#tilu

[miestastilu]

My order from @wanologic came today! :] I'm loving the cover on the zine with how it looks and is textured!

Loving the bookmark too! very nice greens <3

[bealzebubs-blog]

I have started reading land of the lustrous, I'm on chapter 8 I really like diamond I think it's probs between her and cinnabar for my favourite character.

I really hope nothing happens to dia...

[netalkolemedia]

Le Canada impose des sanctions à trois chefs de gangs haïtiens

La ministre canadienne des Affaires étrangères, Mélanie Joly, a annoncé vendredi que le Canada avait imposé des sanctions à l’encontre de trois chefs de gangs haïtiens. Les personnes visées par ces mesures sont Luckson Elan, Gabriel Jean-Pierre et Ferdens Tilus. Les chefs de gang sont accusés de s’être livrés à des activités criminelles qui ont gravement porté atteinte à la paix, à la sécurité et…

[news-trust-india]

Tilu Rauteli Awards : 14 वीरांगनाओं और 35 आंगनबाड़ी कार्यकर्ताओं को सीएम ने किया सम्मानित

देहरादून: Tilu Rauteli Awards   मुख्यमंत्री श्री पुष्कर सिंह धामी ने मंगलवार को आई.आर.डी.टी सभागार सर्वे चौक में आयोजित कार्यक्रम में राज्य स्त्री शक्ति तीलू रौतेली पुरस्कार एवं आंगनबाड़ी कार्यकत्री पुरस्कार 2022-23 प्रदान किये। इस वर्ष 14 महिलाओं को राज्य स्त्री शक्ति तीलू रौतेली पुरस्कार एवं 35 महिलाओं को आंगनबाड़ी कार्यकत्री पुरस्कार प्रदान किया गया। सभी पुरस्कार प्राप्तकर्ताओं को 51-51 हजार…

[redstringraven]

how do your ocs deal with stress? what kind of stressors do they normally face? is there anything that happened that left them at a loss for how to cope?

how do they respond to adrenaline? are they the type to run or fight? is there a specific situation where they’ll fawn or freeze? are they adrenaline junkies, seeking out thrills for the fun of it, or does the mere thought of sitting on a motorcycle make their stomach churn with anxiety?

["addicted to stress" playing in the distance, rapidly approaching]

—*—

CASSIA cassia’s instinctual response to stress is to distract herself or “forget” the stress is in the room with her at all. sometimes, it can be hard to tell she IS stressed out, because she gets fidgety and excitable. this could be interpreted as her being her usual high-energy self, eager to move or anticipating something she's been looking forward to. her parents seem to be the only people capable of telling when her restlessness is related to bottled glee or genuine stress.

she’s gotten better at identifying her stress-avoidance tactics throughout therapy. she’ll try to slow herself down, think through the feelings, and find the most effective way to navigate them, so she doesn’t wind up making things worse or self-sabotaging. her main stressors are usual day-to-day things for a student, such as relationships at school or classwork, but she has additional social stressors tied to being an out transgirl. as for what’s left her at a loss, the only one that would immediately come to mind would be the triceraton invasion and being unable to contact her father throughout it.

in MOST cases, cassia loves a good adrenaline rush. i wouldn’t go as far as to call her a 'junkie', more that she enjoys the thrill when it arrives rather than being someone to seek it out. so long as there’s no danger, she’ll always leave a high-adrenaline situation with a grin (she’s the type to ask “can we go again?” after an unexpected, but ultimately safe, thrill).

in a more negative-leaning or confrontational situation, she tends to bounce between fight or flight; in terms of ‘fight’, this is far more on the verbal side of things. cassia will only engage in physical fighting if she finds herself cornered and it’s a final resort (both because she doesn’t like it and because she doesn’t know much about self-defense), but she's not afraid to cause a scene if you give her a reason to chew you out in public.

NYXRAM nine times out of ten, nyxram’s initial response to stress is to recognize it and deal with it, whatever that might entail. there have been, maybe, two major stress-points in her life where she didn’t know how to cope or move forward with them: the cycle tilus died, and the cycle zanramon was overthrown. the latter required her to trap and apprehend her mother.

