#thistleruff

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It’s time to say good bye

Thistleruff: Thistleruff, injured, tired and without her kits, stumbles blindly into the darkness. She knew Minnie would send someone after her, if only to make sure she left the clans territory for good. But she was going to take her sweet ass time.

Having decided that she had traveled enough for the moment. Thistleruff parked herself in the middle of a clearing to gaze up at the fading moonlight. Maybe if she hadn't played along with Stonekits wishes she could have had more time to explain.

Even still she wasn't upset with her son. She could never be upset with those two. The third...well that was never her child to begin with.

Zed: Zed ran through the woods, desperately trying to catch up with the cat who had been banished, trees passed by quickly and she ran as fast as she possibly could. Knowing Thistleruff, she was probably not going to be leaving quickly, but Zed wanted to task to her as soon as possible.

Her heart was lighter now that her clanmates seemed to understand that even if she loved her friend highly, she wouldn't try to bring her back, or betray the clan herself. But meeting her precious friend once more was important.

After running and scenting after the cat in question, she finally found her, sitting down. "Thistleruff!” She called out before running up to her friend, covering her in nuzzles and worried purrs.

Thistleruff: Shocked by Zed sudden appearance and the lavish affections she was being showered with, Thistleruff could only stare down at the smaller she-cat as she purred against her. Her face scrunched in confusion and she backed off from the other cat. Distance is what she needed now, she didn't want to be smothered.

"What do you think you are doing out here? If you tell me you ran off I will personally drag your hide back to those idiots."

Her tone was short and clipped, leaving little room for argument. But she couldn't deny she was...thankful to see the little squirt once more.

Zed: Zed was a little bit hurt as Thistleruff backed off, but it was to be expected.

"I ran all the way here Thistleruff, but I didn't run away. I came here because I wanted to see you."

Zed looked her friend over, her eyes soft. "Because you're my precious friend."

Thistleruff: Unsure of what to do Thistle nods once at Zed. Thistleruff: "I...Thank you, Zed. But it would be better if you returned now. If the others found out they would-” “Well, they are just as unlikely to listen to you as they are to me."

She waits for the other to make a move, but when Zed does nothing but continue to sit there Thistle snorts.

"Go on now. Shoo. They are your family not me." She shoos the cat away with her tail.

Zed: "I already told them I was going to see you." Zed tilts her head and smiles faintly.

"I wasn't going to let you go without a goodbye at least. A real good bye."

"I'm going to be honest, I'm hurt because of what you did. But you didn't do it alone and I can't bring myself to hate you. You'll always be... Special to me."

Thistleruff: "...I suppose I must thank you again then, for being so considerate."

She paused to cough awkwardly into her fur. She wasn't expecting any of the cats that were following her to actually approach with genuine concern. This was...strange.

"If you have...their...permission I suppose it will do no harm. Is there something you wanted?"

Zed: Zed got closer to Thistleruff, her short fur brushing against the longer strands. "I wanted to talk to you. Really talk to you."

Zed grew quiet for a moment. "Before saying goodbye."

Thistleruff: She pets the other she-cat with her tail and offers a soft, comforting purr.

"Then speak. I will need to leave by morning."

Zed: "I need to know why you did it. And I need to hear it from you." Zed looked at her friend, trust in her eyes, even after all this.

Thistleruff: "Why I? Why I did what? Why I apparently killed Auburnsun or why I ever joined in the first place?"

Zed: "Both. Or actually. Tell me everything." Green eyes met golden.

"You can always tell me anything, Thistleruff."

Thistleruff: "A summary then...” “I joined the clan to find stability. My own territory was running low on resources when Auburn showed up. I saw the opportunity and decided to take a chance. It paid off and I found myself in a place were food was abundant and I no longer had to watch my back for foxes. But Auburn and his idealist way of thinking was only causing problems. Even in the early days there were cracks. And he had no way of fixing them. How could he really, a lost little kittypet."

She sighed and shook her head. There were not the thought she should be dwelling on, nor were they the facts Zed desired to know.

