#this was really for me to cleanse myself 🤭

[kaizokuniichan]

Grey Sweatpants

Pairing: Roronoa Zoro/Afab reader (no pronouns mentioned. I don’t think)

Summary: Grey sweatpants are literally never mentioned here but it was the first thing I could think of because you know it’s something that Zoro would always wear. Anyways, you and Zoro fuck on the couch. That’s it.

Barely edited, just been desperately needing Zoro so here.

As always, MDNI; 18+ readers please

You’d been aching for Zoro all day, and you didn’t know what to do. He loved having his space and you didn’t want to smother him, but you were throbbing and you needed to be under his skin.

He sat on the couch, the glow of the tv illuminating him in a blue-tinted hue. As you walked up behind him you bent down, snaking your arms around his shoulders and pulling him back to your chest. His hand reached up to squeeze your arm and you placed your lips to the space below his ear.

“What is it,” he grumbled, running his thumb along the underside of your arm.

“Nothing,” your voice muffled into his pulse.

“Come here,” he sighed, signaling for you to join him with a tug on your arm.

As you walked around the couch he shifted onto his back, inviting you to lay on top of him. You settled onto his lap, pressing your chest atop his and slipping your hands beneath the pillow behind his head. His hands came down to rest on your hips, dragging his fingers up and down your sides.

“If you were this much in heat you should’ve just come to me sooner,” he teased, slipping his hands beneath the waistband of your leggings to grip your ass beneath your panties. A light moan ignited in your chest from the feel of his warm hands groping you, and you felt him twitch against your core.

“I was trying to give you your space,” you shuddered, the grinding of your hips involuntary.

“Yeah well, you’re also not really being discreet when you’re undressing me with your eyes.”

“Can’t help it,” you whined, dragging out the end of the word, “you’re barely dressed as it is and I need you. Only you can fix it.”

“Yeah?” He smirked as he squeezed your ass tighter.

“Yeah,” came another childish whine, followed by a pout.

He dug his fingers deeper into your plushness, throbbing in his sweats as you wiggled against him. Without warning he wrapped his arms around your middle and flipped you over, swapping places to hover over you. He reached down into his pants to pull himself free—half-hard and leaking pearly liquid.

“If you wanted it that badly all you had to do was ask.”

“I hate letting you think you have all of this power over me,” you muttered, swatting his hands away to replace them with your own. As composed as he tried to appear his hips bucked of their own accord into your tightened fist.

“You make it too easy when you beg like this.”

“I haven’t begged for anything,” you scoffed, but your hands were already pumping him faster.

“You’re always begging for it,” he smirked against your lips, grunting as your thumb swirled pre-cum around the head.

“Well fine if you’re not gonna give it to me-“

“I’m gonna give it to, just be patient.”

He took your hand off his dick and sat up to tug your tights down to your knees. Neither of you were in the mood to get fully naked—you forgoing the need to even remove your shirt. Luckily his was already off.

He swiped his finger along your folds, already leaking down your legs and onto the couch. You whimpered as he slipped two fingers inside, and he rushed to bend down and slip his tongue into your mouth.

“You’re always so ready for me,” he groaned, biting your lip harshly.

“I’m always wanting you,” you gasped as he quickly shoved a third finger into your pussy. You tried to open your legs wider but your tights were still rolled down around your knees. “Zoro I need you so badly.”

“I know baby,” he sighed against your lips, lining himself up with your wetness. “You’ve been so good all day so I’m gonna give it to you.”

Without anymore words he shoved himself inside, holding himself in place to allow you to adjust. Every time you fucked Zoro it felt like the first time. He always filled you fuller than you’d ever been, reaching deep into the softness of your walls and feeling every ridge and vein as he throbbed inside you. He slid his hand down to grip your thigh, thrusting forward with a heavy groan.

“Fuck, keep me inside just like that,” he grunted as you clenched and squeezed him tighter. Whimpering into his mouth, your kisses turned messy as your tongues wound around each other. Your mind was a foggy haze of nothing but Zoro. His earrings swinging with each thrust, the weight of his solid chest covering yours, his gravely voice spilling curses in your ears. You felt your sanity slip, digging your nails into his back and bucking wildly up into him as he fucked you.

“God Zoro...fuck it’s so deep.”

“Take it, it’s yours,” he huffed, grasping the pillow behind your head to give himself leverage. The sounds of the couch cushions squeaking paired with the slaps of skin from your hips connecting—it was everything you needed and craved. Overcome with want you wound your arms around his neck and crushed him to your chest with so much force that his arms buckled. You threw your head back and cried as he sucked and bit at your neck, still slamming into you.

“You gonna cum for me?” He panted, thrusts growing sloppy as he tried to hold himself together when you gave a particularly needy moan.

“I wanna cum Zoro, I wanna cum so badly.”

He brought his hand between your bodies, circling a finger around your clit. Your pussy was a mess, leaking and swollen as his balls smacked against it. There would definitely be a wet patch dampening the couch when you both were done.

You burrowed you head into his neck and rode out the building pressure, letting whatever sounds escape you as your mouth hung open. His finger swirled faster and you felt yourself tighten, so close that it felt like time had stopped. You climbed and climbed and climbed. And when it finally snapped you came, the force of it punching you in the chest as your legs shook and your toes curled.

Zoro became weakened by your walls fluttering and convulsing around him and he spilled moments later, growling into your neck and thrusting shallowly as he tried to extend your release. Eventually you both came to and he pulled out, a trail of his cum and your juices painting the couch. Lifting himself back up, he grabbed his nearby shirt in a half-hearted attempt to wipe up the mess, and tossed it aside moments later to nip at your lip. You littered kisses along his jaw and cheeks, licking at the sweat on his skin. He finally lifted his head to give you another kiss, smiling as you hummed in satisfaction.

“Was that good for you?”

