#this was just a dream i dont mean to assign any more meaning to it than that

[britneyshakespeare]

wait i just remembered a weird dream i had last night. i was going through some kind of stack of applications or profiles or something. it was something teacher-related. all the kids were from some kind of mormon group that i was... doing this work for? idk IDK the important thing was the kids were part of the church of jesus christ and latter-day saints and i was reviewing their information for data purposes. the information was filled out by the kids and one of the sections was simply "ethnicity"—specifically ethnicity and not race. because ethnicity is something that can actually be a meaningful part of your identity, and race is a concept created by white supremacy, and no one loves pointing that out more than white people, right? i'm white myself. i think white people would much rather say "oh i'm irish" "i'm german" "i'm italian" because it signifies their family comes from something and somewhere. as soon as we say "i'm white" it denotes nothing but a privileged status we only have because of colonialism and white supremacy. but even that privileged status doesn't necessarily mean much by itself because we can be marginalized in other ways, which white people also like to point out when it can apply to themselves. but then again some white people really don't have any connection to the culture(s) of their ancestors and feel they have no claim upon anything better than being a white american, which is more the fault of the pressure of immigrants to assimilate than it is most people's fault as individuals.

but. this is a long preamble. i was going through these mormon kids' information. mormons are stereotypically white, right? there's a lot of white people. i've never been part of the mormon church so i don't feel like i can elaborate on it more than that. i know bc of the work of missionary's they're not all exclusively white but the origins of mormonism are certainly white and american. and on the ethnicity question, like, almost every single one of these mormon kids said "white and poor" "poor white" "underprivileged white". that kind of thing. i remember going through it and i was like "theres no way all these kids are that poor. where are they getting this identification from as an ethnicity"

[angy-grrr]

I'm glad that someone pointed out that Izuku is definitely feeling really lost rn. And also that Ochako was also not the only person with the kind of goal he had, and that there's still quite a lot of stuff to be shown.

im surprised most ppl arent talking about it! But well, many are focus on Shigaraki or just disliking the manga, sooo....

And yeah, even tho he didn't talk about it directly with him, he knew Shoto's intentions -the difference is that theres a familial connexion between him and Dabi, so Ochako's link to Himiko looked more similar to his and Shigaraki (even tho we learn there are huge differences). I'm curious to see if they do end up discussing it, and if she'll be honest about her closeness with her -how they had mutual feelings, etc-, or if Hori will decide to keep them more separated. What I mean by this is, instead of repeating the cliff scene, show us what's going on with togachako without Izuku being involved.

I'm guessing this is the route for Shoto and Dabi, and the rest of the Todoroki family -developing their arcs outside of Izuku, and him being the one who needs to express himself out loud, or something similar.

Right now, the questions to cover:

Izuku's feelings -including the taboo ones, like rudeness, rage and selfishness-; is he going to express them openly? Will someone assign him a therapist? Is the new character going to make him confront what he hides?

The new character -who is this person? What is going to happen? Personally, I expect this to be kind of a test. Are they going to hide him and pretend people like him dont exist? Or are they going to help? Could there be people who want to change things, and people who prefer to continue with the status quo?

The All Might vestige Katsuki saw -wtf was that. In the past chapters, every time he appears someone comments on how it makes no sense that he is still alive and can move (Sero, Mitsuki, Club Penguin doctor, Present Mic, if I remember right even kinda AFO and All Might?). Is this foreshadowing?

Izuku's quirklessness - is he going to get a new quirk? Keep OFA somehow? Become quirkless and a hero? Will there be discrimination and challengers because of this?

Dabi and the Todoroki family -are we confirming he is alive in the next chapters? If he is, is he going to just be unconscious, or is he waking up? What will be his reaction to see his abusive father? And his siblings? What about his mom? Is he getting therapy, because of his suicidal tendencies? Is he going to jail?

Himiko and Ochako -where is she? Alive, dead, unconscious in the hospital, recovering there, or in jail? Could she be free in another place? Are they going to talk, or are they seeing each other regularly? Is she going to be considered an adult in a trial, or is she going to be seen as the teen she is? What kind of life could they have? Is there any possibility Himiko attends UA?

Spinner -is he okay? Same previous questions apply to him. Is he going to react to Shigaraki's death? Will he create a new League and look for revenge? Is he going to connect with other ppl with mutant quirks?

Their world -will it really change? Will they find resistance from the status quo? Is the hero system going to disappear? In that case, what would bkdk's dream look like?

These are the main points I can think about at the moment. Maybe also discuss Present Mic and Aizawa, or All Might's future. There's a lot to cover, and im glad we'll get probably another volume!

[lanaxoxoxoxoxox]

SO. ANOTHER. steal my girl by 1D.

this could probably be fem!reader

ranboo and reader have known eachother since they were about 15/16, and he's ALWAYS loved her. ALWAYS. once they finally start dating, maybe once they're both 17/18, ranboo starts steaming, chat says stuff along the lines of "y/n could do better" or "she deserves better than ranboo fr" or "i could get y/n EASY" so ranboo goes out of his way to say "no one can steal my girl, nor does she even WANT any of you." SOMETHIN ALONG THOSE LINES!!

literally SCREAMED at this bro , you have no idea

, my girl !!

☆ ranboo x fem!reader

warnings: she/her pronouns, fem reader, chat being a dick, protective ran (drives me crazy /pos), ran + y/n are both 19 in this fic, ran's pov entire fic ☽

☆ a/n: utterly obsessed with this ask !! lovely @heiijoy actually sent me a whole bunch of other amazing fic ideas in our messagesand i was screaming and giggling and kicking my feet the entire time !! yall dont know how excited am i abt being able to write this and have such amazing moots oml

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ranboo pov

I've always admired Y/n. I did then, and I still do.

Since I first saw her at the locker next to me in sophomore year, something just, clicked inside of me. At first, I originally saw her as a locker-hallway crush only, until classes got changed due to a teacher leaving. Suddenly, the hallway-locker crush turned into same-classes crush. For some odd reason, the teachers would also often pair us in the same partners and groups, and we would sit near or next to each other sometimes. I kind of just played it off as pure luck on my part.

I would see y/n in about 90% of my classes, but we were assigned permanent partners one day in English for the rest of the year. I got to talk way more to her in class, and we even hung out a few times. I eventually did get her number and we started to hang out more, but not just for study sessions. We eventually had a really strong friendship, but I still admired her.

Time skip, but one of my friends who was dating y/n's best friend told me that y/n actually liked me back, and she had for a while. At first I didn't believe him, until y/n texted me to meet up at the stargazing hill we always went to and told me she liked me.