"Then a new cat arrived. Not that that was all too unusual at the time. We had cats coming left and right. But he was...different. He saw the faults as I did. Splitgaze and myself...we knew that in order to keep our secure little lifestyle we would have to step up...to guide Auburn on the right path. Splitgaze...purposed an idea. Because I had been around for longer, I was to become deputy. It was a long journey...and other cats got entangled along the way. Eventually, however, it became a reality...We had planned so long that it seemed like a dream. But by now those cracks had turned into fissures."

She paused to look up at the she-cat.

"You saw it...didn't you? The animosity that clan held for each other. They all seemed friendly and kind but the second they caught the scent of blood it was like a frenzy. Accusations of treachery or scheming! No one really trusts the other. They like to make face and play coy, but really they don't trust one another. They see Auburn as a figure-head and little more. A scapegoat for their own wrong doings."

"Splitgaze saw it too. We knew we had to do something. So...when Auburn and I traveled to the place to communicate with starclan....Zed...I will not lie to you. At least one cat deserves to hear my story without the sugarcoating. Zed...I decided what needed to be done. The clan couldn't go on, you have to understand..."

Thistle raised to her paws as if in a trance and slowly stepped closer to the other she-cat. Her eyes flickering with fire, stayed locked with Zeds.

"There was no other way. I tried explaining but he wouldn't listen to me. So he had to be eliminated...He fell. I couldn't find his body, probably washed down stream. But he was gone and finally...finally the clan would have been safe."

"When I returned with Whisperwing and Russetwood...I had been informed that I was not to get my nine lives. That Sunclan has already had a leader...What was I to do, Zed? I had to fix things before they broke again. I had to change everything. It needed to be done, they couldn't remain as Sunclan and wait for a tom who is supposed to be dead.“ “And...and that little rat...I did it for him. I sacrificed so much so Splitgaze would be happy. So we would be safe to raise our young and you know what he did? He abandoned me. He attacked and abandoned me in the mess that he had created! For the good of the clan Thistle. For us...everything he said to me was a lie."

She stopped to drop her head.

"And now I am here, and you know the truth...and my children. Children I promised to raise better then my own parents did. They are lost to me now."

Zed: Zed listened to Thistleruff, staying quiet as she spoke. Not making a sound. Her thoughts was in turmoil. Auburnsun had really been killed by Thistleruff. And Splitgaze had gone along with it, encouraged her to do it, even. For a second she felt intense rage again, but only for a second. So short that it didn’t surface and show. "Thistleruff, I can never say that what you did was right. And I won't."

She looked to the side for a second before looking back, Winterfang especially surfaced in her thoughts when discussing this. "Even so. The clan has had problems, I see that.” “But we need to work that through together. It's not just to push out anyone that doesn't fit. You have to guide them."

As Thistleruff sounds broken about her kits, Zed gives her a nuzzle. "I'll take care of your kits, if you'd like."

She paused again. "Also... I need to know. And answer me truthfully." "Was what we had... Have... Real? Was it something special to you?"

Thistleruff: "And it is not in my power to change your mind. But I am glad that you have the decency to listen without jumping to conclusions. Something that your clanmates lack."

She nods and gives the she-cat a lick behind the ear.

"Zed...You are a friend I did not think I would ever make. Nor one I deserve. To know that it is you looking out for my kits...well...I am sure they will grow up just fine without their parents."

Zed: "I'll look after them, make sure they won't lack anything." Zed purred at Thistleruff's rare display of affection.

"Do...Do you regret that we became friends?"

Thistleruff: "Of course I do not young one. But you deserve a friend who is better then I. Now...if there is nothing else?"

Zed: "Do you have any last wishes? Anything you'd like me to tell anyone or...?" Zed sat closer to the bigger she-cat. She didn't want her to leave just yet.

Thistleruff: "Hmmm." She mulled over the question for a moment. Anything she wanted to be said had been...and really there was no need to cause trouble for her kits so she shook her head. "I believe I covered everything before my departure."

Zed: "Are you sure? Nothing you want me to tell your kits or anything?" Zed moved her paw so it was close to Thistleruff's. This was really the last time she'd see her.

Thistleruff: Her...kits. Right, she had been run out before she could say goodbye. She hesitates for only a moment. Lips drawn thin and ears pinned to her head before taking a tentative step forward.