“how does nyxram respond to adrenaline” is kind of a weird question to answer, because i feel like dealing with an adrenaline surge--or things that would be high-stress situations for most people--are her version of day-to-day stresses. someone rushes her with a knife, she blocks, wrist-twist, catches knife, stabs them, draws blaster, shoots--oh, grax, did the leaf and pellet mix come in for the chrsh'huar yet? good. go ahead and start feeding them; i'll be late.

adrenaline rushes that would catch nyxram off guard are quite mundane: not knowing an answer to a social/pop-culture question she's assumed to know, being unsure how to interact with a child, realizing someone’s flirting with her, needing to make a casual 'phone call', etc. she just... fumbles her way through it with varying degrees of success and hopes a rogue shuttle will hit her afterward.

nyxram doesn’t have a “default” way of responding to adrenaline. the most consistent thing is that she will NEVER freeze. whether she engages in fight, flight or fawn will depend on the problem in front of her and what she believes will be the most effective way of navigating it.

the only exception to this are confrontations with her parents—before the rebellion succeeded—in which she would always default to fawning. while this had a higher chance of satisfying ramorz than mizertyx, it only worked often enough for her to identify it as her best (and only) option to evade suspicion or punishment.

GWYN for better or for worse, gwyn’s initial response to stress is to get it away from her, or to get herself away from it. sometimes that means running from it, sometimes that means punching it.

kind of like nyxram, this is a difficult question to answer. but where nyxram might be the inverse of most people (high-stress situations are low-stress for her), gwyn basically exists in a state of stress, bordering on outright paranoia. she's all but perfected the art of hiding it; even if she looks relaxed, she's not.

in terms of something that's left her at a loss for how to cope? the answer would be ash’s death. even in present day, she has trouble telling if ash’s soul is really in the shapeshifting weapon, or if this is an idea she put in her own head (this concern is quelled in the rare instances ash interacts with someone other than gwyn).

again, as with nyxram, gwyn doesn’t always have a “default” response to adrenaline or stress; her go-to will vary with situation. unlike nyxram, however, gwyn IS prone to freezing (this is what lead to ash throwing herself in front of the sword to begin with). she also often lacks the discipline or awareness to make “the best” decision under stress; she more reacts on an impulse. this, of course, comes with mixed results... with a lean for the negative. being paranoid has a tendency to warp one's approach to what's in front of them.

while not an adrenaline junkie, gwyn does enjoy a good rush. she may not seek out more “obviously dangerous” ways of getting it (like skydiving or bungie-jumping), but she will sometimes seek it out through skills she already has confidence in: such as getting in a fight she knows she can win, parkour, climbing, and free-running.

ASH if ash and don have anything in common, it's the "i came prepared" mindset. i wouldn't say ash deals with stress 'well', but i would say she's anxious enough of a person to have mapped out a variety of scenarios in advance. ash's usual response to stress is flight, closely followed by fight or fawn depending on the source of the stress. if gwyn's in a tight situation and ash isn't actively having to focus on changing forms, she's instead acting as a second pair of eyes. looking for an exit route, a potential enemy trying to sneak up on them, or generally being on guard--whatever gwyn might need in the moment. since she tends to stay quiet, it's often missed that she gets snippy and insecure when stressed out.

as with gwyn's answer, it's probably expected that the thing that most left ash unable to cope was her own death (or, the death of her physical body). there's a lot of unprocessed trauma for the twins in regard to this subject, as they weren't given time to absorb what had happened to them before they had to go on the run. and while ash IS at peace with her current situation and considers herself dead, it's a feeling she's... almost detached from. she kind of talks about it as though she, herself, weren't in the room. and since she and gwyn are both prickly if the subject, for some reason, comes up? it can be difficult to tell if it's been or being 'coped' with at all.

as for the feeling of adrenaline in general, ash hates it. she often jokes about one of the benefits of being the shapeshifting weapon is a lack of physical feeling--she playfully brags she doesn't need to worry about breathing in space, she begs gwyn use her to poke at coals in a fire, she'll turn into a shield and block an attack for a loved one in a heart beat--and i'm sure she DOES appreciate not getting that dizzying feeling of an adrenaline rush.

but she's not completely free of it. when ash becomes particularly upset or nervous, the black mineral that makes up most of the weapon will start to shiver, break and scatter into smaller pieces that hover and orbit around her, and she'll sometimes need to expel the energy by rapidly making subtle alterations to whatever her current form is. mikey's speculated it's how she has panic attacks, but she didn't consider it important enough to continue thinking about at the time.

[vesperthealchemist]

2 more goobers

Arcis(she/her) on the left

Tilus(he/him) on the right

They’re together

[dehade]

Abdullah bin Umar bin Khattab. Suatu kali ada konflik dengan istrinya. Kesal. Diam di rumah makin panas suasana.

Maka ibnu umar pergi ke masjid. Recharge energi, menenangkan diri. Di mesjid beliau terfikir akan menceraikan istrinya. Menjatuhkan talak tilu.