After that, we started dating. I started my Twitch and YouTube around then, and started blowing up very quickly. Y/n was always there to support me and what I wanted to do, and I was eventually invited to the Dream SMP, which also quickly raised my following and reputation even more. When I got an invitation from Toby and Tommy to meet them in the UK, Y/n also came with me. She's always been at my side, streamer or not.

present day

"'Just Talking streams never end well'? Damn, you guys are mean!" I said, laughing and flipping off the camera.

I spinned my chair slightly to the left, focusing my eyes on the other monitor that showed StreamLabs and the chat. I scanned my eyes over the chat, and a few messages caught my eye.

user4531: hi everyone!

user78787877: y/n could do better tbh

ranboofan69: @user78787877 frrr she deserves more than ranboo

rainbow4eva: i love your shirt!

socoolfan: @ranboofan69 yeah i could get y/n SO EASY bro

I sighed loudly enough for the microphone to pick up. I looked back over to chat and saw moderators turn off chat to send a warning message and put it chat onto "emotes only" mode.

I laughed. "The fact some of you guys are so confident in stealing y/n from me is actually very funny." I stared into the webcam. "Y/n is my girl, nor does she even want any of you all."

Let's just say y/nboo and that clip was trending on Twitter for a little while.

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kinda a short but fic but i hope u guys liked !! thanks @heiijoy for the lovely req <3

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love u all mwah xoxoxox

[pshiftcultureis]

i feel like a lot of shifters need to talk to other shifters about how they found out about their species because sometimes "i shifted and i was just this," doesn't always help and not all shifters can shift/have the right environment to.

it's difficult because a lot of shifters rely on their dreams and visions, and consistently don't know what or who they are because all of our history has gone kaput - and so have our ways to connect with ourselves.

-🔮☀️

Yesss exactlyyyy!!

We will be honest with you we have a few tips we actually want to give because we hate to see this info degrade away. So, this is the rare occasion we will respond with information rather than just tags ♡♡

First of all what you are as a species shifting-wise is usually not discovered through shifting into said animal. We have never shifted into our animal as of now and there was a few ways we found what we were. A lot of shifters we know followed a similar path.

One tip we saw floating around was your species could be based on *where you live*. So, if you live in the americas theres a chance you could be anything native to america.

Another is choosing an animal that gives you the "this feels right / this feels like me" vibes and allowing yourself to experience that animal fully as if you are that animal (since you are questioning theres no way to know, you know?) So you research it, mental shift with it, feel phantoms, meditate with it, connect with it... etc. Pay attention as to how YOU feel being this animal. And we dont even mean like "oh this is a trial run this may not be for me"... just allow yourself to confirm it and explore it for awhile. If its not right, move on!

Keep allowing yourself to sniff around and settle, chase feelings and be okay with confusion for awhile, because honestly you may be pulled a bunch of directions regarding this. Just remember, its finding that other part of YOURSELF, not what others want you to be or what you think would be cool.

(I didnt want to be the feline i am now in the past! I wanted wings, i wanted to have a pack, i wanted to be cool, ill be honest lol.)

With mental shifting, you can do this with any animal or creature. Meditation-wise, you just close your eyes and vividly imagine yourself in first pov as the creature you chose and explore the world the creature lives in. Assign sounds, tastes, feelings, basically be fully immersed. If you want to take a more traditional route its always helpful to do this a handful of times and record how it felt, how you felt, what it did for you, afterwards the general vibe, etc.

A lot of older guides say you have to do this a lot and "fully mental shift" -- we personally believe that this process is a form of solidifying the other half of yourself into a consciously recognised part of you, as we all tend to hide anything that isnt human.

There is a huge culture back then of immersing yourself into the possibility of you being an animal -- basically degrading the older beliefs that "you are only human" and "shifting is impossible" fed to us by society. Which was like little things, such as changing your room to be more of your habitat, researching, writing affirmations (ex: "i am a wolf"), keeping a log of your shifts, and analysing your doubts to later take them apart.

Regarding what you have said that shifters only experience their forms through dreams or visions, this isnt true either for a lot of shifters. Usually shifters have dreams and visions.... after... theyve discovered their forms, although its not impossible to have visions or dreams.

Overall, we would recommend researching and following what feels right to you, even if you have no shifts or a faint clue of what you could possibly be. We didnt have any at all actually, we had deeply repressed our feline self to the point where it never happened.

We have also seen people telling newbies to look back at their past or their ancestry to figure it out, but we find this to be very shaky and apply to anything. Rarely does someone have access to family history, including regarding the supernatural, and what you do in the past is too hard to pinpoint to a root cause until many years after you are no longer in the discovery phase.

We hope that this was helpful to any in the discovery phase of their journey! Its actually pretty similar to the therian community, albeit a more rudimentary way of doing it.

And please document your journey, its super easy to forget those first few months / years of this path, and it can be very helpful to have a record as such.

Take care ♡

[fruity-fruition]

Assigning Disney songs and small analysis on why to Wondershow pairings!!

(boycott Disney literally please never stop. Pirate EVERYTHING they have FUCK Disney they're literally the worst EVILL evil corporation it's not even funny. but their stories and songs are iconic unfortunately)

Ruikasa: I See The Light (Tangled)

It's a song about discovering what it means to dream, and realizing how much your world has changed so drastically after the right person enters your life.

"All these years, chasing down a daydream. All those days, living in a blur. All that time, never truly seeing things the way they were"

TELL ME. TELL ME THAT ISN'T TSUKASA PRE-WXS. Him NOT knowing what he's doing, striving for a blurry dream he's stumbling to achieve. BEFORE MEETING WXS, in this specific case, Rui.

"All at once, everything looks different, now that I see you"

How Rui's entire view of friendship and life in general changed the moment Tsukasa officially invites and begs him back into the group. Hear me OUT.

Nenekasa: A Whole New World (Aladdin)

A song of one person showing and exposing the other to a new and exciting world, one filled with wonder.

Tsukasa pulled Nene out of her shell, and basically challenged her. While all her friends are her stepping stone, it's Tsukasa that pushed her into the world of stardom. A world she so desperately wants to achieve.

He's a competition to her, a friend, and also a motivation to keep getting better. She overcomes a lot of her fears with her rivalry of sorts with him, wanting to be an equal and improve just as much. She's brought to the spotlight, indirectly because of him. A whole new world she's just introduced to.

"A dazzling place I never knew. But when I'm way up here, it's crystal clear, that now I'm in a whole new world with you"

THE TWO STARS OF WONDERSHOW. IN THE SKIES TOGETHER.

Emurui: Love is an open door (Frozen)

Ok, I know this is TECHNICALLY a manipulative and villain song, BUT NOT TO ME IN THIS CONTEXT. Just two, absolutely silly doofuses goofing around and being equally stupid.