“So good. Thank you baby.”

Placing a kiss on your forehead he scooted back down to lay his head on your chest, and your fingers idly petted his hair. Un-pausing the tv, you continued on with your movie, the heavy blanket of sex and lust slowly lifting away.

[snow-blower]

Dont get me wrong I love myself some pegging but have you got any fluffy SFW thoughts to cleanse the soul?

Well, we've had cuddling by the fire, but that's a bit of a cliche....

How about stealing the Starks cloaks?? It was just so cold when you woke up and they had left it behind it's their own fault really. So, you took it, placed it over your shoulders and came to the realisation you never want to take it off again. Why would you? Their scent lingers on the fabric and furs, and it's so damn warm.

You're worried they'd be annoyed at you for taking it, but how could they ever be mad at you? Especially when you look so adorable in their cloak?? The fabric literally dwarfs you and you look so small and cute.

Bonus points if we're talking about Agere!reader who immediately feels smaller and content in the big cloak and wears it to help them feel little 🤭

[sebsxphia]

Sebbie I just had the WEIRDEST thought ever that I wanted to share with you and when I say it's weird, I mean it's WEIRD.

You, Rhett and Amy have just bought a new house in a tiny little town well away from Wabang, in order to protect Amy from Perry (you and Rhett took her from birth and adopted her as your own, but Perry was such an asshole to the point where Royal told you guys that moving would be the best option while he dealt with Perry). You and Rhett are doing really well for yourselves, opening up a little general store while Rhett is also an assistant pastor at the local church who helps counsel alot of high school kids, people that have special needs and disabled veterans etc.

It's not long before some strange events begin to unfold. The original pastor of the church decides to retire and leave the parish to Rhett while one day, a family friend shows up to your house with two Dalmatians, a male and a female and it's very, very plain that these two are more than what they seem. They literally will not let Amy out of their sight or you, no matter where you go and they insist on sleeping in your room.

It's not long after their arrival that some really, really weird things begin happening. Rhett's not much of a skeptic, but when Amy starts having some really, really intense nightmares and starts seeing and hearing things at night, all doubts go out the window pretty quickly. The two dogs start growling and barking at night, always after the midnight hour and it's not long before you and Rhett start seeing and hearing things. For a while, the activity isn't as intense, but one night, Rhett sees something trying to go after Amy, but it flees the minute Pongo, the male Dalmatian, starts barking and growling.

The activity seriously begins picking up in the house, but Rhett doesn't let anybody else in the congregation know. Outwardly, he's still the same pastor they know and love, listening to him deliver one hell of a sermon, but towards the back, his old mentor and the former pastor, can clearly see in Rhett's face that something is going on.

You and Rhett both decide to do your own research on the house and learn that you're not the first people that have been haunted. Six other couples who had bought the place in the house hadn't stayed long either due to the activity. It even gets to the point where you and Rhett purchase a pair of tags for the dogs in the shape of a Celtic cross.

Rhett knows he has to do something and quick in order to ensure that you and Amy are protected. He works with Jim, the church's old pastor as well as two other people who are really renowned spirit healers, in order to cleanse the house. He has you and Amy stay with a family friend but the dogs will not leave his side through the whole thing. As Rhett, Jim and the others cleanse the house and it gets more intense, Rhett suddenly finds himself having a vision of two figures, a male and a female, in full black and yellow firefighter gear with a huge, glowing white light behind them and it's only then that he realizes that the two human figures are none other than your dogs, Pongo and Perdita.

Even though the house is clean and there hasn't been any activity in months, you and Rhett are definitely not comfortable staying there anymore and you move to your big timberframe that was being built in the more rural part of town. Rhett has a talk with Jim about what he had seen and the pastor doesn't doubt him one little bit. He says, to slightly quote Luna Lovegood, "You know Rhett? It's funny......often the things we've forgotten, find their way back to us in some form or another, even if it's in a way we don't expect."

Sebbie, I apologize, I was gonna save this for when Spooky Season rolls around again, but I couldn't help myself (lol).

OOOOOOHH I LOVE THISSS! and please don’t worry either my love! spooky season or not, i love spooky stuff like this all year round 🤭 i loved the end line too! thank you so much for sending this to me my love! 🥹💌

[yagamisdiary]

I have a love hate relationship with the fact that you enjoy making us suffer throughout the entirety of your books and making us think they will have a bad ending just to give us the best possible endings ever 🥲 ugh i love you so much youre my favorite author ever, while im here i apologize for the incoming paragraphs but i just need to say it:

1. Idk how you do it but the book covers you choose are always so perfect like?? Idk if im explaining myself but i feel like they capture the vibes of the books perfectly

2. Ok now this is kinda personal and i dont mean to sound like im venting, but have you ever read a fic that impacted you so much to the point where you find yourself still thinking about it to this day 😭 bc that's how i feel about both of ur books, they're so beautifully written and i'm always thinking about the characters or going back to read random parts of the books (edit: i had this paragraph written way before parasite was removed okay but i started rereading eldia yesterday because im truly heartbroken, devastated, downcast, miserable, dejected and inconsolable by the fact that its finished)

I discovered you in july-ish 2021 during parasite era but didnt actually read it until june 2022, i was devastated when i finished it but also had to cleanse my soul cause i accidentally burnt my self out during the last few chapters (i mean it in a good way lol, it was rlly hard to read the last 2 chapters 🙇‍♀️ they were written really well and i felt unsettled while reading the beginning of y/ns whole breakdown, i could feel the gloomy depressed vibe it had if you get what i mean), so anyway i moved on to Eldia. At that time, it was fairly new so there were only like 10 or 11 chapters, ive been keeping up with Eldia ever since and its truly bittersweet to see it end like i was literally full on sobbing for no reason 🥲 probably the sentiment of being a reader for 2 years idk lol. Anyway what im trying to say is that your books were one of the only things that helped me escape reality in 2022, i didnt really find joy in anything and hated my life, however ive definitely improved ever since, so im honestly rlly thankful for you Amara 💕

