#tho haven’t kept up/watched James last movie

[miss-floral-thief]

Current mood

[futurewriter2000]

Girls play Games, Women don’t. - pt. 4

A/N: I know it’s not descriptive as my usual fics are but I’m just enjoying this fic as it goes. I’m trying not to drag moments like I do in some fics and stuff. I want to make it short and understandable yet also emotional a bit. Let’s be honest tho. I’m on fire today.

XX

Sirius walked in class, prepare to meet your eyes only to be disappointed when you weren’t there. Your best friends were, talking and gossiping away but you? You weren’t there. 

His smile fell into a frown but he brushed it off quickly, sitting next to James and trying to have a conversation- a conversation he was not invested in because all he did was nodd, smile and laugh at everything James said. 

He was always the last one. Always. 

Sinastra began the lesson only to be quickly interrupted by door slamming against the wall and finding your suprised twinkling eyes sliding into the room. He smiled brightly, his own eyes twinkling their own light but you haven’t even considered to look his direction. 

Have you forgot? 3rd November? 

He kept watching you appologise for your late attendance and sit beside some Slytherin boy as it was the only empty chair available. He felt his stomach churn at the sight but he quickly brushed it off. He didn’t know what he expected from a Slytherin, only thinking about themselves, being friendsly with their own kind. 

You looked over your shoulder to meet his eyes, smiling with them, sending him your sparkle but he only huffed and turned away. He glanced quickly at you, finding you rolling your eyes and getting into a full whispering conversation with the Slytherin

He couldn’t believe! You gave him a minute- less! of attention! First you flirt with him intensevly and then you ignore him like not a word has been spoken between the two of you, as if you didn’t know it was his birthday today. 

“Thought you’d be happy it’s your birthday.” James nudged him as he saw his best friend wallowing in his own misery. “We’ve got a great plan for today.” he kept nudging Sirius, lifting up his mood. 

“What do you have in mind?” 

---

Sirius and James kept talking about his birthday all class yet Sirius couldn’t help himself but to glance at the girl who was soley focused on the black board, writing down her notes. He tried to flip his hair a bit, clear his throat a few times, trying to catch at least a bit of your attention... yet nothing. 

He was not pleased with you or himself at the end of the class. He stormed out and instead of his next class, he went behind the Quidditch field. He opened his bag to pull out his cigarette box only to find something squishy inside. 

He pulled it out and found a sandwich, wrapped in foil and with a sticky note on it. 

‘Happy National Sandwich Day’ was written in half cursive, half sans serif. 

He couldn’t help himself but to smile at this note. He plucked from the foil and found an arrow pointing at the corner of the sticky note.

‘And happy birthday.’ 

He felt tingles all over his body. 

You didn’t forget. 

“Oh, bollocks.” he cursed as he realized what he had done. He gave you the arrogant attitude when you smiled at him. You must be pissed.

---

You just walked out of the dungeons with a note in your hand, hurrying down the corridor in black jeans and tight, dark-green T-shirt with a cut in the middle of the short sleeves. You had mascara on, your hair messy but in a secure low bun with a few strands out to frame your face. 

“Shit. Glasses!” you cursed under your breath, stopping middway as you kept contemplating whether it was worth turning back. “Probably not.” you shrugged and kept going, turning another corner only to find a tall figure standing in front of you.

It was blurry and you quickly thought of a Prefect, so you passed him by with a note to his face. “McGonagall’s office.” and you stormed forward only to be pulled back by the Prefect, almost tumbling backwards. 

He caught you with his arms before you hit the floor, lifting you back up on your feet with a chuckle escaping his lips. 

“What the hell!” you stood up, patting your clothes, finding grey eyes looking back at you. You observed him for a moment, narrowing your eyes at him before pushing him in the chest. “You dumbfuck! You scared the shit out of me!”

He let out a laugh, holding his stomach as he tilted his head backwards, showing you just how perfectly structure his face is. Even when he laughed, he seemed hadsome. 

“I really have to go, Sirius- it’s-”

“I sent you this note.” he leaned forward, watching you with that mischivious sparkle in his eyes as they travelled up your hair, down your eyebrows, stuck on your eyes for a while before flicking to your lips and back to your eyes. “Naturally beautiful.” he charmed and you rolled your eyes, trying not to show just how much that comment affected you. 

“It has McGonagall’s signature.” you showed him the note but he only took it into his hands and burnt it. 

“Learnt it in our Second year.” he winked, throwing the paper on the ground as it disappeared in thing air. 

Your eyes were furrowed in perplexion, your arms crossed in front of your chest yet again- as they always were with him. “Why?”

He grabbed the basket from the bench and gave you to look at it. “National Sandwich Day.” he gave you a toothy grin and you only let out a snort, eyeing him for a moment before throwing your head to the side.

“Alright. Let’s go.” you started walking as he jumped after you, grinning like a child, giddy in his emotions. 

“I like you bossy.” he started to tease and you laughed, shaking your head and biting your tongue. 

You didn’t want to say anything. This was something so new to you; a boy putting effort. Yet as you looked at him, finding him walking so prideful as the waxing gibbons’ moonlight matched his eyes, pigmenting his grey into blue, you knew it was dangerous. It made you sad to look at him because you knew boys like him and you weren’t prepared to sacrafice your heart like that. You didn’t want to risk it. You couldn’t. 

You promised yourself, no matter how many butterflies flew in your stomach, you promised yourself that you will never fall for him. You will never give him the pleasure. 

He found you wandering your thoughts. For a moment he wanted to get into your head, to know what made your sparkle go away so fast. Your eyes held this special power over him. He couldn’t describe it but he knew that they were the most unique pair of eyes he had ever seen. They hid their emotions well but in times like tonight, the soul shone brighter throught them... more exposed, naked even. 

“I thought you were  mad at me...” he mumbled as he walked outside the castle.

You looked at him with a chortle and started to tease him with your eyes. “Because of the way you pouted in astronomy?” 

“Yeah...” he smiled awkwardly. “I thought you forgot...” he turned his eyes away from you for a second, hearing you laugh again. 

He loved that sound.

“You told me three days before. What do you think my memory is consisted of? Hay?” 

He chortled as well, looking back into your eyes only to have yours removed from his. 

That hurt a bit. 

“Wouldn’t know what’s in that head of yours... really.” he spoke sincerely, nudging you a bit as the two of you continued to walk down the path, your feet slow and controled, slidifng through the grass. 

“I know you don’t want them to know... which I totally get.” you shrugged, your smile fading. 

He stopped, finding himself dead serious, dead sorrowful and dead humorless. “Meaning what?” he felt his heart squeeze as you continued to avoid his eye contact. 

“I get it, Sirius.” you looked up, opening your arms and backing away. 

“If you get it then tell me why we’re here.” he persisted, waiting for you to answer. 

“I don’t know why I’m here. I know why you’re here though.” 

“Why?” he asked.

“Because you probably made a bet or something. I’m not stupid, Sirius.” you tried to laugh it off but if was audioble to hear something was strangling you, causing your voice to come out differently. 

“I did make a bet.” he admitted. “I threw myself at James at how I can get any girl in the school. He doubted me. I told him to challange me, he pointed me to you.” 

“Well, at least you’re honest about it.” you turned him your back, hugging your arms as the chillly wind blew against you. 

That hurt. 

“I asked you out, you said no, the bet was over.” he continued. “He won. Everything that came after was my own free will, not some stupid bet.” 

You turned around, your throat still sore. “Still doesn’t feel right with me, Sirius. I don’t get it. Why me? Because I rejected you.”

“I don’t know. Maybe.” 

“Wow.”

“You haven’t gotten me the chance.”

“Why should I give you one?!”

“Because what if you’re the one that’s worth it?” 

He stared into your eyes, you stared at his. 

He wasn’t serious right now. He really wasn’t. This isn’t a movie (y/n). Wake up.

“I don’t believe in that. I told you I don’t like you.” you tried to walk away but he dropped the basket and he ran right after you, taking a hold of your hand. 

He pulled you to him, his hand placing itself on your curvy hip to which he was not used to. He always chose “sticks” as Remus told him but to feel a curve underneath his fingertips was something different, something more arousing. 

Dazed by your touch, your warmth and your peppermint breath, he gazed into your eyes and pressed you forward. “I think you do.” he whispered, softly, gently.

It felt good; to be held in someone’s arms, to feel his warm breath of nicotine hit your skin in this chilly autumn night. Yet there was too much of not knowing with him. 

He wanted to pull you into a kiss but you pushed him away. “No.” you said and he dropped his head, letting out a disappointed sigh. “I told you I don’t trust you. I just don’t.”

“I trust you.”

“That’s not the same. It doesn’t work like that.” you shook your head, hugging your arms and shivering from the frost. 

He found your shiver quite adorable. With your front strands framing your face, your mascara outlining your eyelashes, making them longer and darker, the twinkle was more alluring then ever before. You haven’t put on makeup, which he adored for the first time in his life. He was so used to pretty perfect barbie girls and you just weren’t that... and he adored it. He liked it. He may even love it. 

“I’m not ashamed of you.” he said and you shot your head up.

“Why would you say that?” you said a bit offended. “Why would-”

“Because that’s what you thought before when you said I don’t want them to know. “ he continued to watch you. “It’s not because I would ever be ashamed of you. It’s because you’re something I want to have for myself.”

“Sorry to burst your bubble Sirius but I’m not a toy or a trophy or a secret.”

“I didn’t mean it like that.” he came forward but you only kept yourself away.

“I know...” you sighed. “I know you didn’t but you and me, Sirius. It’s a laugh.”

“It’s not a laugh! Why would it be a laugh!?” he started to get frustrated. 

“Because you don’t date girls like me! You don’t!”

“Or it’s you being so afraid to get a male figure close to you because the only male figure in your life has disappointed you!” it bursted out of him unintentionally. He shut his eyes in immediate regret, gritting his teeth and cursing himself.

“You don’t talk about my family, Black!” you growled, approaching him with your finger pointed at his chest.

“I didn’t-”

“Well, you did!”

“My dad may have disappointed me but he set a great example of who I deserve and who I don’t deserve and I deserve someone so much better than you!” you started to walk back. “You might have the looks Sirius but even a golden apple can be rotten inside.” you turned your heel and stormed away, hearing him curse and scream behind you. 

Tears rolled down your cheeks. 

You were right about him. 