I don't have much logical explanation for this except for silly and also it matches their vibes SOO WELL. With Emu thinking nearly as insanely as Rui, and both of them being whimsical in nature. It makes the

"I mean it's crazy"

"What?"

"We finish each other's s-"

"sandwiches!!"

"That's what I was gonna say!"

More so their brainwave being THAT goofy and in line with each other rather than a manipulative tactic the song was trying to do.

"I never met someone who thinks so much like me!"

YEAHHHHHH

I don't have the energy to keep analysing right now but I'll drop the other two and explain later if I don't forget and die.

Ruinene: Something There (Beauty and the Beast)

Emukasa: I DONT KNOW I DESPERATELY TRIED IF ANYONE HAS ANY IDEAS SHARE I LOVE EMUKASA BUT I WAS DYING.

Emunene: I won't say I'm in Love (Hercules) ORR THE LESBIAN ANTHEM Kiss The Girl (The Little Mermaid)

[heartsleybyul]

#FEEL MY RHYTHM › riddle rosehearts [heartslabyul]

❀ .. gn reader, intentional lowercase, mutual pining (again!!)

❀ .. i dont knwo much abt ballroom dancing i am sorry

🗨️ ; ballroom dancing with riddle becomes something more

step one, step two, dash..

steps kept repeating in your head as you tried to perfect the dance, feet occasionally clashing against riddle's.

you two were assigned a ballroom dance for class, paired with riddle you quite expected him to be stern and strict yet during your practice with him he seemed, soft.

you don't know if he was simply just in a good mood or not, but even so you'd enjoy every moment of this with him.

you were mesmerized. the way he looked so focused, the way his hands feel so soft against yours, the way he'd help you so gently with the steps made your heart flutter.

you had a crush on him for quite a while and you thanked the sevens you were assigned this assignment with him.

his hands rested on your shoulder, both of your hands connecting just right beside you head while swaying and dancing to the classical music, you wished this moment would last forever.

just then, the music stopped. "well, our routine for today is done. i expect that you'll be back here tomorrow again to practice" of course you would, you'd take any chance to be with him.

"yea sure, i mean it's an important project." while giving him a small smile.

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the classical music was once again present in the room, while two bodies swayed around in sync.

you and riddle practiced again just as promised, this time, you got considerably better at coordinate your feet with his.

it felt magical once again, until the song ended which meant your routine was over. riddle still held your hands, his face looking up at you with a slightly visible blush tinting his face.

"[name], if someone were to confess to you, what would be your answer?"

startled by his sudden question, it seems like you can't say anything. it seems too much like a confession.

"well, i mean it really depends who would be the one confessing"

you said while trying to look anywhere but his face, while he rested his hand on your shoulder, were you two gonna practice the routine again?

"shall we dance once more?" he said while starting to dance once more, while you caught up immediately.

"[name], it feels quite nice dancing with you." riddle said while you nodded in agreement.

"you know, i like you a lot [name]. and i would give anything in the world just for this moment to stop. you are my definition of perfection and elegance, i love you."

what? no way this is happening. you stopped your movements immediately, your brain still trying to register that he just confessed to you!

"you.. really like me?" you answered while while riddle brought both of you hands together, clasping them under his. "of course i would, you have encaptured my heart since we first met."

oh my, this has to be a dream. you were left there speechless, was this really happening?

"oh- wow, i would have never expected this actually," you said while looking around the room once more, "i like you too. since the day i saw you."

riddle nudged your back a bit closer to him, cupping your face,

"well thats quite pleasant. i hope you'll dont mind if i indulge a bit into loving you, hm?"

heartsleybyul © please do not steal, repost, or plagiarize my works.

[skatingbi]

When I say sanji falls hard i mean he falls HARD homies!!

My fighter pilot au is also a modern au, so during the 2 years sanji and zoro are apart they constantly talk on the phone. Zoro hates texting so sanji will go out of his way to call zoro when they both have a break.

Their conversations last hours. Theyre not always talking but sanji is content with the comfortable silence that also makes up their calls as well. He just likes being with zoro in any way he can be until theyre able to meet again.

When its not silence zoro is talking about his family mihawk and perona, or the lessons he's taking (which zoro refuses to tell sanji what they are), or the unclassified information on the assignments he's been doing. Sanji talks about his mandatory leave where he goes back home and helps zeff with the baratie. He complains about his old man while also talking about how much he missed cooking. They talk about things other than work for probably the first time since that night sanji woke up with a panic attack a few years ago.

During these two years, sanji learns so much about zoro and he feels loved at the same time in zoro's own unusual way. In return, zoro learns more about sanji and basks in getting to be with sanji even if theyre on opposite sides of the world.

Unfortunately, their comrades are suffering by watching them be hopelessly in love to the point where it feels like experiencing second hand embaressment. Sanji SUCKS at flirting and zoro wouldnt even know someone was flirting with him even if it hit him square in the face with a 50 pound brick.

Nami and Usopp are betting on who confesses first. Luffy couldnt care less about the betting but still likes to be a supportive friend and participates anyways. Robin and Franky dont bet money but talk about it as well. Regardless, the majority vote that Sanji will confess first, even if it'll probably be the worst confession anyone's ever heard in their life.

Like you think these two idiots know anything about romance? Absolutely Not. They're in their early 20's and spent most of their life growing up too fast and having to survive more than live.

So when during those two years, the second year is maybe one assignment and mostly being sitting ducks at their respective bases they stay at, sanji and zoro talk more and more about their other dreams. They start to learn how to live, slowly but surely through each other, despite being oceans apart.

Flirting between them is useless, but opening up and baring their souls to each other isn't. When you put two guarded men together with walls up, it can either end in tragedy like betrayal or in them tearing down each others walls.

When Sanji bears his soul to Zoro, he understands for the second time how much he cant live without him. How much he truely wishes he could at least look at zoro face to face and trace all the scars on his skin with reverence and adoration.

Sanji's heart aches more and more as the two years pass by. The next time they call, though, his heart nearly stops when he hears zoro's voice still raspy from waking up so late in the morning for the Nth time that week to hear him say in fucking french by the way, dear god sanji isnt gonna be able to survive this any longer now.

