#thread:Sydney and Adrian

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She curled into his side as he walked her back into the bathroom. She rest her head on him, wanting to be close to him. She felt safe with him.

When he turned on the water and gently pushed her inside, she jumped a little from the shock of the water on her skin. She felt useless, like she was unable to do anything on her own right now. She had been so alone for so long, that part of her was glad that Adrian was helping her, but at the same time, she wanted to scream and shout and just be able to move on from it all.

She felt him remove her towel, but didn't acknowledge it. She knew this wasn't anything sexual. This was the side of Adrian she loved most. His caring side.

Sydney pulled her hands up in front of her, and then lent into his body. "You're going to get your clothes soaked." She said softly. "Are you sure you don't want to remove some of them?" She asked, not lifting her head, and just closing her eyes at his touch. He was so gentle, so warm. This was a side of Adrian that she knew was reserved for just her.

She nodded at his words, closing his eyes and just letting him wash her, letting him help her feel at ease.

"Thank you Adrian." She said softly.

Wordlessly, Adrian helped the blonde to her feet, a hand wrapped around her middle guiding her back to the bathroom. Reaching back into the shower turning the water back on to an acceptable warmth, nudging her inside, and removing her towel to be dropped onto the floor. Despite his attempt at control he still raked his gaze over her body. Taking a breath he steadies himself, internally chiding himself. She was suffering and here he was with those thoughts. ❝ Relax into my touch. ❞ He instructs her, kicking his shoes off and slipping his phone onto the nearby counter before entering the shower himself. The water ran down his clothes leaving him wet but it didn't matter. Kissing the top of her head, he grabs the shampoo and begins lathering her hair. ❝ You'll let me know if you need me to stop, won't you? ❞

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@badassjetsteele​ asked :  "I’ve never really had any friends." - to Sydney

The blonde looked at Adrian, looking into his beautiful green eyes. 

They shone so brightly, and looked so alive. 

She really hadn’t seen anything more beautiful than those green eyes.

“Thats not how you’ve made it sound before.” She breathed, still looking into those eyes.

“All the parties, the girls...” She said.

“And you have Rose, and Jill.. and Lissa.” She reminded him. 

She then looked at his hand. Biting her lip, she reached forwards and rest her hand lightly on top of his and let her thumb lightly brush over his knuckles.

“And you have me.” She whispered.

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@badassjetsteele​ asked:  "I think you’ve rescued me." - to Sydney

If Sydney had told herself a year ago that she would be standing this close to a vampire, she would of laughed and said she was losing her mind. 

Yet here she was, not only standing this close to a vampire, but holding his hand and pulling him a little closer.

“No Adrian, you rescued me.” She breathed softly.

It was true. She felt she had been freed from a life that had brainwashed her to believe so many incorrect things, a life that was so strict, and one that took away what she could of really been.

But Adrian, he opened her eyes to a world that was so full of colour, so bright, and beautiful, compared to the grey she was used to.

He freed her. He saved her. And she loved him for it.

Her hand lift from his hand, touching his cheek tenderly, her thumb brushing over his perfect cheekbone.

“You rescued me Adrian Ivashkov, and I will never stop thinking that.”

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@badassjetsteele​ asked:  "We don’t have anything to hide anymore."

She wished it was that easy. Wished that they could just be themselves around everyone, and not worry about who was looking at them. 

Sure, if they were only among humans, they wouldn’t notice anything strange, and the Witches seemed to accept them for who they were. 

But her kind? The Alchemists...

And the Moroi....

They didn’t.

They couldn’t.

“If only it was that easy Adrian.” She breathed.

“For now, we’re not really safe anywhere. I know we have been granted sanctuary here in Moroi Court, but we’re still frowned upon by so many.” She told him.

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Sydney closed her eyes, a small tear rolling down her cheek at his words. She didn't know how she got so lucky to have him in her life. To have him love her the way he did. Unconditionally.

How could she ever have thought him a monster. Thought his kind were monsters. They had more humanity than her own. The ones that did this to her. The ones that broke her.

Adrian was kind, loving and caring. He was hers, and she knew she would never love anyone as much as she loved him. Her first, and only love. He was it, her one, her soul mate. And his words only confirmed it all for her.

As he stood up, she looked up at him and reached her hands out to him, wanting his help to stand up.

Her eyes looked at him with pure love and devotion, and the blonde nodded. "Please." She breathed. She knew there was nothing sexual about his offer. Only pure love.

"If you're OK with that. I would really appreciate it. Part of me is scared to be alone." She breathed.

She then nodded "OK. Yeah, coffee wouldn't be good right now, I need sleep." She agreed.

