#this was so cathartic wow

[ghastlyaffairs]

for something as trivial and simple those feelings sure are hard to get rid of

also made a gif a version for fun + alt version with no tears under the cut

the gif is in very low resolution...this is a feature (i could make it bigger but that would require saving each frame individually and than glueing it all together. also i feel like low resolution suits it better. aesthetically and fits the mood)

[moeblob]

And then she threatens to kill him if he doesn't man up and say that while looking her in the eye (and then he apologizes while looking at her in the eye because he cannot be directly rude).

[studentbyday]

the bleak mid-winter

src: celine

y'know what's really annoying? after a few days of social media detox, without a lot of time/energy for in-person socialization, eventually my brain craves what little social interaction it gets from social media. or maybe i'm just mistaking it for dopamine. who knows. and just bc it's social media, eventually what was a tool to keep me accountable and keep me from getting *too* lonely, becomes a source of procrastination and unhealthy comparison and ugh it's a double-edged sword, i freaking hate it.

anyway, i guess i'm back.

updates will be whenever i feel like it (possibly sporadic as i'm *trying* to get my shit together through non-social-media accountability measures) bc i stopped counting days on 100dop++ bc it was getting annoying to keep track.

true to my studying hermit lifestyle, nothing much of note happened since i've been away. still chugging along, reviewing notes/R from stats course (i have so many thoughts about self-studying R and codecademy vs other resources 😒 perhaps i'll make a post when i have time...) and catching up on both psyc and pharmacology while trying not to fall behind on philosophy. (i made good progress on psyc over the weekend, so i'm not super behind anymore, which is good. i expect to be able to finish catching up on everything by tmr.)

[reikunrei]

how i sleep at night knowing vecna’s demise will very likely be a tragedy we’re meant to mourn and will not, in fact, be a celebration

[blankflank-filly]

thinking abt that time a while back when i was hyperfixated on this like off-shoot community of the mlp fandom that was about these genetically modified pets/toys that resembled the ponies from mlp but were smaller and fatter and primarily focused on the graphic torture of said pets. what was up with that

[llycaons]

🔥 tgcf! im intrigued to know what u might have abt this

well vero I am home and I am so glad you asked because *pulls up a chair* hua cheng is a bad person and the failure of the story to genuinely reckon with that dramatically weakens it. he is a very good love interest - full of chemistry, exciting and mysterious, sexy and competent, with just a dash of insecurity that brings out people's protectiveness. he IS underdeveloped, and that's not controversial - I couldn't hope to improve upon the paragraphs upon paragraphs of speculation and complaints my lovely mutuals and others have committed to this very space. but that's not my argument here, as underdeveloped mxtx characters such as jyl are among some of my most cherished

MY argument is that hc is a shitty and unlikeable PERSON. and this isn't an objective fact, but it is my opinion and I don't think it's a very popular one. hc is constantly laser-focused on xl to the exclusion of other people, even other people in xl's life who love him and who he genuinely trusts. his grudge against mq (who had a MOTHER to care for! and the rice!) and fx (who xl TOLD to leave) comes off as petty and despicably immature. his virtues such as 'being a good mayor' are conveyed by word of mouth by the text and implied by the inhabitants of the city, but when he actually interacts with ghost people he treats them like shit- I distinctly remember jl bowing her head in gratitude and I don't think he even LOOKED at her. like. what an asshole!

and you can argue that's the point, he's supposed to seem like a bad boy and people are supposed to distrust him, and at least he DID give her shelter, but this isn't about him torturing qr (I respect it), or about him offering shelter to abused and murdered ghosts (his sole redeeming quality and even then arguably for profit) it's about him treating the people around him (including these ghost citizens he's apparently such a great leader for) like they don't matter, holding grudges against genuinely innocent people or people whose situation he didn't understand for eight HUNDRED years, summoning dancers just to treat them like set dressing and pointedly ignore them when xl shows up, and allowing fathers to trade their daughters' actual lives away, with the argument that 'they know what they're risking' NO THEY DO NOT!!!!THE FATHERS ARE TREATING THEIR DAUGHTERS LIKE TRADING GOODS!! the actual women whose lives will be lost have no place at this table! how the FUCK was this never followed up on? how was xl, legendary compassionate figure, so quick to overlook it? and for profit! for power! the story can put in all the little asides it wants about hc charmingly ruffling guzi's hair or that one time he sacrificed an eye to save a bunch of mortals (oh sure, big DEAL. 🙄) but his actual day-to-day actions tell the story of a man singularly obsessed with one person to the exclusion of literally everything else, who sacrifices and mocks and ignores and trades away and profits from every single other person in his life, given the right incentive.

I do enjoy him in a lot of scenes. I don't like most of the officials he insults, and I don't thnk mq or fx really need defending. the romance scenes are usually very good when he's an ADULT, he's very charming and funny and clever in a scandalous way that makes you giggle, I think he's hilarious and justified when he's taking revenge on the assholes in heaven. but look at how he treats everyone else! truly! fuck hua cheng, fuck his sad little story about losing an eye, fuck his insecurity complex, fuck his willingness to be a literal gangster of the ghost city in the absolute worst sense, and honestly? fuck the other characters for seeing all this and just thinking it's cool or sexy or whatever. this bitch is one of the WORST characters we're supposed to find fun and perfect I have ever read

[nialls-harmonica]

I feel like i haven’t made a pointless text post of some nonsense that pops into my head in quite a while… so hi guys, don’t worry, I’m still full of nonsense😙

[epersonae]

Leg hurty thoughts for the ask meme, if you haven't answered it already!

