#this was a good year for me in terms of kpop lol all my favs released new music after a break

[roscoehamiltons]

if there’s one non f1 thing u need to know about me is that infinite are my number one favourite boy band and music artist of all time 💛

rest of my top artists and songs under the cut

didn’t expect shinee to make it to my top 5 tbh (i think the next top artist would be either taylor swift or txt), the top 5 songs aren’t surprising to me at all although maybe it’s cringe that a jonas brothers song made it on 😬 (in my defence, I haven’t streamed them since the joe/sophie divorce news has come out)

[sungbeam]

BIRB LORE TIME! (the last installment of yumi's uh idkwhatitis)

here's Lea. african grey parrot (did you know all african greys look exactly the same like there's no way i can recognise her if she's with another parrot sfkdjghdf)

we got her in 2016 when she was 11. her previous owners were moving and they wanted to give her to someone who would genuinely take care of her. they knew my dad and he went ahead and said his daughter (me) has a thing for the animal kingdom 💀 (true tho) and she is prob the right person

anyways we went to their place, met her and oh. i knew absolutely nothing about these parrots right. we took her to our home and they just told us what to feed her, how she plays, what she likes and dislikes, etc.

so african greys are very intelligent and bruh. this female sounds like an absolute MAN when she speaks the human tongue (i actually got scared when she first said something LOL). the previous owners were like a mom and two daughters and her daughters were babies when she got this parrot so they didn't train lea. bc of that, she does not really know how to fly/land and since she's spent basically all life in the cage, it's her safe territory now and she does not like to come out

she was also not used to men bc she lived with ladies and then here she is with my dad and big bro (my lil bro was like 10 so she was comfy around him) but she was the type to not speak in front of men AT ALL

anyways i did my research, we all did we've come a really, really long way. her comfy zone is very wide now. she's come from only sticking to certain foods (her fav chips, a few fruits and nuts) to basically eating and trying everything (she doesn't even look at her chips anymore) (the look on her face when she first tried a mango and loved it is sth i'll never forget). she now talks in front of everyone (parrots talk when they are happy so ig she's happy here :'))

from letting us barely pet her neck to now getting full body massages and letting me preen her (I FEEL LIKE HER MOTHER). from wanting to bite us to affectionately pretending to bite me now (im her fav human, no one else can try this). from getting sick every season bc she was used to a certain temperature to thriving in every season while we get sick LOL

i think it's time i start to get her to come out her cage. it's gonna be a very slow process since i'm not a professional and it's gonna be only her and me (and she might hurt my hands beyond repair lmao i need my hands to do my job man) anddd bc i'm the only person who can do this, yet...

i'm kind of allergic to her :)

but i love suffering, suffering is my middle name. so remember how i said i got cat allergies? that happened when we got this parrot. she used to stay in my room and these parrots have like this white powder thing on their skin that can cause allergies. so my nose being exposed to these allergens long term caused some damage alright (i got allergic to literally every other thing, flu all the time for years, got no quality sleep and constant headaches) andd i finally got surgery in 2022. my allergies are almost gone now but i still have to be careful around her (a tragic love story right there)

anyways i love her, she loves me, we understand each other pretty damn well (it's almost eerie lmao). we dance to kpop together. we sing together. her avg lifespan is 60+ so we have a bet going on on who lives longer :D (bet it's gonna be her-) also we were meant to be fr bc her prev owner has the same name as me so she never had to learn to say my name :D

BIRB LORE BIRB LORE!!! omg she's so pretty :'))) well ig in that case,,, all african grey parrots are pretty 😭😭 that's actually really interesting that every one looks alike to the next ... i wonder if there's like an evolutionary mechanism to that— ANYWAYS

no cuz u literally feel like ur the animal whisperer at this point LMAO like all the stray cats and now the parrot, but ig it's also a testament to the fact that ur a good person! i feel like u can almost always trust an animal's instincts when it comes to people vibes haha 😌 unless it's like cherry, that girl is so needy and moody w everyone i can't even be too sure that she likes me cuz i picked her up this morning and she was so good abt it, and then i put her down and she turned around and tried to eat my toe 🧍🏻‍♀️

awh im so glad she's gotten so much more comfortable now 😭 that's really sweet to hear abt this progression esp ur relationship with her :'))) tbh tho why am i not surprised that she was the one where ur allergies originated from 😭 you fr are just like defying death left and right skfndkfnfk idk man TT anyways . LOL UR BET W LEA ABT WHO'LL DIE FIRST IM YELLING SJFNEKFNJR im glad ur doing much better tho now after the surgery tho 😭

also wishing u luck w slowly getting her out of her cage :')) im sure you'll prevail w patience and lots of mangos!! omg aren't there specific gloves people use for birds? like so their talons don't scratch them or sumn?

thank u for sharing tho as always, i was very excited opening my inbox this morning !! 💖

[alittlehurtwithyourcomfort]

whump question challenge by @withalittlebitofwhump! thought it'd be fun to answer these all in one go, it's an old challenge but i found it and said "why not?"

if you're new to my blog, here's some info abt me and whump!

alright, here we go:

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1. Favorite whump trope(s)?

answer: hidden injury or collapse, preferably together! also prefer when it's from an abdominal wound (stabbing, GSW, etc)

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2. Least favorite whump trope(s)?

answer: anything to do with just regular sickness/emeto. or allergic reactions. not a fan of anything that i see as potentially embarrassing (?).

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3. Top 3 whump scenes and why?

answer: this is so hard??? omg. uh, okay:

1. all of the whump scenes in he is psychometric (i can't choose) they're the ones i rewatch CONSTANTLY, jinyoung's acting is amazing and it's got all my fav tropes

2. daredevil episode 2 because damn, they really gave us an entire whumpy episode so early in the series and it's AMAZING

3. the vault scene in be reborn (c-drama), the way it's filmed and also the acting, the length, it's SO GOOD.

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4. Top 3 characters to whump and why?

answer: (this is so hard lol)

1. buck (911) because he's got the relatability, the found family, and everything

2. keith (VLD), all the good tropes but only in fics, sadly

3. peter parker (MCU) again, because he's relatable and has (had) found family

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5. Favorite fandom for whump (show, series, etc)?

answer: currently it's gotta be 911! it's a treasure trove for found family whump.

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6. Do you prefer written or watchable whump?

answer: watchable for sure! though, i'm a huge consumer of whump fics.

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7. Do you also like hurt/comfort?

answer: i'm mainly a hurt/comfort person, actually! if there's no recovery/aftercare and comfort, the whump falls a bit flat imo.

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8. What do you think the difference between hurt/comfort and whump is?

answer: i'd say whump refers to the act of the character being hurt, and then hurt/comfort is the trope that includes whump.

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9. How would you explain whump to someone who’s not familiar with it?

answer: i'd say that whump refers to a character being hurt in some way, rather physically, emotionally, or psychologically. it's a trope that many enjoy, and it adds development and drama to a storyline!

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10. Is there any old whump you particularly enjoy? (say, pre 2000?)

answer: hmm, star wars comes to mind, as well as the OG macgyver, and the karate kid trilogy! right now i can't think of much else.

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11. Why do you think you like whump?

answer: i think i like it because of the interactions and drama (plus the "whumperflies" lol). i tend to like whump for characters i can relate to!

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12. When did you realize you liked whump?

answer: oh god, i've always known i liked it! it's such an integral part of my media consumption. when i discovered the community + fanfic, i was around ten or eleven (young, i know!). so probably around seven years ago, almost eight since i've been actually knowledgeable about the term.

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13. Favorite posts with whump (gifsets, picspams, etc)

answer: gifsets or whumplists, they help me find what to watch!

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14. Are you “out” to people in real life?

answer: mostly, yeah! my family knows, since my sister also enjoys whump (not as much as me, but still some!) and will recommend shows to me based on that.

some of my irl friends are avid fanfic readers/in fandoms and know the term well. :)

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15. How did you find the whump community?

answer: 1980's macgyver whump list :)

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16. Any unusual mediums you like for whump (plays, music, vlogs, etc)?

answer: some kpop music videos have really good whump scenes!

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17. Any meta about whump you’ve been dying to share?

answer: do not have an answer for this one unfortunately!

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18. Whump fic(s) you’d love to see?

answer: MORE. BUCK. WHUMP. also, to the lockwood and co. fandom, please write more gen lockwood whump with minimal/established romance. i need the fics.

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19. Whump you’re looking forward to? (Maybe something teased or something you haven’t seen yet?)

answer: AHHH 911 SEASON 6B!!! coma!buck for the win, y'all, i can feel it in my bones.

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20. Top 3 favorite whump fics?

answer:

1. kindness, what connects us by FandomLife54 on ao3 (911, buck whump, tsunami AU)

2. quintessence blues by SilenceIsGolden15 (VLD, keith whump, magical injuries)

3. of bikes and concussions by datleggy on ao3 (911, buck whump, misunderstandings, concussion)

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21. Tropes you think are overdone?

answer: car crashes (especially with little to no aftercare or injury)

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22. Tropes you think we could use more of?

answer: i love the "found" trope, where a character is injured and then subsequently discovered by friends.

i also think we could use more of the "injured character calls someone for help and passes out over the phone" trope. it's so good.