Listening to Sydney beat herself up only increased the ache he felt in his chest. ❝ Sydney.. None of that matters right now. You're alive, you're beautiful - then AND now. I love you for your brain and that stunning personality of yours. Your good looks were merely an added bonus. ❞ He muses, fingers running over the skin of her hands. If she wanted to speak about what she endured he would listen but for now, he would help her. Careful not to jostle her too much he stood up - much to the relief of his long limbs that had awkwardly been folded before. ❝ You can say no, or you can tell me to leave if it makes you uncomfortable but... Let me help you, a good soak will do wonders, sage. ❞ There was nothing sexual about his offer to help her bathe, merely a means to support the blonde navigate through whatever the hell it was that they had done to her. His phone buzzed in his pocket. A quick glance at the screen tells him what he figured. ❝ Food shouldn't be longer than half an hour. Eddie wanted to get you coffee but I think you should rest.❞

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Her heart was racing in her chest, scared of what he might say. She used to dislike looking in the mirror, wishing she was more beautiful like the Moroi, or slim like them. But now when she looked in the mirror, she longed for that person. Now she was bruised, and skeletal, and gaunt.

She nodded as he said Eddie would get them food. She was glad in a way that Adrian wasn't leaving her side.

His words brought tears to her eyes once again and she lift her head and turned it to look at him completely. He had the most beautiful eyes. She had always thought that.

"I look awful." She breathed. "I used to always want to be slimmer, and prettier, and more like a Moroi..." She started.

"But now.... Now I miss how I used to look. I miss my shape, my muscle definition, my curves." She breathed. "And Now... I have none, I am a skeleton." She said. "I disgust myself." She admitted.

"I love you so much, and I hate that I look this way, and you have to look at this." She told him.

She had her insecurities before, but what the Alchemists had put her through.... it had caused so much emotional damage... but a lot of mental damage too. She hated appearing weak, but right now, she just didn't have the strength to appear strong.

Being a vampire had its perks, but it also had its disadvantages. One of the disadvantages was Adrian's heightened hearing. It allowed him to hear the woman he loved quietly falling apart in the other room, which drove him to a new low. Whatever she needed, he was determined to provide it. He kept telling himself that, trying not to let his anger and outrage get the better of him. When Sydney sat down next to him, he pulled out his phone and sent Eddie a quick reply. Eddie was as worried as Adrian was, but he was keeping his distance and maintaining surveillance. Adrian had asked him to temporarily abandon that duty in favor of getting Sydney a much-needed meal. "Eddie can get the food," Adrian said. "I'm staying right here with you." Sydney's statement caught him off guard, and his emerald eyes blinked a few times in confusion. Had he misheard what she'd said, or was she seriously considering that he wouldn't want her still? "There is nothing that they could do to you that would change how I feel about you, Sage," he said, his voice a mix of anger and love.

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A soft sob left her lips as she lift her hand and swept the tears away, she wrapped her thin, frail arms around herself and sucked in her breath, as the tears began to flow freely.

How could he look at her now and find her attractive? How could Adrian possibly be in love with her still?

Ass she heard his voice, she walked to the door, she wasn't sure what she was going to do. If she should push it closed, or just tell him she was fine. But she couldn't lie to him. She loved him. She had suffered a lot to be with him, and it had been worth it. To be with him. But she hoped he still loved her, despite her appearence.

"Erm... I... Will you get us something to eat?" She asked through soft sobs, but she tried to control them. She pulled a towel around herself, despite not evening showering, and stepped out, moving to sit next to him, her head moving to rest on his shoulder, wiping the tears from her eyes again. "I just need you, and something to eat." She said, trying to stop the crying.

"If.... if you still want me." She then said softly, her eyes lifting up, though she wasn't really able to see his expression.

She'd left a gap in the door and he decided to advert his gaze while she undressed. He hoped she wouldn't notice and become offended. Not looking at Sydney was both for her but also for him. To see how thin and frail she had become made that angry monster inside come forward. The monster that made his spirit flare up and lord knew what he might do if he harnessed his full capability. He'd been off his meds for a while - he'd been trying to dreamwalk to find her for weeks. During the day he had taken to a low buzz, enough to take the edge off but not enough to blur his magic. Seconds could have passed but they felt like hours. He wanted to be at her side, in fact he was almost ready to slap a pair of handcuffs on both of their wrists and call it a day but she would have some objections.

❝ Can I do anything for you? ❞ He asks from his spot on the floor, head tipped back against the wall with his eyes closed. Replaying the events of the night over and over. The whole thing had gone smoothly, too quick for Adrian to fully comprehend. Eddie had played a large part, he was the muscle after all.

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Sydney hadn't planned on kissing his cheek, but deep down, she had to be sure this was real, that this moment was not one she was dreaming up, and nothing could feel as comforting as her lips did on his cool skin. Nothing could ever catch that sensation except the real thing.

It was a comfort she was sure he wouldn't be able to fully understand that she needed right now in this moment.

To know that this was real, and not some hunger induced hallucination.

She closed her eyes and lent a little into his touch as he tucked her hair behind her ear. "Thank you." She breathed softly.

Sydney watched him sit down and then took a breath before walking into the bathroom. She pushed the door shut a little, but left a gap open, so she could still see him. Slowly, she started to undress, her eyes catching her form in the mirror. Her breathing quickening a little at how different she looked. So thin, and pale, yet bruised. She had always wanted to be thin, always did everything she could to be thinner, going to extremes to be thin. But as she looked upon herself now, she felt physically sick, and all she wanted was curves. Curves like Rose. Tears began to fill her lower lids, till they spilled out and ran down her cheeks.