Edit: i just know it sounds stupid and youre probably tired of hearing the same thing over and over, but i've had this written out for like 5 months and was kinda scared to send it because i felt like it was corny, but with Eldia's resolution i felt encouraged seeing all these people tell you what they think :P so sorry for the long ass paragraph lmao, i just needed to say it because i know in 10 years ill be a grown ass woman and still thinking about these books, theyre attached to my brain forever (like a parasite, ironic)

Ok so i doubt ppl will read this (or that you'll even read all of it) so if you reached the end i must say that you actually ate with the baby names in Eldia 🤭 im saying it here to avoid accidentally spoiling anyone but Andromeda 😪 i remember in early july i sent you an anon ask saying that i pictured you as a girl mom and even listed a few names, i was gonna list Andromeda so its kinda funny to me 😭 and Elrose?? Andromeda is my fav name but Elrose grew on me and i actually rlly like it, idk why it just sounds and looks so satisfying OMG DAMN I JUST SCROLLED UP AND DID I REALLY WRITE ALL OF THAT?? IM SO SORRY AMARA 😭😭 i definitely had way more to say but i feel bad now, it was gonna be an anonymous ask but atp i'll just let it be public

to conclude i must say that whenever someone asks me what my favorite books are, i hate that im not able to say "Oh my favorite books are parasite and eldia" because they're considered fanfics and not 'real books', i think thats really stupid, not only because fanfiction is just as valid as what ppl consider 'real books' but because there are so many fanfictions turned into real books or movies?? Ok im done (for now) but as you can tell im not really good at going straight to the point sorry for writing about 10 paragraphs love you queen vivan las escritoras latinas 🤞

1. honestly i find a pic that fits the vibe i want the book to give before i even write the story then i just somehow find a way to incorporate the cover

ex) eldia’s cover is jean with wine all over him, iykyk there’s an exact scene in eldia that references the cover

2. thank u so much 🥲 the ppl who have stuck around the longest always say the most sweet stuff bc yall really have been alongside me for so many years now and were like growing together which is kinda cool

3. i wanted a name that had ambrose and elijah both in it and it was either elrose or embrose but i ended up liking elrose more, embrose was too similar to ambrose

4. i don’t mind the length of the message at all! i love love love reading all the stuff i receive and the ones that are the longest stick with me the most. 🫶🏼

[lovebvni]

hey!! shiv here!! you’re so spot on it’s scary really!! i feel like you tapped into my brain for the reading. Let’s break this down!!

1. just be is my motto. When everything fails, i just fall back to this. Nothing to get, nothing to do. Just be. Never fails me. So i’m happy to know i’m on the right path🥹

2. i want my void to be pink in colour🤭 and i have been feeling really good while doing pysch-k?? helps me accept the fact entirely that i’ll enter/wake up in the void.

3. I keep myself entertained lol!!! before i attempt to tap in the void i listen to a bunch of songs to feel light and brush off the nerves and thoughts! sometimes i even like to imagine myself safe cuddled up in bed lol (can u tell i’m deprived of physical touch lol)

4. I’m really shocked how you could see the childhood aspect too cause my earliest memory of my life is my parents fighting and my mom being really upset and i remember the helpless feeling lingering on (cause she’d just look at me and cry when i’d ask her what’s wrong) when i enter the void, i’m not saying i want the perfect parents but just parents that are sort of easy to be around. I really am not my actual self around them. I’m always holding my breath around them. I have accepted the fact that i’m not gonna be one of those kids that have a close and emotionally safe connection w their parents. It’s okay. I just don’t want to feel the need like i’m constantly walking on eggshells around them and my mom to be more independent. These are the tweaks i think you were referring to? i wasn’t thinking about this aspect a lot but i guess during the day, i still have this thought at the back of my mind and maybe that’s why you picked it up?

ALSO TRIGGER WARNING: SA!!

idk if it was this but i was assaulted as a child by one of the family members and i was in two minds if i should revise it! i was bitter for soooo long. Hated men, i even stopped listening to male artists for a while. (it’s so weird but the aftermath of what happened to me as a child is showing up now as an adult) but i am done w all of that. I have made my peace with it and as much as i hate how cliche this is gonna sound but the kind of person i have turned out to be, i wouldn’t want to change it just to be “perfect” so i won’t be revising it. I’m sorry if this upset you or anyone.

I hope i can enter the void soon and share my success story with you (please send good energy my way lol, it’s just the thought that counts really🤭🫶🏼)

Big big love to anyone and everyone reading this and going through just about anything in life. If it’s great then i only hope it’s greater for you and if it’s going absolutely shite then i hope it gets less shittier by the second.

and lastly, i think you are really really good! i would love to support your work (when i can afford it) for real! i have never had such a crazy accurate reading before. So thank you🥹 Hope you’re doing good!!!

hii shiv!!! i’m soooo happy ur reading was accurate n resonated a lot!!

when i first typed the word ‘void’ i saw it as a purple colour, vende why it’s purple in ur reading, then as i went on, the more i thought, he more pink it became. i’m pretty sure i got a visual of it too — it’s so pretty <3 like seriously, if u see me in ur void, im just looking!!!

and with ur sa, there may be something you’re still holding onto with that, or some cleansing that should to be done in ur sacral chakra. as someone who went through something similar, literally js imagining good sexual experiences with someone u love helps…. like a lot 😭😭

and i’m always sending positive energy to everyone i get readings too!! i trust n believe u will enter the void soon and it’s gonna be HELLA fun for u <3 i love u sm!!! have fun!! <3

[oraclekleo]

Hi Kleo! Happy new year! 🥰🥂

I have a technical question for you 👀

So, a close friend gave me a tarot deck. This was her first deck, a traditional Rider-Waite, and she told me to use it to learn the card meanings and familiarise myself with handling a deck.