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23. Favorite sites/archives for consuming whump? (question by @dammittmarie )

answer: tumblr (obv), the whumpapedia is good, ao3 best fanfic site, and that's about all i use!

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24. Have your whump preferences changed recently? If so, why? (question by @fyeahvulnerablemen​)

answer: my preferences have honestly stayed pretty consistent! i've always loved hidden injury, abdominal wound, and collapse whump. however, i used to be rlly into panic attack-related whump and i don't rlly like it much anymore!

[lalilsa]

the thing about me not listening much to kpop anymore is just how frustrated i am lmao by listening kpop i mean new releases i simply don't care expect when it's a fav group which aren't many left that's why i feel so bored rn because most of my favorite groups either disbanded or are on a never ending hiatus and most new songs i listen too doesn't have the same feeling it used to have + kinda tired how nowadays it seems everyone is following the same concept ?? i mean i dont see much diversity as we used to have back in 2nd nd 3rd gen and i hate to sound nostalgic lmao also i kinda miss the weirdnesses when companies weren't afraid of putting their idols in the ugliest outfit/hair you've ever seen and do experimental shit and i know probably there are many examples of all of this till this day it's just not as common/mainstream anymore like cmon watch the fantastic baby mv and nowadays top groups mvs it's just not the same lol we need more nonsense and weird shit also the sexy concept is so rare now probably cause they be debuting 14yo toddlers idkk just listening to some old bangers and the industry is really satured ((btw not only kpop i think about music industry in general we only have the same type of music trending on spotify top 50 and we're having shorter and shorter songs like whattt where's the diversity where's my 5 min music hmm anyways)) also i kinda miss being more into kpop so probably will be listening to some new sounds i already love the last from viviz which i only found out about the existece like 2 weeks ago watching youtube shorts and coming to a fancam and going WHAT UMJI DEBUTED AGAIN ??? and finding out 3/6 gfriend were in the group literally made my day lol cause i had a smal gfriend obsession back in 2020/21 and right after they announced the disband and i was like no pls another one ??? i feel so frustrated w kpop because every new group i start listening to and be interested in somehow end up in the same direction (disbandment) like im not kidding it happened w sistar pristin 9muses laboum gfriend etc and the ones still in activity are honestly all half dead blackpink lol exo red velvet winner monsta x i mean of course it happens the time in which every group eventually will end like they need to follow theie lives do other projects and it's good when it's a decision they made after like 10 years working together (such as sistar) not something abrupt like what happened to pristin they were still rookies i mean shut uuuup or what happens to blackpink in releasing a comeback every 2 years only to have 8 new songs also completely hate the ones w 4 comebacks w mini albums every year i guess 2 a year it's absolutely fine like take a time to rest too lol but sometimes it seems there's no mid term it's 100 or 0.. hmm anyways that's it

[rizadyke]

hello, i saw your post abt loona n twice, and my reply was too long, so i thought i'd send you a long-ass ask instead.

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so like i just got into kpop a year ago so I know a bit abt twice and even less about loona.

for me, i personally divide twice songs into their early cutesy concept, their current mature n refreshing concept, and then their (slightly) "darker" concept. i'm not rly involved in the twice fandom, so i don't know if these are widely agreed-on categorizations, just my personal ones. there are also songs that don't fit into any of these concepts, but for the sake of length, i've skipped over them. heart attack by loona gives kinda cutesy vibes, so a few twice songs from their cute era might be your vibe, and then the feels is from their more refreshing era (e.g. right now). my personal favorite is their darker concept. here are some good songs from each era:

cutesy: knock knock, likey, cheer up, tt, what is love

refreshing: the feels, perfect world, alcohol-free

"darker": cry for me, more & more, hell in heaven

all of these also have mvs, except hell in heaven. my absolute fav videos are the mv for more & more and the kelly clarkson performance (not the mv :0) of cry for me.

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as for loona, i've only listened to a few of their songs, but heart attack might have similar upbeat vibes to hi high, hula hoop. some of their more popular ones that i've also listened to include why not?, so what, and PTT (paint the town). also if you haven't seen the mv for heart attack yet, you should bc it's cute n gay. actually i assumed that was one of the reasons why you liked it - it's actually how i got into loona LOL.

hope this helps! i'd love to hear your thoughts if you ever get around to listening to any of these, or if you ever need any more kpop recs!

Thank you SO so so much omg this was exactly what I was hoping someone would help me out with in terms of song recs omg ur mind is so big!! Thank u! Also I have NOT seen the heart attack mv I just am obsessed with the song but I’m literally on my way 2 watch it RN. I literally know nothing abt K-pop except when I was hyper focused on the black pink documentary and watch it liked three times in a row for some goddamn reason but I really wanted to listen to more girl groups so I really appreciate this :) thank u again legend!

[smolie]

in december i wrote a 2020 year music review for myself that i intended to post here BUT...because i was infamously restricted twice last year, i didn’t bother since you wouldn’t be able to read it anyway because it was not possible to view my blog hjfdhfd

now that my restricted era is (hopefully forever) over i just want to post it here for the sake of completion since i want to do the same thing this year

this is really long so if you actually read it ... idk you are insane in the membrane and i love you... but i genuinely don’t expect anyone to read this hjfdhjf i just like reflecting on the music i have listened to and be able to look back on what i enjoyed in certain stages of my life! okiiii bye 💗

january

mac miller - circles (album) it’s a bit funny that i worried putting my thoughts down about this album and now it turns out to be first on the list, chronologically of course … oh bittersweet irony </3 listening to this album is such a double edged sword, either way i am always hit with a truckload of feelings when i turn to this release.

this album came to me in a time of my life where i was slowly but surely sliding down towards rock bottom again just after i got out of it and thought i was okay. the times i’ve listened to this crying in the bathtub with a glass of wine….girl let’s not lol…. it’s almost strange how much i can relate to the thoughts another person brought to paper. the comfort this album brings me is otherworldly, i feel so understood by mac’s words and it’s my go-to “wallow in self-pity for a bit then come out stronger than before” album. then again, i feel a little sting when any of mac’s songs come on shuffle. a friend of mine said she cannot listen to artists who have passed because it feels too strange and most of the time i agree but this time, it’s so so different. this album would have been mac’s salvation, i can feel it. everything would have been a bit brighter and lighter for him after this, it would have had to be. i feel like i would do him a disservice if i did not listen to this album, so i will cherish this final gift from him as his legacy and my comfort. i miss him incredibly and am all the more thankful he shared his heart with us.

album favs: circles, good news, surf

tiny meat gang - broke bitch (single) MAN I TELL THAT BROKE BITCH IF YOU WANNA GET IN TUNE BETTER CHANGE YOUR WHOLE PITCH LIKE WOAH !!!!!!!!!! did that give you whiplash? hehe funny to say this about a song called broke bitch by a duo called tiny meat gang but this song actually means a lot to me! it came out shortly before their show in berlin and i almost exclusively listened to it on my 7+ hours train ride from one side of the country to the other to see my meat boys. this played out of the fat ass speakers at the venue when they stepped on the stage and i will never forget meeting them :’) also the song fucking slaps obviously

february

loona - [#] (mini album) ah yes, the most controversial loona release to date! i’m not gonna lie and say this sounded anything like i expected it to. but also, i have come to terms with the fact that loona release noise music now and personally i am here for it. why not did not have the endless energy of hi high or otherworldly vibe of butterfly, but it’s a hype song and i am always there for hype. i also have to say the b-sides were not as strong for me as on previous releases but i think i have to come to peace with the fact that loona will never top their debut mini for me. though if i can wish for one thing…… let loona have title tracks with a chorus in 2021? pls? crumbs?

album favs: so what, oh (yes i am)

tame impala - the slow rush (album) *lights cigarette* i’m listening to pretty underground music….i don’t think you’ve heard of this band….they are called tame impala *intro of the less i know the better starts playing* yes i am a basic white bitch and listen to like 3 alternative bands but damn i listen to them religiously. like any other basic bitch on this planet i found out about tame impala through the less i know the better and checked out their music. i wasn’t too much into this album as i was into currents but towards the end of the year, i was in a moody alternative music slump that took me back to this album and i like it a lot more now! most importantly, tame impala fulfills my primitive urge to listen to songs that exceed the 4 minute mark. something clicks in my brain when i see a song that is like 6:34 and chances that it ends up as one of my faves on a album are high. i enjoy tiktok like everyone else but this trend of 2:50 long songs needs to be stopped immediately.

album favs: borderline, lost in yesterday, it might be time, is it true, posthumous forgiveness

honorary mentions: onlyoneof - dOra maar, everglow - dundun

march

nct 127 - neo zone (album) ah, yes. the album that fundamentally changed me as a person <3 i’ve been listening to nct for a while, matter of fact i checked my top tracks 2019 playlist on spotify and cherry bomb was on there lol. i remember trying to get into them in 2018 when they released their regular-irregular album but the endless member & unit concept scared me off, so i only listened to a handful of songs without looking into them march 2020, the fateful month in which they released kick it and screencaps of jaehyun’s sexy ass tiddies in the kick it mv landed on my tumblr or twitter and i HAD to look up who this man is…...remember when i thought jaehyun was my ult for like, 2 weeks? me neither, johnny suh only in this house <3

anyway, i checked out this album and by god, is this pure kpop perfection. last time i listened to a god tier no skip album like this was … maybe the perfect red velvet? hype songs, well crafted ballads, love songs that make me wanna learn the lyrics, genuinely fun and interesting pop songs, this album has it all. somehow, the way this album is crafted greatly reminds me of brown eyed girls’ sound-g, it has the same vibe, concept and mix of genres to me, i’m not entirely sure how to explain. anyway, this album is one of my favorites of all time and even though i’ve obsessively listened to it (lastfm says 1.4k scrobbles as of today, december 7th…) i am still not tired of this. i recommend this to anyone who loves kpop tbh, you will have a good time with this!