Baru saja hendak pulang, beliau mendengar seorang membaca surah An-Nisa, sampai di ayat,

‎فان كرهتمو هن فعسى ان تكرهوا شيئا ويجعل الله فيه خيرا كثيرا

“..jika kamu tidak menyukai mereka (istri2mu), (maka bersabarlah) karena boleh jadi kamu tidak menyukai sesuatu, padahal Allah menjadikan kebaikan yang banyak padanya.”

Mendengar ayat diatas, beliau terperangah seakan-akan baru pertama kali mendengarnya. Padahal beliau sudah bertahun-tahun hapal al-Qur’an.

Seketika beliau berubah pikiran, dan berazam, “baiklah saya akan bersabar dan menunggu kebaikan apa yang Allah kirimkan dari istri saya.”

Maka salah satu buah kesbaran beliau kepada istri dan sebaliknya, kesabaran istri kepada ibnu Umar adalah anak yang sholeh dan tumbuh menjadi ulama. Namanya Salim bin Abdullah bin Umar bin Khattab, salah seorang ulama besar dikalangan tabi’in.

Aku kepikiran kisah diatas setelah melihat postingan instagram @nikahinatitute. Bunyinya ;

“Nggak perlu buru-buru, karena setelah menikah yang tersisa hanyalah penerimaan.”

Setali dengan yang dikatakan ust Adi Hidayat, “menikahi yang dicintai itu anugrah. Namun mencintai yang dinikahi adalah kewajiban.”

Maka, wahai diri bersabarlah dalam ketaatan perbaikan. Sebab ia yang kau dambakan menjadi pendamping adalah gambaran diri sendiri.

@dehade . Sudut segitiga permai. Maghrib, 11 feb 2025.

[slammpoetessmurca]

asjad, mis mahuvad väga hästi

hambaniit deodorandipurgi põhas olevasse lohku

'kaerakapu kaasa, palun, oma topsi, aitäh' enne koosolekut, kuhu ma hilinen ainult ühe kaasavõetava kohvijoogi jagu

veel üks minu partner meie polycule'i

magustoit pärast pitsat

popkorni kest hambavahele

uinak enne linna litutama minekut

kass uinakuga samale diivanile

sina mu südame päiksepoolsesse tuppa

(mu südames on õige mitu valget tuba...)

telefon meestepüskte taskusse

hilisõhtune eimidagi-niisama telefonikõne sõbralt

mõni mu 188st kaltsukakleidist sulle selga, kui sul vaja on

labane nali ridade vahele

kuivanud karikakar kingitud luulekogu vahele

millegipärast suitsupaus varssavist tuleva ööbussi igasse peatusse

hääletajad põrnika tagaistmele

veel üks lisalugu kontserdi lõppu

kaks armunud noort ühele kitsale kušetile

asjad, mis ei mahu

veel üks sinu partner meie polycule'i

minu nisukuhi madala värvliga teksadesse

inimeste kurjus ja rumalus mulle pähe

manipuleeriva poisi keskpärane tilu durexi kondoomi

(ma tegelt ei tea, ta nii ütleb, ju siis...)

telefon ei mahu kleiditaskusse

seeliku taskusse

selle nunnu jaki taskusse

teatrikotti, saapasäärde, rinnahoidjasse

rinnahoidja ei mahu eelarvesse

mis veel ei mahu

veel üks arutelupunkt ennelõunase koosoleku kavasse

kliendikaardid retrosse rahakotti

terve tuldud tee tahavaatepeeglisse

kõik head mõtted ühte pühapäeva

[kurung-kuring-aing]

NERANGKEUN ROSUL NU 6

1. NABI ADAM A.S

“ASHADU ANLA ILAHA ILALLAH WA ASHADU ANA ADAM HALIFATULLOH”

Dawuhan Gusti Alloh : Maneh Adam dikersakeun ku Kami jadi utusan, tapi maneh ayeuna ulah hayang Ma’rifat ka Kami,

- kanyahokeun heula wujud maneh pribadi, sabab wujud maneh eta kanyataan ayana Kami.

Kapan ceuk dalilna oge :

“WALLAHU BATHINUL INSAN AL INSANU DOHIRULLAH”

Artina : Jeung Alloh teh bathin na manusa ari manusa dohir na Alloh (di ibaratkeun wadah jeung eusina). Jeung maneh Adam kudu solat 2 (dua) roka’at, waktu subuh pikeun tumarima,

1. boga nyawa

2. boga wujud.

2. NABI NUH A.S

“ASHADU ANLA ILAHA ILALLAH WA ASHADU ANA NUH HABIBULLOH”

Dawuhan Gusti Alloh : Maneh Enuh dikersakeun ku Kami jadi utusan, tapi maneh ayeuna ulah hayang Ma’rifat ka Kami,

- kanyahokeun bae heula denge maneh pribadi, sabab denge maneh eta Pangdenge Kami.