So, I wanted to ask, considering this is a pre-owned deck, should I use it to practice? If so, what should I do before using it? "Cleansing" is the first thing that comes to mind, but how should I do that?

Thank you so much in advance, I can't wait to start practicing 👏🏻

Hello!

Pre-used decks are perfectly fine to use, many decks can be passed in family so this is alright.

Honestly, every cleansing or ritual is voluntary. If you feel like you should do it, do it. There are several methods how to cleanse deck.

You can simply shuffle it or put the cards in right order (like starting with 0 The Fool, continue with I, II, III, IV, etc, then sorting the minor arcana suits from Aces to Tens and from Pages to King) and then shuffle again.

You can burn an incense stick or scented candle while doing so.

You can blow at the deck (blowing away old energies) and knock on it 3 times (I don't remember what this is supposed to do, sorry).

You can put a crystal (usually clear quartz) on your deck to cleanse and charge it.

You can make a circle around it with salt (kitchen salt is enough).

You can have it cleansed by moonlight or sunlight if you leave it on the window for a while.

You pray over the deck, wishing for it to shad the old energies and bind with you.

There are hundreds of methods, to be honest.

The important thing is, to believe in the effectivity. So if some method sounds ridiculous to you and you still do it, it's not very likely to work because this whole thing stands and falls with the belief.

Personally, when I get a new deck, I go through the cards, I shuffle the deck properly while talking to it and introducing it to its new owner (me) and then I do an interview with the deck when I ask it:

What's your general vibe?

What kind of reading do you like the best?

How can we collaborate the best?

What do you think about me as a tarot reader?

What is a first message you have for me?

Fun fact: One of my recent decks gave me a Devil card for #4 😂 We had so much fun ever since, though. 😁

That's my way but, really, do what you feel fit. You can meditate and visualize cleansing the deck while holding it in your hands. You can cleanse it with music or dance. You can do literally anything, as long as you have the cleansing intention and you believe the activity will help the deck to get rid off the old energies and even an old bond with the previous owner so it can build a bond with you.

I wish you all the best for you and your deck. Remember that tarot is personal thing. Nobody can tell you what you should or shouldn't do. You have every right to explore and find your own path, no matter how unorthdox it might seem. 😊

And whenever you want to talk to a very benevolent and liberal tarot reader, I'm here for you. For chit chat, for advise, for brainstorming, practice, anything. 💖

I hope I helped a tiny bit even when I'm not an expert on spiritual cleansing. 🤭

Kleo

[potato-jem]

oh that would have sucked, but i probably would have done that too, just to get it out of the way. he looked really tired when he was here (long story short: my friend works in security at a hotel and he was telling me about how all the fangirls were there for his car when they were clearly there for harry), so i can’t imagine how tired he must be now because he was here AGES ago… FAN PROJECTS ARE MY FAVOURITE THING!!! they are so heartfelt and just give me all the feels 🥺🥺 those videos must be so precious, i hope you have them downloaded onto every device you have and have eight backups 😂😂 that must have been so special to have harry styles speak to you in italian 🤭🤭

i need to have two months break after a day’s worth of activities 😂😂 i cannot imagine how tired he is

i had to pay $120 for a jumper one time 😭 (not really because my friend was too lazy to get me a bday gift so he bought my merch 🤪🤪) australian merch prices are CRAZY! i spent $100 on my two rina shirts, and i think i spent $70 on a t-shirt each at my kpop concerts (fuck kpop entertainment companies I HATE THEM) i mean concert tees are all i wear, but there is no reason for it to be THAT expensive

no, i didn’t :) i was too excited for the heartstopper trailer AND for my appointment, which was MY FIRST TATTOO! I FINALLY DID IT!! cece, i am now addicted. i understand why you get a tattoo every two weeks 😂😂 but i got dixie tattooed on me forever 🥺🥺

i am so fucking excited for tomorrow! i will be at work, so i have to wait for four hours before i can finally go home and watch it, but the paris gang is coming back!!!!

i knew i was forgetting to do something… i will send it soon 😂😂😂

we literally never should speak about buying things ever again, because we end up influencing the other to somehow buy MORE 😂😂

<333

i think it would be really good for you!!! if i end up going to london pride, i’ll be staying an extra month to travel around, so if you need company i’m your guy ;) but in all seriousness, maybe doing some work experience in ireland or somewhere entirely new might help you out a lot. ireland is familiar to you and a place that holds a lot of good memories, so maybe going there for a few weeks might cleanse your mind a little :) like you said, you have a year to save and decide

it would be so fun!!!!

indeed, why are we like this cece? 😂😂

it was really good!! i need more movie nights to myself 🥺🥺

they ARE delicious!!! i haven’t had them in ages, i might go out and buy some! snuggling into this blanket fort with two cups of tea <333

hello nero my beloved soulmate!!!

i have pride stories!!! i went to pride this saturday and it was so much fun i need to tell you all about it!!!

well first of all i really hate that i had to work in the morning because it made me so tired and it was the first weekend of sales so yea, not fun. but anyway, my friend picked me up at 3pm and we got to florence. we had to park pretty far from the meeting point and then take a bus, and it was amazing because we were totally lost looking for that bus and at some point we see a bus full of people with rainbow flags, glitter, signs, flower crowns, rainbow stickers and temporary tattoos and all of that. and we just went in, no questions asked. we just figured we’d follow them out of the bus too 😂 i love our people honestly. we were so colorful

anyway we got to the meeting point and it was deadly hot. i swear there were like 45 degrees. but it was so amazing to be around all of those people dressed in all colors and wearing all sorts of things we’d usually be judged for, it felt so safe. except that there was a religious protestor so we got to give him the finger like the heartstopper cast did :)

also my sister came with me. she’s always so supportive and it meant the world that she came with me. anyway the parade started and there were some amazing floats. there were rainbow families, drag queens, all the lgbtqia+ associations from our territory and we started walking behind this float that had amazing music, so we started dancing and singing and it was so much fun!!! we got to talking with some people, there were some amazing signs that were just perfect and i had to go there and tell them how much i loved them :) it was just so fun, i loved meeting random people and it was just the perfect environment. at night there was also a dj set and a band singing to keep the show going!!