other than being just a musically solid album, the emotional ties i have with this are …. isabel stop making albums your emotional support 2021 challenge. i’ve listened to this release all spring lockdown, this basically played at every waking hour for all of march and april. the promotion time of this era and lockdown are deeply intertwined for me and so i am always remembered of all the nct content i consumed during that time which inevitably cheered me up so much. this album really means a lot to me :’)

album favs: kick it, mad dog, love song, boom

honorary mentions: itzy - wannabe,

the weeknd - after hours (album) my dear melchanoly, was one of my favorite releases of 2018, so i had been desperate for a new release by abel and boy did he not disappoint. the perfect thotty, dirty emo 80s, making it clap while crying in the club album! this is a no skip from top to bottom and all i can say is that the grammys can go to hell <3 abel aoty! there is really not much i can say about this album, the flawless production, lyrics and sound speak for themself. my only criticism is that i feel overwhelmed by 14 songs, especially when some of them are really long. a few songs greatly overshadow the weaker tracks on the album for me but i still love this to death.

album favs: escape from LA, blinding lights, after hours, faith

dua lipa - future nostalgia (album) after the weeknd’s masterpiece of an 80s inspired pop album i was really looking forward to this. i greatly enjoyed the pre-releases, i played don’t start now and physical up and down, they are still some of my favorite songs released this year! when i first listened to the album i really liked it, songs like boys will be boys or pretty please sound like fillers to be but the rest is solid. yet a month after release you couldn’t catch me listening to this and i cannot even really tell you why. i think it was a combination of the following: 1) i greatly overplayed dsn and physical to the point where i didn’t want more of the pop 80s sound that the album has 2) there were other releases at the time that caught my attention and interest more like neo zone or after hours 3) dua herself….girl….she really gave it her all this year to make herself as unlikeable as possible. nationalist propaganda and the constant traveling during a fucking pandemic were really the kicker. i can barely stand seeing her on my instagram feed anymore, much less listen to her album. her having the nerve to go “we’re in a pandemic lol” when people asked about an animated music video …. if you don’t shut the hell up lmao … also, she takes the crown for the corniest album opener of all time. i nearly closed spotify when i heard future nostalgia (the song) lmao

album favs: don’t start now, physical, levitating, hallucinate

honorary mentions: megan thee stallion - savage

april

apink - dumhdurum (song)

listen, i’m not gonna sit here and pretend like this mini album interested me in the slightest but god, the title is such a banger.i’m so sick, eung eung and dumhdurum are a holy trilogy that i will defend until the end of time! i really hope apink stick to this mature, elegant concept, it suits them so well and goes well with their new sound. come back soon queens <3

rina sawayama - xs (song) i feel like i’m gonna catch some hands here … xs is an absolute banger, the guitar riffs and disruptive sounds really get me going every damn time! but the rest of the album … tell me why it doesn’t catch me?! i literally cannot explain. i need to take an hour, sit down and do nothing but listen to the album from top to bottom once again and see if my thoughts change but right now i only care about xs.

chungha - stay tonight (song) drama! vocals! dance break! choreography! this release served it all. i listened to this obsessively during the time of the release and it still holds up today. can we talk about the run chungha had with gotta go > snapping > stay tonight? lord have mercy.

honorary mentions: april - lalalilala, nct dream - ridin’

may

lady gaga - chromatica (album) the immense disappointment i have in this album is tough to put into words lol. any other artist might have gotten away with this release but gaga having the discography that she has, well … she doesn’t get away with it. this has underwhelming all over it. i enjoyed the pre-releases and my hope was high but the rest just doesn’t live up what i expected, i can’t even say why. it’s just underwhelming pop for someone of gaga’s calibre. i listened to this album during release week and then never again till december to write this list and i can see why.

album favs: rain on me, sour candy ft. blackpink, stupid love

baekhyun - delight (mini album) it’s confession time … this is a name i never would have expected on any of my music lists to end up. exo has always been one of those boy groups i casually listened to. i greatly enjoy their title tracks and a handful of side tracks, i have a few members that i keep an eye on more than others but that’s about it. baekhyun was never one of those members i had any interest in, matter of fact i always thought he was kinda vanilla and boring 😭 i didn’t even plan on listening to this release if it wasn’t for his association with superm and thus nct, so i gave it a shot and we have no choice but to stan. his voice is like butter and can cut sharp at the same time, his versatility is insane. i dived a bit more into baekhyun related content and he is so likeable, it’s almost ridiculous. this production is absolute god tier, not a single skip on this mini. late spring/early summer i had this weird urge to listen to songs with mellow voices but still a banger instrumental and i wholeheartedly blame this release. matter of fact, this album is so good, i had to buy a physical copy. Y’ALL. THIS IS A BIG DEAL. i haven’t bought a kpop album of anyone that’s not holy top 3 (brown eyed girls, loona, nct) in like … idk, 5 years?! baekhyun’s impact. i’m a fan now <3

album favs: candy, r u ridin’?, love again

ak aussenkontrolle - in meinem benz (song) this … is very unrelated to this entirely list but i had to put it on here. i miss my ex boss and our 3 hour drives to meetings in the south of the country where we would blast trashy german rap music </3

nct 127 - neo zone: the final round (repackage) *airhorns* REEEPACKAGE TIIIIIME!!! my first nct era that i experienced from start to finish! i remember watching nct 127’s beyond live with luna where these mfs performed punch and we finished the concert having no idea what this song sounded like. the structure is so unusual and the intro catches me off-guard every time just to hype me up beyond compare. not gonna lie, the fact that johnny has exactly one (1) line hurts but! it’s my favorite line of the entire song! possibly related to the fact that it’s his line but let’s ignore that ….

album favs: punch, make your day

kim woo seok - red moon (song) i’m not even gonna lie to you. i have not a single idea who this man is. you could put him right in front of me and i wouldn’t know … all i know is that he has a banger song. i saw him perform this on a music show that i watched for nct and i ended up loving the song … thanks for your service sir, whoever you are ...

june

stray kids - go live (album) 2020 was kind of the year of boy groups for me, i’m so sorry … stray kids promoted simultaneously with nct 127 so i ended up hearing their title track and holy hell, is that a song. god’s menu is hype from start to finish. it reminds me of good ol’ 2nd gen noise boy group song a lá b*g b*ng fantastic baby. just pure hype and fun noise. i am forever grateful to witness the birth of the line cooking like a chef, i’m a five star michelin. the title track impressed me so much that i ended up checking out the entire album which i rarely ever do with boy groups and what is even rarer is that i enjoyed the b sides lmao!!! it’s not an album that i would put on and just enjoy from start to finish but it has some really solid tracks! this release made me want to keep an eye on stray kids, they seem like a really fun bunch.

album favs: god’s menu, TA, airplane

seventeen - left & right (song) the boy group run continues … same thing with stray kids, seventeen promoted during punch era so i heard their song while watching some music station show for nct and i heard this and was sold. solid, fun pop with the catchiest pre-chorus in history and a banger chorus. i listened to the entire mini and can’t say it really caught my interest so this is a title track only release for me.

dishonorary mentions: twice - more & more (i hate this song so much lol)

honorary mentions: ryu sejeong - tiger eyes, monsta x - fantasia, chloe x halle - do it

july

irene & seulgi - monster (mini) this is a weird release because it’s good. the title track is fun enough, the b sides are dope. but my issue with this is that it’s nothing new. this sounds exactly like a red velvet release. i get that they didn’t want to a  joy, seulgi, irene, yeri release only and went for the sub-unit route instead, but why not be experimental and stray away from the usual sound of the group? also, whoever made monster and not naughty the title track deserves to be spat on. at least the choreography here is more interesting and “experimental” for kpop standards. also, why only a seulgi solo and no irene? i have no idea how reveluvs reacted to this release but this has rushed written all over it.

album favs: monster, naughty (i’m counting this to the mini idc), uncover

exo-sc - 1 billion views (mini) doing my part as a filthy casual exo listener. this release goes in the same category as baekhyun’s delight where i like the album so much that i HAD to get a physical copy. i don’t know what they put in the title track for it to be so diddly darn addictive but it clearly worked. the only bad thing about this release is how criminally mismanaged it was by sm, when i get you lee sooman ...

album favs: 1 billion views, on me, say it

baekhyun - garden in the air (song) i told you i’m a loyal baekhyun fan now <3 king releases and i listen, that’s just how it goes now! this is a cover of a boa song and i really love his version. there is not much to say except that it’s a really smooth song and his voice absolutely carries the track. i enjoyed this much more than i thought i would!