Kapan ceuk dalilna oge :

“SAMI WAL SAMIAN”.

(Artina : Ceupil jeung Pangdanguna )

- Jeung maneh kudu solat waktu duhur lobana 4 (opat) roka’at,

- sing tarima boga 2 ceupil

- jeung 2 suku.

3. NABI IBRAHIM A.S

“ASHADU ANLA ILAHA ILALLAH WA ASHADU ANA IBARAHIM HALILULLOH”

Dawuhan Gusti Alloh : He Ibrahim Maneh dikersakeun ku Kami jadi utusan, tapi montong hayang Ma’rifat ka Kami,

- kanyahokeun bae heula paninggal maneh pribadi, sabab paninggal maneh eta Paninggal Kami.

Kapan ceuk dalilna oge :

“BASHIR WAL BASHIRAN”.

(Artina : Soca jeung Paninggalna ).

- Jeung prak maneh kudu sujud, sholat waktu ashar lobana 4 (opat) roka’at,

- kudu tarima ngabogaan 2 siki mata

- jeung 2 leungeun kenca katuhu.

4. NABI MUSA A.S

“ASHADU ANLA ILAHA ILALLAH WA ASHADU ANA MUSA KALAMULLOH”.

Kitabna nyaeta Taurat.

Dawuhan Gusti Alloh : He Musa Maneh dikersakeun ku Kami jadi utusan aing pribadi, tapi montong hayang nyaho kana Dhat-Sifat Aing,

- kanyahokeun heula pangucap maneh pribadi, sabab pangucap maneh eta Pangucap Kami.

Kapan ceuk dalilna oge :

“KALAM WAL MUTAKALIMAN”.

(Artina : Ucap jeung Nu ngucapkeun )

- Jeung prak maneh geura sholat waktu maghrib lobana 3 (tilu) roka’at,

- sabab saperkara boga baham,

- ka 2 na boga lisan,

- ka 3 na boga ati.

Sedengkeun saatos jaman Nabi Musa diteraskeun ku Nabi Dawud A.S. 

Ari Kitabna nyaeta Jabur.

5. NABI ISA A.S

“ASHADU ANLA ILAHA ILALLAH WA ASHADU ANA ISA ROHULLOH”.

Ari Kitabna nyaeta Injil.

Dawuhan Gusti Alloh : Maneh Isa dikersakeun ku Kami geus jadi utusan Kami, tapi teu kudu hayang nyaho kana Dhat Kami,

- kanyahokeun bae heula Napas maneh pribadi,

- sabab Napas eta kanyataanana hirup Kami Kami.

- Prak maneh geura solat Isa 4 (opat) roka’at,

- lantaran di maneh eta

- ngabogaan 2 (dua) liang irung,

- ka 3 na Nafas,

- ka 4 geutih, geus bukti sabab lamun geutihna lampus, nafasna oge moal aya.

6. NABI MUHAMMAD S.A.W

“ASHADU ANLA ILAHA ILALLAH WA ASHADU ANA MUHAMMAD RASULULLOH”.

Ari kitabna nyaeta Al-Qur’an.

Dawuhan Gusti Alloh : He Muhammad Maneh teh utusan Kami, ka Kami maneh kudu Ma’rifat, sabab maneh anu pang deuheusna,

Kapan ceuk dalilna oge :

“AL INSANU SIRI WA ANA SIRUHU”. (Artina : Sategeusna maneh Muhammad rasa Kami, jeung Kami teh rasa anjeun)

- kapan pangkatna oge Muhammad – Rosululloh,.

- Ieu kami mere Buroq pikeun engke ngadeuheus ka hadirat Kami,

- Jeung turun ka anak incu, terus ka para Wali sadayana, Muslimin para Aulia, nu menang pitulung Gusti, malah nepi ka poe Qiyamah.

Tingali lafadna Nabi-nabi : 

Adam, Enuh, Ibrahim, Musa, Isa.

- Sadayana teu ngangge tasjid ( ), iwal ti Nabi Muhammad, sami sareng lafad Alloh,

- netelakeun carita teu aya deui, yen Nabi Muhammad anu dipaparin Konci keur ngadeuheus ka Hyang Agung.

- Jadi sanajan ayeuna umat Nabi, tangtu bisa, lamun kapanggih “Tasjidna” asal suhud neanganana, dibeulina ku prihatin, tirakat mutih puasa sareng dibarengan ku

- TEKAD – UCAP – LAMPAH anu suci.

- Saur sepuh : 

“KERIS MANJING WARANGKA,

WARANGKA MANJING CURIGA”.