then when we were walking back to the bus stop at night we got the whiplash of not being surrounded by queer people anymore. we got catcalled like fifteen times in the span of three minutes. i kinda wanted to punch everyone because we had such a perfect day and i hated that we had to go back to the real world where people are shit 🥲

but still i got so many amazing memories and now all i want to do is book a flight to london for next year and have you come with me so we can celebrate together and see the heartstopper cast!!!!

also, i got a new tattoo yesterday!! and i actually had red white and royal blue with me to distract me so i almost finished the book again and cried in from of my tattoo artist lol it took me the whole day again and it was so painful but so worth it!!! i got medusa on my leg 😻

also, as to our previous letter i just wanted to say that of course i believed in you!!!! i knew you could do it!! but i can definitely believe you had to close your eyes to open that message 😂 getting grades back is always so stressful!! now manifesting a spot for the exchange 🕯️🕯️🕯️ i really hope you get it!!! it’s an amazing experience, you’d definitely love it!!!

and i’m really glad you found someone who specialises in what you need. it can take a while to find the right therapist but i hope this one works out!!

(i’m also writing down sydney and melbourne for when i’m rich enough to visit 😂 i literally booked a flight for august and my bank account kinda yelled at me to stop spending money i don’t have lol)

anyways i’m really sorry i’ve been away for so long, i had a crazy week between the beginning of seasonal sales, pride and the tattoo appointment. i kinda didn’t have time to do anything 🥲

i’m giving you a hug and some homemade chocolate chip cookies with biscoff cream on top <33

hello cece my beloved soulmate!!!!

oh my god i've been so excited to hear about this!!!

that sucks you had to go to work, boo!!! but at least you were off early enough to still go to pride!!!! and how cool that you got to share the experience of going on the bus with all the queer people!! i bet there was no straight and/or cis people on that bus 😂😂😂 just follow the rainbow!!

hot days are the worst, but pride would have made it so much better. i would not be focused on how sweaty i was or the temperature with the amount of queer joy happening around me! it's so wonderful that in a parade full of people and colour that you were able to feel so incredibly safe, and it would have been such an intimate moment for you! and fuck that religious protestor, i'm so glad you gave him the finger. the heartstopper cast would be so proud of you :')

oh that warms my heart that your sister came!!! that was so nice of her to come with you!! the floats sound amazing, and the singing and dancing!!! i am feeling some of the joy through my screen!! seriously, cece, this sounds like the most incredible time. i want to cry just thinking about you having so much fun with your friend and your sister, celebrating your queerness and talking to new people and singing and dancing like there's no one else around 🥲🥲🥲

the trip home must have been so dull in comparison! and how dare those people catcall you, i hope you gave them the same treatment as that religious protestor because seriously what the fuck.

the only thing that matters now is that you had a safe and wonderful time at pride and you can cherish those memories for the rest of your life! and yes, we must do it!! i will literally stay for an extra month just to go to pride in london with you <3

oh my god yay!!! i bet the medusa tattoo looks so cool! and yes reading rwrb while getting tattooed is properly not your best idea, but i'm already rereading rwrb any chance i get to annotate it fully before the movie so i can't say much 😂

okay, cece, i must let you know, because i said to myself i would let you know as soon as i could. but this morning, i woke up (quite late actually). i checked my watch for my notifications. i see an email waiting for me. i die a little inside realising it is from the exchange team at my university. i run out to grab my phone from where i charge it. i speed past my mum. i unlock my phone. i open my email and click on the newest one. and.... I GOT A SPOT EARLY!!! AT MY FIRST UNIVERSITY TOO!!!! CAN YOU BELIEVE IT??? i'm still in so much shock and i thank you for your manifesting and belief in me!!! oh my god i have so much to do before then (mostly saving money ngl 😂) but oh my god cece, i'm going to england for exchange!!!!!!

me too!! i just need to find the time to get a referral, so i can go and see them!!

(literally sydney and melbourne are lowkey expensive, but it is totally worth it!! and i would be more than happy to tell you where to go and where to stay! <3)

do not apologise!!! we are all busy! i am literally working the equivalent of a full time job over the next two weeks and i'm also dogsitting over the weekend :') pray for my poor soul.

i'm giving you the biggest hug i hope contains the same warmth as pride and i'm fighting off your customers so you can have a few moments to breathe <3333

[rinscupoftea]

Another 2022 Recap

Well, well, it's me again with my tradition to write my life review in in a year. So, I write this on Sunday, 1st January and I will go to work tomorrow morning 💪

So, my impression of 2022 for me is 🎆 work hard🎆

Why?

Because I think I spent almost my time to work. Not saying, I worked like crazy 🙃 it's just you know, I wake up subuh and only have 20 minutes to "leyeh-leyeh" after subuh and start to prepare to go to work. Then from 6.20 until around 4.30 I'm at school. At home, then, I can be lazy around (?) an sleep maybe at 9 or 10.

And don't ever think being a teacher is an easy job because I'm super super tired whenever I go home. Maybe because the schedule is tight from morning until evening, I have to be around kids, to teach, to accompany them and so on. And thanks God for 2022/2023, I teach English for level 6 and level 5 (2 classes). Overall, they are super nice kids, they are obedient, polite and funny. I'm in charge of pendamping for ibnu rusydi class with Ustadzah Henny as the homeroom teacher.