hyoyeon - dessert (song) YOU KNOW WHAT I DESERVE??? DESSERT!!!!!!! *insert tik tok challenge here* imagine if miryo featured on this instead of the ethnic hip girl … why can’t we have nice things. anyway, a banger!

johnny - sunny side up episode 1 set (spotify playlist, actual set) johnny being the skilled, talented, multi-faceted king that he is has been dj-ing since before debut (not me acting like i was around at that time lmao) and thus he decided to bless our quarantined, lockdowned asses with an online dj set! that was the most turned up sunday morning i ever had in my entire life. this set kicked off an edm/house/techno affinity that i had for the following couple of weeks. this set is an absolute banger, i would go insane to this in the club. he has an amazing ear for transitions and drops and i still just put on this set on the regular when i have cleaning to do or so. he could fill the void that rona and thus no clubbing in 2020 left in my heart and i’m so happy he decided to share this with us <3 now … john … sunny side up episode 2 pspspspspsps

honorary mentions: gfriend - apple, jessi - nunu nana

august

cardi b ft. megan thee stallion - wap (song) late summer 2021. we are vaccinated, icu beds are free, barely any new cases, clubs are open, this song plays and i can finally make it fucking clap.

troye sivan - in a dream (mini album) a cute mini album! nothing life-changing or as exciting as previous releases but easy (haha!) to enjoy. i really, really enjoy easy, can always count on troye for a dreamy sound.

album favs: easy

honorary mentions: itzy - not shy

september

wonho - love synonym pt. 1: right for me (mini album) honestly? i know like, 3 monsta x songs. i never bothered to get into them and maybe i never will, but it was difficult to ignore the whole wonho & monsta x mess that went on. i have absolutely no memory of why i decided to check out this release, i guess i was curious what he was going to do and … i was positively surprised lol. open mind is the exact time of song i had been so desperate all summer (remember mellow vocals with banger instrumentals? yeah) and uhm … can’t ignore the obvious … mr wonho is fucking fine. sir, you just gained a fan … now, where is love synonym part 2?? huh?????

album favs: open mind, i just, losing you

joji - nectar (album) this one is on tiktok. i heard gimme love in a bunch of tiktoks and had to look up the song and here we are. what an album! it came right as seasonal depression started to hit and accompanied me for a good chunk of autumn. at this point one has to ask if joji can ever really miss? the entire album is a no skip, it’s almost difficult to narrow down my favorites if my favorites weren’t so damn god tier!!!

album favs: gimme love, ew, tick tock, pretty boy, your man

super m - tiger inside / 100 / drip (songs) okay, listen. technically tiger inside & 100 were already released in august. instead of those three songs i was gonna write about the entire album until i realized i really don’t give a fuck about it 😭 i really only care about those three songs. and YES, i unironically like 100. is it a good song? no. but neither is jopping and that fucking bangs. i don’t turn to superm for life-changing, profound music, i turn to them for a good time LOL and that’s what they deliver every time! that being said, taeyong’s VROOM VROOM, UHMM UHMM, GRRRAHHHH verse is life-changing and profound! speak your truth king! also i wish drip was a b side for nct 127 that song is so damn sexy

taemin - never gonna dance again act 1 (album) this isn’t kpop, this is taemin pop. taemin never misses and the fact that hw*s* won dance performance over taemin is a literal hate crime. i will never forget the industry for this daylight robbery … anyway, nice album!!!!

album favs: criminal, black rose, waiting for

stray kids - in life (repackage) *airhorns* REPACKAGE TIIIIME 2.0!!!! i was on the edge of my seat waiting what stray kids were going to deliver after i greatly enjoyed god’s menu. i was still not over listening god’s menu when the repackage came out so i didn’t listen to it right away and now i greatly regret the few days i could have listened to back door earlier </3

album favs: back door, any

jackson wang - pretty please (song) i’m not gonna pretend like i ever listened to a song by jackson ever before. he is short king from got7 in my head and that’s all! i don’t even remember why i listened to this song but all i know is that it slaps severely. i love the wong kar wai inspired music video and the choreography is fun too! i’m gonna check out more of his music <3

honorary mentions: fromis9 - feel good, knk - ride

october

blackpink - the album (album, duh) i don’t even know what to say about this … this might be the weirdest release on the list for me. there are song i absolutely fucking hate (ice cream …) and songs i get my life to (pretty savage) on here and the discrepancy just gives me massive whiplash. i would never put this album on and listen to the whole body of work, i just cannot with the brain damage it gives me. i am still stuck in 2016, begging for bp to release music like whistle/boombayah/stay/playing with fire but i think i need to give up on that wishful thinking … i am just grateful we a got a title track with actual lyrics in the chrous for once.

album favs: pretty savage, lovesick girls

nct - nct 2020 resonance pt. 1 (album) this era was … a ride. nct 2020 happening was near inevitable but with covid it got pushed back so far, i started to believe it wasn’t even going to happen. i was semi-terrified of what was going to happen during a comeback with 21 (now 23!!) member group since i only experienced nct 127 comebacks so far and uhh … a LOT happened lmfao but let’s keep this about the album … i had no idea what was going to hit me. johnny having effectively 3 lines in nct 2018 did not give me much hope and after he got denoted to no line treatment in punch again, i was ready to not even have any expectation but this release changed everything. make no mistake that most of my favorite songs are units with johnny, we knew that was gonna happen lmaooo they dropped the teaser video for misfit and i thought i had my favorite song in the bag and then faded in my last song happened. y’all. JOHNNY SINGS? LIKE? ACTUALLY SINGS? DOESN’T GET FORCED TO RAP OR TALK-SING? MY MAN’S VOCALS??? OH MY GAAAAHD! this song is dramatic, theatrical, emo, it serves vocals and rap, it has catchy english and korean lyrics, this is THE song, the ULTIMATE song. i love this song so much, i want to belt it on top of my lungs in the pouring rain. apart from fimls, i also loveeee misfit, that was to be expected after i was going completely insane over the track video. johnny has like 3 lines but again they are iconic (WARNIN’! NCT WE MOBBIN’!) and i just enjoy the track too much to be upset over that. nectar. holy fuck. nectar!!!! wayv never disappoints with their thotty songs, they now have an absolute god tier hoe-ly song trinity with love talk > bad alive > nectar. the first chorus and hendery’s first verse (CHOP CHOP CHOP!) get me every time, this song is so insanely good i am severely upset i cannot sing along to it :( music, dance has nct 127 written all over it in bold letters, it’s so inherently 127’s sound!!!! i love this song so much, it’s so fun, upset and has massive dance-ability, i wish we had gotten a stage for it but i guess you can’t have everything in life </3 make a wish……………………………..the cursed unit. i don’t want to say anything about this except that, unfortunately, the song is fun and i enjoy it. the end. overall, this album is so insanely solid. i know i talk about my favorites A LOT but i genuinely do not dislike a single song on here, this is an absolute no skip album! that’s it. see you for resonance part 2!!!!!

album favs: FADED IN MY LAST SONG !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!, misfit, nectar, music dance, make a wish

loona - 12:00 (mini album) controversial loona release 2.0! i don’t know what it is, but somehow they managed to lace the words di da dam di dam di dam dam dam dam di dam (yeah) with pure crack. i fucking love why not, i would even go as far to say it’s my 2nd favorite title track. that is right, i think it’s better than butterfly (btw: hi high > why not > butterfly > so what). so much was strange this comeback, from the inexplicable concept + teasers, the outfits, the styling (yves….i mourn your hot girl era) but the title track is just SO good, SO fun, SO catchy that i am willing to ignore it all. i also enjoy the b sides much more than on #, they are much more memorable to me. and now … HASEUL RETURN…………….i purely live to see the next loona comeback at this point

album favs: why not, voice, universe

twice - i can’t stop me (song) thank fuck twice released a good song this year. if more & more had been the only 2020 release, that would have been the real tragedy. not gonna lie, i still haven’t listened to the full album, it just keeps slipping my mind. but! i’m going to! until then i’m gonna bop to i can’t stop me.

ariana grande - positions (album) the way this album has people upset is so funny. i am a huge dangerous woman fan myself, it’s my fave ariana album to date but she has said repeatedly that this is not the sound she is striving for. now she has her coin and can do whatever she wants in music and if that is r’n’b then fuck! we have to live with it! lmao! i can live with the sex theme of the album because it’s delivered in a fun way? but it’s getting a bit old...if the next album is about riding dick only too idk how much i would enjoy that. i would probably always come back to ari because i like her voice so much but girl, there are other topics to sing about, i promise! anyway! i like this album, it’s one of those where i can hit shuffle and enjoy it in the background while doing other stuff.

album favs: positions, 34 + 35, love language, my hair, pov

tiny meat gang - sofia (song) ayyy, it’s my meat boys :’) ending the year the same way they started it, with a banger! i absolutely love the guitar instrumental, the melancholic love song type sound paired with the theme of singing about loving a robot … yup, that’s creativity and talent right here! this makes me so freaking desperate for a new ep and i genuinely have no idea how far or close we are to one but!!! i am always waiting!!!

noel - push (ep) this is something i absolutely did not expect. noel (of tiny meat gang!) released his first ep ever and i was absolutely wowed. noel has it all, the voice, the talent, the creativity and all it took him was the confidence to finally put something out and i’m so happy he did. he gets real personal on bus back, more than ever before and i always get a bit emo listening to this track </3 this man is gonna go places and i’m so happy to witness his journey.

