#titsn shifter

[allthingsimagines]

Illicit Affairs

“And that's the thing about illicit affairs, and clandestine meetings and stolen stares. They show their truth one single time, but they lie, and they lie, and they lie a million little times” -Illicit Affairs by Taylor Swift

Pairing: Jean Kirstein x Titan shifter! Reader

description: Atop the wall Jeans s/o must decide to follow through with the warriors mission or give up her life to save her new family.

warnings: none

word count:2,675 words

“You good?” Jean asked, concern lacing his voice.

You nodded as Jean reached out to press a kiss on your forehead, and you exhaled deeply. The reveal of Ymir as the jaw titan had shaken you to your core. She had been the one to kill Marcel when you were children. The tension was killing you, and the idea of more titan shifters was becoming the Scouts forefront problem which put you and the boys in imminent danger.

“Yeah, just scared for what's to come.” You said and Jean pulled you into a comforting embrace.

“I know, with all these damn titan shifters popping up god only knows who else is under our nose. I’ll kill them for what they’ve done to us when we find them.” Jean said, his jaw tightening with anger and you could only gulp.

His anger was palpable and you couldn’t even blame him. You were angry with yourself, the government who’d sent you here with promises of a island of devils when all you found was family. You had never had a choice in any of this. You only wished you had punched Reiner in the face years ago when he convinced you all to stay and finish your mission.

You looked up at him and caressed his cheek, him slightly leaning into your touch, “I love you more than anything, you know that right?”

Jean chuckled and pulled you in for a quick kiss, “You’ve got me through thick and thin babe.”

You smiled, an unsettling feeling in your stomach when you noticed Reiner and Bertholdt talking seriously with Eren. You looked back up at Jean and flashed a reassuring smile, “I’ll be back in a few babe, ‘m just gonna make sure everything’s okay.”

Jean scoffed and ruffled your hair, “Yeah, go make sure that suicidal maniac isn’t stirring shit up.”

You smiled and turned and walked over to the three. You felt extremely unsettled as you noticed how terrified Bertholdt looked as you overheard Reiner say, “Eren, if you want the walls to remain standing, it's simple. Just come with us. Do you understand?”

“Understand? What the hell is there to understand?” Eren spat at Reiner, his eyes narrowed dangerously at him.

You stepped up to the three and met Bertholdts frightened gaze. Reiner kept his eyes on Eren, his frame towering over you, “Listen to me. I need you to do exactly as I say. Look, I know this is sudden, but we have to go.”

“Right now? Where would you take me?” Eren sputtered, looking to you for help but you were just as lost as he was.

“I can't tell you. Not yet. Just think of it as our hometown. Okay? So what's it gonna be? Not a bad deal, right? The chance to avert a major crisis?” Reiner stressed to him as you began to panic, why was he doing this now?

“You guys! Get a move on, we're heading out!” Hange shouted, catching all of you off guard.

Eren laughed nervously and clapped Reiners shoulder, “You're just tired. That's it, right? Help me out here, guys. Your nerves are shot. You don't know what you're saying.”

“Uh. Yeah. It's the battle fatigue talking!” Bertholdt said his own nerves beginning to close in on him.

“It's okay. You're okay. If you really were the Armored Titan, what's the endgame here? We wouldn't be having this conversation in the first place. What'd you expect me to do? Say yes? Let myself be kidnaped just 'cause you asked politely?” Eren said, nearly growling out the end as Reiner seemed to almost have cold water thrown over him.

Reiner began to shake as his eyes widened, “Right. Not thinking straight, am I? Barely know what I'm saying here. Must've gone off the deep end. C'mon, let's go.”

Eren turned to head back to the group when Reiner said, “Actually that’s the problem.”

All of you whipped around to face Reiner, and you were caught in fear, “I've been here too long for my own good. Three years of this madness, surrounded by idiots. We were kids. What'd we know about anything? Why did there have to be people like this?”

“Why? Why did I let myself devolve into such a half-assed piece of shit? It's too late now. Damned if I know what's right anymore! Who cares? It is what it is. No choice but to face what I've done.” Reiner took off his sling and you couldn’t believe what you were seeing, this was it.

This was what you had dreaded for the last three years, the world you had built was going to come crashing down.

