#thought abt rickrolling you instead but skhgdf this was on the mind

[noctualagenaria]

are you ok (knows u arent)

i dont owe you my heart and i dont owe you my body but you should know that im sorryr fory being careless with youuuu lord knows i owedyou moreee thanim pretty sure i ever could give anybody but i cant pin down what normal ppl want from forgein objects bottom shelf erotic products like me sooo i could hold your hand but keep y ou at arms length oh hang me from a branch to high to climb and shake less rare than scarce less diamond than rouugh unlikely to be more than just the coal you fail to crush and iiiiii i ii iiiiiiiii ii swearrrrrr im really trying get it together will, know and do better, it just dont come natural to me to think youd want me for me iiiiiiiii ii i i ii ii ii i i swearrr im really trying oh im sorry i promise im doing my best i just havent learned how to be human as you are yet *lil shimmy* i still dont know who you are eee, i only know that im still lonely, that morbid sort where even company cant cure me and the more you reassure the less i truuusst but still you gAVE me your heAARRRTTT i only gave you my bodyy honestly thought nobody'd want it let alone notice its gone and so i left it home but now now nOWWWWW i keep a locket with a picture of the back of my head ohh monkey wrench my side view mirrors ghost my friends, ive lived more lives than enoughj i havent died quite as much but im not a real person just the shit you cant make up and iii i iii ii i iswearrr im really tryinggg, im just as exposed if i take off my clothes when we make the closest thing to love that im cabaple of and iii ii ii- dont know why you would cAREEE but im really trying oh im sorry i promise im doing my best i just havent learned how to be human as you are yet *boogie boogie* *woogie* did i reallllyyy haveanyofthatgravitymaybeyourequicksandbecauseireallycouldnttellhowdeepmyfootprintswentthevertextofmyredemptionarcthesearchingofthatvirginheartimcatatonicinyourarmscriedhowdidicausesomuchharmimdownpoundingmyheadagainstthekitchenfloorapologisingformylifeandeverenteringyoursdonwsayimsorrybutthiscantgooniknowyouvegotscarsofyourownbuthidemyknivesbeforeyougoilleitherliveordiealone

iiiii iiiiiiiiiiiiiii i i swearrrrrrrrrrr i will die tryinnggggg im still in the process but im making progress i promise i honestly wanna prove improvements possible ii i ii iiiiiiiiiiiiiii swearrrrrrrrrrrrr im so fucking sorrryyyyy im not a good person im barely a person at all but someday ill be perfect and ill make up for it all

andwriteafuckingsongabtitbcithastobeallaboutwillsFUCKINGdramaGODDAMNIT-- sorry, fuck im sorry