Ps. The teachers of level 6 are super kind and especially ustadzah Henny whom I think will be a scary senior turns out she is really kind and has mother vibe even to me 💖

Next, maybe I wanna share my hope for 2023. My resolution is still same as my 2022's. I could say that my 2022 resolution is failed (what's new 😅)

In this year I want to take care of myself physically, spiritually, and mentally.

From physic, again I want to make work out as a habit. Not because I want to be skinny (Although I don't mind if I lose weight) but more like an accomplishment that I can form a consistent habit. And then, I wanna have good posture. So far, I try to sit straight during dzikir after sholat so let's see if I can develop good habit to achieve that. For hygiene, I don' want to admit but I rarely take a bath after work 🤭 using the reason I'm tired 🙃. I don't see any bad effect so far but I don't think it's good for me and my hygiene. So, yeah I need to force myself to take a bath twice a day. Plus, I want to do skincare routine especially double cleansing and exfoliation, body care by applying body lotion daily and hair care by using hair oil or creambath

For spirit, my goal is to do solat tahajjud at least 3 times a week and recite Al Quran 2 pages per day.

For mental, (I'm not sure if it's consider as mental habit) I need to strengthen my English skills especially pronunciation and speaking skill. I notice it's hard for me to teach full English like I need some time to proceed what I wanna say to students in English and at the end I speak Indonesian to them (feel guilty 😬) so that's why I want to focus on those skills.

And you know, I enjoy watching vlog especially if it's related to live in Europe or just abroad in general. My heart said "I want to have that kind of experience" but I think my brain set down the expectation and said "let's just make it a dream only in your head" I don't know if I can achieve that goal someday, after all I don't have clear goal like what I want to do abroad, work or study, in what country do I want to go and etc. But I want to brace myself by admitting that it's my dream that I want to achieve and start working on it. Right now, I want to focus on learning IELTS and hopefully along the way I can figure out what exactly my dream is.

The last, for trivia things. I still like watching anime but I think the only anime I finish to watch is Mob Psycho 3

For music, I still listen to Eve.

For other entertainment, I occasionally enjoy asmr video, start from Latte asmr, Zerona asmr, and Edafoxx. They are literally angels to me giving me and other viewers comfort we need 😭. And also there is spicy one the holy YSF 🤪 (am I hopeless?) I think now I know that I like men with deep voice lol

I also enjoy playing games on my computer and no, not the pirate ones. I try to buy them legally now on steam 😎 currently I play Coral Island and Spiritfarer (the best game ever)

And surprisingly, I managed to read one book this year while waiting my visit to the eye doctor (I forget what the exact word is). The title is Convenience Store Woman and yes I buy it legally on Play Books. A good book that leaves pang on my heart.

So, I think that's all for now. I hope me and my family can live happily and healthily in 2023. May Allah bless us always. Amiin

[theshelbyslimited]

I want to apologize for how late my commentary on this is, I’ve been a bit aloof for the past little while so even though I’m ‘active’, it’s more so just an automatic habit to scroll through and read and then continue scrolling until the night turns to day. Anyways, I am finally ready to do my commentary on this blessed part 2 for this Jack fic by the wonderful Lee so let’s go (sorry for the introductory ramble bby 🙈)

“Get your shit together,” this is me to myself on the daily 🤣🙈

“Hey, beautiful,” oh my 🦋🥵

“I don’t remember you being so quiet the other night,” PLEASE. The way she is basically tongue-tied is truly a mood.

“I know a better place that starts serving pretty soon. Why don’t you come with me?” this man really does not waste time 🤭

“Y/n, we’re um…overstaffed today so you’re free to go home.” THIS SLY DOG. I really wonder what he said to get her out of having to work 🤭

“He had removed his suit jacket and began rolling up the sleeves of his shirt allowing you a glimpse of his toned forearms and you couldn’t help but stare.” OH. The way this would MOST DEFINITELY make me so damn weak. Men rolling up their sleeves is so mundane yet so damn sexy at the same time 🙈

“Despite seeming like a cocky, self-absorbed rich kid, he was actually quite good at listening. He asked about work and school with thoughtful questions.” We love a man who hasn’t let his wealthy upbringing go to his head entirely 🙌🏾 we also love a man that listens bc god knows even men nowadays are too self-absorbed to take the time to listen to what a woman has to say and what interests she has 🙌🏾

“How about a decent tour of the house, hm? I bet they didn’t let you get much further than the servant’s entrance the other night, did they?” lead the way kind sir 😏🙈

“M’sorry…got carried away,” no but why is this so sexy to me? when men just get so enthralled in the passion of the moment that they just want any clothes on their lover GONE. RIGHT NOW. 🥵🙈

“So responsive,” OOFFFF 🥵🦋🙈

“You like it when I do that, beautiful?” PLEASE I AM SO WEAK 🦋🙈

“Gonna take my time with this sweet pussy,” THE WAY YOU WRITE JACK SMUT SO GODDAMN PERFECTLY HAS ME SO WEAK.

“He leaned over you to place a kiss to the top of your head whispering, “You alright?”. WE LOVE A MAN WHO CAN BE SO ROUGH YET SO TENDER @ THE SAME TIME.

“Come on, I’ll take you upstairs for a shower.” YESSS YESSS YESSS.

Yet again, the angel Lee does not fail to make me extremely weak and I’m not even made about it. this was so goddamn hot and mayhaps I need to bathe in holy water afterwards to cleanse myself of the filth that has been this fic. I loved every single word of it and I will never get over how incredibly you write Jack’s character so well. You never fail to show the many ‘faces’ of his character and the many dimensions of his personality, BLESS YOU BBY. Lots of love to you ❤️✨

On the Brink of Greatness (Part 2)

Jack Nelson x female reader

Summary: You have a summer job near Boston as a caterer. Despite the dull work, you get a little excitement in your life when you’re hired by a wealthy, but demanding family and meet an interesting man.