The power she held over him always surprised him, the way his body yearned for her touch. Had you asked him a year ago if he thought falling in love with a human - an alchemist - to be possible, his answer would have been a resounding no but things had changed and he would never be without her. He'd made that decision the minute he'd been reunited with her. As much as his anger still remained almost anytime he caught himself staring at her body he knew it wouldn't serve him to stay that mad.

The kiss caught him off guard, pulling him from his thoughts, not because he didn't want to kiss her - he did. Badly. But the timing felt off, she'd been through such a trauma he hadn't really thought about doing more than providing his touch for comfort should she want it. Gentle fingers brush hair behind her ears, nodding to his spot on the wall. ❝ I'll be right here. ❞ Eddie and the few others were still giving them space but sooner or later Adrian knew he would need to talk to the dhampir. Offering a small smile, he sat his tall frame down on the floor.

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How could anyone believe that Adrian was a vile murdering creature. He was an artist, a poet, a gentleman. Of course, he hadn't always been so gentlemanly, but he was one. He was sincere, and kind, and caring, and she had missed it, missed him.

A soft smile graced her thin pale face and she stepped towards him. "Can you what?" She asked him, wanting to know what was on his mind. For a while, it was the only way they could talk, was through his mind, through his abilities, and yet, she still wanted to know what he was thinking.

She lift her hands and lightly cupped his cheeks, looking into those beautiful green eyes. She loved those eyes, they were her favourite thing to look into. This Green would forever be her favourite shade of green now.

"I will always need you Adrian." She then said softly. "Always." She repeated. She lent in, lightly pressing a simple, chaste kiss to his lips.

"I er.. might leave the door open a little, maybe just keep reassuring me you are here." She told him.

If she was honest, she was scared to be alone right now. The thought of isolation made her feel physically sick. She knew this was not the end of the alchemists. She knew they would be hunting after her and Adrian. She knew they weren't safe. Would they ever be safe? She wasn't sure. All she knew was that to be with him... it was worth it.

Every bit of focus he possessed remained on the blonde, as much as he wanted to rip those Alchemists to shreds he realized it would serve little good and in turn create a stronger belief that moroi and dhampir kind were vile, creatures of the night. Sydney was his only focus right now. What she needed. What she wanted. He would move heaven and hell just to make her comfortable. ❝ Scouts honour. ❞ The moroi stated with a pained smile. The longer he watched her, the worse his imagination spun things. She was far too thin and that was saying a lot as she was already tiny before capture. Her face was gaunt and he swore if he touched her a bone would protrude through the skin. ❝ Can I - ❞ He begins but stops, trying to figure out how to word what he wants to say correctly. The last thing he wanted was to offend her or make her upset. He decided against asking to help her in favor of giving her at least a small shred of dignity and time to process everything in her own time. ❝ Let me know if you need help. I'll be right here. ❞ He points to the wall beside the door where he intends to sit against while she cleans herself up.

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There were no words that could explain what she had been through, what she had endured. The words didn't seem to fit just how horrible an experience it was. Even the word horrible seemed too light. Everytime she closed her eyes she could see that place again, she could feel the place etched into her skin. The smell embedded in her nostrils.

She honestly didn't know how she would ever be able to get over that place. If she would ever be ok again. But she knew she wasn't alone.

She had him. The man she loved.

Sydney jumped a little as he spoke. "Sorry..." She breathed softly, giving him a small smile, letting him know that it wasn't him that made her jump, and just because of what she had been through.

"Wow, your charm has really gone down hill since I've been gone." She teased lightly, her throat a little hoarse from the smoke inhalation.

She looked at the door he mentioned and nodded softly. "You... you won't leave will you?" She asked, not wanting to be alone. "You'll still be here when I come out right?" She asked. She hated appearing weak, but she needed him near, needed to know that she wasn't in isolation anymore, or trapped in that nightmare place.

How many days and nights had the young royal been awake? He'd lost count but they had finally found her - Sydney, and nothing else mattered. When he and Eddie pulled a daring rescue mission they'd found her restrained to a cold metal table in the darkness and it made his stomach flip. How long had she been like this? What had they done to the woman he loved? It hadn't mattered until they safely got her out of that hell. Eddie as diligent as ever, secured their safe house. They'd exchanged a few words in quiet but understood that Sydney might have difficulty readjusting. That's where he came in, he vowed to do everything in his power to get her through this - whatever she needed. So they sat alone in private, away from the rest. His green eyes noted just how fragile the human looked. ❝ Sydney... ❞ The moroi says after a while of sitting in silence, moving closer but still offering her space should she need it. ❝ You look like hell, Sage. I thought that was supposed to be me. ❞ He jokes trying to lighten the mood in the seriousness of their situation. ❝ There's a bathroom through that door. ❞ he pointed as he spoke. ❝ There's a bath-shower combo going on too. If you wanted. ❞ They couldn't remain here for longer than the night but her comfort was everything. @entangledmuses