You didn’t want to be. To God you prayed he might have been different but he was the same. 

“I’m not that guy, (y/n).” he told himself as he sat on the grass and started to pluck it in anger. As the grass continued to slip through his fingers, he thurst his hand into the earth and started hitting it, laying on his back and staring at the sky. “Some birthday, huh?” he asked the stars- the same stars that twinkled in the sky as your eyes twinkled in their colour.

He messed up, didn’t he?

He always messes up somehow. He always has to say something impulsive and-

He felt someone seat and lay beside him, interrupting his train of thoughts. He turned to look but he already knew it was you. He didn’t know how but he knew and when he knew, he didn’t let himself think twice to look at you- to see you again but only to see a few wet traces down your cheek. 

“You’re back.” he said surprised.

You didn’t look at him, only the stars. “It’s your birthday.” you said, shutting your eyes close. “I couldn’t leave like that, knowing I ruined your birthday.” you opened them again before turning to look at him.

He watched and smiled, unable to stop. 

“Friends, Sirius.” you said, thinking he would frown or pout, maybe get a bit angry as he did before but he only smiled in return. 

“Okay.” he nodded and continued to watch you... watch you blush under his gaze. 

“I’m sorry for the dramatics.” you turned your head back, hearing him laugh.

“Makes two of us.” 

“I’m going to take your hand but I don’t want you getting any ideas.” you said directly. “Even though it is the middle of the night and the stars are here and it looks super romantic-”

“No ideas.” he cut you off, locking your eyes with his. “Got it.” he offered you his hand and you looked down. 

You contemplated for a bit, biting your lower lip.

“It’s a hand, (y/n).” he started to tease again. 

“Oh, and here I thought it was a foot.” you rolled your eyes, both laughing at your comment.

“Just hold my hand woman.” he persisted and you put your palm agaisnt his, making him grin even wider and cockier.

“No ideas.” 

“I’m not saying there are.” he lied. “So why did you want to hold my hand?” 

You broke away your eyes from the sky once again, finding yourself staring at another before looking down onto your holding hands that seemed so perfect together, soft, like a pillow yet a bit sticky from all the grass he pulled out and still had a bit under his nails. His hand was larger than yours, his fingers thinner, knuckles more defined. 

You looked back up, smiling with that famous twinkle in your eyes. “Happy birthday, Sirius.”

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Word count: 3.8k!

A/N: this is one of my favourite things I’ve ever written and I’m super proud of it, also the biggest word count I’ve ever done, hope you enjoy and pretty please leave feedback!! <3

Warnings: brief mentions of underage sex, calling of child services, brief mentions of an anxiety attack

Avengers college AU

-

Bucky: Guys I’m really desperate

Bruce: what?

Steve: wdym?

Bucky: does anyone have the first period free tomorrow? Can’t afford a babysitter for Riley :/

Tony: nah can’t, I’ve got a busy schedule

Clint: economics man

Bruce: science m8

Nat: same as Clint I’m afraid Jamesy

Clint: wbu Steve?

Steve: library club and I can’t skip

Bucky: >: I

Bucky: I think I may be having a midlife crisis.

Tony: okay 1. You’re 20 and 2. You shouldn’t have gone an’ knocked up a woman at 17

Nat: Tony!

Bucky: You’re acting like you didn’t get some at 17 Tony

Bruce: he has a fair point.

Nat: and anyway Riley’s too pure for your insults Tony

Bucky: uwu

Tony: you have officially turned into every teenage girl Barnes

Nat: anywayyyyyyy, Thor how’re you coping with your brother’s “phase”

Tony: I am starting to think Loki’s goth phase isn’t just a phase Natalie, I caught him walking around in a skull T-shirt with chains this morning

Clint: oh daym

Steve: what are you going to do?

Thor: I am going to show that I respect him by buying him some flowers!

Clint: What abt a chain tho?

Nat: wait, does anyone wanna go to laser tag at some point?

Tony: oooh yes!

Bruce: yeah I’m down! :)

Steve: I’ve got time yeah thanks

Bucky: I never back down from a laser tag game

Nat: great! I’ll book it with Tony’s card

Tony: wait what?

Bucky: oh shit, I’ve gotta go, Riley’s just run away somewhere brb

Clint: oh damn.

Bucky shoved his phone hastily into his pocket and looked around, desperation filling his eyes as they searched for any sign of his daughter. The bushes swayed with the evening breeze and very few people strolled around campus, either going on a walk, meeting up early with friends or getting food. The young adult heavily sighed out of relief when he caught sight of Riley, excitedly chatting to a man, who James quickly identified him as one of his other friends, Sam.

Braking out into a light jog, he made his way across campus to the pair while also trying to avoid bumping into the other students that were now staring at him, in college he was basically known as the fuck boy. Not that he was, the only reason behind it was that he had a daughter at 17 and everyone apart from his friends never saw past that.

“What’re you doing here munchkin?” He asked the small girl who was now shyly smiling at her father. Sam chuckled at the duo and turning his attention away from Riley, “wasn’t her fault dude, just telling me how she’s going to chemistry class tomorrow, can’t wait to see that” he said with a sly smirk on his face.

Bucky mentally sighed, yes it was going to be very tough tomorrow. Not only was she very restless, but she also was very talkative and wouldn’t put a filter on around people older than her, which most of the time could be very offensive. “Yeah! I promised him I’ll be good!”

“Oh really? Well I kinda hoped you’d have something to say to Professor Demon”

“Sam,” he groaned and ran a hand through his hair “his names Damon, if he caught you sayin’ that then we’d get suspended so quickly dude” Riley giggled and looked up at her dad innocently “and then we’d go poor because you suck at getting jobs”

“He sucks at everything” Sam mumbled, earning a glare from the other man. “We better go get some food now, there’s literally nothing in the fridge except a can of tuna, some ketchup and packets of sour sauce from takeout awhile ago”

“Oof man”

The walk to the diner that he had decided on going to after he couldn’t be bothered going grocery shopping was a long one. Riley insisted on stopping for every dog they saw, to ask to stroke it. “Ri’ baby, we can’t keep stopping, we gotta get back to the dorm before it’s your bedtime”

The pout she sent him instantly melted his heart before he realised she knew exactly what she was doing and he readjusted his grip on her hand so she didn’t end up running away again like she did earlier.

-

“Ri’ what do you want?” He asked the child once the waitress had come over asking for their orders. She gave a nonchalant shrug and turned her attention back to the video that was playing on Bucky’s phone that he had given her for the wait. “M’kay so, can we get a,” he took a pause to take a quick glance at the kid’s menu on the table “chicken nuggets and chips please with… chocolate milkshake?”

Riley nodded and the waitress, who from the name tag on her apron, was named Elizabeth, began to write down both his and her order but halfway through gave a quick glance up to Bucky, but when he caught her cheeks flooded red that made his daughter snort.

“Is that all sir?”

“Riley shut up” he quietly told the girl as Elizabeth walked away with her head down. “She was flirting with you dad” she laughed making him jokingly nudge her across the table “Oi, and anyway she’s not my type munchkin”

“Well don’t be too loud, the creeps staring at you dad”

He didn’t mean to, but without thinking his head whipped round to instantly make eye contact with the woman who was biting her lip, her eyes now as big as plates. His cheeks heated furiously as he immediately turned back around to face his adorable giggling daughter. “You better like those chicken nuggets munchkin cause I’ve got to go through this to get them”

“I will dad, I like chickens”

-

“Riley, come on you gotta get some sleep” he groaned once she’d slid onto the sofa where he was writing his assignment last minute for the fifth time that night.

“But dad,” She whined and pulled on the sleeve of the college logo sweater he had pulled on without even thinking about it once they’d got home as he had only just realised he had a paper to write, “I’m not tired and I don’t want to be alone”

His eyes softened at the pleading look on her face that would get him to do anything she wanted him to “m’kay baby, how about we go into into the bedroom and you try to get some sleep while I finish this up”

She nodded enthusiastically and he picked up the study books and paper in one hand and Riley in the other, deep eye bags could be found on his face from the lack of sleep that he had spent pulling all-nighters working on college work and began to make his way into the small room that had a single bed pressed up against the wall with a mattress next to it, an abundance of blankets on both.

He set the small girl onto the single bed and lowered himself down into the smaller one, using the bed frame to press his back against and using a hardback book underneath the paper to rest on.

“Why do people stare at you?” Bucky only just heard Riley mumble as her eyes struggled to keep open. He stopped writing but kept his hand in the same place while grinder his teeth, wondering what to say. “Cause baby… people don’t really think that I should have you this young,” he struggled to find the words as he felt his daughter roll onto her back to listen “but they don’t understand that I love you a lot, don’t I munchkin?”

Riley giggled behind him and uttered a small yes. “At least they haven’t tried to take me away again”

The young man's breath hitched in the back of his throat at the memory flashed through his mind. They’d been watching a movie with Steve after their classes and a knock had sounded on the door.Apparently, Child services had been called by one of the students and they tried to take her away but he wouldn’t let them, they had threatened to take him to court because the living settings were not meant for a child but 17-year-old Steve had calmly spoken to them outside the room while James had been on the edge of a panic attack inside.

“Yeah, scared me Ri’” his horse voice answered back making her eyebrows scrunch in confusion “I’m not going anywhere dad. Well, unless I die but y’know”

He sent her a bitch face look over his shoulder which made her uncontrollably giggle. Bucky chuckled and set his attention back to the essay while absent mindedly talking to her about random things.

“Is Loki gonna be at the laser tag place?” She asked and added on excitedly “oooh can I come dad?!”

“Sure doll, let me tell the guys”

Buck: we got plus ones on this laser tag thing?

Bruce: whyyyy??

Thor: oooh if that is the case I would very much like to take my brother!

Nat: oh are you bringing Riley then?

Buck: yup

Steve: I don’t see why not

Tony: I’m off to speak to this really hot girl

Clint: what that spice girl?

Buck: do you mean pepper?

Clint: ah yes!

He chuckled at the screen and chucked his phone to the side while looking up to his daughter on the bed above him, going to tell her they approved before stopping and smiling to himself as he caught sight of her peaceful, sleeping form.

Without waking her up, he got off the mattress and tucked in the blankets, quietly laughing as he retrieved the earbuds she had borrowed in the diner from her pocket. “Night munchkin”

-

Bucky groaned as the ringing of his phone awoke him, the technology next to his ear from when he had fallen asleep sat up. “Wha’?”