"Good morning, Sanji"

[the-s1lly-corner]

Hey man, its me again~

(If i may overwhelm you or anything just say so, i sometimes dont understand the limits of being too annoying)

So. Hehm. I got covid. And. I was sick for a few weeks but then yesterday it became very, very bad(i presume because of stress and overexaustion, as well as due to not taking care of myself properly..) to the point of not being able to hold a bottle. I felt kinda horrible, but until night that was only the start. I could only lay in bed, overheated, and ended up falling asleep midday and having hallucinations/nightmares at night. I woke up in tears after a supposedly silly goofy dream(caine×kinger (i just knew they were a couple) arguing, well, more like kinger being very, very mad for some reason and caine looking at him with his pathetic sad eyes while trying to argue back/explain himself. Also there was zooble looking all smug at The Camera like in Office in a way only an asshole weedsmoker would do, all relaxed. Oh also it was a Zombie Apocalypse au and kinger just had a big booty for no reason) and hyperventilating, it was horrifying for some reason(maybe because i love the guys... royalteeth<3). I was Very Delirious.(i am a bit better after finally being taken seriously and given medication after

Anyway i said all this only for you to know about the dream, i liked it very much in the end, yummy angst.

So i was wondering, maaay i please req a worried itward trying to force sick!reader to go to bed but they bluntly refuse because "I have WORK to do and people to TAKE CARE of! I don't care, am just.. a little under the weather, yes, but its nothing a warm tea later wont fix. So i need to- no, i am perfecty capeable-" <- said before falling over a coffe table half dressed, almost landing on Mr. Midnights fluffy butt. When they finally give in they're kinda clingy and a bit whiny("..do you still love me?"; *stumbles out of the room to get to itward who decided to get them some tea, scaring him shitless in the process* "can we hold hands? Please")

(The dream and other info has nothing to really do with the request and has no purpose but to tell you abt the silly scenario, you can just disregard it. Anyway i'm going to sleep good noight!!♡♡♡)

Itward x sick!stubborn!Reader!

IM SO SORRY IT TOOK SO LOKG TO GET TO THIS SOBS

That said I hope youre feeling better man :( sickness sucks!! I hate sickness!! Beats up the sickness!!!

Also I know I already said this when you checked your request status, but you're not overwhelming me or annoying me!! Get down with the silliness!!

Also look at this goofball, how he almost falls

Loser

(Gently holds)

I think that he would treat most sicknesses on the same level of seriousness; like sure he wouldn't panic if you had a simple fever or cold.. but he's going to be firm on you not overworking yourself

In fact its likely that he will bar you from chores and work for at least an entire day after all your symptoms die down

Very quickly notices that something is wrong with you. I mean itward looks over a bunch of kids and kids get sick all the time, so I think he can see the signs even before you're fully ill

Asks you if anything is wrong and offers to do some of your chores around the ship (and that's assuming he even assigned you any) as well as offer to run the errands you needed to do that day

Gentle but firm when talking to you and trying to keep you in bed

Like gently pushing you back into bed and covering you up in a blanket or two

"Yes yes, I know dear that you've got work to do... but please, I need you to rest... can you do that for me?" And other similar pleas

Hes making you soup when you wobble in and ask if hes mad at you; because his tone sounded a little stressed when he last talked to you

He cant even answer before you face plant onto the floor of the ship...

Immediately rushes to your side; which likely only takes about two steps for him thanks to his long legs.. scoops you up and just

In this gentle quiet voice reassures you that hes not angry. A little stressed out for you, but not angry

Key words, "for you", not "by you"

I would say for comic value he would tie you to bed, but I feel even itward wouldnt go down to those extremes (and this man can get a little silly. I mean he literally locked Fran in a room so he could make her a surprise birthday party. Itward can get a little intense, I think)

No instead I think he would just stick by your side to ensure you're actually resting

One of admin favorite tropes; character b is sick/very tired and in bed, character a who just put them to bed goes to leave only for b to grab their sleeve/hand/arm/whatever to stop them and just. "Plesse stay"

That happens with you two, I think

And most likely, if itward doesn't have anything super time sensitive or important to do, he will stay with you

Besides, hes a skeleton from another reality. What are the chances that a human sickness can spread to him?

Well that's assuming it's a sickness from the third reality and/or one that cant jump species

But shhh

Itward pretty much becomes a mother hen and tries to prevent you from doing anything that may make your symptoms worse.. as well as caring for you via making you food, keeping you hydrated, and even carryout you around if your legs are too weak to support you

[the-tubort]

1, 2, and 5 for the toku asks!

1. How did I get into Toku?

I watched a lot of Power Rangers as a kid and just in general a lot of shows that were made first in Japan and then came to America which I think was super common for people my age and older to do given the general boom in anime and Japanese shows being translated and brought over to expand markets. But like a lot of people I imagine, found a bunch of toy review channels with cool toys that weren't brought to America yet with music and songs and even full episodes and movies that were subbed by TVN and just available super easily. I watched a lot of episode previews and the boukenger sentai history sections like an addict and even watched the Boukenger vs movies with like no context just because it was awesome and in a way I think toku helped me to read. I dont remember how I learned how to read but I remember toku being the reason I ended up reading more and could read faster cause I needed to be in time with the subtitles. I still remember sitting down and basically drawing out a terrible comic strip explaining everything that happened in Geki vs Bouken for a first grade assignment or something. I watched Shinkenger and Goseiger week to week in elementary school along with stuff like Digimon Xros Wars and Hunters. Definitely a ridiculously long answer but I don't think the last time I answered this I was as thorough as I wanted to be. I can still remember waiting ages for shinken vs go on and gosei vs shinken and even the shinken summer movie even if I didn't fully understand it then, it was definitely something that I think I dont want to forget

2. First show I watched

This is a bit of a hard answer cause I can't fully remember what show was technically first for me. Excluding Power Rangers, I think Shinkenger was the season I watched first that was week to week but I can't remember if I watched all of it week to week or if I forgot and dropped it. I know I did start goseiger from the beginning but stopped halfway through. It was the episode Eri was making her own cards as a wish I believe. Then I took a break and then Toqger was the first sentai I do truly remember watching front to back week to week with no stops. There were a lot of seasons I also watched in between and overall its kind of all over the place for me but yeah. Anything from bouken-gosei is a fairly good answer tbh. I remember watching clips from those the most.

5. Favorite main hero

THIS IS SOOOO HARD FOR MEEEEE UUHHHHHHHH..... HMMM......

I'll give three for sentai and rider

Sentai:

Toqgers cast is impeccable and strike a chord deep inside of me that I haven't been able to ever shake off which has made me so happy.