"Perhaps, you can tell my kits that...their mother loves them. That it isn't their fault she's gone. But that she knows they'll all grow to be perfect. That she-She'll see them again someday."

Zed: "I'll make sure to tell them that, Thistleruff." Her voice was shaky with emotion. "Hey... Thistleruff? If things were different... Do you think we would have been together forever?"

Thistleruff: She lets out a quiet snort of laughter and shakes her head.

"If things were different I doubt we would have ever met." She rests her head atop her friend’s, a soft comforting purr rumbling in her chest. "But perhaps we could. Maybe in another life we can."

Zed: Zed looked disappointed at first but then perked up. "You do know that you're my precious friend, right? Even through all this?"

Thistleruff: "I know Zed. You are to stubborn to change your mind." She gives the she-cat a final lick on the head before pulling away fully. "And you are mine. Now It's time for you to go, don't you think."

Zed: Zed gives her friend a nuzzle and looks regretful. But then lights up. "Thistleruff. you know how you've not playfought with me?" The Abyssinian grins, as if she had something in mind.

Thistleruff: Thistleruff raises a brow and gives her companion a skeptical look. "Of course...but is now really the time? If you return injured who knows what they would do...."

Zed: Zed got into a crouch and wiggles her haunches. "C'mooon Thistleruff. No claws, that's what playfighting is. For fun. And building muscle." Zed bapped the bigger cat on her tail.

"See it as a... A last chance to really do something together."  

Thistleruff: She sighed and hung her head. Of course Zed would insist on something this ridiculous. She couldn't repress the stupid grin that came to your face.

"Alright, alright."

She lowers onto her own belly and prepares to pounce at the other cat.

Zed: Zed's grin grows wider and she starts to creep around, in case Thistleruff was thinking about pouncing. Then she darted towards the bigger cat.

Thistleruff: She stumbles back a few steps and raises to her back paws. Slapping at the air in front of her to keep Zed at a bit of a distance.

Zed: As the bigger cat keeps up a defense, Zed tries to circle around so she can come at her from the side, while's she's on her hind legs and a bit vulnerable.

Thistleruff: Zed circles around her and Thistle drops back to all fours. Deciding now is as good a time as ever, she jumps at the other she-cat and moves to pin her down.

Zed: The Maine coon manages to pin the smaller cat down, but Zed is stubborn and kicks at Thistleruff's belly and pushes at her face with her forepaws. In a real fight she wouldn't do this of course, her paws would be bitten off.

Thistleruff: Thistleruff laughs at Zeds tactics and playfully nips at the paws near her face. Before relenting and rolling onto her side, lightly batting at the other she-cats sides with her hindlegs

Zed: Zed laughs along with her friend and as she rolls over the smaller cat, she gets up and lightly pulls on Thistleruff's ear.

Thistleruff: She sinks down closer to the ground and flops. One paw covering her eyes. "How could I, the great and powerful Thistleruff, be defeated by such a small she-cat!?"

Zed: Zed baps the big cat on her nose. "Come on, oh powerful Thistleruff!" She jumps around and baps Thistleruff from different angles.  

Thistleruff: She peeks out behind her paw and baps Zed on the nose the next time she dashes forward. Before rolling over and flopping on her tummy.

"I cannot go on. This is it...my end."

Zed: Zed chuckles. "Thistleruff, nooo. I believe in you!" And with that she flopped onto the stomach of the fluffy cat.

Thistleruff: She goes completely limp. Eyes shut and holding her breath. She was dead. Zed had defeated her.

Zed: Zed pokes the cat. First poking her ear, then cheek, then belly. "Thistleruff?"

Thistleruff: "I'm dead..." She whispers.  

Zed: Zed snorts and pushes at the big cat so she rolls over. "No you're not. I don't think I could kill you." She gives the bigger cat a smile and lays down beside her, purring contently.

Thistleruff: "I'm sure you could if you tried." She signed and rolled over onto her back giving out one last content purr. "I suppose...this is our final goodbye. I'll miss you, you little runt."

Zed: "I guess it is." She nuzzled Thistleruff's cheek, sighing as well. "I'll miss you too, furball. It'll be so weird without you here." "I'm sorry things have to be this way. If I could, I'd go with you." Zed gives Thistleruff a lick on the nose.