It was so early in the morning that he didn’t even have the energy to think of a proper sentence, never mind say one.

Steve: hey guys make sure your ready, it starts an hour after school

Clint: Steve. School. Finishes. At. 6. Pm. What. Tf. Do. You. Mean. It. Starts. In. An. hour. After.

Nat: we thought you could do with a late start

Tony: fuck you Romanoff

Clint: ten bucks says she’s smirking rn

Buck: ughhh

Bruce: I feel exactly the same way

Buck: no you don’t. I spent up until 6 am doing that English essay I forgot about

Tony: oof

Bucky: I will physically be running on caffeine this morning so be ready

He took a look around the messy room before deciding he would clean it another day and raised himself onto his feet before making sure Riley was still on the single bed asleep. He made his way to the tiny kitchen that held a mini-fridge, microwave, kettle and an oven with two counters on one side to make himself a cup of coffee that he was depending on if he had to spend an hour of his day running around in sweaty gear and a fake gun while making sure his daughter didn’t run away to get some sort of snack.

“Fuck” he mumbled as the loud whirring of the kettle started, sure to wake Riley up. “I’m tired” he heard a voice groan behind him, making the man whirl around, instantly making eye contact with his daughter. Sighing out of relief and returning back to the drink he was previously making. “So am I doll, yet you can’t have coffee”

He made her go get dressed and brush her teeth while he had a mental breakdown over what he was going to do about the paper he didn’t manage to finish before he fell asleep last night.

“Dad,” Bucky looked up to find Riley once again dressed in a pair of Joggers and a baggy T-shirt that she’d dragged out of the very few clean clothes in her draw “someone’s messaging your laptop”

She struggled to hold up the open device that showed multiple emails from one of his professors questioning his performance in class for the recent weeks. He inwardly cursed and took the laptop from her to begin emailing her back, choosing to ignore the insults she had thrown at him and his daughter in the middle of it.

“She is so full of-“ he stopped halfway through the sentence, noticing that Riley was sat next to him, quietly playing a YouTube video on his phone. “Whatcha watching Ri’?” He asked, his attention still focusing on trying to be professional in the email back. “c- c-“ she struggled to pronounce the word so she passed it to him.

“Commentary channels?” The man asked with a laugh, thinking about how most parents wouldn’t even let their 4 child near a video like that but yet again he wasn’t like most parents. He was 20 and had to do this alone.

“Oh yeah”

“Come on munchkin, we gotta get to first period before we’re late” he told her and grabbed his backpack to quickly shove his college things in before glancing at the digital clock on his phone and scooping Riley up so they could get there quicker.

Halfway through the panicked running across campus, the small girl decided she needed a nap and fell asleep against his shoulder, making Natalia laugh as they passed.

As soon as he arrived in the classroom he knew it was a bad idea when 11 pair of eyes fell to his, heavily panting and holding an asleep 4-year-old.

“Sir he’s late” a girl, younger than him moaned to the teacher who was now shrugging his shoulders “I don’t care”

“But professor, why’d he bring the baby?”

Bucky had enough of everyone staring at him, he readjusted the bag on his back before making his way to the back of the class, sitting in an empty seat in between Sam and Tony and placed Riley on his lap.

“That’s a good question Jaimee, Barnes?”

“Couldn’t find anyone to look after her professor” he mumbled in response, making sure to be loud enough to hear. “No babysitter?”

“Can’t afford it sir”

He didn’t once make eye contact with anyone in the room, instead putting his attention on the books that he was bringing out of his bag. “You alright man?” Tony whispered across the desk and flicked a pen at him, “Oi” Bucky hissed as the metal came in contact with the side of his head making Sam laugh loudly at him.

“Dad,” a mumble was heard quietly, making the older man look at his daughter, eyes that were previously closed were now looking up at his wide with pleading “I’m hungry”

If he was anywhere else in the world he would have sworn loudly, but right now he was in a class with 10 other students and his daughter. “Okay baby, but you're gonna have to wait for a while, we’re in my class but I’ll get you something after okay?”

She nodded and rested her hair back against his chest, making him smile slightly as he went back to taking notes of the class. “I’ve got skittles,” Sam held out the family-sized packet of sugary sweets making Riley do grabby hands towards it. Without asking Sam gave her it, earning a goofy smile from the girl. “Thank you dude but she’s literally gonna get the biggest sugar rush possible now”

“Aha, can’t wait to see that”

-

By halfway through the period Riley was already rocking back and forth on the balls of her feet, on the spot next to Bucky’s chair, his hand holding hers to make sure she didn’t run up to the front and distract everyone. “Dad, are you going to work tonight?”

“Yeah munchkin, not for long though, you can stay with Stevie. How about that?”

“Yeah, m’kay”

Suddenly the professor spoke up, directing his attention to Bucky “Barnes, the symbol Sb stands for stibium or stibnite. What is the modern name of this element?”

“That doesn’t sound like English dad” Riley loudly whispered to him, making the class laugh, “and what do you think the answer is?”

The girl pondered for a second and looked at her dad with seriousness drawn upon her features “...tell me,”

-

“Laser in the house!” Clint exclaimed in excitement once everyone had found their way to the front of campus where they’d agreed to meet.

“I like lasers,” Riley gushed while smiling brightly making most of the young adults chuckle, Loki however, did not. “Why did you have to bring me?” The man grumbled, sending a death glare towards his brother.

“Why are you dressed like that?”

“Riley no-“

“Did you go through childhood trauma to endure this?”

“Ri’ you can’t ask-“

“Why is there a child?” Loki asked as if he had only just noticed she was there. “She is Barnes’ daughter brother” Thor said and gently patted her head, making her scowl.

“You have a daughter?”

“I’ve had her for 4 years dude”

“Oh”

Steve grabbed his phone from his pocket and glanced at the time “guys we’ve gotta be there in half an hour we better get goin’”

“Alright Rogers, you really do like to keep track of time don’t you?” Tony asked and rolled his eyes making Nat nudge him in the ribs. “Tony, I’m not that old”

“You're 21, everyone else is 20 punk” Bucky teased him but stopped when he sent him a death glare. “Erm, I’m not 20.” The young girl pointed out while everyone else started making their way to the entertainment place. “Smart girl Ri’”

“Wait, do we need to decide the teams?” Bruce asked everyone once Bucky and Riley had caught up with the rest. “Ooooh,” Clint exclaimed with wide eyes “dibs on Natasha! She’s got good aim.”

“I’m gonna stick with you. Power team” Bucky whispered down to the stupidly smiling girl as she nodded furiously. By the time everyone had chosen their teammates and managed to agree, the group had arrived. “This’ll be great” Bruce sighed once they’d caught sight of the room of light-up vests with attached laser guns.

“Rules,” a middle-aged man who looked like he’d given up on life, walked into the room with a clipboard in hand “No Running, No Physical Contact, Hold Laser with Both Hands, No Climbing, Players must be careful when manoeuvring around interior arena walls, Please let us know if any of your guests suffer from the following: Asthma, epilepsy or suffer from seizures caused by fog or strobe lights.”

Everyone was quiet for a second before Steve quietly spoke up with a blush “I have asthma, sir.”

The worker took a pause and pondered for a moment, as though this had never happened in his whole 68 years of working there, “just… don’t start a fire alright?”

They all nodded in agreement, just happy that he’d been let in, and began to enter the massive room where the game was about to take place. “Right, so, let’s not rugby tackle people like you did last time,” Steve said and mostly directed it to Thor who smiled sheepishly “cause- err, there’s a kid, yeah, Riley, that’s it”

Bucky chuckled and picked up the fake laser gun as the lights began to darken, “let’s get this party started”

As soon as the words left his mouth, chaos ensured, young adults setting off running to find a place to set-up camp. As he wanted to be fast, Bucky quickly picked up Riley and began to run towards a pillar so he could hide behind it, so he’s able to get a good view of people.

“How does it work?” Riley whispered from the spot of her back pressed against his chest so she could also see and indicated towards the gun. “Gotta put your finger on the trigger” he instructed and took ahold of her index finger and brought it over to the weapon, placing the rest of her hand on the handle while her other one held the underneath of the top part, trying not to drop it.

The whole room was silent for a good 5 minutes before Bucky decided to make a move, taking hold of the collar of her jacket to gently pull her up with him. Not holding Riley’s hand as she would have ended up dropping the laser gun if she didn’t have two hands on it.

The two of them scouted out the place trying to be quiet so they didn’t get caught. Suddenly, making them jump, a loud zapping sounded in the distance, indicating that someone had found an enemy. He began to run away from the sound, after making sure his daughter was following and attempting to find somewhere to hide again but this time he didn’t find a deserted place.

“Aha!” Nat yelled and jumped out from behind a pillar while aiming the laser at Bucky’s chest. His panicked yelling and screaming filled the air as he made a run for it, completely forgetting about his teammate left behind and the rule “no running”. Suddenly, before he could brace himself his body went flying, his foot getting stuck on a stray shoe that belonged to Thor. At the same time Steve had jumped out, meaning to get the man in the chest, but instead Bucky had landed on him, using him to muffle the landing, earning an “ow man...” in return.

Bucky wanted to move, he really did, but he just couldn’t. He was in a trance, his and Steve’s baby blue eyes made eye contact, without knowing what he was doing, Steve’s body involuntarily leant up: closer to the younger man. His lips never looked more inviting, but all of a sudden a yell broke out in the room.

“Dad! Help! Nat nearly got me!”

The father scrambled up off the floor, his mind going a million miles an hour about what just happened and why it was wrong. He was his best friend. He should only see him as a friend.

Without meaning to, he ran away from him, not bothering to even spare Steve a second glance in search of his daughter, who was now cowered in one of the room's corners, trying not to get shot. Bucky chuckled slightly at the tactic and crossed the room, luckily not being noticed by Tony and Nat who were having a shoot off at each other from their opposite ends in the room.

“Nat nearly got you Ri’?”

“M’ yeah and you weren’t there.”

Guilt coursed through the mans veins as he remembered that he’d left her, but before his mind could go wondering to the events after it, he stopped himself, “sorry munchkin”

“Is’ okay, just don’t do it again dad”

He silently laughed at the sincerity in her voice and grabbed her hand to lead her away from the battle scene so they could get somebody else in the laser tag game. In quiet discussions they settled on Bruce, the one who was most likely to not be paying attention, and if he was it would still be easy to take aim without him seeing.

