#though i have a hydra verse where he ends up under their control similar to bucky and uh

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What type of villain are you? [yes I'm doing it again, for other muses, fight me >w>]

Then Let Me Be Evil

You never wanted to hurt anyone, but the world never gave you a choice. You did the best you could with what you had, but every innocent mistake you made was held against you when it counted, every crossroads led you down the wrong path no matter which way you went. No matter what you did, the odds were stacked against you. It wasn't fair, and you are sick and tired of being told what a monster you are for things out of your control. Well, fine. They want a monster? YOU'LL GIVE THEM A MONSTER!

The Betrayer

You like to do things up close and personal. As personal as you can get. You are an excellent actor, and you do adore putting on a smile knowing your worst enemy, the one you hate the most, doesn't suspect a thing when they tell you their deepest secrets. Your only motivation is revenge, and revenge you shall get. Perhaps you loved them once, long ago, but any fondness for your target you once felt has long since warped and twisted into perverse obsession, laced with malice and venom and seething hatred. Good or evil does not matter to you. All that matters is they get what they deserve.

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     *  Note: Since LOGAN takes place in a dystopian world set in  the 20th Century Fox world of their ‘XMEN’ in 2029 -- I’ve had to tweak Laura’s canon timeline to fit in with the MCU. These are my compiled ideas/notes for where Laura would/might fit in, according to the MCU timeline. This can also be amended/altered depending upon who I am writing with & whatever stories we come up with on the sides. I will update/list those verses within this list as well. XO. - Betty. 

2012.  AVENGERS.   ✗ verse: ( mcu 001. avengers. )  i am not my enemy.  

     2002, Alkali-Transigen  aka ‘Essex Corp’ ) conducts it’s second round of the Weapon-X program utilizing children ‘perfected’ in a lab/facility. Laura Howlett ( known as X23 amid the program ) was ‘born’ into the program, the daughter of an unknown Latina woman ( who is more than likely murdered by the company shortly after Laura’s birth ) & James Howlett aka The Wolverine.       2012, a 7 year-old ‘killing dream’ begins her hardcore training under the Transigen umbrella, having grown up within their cage and knowing nothing but life within ‘The Facility’. During the events of ‘The Avengers’, Transigen ( more than likely a subsidiary or sister-company to HYDRA ) attempts to gather knowledge/the power of the alien forces that attack Earth. It is quite possible during this attack, the Xmen join the Avengers. - Transigen utilizes newer technology to harness a killing serum that triggers and strengthens the children’s mutant abilities. Through the years they continue to medicate and test the formula out on the children, including Laura;  to which they discover if they choose a specific target, she will stop at nothing until said target is vanquished. 

2015.  AGE OF ULTRON.  ✗ verse: ( mcu 002. ultron. )  i can do anything.  

     2013,  8-year-old Laura, along with her ‘brothers and sisters’ attempt to escape from the underground jail in Mexico ( where she was ‘born’ ) when given word/hope of a safe haven full of mutant-kind. The children are provided stories with the help of comic books smuggled into the facility. Some of which include stories of The Avengers, while others house a storyline shadowing the truth about the XMEN. Upon their first attempt of escape, the children are unsuccessful, and Essex Corp demands that they relocate to a ‘more secure’ unit in New York City. In 2015, the attack of ULTRON commences, more or less rocking the hard walls of the New York facility to rubble.        For the most part, with the help of HYDRA, Transigen is able to gather up their little ‘test subjects’, some having successfully gotten away, sadly Laura not being among them.      2016, an 11-year-old Laura with the help of the nurses, including Gabby, leads the pack to escape once more. It’s here Laura encounters her father ( Wolverine/James LOGAN Howlett ), Xavier & Caliban by psionic-ally following Charles’ guidance. During this timeline she goes on the wild chase, running from Transigen and relying on what remains of Logan’s strength. The climax ends with Xavier’s passing and Logan’s sacrifice, and the children successfully fleeing for the Canadian border to ‘Eden’ aka the safe haven which turns out to be a new school for the gifted, headlined by a group of vigilante mutants ( aka, the plotline of Mangold’s LOGAN. )      It should also be noted that during this time period, the X-men are dwindling/dying out, and going into hiding due to many people either wanting to lock them up out of fear or provide them ID badges and what not ( similar to the plot of the ‘Civil War’ in the comics. ) 