You looked at Reiner and Bertholdt and then back to Jean. This was a life-changing decision. Betray your homeland and three of the only friends you had before Paradis or choose the new family you’d created. Reiners grip on your arm was tight enough to almost break your arm as he exposed you all to Eren, but a broken arm was the least of your concerns. Eren met your eyes as you fearfully looked at him, this is never what you had wanted, “Y/N, tell me he’s lying. You wouldn’t betray us.”

You looked back at Reiner and met his sturdy gaze, he was desperately trying to steel your nerves. You took a shaky breath, not daring to look at Eren, “Reiner I-I can’t. I can’t do this to them.”

“We don’t have a choice. We never did.” Bertholdt said sternly placing his hands on your shoulders trying to convince you and himself that this was the right choice.

“Hey, Reiner! What do you think you’re doing holding my girlfriend like that? If you’ve got a problem take it up with me.”

Your head snapped around to look at Jean who was glaring at Reiner and beginning to walk your way as you felt nothing but heartbreak looking at him.

“As a warrior. No road left but the one that leads to the end!” Reiner screamed as he held his wounded arm up and began to heal it as steam billowed from him, fully revealing yourselves.

“Right now? Reiner- I can’t!” You screamed as you heard the scouts heading your way.

He squeezed your arm one last time and gave you a stern look before finally letting you go, “Yes. Right here, right now! Forget about them! We settle this once and for all!”

Reiner moved toward Eren when you heard a whirr of ODM gear, “Eren! Get out of here!”

You dodged out of the way and tackled Eren to the ground as Mikasa cut Reiner and slashed Bertholdts throat. You pinned Eren as you yelled, “Stop it Eren!”

Reiner groaned as he pushed himself off the ground and shoved Mikasa off the wall, “Bertholdt! Y/N!”

“Eren! Run away!” Armin screamed as Reiner and Bertholdt began to transform, lightning coming from their bodies.

You looked up only to meet Jean's heartbroken and confused eyes as he and all of your friends sprinted toward you. Tears filled your eyes as you mouthed at him, “I love you.”

You cut your hand on your blade as you began to transform yourself, caging your arms around Eren. You jumped from the wall as you fully transformed, holding Eren tightly in your large titan hand. Eren thrashed and cried as you made it to the ground and looked up to see Bertholdt was holding the scouts off. Reiner was sliding down the wall, as you looked between Eren and up at your friends.

You had a mission to finish and that meant kidnapping Eren and taking him back to Marley. You would be praised a hero and finally make your family proud.

Your family had the expectation that one child of each generation would become a warrior candidate. You had only wanted your parents love and you refused to fail, you swore to be the best warrior you could be. That all changed after Marcel died and you were forced to live among the devils you had hated your whole life.

Meeting the 104th had changed your view on everything. They had been the most welcoming people you’d ever met in your entire life. They provided a safe haven and an escape from the torment of the life you’d left in Marley.

Jean, Sasha, Marco, and Connie had been your first friends and remained that way even after Marco was killed. You hadn’t known till much later that Reiner, Annie, and Bertholdt had been responsible for Marcos death. You had been with Sasha during the battle of Trost at the time. His death was devastating and caused a rift between you and the others. As much as you considered them family, they had hurt someone you’d loved and you weren’t sure if you could follow through with the plan any further.

You and Jean started dating not too long after and things just spiraled from there. You hadn’t meant to fall in love with the enemy, but with Jeans persistence it was inevitable. He was an ass but his charm and kindness towards you had you hooked around his finger. You had been warned by Annie not to get close with the enemy before she’d been uncovered as the female titan. Reiner encouraged it, too deep into his role to tell the difference between who he was now and who used to be.

Once Reiner hit the ground with a large thud you looked to Eren only to find him thrashing around in your hand. You couldn’t give Eren to him, you would be a traitor to Paradis, Liberio, and Marley-fuck it. You squeezed Eren slightly and he looked up at you fearfully. You carefully set him on a tree next to you as you said, “Eren, run away.”

Eren looked at you in complete shock as he looked between you and Reiner and realized your intentions. You faced Reiner and shot him the most apologetic look you could in your titan form.

“I’m sorry friend.” You said as you squared yourself to fight Reiner.

Reiner sighed, completely understanding why this had happened. He was having a difficult time betraying his friends, but he couldn’t disappoint his mother and lose her. He knew Y/N’s true family was on Paradis and the family that had forced you to be a warrior was never going to compare. He nodded his head toward you, trying to show you that he wasn’t angry with you.