“Come on Ri, we got this.”

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List 5 things that make you happy, then put this in the ask box of the last 10 people who reblogged something from you (if you want !! 💛💖)

Wow I rambled a lot with this but i can't add cuts bc I'm on mobile rn DHSISHSJ sorry :"))))

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1. Ik Ik "haha how cringe are you" of me to say, but honestly? Homestuck. Homestuck helped me in a time of need and when i so desperately wanted something to latch onto. Finally, I caved into my friends telling me to read it-- and it's been a blast!! The epilogues / hs^2 make me feel kinda sad though, because so much of what I loved about the original was yeeted through the nine circles of hell and into the trash. I love Y/ffany's (I call her Yippi tho) design, the art is really pretty at times, Harry is a major dork, I LIVE for seeing Vrissy bc honestly?? Her design is 10/10, very early 2000s emo style and I also live for that. Tavros is cute and a nerd and I think that's swell!

But in terms of story and how any of this happens, it makes me sad to see it happen. If Vriska could return as Vrissy, why not OTHER beta trolls? Where's my Eridan fish man, writers?? Give me the boy or perish by my fury.

2. Also super "haha how cringe are you" but,,, murder cats (Warriors), esp the early 2005-2015 amvs and stuff. I remember watching Flightfootwarrior's "I Will Not Bow" Scourge amv for HOurs and having no clue what was happening, but all these edgy kitties were KITTIES! It's introduced me to a lot of music I still listen to to this very day (Imagine Dragons, Young/the entirety of Hollywood Undead, Breaking Benjamin). And yknow what?? This new arc is absolute chaos, but in the good way.

I'm an "OG Fan". I prefer the first arc, The Prophecies Begin, to almost any of the other arcs. I just could never get into the other arcs-- not to say I haven't read them, I HAVE and the Fire Scene was probably one of my favorite moments beside grumpy Jaypaw, god complex Lionblaze, and fear the gods Hollypaw. I thought the build-up for it was SUPER satisfying. Gray Wing is my baby and I fully embellish in the Gray Wing is Silverpelt theory.

This new arc is definitely something new for the universe. While I didn't read aVoS (but I may do that if i can find the files for it), and so I don't know the major events of it other than what I've seen M.A.P.'s (Multi-Animator Projects, for clarification,,, bc unfortunately that term is also something disgusting). There's fucking cat possession and all the Clans questioning their belief system, yo. Shit be on fire.

Also the Imposter is 100% Ashfur, that's canon now, yeah??? Also im sorry but fuck Root x Bristle that's the dumbest shit I have ever seen. Give me Root x Shadow or face the wrath of my dragon plushies.

RiverClan is my Clan and my gov assigned warrior name is Fireshell 🌟��

3. As much as I hate the author,,,,, Harry Potter. It's been a major part of my life for as long as I can remember. I can never really remember why, but I've always just loved it- the movies, the books, the extra little merch that would pop up in my local Walmart. Of course my favorite character is Draco Malfoy. I could go on and on and ON about how I think his character arc was SHIT and JKR didn't have the balls to make him a confident gay man that was always implied through the text (at least, my lesbian ass thought it was implied but i may just be projecting, idk). I could ramble about Draco for HOURS and what I think his character SHOULD have been and how his parents are horrible (more specifically, Lucius bc Narcissa [?] Actually showed a few good moments), and a child should never have to pay for their parents sins.

Oh noo, Draco's a villain because he's a victim of major abuse and peer pressure? He's a villain because a literal child can be horrible and they'll always always always stay as a horrible little fiend?? Fuck that. He's a child.

Unlike manchild grease pan Snape, who was a racist piece of shit and shouldn't have became a fucking school teacher but it's okay because he was ~~~in love~~~. No, fuck you, he was a creep. James Potter n Co may have been a little posh bitch to you, Snape, but that's no fucking excuse to continue to bluntly be a little cunt all the way into adulthood. You're an adult who flatly changed your PATRONUS to imitate Lily's. You have no excuse. And Harry went and named his child after you LIKE JESUS CHRIST, DID RON'S SISTER NOT HAVE A SAY IN THE NAMES TOO?????

I also fully adore the idea that Muggles can run into Hogwarts and their patronus can 100% be a made up, fantasy creature. Imagine you learn the patronus spell and suddenly fucking ARCEUS comes from your wand. Imagine learning the spell and CHTULU (i did not spell that right but im so tired) comes from your wand-- an entire ass fucking Lovecraftian, Eldrith horror is just the embodiment of you. What if it was a fucking Homestuck character like Vriska? How fucking METAL would that be?? Hskajssowjjsjs get on it fandom.

4. Hee hee very evident by my url but Pokemon is another major thing of mine. While vespiquen isn't my favorite (that title goes to Hydreigon), it is definitely up there!

I've ALWAYS enjoyed the idea of Pokemon. You run around, training up these fight monsters and collecting them. I remember playing my sister's Ruby version on her flip-up Gameboy. I couldn't even read but I ran around catching god only knows how many of the same pokemon wherever she was. Apparently, I had fought for hours in the same area and leveled her Blaziken up to lvl 50 something and left her lvl 30s in the dust LMAO.

I got my first game when it was Pearl/Diamond. It was Pearl, and it still holds a very fond place in my heart. I could barely read, I could barely write-- I had named my Turtwig something along the lines of "MmorpHy" and my player boy "ZbsibJ". Yes I remember the names slightly. I really didn't get far-- I barely got to the first gym but I was just so happy to play it.

I eventually lost the game, as a 5 year old would do, but I can still vividly remember what was happening when the game arrived. I had just came back from the dentist and was quite tired from fighting the dentist bc I was super scared. Mom suddenly handed me a box and said it was mine-- my overseas (at that time) dad had bought me Pearl and my sister Diamond, because I lost my shit about it when he visited one time.

Well, tdlr, I played it for about five minutes while struggling to stay awake against the loopy gas they made me take. I fell asleep listening to Twinleaf Town's soundtrack. Every time I play a rom of Pearl and I get to where the player's house fades in and I hear that first tune of the song, I get a huge smile on my face and cry-- as.. Weird as it sounds.

A few years later, I had gotten Pokemon Black bc I liked Reshiram on the cover. Now, this one I could actually READ when playing, but I don't remember a lot of things about it. I probably lost this one too, as a 8/9 year old would do. I DO remember, I chose Snivy and my sister chose Tepig (hrmm there's a theme here of grass/fire goin on......) and vibing to the music. I was so amazed by the sprites moving, I just kept getting into encounters to see the sprites move (oh boy, no one tell younger 7-9 y/o me about Zelda......oh wait....)

Playing Pokemon NOW, as a 17 year old """gifted""" chick, I stil have very fond memories. I recently beat Pokemon Black again and GOD the OTS SLAPS. I fucking adore the soundtrack-- the track that plays when you battle a trainer, the low health dings being turned into a legit song that also slaps, the battle! gym leader themes-- and oh my gOd, the legendary theme is amazing? It really tells you just how glorious these pokemon are supposed to be. It's not intimidating like Groudon/Kyroge/Rayquaza's themes. It's not action packed like Palkia/Dialga's is, it's not filled with tension like Giratina/Arceus's is-- but it radiates the GLORY that the beasts portray. And I live for that. (Also, Kyurem's version is my favorite because it glitches in the beginning and that's rly cool)

P/D/P and BW/BW2's stories, imo, are some of the greatest ones. Yeahhh, US/USUM's is cool and I haven't played XY nor SwSh-- but the ones I can find memorable are PDP and BW/BW2. I love N. I love Barry. They're my sons. Ghetsis is fucking terrifying, Cyrus needs a hug. Giratina scared the piss out of me when I was younger, which was NOT helped by Giratina and The Sky Warrior.

I think my favorite movies are the gen 4 ones. The Rise of Darkrai having a tear-jerking theme for such a mysterious pokemon (i still tear up when i hear Ocarion), Giratina being spiteful is a mood and Shaymin was cute, Arceus being angry is also a mood. Yeah, Pokemon 4Ever made me cry my eyes out over Celebi, Mewtwo Returns made me again cry because Mewtwo accepting who he is, I remember how vastly different the BW movies are-

I just. I have a lot of memories with the series, even if Gamefreak and Nintendo kinda do the series dirty a lot (your top-grossing thing and you made That monstrosity for the Switch? How dare you.). It's comforting to be stressed and pull up my roms for the games and to play them. Mystery Dungeon is incredibly fun to play, Pokemon Ranger is really fun with the concept (Shadows of Almia continues to kick my ass to this very day and FUCK the Jungle Relic, I hate the Water Challenge fucking gyarados bullshit). I remember the pokemon I got for MD (I got Time, my sis got Darkness) was Mudkip, if that is any help.

I love my little fictional pixel monsters.

5. Yup, someone told tiny 7-9 y/o me about console games. The legend of Zelda. My first Zelda game was Twilight Princess on the Wii and BOY did I play the fucking SHIT out of that game.

Honestly, looking back and looking at playthroughs now-- I still love TP. Twilight Princess is still one of my top favorite Zelda games-- yes, even after playing OoT, Majora's Mask, Wind Waker, Skyward Sword, the anniversary four swords edition for the DS where you could play by yourself (Nintendo pls bring that back, I don't have friends to play it with ;-;), Phantom Hourglass- ect.

Something about Twilight Princess grabbed me by the head and yeeted me into the world. I can remember playing it for hours with little to no breaks. I, a tiny 9 y/o, had gotten the hang of the controllers and managed to get past the tutorial quite easily. And then, I was launched into the game and I wasn't stopping for NOTHING. Mom and Dad would have to force me to save and get off to go and eat dinner. THAT sucked.

I had done everything on my own up until the first temple, the forest temple. Not where/when you saved the dumb kid, but when you were saving the spirit's light. Theeeeeeennn I got stuck on the fucking Forest Temple for deadass six months straight. I'd play for hours, running around in circles, unable to figure out where to go, and because I didn't grasp the temple's purpose of being that way- I'd get angry and get off. It wasn't until dad looked up a walkthrough and talked me through what I was supposed to do that I learned how to get through temples.

I had gotten to the last little fight with Ganondorf before the Wii broke and i could no longer play. Despite the Wii being broke and we got rid of it, I was ADAMANT on keeping the game, and I kept that game for YEARS. It was an original copy out of a sealed box, and I eventually lost it when I left it accidentally at my now ex-friend's house.