2017.  CIVIL WAR.   ✗ verse: ( mcu 003. civil war. )  my choice mine.   

     At 12, Laura quietly slips from the safe haven ( headmistress at this time being Emma Frost ) , feeling as though she’s really more of a danger than anything else, specifically due to the ‘death’ serum. Laura cannot control herself when injected with it, especially if she’s provided a ‘target’. To think she could end up killing one of her own terrifies her, not to mention the more she keeps running the less likely Transigen is to discover her.       During the time of the Avengers’ ‘Civil War’  ( between Tony & Steve ), Laura is only a child but spotted through the streets of New York. A time or two, Tony witnesses the feral child having pick-pocketing or slyly stealing a thing or two of necessity. Unable to confine the child or discover her whereabouts, he becomes aware of the ‘mutant strain’ in DNA, now knowing there is far more to this life than other worlds, planets, Norse gods and experimental projects gone wrong like Banner -- Hydra’s been hiding the secret unit to which not only have they began to suppress the X-gene that creates the ‘mutants’ but that they’ve been testing the effects of their serums and juices and what have you on children more-or-less created in a lab with the specific function of utilizing them as some ultimate mutant army. It is a terrible and harsh reality and one he does not take to lightly.      Contrary to the comics’ canon ( & the Xmen’s Civil War ) when Tony discovers she is a mutant child born and raised the way she was, he almost feels an obligation to protect her from others who felt mutants ought to be branded or ID’d and what not. ( A bit contradictory to the Xmen comics, I know, but it makes sense when you think of Steve/Capt America in the comics and how against Laura he was in the beginning, I feel he’d be a little apprehensive in the MCU as well. This could change depending upon whom I’m writing with. )       On the search for a place to help her ‘lay low’, Tony keeps her at the compound, until Pepper insists she just come on home with her. ( Again, this can be adapted depending upon the individual story. ) 

2018.  HOMECOMING.   ✗ verse: ( mcu 004. homecoming. )  are you sure i deserve salvation?  

     At age 13, since Pepper thinks it best that the pre-teenage girl get used to a ‘normal’ life, Laura begins attending public school, where she continues to attempt to ‘lay low’. Of course she does her very best to fit in, though there are many ‘human’ things she’s unaware of such as personal space and certain topics of speech. She basically follows the lead of people she feels she can trust like Peter Parker. Technically since Laura also ages much slower than most everyone, she will be a teenager for a longer period in her life. It is within these confines that she learns more about humanity, her compassion for the human race quite evident and her curiosity ever the more present. She spends a lot of time making up for lost time in her childhood, things she’s never discovered, places she’s never been -- a life she never knew she could have.  2019/2023.  ENDGAME.   ✗ verse: ( mcu 005. endgame. )  i’m f*cking wolverine. 