He charged towards you and the fight began as you tried to protect Eren for as long as you could. The two fought with great intensity but the 104th could tell that they were pulling their punches.

Jeans hands were sweating profusely as he hung off the side of the wall. He was perched next to Connie and Sasha as he watched you fight Reiner. He felt betrayed and angry, he had put his trust in you and you’d crushed him. Then why were you fighting Reiner? You were supposed to be on the same side and you had put down Eren to fight and protect him it seemed.

“What do we do about her?” Sasha said pulling Jean from his thoughts.

“What? What do you mean?” Jean said looking away from the fight to look at Sasha and Connie.

“She's protecting Eren! We can’t kill her!” Sasha cried out as Jean clenched his jaw.

“She betrayed us!” Jean yelled out, almost trying to convince himself to hate her.

“She probably had to! You think it was all a lie?” Sasha yelled out, clearly trying to reason why her best friend would have done this.

Jean wasnt sure, could she still be a traitor and still have loved him? Was it real?

The fight continued and Jean could tell that you weren’t fully going at Reiner, he knew you could throw a mean punch and you weren’t right now. He heard a snap of ODM gear as Eren swooped onto the wall between Jean and Armin and Mikasa.

“Eren!” Mikasa yelled out in relief.

Eren nodded towards her as Hange shouted at him, “What the hell happened!”

Eren sighed, he wasn’t completely sure himself, “She let me go! She told me to run!”

The scouts were all stunned at the confirmation at what they’d been thinking.

“Why would she do that? She was clearly working with them.” Mikasa said, anger evident in her voice as she had helped betray them.

“She always talked about hating her family! Maybe people made her do this! Maybe that’s why she’s defending Eren- 'cause she doesn’t want to hurt us!” Christa said from higher up the wall, trying to have them see reason.

Then a loud roar cried out and they all focused back on the pair as your titan form stumbled in front of them as Reiner barreled towards the scouts. You growled as you caught Reiners large fist, which surely would have killed all of them. You looked back toward the scouts and said, “Get off the wall!”

They were stunned as they had never heard a titan speak before and then they heard a loud crash from above. Jean looked up to see the half body of the colossal crashing towards the ground. You kicked Reiner causing him to stumble and quickly held your body over the scouts so they could move. They all swung their gear to a further part of the wall away as the colossals jaw crashed straight onto your nape.

“Y/N!” Armin, Christa, and even Eren yelled out as you crashed to the ground and the colossal bit your nape to expose your human body.

Eren screamed as he jumped off the wall and transformed into his titan and began to fight Reiner. The colossal crashed next to your titan form and Jean knew it would take a little bit for Bertholdt to come out of his own titan and get you, which he knew he inevitably would. What would happen to you if Reiner and Bertholdt took you? Would you be killed?

Jean didn’t know and didn’t care to find out as he yelled out and jumped off the wall, firing his ODM gear into your steaming titan form. He stumbled as he landed on it and quickly rushed over to you to find you were missing an arm from Bertholdts bite. Your eyes were closed and Jean could tell you’d been injured from your fight with Reiner.

He took his blade and slashed the remaining muscles connecting you to your titan form, “I’m gonna get you outta here babe, believe me.”

He quickly pulled you into his arms and shot back towards the wall. He tightened his grip around your waist as you hardly held onto him. His comrades looked at him in shock as he growled out, “God knows what they would have done with her, at least we’ll have another titan.”

“Jean…” Connie said quietly as Jean tuned out Eren and Reiners's fight to look down at his girlfriend.

“I couldn’t let them have her. At least she’ll be with us.” Jean said as he held you tightly in his arms so you wouldn’t fall.

Armin, Connie, Sasha, and Christa all moved closer to him as Armin said, “They might try to grab her from you, just worry about holding her and we’ll do our best to defend you.”

“I-I’m sorry. I never had a choice.”

They all looked to you who had your eyes squeezed shut as tears rolled down your cheeks. Jean clenched his jaw, he knew when you were honest, and this was one of those moments. Jean pulled you closer as he switched you carefully to hold your bridal style so you could rest against him. He leaned his head against yours and quietly said, “I want to believe you. Make me believe you.”

You shook with sobs as the fight raged on in front of them and Jean held you securely to him.