album favs: crow, head sunk, bus back

honorary mentions: sam smith - diamonds

november

taemin - never gonna dance again act 2 (album) i’m gonna say it. idea is better than criminal. the chorus drop???? when he goes MY AH AH  MY AH AH MY AH MY IDEA MY MY IDEAAAAAA A-A-A A-A-A???? bitch … tell me you can sit still, i won’t believe you. i like part 2’s title track more, but part 1’s b sides are more interesting to me. either way, taemin delivered as expected!!

album favs: idea, impressionable, exclusive

nct - nct 2020 resonance pt. 2 (album) part two, baby! we made it! part 2 had more mellow, ballad-y songs with my everything, i.o.u. and all about you, overall less drama than part 1 but i still enjoyed it. work it is one of those controversial songs where you despise it with your entire being or you defend this top tier noise till the end and i am absolutely the latter. the agony of not being able to listen to it and seeing the timeline so divided nearly killed me, but i have concluded that people who hate work it have never felt joy in their life <3 honestly my opinion cannot be counted because i eat up anything johnny participates in … biased ass… what i’m not gonna talk about is resonance (the song), this absolute mess of a “remix”. the audacity sm had to release this as a single is insane. anyway!! this era was a rollercoaster ride. all the interactions truly made me interested in members of other units more. hendery (the rise and fall …), yangyang my beautiful son, jeno aka blue hair guy, chenle the chaos kid and xiaojun after he made make a wish his bitch in particular! all the interactions between the units were so fun to witness and it was fun while it lasted but i am … so glad it’s over lol. i miss nct 127, i miss some peace, i hope the boys get to rest for a bit and so does my bank account.

album favs: work it, 90s love, i.o.u., raise the roof

miley cyrus - plastic hearts (album) not in a thousand years would i have expected a miley release to be on here. this girl does everything to be absolutely unlikeable in my eyes but after severely banging out to her heart of glass cover, i was really excited for this and it did not disappoint. what is disappointing is that it took her so long to find a sound that fits her like a glove. i believe many people miss out on this release after her previous history and i nearly would have done the same. this alt/rock influenced pop does her voice so many favors and i really hope she sticks to this direction, i love this album greatly!!

album favs: heart of glass, midnight sky, night crawling ft. billy joel, wtf do i know

kai - kai (mini album) just. imagine debuting with an album like that. lol. what a god tier big dick move. we all knew whatever this release was gonna be, above all it was going to be sexy and boy were we RIGHT!!!! mmmh is exactly as thotty as i needed it to be and the b sides give me everything from r’n’b to trap. i love this release and i love that it’s only the beginning of kai! like!! he is only gonna gain even more experience and become even more powerful!! what the fuck!!!!!

album favs: mmmh, ride or die, hello stranger, nothing on me

honorary mentions. gfriend - mago

december

nothing? wtf?? 😭 no interesting release happened,,,,half the time i listened to christmas songs anyway lol

pre 2020 releases i only found this year

mgmt - little dark age (album, 2018) & oracular spectactular (album, 2007) another tiktok serve. i found little dark age through a tiktok trend and ended up really liking mgmt. they fit perfectly into my autumn/winter moody alt/rock mood that i had going on and i’m happy they have so much more music that i can check out!

artist favs: little dark age, electric feel, time to pretend

tame impala - currents (album, 2015) everyone’s favorite basic alt bitch album! i enjoyed this more than the slow rush for a good chunk of time, it also fit right into my alt rock autumn mood. i really love this album, like previously mentioned it has my favorite long ass tracks on there but also a good amount of short or medium long tracks. i’m still busy enjoying currents and the slow rush but i can’t wait till i finally take the leap to dive into their other releases because i’m loving everything i’ve heard so far.

album favs: the less i know the better, let it happen, new person same old mistakes

joji - ballads 1 (2018) after liking nectar so much, checking joji out was a given and i just love this album. only when i listened to this i realized i heard slowly dancing in the dark a few times on tiktok lmao that cursed app man … i would say i love nectar a bit more but this is still a fantastic album!!

album favs: slowly dancing in the dark, attention, test drive, yeah right

jus2 - focus (mini album, 2019) in my “mellow moody bangers” phase i was scouring playlists for more songs and i think i found focus on me first which fitted right into the niche i was looking to fill and i ended up enjoy this whole release! only later i realized this is a sub-unit from got7 lmao how come i enjoy solo or unit releases by got7 members but their group discography never interested me? anyway, very sexy ep!

album favs: drunk on you, focus on me, love talk

knk - sunset (song, 2019) part of my mellow bangers playlist. very sexy, i can imagine this as a runway song! i have no idea who knk are but given the fact i enjoyed two of their songs so far maybe i should look into them lol

baekhyun - city lights (mini album, 2019) i am repenting for my sins of missing out on baekhyun releases by consuming his music at an exorbitant rate. un village is one hell of a title track that i didn’t appreciate before, but i feel like in 2020 my music interests started to vary and i love the groovy r’n’b and string sound of this song so much. i also love stay up to death, the vocals baekhyun serves here are unreal. his BABY WE CAN STAY UP!!!!!!! gets me every single time!!!! what a mini!

album favs: un village, stay up

mac miller - swimming (album, 2018) i’ve listened to this album before 2020 but i had the urge to put this on here. this is going to sound so corny, but if i had to pick one song to be my life’s title track, it would be ladders. the hope this song gives me is unreal, it feels like a light at the end of the tunnel. this album is so fantastic, i love the upbeat instrumentals paired with sometimes gloomy lyrics are so incredible, mac was truly one of the greatest artists of our time. this album is  so outstanding and i miss him every day.

album favs: ladders, jet fuel, 2009, self care, perfecto

doja cat - hot pink (album, 2019) i can never decide if i like doja or not but the album slaps lol that’s it come on tiktok queen

album favs: say so, juicy, like that, streets

my fav 2020 playlists

slapping mellow

neo culture technology

malcolm

why go to therapy when this playlist exists?

top songs 2020

(by spotify)

[onalooooonghiatus]

Happy New Years!!!

So to be totally honest I am *thrilled* to get rid of 2018... But I figure it’s time to honor the few major highlights and the people (the ones I can tag on here at least) that helped me survive the hell year...

So without further ado-some highlights of my 2018:

January: Coming to terms with being bisexual and consequently my first couple times coming out. It wasn’t the first time I’d considered my sexuality but it was the time I finally decided to accept it despite what it meant in regards to my family and how I was raised

February: Joining a kpop dance group at my college (after refusing my friends for about a full year) that has helped me form some of the closest friendships I now have and teaching me to be more self confident and brave

March: I underwent so much turmoil this month... from leaving a group that took up a majority of my life for a while and the resulting losing a plethora of people I once considered to be friends... to hearing terrifying news that would traumatize me to this day... It was a hell month. BUT it gave me a chance to overcome these things. I worked to move on from my toxic friends... I worked on overcoming that trauma and push past it... I’m not perfect with either but I’m damn proud of how strong I’ve become

May: My college friends threw me a surprise birthday party and honestly that meant the world to me

June-August: The hell months that were nothing but absolute misery... But like March I cannot help but be insanely proud that I overcame them

September: Things started to look up as I went back to school and I secured closer friendships and started taking more time for myself

October: I got to see BTS in concert... My friends all said it was well deserved because of all the ordeals I had suffered that summer but I know that from now on it’s a memory I’ll carry with me that I can use the next time I have a panic attack or feel overwhelmed or like things won’t be ok. I breathed the same air as BTS. I heard them sing two of my favorite songs live and I got to hear the song that brought me into the fandom in the first place. One of the best days of my entire life. I also taught my first dance piece for the korean org and it went AMAZING!

November-December: I made my first film and it’s actually pretty good! Jungkook would be proud!!! But overall, I worked hard and I dealt with stress and I made myself proud. And maybe that’s all that matters. My biggest takeaway from this year is that I’ve struggled like I never have before but I made myself proud because I perservered.

Of course I couldn’t have made it through without my incredible friends who helped me every step of the way~

@alianovnaplisetsky wow your url never gets easier... You’re my little sis and I couldn’t live my life without you... I can’t wait to see what amazing things you do in 2019 and I am so excited to be able to watch you grow into someone incredible

@jjksmanggaettok hey you... tbh idk what to say other than I love you... you’re always there for me and I don’t know that I could have done ANYTHING this year without your constant support. You’re the best. My seoulmate.

@donottouchmeyoumuggle yooooooo mel idk what to say to you either lmao... you’re always there for me to vent to, the reason I smile goofily at my phone, and one day I hope we actually get to hug and eat jalapeño chips... let’s make this happen in 2019???

@lucrew987 let’s keep getting closer and bothering mel haha you’re so much fun to talk to and ily lots too!

@supermassiveaccio WE DONT TALK A LOT AND I MISS YOU SO MUCH! But per normal you’re one of my fav ppl and I love you a lot (also I’m caught up on the SNK manga so we NEED TO TALK)

@riplizz we don’t talk a lot and that makes me sad but I love you and I’m always watching from a far (that sounds creepy I’m sorry lmao)

@kpopluvwriter I reached out to you at a really low point and you helped me through it and now I’d like to think we’re friends. I’m always here if you need and you’re the sweetest for always being so kind to me!