     During INFINITY WAR ( obviously just prior to this timeline ) Laura of course fights along side the team sustaining little to no injury even though she could’ve severed a limb or two, due to her mutation, she recovers rather quickly. Upon the realization that she could lose her family of mutants with Thanos’ plan, she scurries to get back to the school, begging many of the others to fight along side the Avengers. She succeeds in convincing several of the XMEN, including but not limited to Emma Frost,  to take part in the battle... but it is only to their demise as her healing is too rapid for his ‘curse’ and rather than fluttering into ash, she witnesses all those she holds dear dissipate having to see, once again, the utter destruction of those she holds dear. It tears her apart from the inside.       In 2023, Laura is just about to turn 17. -- Upon Tony’s return from space (2019), and the realization that Pepper hadn’t been taken away, Laura barricades herself within the hope she can have a somewhat normal family. She stays with Pepper and Tony, far away from the compound. She takes up her roll as a sister-figure to Morgan, something she absolutely takes seriously. She’d give it all up for this little girl -- hell, for this family. Tony stands in as an unlikely father-figure, but even moreso, Pepper as her mother. ( Again, these choices can be adapted/tweaked depending upon the storyline/plot we have -- maybe Laura grew up at the compound, or with someone else or with Aunt May... the possibilities/ what-ifs are endless... She could’ve also gone off on her feral way, etc etc. ) 

     When the final battle hits, and those who were taken away appear within the portals, a sudden relief washes over her. She has much more to fight for, and she gives it her all. But it is at the loss of Tony where she feels her world crumble once more, wondering if she should go off on her own and call it good, because it seems no matter where she attempts to land, there is far more loss to be had. She contemplates whether or not Logan had it correct when he was always insistent they stay far away from people, isolate and keep to themselves. Of course that was a much different time in the world and Transigen/Hydra has/have more things to worry about than hunting her down lately -- still, it’s a threat.        With Peter Parker’s ( and possibly others ) insistence, she remains close by. 2023/24.  FAR FROM HOME.  ✗ verse: ( mcu 006. far from home. )  el que con lobos anda a aullar se enseña. 

     Basically, Laura ( now, tech, post-snap almost 18 ) is hanging out with SHIELD, there to aid Peter where needed, more or less helping to keep an eye on him, along with Happy doing her best to stay out of trouble.   

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about my roxxon verse (not my canon version of her home life)  abuse tw

-here some headcanons/connections to canon facts/lines that become shady in this context  (there would be of course differences in her behavior during the canon seasons if I talk about the verse where her parents are in charge of Roxxon, but not necessarily in the version where they are only abusive and dangerous to HER. I use v. Roxxon for both versions to help people blacklist it, but in this post to make things more clear Roxxon is only referring to the verse where she was experimented on and saved by SHIELD. If I don't specify anything I'm talking about things that are true in both)

* she finds comfort in touch instead of escaping from it it. When someone else is upset she attempts touch as a response too because it works for her

* Fitz is a very NON threatening person to her, he could do anything right next to her and she wouldn't flinch.  * what is personal space * exaggerated sense of guilt and responsibility  * believes in good and evil and in punishing bad behavior, especially when it’s her own 

* can't lie well, lies were very 'discouraged' by her mother ; she can act very well, and she did for years. she’s often even scared when tasked to lie, rational or not

* "I like following the rules and doing what's expected of me. It makes me feel nice" * "what do you think of your first time skydiving?" "honestly, I'd rather not think about it anymore" one of her many methods of copying is avoidance. Distracting others. It doesn't always work, but she already knew how to deal with traumas that way. She did it her whole life. 

* "How is Simmons?" "Amazingly resilient. You'd never know she almost died" "experiences like that take a while to sink in" but it never really shows - because, again, Jemma has been there before. Also reason why after being tortured by Giyera she's equally resilient and nonchalant. * she knows far too much about tending people's wounds and her own from the very beginning without a medical training * she minimizes the importance of her feelings unless it’s science-related, the one field where she feels in control and where not being listened to can cause suffering to others; she also tries to minimize everything about her situation with her family or escapes discussions about her problems, while simultaneously trying to give hints that she needs help. Usually ends up refusing to break even when alone and giving up on communicating. 