She had a Wii and I went "hey I have a Wii game!" And I brought my Zelda over. Worst fucking choice of my goddamn life. Mom called me to come home and said I couldn't sleep over like the original plan was, and that was it. My ex-friend stashed my Zelda and I never saw it again. And, even if I wanted to-- I couldn't get it back, which makes me upset. We had a BAD falling out. She likely doesn't even remember it's there, or sold it to the local game junkie kid who buys ALL games.

But I still love the game. Midna was amazing, and I loved how snarky she was and she has a very cute design! The game's OST is fucking phenomenal. Midna's Desperate Hour makes me cry bc goddamn it really sells how serious that situation is. I love Hyrule Field's theme in this game. I love the Twilight Realm's song. Zant was fucking hilariously scary. Ganondorf's design in this game scared the piss out of me when I was younger.

Midna and this game's Link and Zelda are def my favorites. Yeah yeah, Sheik is cool and all I Guess but dhsushwishs Midna holds the special place in my heart. She was totally my gay awakening BUT

For other game antagonists, I adore Ghirahim-- let's go you funky little queer-coded villain. Skull Kid was great, I love the entire dynamic of him. Prankster lost soul stumbles upon Majora's Mask and the mask makes him act out due to powers-- which, I actually took very heavy inspiration from for one of my OCs. The moon falling to Hyrule was a fucking terrifying looming threat.

But the game series holds a place, and I've yet to be able to play BoTW-- although, I'm fairly certain I'll like it. The playthroughs I've watched of it are all fairly decent! I just. Gotta save up enough money to buy it haha.

Dang guess I gotta go watch a Twilight Princess playthrough again.

Honorable Mentions:

Avatar: the Last Airbender, specifically Book 3

my OCs definitely make me happy, they're my children and I'd ramble A LOT longer if given the chance WHEEZE

My friends, but I didn't add them here bc it's more fictional stuff, I presume

Baking. I love to bake cupcakes.

Painting is fun. I'm an artist and goddammit im going to use painting as an excuse to make a mess.

Fire. I rly like fire, down to a pyromaniac level. However, i hate the fires that happened to my home town, the Great Smokey Fires of 2016-- THAT pissed me off. How dare you burn mountain landscapes to the ground. Perish.

History. I'm a history nerd.

I'm also a science nerd.

But fuck math, I cannot comprehend math to save my life.

For some reason, I rly like learning how the human body works??? like did you know, organs are actually sticky when touched by a bare hand?? Did you?? How fucking cool is that.

Bakugan. I love Bakugan, esp the DS game. I love my Darkus Leonidas. Give me back the online world, you peasants-- I want my Darkus Dragonoid. (Also fuck all my friends from when I was in kindergarten- my theory that Alice was Masquerade was somewhat correct.)

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tagged by the only person who likes me @luci-cunt  thank you for noticing me and enjoying the things I post, I love your writings and your blog and your vibe and aaahhheusjsvudejwosonfjdj unnnghhh♡♡♡

ARE YOU STAYING HOME FROM WORK/SCHOOL?  yerr, I'm a nanny and was working to help the single mom I work for do all the at home schooling for the 3 children. She is still working bc she is a psychologist and just switched to phone and video calls.... but then she got sick. And so did the kids.

They're all doing okay. But yeah, I haven't been to work in 3 weeks.

IF YOU’RE STAYING HOME, WHO IS THERE WITH YOU? My boyfriend, his mom, our 4 cats, and the snake I'm not allowed to hold (well, I could but he bites o.o) I also went and stole my dog back from my mom for a day or two cause I missed her. (that's a long story but when I moved my mom was like FINE GIT but was like sobbing over my dog like NOOO NOT MY BABY!!)

ARE YOU A HOMEBODY? As of the past year or 2 yeah, my self image and depression got bad again so I just kept saying no to plans. This self isolating stuff has been going on longer than the virus existed. Now I can bail on video calls instead of plans tho, so thats new and exciting 👍

AN EVENT THAT YOU WERE LOOKING FORWARD TO THAT GOT CANCELLED? Well there was a Billy Strings concert on April 16th that got moved to September. but I'm awaiting cancellation of the concert at Red Rocks in Colorado at the end of May. It hasn't been yet but I'm sure it will be. It is The Devil Makes Three and The Punch Brothers and I was going with two of my closest friends. I've never been to Colorado and I was sooo looking forward to it. But I understand if it is cancelled. But if GreyFox the music festival I go to in July every year SINCE I WAS BORN is cancelled I'm gonna rain hellfire on some ignant bitches who weren't following the CDC guidelines

WHAT MOVIES HAVE YOU WATCHED RECENTLY? just watched Glass, the m.night shyamalan movie that is the 3rd in the Unbreakable and Split series. It wasn't as good as the first two, but it was still samuel l. jackson, bruce willis and james mcavoy(playing 24 fucking characters) so still good

WHAT SHOWS ARE YOU WATCHING? just finished Tiger King lolol also lots of stand up and buzzfeed unsolved because i love my sons shane and ryan and they make me giggle in these trying times

WHAT MUSIC ARE YOU LISTENING TO? Brockhampton and Kevin Abstract, but not as much music as I normally do bc I mostly jam out in the car and I'm not going anywhere. I also have been singing and listening to this song called Junkies in Love by That Handsome Devil which is great and I am eternally grateful to spotify discover weekly for showing it to me as well as showing me the band Jukebox the Ghost over 2 years ago and I've been blasting their song Jumpstarted a lot also

WHAT ARE YOU READING? I've been reading or listening to audiobooks everyday, I read the first witcher book, the last wish and meant to go on with those but wanted something more goofy and gay so took a detour to read the gentleman's guide to vice and virtue (which was delightful) and was either going to read the sequel, the lady's guide to petticoats and piracy, or continue with the witcher books, but somehow i blacked out and started rereading aftg again...idk what happened i swear...

WHAT ARE YOU DOING FOR SELF-CARE? honestly, not enough. last week i was better to myself, I ate real, balanced meals, and was writing in my journal and I took two bubble baths and made sure to do some skin care everyday, but this week I've really just turned into an oreo loving mountain troll... :/

I'm trying to create art again, cause I know the accomplishment I will feel after is better than most drugs, but its hard. my bestfriend emily made this facebook group called community art challenge, where everyone is just sharing the things they are creating during this time and I'm trying to get over my anxieties when it comes to creating anything, i always feel like I'm just wasting supplies that could be used for something great and I shouldn't even try. I'm gonna try tho, it may be terrible but I'm gonna fucking try

i have like no friends on here so idk who to tag... guess I'll just try to tag some ppls i like and who maybe like me, maybe you wanna do this?

@absolutebeginnerlondoner @belashi @rose-colored-ghost @amysnotdeadyet (we have the same name and i love your blog♡)

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The 30 Day Tumblr Challenge

We are at it again bois.

Day 3 - My Favourite TV Show/Series

Okay so I don’t know why I’m excited to tell you my favourite shows. I definitely have a few of my favourites, also cartoon shows and anime if that counts lol

Okay starting off with:

1. OnMyBlock

You guys don’t understand how obsessed I am with this show!! This is one of my #1 favourites and now S2 is coming in a few days like holy shiit, feels like we been waiting forever. Watching the teaser and seeing Ruby opening his eyes at the end at me jumping 😂. I mean if they were thinking of not putting Ruby in S2 and he died then I ain’t watching S2. But can I say that Spooky is is fine as hell 😍 But anyway I recommend you guys go watch it, it’s da best, if you into that teen drama.

2. The Office

I love the Office, I always wanted to watch it from seeing memes on insta or Facebook all the time and now I finally got the chance too. It’s so funny and you just get every joke and just laugh. Also one good thing too is every episode is so entertaining and you don’t get bored. So if you wanting to find a new tv show to watch then come to this one. Another thing is that I love Michael’s personality, just trying to be the cool boss and even tho some episodes he can be annoying but then his very caring at the same time. Its cute how he finds everyone like a second family to him. Also can never get enough of Jim’s pranks on Dwight.

3. Black Mirror

Gotta say this is a pretty interesting tv series, I thought it would be one of those shows that just drag on but literally every episode is different and has its own story. I like how some of the episodes try to connect to the real world and what we do in our society. Also the fancy technology in this series sis pretty impressive but same time don’t want that type of technology being invented now lol I would have to say one of my favourite episode would have to be S4 Ep 4 - Hang the DJ. I was so confused at first and thinking the couple were trapped in some sort of game or world but at the end when it was them in a simulation for a actually a dating app, just blew my mind. That it was the process of the dating app to find the perfect match was really impressive. Also there’s a few keys points on how we work our dating life in the real world. But I was also happy there was a happy ending not like it is with Black Mirror. Another one of my favourite was S3 Ep1 - Nosedive just because I could relate to how we get sucked in the social media world and not in the real world. I more based on the you know you always wanting so many followers on social media and all these likes on your photos from people who you hardly hangout. Just seeing people or friends more higher then you, you kind of get that feeling you wish you were like that. Another thing too is now a days we see heaps and heaaappsss of fitness models that really hit you with ‘I want a body like that’ It kind of puts your self esteem down and trying to love your own body. I mean yes some models do help and motivate you to workout and all that but you gotta put in a lot of work and I’m just too lazy 😂

3. The End of the F***ing World

It’s a very unique show I must say. Even though James intention was to murder Alyssa in the first place but I still love the relationship between the two even though it was an unusual connection. But James came to fall in love with Alyssa eventually. If it weren’t for that creepy dude he murdered then we probably would of had a different story.

Okay now I’m getting into my favourite cartoon/anime shows

1. Tokyo Ghoul

One of my favourite anime series ever. Love a bit of action and gore which is what this series showed. Note that I’m not into the romantic animes, it kinda bores me. But honestly S3 was complete shit and was so confusing. Didn’t even connect with the last 2 seasons. But the other 2 seasons was 👌🏾 Noice.

2. Berserk

Listen if you want a bit of more gore and action then you should watch this. Love this show, literally finished it in a day and a half 😅. Guts is the main man and is probably my favourite character. But just a warning the ending is kinda fucked up and dark but I literally kept watching in confusion because it just escalated so quickly. I even read a few articles on what the ending meant but I’m still confused but overall still love the show. Was sad that everyone died suddenly expect Casca as one of the remake movies showed she survived but was obviously traumatised and lost her mind. Then had a demon baby which was fucked.