@golddustphan Honestly our conversations never fail to make me smile. You’re teaching me so much and one of the kindest people I know.

@listen-away we don’t talk a lot right now but you were a huge part of my 2018 and ily a lot!

@i-justanothergirl-blog LIL SIS honestly if you read my year summary you’ll understand why we became so close-but even beyond the tickets you’re someone I really appreciate having in my life... you’re a huge cheerleader and the sweetest person... you also have a talent for tagging me in a Jungkook post just when I need it most

@ishqiya thanks for being patient with me but we do also have a lotta fun haha our conversations are never boring

And of course to my lovely purple heart anon who put a smile on my face at some of my toughest moments

I’m sure there are some people I forgot-and I am sorry-just dm me to yell at my dumb self lol

Happy new year my lovely friends! Here’s to hoping I’m less of a wreck this year and that we can have more fun!!!

[kimp05]

So I just finished Because This Is My First Life, and it was AMAZING!!! I can’t believe it took me 2-3 years to finally come around to it! It is definitely one of my favs now (currently in my drama collection file :). Now I understand the pile of gifsets on my dash when this drama was aired lol. I personally thought there’s no one else that can have such a strong chemistry with Jung So Min as Seo In Guk can, but I was wrong! Lee Min Ki!!!

Now I’m watching Shopping King Louie. It’s cute. I’m on episode 10 and it’s good, watchable but not something I think I will save as a fav. The otp are adorable. They’re so innocent.

Also watching a cute Taiwanese drama called Brave to Love. It’s available on Viki. It’s quite cute. A little slow. Watching it for the cute otp. The actor playing the male lead has a very tragic, sad past and has been gone for 2 years after the incident. This is his comeback drama and I’m glad to see him again.

Anyways, just a little post on what I’m currently watching. Also is anyone as excited as I am for Her Private Life with Park Min Young and Kim Jae Wook??? Because......umh......I AM!!!!! Guess who’s watching it?? hahaha

Also, I know I haven’t post much for the last couple of weeks. Well, for all those who follow kpop news, you all know about the scandal going on. The scandal involved an individual that I used to adore because he was on a show I loved. I was in shocked and to be honest I didn’t know how to react to such news so I took a break from kpop. I’m slowly coming to term with everything and have accepted the actual fact. So here I am back on here again :)

[seokjins]

hi, the more i sink in to the kpop world, the more depressed i feel. from one side, it makes me feel better to watch the performances, my fav idols, but on the other side that gap between them doing what they actually love and succeeding and me just sitting in front of a laptop it's just overwhelming... like how can it makes you feel both: small piece of happiness and much bigger sadness mixed with longing for sth to happen in your life... like i know i will never meet the idols etc... 1/2

2/2 i’m sorry for just venting it all out here, can’t sleep and scrolling through tumblr and yt. i just wanted to share with someone, maybe you felt the same at some point in your life? how to cope with it… like sometimes i wish i never stumbled upon kpop… btw, i love your blog and your dance analysis (although i know nothing about dance lol)

hi anon, ur right: i’ve definitely been in the same position! in some ways, i still am. i’ve been seriously into kpop for around 2/3 yrs (expansion from casual listener) and it never gets any easier having fallen in love w idol-dom and the kmusic culture. i’ve been around the arts my entire life, so it was always hard for me coming to terms with the fact that 1) i’ll never be talented or pretty enough to be chosen as a trainee in the first place and 2) part of it is also because i never got up off my ass to chase my dreams

so i understand ur thoughts. it’s just. it’s so tiring and it makes me cry sometimes, seeing these people who really sacrificed everything for their art & went through years of doubt before they saw success at all. it’s…not something i’m brave enough to do, actually, and it’s been renewed in the past couple months – this fear of being stagnant and wasting my life. 

i keep telling myself that i should get up, that i should take risks, that i should know the taste of struggle but also there’s a comfortable road that’s somewhat waiting for me & it’s difficult not to take it . 

honestly there’s really no way to say “this is how i got over it” because it’s not just a facet of kpop culture. you see it everywhere: the success of people who struggled and then made it to the glory point, i guess. like constance wu, who recently made it on the big screen after yrs of being rejected, sleeping on her friends’ couches in LA, etc etc

frankly, i can’t offer you much advice (or much good advice), but i can empathize with you. i know ur heart, or pieces of it at the very least, and knowing that ur not the only one feeling how u feel can be enough sometimes. i dont know. we’ll figure it out together. i’m still picking dead dreams up from the ground. it’s hard it’s hard, it’ll never get easier, but it was and it is hard for your favorite idols too, so i think we should just take it one step at a time and see where it takes us

salvaging the thing that you wanted the most when you were a kid, but tossed aside because of “you can’t get a job doing [insert here]” or “you’ll never make it because [insert here]” is what i’ve been trying to do. maybe you can try too…not struggling to be an idol, but rather struggling for what makes you unique. for what makes u excited, what makes u want to pursue a career in something different than the one you’ve got already. i don’t know haha

i just put down some words and i hope one of them hits. lmk if they didn’t, maybe i can try again? and lmk if they did too, then we can share some misery lol. thank u for the message !!!! i really needed to talk abt this whole thing too

[aotvfilm]

Hiiiii!!!!!!!!! :D

[insert gif of Harry waving crazily and smiling broadly!]

Noooo we must give the pets all the love, right?! Thank you so much!

ESCAPADE IS LIKE--- Frick. I really love it, but it's between that and Y&B for me, and I relate to Harry in Y&B more, so that's always the one that takes the cake for me. But yes, the playlist is fantastic, and I love the ambiance and energy it adds to Dolce's wonderful writing! You have given me an idea; make playlist, then write fic, then add playlist! Ha! Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh thank you so much, that's going on my phone to read late at night--- slow burn is the best. Do you have any tropes you like in fanfiction?

OH WOW Rock me, that's such a song LOL! Was Louis always your 'bias'? (Kpop term because I've forgotten the other word! No, I'm not a kpop fan anymore lol, was a while ago. What music do you enjoy?) MAN, I hope your mom loved it!! I'd cry if I saw Louis in person too lksjdfjksf. Mhmmm I really loved Take Me Home, and Made in the A.M... do you have, perhaps, a top 10 1D tracklist? :D

THAT IS A BRILLIANT INSTAGRAM NAME OH MY WORD!!!!! YOU WERE AND ARE BRILLIANT!

Honestly, I don't know how I wrote that many fics. For a bit of that time I really liked someone so I channeled it into my writing. But it didn't work out, therefore!! I wrote more, and eventually shifted into Larrie mode, thank goodness. But again, it's quality over quantity, and I think some of them aren't that good, tbh.

Hey, there's no shame in trying. Honestly, you know what I do? Automatic writing. Whatever is on your brain, dump it onto the page, and then your head is either clearer for fanfiction, or you've got a potential plot; either way, you're grounded and in the headspace for it, right? Do you have any ideas I might help with?

Congratulations on graduating, oh my goodness BECKYYYYYYY. I am so beyond proud of you! I'm going for film, which is all I'll say for now since I don't wanna give myself away. Apps are indeed kicking my butt but yes. What did you stud in undergrad?

I look forward to talking again, sorry about the time difference <3

Lots of love,

Holiday Pal.

HELLO HOLIDAY PAL <3

I have an unpopular opinion to share 👀 I never loved Y&B. I read it because it was a fandom classic but I struggled to stay engaged. I think my favorite fandom classic is Unbelievers. I might go reread that now actually 😶 I hope you enjoy the fic I shared!! x

Where do I start with favorite tropes? Obviously enemies to lovers & slow burn. Can’t get enough of that shit. I love a/b/o. I also love famous/famous where they’re not in one direction. Or just one of them is & the other is famous for something else. What are your favorite tropes?

When I first noticed the band wayyyy back when I definitely think Harry was my fav. I remember having a cardboard cutout of him lmao but I was 10 so I don’t remember joining the fandom clearly ): But by the time I went to see them in concert Louis was definitely my favorite. I can’t remember exactly when I made the switch but pretty early on. My mom loved the concert! I always tried to get her to pick a favorite and I remember her telling me she loved Louis’ blue eyes. She’s a Louis girl at heart <3

I listen to all sorts of music! Some of my fav artists are Greta Van Fleet, San Fender, & Declan McKenna. Do you use spotify? If so, who were your top artists?! I also loved Made in the A.M. but I think FOUR would be my absolute fav. Omg I’ve never written a top 10 1D track list. Tomorrow I’ll go through the albums and make one! I’d love to see yours too!!!

Aw sorry to hear it didn’t work out :( At least you channeled your feelings into something creative! And you study film!!! I’m always blown away by how some people are so creative. Thank you for your congratulations :) I’m finishing up my degree in biomedical engineering right now! I might go back to grad school in a few years once I have a better idea of what I’d like to specialize in.

Ugh I struggle so much with dumping words down. I always edit things as I go along rather than write a draft and edit it. I think that’s why I struggle so much with committing to a fic because I know how much editing and reworking will go into it. But I’m going to try! I’ve wanted to for years now and you’ve helped give me the push!!

talk soon holiday pal x :)

[soooldout]

tagged by @hannahshouyu to do this tag, thanks!

