweeting. Between all the queerbaiting and just today saying people shouldn't waste time by being sad she's so ignorant all the time lol.
wtf ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ i haven't been around the internets, all day. I haven't watched riverdale for however long, let alone post about it in a minute, but even with that maybe you should calm your fucking tits ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ Ffs wtf?! I dig her, I find her amusing af, but I could give a rats ass. However, you come into my ask using a term like queerbaiting, which -- I'm assuming you've followed me for a while -- you should know is a term I hate and only use when it actually applies. Two Hetero girls being platonically in love with each other and sharing it on the social medias, is not queerbaiting. Furthermore, before River.dale ever even aired an episode they made it explicitly clear that Ronnie & Betty would never go to a queer place, and the creators said it in one of the most offensive ways possible. Additionally, they made that intention CLEAR with how the front half of the season was left behind for the second half wherein b&v had less screen time etc. Meanwhile, I get this fucking ask, and have to fucking look into what's going the fuck on and go to lili's twitter account where she's spent multiple tweets talking about her mental health, having been at a really dark depressive time in her life last year and ending up landing the pilot and how no matter how dark things seem to keep on fighting. She's using her powers for good, and you have the AUDACITY to come to me about your own fucking issues of not being able to accept the fact that b&v AND l&c aren't ever going to be a thing and try to tear another female down for no fucking reason.I'm too tired to deal with this shit.I don't have any fucks about the cast of River.dale or any of the CW shows other than Katie, and even then I'm not actually paying attention.All of my free time these days has been spent with a queer twitch streamer who is building a safe place in the gaming community. That's who I care about and what matters to me. Because she's just being real and isn't trying to impress anyone. She just wants to play games with her friend anne, and maybe her chat.....tldr if you think someone/something is queerbaiting and that's an issue for you, ignore it and move on. I'm too exhausted to be nice to you right now, and you came to me on anon KNOWING you were going to annoy me. So, yeah, not sorry.
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