King Ohger for all its flaws made a cast of six that made me so sick in the head that I actually could not stop crying the last three episodes of the show and for that I need to put them on this list

There's a lot of teams so it's hard to choose a third when SO MANY mean a lot to me and this does not mean I love any team I didn't mention any less its just hard for me to choose. But megarangers leads are all so sweet and genuine to me and I want to see more of them so bad and usually think a lot about them in my own silly little headcannons

Rider:

This is kind of easier I think so yeah

EIJI MY BOY HAPPY BIRTHDAY I LOVE YOU SO MUCH EIJIIIIIII

EMUUUUUU MY BOYYYYYY I LOVE YOUUUUUU. GASHATOO AND ETC I LOVE YOU AND YOURE STUPID REPRESSED COWORKERSSSSSSS

Finding a third is once again difficult cause I love so many of them but most likely my goat my king my absolute bestie who reminds me to follow my dreams and keep dreaming ICHINOSE HOUTAROOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO I LOVE YOU SOOOOOOO MUCHHHHH

[kyoosoup]

rating all the books i had to read for junior high + highschool

blah blah blah

my brothers and dad are currently watching a football game so i have to kill some time. i asked my mom to send me the list of all the books i read for junior high/highschool (i'm homeschooled so she was my teacher/made my curriculum that's why i asked her)

not sure how i'm gonna rate/rank these yet but yeah

if you're bored and want to kill time or you just want to read this for some reason, then strap in

To Kill a Mockingbird

by Harper Lee

this one is a school classic. and honestly, i did enjoy it. i will say i had a hard time reading it when i did, not because of the actual writing/language, but rather because i had no idea how courts worked so i didn't understand any of the courtroom scenes. i'm not sure why i didn't know about courts yet. i'm sure i learned about it in school but i hadn't seen it visually (like in a show or video or anything) so i think it was hard for me to picture. i'm sure if i read TKAM again now i would enjoy it more.

8/10

The Red Badge of Courage

by Stephen Crane

omg i did not like reading this book. idk if it's just me or if it was the book but i was so bored. it's a really short book but it felt so long. maybe i'm being too harsh and maybe it wasn't actually boring. but i wouldn't read it again to find out.

2/10

A Tale of Two Cities

by Charles Dickens

Okay i will say i definitely was really confused when i read this. I liked the story and i'm glad i've read it, because i mean it's kinda famous and i feel like it has some good elements. but it was hard for me to read and appreciate. too much deciphering. I think this is another book that i would appreciate more if i reread now that i'm older.

6.5/10

A Midsummer Night's Dream

by William Shakespeare

I did not reading shakespeare in school. in general, i dont like reading plays or older english or epics or anything like that. The only thing i appreciated at all about this play while reading it was that it had characters who were actors that put on a play . play within a play. this did not make reading the play worth it though lol. i think now the only reason i care at all about it is because of Dead Poet's Society

3/10

A Tell Tale Heart

by Edgar Allen Poe

i don't remember much about this specific short story but after googling the synopsis i do remember liking it. and i'd probably read it again. i can't say much else because i don't remember lol

7.5/10

Harrison Bergeron

by Kurt Vonnegut

another short story. I don't remember every detail of this one either but i did think it was interesting and i would reread it. I'm not sure if i would quite go as far as to recommend it. but, of the books/stories so far, it is the one i would be most likely to recommend. (provably only after rereading it myself)

8.5/10

Animal Farm

by George Orwell

okay guys. this is one of my favorite books that i've read for school. it is one of 2 (i think) that i've actually sat and reread outside of school assignments. not hard to read at all. had some crazy good lines. and it was about animals! (or was it?) i would reread it repeatedly. and i would and have recommended it to people.

10/10

Roll of Thunder, Hear My Cry

by Mildred D. Taylor

I enjoyed reading this one. it wasn't anything crazy or lifechanging for me, but it was a decent read. i think just because it didn't really feel super impactful (i kinda forgot about its existence) i'm gonna have to rate it lower

7/10

The Hiding Place

by Corrie Ten Boom

This was the other book that i reread outside of school assignments. it's another that i would (and have) recommended to people. I really loved this book while reading it. i've always been interested in ww2, ever since my dad gave me an anne frank graphic novel when i was like less than 10 lol. so this book was not only interesting from a historical viewpoint, but i also found it pretty inspiring and emotional. it's been a minute since i've read it, but i would read it again.

10/10

Jane Eyre

by Charlotte Bronte

this book was a rollercoaster and i always have a hard time remembering everything that happened. i remember finding it interesting, unsettling at times (intentionally), and it was a decent read. i think this was one of many school books that was ruined in part because i was supposed to take notes and write essays on it and stuff.

7.5/10

The Strange Case of Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde

by Robert Louis Stevenson

ok i'll admit i enjoyed reading this. thriller and mystery has always been fun for me to read. i will say, i'm 80-90% sure that i was spoiled. not because it's really popular and maybe i heard of the twist. no. because there's a VEGGIETALES PARODY. yeah. anyways. i dont know if i would reread this or not, but i am glad to have read it.

7.5/10

Things Fall Apart

by Chinua Achebe

This is another one of the pretty solid books i've read for school. I would even go as far as to recommend it. Do i remember everything about it? definitely not. But i know i liked reading it and i would probably reread it if i get the chance. It had some pretty cool ideas and themes. i remember when i first read it, i thought the beginning poem (which the book is named after) was pretty cool too. so much that i somehow memorized it: "things fall apart, the centre cannot hold, mere anarchy is loosed upon the world". i had to look it up but the poem is called The Second Coming. Anyways, another cool book.

9.5/10

The Odyssey

by Homer

i hated reading this. i didn't like the act of reading the format. i didnt like the language. and i didn't even like the plot. or the characters. there is not really any redeeming quality to this for me. i'm sorry if you really like this book and are sad that i don't agree. sorry not really sorry. the only reason i'm glad to any extent that i read it is because my assignment for it, instead of an essay, was to make a comic for a scene of it. which was mildly fun.

1/10

Romeo and Juliet

by William Shakespeare

although more interesting by far than midsummer night's SNORE (i'm joking), i was still mildly bored reading this. i am glad i read it for the sake of reading it. but i did not particularly enjoy reading. in general, the story of romeo and juliet isn't really for me. i was just annoyed with them the whole time??? like they're so dumb. i mean in juliet's defense i think she's supposed to be like 13 so what does she know but whatever. i still didn't really like reading it.

5/10

Of Mice and Men

by John Steinbeck

okay this book was an interesting read. it was good but like kinda crazy and dark and unsettling?? which is definitely the point. but still. man. that was crazy. if you haven't read it, it's an interesting read. but dark.

8.5/10

A Modest Proposal

by Jonathan Swift

another story i needed to look up. i cant say i remember much about reading this. most likely i just didn't understand it. the synopsis sounds really crazy though so i'm surprised i don't remember more of it. sounds weird though

2/10

Frankenstein: 1818

by Mary Shelley

this book was crazy and dark but it was pretty interesting and i'd maybe even reread it. it's a well known story but reading for myself everything crazy that happens really made me think. the morality of it all and whatnot. i think maybe the main downside to reading this was i got kinda grossed out. i don't sit well with depictions of anything morbid or gore-y or cannibalism. makes me a little physically uncomfortable. but i still liked reading this book overall. also since i read it i can get mad when people mix up the doctor and the creature. i can also understand this really dumb frankenstein meme

9/10

The Lord of the Flies

by William Golding

i liked this book a lot too. i'm starting to think perhaps i like darker books about morality and how maybe the real monsters were the people we met along the way??

