#threads. sadie lepal.

[darlinghearts]

Open to : m / f Connection : ex that didn't end well, fwb, person who has a crush on her, etc

❝I don't really DO relationships. You KNOW that ... ❞

[darlinghearts]

❝You're sweet. WRONG ... but sweet.❞ Sadie knew how she could get. Angry on the QUICKEST of whims, stubborn to a fault, flakey whenever things got too REAL. It was the PERFECT storm of being fucked up, and he wouldn't be able to convince her otherwise. Honestly that's the REAL reason behind all of his, if she were being honest with herself. She wasn't of COURSE, but if she allowed even a moments worth of self reflection, she'd see it for what it really was. Sadie LOVED Dawson. Had for the longest time too, but the moment she got too close it had started to SCARE her. Though she couldn't ENTIRELY pull herself away. Which is why, as they walked, she slowly LOOPED her arm through his and sighed dramatically. ❝Guess we can just be lonely losers together huh?❞ Platonically of course ... if she could HANDLE that for long. Mixed signals were definitely being sent but she still wasn't OVER him so this is the best she could do to keep SOME contact without breaking down and begging him to take her back.

had been a difficult thing to come to terms with. their break up, reality that he could never be good enough. it's why they aren't together, is it ? had tried to work out every other possibility. wasn't exactly an exciting guy to be around, had more trauma than one would think. always had been relatively toned down, easy - going, but there will always be this pain buried deep within his soul — an emptiness that's made it hard for him to trust those he comes across. it'd been the same when it came to intimacy. " come on, sades. you're not fucked up. " and yes, while he'd agree with her statement, he doesn't openly admit it. " but i guess you know what's best for you, right ? " and if she can't find anyone else, he won't be one to complain. on the contrary, he'd be relieved by it.

[darlinghearts]

❝Guess it's a GOOD thing I don't NEED a fucking babysitter then. So why are you even HERE?❞

( open to; f ) ( muse; antonio rinaldi. 35. mobster. )

“I’m not guarding the boss’s kid to play babysitter. Sit and behave.”

[darlinghearts]

At the TIME it had felt like the right move - breaking up with him - but now? Now it just seemed like more of a burden than anything else. Something to WEIGH heavily on her soul ... but she couldn't take it back. Sadie had ALREADY given him whiplash with it seemingly coming out of nowhere, it simply wouldn't be FAIR right? So yeah, the least she could do was make sure he do BETTER for himself this time around. If only it weren't so fucking HARD. Not only for HER to watch, but for HIM as well. With all of his introverted tendencies, and his anxieties. Sometimes it felt like she was the only one that UNDERSTOOD what was going on in his head. At his question, the dark haired girl merely SHOOK her head softly and let out a QUIET hum before answering verbally a moment or two later. ❝Nah. I think I'm too FUCKED up right now. Wasn't fair to you ... ya know? Probably shouldn't do it to someone ELSE right now.❞

supposes there is space for him to feel a sense of sympathy. for someone who has been watching him try ( and fail ) to meet someone new, she's been handling it fairly well. doesn't know how he'd feel if things were the other way around. sighs, stuffing his hands in his pockets. just can't seem to wrap his head around it all. why did they break up again ? can't seem to place the reason. feels silly in hindsight, like maybe whatever decision they made was not entirely thought through. " i, uh . . . i don't think i'll be seeing any one for a while. " it's difficult enough for him to put himself out there. dawson, despite what others might think, is extremely introverted. doesn't know how to carry a conversation, how to make friends. " what about you, though ? " turns his head, gaze shyly turning towards her. " you meet anyone recently ? " whoever it is, daws can only imagine they'd be a million steps ahead of him.

[darlinghearts]

❝I ... I AM happy.❞ Sadie couldn't even get through that SIMPLE sentence without stumbling, yet she believed her own lies anyways. It was better for EVERYONE involved if she did - at least that's how she viewed it. ❝Besides - DICK doesn't make me happy. And I'm convinced that's all a guys good for these days.❞ They haven't proved her wrong yet at least.

" yea. i know. trust me, i know it better than anyone. but i think you owe it to yourself to give it a chance and see what comes of it. you really deserve to be happy. "

[darlinghearts]

❝You REALLY didn't see it? Damn, I knew you were kinda BLIND to a girl with a good ASS but fuck Daw - that's sad.❞ Huffing out SOFTLY, Sadie allowed her shoulders to relax ONLY once he admitted his thanks. It could have gone either way, but she was GLAD he decided not to be mad at her. For the moment anyways, things could ALWAYS turn on her. She shrugs then and looks away for a second, thinking his words over, then eyes return with a resigned kind of look. ❝Yeah, we BROKE up. But that doesn't mean I want you to DOWNGRADE. Which is all you seem to be doing lately.❞

" a psycho ? how exactly was she a psycho ? " save for the fact that she had liked a multitude of daws' old instagram posts . . . she seemed pretty nice. swallows suddenly, riddled with feelings of guilt. leave it to dawson to feel upset with himself over doing nothing at all. okay, okay, i don't . . . i'm thankful for your help. but i don't know. sometimes it seems like you just don't want me to date anyone. "

[darlinghearts]

❝I was LITERALLY saving you from a psycho, but sure. Blame me. AGAIN.❞ That's her story and she was going to STICK to it until the very end if she could. She was HELPING him, nothing more. Shoulders shrug and eyes ADVERT to look anywhere but his way as they BOTH come to a stop idly. ❝Can't I still want what's BEST for you?❞

@darlinghearts liked for a starter ! (insp. in source)

" i just don't get why you keep crashing my dates ? " sighs frustratingly, following the other down the street before he comes to an abrupt stop. " you broke up with me, remember ? "