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Basics

I've been guilty of some pretty atrocious stuff during the course of my adult life. I believe I'm at a point now that I can say that while knowing those things and actions are squarely part of my past. I do what I can, when I can, to mitigate any actions of my past affecting those I care about or myself in the present. Often though the simple momentum of the past can impact folks today. Usually people completely unrelated to the infractions of yesterday. It's often difficult to find logic in this. To come to a conclusion which tempers the pain or anger. All too often I think we never know the victims of our actions. People are far too timid when it comes to confrontation of past transgressions to bring things into the light. It's human nature I suppose. I do know this. Throughout my life I've had the honor of being cared for by some amazing people. I've also had the privilege of loving some pretty spellbinding individuals. No matter the placement of guilt or aggression, if I've ever for one moment loved you in the past, I love you now. If I've shown you kindness, or if you've done the same for me, my appreciation for that transcends time, space, or malice. It's taken me almost 40 years to be able to get to the place I'm at now. And lord knows I have a million miles to go. Just know, i don't look back at my life and see a cascading waterfall of mistakes. I look back and see an ocean of lessons which have lead me to the place I am now. I realize my absence as of late. Not much longer now. The bandages of learning should be coming off soon. Sometimes I think it's necessary to simply sit back and see exactly how much of it has to burn before we start the process of rebuilding. More importantly, we have to understand why what is lost, was lost. And put in place the needed infrastructure to avoid it happening again. Not so much so it doesn't burn again, but that it doesn't burn for the same reasons. 

My basics of standing up and living well: 

 - I'll always be flawed.  - Love isn't a matter of condition or convenience  - If I have ever loved you, I always will - Always through eyes of forgiveness - When wounded, wait, healing will always come. - Don't rush recovery of any type - Be Grateful - Be Humble - Be Aware - Empathy is our greatest tool.

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