Author’s Note: Modern AU set in Boston. I’ve decided to turn this into a series! I’m not sure how many parts it will have just yet. Thanks to @retromafia and @violaobanion for helping with the plot and being my beta readers!

Warnings: 🔞, drinking, language, smut-oral sex, impact play, light choking, voyeurism (not explicit), unprotected sex, porn with a bit of plot

Part 1

You tied your hair in a bun and checked your make up in the mirror. You grimaced at your tired appearance. The exhaustion of two jobs was wearing on you and you were not looking forward to the busy lunch rush that was upon you. You allowed yourself to linger a moment longer thinking about Jack Nelson. You kept replaying that kiss in your mind and all you could think of was his handsome face. He hadn’t tried to find you after the party, however, and you felt naive for believing that he had forgiven your outburst about his family. It was probably best to forget about him. “Get your shit together,” you warned your reflection before exiting the bathroom. 

“Y/n, table twelve,” your manager barked out at you.

“I’m on it, Sam,” you said grabbing an apron. You quickly tied it as you rushed out to greet your first customer. Your jaw dropped open and your hands faltered with the apron strings as you realized Jack Nelson was seated in front of you. 

“Hey, beautiful,” he said greeting you. He grinned at you as though he knew you had been thinking of him. You stood there stupidly smiling back, unable to find any words. He looked even better than you remembered, especially in the navy blue suit and crisp white shirt he wore. “I don’t remember you being so quiet the other night,” he joked.

You shook your head with a laugh. “I’m sorry, would you like something to drink?” you asked trying to stay professional. 

“You know, I would, but I don’t really like this place,” he said looking around at the well-appointed dining room. It had always been too posh for him. He pulled back the sleeve of his suit jacket to reveal an impressive gold watch that probably cost more than your car. “I know a better place that starts serving pretty soon. Why don’t you come with me?” 

You furrowed your brow. Was he serious? “I have to work, Jack,” you said gesturing to the tables filling up with customers all around you. You noticed Sam watching you from the corner and realized you should probably end your conversation before you got in trouble. As you anticipated, Sam started walking toward the table a few moments later. Looking back at Jack, you realized he had his hand in the air, having summoned Sam to the table himself. 

“Good afternoon, Mr. Nelson,” Sam said in an eagerly pleasant voice he reserved for his best customers. Jack motioned for Sam to come closer and he whispered something that made your boss gulp harshly and take a quick step back. “Of course, Mr. Nelson,” he said turning to you and explaining, “Y/n, we’re um…overstaffed today so you’re free to go home.” He scurried away leaving you dumbfounded. Jack grinned triumphantly. 

“Looks like you’re free now,” he said standing and tossing his linen napkin on the table. He reached for your hand and you found your voice. 

“Jack, what did you tell him?” you said with amusement and mounting curiosity.

“Does it matter? You got the day off. Grab your coat and let’s get outta here,” he said confidently.

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Jack had opted to take you to his favorite place for a drink. It was a short drive from the restaurant, but worlds apart. The dive bar was exactly the kind of place you imagined him feeling most comfortable though. 

He had removed his suit jacket and began rolling up the sleeves of his shirt allowing you a glimpse of his toned forearms and you couldn’t help but stare. Breaking your concentration he asked, “You want whiskey…Irish?” he asked with a grin. You nodded and he ordered for you before pulling out a cigarette and offering it to you.

You sat drinking and smoking together for a time, enjoying his company. Despite seeming like a cocky, self-absorbed rich kid, he was actually quite good at listening. He asked about work and school with thoughtful questions. You even told him of your plans to open your own restaurant one day, a topic which usually bored men. 

In return you asked about his work and he explained that he had been groomed to take over his father’s business. “Do you like working with him?” You asked unsure after your first conversation at the party if he liked his adopted father at all. 

“Not much, no…,” he said studying his cigarette. “He plays the part of the upright, benevolent politician and I’m the one who has to do his dirty work. But that’s all gonna change.” You tilted your head at him wondering what he meant by that. Before you had a chance to answer, he was stubbing out his cigarette and changing the topic. “How about a decent tour of the house, hm? I bet they didn’t let you get much further than the servant’s entrance the other night, did they?” 

“Nope,” you said with a gentle shake of your head. You noticed how his eyes watched your every move and you couldn’t help but catch a look of desire hidden beneath the surface. You were tipsy and wondering if his offer of a tour might lead to more. You agreed to return to his family’s home to find out. 

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“Holy shit, this place is enormous!” you cried out not realizing how loud you had become with your inebriation. 

Jack smirked as he walked beside you, jacket slung over his shoulder. “Yeah, well they really like to show off,” he said with a hint of contempt.

He let you wander at will, moving in and out of rooms as you pleased. It was the least he could do for the way you had been treated during the party. He also knew it would make his mother furious which gave him a thrill. 

You peeked into another room with tall bookshelves, a tidy desk and leather sofa beneath a large, bay window. “Wow, this is quite an office. Look at the view!” you proclaimed walking into the center of the room. You stared out into the manicured gardens below, taking in the intricate landscaping which lead all the way to water. It looked like a postcard.

You hadn’t noticed Jack shut the door and was coming to stand next to you. When you turned, the closeness of him and the smell of whiskey and cigarettes permeated the air around you. You felt the overwhelming urge to kiss him and being free of inhibitions, you pushed your palms into his broad chest and tilted your head to place a sensual kiss to his lips.