[arcanes-things]

THINGS I LEFT UNSAID-III

21.09.2024

During Microeconomics class, Mam said something along the lines, "Specializing in everything is impossible."

Everything is possible, as long as you have the wish, resources, and willpower to do so.

And 'everything' in my terms is also a hypothetical term in my head and views, everything means the things that I put importance in.

It is very true when people say time is money. In my view, 'everything' is hypothetical. This world is the basis of a big assumption. With assumption things come into existence, with assumption things seize from existence.

[lamyaasfaraini]

Bukber dadakan~

Tetiba ibu ngajak bukber di luar, karena dadakan pilihannya area bandung timur aja bisi macet kalo ke tengah. Antara pojok tilu tilu dan ampera soetta. Dipilihlah ampera soetta karena ina inu lah pokonya. Kita ngga reserved dulu soalnya kalo cuma ber 6 plus 2 bocil mah dtg aja lsg. Pergilah kita kesana jam 5 kurang dan udah ngantri, tempat jg udah penuh, beginilah kalo buka diluar tanpa reservasi huft. Enakan di hotel kek tahun2 laluuu *yaiyalaaah namanya jg dadakan wkwk.

Katanya disitu buka 24 jam, anggapan kami makanan aman lah yaa ngga akan keabisan. Kami tiba sekitar 5.30an deh lupa.. Lsg nyari tempat dan penuh nyari lesehan saung udah penuh bgt tempatnya luas bgt, ibu ngantri makanan. Akhirnya kita dpt di tempat yg kureng nyaman jadinya yaudahlah yg penting dpt tempat gt loh. Hectic bgt yaampuuun, males buka diluar tuh gini yah huhu. Ternyata segala abis orderan kita bbrp ngga ada, bukan ngga ada nunggu di refillnya butuh wkt. Hadehhh dahlah anggap ngga ada aja. Satset lsg sanguan yg biasanya kita makan takjil dulu wkwk. Mau solat magrib musolanya kecil bgt pdhl udah ada tambahan musola darurat ttp ngga ketampung ya Allah kesel yah resto yg tempatnya gede tp musolanya ngga layak itu super aneh menurutku huft.

Akhirnya diputusin kita nyari mesjid terdekat aja krn kita udah slesei makan jg. Ini bocil2 lg penghabisan makanan

Di juru bgt posisinya. Musola segede gt doang

Gasssss nyari mesjid di komplek margahayu, udah telat bgt hampir isya haaaaa.. Pasti udah mau kecampur sama yg mau tarawehan. Mesjid langganan kami disitu, udah sering mampir situ kalo kebetulan lewat situ. Dan iya kita slesei magrib keburu adzan isya, jadi kita ikut isya berjamaah jg da kagok tp utk tarawehan kita di rumah aja, kata bapak kita gatau brp rakaat di mesjid situ bisi 23 rakaat cenah dah weh di rumah wkwk. Malu aja gt pupunten keluar mesjid ya diliatin orang2 hahaha ya Allah maap bukan warlok huhu. Punten ngiring ngalangkung~

Mana ni bocil ribut mulu kan malu wlpn kdg jempe..

Dah weh pulang, solat tarawehnya berdua lagi aja berjamaah sama suami~

[madelinelovesick]

Sound Change of the Day - 2024 January 29

Syncope of unstressed /i/ between a stop and a liquid before a vowel, e.g.:

/kiri/ ⇒ /kri/

/qilo/ ⇒ /qlo/

/tilu/ ⇒ /tlu/

(Astapori Valyrian, by David J. Peterson | dedalvs)

[bojesvemira]

Mene je teško ostaviti bez riječi a evo sada šutim, jel okej ako kažem da plačem ali ne izgovaram slova. Kroz glavu mi prolazi i mjesec mart i bura, i moj džemper i poštovanje, i neka ljubazna riječi i žena lijepa crne kose na motoru, žena jaka puna ljubavi za sve koje poznaje, žena koja nas tjera da jedemo, žena koja pravi najbolje kolače. Žena koja u sebi nema mržnje, žena koja će te nježnim rukama zagrliti i prihvatiti pa da si najgori na svijetu. Žena koja nije se puno jadala, a svega je prošla. Sjetim se i osmijeha njenog i tog poziva da joj dođem na more, da se kupamo valjda. Nisam taj poziv za ozbiljno shvatila, možda sam ipak trebala. Možda sam ipak trebala i lijepo stati zapamtit joj lik, nježne oči i dobrotu na licu. Žao mi je zbog svega što je prošla, a nije zaslužila, zbog boli jer nju nije trebalo nikad da boli. Možda sve okolo, sporedni svijet ali nju nije. Ža mi je šta ti nisam došla na more, da se brčkamo. Evo sada sve mi se u tilu stiska, putuj, plovi mirno ti more vilo dalmatinska🕊️

