#this was actually supposed to be a short lil paragraph as to why hazel never really yells but turned into a meta whoops

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quick hazel tidbit: this girl does not yell. in general, she’s just an all around simple, easy-going, rational person. i mean, sure, when a lot of people are talking & she needs to be heard/get their attention, she will raise her voice, but that’s about as far as it goes. brings her tone up a bit, then modulates it when attention is on her. also, when she’s really pissed, her voice will actually LOWER & she speaks VERY calmly, or she just gives them a death glare ( which is honestly more terrifying ). 

this also applies to whenever hazel’s upset/mad/freaking out. first of all, it takes a lot to get hazel to a point where she WANTS to yell or scream at someone. like, i’m talking damn near impossible. in canon ( & i use that term...loosely, at best ) there are about two times where hazel has lost her cool. TWO TIMES to date. 1) when jason said that they might be better off leaving nico in the jar, and 2) when the rock slide cut hazel+leo off from the others in the house of hades. 

to touch on the first one, that’s pretty significant bc jason & hazel are pretty close & they understand each other well. heck, hazel was one of the only people who hadn’t given up hope that jason was still alive after his disappearance & hazel was one of the only people jason remembered from camp jupiter (cough @rick cough). so i reckon they know each other pretty darn well. hazel would’ve been able to guess the reason behind jason’s thoughts, but she also loves her brother more than life itself sometimes, & her fear/frustration came out in that moment & it literally stunned everybody, ESPECIALLY JASON. the person who, arguably, has known hazel the longest at this point. but then she calms down after everyone agrees that they have to rescue nico ( otherwise she would’ve fought ).

& then we have the ICONIC SCENE where a rock slide/earthquake thing causes hazel+leo to be split from the rest of the group while they’re in the house of hades. hazel, quite literally loses her shit in the most dramatic way possible. that part’s in leo’s POV & he clearly mentions how she’s screaming, crying, pounding on the fucking rocks & how this is SO NOT LIKE HAZEL AT ALL that it kinda scares him a lil bit? & he doesn’t want to do anything that would set her off? once again, we have something keeping hazel from people she loves & cares for + being in a dangerous situation.

in my mind, this is something that has to do with hazel really repressing her emotions as a child with living in the Jim Crow south/being raised by a possessed mother/forced to revive a titan & then dying/coming back to life in a new era/being put into a camp that is harsh & not too friendly anyway. so like...there’s not a lot of room in her life to take time & come to terms with her emotions, so she has the habit of just...pushing them back down until she can get the time to deal with it. but that time never comes, so it’s all stored away until she literally bursts ( which is why i think another one of these “explosions” happens after the war & when she learns that leo is “dead” & subsequently blames herself ). hazel has issues with expressing her emotions in certain situations due to the lack of emotional support that camp jupiter/her childhood gave. 

which is why she holds onto her memories of sammy so much; why nico is a first priority for her; why she was so upset when jason disappeared; why she probably fell so easily for frank: bc they were all a source of emotional support for her & helped her express her feelings when no one else really tried to. & as time goes on, the closer her relationships get with others, the easier it is for her to come talk about her emotions in a healthy way ( painting/art also helps her as a sort of therapy, but that’s for another post ).

not to mention, she’s a fucking kid? like, the girl is a literal 13 year old. THIRTEEN YEARS OLD. do we all not remember that percy started this journey at twelve ( annabeth even younger ), & how being thrust into all of this was more than a little stressful?? at this point in the series percy is a seasoned veteran & a survivor of tartarus & he’s real fucked up by the end of it, so like imagine this girl, this child, LITERALLY DIES, then comes back to life to save the gods who let her die? the fuck? no wonder she doesn’t know how to express her emotions, preteens are the most emotionally constipated group of humans ever tbh.

tl;dr hazel levesque doesn’t yell or scream unless someone she loves is in immediate danger & she has no way to help them or the stress/frustration of being a demigod finally comes crashing down on her & she releases all of her pent up emotions :)