"But the clan is my home, my life; no matter how dark things look right now..."  

Thistleruff: "Good. I wouldn't want you following me anyway. You'll be safe there...maybe fix everything that's happened. I know you'll do well." She gives Zed a bap before getting to her paws and pointing back towards sunclan territory with her tail.

"Now go. I better not see you looking back."

Zed: Zed is about to leave, but she turns around and gives Thistleruff a last friendly headbutt in the shoulder. "Bye Thistleruff, I love you and I'll never forget you!"

She then ran back, back towards camp, the forest passing her by and she left Thistleruff behind. She felt incredibly sad, but also light. She had gotten to say goodbye to her best friend and that's all she could ask for.

Thistleruff: Thistleruff watched as Zed sprints off back in the direction she belongs and is left standing in the clearing alone. A somber smile lay on quivering lips.

She turned away and pushed through the foliage and into the unknown. Thistleruff: "Goodbye...everyone"

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☼.☼ thist.e do it, i dare you

We all know Thistle would be that one lady that wears hoop earrings to the beach... I am so sorry

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Hot Mama Thistle is here to kick some booty...

[scrambledcatz]

Mission Impossible!!!

You’re sitting in camp, pawing at the ground. EVERYTHING IS TOO STILL YOU’RE BORED AND YOU NEED SHIT TO DO. YOU CAN’T EVEN GO HUNT WHAT IIIIIIIIIIIIIIS THIS. Restlessness overtakes you and you decide there’s only one thing to do. Find the only other cat who’s in a bad spot like you.

You half-bounce to the medicine cat’s den and peek in, looking for a cat in particular! THERE SHE IS! Your fearless leader, Thistleruff! With quick steps you walk to her side.

“Hi Thistleruff!”

You greet her with a nuzzle to her shoulder and grin.

“It’s pretty dull in camp huh? What do you say if we...”

You lower your voice to a whisper, so that the other cats around won’t hear.

“Do something fun?”

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What this is being used for has no place on this blog....yet

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Deputy??!1?! Open Thread

You wake one morning and notice the frost beginning to form on the entrance to the warriors den. It would seem leaf bare had begun to show its ugly head. With a snort, you pull yourself to your paws and leave the other sleeping cats to their dreams. The camps clearing is covered in a thin veil of mist and coats your long fur in a heavy wet sheen. Taking the moment of serenity to reflect on recent events, you let your head dip and slowly groom your chest.

Becoming deputy had not been what you had expected. You’d had less time to spend with Pigeonpaw and having to sneak out with Splitgaze was starting to wreck havoc on your sleeping pattern. But it was rewarding in its own sense. 

But what you’d give for a little break from dealing with the clans problems...

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Forgive me

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Fudge Princess keeping score

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(Closed) Bad ideas and stupid “children”

You sit outside the apprentice’s den, licking a forepaw and drawing it over your ears. You had come back from your first training session with Falconstep earlier today and now you groomed in peace. What a day! You think you’ve never felt so energized before. Clan life is much more exciting than being a kittypet.

With a sigh you look towards the fresh kill pile. You’re hungry, but you aren’t sure if you’re allowed to eat yet. Being in a clan sure is complicated, and you’re a bit overly worried about breaking any rules. Your stomach growls, but your nerves hold you back. You see a familiar thick coat enter camp through the entrance and you stand up and purr a greeting before making your way over.

“Hi Thistleruff,” you meow, your tail standing in greeting. “Are you busy? Do you wanna go do uh... Warrior stuff?” Your stomach screams with the voices of a thousand tormented souls, begging for mercy and redemption but only receiving misery and eternal suffering, their only solace is that they suffer not alone, but together. They writhe as one.

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thistle just helped fix mamba what the heck 

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Because Sky Battles that’s why

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And this is why scrambledcatz and I should be supervised at all times...

[scrambledcatz]

the best crack cocain there ever was

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Princess of betrayal Denied queen by her fate On her shoulder's lie another's mistakes An angel cast away while bitterness turned Who can blame her for wishing the kingdom to burn?

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varying degrees of relevance

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12, 3, 19, 18

So many things I didn’t know I needed in my life…