This is another one where all I have is a paragraph:

Shot. And first thought is, taking a long time to get him thrown over the side. Shot and then tossed overboard, faster than keelhauling at least. That's the last coherent thought for a while.

While I was laying waiting for surgery, full of Dilaudid and still in a lot of pain (at one point my stretcher got hit by a door accidentally, and WOW DID THAT HURT), I kept thinking about Jim and Archie getting ready to cut off Izzy's leg*, and then later thinking about the weird things your brain does in pain and on strong painkillers, and all the metas about Izzy's arc, and what feels like a gap there, and also how he's an unreliable narrator almost to the very end imho, and the whole thing gave me this (to me) insane urge to write Izzy POV. If I do it, I need it to be fucked up, I need him to be horrible and confused and wrong, or right for the wrong reasons. I honestly don't know if I'll write it, but this is sort of where I'm at with the idea:

* "definitely the fucked up one" kept going through my head every time someone checked in to make sure which leg they were operating on

[ceolocunt]

[creativenicocorner]

"I'm not a practicing furry, but I respect their beliefs" <- me talking to my furry sibling.

We had a really cool conversation about it! I've always been respectfully curious, and wondered if there was like a deep thought process behind choosing an animal. And for them, it was, "a quick, gut, snap decision"

So after thinking, "man it always seemed cool to consider what weird beast I'd be," I decided to play in the sandbox!

Predictably, I was indecisive haha. My thought process was...what animals are skittish, weird, and super macabre? Hence the hare, and two known scavengers✧˖°☆

[apheliia]

im eating it nom nom nom

i just woke up btw and it was the first thing i saw

LMAOOO I AM SO GLAD MY TERRIBLE HORRIBLE ANGST WAS THE FIRST THING YOU SAW HELPDJDKDGJF so glad i could be the first post you saw 🫶🫶🫶🫶

[broodygaming]

Knowing that Laura does the thumbnails just makes them that much more fun to look at and think about. <3

[b-blushes]

woke up in such a struggling mood and kicked myself through the day also in struggling style and felt on and on very alternate version of that rhyme which i'm rewriting as 'going to bed, having to rise, leaves a man so fucked up he dies' BUT for some reason the way i can endure a day in which my vibes are so wretched rancid rotten is to listen to the music i was listening to when i was in college (?!) and do some kind of involved but NOT challenging-to-the-point-of-frustrating task and through this magic ritual i have made it to the evening victorious. let's have a saturday at least three thousand times better than this

[karebear923]

OH MY GOD I’M CRYING IN THIS DUNKIN’ PARKING LOT!!!

No seriously, I’m openly sobbing!!!

I’ll admit I had my highs and lows with 1000 years old, but my god that ending!?!?!? I’m actually so emotional about it!!!

I literally just calmed down enough to type this so let’s see if I make any sense. At first I was upset that Yoh just ran out of there and didn’t try to stop the wedding! But thinking back on it of course that’s how he is and I shouldn’t have expected him to make a scene.

And in a way it’s better that Janja let Pun go and there’s no more fighting between her and Yoh.

I did however like that Yoh was the one to go to Pun and try to get him back. I would’ve hated it if Pun chased him again so I’m glad for that. He did put in some effort after all so they could be together.

What has me crying is when I saw that Yoh was old at the end and he died next to Pun and Pun promised that they’d always be together in every life!!! And all the flashbacks to all their previous times together!!! Like I knew that’s what was happening but it still took me by surprise to see the scene play out!! I literally screamed “NOOO!!!” and the floodgates just opened!!! 😭

And Pun’s gonna die in 20 years so this was the last time he and Yoh were together. Unless Pun reincarnates too, not sure. But I’d like to think they both pass on to the afterlife together.

The ghost didn’t really have a storyline but I’m glad they were able to help her pass into the afterlife in the end. And I like how they tied up other loose ends too.

I’m sure I’ll be back later with more to say once I think on it more but actually I really overall enjoyed this show despite how frustrating Yoh could be at times. That ending was worth it lol.

Now to gather myself, finish my bagel, and drive to work. It’s all I’ll be thinking about tonight 😭

[daeluin]

i've seen the datamined stuff in wowhead but i still broke down and cried when i started going around bel'ameth

[pinolitas]

I'm having such a spiraling night about how middle school/elementary made me feel.

like I had such blind hatred for every troublemaker and loud kid but the reason there was so many of those was clearly because they're in a low income community and going through shit at home and even without knowing that myself as a kid I never reacted beyond daydreaming ripping those kids' heads off. so then why did the teachers who are whole ass adults that can rationalize this fact about something else being the issue with the troublemakers why did they choose to humiliate kids in class and berate them for struggling like why why why I was a whole child holding back lashing out at these kids because I know that it's not right to blow up at people like that but these adults who have power over us chose to make things worse instead of helping. straight up being an asshole must have made learning so much less enjoyable for these kids.

anyways I hated that school originally for the same reasons the teachers did but I know now that I was wrong for that and at least I had no lasting impact on peoples' academic career as a result of my childish personal feelings