Rules: answer 8 questions & write another 8 for people I tag to answer

1. what was the last good book or series you read?

what is a book (jk jk that is blasphemy...I used to be a huge book nerd but the past two years just havent read much at all) hmmm let’s see the last one I remember liking was All The Light We Cannot See by Anthony Doerr

2. do you collect anything or want to start a collection of something?

I collect biases? lol

3. if you won the lottery tomorrow, what’s the first thing you’d buy?

a ticket out of this hell hole

4. what’s the very first username you remember having online? 

just my name with my year of birth lol so original

5. what’s that one (or more) song/movie/show/book you can just listen to/watch/read over and over again without getting tired of it? 

Songs (there are so many tho! but off the top of my head at the moment): Miss You by Gabrielle Aplin, Tiger Moth by Kihyun, Daydream by Sunggyu (or like all of his songs), Snow Patrol - If there’s a rocket tie me to it, Coldplay - A Sky Full Of Stars or any coldplay discography really

Shows: The Office and Parks and Rec

Movie: I barely watch movies more than once or twice even if I love them so not sure

Books: Harry Potter series, Anne of Green Gables series again I haven’t read books in a while but I used to re-read those a lot

6. what are 5 of your fav b sides, lesser know or non-title tracks?

wow too many how to choose :(

B.A.P - Its All Lies (there are so many amazing non title tracks though I just put down the first one I thought of...Rain Sound was my first thought but its title I guesss)

BTOB - Melody Song

AKMU - Melted

Nell - Tinnitus

Day6 - I Need Somebody (fuckin love this song its so goooddd, new fave)

p.s. didn’t choose any Infinite songs because - unpopular opinion I KNOW DONT @ ME - I much prefer their title tracks to b sides not that I’m saying I dislike the b sides (they are vocal kings after all) just that their title tracks are superior for me, they have done a great job picking amazing title songs every time (OK I’LL SAY JULIA I LOVE THAT SONG)

7. if you could live anywhere in the world for one full year, rent paid, where would you move? 

ooh. this is hard. Hawaii probably

8. (i’m gonna steal it from mine bc it was fun) if you could have any creature (real or mythological) as a pet with the guarantee that it would not kill you, what would you want?

PANDA PANDA PANDA (baby one that would stay baby forever)

fukcing love pandas

My eight questions:

1. What was the best dream you ever had, or most interesting one (a good story)? (this one for @gotinspirit especially although I know many of your wild dreams already)

2. Which celebrity/idol do you think you are most like in terms of personality?

3. (stealing this Q from hannahshouyu coz curious) -  what are 5 of your fav b sides, lesser known or non-title tracks?

4. Any show/drama you’ve watched that you would recommend?

5. Do you have any phobias?

6. What is your favorite thing about your best friend/favorite person in the world?

7. What, in your opinion, was the worst thing to happen in kpop in 2016/17 (pain as I type this question ofc)

8. Worst and favorite hairstyle/hair color on your bias/biases?

tagging @feelsogukk @diamond-4-luna @whiteconfession @anna-something @fae-hyun @daestopiaa @gyu-booty @glorioushowon @leesungjongg @ohsunggyu @puppynamu @becuzgyu @vefh @bapofficial @eternalsquee @gotinspirit @jdw-juseyo @lauraslm @baby-mylove-beautiful

[littletornviolet]

92 Truths

rules: once you have been tagged you are supposed to write 92 truths about yourself. at the end, choose 25 people to tag!

I have a backlog of these things I need to clear but I’m gonna start with the most recent and work backwards. Thanks for the tag @somethinglikefangirl !!

LAST… [1] drink: jasmine tea (drinking it at the moment).  [2] phone call: my mum, to ask her to pick me up from the train station.   [3] text message: my sister, about phone chargers.  [4] song you listened to: give it to me - agust d (i’m drawing at the moment so i’ve got a playlist going!) [5] time you cried: i cry very easily so i don’t even know anymore... sometime this week?

HAVE YOU EVER… [6] dated someone twice: no (i mean i’ve never dated so).  [7] been cheated on: see above. [8] kissed someone and regretted it: see above, again. [9] lost someone special: in a few different ways, yes. [10] been depressed: i don’t think so.  [11] gotten drunk and thrown up: i drink very infrequently, and i don’t plan on ever getting drunk (i enjoy control too much for it ahaha).

LIST 3 FAVOURITE COLOURS: (this was hard? because it depends on the situation but...) [12] mint green [13] sky blue [14] honey (so sort of orangey-yellow?)

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU… [15] made new friends: yes!!! it’s my first year of uni so i’ve met some new people.  [16] fallen out of love: with things, but not with people.  [17] laughed until you cried: probably. my friends get very loud when we’re together.  [18] found out someone was talking about you: no? or at least not maliciously.  [19] met someone who changed you: not really.  [20] found out who your true friends are: ohhhhh boy yes. don’t stay friends with people who constantly insult your other friends and put you down, people. it’s not fun.  [21] kissed someone on your facebook list: no. 

GENERAL… [22] how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: almost all of them. i’m very selective about my fb friends.  [23] do you have any pets: we have a heck ton of fish that splash around in a pond right under my bedroom window.  [24] do you want to change your name: this is a complicated story which i do not have space for here. in short, yes, but only because it already got changed.  [25] what did you do for your last birthday: had a really nice sit down lunch with a bunch of my friends! [26] what time did you wake up: woke up at 8AM, didn’t get up until about 10AM.  [27] what were you doing at midnight last night: finished watching brooklyn nine nine with the siblings and then went on tumblr.  [28] name something you cannot wait for: to find out what i’m good at? i guess. a lot of things.  [29] when was the last time you saw your mother: five minutes ago.  [30] what is one thing you wish you could change about your life: this is hard because everything has led to this point? but at the same time there’s so much that could be different. who knows.  [31] what are you listening to right now: arabella - arctic monkeys.  [32] have you ever talked to a person named tom: yes.  [33] something that is getting on your nerves: my ridiculous procrastination habits, people who walk slow when i’m trying to get to uni, people who don’t take off their bags on public transport. i have so many gripes.  [34] most visited website: tumblr, facebook, my uni’s student portal x_x [35] elementary: is this the american equivalent of primary school...? a tiny local one in my neighbourhood.    [36] high school: went to two! first one was local and really sportsy (which i am not. at all.) and the second was more academic.  [37] college: it’s in the city, so it’s a bit of travel, but it’s super pretty and prestigious and all that. worth it.  [38] hair colour: black, but it’s got brown streaks in it at the moment which i’m planning to re-dye in about a week.  [39] long or short hair: i want to get a bob but my hair is difficult -_- so it’s just past my shoulders.  [40] do you have a crush on someone: i get crushes on everyone it’s ridiculous.   [41] what do you like about yourself? i care about people!  [42] piercings: none :( sensitive skin.  [44] nickname: people either go mum/mother, or mich/michi.   [45] relationship status: single. [46] zodiac sign: virgo [47] pronouns: she/her [48] fav tv show: i forgot everything i have ever watched. at the moment, b99, the first two seasons of sherlock, and i realise i never watch tv lol.  [49] tattoos: none! maybe someday.  [50] right or left handed: right handed! my left is basically useless for things that do not involve music. 

FIRST… [51] surgery: none! potentially one in the future for the jaw.  [52] piercing: none.  [53] best friend: i’ve never been clear on how to tell my best friends from my close friends?? [54] sport: dance (ballet and jazz). i’m really bad at sport don’t even get me started.   [55] vacation: probably china, or this little seaside town i go to with my family.  [56] pair of trainers: no idea, i would have been a tiny child. 

RIGHT NOW… [57] eating: chestnuts. [58] drinking: jasmine tea (still).  [59] i’m about to: finish this, and maybe go for a walk if it doesn’t rain.   [60] listening to: save me - bts [61] waiting for: me to get my act together and do my readings.  [63] get married: not in the foreseeable future, no.  [64] career: something in law! hopefully to do with human rights or discrimination, but i’m mostly interested in criminal law (which everyone says to stay away from ahaha).  

WHICH IS BETTER… [65] hugs or kisses: i’m kind of forced to go with hugs here.  [66] lips or eyes: on myself, eyes, on other people, both! [67] shorter or taller: ooooh probably taller.  [68] older or younger: doesn’t particularly matter.  [70] nice arms or nice stomach: i have a thing for arms, but honestly don’t care?  [71] sensitive or loud: i’m a really quiet person, so it really depends on the person.  [72] hook up or relationship: relationship for me.   [73] troublemaker or hesitant: situationally dependent. 

HAVE YOU EVER… [74] kissed a stranger? no. [75] drank hard liquor? yes?  [76] lost glasses/contact lenses? i sometimes put my glasses down in the bathroom at night before bed and then i forget where they are in the morning and panic.  [77] turned someone down: yes.  [78] sex on first date? no.   [79] broken someone’s heart? i don’t think so?  [80] had your own heart broken? not broken but maybe lightly dismantled.  [81] been arrested? no. [82] cried when someone died? yes. [83] fallen for a friend: yes? kind of. 