3. Rick & Morty

Gotta love this show man. Never knew I would like a show like this and understand all the humor 😂

4. Regular Show, Adventure Time & Amazing world of Gumball

If you don’t know what’s these shows are then GTFO! Jks but seriously these are pretty much the best cartoon shows ever, especially on Cartoon Network. Literally watch these shows growing up but I had a little sister that would watch these shows with me and our dad didn’t like it because of the crude humor and so on. So I haven’t watch these in awhile and going back to them is so nostalgic. It’s sad that these 3 shows had to end. I mean obviously a show gotta end somewhere but still. It won’t be the same :(

5. Love Death + Robots

I got to say this is a very interesting series. The animation was amazing but I was gobsmacked at the CGI which looked soooo realistic in some episodes. Literally finished it in a day. I mean yes it is a bit graphic but overall it was funny, dark and imaginative. But I do understand the sexual violence towards women in the series but at the end they got their revenge. But to say Sonnies Edge was probably my favourite episode and hope we can get a series happening or I’ll be disappointed haha.

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Okayy I guess I’m done. Idk why I was so excited to talk about this topic for some reason. But tbh I’m not really a huge tv show fan as I mentioned before sometimes shows drag on and it gets really boring and I just move on to the next show. I mean these shows above are probably the only ones I enjoy the most out of every other show.

A good example of a show that drags on is Riverdale, literally. I hate this show so much and idk how people are still watching it. First season was really good then it just got worst. I mean is it just me or Veronica is really annoying and being with Archie is even worse.

Also another show that pissed me off was Shameless! ughhh really ticked me off when Debby eventually had the baby and the way she acts so stubborn literally fucked me right off. You know when you watch a show and it just doesn’t go the way it should and then you just stop watching. Also Game of Thrones, I’m that percent of people that hasn’t watch this shit at all. I recommend if you haven’t watch this show then don’t start because literally every episode is an hour and there’s like what, 20 odd episodes in the 6S. So good luck if you gonna start. But I did watch the first 2 episodes of S1 but it’s kinda weird with the brother sister thing lol I should just make a post of all the shows I hate and why 😂

But anywayyy sorry if this was soo long. Didn’t think it would be and it sucked because I couldn’t put more gifs in haha But if your feeling bored then recommended watching a few of these bad boys I have put down but if you have any that don’t drag on and are actually worth watching and not boring. Then please tell because I don’t want to start watching a show and then get disappointed during it.

Alright then see you guys tomorrow for Day 4

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100 Truths

Tagged by @hirvitank

Soz I ain’t bolding the text xoxo

1. Real Name: Mia

2. Nicknames: My parents call me munchkin. My friends call me Mia. My names too short 🤷🏻‍♀️

3. Zodiac Sign: Aquarius

4. Gender: Female

5. Nursery: Same as my first primary school. They were joint.

6. Primary school: I went to 3. Also not gonna list for my own privacy

7. Secondary school: Went to 1. It was shit.

8. Hair Colour: dark brown

9. Long or short: long. I want it to my shoulders tho

10. Loud or quiet: I’m loud around friends and quiet when I don’t know people very well

11. Sweats or jeans: sweats at home. Jeans when I go out

12. Phone or camera: phone

13. Health freak: hell nah. I love junk food. Wish I was healthier tho

14. Drink or smoke: Only socially

15. Do you have a crush on someone: Not really. I’m not social enough to have one

16. Political orientation: Labour. But isidewith told me Green so I guess that too.

17. Piercings: 7. 3 in each ear and 1 in my nose

18. Tattoos: I wish :(

HAVE YOU EVER [BEEN IN]:

19. Airplane: aye

20. Car *accident*: nope

21. Fist fight: nope

FIRSTS:

22. Piercing: ear lobes

23. Best friend: primary school. Her name was Holly. She was a bitch.

24. Instrument: violin (ik how posh)

25. Award: I got medals for Morris dancing. (Not the traditional kind. It was similar to cheerleading but without the gymnastics elements)

26. Crush: Guy from high school. In year 7

27. Language: English

28. Big vacation: I haven’t been out the country with my family. I went to Barcelona with school though

LASTS:

29. Person I talked to: My mum

30. Person I texted: my friend James

31. Person I watched: Uh what. My mum I guess cos I last saw her?

32. Food I ate: A chicken wrap

33. Movie I watched: Endgame. I’m scarred.

34. Song I listened to: 8 out of 10 by Drake

35. Thing I bought: LikeL1k3 by Jay Kristoff. It’s on sale for 1.99 on Amazon🤙

36. Person I hugged: My mum forced hugged me. In the nicest way. I’m not a big hugger

FAVES:

37. Food: Oooo um chocolate? Or lasagne

38. Drinks: Lucozade or Coca Cola

39. Clothing: Sweats. Anything baggy

40. Book: Crooked Kingdom by Leigh Bardugo

41. Colour: Purple

42. Flower: Daisy

43. Music: Anything tbh. I love 5SOS’ new era and Billie Eilish👅🤘 Imagine Dragons and The Score (v similar music)

44. Movie: Tangled or any Spider-Man

45. Subjects: Art/Science. Tho I’m not very good at them. Humanities like sociology and psych (doing psych in uni)

IN THE PAST YEAR IM

47. [] Kissed in the rain

48. [] Celebrated Halloween

49. [] Had your heart broken

50. [] Went over the minutes on your cell phone

51. [] Someone questioned your sexual orientation

52. [] Used a Weapon

53. [] Breathed Fire

54. [] Had an abortion

55. [X] Done something you’ve regretted

56. [X] Broke a Promise

57. [X] Kept a Secret

58. [X] Pretended to be happy

59. [] Met someone who changed your life

60. [X] Pretended to be sick

61. [] Left the country

62. [] Tried something you normally wouldn’t like, and liked it

63. [X] Cried over the silliest thing

64. [] Ran a mile

65. [X] Went to the beach

66. [X] Stayed single

CURRENTLY:

67. Eating: nothing

68. Drinking: nothing

69. Getting ready to: do revision (not going too well oops)

70. Listening to: One by Lewis Capaldi 😭😭

71. Plans for tomorrow/today: revision revision revision

72. Waiting for: a fuck to give. Sorry.

YOUR FUTURE:

73. Want kids: Yes

74. Want to get married: Nope

75. Careers in mind: Counselling

WHICH IS BETTER ON A PERSON/PARTNER:

76. Lips or Eyes: eyes

77. Shorter or Taller: taller

78. Romantic or Spontaneous: spontaneous

79. Nice stomach or nice arms: arms 👅👅

80. Sensitive or Loud: Both!!!!

81. Hook-Up or Relationship: relationship

82. Troublemaker or Hesitant: i like me a bad boi

HAVE YOU EVER:

83. Lost glasses/contacts: Yes

84. Ran away from home: nope

85. Held a weapon, for self defence: does fighting with my brothers count? I used a ruler?

86. Killed somebody: Nah

87. Broken someone’s heart: Nah

88. Been arrested: Nah

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

90. Yourself: No. I wish I did. I need to be nicer to myself.

91. Miracles: No

92. Love at first sight: Nah. I think you can have attraction at first sight tho

93. Heaven: Nah

94. Santa Claus: Nah

95. Easter Bunny: Nah

96. Magic: nah. Wish it was really tho. HoW CooL woULD thaT bE

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

97. Is there one person you want to be with, right now: in a social sense?

Nah. I like my alone space.

98. Are you seriously happy with where you are, in life:

No. I wish I’d planned things out better. Everything has been thrown at me and I feel like I should be more organised, the way I like it, than just making impulse decision because I simply can’t be arsed.

99. Are you happy with the person you’re with:

I’m not with anybody. So no

100. Post as 100 truths and tag 5 people: @glitterprincelu @a-driftamongopenstars @madmadmilk @bellblake @goofy-gomez (lol you don’t have to it obvs)

[signalsandsoundwaves]

Now that I combed through KH3′s plot points again and don’t have to reasonably worry about spoiling anyone, here it is: My gripes w/ Kingdom Hearts 3 (Of Which There Are A Lot):

They showed way too damn much w/ the trailers, they should have at least hid the Final World and Aqua turning into a Darkling. Like, we already knew the whole shit parade with the new organization was going to happen in some capacity along with the fight w/ OG Xehanort, but they forgot the necessity of surprise in a narrative.

The whole deal with the new Princesses of Heart was 

A: mentioned like twice, maybe, and then never expounded upon or brought up again

B: Had no bearing on the overarching narrative. What was the point of bringing it up at all? 

Reintroducing Riku Replica the way they did? Hm. Okay. I can work with that. BUT!

They never showed how he helped Riku out of the Demon Tide. Just poof and he’s out and it’s all fine. Oh and the heartless gave him a nice haircut too for some reason. 

They never showed how Riku Replica was able to fix Way to the Dawn?? AND THEY NEVER SHOWED HOW RIKU PULLED ANOTHER KEYBLADE OUT OF HIS ASS AGAIN.

oh also I fucking hated that the kh1 Ansem!Riku was, in fact, not Ansem!Riku, but a replica of a replica. I’m gonna pretend that’s not the case and instead imagine that’s just an attempt at a joke by Nomura that the series is needlessly complicated and makes no sense anymore (which it is)

Dark Aqua: The fact that it even happened completely invalidates any sort of character significance Blank Points had. That, and her reawakened hope from 2.8′s ending. 

Well, okay, I guess it doesn’t invalidate those events with the way it happened (edit: whoops forgot to put in words), but it still seems super contrived that Aqua’s had all that time and resultant experience in the realm of darkness just so Ansem SoD could come up and kamehameha the crap outta her with some weird ball of darkness. Even if she didn’t have a keyblade. Didn’t she still have her magic?

Why did it have to be Sora that saved her? So he could look cool? Again? Lame. 

it makes much more sense for Riku to save her--not only to give him a significant achievement for this game, but to also make things come full circle nice and neat: She saved him when he had to close the door, he saves her from falling to the darkness she fought for over a decade. 

Nomura...do you know how dumb it is for you to make Aqua say “You’ve seen me too weak for too long” before winning a boss battle against Vanitas, who then in the next cutscene wrecks her shit? The same character who got thrown so hard he was perfectly horizontal to the ground into a child’s bedroom by The Notorious James P. Sullivan?

