#this was so all over the place but em ily <333 thank you for asking

[hangingoffence]

so many questions i have, but i wanna ask about the oc in that unknown soldier piece ur published! who is he? any strong ideas of his character/plot or is he more of a vague oc for drawing purposes? also, any oc uve made for entirely self-indulgent reasons? not for a story or specific idea just 'it would be so cool'/'theyre just like me' kind of motivations

<333 MWUAH MWUAH

His name is Patrick and he exists in the same bubble as Michael and Ronnie.

They all do have backstories but they don't really have like a coherent plotline or a story with a message. They all represent different things. They all have a long long history of being different characters and changing and growing as i grew. There are different iterations of them and these "newest" ones mostly represent my own struggles with adulthood and also they represent my want for male friendships bc ive never really had that.

Patrick form all the three might be the one that I myself relate to the most and the one i project myself most to. He's my fav even if I like almost never draw him <333

Patrick is very quiet and non confrontational. He goes with the flow and doesn't really stick out. He doesn't voice out his thoughts that much and usually gets along with anyone. He's like that one kid in school that you see all the time but don't really know anything about.

He lives with his mother and his step-father. When he was about 12 years old his father died in a car accident, which left his mother depressed and vulnerable. (there's this scene that im debating over where a few weeks after his father's death, Patrick's walking home and see what he thinks is his father at their house's window. He runs in and sees a figure for a second before it disappears. this is just me consuming paranormal content thought lol) His baseball cap was originally his fathers.

When his step-father came into their lives, it was more of Patrick's mother needing a person her age to lean onto and that man taking an advantage of that situation. From the start Patrick and his step-father did not get along. Or more like his step-father did not like him. He became very verbally and physically abusive towards Patrick.

During his teenage years he started drinking which slowly it developed into alcoholism. He also got addicted to painkillers because of his constant headaches. After he turned 18 he immediately left his childhood home and moved to his own apartment in another city. His addictions got even worse when he lived on his own. Though he was able to hold a job, he still found himself being drunk rather than sober.

The main shtick is his struggle with addiction and more directly alcoholism(theres a direct link to finnish alcohol culture in him bc of my background but i wont get into it now). And i like to explore it from Ronnie's perspective. In their 20s they reconnected after having a falling out in high school and Ronnie witnessed first hand the brutal grip that the addiction had on his friend. And knowing that he truly can't do anything unless Patrick himself wants to get better (bc thats the way with addicts they will never recover if they don't want it themselves. you cant force them to quit bc they will go back). Eventually he lost his job and needed to get help from the goverment to survive and to pay his bills and have food. Ronnie at first helped him out finacially but then he realized it's just enabling Patrick's addiction bc all that money he got was spent on alcohol, so he stopped that. But still gave him emotional support but refused to help him out financially.

Through years and years of struggle and after many stern talks with Ronnie, Patrick started to realise his own illness. He saw how bad his health was and how alcohol had fucked him up in every level, he started a recovery journey.

After he got out of the chains he returned back to his hometown and to see his mom. But he was greeted by his childhood home turned into a dumpster. His step-father had left his mother years ago and she was left to take care of herself alone. She had started hoarding due to the stress and depression and had developed early signs of alzheimers. Patrick took her to a hospital and got her some treatment. He struggled with his own guilt of leaving her and letting her get to that stage.

Also he's like the one oc that fears every time i look at them bc they know they will go through some shit

[quiffscurls]

18/20 tag

im sorry im v late to do it but had to do it to em lol (also thanks to @solarphilstem for tagging me in it!! ily <333)

1. Nickname?

my name is the shortest u could make it so mostly everyone just calls me neha, my dad calls me nehu but thats it,,

2. Gender?

female!

3.Star Sign?

im a virgooo (i had jennas voice in my head while writing that 😂 that women <33)

4. Height?

im 4’11”. yes i know thats v short. i dont like it either but yk,,

5. Fav feauture?

my eyes probably because theyre v big and most people compliment me for it (also babies always try poking my eyes coz its the biggest part of my face lmao babies are v cute aw)

6. Fav colour?

this is something i have an Actual correct answer to,, a few days back i was really upset because i didnt have an i spent a day finding out what my fav colour was and i have come to the conclusion tht its this greeny blue,, i wonder why 🧐

7. Fav animal?

i dont really have one but i will say,, bunnies are Good because i had them as pets for about a year nd even though they’re stinky asf,, theyre v nice and loving <33

8. Hours spent sleeping?

way too many. if u let me i can probably sleep for about 13 hours (ive done it before lol) now since i have to travel alot for college i dont get much sleep but other wise GOD DO I LOVE SLEEPING

9. Dogs or cats?

DOGS OFC

10. Number of blankets?

just one. with the softest duvet and the ac at max, total darkness and silence,, Heaven.

11. Dream trip?

nothing specific but i really wanna take a lot of nature related trips around the world because the green soothes my eyes and i love it so much,, i also really wanna stargaze on a beach... little fact: i have this article bookmarked from the past 3-4 years titled with the Best stargazing points from all over the world and i really wanna visit Atleast one of them,, if not all :))))

12. How many following?

122 !

13. How many pets?

i’ve had bunnies and cat (not technically as our neighbor took care of her too) but i Really want a doggo but my mom is scared of them so :((

14. Best places to visit in your town/country?

mumbaii!!! theres many places u could visit when u come to india but mumbai is a must,, and even though its v crowded.. the food and architectural designs of the buliding plus the shopping places!! its amazing! also as india is one of the major cuisines in the world,,trying out street food right from its core is always fun :))

15. Ice cream flavor?

anything with chocolate in it!

16. How often do you read?

WAY TOO MUCH. my mum hides my books sometimes so i eat and shit lmao

17. Fav place to study?

i keep changing places in hopes to not get bored of the same place,, but yeah the balcony, my study table and the dining table!

18. Fav book series?

i dont have a favourite,, how dare u ask me this (theres many im sorry)

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(these are the first few people that came up in list and if someone else wants to do it,, you can do it too and tag me !!! i’d love reading it!!)

WHOEVER REACHED THE END, THANKS FOR READING THIS LY <3