9.5/10

Beowulf

Frederick Rebsamen

ahh another book i hated reading. odyssey level of hate for me. i maybe liked the characters better but i can't really back that up. wouldnt read again. it was probably good or something i just didn't like it.

1/10

Medea

by Euripedes

i don't remember this let me look it up. uhhhhhhhhhhhh. okay i don't remember this one very well but i don't think i hated it as much as some other things so

3/10

Macbeth

by William Shakespeare

shockingly, i did sort of like this one. i know, pretty out of character for me. but the plot was actually interesting so it made up for being annoying/boring for me to read. i would watch a movie or play version of it and maybe actually be interested. maybe

6/10

American Born Chinese

by Gene Luen Yang

i did enjoy this book. it's a graphic novel, so it was a quick read. i wouldn't say it's my favorite graphic novel but it has a lot of cool themes and elements. i would say i maybe like another graphic novel by the same author, boxers and saints, better. but i didn't read that for school so i'm not rating it.

8.5/10

Scarlet Letter

by Nathaniel Hawthorne

I don't remember everything that happened in this book. i would say, in general, it didn't really stick out to me. it wasn't particularly interesting to me and it wasn't outright bad. but i wouldn't read it again.

4/10

My Antonia

by Willa Cather

after reminding myself about this book's existence, i am pretty sure i liked it. but who cares about the literal plot of the novel when we can look into the author being subtly lgbtq coded. the evidence, your honor: first of all, my antonia itself is told from the perspective of Jim, a dude. and it's about his relationship with this girl who eventually gets married but he still cares about her deeply and he reminisces (idk that it's inherently romantic, but it's something). and why does this matter? Willa Cather wrote a lot from the male perspective, and people think it was to avoid being criticized for lesbian relationships. But this is just the tip of the iceberg!!!!!! the craziest part is that Willa had several very close relationships with women. including ahem (from wikipedia) "most notably, the editor Edith Lewis, with whom Cather lived the last 39 years of her life." HISTORIANS WILL SAY THEY'RE JUST FRIENDS. this doesn't really have much to do with the book but i remember seeing this while researching back when i read the book and i was like yooooo ????

8/10

Catch 22

by Joseph Heller

another book i really enjoyed!!! i actually actively want to reread this one. it's cool to read, it was kinda funny, and the plot was interesting. i liked the idea of slowly uncovering the story. i will say, reading it super spread out for school was a little confusing. but that's not the book's fault

10/10

Hamilton

by Lin Manuel Miranda

i'm not sure how much i can count this because i didn't technically read the whole thing. i read parts of a book about the musical and then i watched a recording of it. if i can count it, i would say it's really fun and i enjoy it a lot and would like to see it live one day. the only reason it's not a 10 is because i don't think Lin Manuel Miranda is the best singer. like he's a talented writer but compared to angelic leslie odom jr, lin is not my favorite.

9.5/10

Peace Child

by Don Richardson

this one was interesting, especially since it was a real story. seeing how people can compare and relate different cultures and religions can be fascinating.

8/10

i'm getting sleepy so i am skipping a bunch of the other short stories because frankly most of them i didn't like very much. it's possible i liked a few of them, but i don't really feel like looking them all up. oh well.

Robinson Crusoe

by Daniel Dafoe

now i didn't read the whole book, just snippets, but boy am i glad i didn't. i did not like this book. it was boring. even reading just small parts of this book i was in agony. also, fpr the record, this book was not an epic poem or a play. so there, i can dislike other things too

1/10

Pride and Prejudice

by Jane Austen

okay i love the jane austen movies and shows, so i was relatively excited to read this book. I think taking notes really detracted from my joy. but i like the story a lot. even typing this makes me want to rewatch some of the jane austen media. it wasn't my favorite read, but it was pretty good. a classic, really

9/10

The House of the Spirits

by Isabel Allende

i feel like this book was supposed to be unsettling probably but it really made me uncomfortable. i think there were maybe some sexual things including some creepy ones. and me personally when i am assigned a book with that by my mom/teacher i was like why do i have to read this. now that i think about it, i'm pretty sure i was so uncomfortable with it that i asked my mom to cover up those parts with sticky notes. the story was interesting but those parts really made me not like it

5.5/10

The Joy Luck Club

by Amy Tan

okay !! i did like this book a lot. it's about a bunch of chinese-american mother-daughter relationships so yk. relatable in some ways. i think maybe there were a few weird things but i think overall the read is worth it. i would for sure consider rereading it. and i would also recommend it. i actually recently tried to look for it in a few bookstores but i didn't see it and i was kind of sad.

9.5/10

Honorable Mention:

basically all the Narnia books by C.S. Lewis

i technically read a few of these for school but i don't know which ones because i also read a bunch on my own. I really like these books. they are cozy and i like the characters. also i like the movies a lot so that increases my favorability for them. i would recommend the series, or at least the Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe.

10/10

maybe one day i will do something like this for books i read growing up or something else school related. but for now that is all. i hope i didn't miss any lol.

if you read this far, i guess leave a comment or something??? i'm impressed. at this point you could rate my ratings. this whole post is probably longer than most of the short stories. lol.

good night

[lovelysakuryay]

man if the writers of QoT spent more time with the plot this would have been a FANTASTIC kdrama. I mean it’s very good and entertaining but still there were too many plot holes that i found VERY hard to ignore?

- acting like the internet isn’t a thing? are we for real, that cold stoned hong hae-in really just trusted her ‘external hard drive’ instead of checking things for herself? if she searched up her own name, she would have learned about everything?

- we watched the damn book get thrown in the furnace and the door to the furnace shut, how is it that when the cleaner goes to get the book out of furnace it has barely burnt? surely it would have burnt more than that?

- the storyline about the miscarriage could have been developed more. ITS OBVIOUS THAT BOTH HAEIN AND HYNUNWOO HAVENT MOVED PAST IT SO WHY WOULD WE?

- also was i dreaming or didn’t they film some videos for haein to see after she got the surgery? i genuinely don’t remember if this happened in the show or if i made it up and i cant be arsed to go check

- also what kind of hospital allows a random man to say that he is actually a patient’s fiance when you already met said patient’s fiance? surely when the second fiance turns up you’ll call the next of kin YOU KNOW IS ACC RELATED TO THE PATIENT? LIKE I DONT KNOW PARENTS OR SIBLINGS??