A PIXAR CHARACTER?? COME ON

I WOULDN’T HAVE MINDED IF YOU AT LEAST KEPT IT CONSISTENT, LIKE MAKE VANITAS A PUNK-ASS PIDDLING BRAT THE WHOLE GAME, BUT YOU GOTTA KEEP SHIT CONSISTENT IF YOU’RE GONNA HAVE CHARACTERS BE POWERFUL OR NOT! THIS ISN’T DRAGON BALL Z!

Actually, now that I think about it more, Aqua in general got fucked over in this game. Ven gets his shit wrecked by Terranort and all Aqua does is stand there, watch, and gasp? No! She Would Not Do That!

What was the point of putting Namine on the cover if she wasn’t going to even show up until the very end of the game

And. Um. I know I’m biased as hell as a Soriku shipper, but it’s more than a little weird to imply any sort of feelings between Riku and Namine (Repliku? Sure, I can roll w/ that. But not OG Riku) when they haven’t even spoken since three games ago and neither has mentioned the other once.

If you’re want your audience to be excited about the end-game ships, actually give them material throughout the series to help build chemistry! Don’t shoehorn it in! And this goes especially for SoKai!

Sora keeps flip-flopping between being his usual dandy self and being a dumbass brat. That scene where he was whining about wanting cool new clothes too was a little awkward to sit through. That and when he was teasing/bothering Hiro at the end of the Big Hero 6 world about taking the extra Baymax along on his own journey

TBH I’d probably do the same thing, since that healing spray came in hella handy and baymax does better than donald

but it’s still a little awkward to do that

I’m not even gonna talk about how they butchered the plot to Frozen. The prerendered cutscenes for Let It Go and the last scene were good tho.

and it was cool for SDG to lean on the fourth wall and wonder where the music was coming from

But did we need Anna to awkwardly sing Do You Wanna Build A Snowman in front of SDG? Nah.

lol why did they make the bug blocks from Re:Coded replace the original movie’s nanobots if it wasn’t going to be brought up or plot relevant at all

Also Sora is back to being dumb as a brick: They find a Riku that is one year younger, with yellow Norted eyes, and wearing an organization 13 coat...and Sora still thinks it’s OG Riku? Goofy had to spell it out for him, that was lame

Look if I were going to talk about Kairi this list would then be 3,000 miles long with my grievances in regards to everything involving her in this game so I’m just gonna put it into the simplest bullet points here:

Nomura’s got some serious hang-ups in regards to women. Full stop. 

You can’t keep saying every fucking game that she’s gonna participate and then never have her meaningfully do so.

And the one time she does have any importance to the plot, it’s as a plot device where she fucking dies in a total Diabolus Ex Machina. Not cool, Nomura.

They clearly put a metric fuck-ton of work into the PotC world but we can’t even go inside the abandoned mansion in twilight town ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

seriously i wanted to swing on the chandeliers

And you Know the only reason why Cutler Beckett was in this game was so Nomura could throw in the scene where the ship goes down while beckett says ‘It’s just good business’

Which makes me think of another thing--Cutler effing Beckett was in this game, but Hans doesn’t even speak in Arendelle? Weird.

Terra and Riku didn’t even speak to each other and I’m so sad about that.

and I was legit pissy that Roxas and Ventus’ only acknowledgement of their nigh-identical appearances was a single weirded out shared glance

You’d think the majority of the cast would know by now not to underestimate Sora but idk whatever I guess

Yeah I’m just gonna pretend Ansem SoD and OG Xehanort didn’t have those heel-face turns and resultant pathetic attempts at sob stories when they died (I don’t give a shit what Xehanort Reports 8+9 say, I’m gonna keep my headcanon that those were attempts to trick Terra and Ven even more)

Not Xemnas, though. I’m actually okay w/ his since it makes sense and was actually built up throughout KH2 without the need for ancillary material (tell but don’t show is so godawful as a storytelling tactic and should only be used in dire measures)

Gee, I love how the only god damn time in this series Kairi is a capable fighter is when she’s turned into a sword-suit-of-armor-thing and fights Sora in a world named after a Led Zeppelin song

Also, Kairi straight up dies and Riku doesn’t really give a shit??

Seriously, what?

It makes no sense that any of The Norts™ would be able to set foot onto the Keyblade Graveyard long enough to fuck the crew’s shit up without Lingering Will to blast them into oblivion with his ultima cannon. He was supposed to be right there waiting for them. Why did we need to die and get Namine to tell him what happened? He’d have a front row seat before we even got there the first time.

So if Sora’s gone to The Final World before every time he’s gone to the Station of Awakening, why haven’t we ever seen it before kh3?

I love how the game doesn’t even acknowledge that Chirithy is technically responsible for Sora’s death at the end of KH3

This one isn’t actually a gripe, I just really wanted to point out that an adorable cat plushie was responsible for the death of the series’ protagonist

If it’s a possibility that a keyblade can be broken, why hasn’t it ever come up before?

And finally, my One True Gripe that isn’t a long-held point of contention with the series and is exclusive to KH3...

Nomura took a little too much inspiration from Dead Man’s Chest and it shows (And Naruto, and DBZ, but considering KH has basically been a shonen anime all along I guess I should have expected that)(But I especially hate that he directly mimicked Dead Man’s Chest)

[ronansparrishes]

I was tagged to answer all of these questions!!

1: when you have cereal, do you have more milk than cereal or more cereal than milk?

more milk than cereal

2: do you like the feeling of cold air on your cheeks on a wintery day?

yes i don’t like to be super warm ever 

3: what random objects do you use to bookmark your books?

usually sticky notes that i write things on about the book or like lists of stuff that i have due that week

4: how do you take your coffee/tea?

i take tea with nothing in it and coffee with lots of sugar and cream 

5: are you self-conscious of your smile?

yeah my teeth are a little weird

6: do you keep plants?

yep! i have two cacti, richie and nini

7: do you name your plants?

see above lmao 

8: what artistic medium do you use to express your feelings?

i’m a writer

9: do you like singing/humming to yourself?

i literally never stop singing lmao but yeah i do

10: do you sleep on your back, side, or stomach?

back or stomach

11: what's an inner joke you have with your friends?

“I have to microwave this” anytime anything is awkward 

12: what's your favorite planet?

saturn 

13: what's something that made you smile today?

i had a nice talk with a girl from my history class and this guy from my shakespeare class last semester, like we sat on the benches outside of this building for an hour and a half

14: if you were to live with your best friend in an old flat in a big city, what would it look like?

plants and paper everywhere lmao 

15: go google a weird space fact and tell us what it is!

space is... big

16: what's your favorite pasta dish?

alfredo which im eating right now

17: what color do you really want to dye your hair?

like a reddish color

18: tell us about something dumb/funny you did that has since gone down in history between you and your friends and is always brought up.

calling the musical oklahoma ‘kansas’ 

19: do you keep a journal? what do you write/draw/ in it?

i have one but i barely write in it lmao

20: what's your favorite eye color?

i don’t have one

21: talk about your favorite bag, the one that's been to hell and back with you and that you love to pieces.

my like briefcase bag thing that i used for like 3+ years and the strap was broken but i kept using it

22: are you a morning person?

yeah i guess, like i get up early every day for class and im usually pretty awake and functioning 

23: what's your favorite thing to do on lazy days where you have 0 obligations?

read fanfiction and watch musicals

24: is there someone out there you would trust with every single one of your secrets?

b, corinne

25: what's the weirdest place you've ever broken into?

i dont think i ever have 

26: what are the shoes you've had for forever and wear with every single outfit?

my black knock off vans from target

27: what's your favorite bubblegum flavor?

anything fruity

28: sunrise or sunset?

sunset

29: what's something really cute that one of your friends does and is totally endearing?

b always leaves me sticky notes and they’re always so cute

30: think of it: have you ever been truly scared?

yeah probably

31: what is your opinion of socks? do you like wearing weird socks? do you sleep with socks? do you confine yourself to white sock hell? really, just talk about socks.

i have so many socks and i never wear matching ones and my dad gets mad when i buy more socks

32: tell us a story of something that happened to you after 3AM when you were with friends.

idk me and b used to stay up real late with JM and send each other dumb memes

33: what's your fave pastry?

anything with peanut butter

34: tell us about the stuffed animal you kept as a kid. what is it called? what does it look like? do you still keep it?

violet, she was like a tiny purple weasel thing...

35: do you like stationary and pretty pens and so on? do you use them often?

YES I LOVE THEM SO MUCH I COLLECT CUTE STATIONARY 

36: which band's sound would fit your mood right now?

the front bottoms

37: do you like keeping your room messy or clean?

i clean my room every sunday usually

38: tell us about your pet peeves!

everything my stupid roommate does

39: what color do you wear the most?

black or red

40: think of a piece of jewelry you own: what's it's story? does it have any meaning to you?

i don’t wear jewelry

41: what's the last book you remember really, really loving?

the raven cycle series!

42: do you have a favorite coffee shop? describe it!

we live right next door to a coffeehouse, it’s not my fave but i spend a lot of time there. it’s student run so it’s kinda shitty lol

43: who was the last person you gazed at the stars with?

probably b

44: when was the last time you remember feeling completely serene and at peace with everything?

right now, sitting in the kitchen with my friends

45: do you trust your instincts a lot?

yes

46: tell us the worst pun you can think of.

im too lazy, ask ali

47: what food do you think should be banned from the universe?

onions

48: what was your biggest fear as a kid? is it the same today?

clowns, probably

49: do you like buying CDs and records? what was the last one you bought?

i buy kpop CDs lol u, i gotm lemonade for christmas from my friend

50: what's an odd thing you collect?

socks

51: think of a person. what song do you associate with them?

b - hey thanks by the wonder years

52: what are your favorite memes of the year so far?

the one making fun of student athletes 

53: have you ever watched the rocky horror picture show? heathers? beetlejuice? pulp fiction? what do you think of them?

all of them but pulp fiction, i like rocky horror and heathers a lot

54: who's the last person you saw with a true look of sadness on their face?

i don’t.... know...

