#this way adachi doesn't have to tie himself in knots trying to guess if kurosawa still loves him or not

[coquelicoq]

🍒 here again! (signing off with this now bc i'm lazy lol) - for me i can only do the long asks if i go off dashboard, if i use your ask box from your page then i still have the limited wordcount and can't send pictures or have paragraph breaks, and when i hit ask it refreshes my dash entirely like making a new post would.

that's a good point about specificity - maybe then it it is specifically for people who do feel isolated and inwardly focused, as kinda a push from the universe of "people have internal lives outside of your perception of them and they're generally a lot kinder to you than you are so maybe give yourself a break", like good luck trying to remain in your (in the nicest way possible) self-centred bubble if you're getting constant reinforcement from everyone around you that the universe keeps spinning regardless of what you do and nobody else is really inclined to think negatively of you unless they're just kinda a jerk by default.

also, i'm really curious as to what adachi's reaction would be to finding out just how long kurosawa had been pining for - on the one hand it must be nice that an innocuous incident from years ago was the tipping point rather than the magic, on the other hand seven years is such a long time (when my friend and i watched she was like "oh wow, seven years ago i was 17" and i was just like "...don't do this to me") and you can grow and change so much in seven years!! like that must be so overwhelming!

"good luck trying to remain in your (in the nicest way possible) self-centred bubble if you're getting constant reinforcement from everyone around you that the universe keeps spinning regardless of what you do and nobody else is really inclined to think negatively of you unless they're just kinda a jerk by default" YES EXACTLY! and also are you by chance my psychiatrist? because this is something she's saying to me constantly haha

i can't really get a read on tsuge, which is too bad because then i'd have two data points to work with instead of just one. but just from looking at adachi this rings very true. this is what social anxiety is! adachi does not have a therapist so i guess the universe saw fit to send him telepathic powers instead. that's one approach they never tell you about. maybe my insurance just doesn't cover it??

i agree that i think adachi would find it heartening that kurosawa fell for him before the magic, but seven years is a loooong time. by the time the show ends, adachi seems to have gotten more comfortable with kurosawa's intensity and effusiveness, so he's maybe more in the right headspace to receive some information that would have once alarmed or overwhelmed him. my guess is that ultimately he would find it comforting to know that even after all that time and change and growth, kurosawa's still interested in what he's putting out there. adachi has never been in a relationship and is insecure about a lot of things, so i think that would be something of a relief for him specifically. can't say that i would be having the same reaction in that situation (i'd probably be like, "cool story bro, but are you sure you're in love with me and not just the idea of me that you've constructed in your head over the last seven years of minimal interaction?"), but that's why no one is giving me telepathy and making a tv show about it.