- THE FAMILY HAD SPIES IN GERMANY AND THEY DIDNT PROTECT HAEIN?

- this girl got brain surgery and was out of the hospital within a few weeks, i may be being silly rn but if i’m correct, haein would need to stay near the hospital for post-surgery treatment/monitoring? and lets say that she got her record transferred to a hospital in korea, we did not see her go to the hospital for post surgery appointments once she was back in korea

- at hyunwoo’s trial, they just spring up new evidence?? idk how it works in korea specifically but im studying law and any evidence that isn’t logged by the time of the first trial is either dismissed or allowed into evidence but the trial is rescheduled for when both parties have had the time to adjust their arguments to this new evidence. it doesn’t just GET ACCEPTED AND BELIEVED FOR CREDIBILITY JUST BECAUSE THE DEFENCE SAID SO AND FOR GODDAMN SURE IT DOESN’T ACQUIT THE DEFENDANT STRAIGHT AWAY??? in the least the new evidence would be taken in and analysed by court assigned professionals to make sure it is credible (that could take a few weeks) THEN the defendant would get acquitted.

- Hyunwoo’s sibiling’s relationships. they were just sprung up on us, glossed over and moved onto the next thing

- Finally probably the biggest thing that i cant get past. SHE JUST HAD SURGERY AND IS BACK TO WORK. NOT ONLY BACK TO WORK BUT BACK TO MANAGING A WHOLE ASS LUXURY SHOPPING CENTRE?

[ariapmdeol]

CoM Predictions/Manifestations/Theories

Involves DLC, Hermit Room, and Interlude spoilers. Putting it under the cut bc it's long lol. Not rly sorted or in any particular organization, just thing I want to happen and some theories and thoughts on stuff!

mostly writing this bc it's quick and easy compared to the metas i'm working on hehe

Kado Orie is the source of the Mirages, using the Harada factor in synergy with his Factor Artifact. He has either a Red or a Green one (SNMT has the Rainbow, and Sueko has the other Red/Green). If i HAD to pick I would assign him the red (due to the color in his design) and that way Lin (N portman) gets the green at some point from his mom

The longer that you're in the mirage, the more you become a 'fictional' character; You start losing your memories... and Miwa is the one who's been in there the longest, and he went in there INTENTIONALLY, which is why he has no memories outside of being 'Dita'.

Similarly, i want Dita to have an identity crisis over whether or not he's "Real". I want him to choose violence <3

This would bring in the "Factors and Definitions" into more prominence too

I want Mutei to be the one pulling the strings/guiding Rui as the protagonist! we let him out of the hermit's room so i think he should cause problems <3

OH also I dont think this will actually happen but. wouldn't it be cool if we could port our post HR save file into CoM and have the Color we gave to Mutei show up in places...

i want shinano and dita to interact pleass please fukao let him meet his blorbo,,,

linano meetup,,, lin meeting dita,,,

LIN BECOMES AWARE OF THE THREE RINGS. (ie setup for joining System.NH). I think as of 2018 he Doesnt Know yet, but i want him to Learn in CoM!!

Utsugi-Harada factor shenanigans....

Kento Sayo joining the "Utsugis paralleling the Magician Tarot card" gang. aka: i want him to morb ^_^ Lineage of the magicians am i right

Golden dawn. They WILL be relevant. It all adds up alright they know TOO MUCH. THEY'RE THE ONES WHO BROUGHT UP THE TREE OF LIFE AND TAROT CARDS so i am desperate to understand them.

in addition to that i did some digging into the Hermetic Order of the Golden Dawn and while yeah they were a real group that existed, the coe parallels are insane.

also i know this is a crack theory but please please let mutei be their founder or something

this is a pipe dream but... Izu interacting with atou and/or sanemitsu. also interacting w seodore.

izu is quite literally the seosane child this is canon. Sanemitsu's the dad Rai is the mom and Seodore is. also the mom

ougughhh please let it be revealed that CoS is a time loop please please please please please please i will cry

what is the hakko theatre troupe. EIGHT lights is there an eighth light out there. is there a secret eighth fragment or is that one seodore. Miwa i have so many questions

I want ryuu to kill. also i want to know what happened to azuma and igarashi. are they dead? alive? busy running companies? what on EARTH DOES SEER OF DREAMS MEAN. IS THAT HIS POWER? DREAMWALKING? CREATING DREAMS IN REALITY?

also Azuma connection to Kado....

Eigha knows about his and Dita's true nature. I want to see him make use of this

ok so. this is dewins theory but we think itd be really cool if Rui's job was to satisfy / fulfill the wishes of the Fragments.

also we have a theory that. Mutei wrote Rui into existence and hes fictional sorry Rui but it'd be funny. This one was Yohann's hehe

ryuu my darling rabbit my babygirl i want you to kill ^_^

i want rui to morb

if the Three Rings get mentioned i will go insane

Eigha's current actor is Shiyo Harada. but he's not on the family tree at all what the FUCK is going on with him

is he really a harada?? is he lying?

also the fact that he's a HARADA chosen by miwa to play this role....... suspicious

i Do Not Trust the cat. Godzylla i do not trust you at ALL. he's too meta there HAS to be something up with him

Ito Yamori is suspicious ....

also of the cast we know about, placing my bets that at least ONE of them is associated With the Golden Dawn.

also i talked abt this before but not publicly-- I think Ryuu is the one who attacked Annie and injured her, leading to her and Seodore working together.

[insufferable-talkstuck]

hihi, dont mean to bother you

I sleep on prospit and the aspect I got from the true zodiac quiz was light. though I dont care which one of these you want to incorporate into the final result. I also dont care about gender exclusive classes.

more about me; personality wise Id say Im a little weird, I often care more about my interests than my friends, of which range from innocent things like sea life and color theory to darker things like human anatomy and horror. I still love my friends, theyre just lower in priority. I am reclusive, but not often willingly, I suffer from fatigue which makes it hard to go outside a lot. though Ive kinda grown used to it that being alone is comforting now.

I think a big part of me is my munchausen syndrome, my life wasnt great, but I often feel like it should have been worse so I get more attention for it even though I KNOW thats not how it works. I WANT to be worse. my therapist chucks everything up to daddy issues when my mother was the one who abused me (my dad wasnt THERE to abuse me) and whenever I try to explain that I feel so unheard. otherwise I often daydream about vile situations to cope with stuff, or just, daydream at all. I get described as in my own head a lot. I like to pretend Im a lot more edgier than I actually am, it creates an imaginary barrier around me and makes me feel safer. in reality Im just an awkward, shy teen who apologizes a lot.

sorry if this is too much xp all of these are things Ive come to terms with so theyre not heavy for me to talk about, dont worry.