55: what's the most dramatic thing you've ever done to prove a point?

spent 5 days not talking to any of my friends

56: what are some things you find endearing in people?

when they’re funny 

57: go listen to bohemian rhapsody. how did it make you feel? did you dramatically reenact the lyrics?

i’m not going to but if i did i would dramatically reenact it

58: who's the wine mom and who's the vodka aunt in your group of friends? why?

im both. bet

59: what's your favorite myth?

anything greek

60: do you like poetry? what are some of your faves?

yeah, i like bukowski

61: what's the stupidest gift you've ever given? the stupidest one you've ever received?

everything i give is dumb, also one time veronica got me a slinky for christmas and i was so mad

62: do you drink juice in the morning? which kind?

apple!! 

63: are you fussy about your books and music? do you keep them meticulously organized or kinda leave them be?

i organize by letter 

64: what color is the sky where you are right now?

black, it’s night

65: is there anyone you haven't seen in a long time who you'd love to hang out with?

corinne or my friend mason

66: what would your ideal flower crown look like?

BLACK

67: how do gloomy days where the sky is dark and the world is misty make you feel?

like kind of at peace and calm

68: what's winter like where you live?

cold as fuck and lots of snow

69: what are your favorite board games?

clue!!!! idk a bunch 

70: have you ever used a ouija board?

fuck no i dont fuck with that

71: what's your favorite kind of tea?

chamomile 

72: are you a person who needs to note everything down or else you'll forget it?

no i have a really good memory

73: what are some of your worst habits?

biting my nails, being generally awful 

74: describe a good friend of yours without using their name or gendered pronouns.

egg

75: tell us about your pets!

i have none :(

76: is there anything you should be doing right now but aren't?

sleeping lol i have to be up at 5:30

77: pink or yellow lemonade?

yellow lemonade

78: are you in the minion hateclub or fanclub?

HATECLUB

79: what's one of the cutest things someone has ever done for you?

make me a mix CD

80: what color are your bedroom walls? did you choose that color? if so, why?

at school and at home they’re both white, but they’re covered in posters of things i like, like monsta x and the x files

81: describe one of your friend's eyes using the most abstract imagery you can think of.

egg

82: are/were you good in school?

yeah i usually get all A’s, school/academics are super important to me and i’ve always been good at them

83: what's some of your favorite album art?

any front bottom’s cover

84: are you planning on getting tattoos? which ones?

yes! the phrase “a miracle of moving parts” 

85: do you read comics? what are your faves?

nah but i watch daredevil

86: do you like concept albums? which ones?

yeah, lemonade. and so many others

87: what are some movies you think everyone should watch at least once in their lives?

ferris bueller’s day off, all the LOTR, les mis

88: are there any artistic movements you particularly enjoy?

dadaism lmao

89: are you close to your parents?

not my mom but i’ve live with my dad since i was 15, he’s like my best friend probably 

90: talk about your one of your favorite cities.

i really love Nuremberg when i was there. it was so nice and beautiful yet still modern?? but there were furries everywhere lmao

91: where do you plan on traveling this year?

around PA and maybe jersey and new york, nowhere major tho

92: are you a person who drowns their pasta in cheese or a person who barely sprinkles a pinch?

so much

93: what's the hairstyle you wear the most?

hair down, pin straight bc that’s how it drys 

94: who was the last person you know to have a birthday?

ummmmmmmmmm idk im bad at this lmao

95: what are your plans for this weekend?

newspaper layout

96: do you install your computer updates really quickly or do you procrastinate on them a lot?

no i like never do

97: myer briggs type, zodiac sign, and hogwarts house?

INFJ, cancer, gryffindor

98: when's the last time you went hiking? did you enjoy it?

with dallas last spring break probably lmao no i hate hiking 

99: list some songs that resonate to your soul whenever you hear them.

we don’t eat by james vincent mcmorrow or something like that

100: if you were presented with two buttons, one that allows you to go 5 years into the past, the other 5 years into the future, which one would you press? why?

future. forget the past lmao

[planetcatherine]

drunk high and bored

1: Talk about the first time you watched your favorite movie.

The first time i watched Perks of Being a Wallflower i was with my sister and mom in florida and they didn’t understand the depth of it. they thought it was weird and didn’t appreciate the art. The first time i ever watched inglorious basterds i was with rob. we watched it in my room near the end of first semester. it was such a great movie and a fun time

2: Talk about your first kiss.

My first kiss was when i was 15. he was 18 and a senior and the captain of the soccer team. i was concussed at the time. it was after midnight so technically it was christmas. he kissed me after i showed him perks of being a wallflower and he gave me my christmas present: two books i wanted and a cd labeled “cat’s mixtape”. he also made out w me it wasn’t gentle or sweet at all. it was good though. i don’t really need gentle and sweet.

3: Talk about the person you've had the most intense romantic feelings for.

The person i had the most intense romantic feelings for had the same for me, but we were a terrible match and nearly fuckinf killed eachother. it was a terrible relationship and a beautiful relationship and i don’t miss it one bit but am thankful and grateful for the time we had. too bad things had to go the way they did, but everything was too much. we were going to ruin eachother. we already had.

4: Talk about the thing you regret most so far.

I regret nothing

5: Talk about the best birthday you've had.

I don’t like birthdays but i suppose this past one was cool

6: Talk about the worst birthday you've had.

my 16th was probably the worst. pretty sure that was the night i was suicidal and cried when my friends picked me up.

7: Talk about your biggest insecurity.

i think my biggest insecurity is the idea of not being good enough. i’m just never enough and i’m scared or rejection and weird vibes.

8: Talk about the thing you are most proud of.

I am good at drawing people because people interest me a lot

9: Talk about little things on your body that you like the most.

my tattoo is my baby. my random freckles on my body are cool. i like my dimples and my blue eyes.

10: Talk about the biggest fight you've ever had.

one time my brother and i played chess and i won and he got pissed and just started beating me up and was jumping up and down on my stomach and then my dad told us we couldn’t talk to eachother anymore so i didn’t talk to my brother for like years

11: Talk about the best dream you've ever had.

klem’s with derek. i liked him at the time and i had such a normal dream but it seemed perfect to me

12: Talk about the worst dream you've ever had.

on christmas eve once i had a dream that my family was kidnapped by cartoon characters and they hypnotized us and my brother and i escaped. also i had a dream last semester that i slept walked during, i had a dream i ate a bunch of xanax and died and i guess i was sleepwalking and kept picking up my pill bottles and putting them doen

13: Talk about the first time you had sex/how you imagine your first time.

the first time i had sex was so innocent and awful. he tattered me lol. i was so sad afterwards because i liked him so much and didn’t want to say no because i wanted to hug i wasn’t ready to that very day after he broke up with his gf. i wasn’t in a place to do that. and it hurt a lot.

14: Talk about a vacation.

i went to california with a girl i knew for two weeks prior to the trip. it was lit. another time i went to hawaii with my ex and everyone thought we were just married. also lit.

15: Talk about the time you were most content in life.

content? haven’t heard that name in a while. anyway i guess i’m like very content rn but also i was prob more content when i had my ex in my life. but i don’t love him anymore

16: Talk about the best party you've ever been to.

there have been many but the best nights are when i just get belligerently drunk and wander and end up random places like building forts or spinning around or some weird shit

17: Talk about someone you want to be friends with.

i want to be friends with this guy who’s in both my english class and my psych class. he seems cool

18: Talk about something that happened in elementary school.

once in elementary school i fell off the top of the playground tower thing and i thought i was going to die so i just laid there while everyone went inside and they forgot me out there

19: Talk about something that happened in middle school.

in middle school i was class president and i ran a few years in a row and people like drew on my posters it was really mean

20: Talk about something that happened in high school.

in high school i became so meta and self aware it was insane. i spent all my time trying so hard. then one day i started smoking weed more and i was like nah idgaf anymore lol hate me for who i am

21: Talk about a time you had to turn someone down.

my friend this morning was hinting she wanted to come out here but i just wanted to hang out with rob

22: Talk about your worst fear.

needles. shit is freaky

23: Talk about a time someone turned you down.

i used to like a boy named derek and he liked me too but one day randomly he ghosted me for no reason. he still hits me up tho and he’s engaged which is weird shot

24: Talk about something someone told you that meant a lot.

my first love daniel said to me once “you’re beautiful. i don’t care what anyone else has to say, and i know it might seem odd coming from me, but you need to know that.” and it stole my heart because i used to get made fun of and i knew i wasn’t the prettiest one ever

25: Talk about an ex-best friend.

my first her best friend is still my friend, but she went too crazy for me to handle. she would yell at me for not eating her food bc she was anorexic and wanted me to help her kill herself and hide things from her mom and she just ended up being botchy and would scream at me for eating donuts and tell me no one cared so i peaced out real quick

26: Talk about things you do when you're sick.

when i’m sick i just lay in bed and convince myself in dying

27: Talk about your favorite part of someone else's body.

my ex jake had a “hole” in his chest. it was fun to play with.

28: Talk about your fetishes.

nah

29: Talk about what turns you on.

accidental touching and being messy with people and lightly touching. also hard touching and crazy stuff

30: Talk about what turns you off.

when people chew loudly and ickily

31: Talk about what you think death is like.

darkness and nothingness. oblivion.

32: Talk about a place you remember from your childhood.

scituate, ma. i used to stay at the usaf base place with my family a lot. it was beautiful and solitary.

33: Talk about what you do when you are sad.

punch myself. cry. think i’m dying. hold my heart. look in the mirror. punch other things. shake. hyperventilate. sometimes i seize or pass out

34: Talk about the worst physical pain you've endured.

idk but one time when rob came to visit me at home, i just like died and fell on ice in my driveway. my arm was fuckeddd

35: Talk about things you wish you could stop doing.

i need to not be dependent on nicotine. also, i need to eat healthier and stop being lazy.

36: Talk about your guilty pleasures.

country music :)

37: Talk about someone you thought you were in love with.

my ex cody. i thought i was in love with him, but i think i was just captivated instead. it was not love. you don’t treat someone you love like that.

38: Talk about songs that remind you of certain people.

i’ll list a few

• marry me - thomas rhett (ms)

• dancing in the moonlight - king harvest (nm)

•run - snow patrol (dp)

•say you won’t let go - james arthur (cr)

•love -kendrick (rf)

39: Talk about things you wish you'd known earlier.

i wish i knew that it was okay to be myself. and i wish i recognized human things ealier. like the fact that we’re all just people.

40: Talk about the end of something in your life.

the end of my juul was Last night. justin fuckinf dropped it and it’s gone now so