[sa-va-na]

Kesabaran yang setipis tisu toilet

Setelah jadi ibu-ibu tukang kopi seduh dan mie rebus, loba culture shock anu salila ieu can pernah dialaman selama uing jadi tukang warung sembako. Ternyata jadi pedagang sembako dan warkop teh bedaaaa yagesya. Ari jadi tukang sembako mah emosi teh aman indah lahir batin, nu mareuli sharoleh. Dina rudetna ge paling panggih jeung jalma anu nawar roko hayang lima rebu tilu. Jaba rokona hayang mild embung dibere roko samsu (wkwkwk jadi apal kana roko) ari jadi tukang kopi mah pangrasa teh kabeh jalma rese, loba kahayang, teu sabaran. Komo kawasan pasar mah lolobana syaitonirojim. Kesabaranana setipis tisu teh nyaan alias sumbu pendek. Teu kaopan enya ge cangkangna manusa kolot geus huisan ge adatna bubudakeun. Teu payaan. Mun ceuk si bapa mah hulu huisan ge kolotok munding senah.

Nyeduh kopi caina loba saeutik sewot. Cai na dibahekeun hareupeun pisan uing nu nyieunna. Marah? Oh tentu tidak. Masang senyum aja sambil minta maaf dengan nawarin "mau diseduhin ulang?" Ti dinya asa rujad si opon teh. Hayang langsung ngagarawak mun teu inget kalimat istighfar mah. Jadi hayangna teh cai na satengah gelas gaesss. Atuh teu ngomong nya. Naon hesena reques cai na satengah wae ulah loba teuing kituh! Pan beres .

Menta roko, ditanya roko naon ngajawabna teh piraku teu apal apal. Heh maneh tulak panto! Samaruk nu balanja ka aing nyaneh hungkul! Piraku nu meuli hiji hiji na kudu apal selera jeung kahayangna. Da lain mamah Lauren urang teh. Jaba urang teh jalma anyar teu apal langgan henteu na, hayangna kumaha kumahana. Sakieu ge geus alhamdulillah. Nedunan kahayang nu meuli itu ieu kahayangna rupa rupa jaba ngangais budak. Cik atuh mikil! Kahayangna kudu prioritas ari taeun kasbon wae dasar jalma teu begu.

Maap gaess kesel atuda. Jadi intina mah sifat urang teh bisa kapangaruhan tina lingkungan. Ayeuna cicing dina hiji lingkungan anu panas, urang ge berangsur-angsur kabawakeun panas, atau sabalikna. Jaba jadi tukang warung mah kudu loba sabar, da mun teu kitu atuh moal aya nu meuli. Meureun moal mengalir tah si cuan teh. Ingat kita perintis bukan pewaris. Anjaaay.

Yasudah gaes rek nyeduh kopi heula ah, cag...

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OC question for you! Is there an item, belief, or person that your OCs refuse to (or struggle with) leave behind? Does this have a positive or negative impact on them, either long or short term?

(And why do they hold onto it so strongly?)

<:D!! aaa THANK YOU!! omg, this is a great question.

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CASSIA while she's not usually one to hold onto things, i know for a fact cassia carries a strong and bitter grudge toward her mom's side of the family--specifically her maternal grandparents and one of her two aunts. i'd mentioned previously that esme's side of the family didn't accept cassia's transition, but that's not the heart of the reason for her grudge. their rejection was more a general final straw and lead to their estrangement (also they would have been estranged regardless, if they hadn't accepted cassia for who she is ofc, just to clarify; i just mean to say shit was already stacked up).

esme struggles with high anxiety. where cassia is loud and energetic and loves being the center of attention, esme has always been soft-spoken, a bit timid, and tries to take up as little space in a room as possible. much of this behavior can be attributed to the environment she was raised in.

while esme (and oliver) haven't provided cassia with heavy details--your child can support you, but it isn't their responsibility to carry your burdens--she knows enough to understand why esme's demeanor would change during certain family visits.

cassia will sometimes commit petty acts of '''violence''', such as signing up to junkmail newsletters with her aunt and grandparents' email addresses, or prank calling their house before caller ID was a thing, or a variety of other harmless--but extremely annoying--"pranks". she mostly only does this when she's in a low place, herself, and she doesn't talk about it to much of anyone outside her therapist (because she knows her parents would gently chide her). it's her dirty little secret. wouldn't surprise me if she has some kind of burn book somewhere in her room specifically for them.