Mage of Void

seeing as how the quiz named you a Light player this is probably not what you expected, but to be open with you the quiz *does* have a higher probability of giving out light more than any other aspect, to keep it "realistic" or whatever, I don't like their logic.

i think you're a mage of void because you find comfort in void, being alone in it, just the void and yourself, a small circle of nothingness you can shape to your desires and comfort.

- Seers & Mages -

seers and mages are opposite classes, the same way that thieves and rouges are, to give a more broadly understood example. Seers learn/know their aspect in order to benefit their team; Rose lalonde the seer of light gathers more information about the game mechanics to give her session every chance it has of surviving. Mages on the other hand know their aspect for themselves, not to say they're selfish, they too are important in sessions, there's no class that doesn't play a role, but mages use their information to benefit themselves when playing the game

so im assigning you a Mage and not a seer because of how you use your words, how you describe your personal relationships being a lesser priority.

🌙 also I think you're either a derse dreamer or have a case similar to sollux, having two dream selfs? word-for-word derse players *do* have it rougher.. and by human standards ( i believe it alternates a bit for trolls because of what's considered tough for them ) you do have it. rough.

that's about all I have to say on the matter, if you want to be further convinced here's some sentences within your talk that help my case on assigning you a void player, aka what you just uttered was so void-pilled dude;

‘i am reclusive but not often willingly’

‘being alone is comforting now’

‘it creates an imaginary barrier around me and it makes me feel safer’

[shoebillstork]

Tagged by @fishgirlautism :] I have 15 people to tag but don't feel like tagging anyone in particular so make one and tag yourself so my quota gets filled 🫡

Am I named after anyone?

Nope both my birth name and my other one, although my mom was the one who reffered to Barbie's sister and where i got like the feeling that it was right it was like "Skipper" Zing!

The last time i cried?

Erm the other day about money and my situation LOL

Do you have kids?

Not that i know of

Do you use sarcasm a lot?

Yeah tbh i say a lot of things sarcastically ironically etc but im not good at making it obvious so i have to clarify a lot when im serious or not

What sports do you play?

Anyone remember when i posted powerlifting everyday LOL uh i never told you all but i was nationally ranked, i also played softball and travel league up until like. Freshman year altho by freshman year my mom was forcing me. I also played volleyball from the start of middle school until my senior year when i just snapped and quit

Whats the first thing you notice about people?

Usually their demeanor because i judge a lot of people based on it, secondly their voice, thirdly their hairstyle because i forget peoples faces very easily because i either dont look at them or just dont pay attention but if i do pay attention to someones face im usually looking at their mouth and teeth as they speak

What's your eye color?

I can never tell and everytime i ask people have something different so dark blue grey green

Scary movies or happy endings?

Scary movies bore me, like id love to deconstruct the meanings and framing of dtuff in them but i just find them boring or hard to watch. Happy endings sweep

Any special talents?

I know how to make soap and lotion and a bunch of shit as well as knowing how to handle goats and other livestock pretty well

Where were you born?

Hospital.

Okay but fr Antioch California if anyone wants to do a compatibility chart *bats my lucious eyelashes at you*

Hobbies?

I like doing volleyball still with my friends, I'm trying to get more into gaming with my friends, I like writing, I like drawing, im getting into mtg, i play dnd a lot with friends and am planning out a campaign, and some more

Any pets?

I used to live on somewhat of a farm with rabbits chickens quail and a horse and other animals and i have 3 cats, charlie alice and clyde, and 2 dogs, sadie and Jaxson

How tall are you?

5'4 ive embraced my short king nature

Favorite subject in school?

I liked english a lot, as well as biology and chemistry classes, but my favorite was art classes becauss my art teacher didnt give me assignments and let me just go ham

Dream job?

I genuinely dont know anymore. I feel like evolutionary biology would be super fun, as well as getting either a piloting or train license, but currently my most feasible dream job is creative designer for video games or stuff like that

[cnnmairoll]

right i finished my happy vent, now the not so happy vent,,

this is just for me, i think writing this out will help me somehow.

i don't think I'm okay. I'm still breathing, I don't feel hungry, I don't feel sick, but I know I'm not taking care of myself properly.

I sleep a lot, or I don't sleep, I only eat 5 snicker bars a day as a meal, I hardly drink any water and all I do is rot in bed all day

I tell people I'm really busy with college, which i feel like i am, but im also doing so so poorly

i really tried to study and all, this is my dream afterall, to study psychology and become a psychologist one day. why do i feel so burnt out? why am i not doing any of my assignments? why am i skipping my classes because i do not feel like it? why am i late? what am i stressing about?

i still havent figured out about what has been going on with me lately. earlier today i cried for the first time since two months. i mean i still cry over movies and such but i guess this is where my breaking point was.

i was being a hassle for my team, i need to stop using my headphones because i know it fucks up my hearing and i genuinely believe i have a problem with hearing. but i guess im crying more with the fact i feel forgotten. Ive always been there, but why cant you see me? why cant you remember me?

i cant believe that was my trigger. I always know how I've never really stood out in a crowd, I've never been a social one, but it would be nice to feel remembered, seen, included for once in a bigger community besides my close friends. i cant believe i finally cried today and my skin burns, it hurts.

ah money.. i really do have a problem with spending. that i dont think i can write down because the guilt and anxiety had been eating me up as of late, keeping me awake, i hate the uneasy feeling in my stomach.

how do i reach out for help

[thequeerestkidintown]

🌟 GLOWING STAR - what do they think about when they look at the night sky? is there someone they want to star gaze with?

🌠 SHOOTING STAR - if they could make any wish with no repercussions, what wish would they make?

🎡 FERRIS WHEEL - are they someone who wants to kiss at the top of the ferris wheel?

i love how pretty the night sky is! i wont miss a lot when i eventually get out of uranium... but i will say that the way the stars look is something i love. one of the few perks of living in a small town i guess? i wish i knew more about the stars... i love how each one gets assigned meaning and names that are relavent to someone... a small fantasy of mine is staring up at the sky with someone i love and them telling me all about the constellations and such. just a silly fantasy... and definitely not something that could happen in uranium, but a girl can dream, alright?

wow... thats a deep one, huh? I don't know. I guess, just to truly find a fulfilling purpose in life someday? i mean... i dont know whats in store for my future, but all i want is to feel content someday, and to actually feel like i know what i'm doing. if that makes any sense whatsoever haha

why not! i will say, noel's not the only gay-ass romantic in the choir, and i think that if i had someone i really trusted, that'd be something id really like :)