* she will close off/snap if questioned about her mother unless she initiates the topic or she has no choice but to answer  * in the verses where she was ‘only’ emotionally and physically abused by mother and brother, nobody knows * she is tempted to talk to other abuse victims about it, but ends up believing that it would bring all the attention on her and doesn’t want to make it about herself    * she forgets to take care of herself when more important things are happening. like work. * she's tearing up the second Ward, under the Berseker influence, starts raising his voice, and it gets worse when he gets in Fitz's personal space, smiling in a non-threatening way, it’s hard to notice at first - she's not good at handling men yelling at her (due to her brother, while with her brother himself she baits him and fights as a panicked go-to reaction) but even worse at watching someone she loves in a similar threatened position, her protective instincts show up, and being unable to act hurts 

* even in verses where she told them she’s a party planner, every now and then they call her to question her about things that are happening in the world  * still learning what's appropriate and what's not. Finds too disturbingly easy to talk about cutting people open or discussing how soldiers have been experimented on (Fitz tells her not to sound too happy about it, Skye tells her they could just ask Randolf how long he's been on Earth, 'weirdo'.) In both versions but particularly in Roxxon she'd never experiment on anyone, but for her learning how bad her past was is still a work in progress

* her relationship with her father is all kinds of complicated. He was never able to say no to his wife, but he is attached to his daughters in his own way, especially the youngest. Though Jemma does have a special place in his heart, they shared a few good memories, and Jemma still answers his calls. In Roxxon, when his wife decided it was time to start testing, he and Jemma agreed that he'd protect his youngest daughter, Cat, and she'd cooperate. * she wants Coulson to tell her father she died before he'd tell her mother in FZZT because she's afraid that her mother won't even tell him or be very brutal in the delivery of the news * mix of wanting to be a perfect soldier and being extremely defiant when in disagreement with authority, nobody can make her do anything she doesn’t want to do  * scared by unwanted and mysterious changes in bodies (not only due to FZZT but in the Roxxon verse also because she doesn’t KNOW what her mother did to her) * in the Roxxon verse she’s not sure she actually had scoliosis   * instant hatred when anyone reminds of her mother or brother, or for whom hurts the people she wants to protect - her ability to feel empathy can completely disappear in these cases

* her ability to feel empathy usually goes from one extreme to the other, in fact  * high endurance of pain, particularly in the Roxxon verse * attitude towards Ward is very verse-dependent because the slightest changes can completely transform her attitude: it could be pure hatred and fear because he reminds her of what she could have been, or could still be, and because he betrayed Fitz who is her everything (platonically and non), or it could be understanding because she had a Fitz and he had a Garrett * in Roxxon verses, they could have stopped her from joining SHIELD but didn’t because they want her there. She also left one year before joining the academy for therapy and rehab, and her sister was relocated elsewhere. The calls with her father also made sure that nobody would go after Catherine. Only Fury and a few more people knew about her situation. In the verses where her memories have been rewritten, she only remembers emotional abuse but not the experiments, but SHIELD has files on it. It’s also verse-dependent. * willing to let loved ones put work before her * terrified of becoming her mother * lowkey looking for a mother figure who loves her (usually looks up to May)

* paralyzing fear when dealing with her mother in Roxxon verses, but in general she has a hard time speaking back to her unless it’s to defend another * will end up challenging everybody else who wants to hurt her like she does with her brother

* still learning how to behave in groups - life in the lab with Fitz was ‘safe’, and she was ready for more after almost a decade in it. in Roxxon verses, she’s also trying to make up for the hurt her parents caused using her inventions (even before she knows her mother is the one really in charge, not her father) - Centipede having grenades that had a dendrotoxin like the one Jemma developed for the ICERs was not a coincidence  * s2 was devastating for her in many ways. She felt she failed Fitz, but also it confirmed some of her beliefs about herself - being told her change was scary was one of the things that shook her the most. (it’s also usually the season where most threads are set)  * her mother in Roxxon had connections with Hydra and definitely wanted to use Hive once he’d be back, but even when that failed she had all sorts of backup plans to gain complete power. One of her people in SHIELD is behind the Monolith’s glass enclosure being open when Jemma studies it