NYXRAM nyx is not a person to hold onto things, be them grudges or material items. if something's becoming dead weight she lets it go.

there is, however, one exception.

i've mentioned nyx was the only survivor of her clutch. she doesn't remember most of her siblings, but she does remember her brother. for dozens of cycles in her youth, the two of them trained together. they had a complicated relationship; there were moments of competition and resentment, but there were also moments of silent support. until the day came that their parents decided it was time for that first kill to be made. nyxram's first kill was her brother and last remaining sibling. he never earned a name.

i'm not sure if "haunted" is the right word, but nyxram seems to believe her brother is still with her in some way. she refers to him as a feeling she gets--almost a sixth-sense-like impulse that alerts her to approaching/unseen danger and keeps her alive when something should have gotten the jump on her. whether she considers this a blessing or more of a curse depends on the day. she got to live that day, so she's going to keep living... whether she wants to or not.

for a long time, she kept the knife she used to kill him. but when traximus goes to mourn tilus and leaves a spear at his grave, nyxram leaves the knife. i wouldn't say she's left her brother, or the associated tangle of complicated emotions, behind. but it is a first step to allowing herself some kind of peace.

GWYN it's a cop-out answer, but i feel like i have to say ash, given this is a point of argument between them throughout their journey.

ash considers herself dead, as i've mentioned, and has come to peace with it as well as the idea that she may be a literal weapon for the rest of her sentience. she often wishes gwyn would move on and live for herself, rather than continue risking her life for what ash considers an unreachable goal. but gwyn won't, or can't, let her go.

darach has tried the tactic of "look at the trail of pain and misery you've left behind--all these people hurt, the sense of security in their lives forever tainted; it would all end if you just surrendered her to me".

and like... gwyn knows he's right. he'd stop pursuing her, the "ripple effect" of her presence on any world would vanish and people around her--regardless of their involvement--would stop suffering. but... whether you call it loyalty or selfishness, she won't let ash go.

now she's landed in new york. and the ripple is starting to spread.

ASH again, a bit of a cop-out answer but if i were going to provide any answer, it'd be gwyn. ash will absolutely use whatever little bit of power she has to keep gwyn alive. outside of that, though... she's at peace with the fact she's "dead". she doesn't hold on to much else.

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... la 15 anie ra ditamai femeia avea barabt s-o itrnetina .. i-a factu copikl.. copilu e recscut in lxu cu familia barbtutlui.ca ea trebuei sa atsica etatrul cu mien .. ca eu sutn emeu vinvoaat care tbruei sa paletasca sa sluejasca sa rht .. aveua amcar varainta sa renutne al mine ?? avea drepturi sa-i bage ins pcuarie pe emil pe maihela..dar nu stiu eu..paote flroi i-a dat itnetionat copilu lu miahela .. paote nu l-a furat maihela. cui maihela i-a dus alta fata ..de ce ?? ca era o rpaosart de 15 ani ?? .. da eva drpeturile sa-i abge in spcaurei sa riemasca jtuoare sociale.. da e amndria ei de femeie .. ca maa e de rpoasta in familia ei de sefe bogate care emrita totuol barabti si identitate .. !!!!!!!!

am rams inchsia in gradintia sa multi ani .. icnhasi ing adinita !!! ca si cum m-a ltu la taar ei sa-mi arate a meis tilu eid e graidniat .. ca sta trbeuia sa afceti cu viata ema !!!!!! m-a dus al locu lu alta fata .. sa-i paletsc viata ..s i sa nu ptoa vea dientiatte..aveam envoie de idneittate . dar ce dientioatte rpeismc ?? priems co alat fat sa feie a roxan sa zica ca-s moarta !!!!! probabila apltit-o belgia pt treaba ai tbeuai sas ifnoemze ca e a lu belgia !!!!!!! in lcod e idenittate am primti hoti sa fie totul al lor !!!!!!!

o fis etat site sa nu apra listeel aleA pt rpofil meu ?? nici nu am al ce conturi sa verific !!!!!

e contu meu izolat .. d-aia nu apr slitele alea.. nu-mi amid adea recoamndari .. nici de prieteni nici pagini .. nu mai agsema altceva !!!! mia izolat contul ....