Having been granted your silent permission, he looped an arm around your waist and a hand along the back of your head. He pulled you closer for another searing kiss which grew in intensity until you were both panting from desire and lack of breath. Your hands were running over each other, moving to unbutton and discard clothing as quickly as possible. You felt Jack’s large hand come to rest over you hip as he pulled the zipper of your skirt harshly. You heard a rip and Jack slowed down apologizing, “M’sorry…got carried away,” he said placing kisses to your jawline. 

“It’s alright,” you whispered cupping his cheek to feel the scratchy stubble. You were secretly excited by his strength and show of passion. As the material fell to the floor you were left in just your underwear. Jack scooped you up and you wrapped your legs around his waist and crossed your arms behind his neck as he effortlessly strode to the sofa by the window. 

He gently placed you back down again, squeezing up and down your ass and thighs, letting out a contented sigh. He turned you around and took in the sight of your voluptuous body from behind. “God, you’ve got a gorgeous ass.” He gave you a small slap to watch it jiggle and you laughed. He raised an eyebrow, making a note of the fact that you liked it a little rough. 

He wanted to savor this, however, and reminded himself to take his time with you. He moved his hands up your back and brushed your hair away from your shoulders gently to expose the delicate column of your neck. Jack leaned in to breath your perfume and placed light kisses from your shoulder up to the spot below your ear that made you weak. Your hand flew to his head as you laughed, “I’m ticklish there.” 

He sucked on the spot you indicated harder, making you gasp. “Here?” He asked with a chuckle. You nodded as you felt him place a delicate kiss to your bruised skin and brushed his nose against the side of your neck, hands roaming once more to cup your breasts. He rolled one nipple between his fingers feeling it harden beneath his touch before moving to the other. “So responsive,” he noted and you shivered at his praise. He had barely touched you and you were already feeling warmth spread into your stomach. 

His hands moved lower once more and you felt his hand slip into your panties. A long finger brushed up and down through your wetness, making your whole body tingle with excitement and pleasure. “You like it when I do that, beautiful?”

“Mmm-hmm.” You said closing your eyes to the sensation. 

You reached a hand behind your waist to grasp him, feeling how hard he was. Running your thumb over his tip, you heard his breath hitch and felt his hips jerk. He probably wouldn’t admit it, but he was sensitive as well and you intended to tease him with it. 

But Jack had other plans. He pushed you onto the sofa and you sucked in a breath as your back touched the cool leather. Jack watched as you ran a hand over your soaked underwear and licked his lips. “Take ‘em off,” he said voice dropping and eyes darkening.

You teased him saying, “So impatient, Mr. Nelson!” 

You quickly discarded the thin layer of fabric and Jack lowered himself over you resting a hand on the sofa to one side of your head. He placed wet, open mouth kisses from your sternum to your belly button, moving torturously slow as he sucked and bit at you playfully. The air cooled the feverish skin where he had just been.

“Jack…” you heard yourself call out wantonly in desperation. His eyes flicked up to yours full of mischief saying, “Now who’s impatient?” 

He continued downward to your inner thighs to give them attention as well, knowing where you needed him, but not giving into you just yet. You ran a hand through his hair trying to guide his head, but he took your hand away and pinned it beside you. “Gonna take my time with this sweet pussy,” he said beginning to lick a stripe up your folds. He watched you squirm beneath him and that made him eager to continue. He lapped and sucked at you with various patterns and pressure, listening to your quiet moans to see what you liked best. When he had you writhing, he pulled away.

Your eyes flew open as you found yourself begging through labored breaths, “No, don’t stop!” 

He chuckled promising, “I’m gonna let you cum soon. Sit up, princess, on your knees,” he instructed. You scrambled to sit up and he helped you turn to face the window, hands clutching the sofa back and knees digging into the soft cushions. “So good for me,” he cooed, stroking your back. You looked over your shoulder to see him pumping himself a few times before pushing into you slowly. 

You cried out with the stretch of him and he stilled for a moment before seating himself in you fully. The pleasure of being filled was so intense it brought tears to your eyes. He leaned over you to place a kiss to the top of your head whispering, “You alright?”

“Yes, please fuck me,” you whined feeling completely unashamed of your desire for this man. He slapped your ass playfully before beginning to move again. The delicious pleasure of him dragging against your walls too amazing for words. You dropped your head and raised your ass to him further. Jack spread you open, watching himself drive in and out of you, feeling lost in the sensation of your tightness as he groaned with pleasure. 

Reaching around to toy with your clit, you came undone for the first time. Shocks running through you as Jack’s powerful thrusts pushed into you with punishing strength. His hands curled over your hips and you felt his need to possess you in the tenacity of his grip. By tomorrow, you’d be thoroughly marked up.

No sooner had you come down from your high, you felt yourself climbing again at the thought. One hand left your waist as Jack slid the other hand up your back toward your neck. Pulling your back to his chest, you felt his long fingers wrap around your throat and place a slight pressure to the side of your neck. “Fuck, sweetheart, you’re gonna make me cum,” he moaned in your ear.

“Mmmm, yes, yes…” you managed as you came again at his words and he groaned at the feeling of your walls fluttering around him. He knew he wouldn’t last much longer. 

With a few more strokes, he pulled out of you swiftly, pushing your head down as you felt the first warm spurts hit your backside. He held you down firmly with a grunt before biting your shoulder to quiet himself. 

You smiled lazily as the bliss of your orgasm lingered and you listened to Jack’s breathing slow down. You pushed your hair out of your face and stared out the window dreamily only to find two gardeners in the once empty space. You scrambled off the sofa and grabbed your clothes giggling, “Jesus, Jack, how long have they been there? Do you think they saw us?” 

Jack laughed, replying, “They’ve probably seen a lot worse in this office. It’s my father’s.” Then he quickly added, “It’s alright, beautiful. They’re paid to look the other way.” 

“Right…” you said nervously. Jack approached you and placed a gentle kiss to your lips. “Come on, I’ll take you upstairs for a shower.”

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