..rept aceeasi pveoste de 4 ani .. nu am al ciens a pelz pt identitate nimic.. la halu ican re sunt tratata ici !!!!!! decic a da e o elgatura.. copilue recscut de familia lui .. si ea ae dreptriel ins tiuatai inca re sunt pusa .. in locul lo .. da rnu ebenficiez ca o ficia .. sunt trata ca dc ca pe so claavs i dsumanca cua sa etatru !!!!!!! deci da e legatua.. fiica e rcescuta de fmailia lui .. sai ea taieste etatru cu mine .. peste mine ..ca viat ema e in jocurile lor !!!!!! in epricol ian sa situatii de kkt emue de n-am dentiatte nimic .. ca la fza sta ei auc atsigat situataiu legala .. ca .. guevrnula stepats a stei cien sunt ??stei geuevrnu romaniei de uden sutn luata ??sutn data lro pt asa ceva ?? icna zu meu ma-ti prins asa devreme... si pus ina sa amre belea .. !!!!! sia ti contnuat emreu sa fiti ebelaua de pe viat ema !!!!!!

e xcat situati ican re sunt auotmat criminala in lcou alteia .. nu am cale de eisire vie ca viat e numai pt ei !!!!!

nu avema dentiatet viata aici..nma flam aicic a sa-i venrez sa-is revsc pe ei.. am flam aici de clovn umilit .si ei ma abtjcoreau ina sa hal..... nu avea identitate .. aveam dsuamni de venerat .. asta era situatia ..ce pteua afce..nu pteuma sa-mi rpoduc mnie dientiatte .. tot ce pteuam afce ra sa fiu suspusa unro dsuamni care au ras asa tare si mutl de mine!!! inchsia ing radinita sa multiu ani..fara dientiatte ... obligata sa evnrez aniale care ma calca in picaiore !!!!!!! eu nu tpeuam eva viat reala..kaleido star leegam sa avd nu ep fiisa..ca fiisa era o fata eala viat er anumai pt ea..e u nu pteuma eva viatc a am flu aici ca s-o venreaz pe fiisa !!!!!! furau de la mien am dsitruegau a abtjcoreau..sunt obliagta sa-i venrez sa-is evsc pe unicia re sae comrtpoa sa dusmani pe mien..ca eu nu ptoa eva identiatte si viats epoarat ca-s obligata sa-i suprot eu .. ca-s os araca fara dientiatte d-aia .. leega ma oblga pe nine in circul lor .. ei sutn arnajati la situtia legala !!!!!!!

erna emrue inconjuarat de copii tp ca erma osc lava intre ei .. !!!! adultii isi abetau jco de ine.. ma amestecau cu ei si am epdeseau pe mine !!!!!

toata viata mea m-aua vtu la casa lro si batjocorit ina semena hal..ca ce-s eu tp ei..copilu cua re tbuei sa tarsica teatrul d saraci vs nebuna .. pe drc .. eu sutnf saaca si limitata ..tp ca sta e restrictie .. car emai- taiatd repotriel d a eva identitate si reusre uanitare .. jocurile lor !!! eu nu mi-a eprmis sa atresic sa am o viat de o .. sunt olbigata al relati cu ei .. si viat e numai tp ei eu nu tpoa ea nimci..tp ca ei sunt snite dsumani care au tot cotnrolua supra mea !!!!! cum ii apcle sa iab rptiuensa maltatata .. ca e tasu si sutn olbigata la relatai cua pritnii ei ..al avsrta asta in lcos a am banii emi sa eis de aici.. am rams inchisa inc e cic imi jaoca ei !!!!!!! ca viat e pt fiica lor . eu de ce nu pto avea ??ca nue niemni obliagts a am respecte sa imi feore mei ??ca ei aleg curvele .. !!!!!!! dar am teratza spe mienc ape o curva .. pe mien ma aid e curva si de rpoasta .c.and nus utn dar isnsiat si nus cap de el..ca tbrueie enaparts a-i emrgea circul !!!!!!!! le-a emrs circulc a am veua de ica .. si n0am avtu dintiatet n-am avut lobeiratte si dzeu n-a existat pt mine .. !!!! tot circu care mi l-au facuty.. special tp cien dracu ii edvea si auzea pe ei !!!!!!!!! era psihologie ep aici ? https://www.google.com/maps/place/NOS+Games/@44.3767797,26.1288369,103m/data=!3m1!1e3!4m6!3m5!1s0x40b1ff7e7f5fe73d:0xb9aa4d955e903cdd!8m2!3d44.3765647!4d26.1285518!16s%2Fg%2F11v0mjnn0n?entry=ttu&g_ep=EgoyMDI1MDUxNS4xIKXMDSoASAFQAw%3D%3Dmai-ti astepatt poeictel de 30 de ani a,m-ti adus aici sa av afc rpoeicrte pt natieuna voastra !!!!!! ca sa a insuoltati si icndhieti ina seena haluri..ca av evde dazuel cel bun cu voiu emreu !!!!!!!! m-au mintit si abtjocoit emrue si nu tpeuas a eis dinc icu lro ca tareiusc frauda cu ei .. ei au castiagts ituatia legala itmrpovia ema .. sunt mincinosii batausi si se disteraza sa atre pe seama ema !!!!