DO YOU BELIEVE IN… [84] yourself? not as much as i wish i did :( [85] miracles? most of the time no, but only because i haven’t seen anything miraculous happen.  [86] love at first sight? i think it’s sweet, but i’m not sure it’s ever going to happen to me.   [87] santa claus? i’m not sure i ever did.   [88] kiss on the first date? potentially!  [89] angels? no, but i hope. 

OTHER… [90] current best friend’s name: staying silent on this one.   [91] eye colour: dark brown (very typical ehehe).  [92] favourite movie: the lord of the rings trilogy! in terms of things i have watched recently, logan made me so emotional :( i have also now forgotten everything i have ever watched. 

tagging!  @psyraah @trepidationchance @kpop-eh-trash @6e-ez @luwuket @taichou-kun @skribblindaydreamer @callmesoupy @asschillea (i don’t have anywhere close to 25 people to tag. only if you want too *finger guns my way out of the room*)

[imjustanotherkpopfanso]

KPOP WITH A BIT OF KDRAMA TAG!!!

1. Fav solo artist

If it has to  be someone that’s not already in a group, then I would have to say Ailee. “Heaven” is one of my favorite songs.

2. Top 5 bias groups

EXO, BTS, Girls Generation, BLACKPINK, Big Bang

3. Do you ship anyone?

VHOPE, SooTae, JeTi, XiuChen, Baekyeol, (I don’t know Jennie and Lisa’s ship name,) and Taoris are some of my personal favorites. <3

4. What fandoms do you identify with?

Ohhhh here we go. ARMY, EXO-L, Sone, Shawol, MeU, Blink, VIP, Primadonna, 4NIA, Blackjack, Star 1, Play Girlz, IGOT7, the ENTIRE Kdrama fandom.. and partially invested in numerous other kpop fandoms :-)

5. How did you get into kpop?

It all started about two years ago when my friend showed it to me and it kind of just consumed my entire life and my wallet.

6. Do you know how to speak Korean?

I’m trying so hard to learn guys

7. Have you gone to a concert?

No because SM doesn’t seem to know that the place I live in even exists on the world map…

8. Do you have any merch?

I have an EXO hat, jacket, two shirts, and shoes! I also own a BTS shirt and hat, plus a pig rabbit plush, (From drama “You’re Beautiful.”) AND some posters of my fav groups and photocards.

9. Do you watch any variety shows?

I only really watch variety shows when they have my favorite idols on them.

10. Top 3 biases.

Kim Namjoon, Kim Jongdae, and Kim Woo BIn. (What is with the Kims…) But since Woo Bin is an actor I will say Lee Taeyong from NCT.

11. What was the first kpop song you liked upon hearing?

Wolf by Exo. (DON’T JUDGE ME)

12. A kpop group you don’t like.

I don’t really dislike any groups but I can say that I’ve never been a huge fan of 9MUSES

13. Do you ever get the feeling your loof is on fiyah?

Hahaha B.A.P man

14. Least favorite idols male and female.

idk how to answer this, I’d have to think too much

15. Do you listen to solo artists as much as groups?

No not really

16. Favorite comeback of the year.

Since it’s only the beginning of 2017 I will say BTS “You Never Walk Alone.” Spring Day was SUCH a good video. SO proud of my babies, I hope they get rest soon :-)

17. Least favorite comeback of your favorite group.

I can’t think of anything for BTS. I’m gonna say EXO’s “For Life” not because I thought it was bad but because I was hoping to get a happy Christmas song for once.

18. Has your bias acted before?

If you count that v app live skit that they did, (which I do,) then yes!

19. Do you stan groups as trainees or predebut?

BLACKPINK, MONSTA X, and NCT <3 I’ve liked them since debut.

20. First bias ever.

Chen from EXO (Call Me Baby Era omg i can’t)

21. If you had a Korean name what would it be?

Cho Nabi. I’ve always like the sound of it and how it means “Beautiful Butterfly.” (Yes I’m a Tayeon stan)

22. Who would you want as an older brother?

BRO one time I legit had a dream that Sehun was my step brother. But IRL, my life would be so much better if Heechul was my older brother.

23. Older sister?

Jessica Jung :-) Her and Heechul  (and Krystal since they’re already sisters AYE) would make for such a fun family and childhood, and I feel like we’re really similar.

24. Funniest couple?

SeTao. It’s funny how they tease each other

25. What would you do if your bias kissed you?

I would be very confused at first but then I would start crying because I’m still confused but REALLY EFFING happy.

26. What would you do if your bias asked you to marry them?

Say yes of course, then live happily ever after until I wake up from my dream haha *laughs slowly turn into sobs*

27. Worst looking idol?

HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO ANSWER THIS AHH IDK

28. TOP or G Dragon?

Both are effing hilarious and I would sell my house to meet either of them, but I would have to say GD.

29. Which company is your favorite?

Artist wise SM. The company I would go to is JYP cause they seem to have a lot of fun over there.

30. In terms of looks which group is the best?

EXO, BTS, 2pm, SISTAR, Afterschool, and SNSD.

31. In terms of songs which group is the best?

Guy group, BTS and Big Bang. Girl Group, MAMAMOO and 2NE1.

32. Which group would you love to be classmates with?

SNSD for girls and BTS for boys (I would never be absent)

33. Who would you want to be your bestfriend?

Amber all the way :-)

34. Who would you want as a boyfriend?

Yixing is TOTAL boyfriend material.

35. Who would you want to be a husband?

Namjoonie of course :-)

36. How many kids would you have with them?

Three ideally, but I wouldn’t be mad at four.

37. Who’s body do you wish to have?

I’ve always been jealous of the girls from SISTAR’s bodies. (who isn’t lol)

38. Who’s face would you like to have your’s similar to?

I’ve always thought that Nana, Jessica, and CL have really pretty faces :-)

39. Which group would you want to work with?

A collab with 2NE1 and Big Bang would be lit but since 2NE1 has disbanded *cries* I would love to work with NCT or BTS.

40. Which kdramas have you watched?

I have watched EXO Next Door, Hello Monster, My Love From Another Star, Heirs, and I’m currently watching You’re Beautiful. I also watch a Chinese drama called Tiger Mom here and there because it has a lot of episodes. I hope to watch a lot more soon :-)

41. Which Korean food would you love to try?

I’ve been dying to try Bibimbap, jajangmyeon, injeolmi, teokpokki, and hotteok (they sound so yummy)

42. Who’s your favorite Kdrama actress?

Jeon Jihyun

43. Favorite Kdrama actor?

Kim Woo Bin and Lee Hongki. (Even though Hongki is a musician too, he’s still stealing my heart with his cuteness and cheerfulness)

44. Current favorite Kdrama?

You’re Beautiful <3

45. Lastly, what do have to say to your fave stars?

Thank you so much for all you do. It’s because of you that we get amazing songs, beautiful music videos, funny dramas, and something to look forward to everyday. What you guys do brings people together, and I couldn’t be more happy as your fan. Ignore the haters, they’re just jealous of your talent and pure inner and outer beauty. As long as I’m here, I’ll always love and support you :-)

Hope you enjoyed! Post this yourself and tag me, I would love to see other Kpop and Kdrama fans answers-

[winsirius]

From one H!P single to another. You might be wondering why I had been consistently posting Hello! Project singles. Well, its the fault of their management company. LOL. They released alot of singles recently, both me and my money couldn’t keep up. RIP me. Don’t get me wrong, I am so happy that each idol group in Hello! Project gets a spotlight. Its now Juice=Juice’s turn to shine.

Here’s my thoughts of their latest single:

    SEXY SEXY / Naite Ii yo / Vivid Midnight

Tracklist:

SEXY SEXY

Naite Ii yo

Vivid Midnight

SEXY SEXY (Instrumental)

Naite Ii yo (Instrumental)

Vivid Midnight (Instrumental)

This is Juice=Juice’s 10th single. It was released on April 18, 2018 in 7 editions: 3 regular and 4 limited.

    My Thoughts:

SEXY SEXY

Oh damn, this song is so sexy.

I didn’t expect they would go full throttle on the sexy theme. I mean, I thought it was just the title. Also the fact that their new members are still underage. I do like the song, especially the refrain and chorus. The chorus is so well-made and so-H!P. I also like the intro music, it reminds me of my Juice=Juice fav song Dream Road for some point. The “..crazy..” part in the end of the chorus strongly reminds me of C-ute’s “Crazy Kanzen na Otona” song. Overall, the song is both modern and nostalgic, in a way a mix of new sound and the typical Juice=Juice sound. The intro and verses are modern, while the chorus and some sections of the song were so old school and latin. I really like how everything were arranged altogether. Its like a mix of everything. Really nice.

I really like how the lines were distributed. Everyone seems to get enough spotlight, though I am amazed they chose Yanamin as center for this song. I always see Nanamin as the cutesy upright girl from Country Girls, but now, she is taking the center spot for a daring single. Damn.

  ——————————

  Naite Ii yo

From the title itself, this song must be a tearjerker. Oooohhhhh…this song is quite uplifting. The lyrics definitely hits home. The melody is easy to listen to. The verses is a bit bare, especially the first verse then the song builds up in the chorus. For some point the instrumental of the song reminds me alot of Morning Musume.’17’s “Gosenfu no Tasuki” from last year. I really really the breakdown section before the coda, its so nice to hear. Though at first, I’m abit iffy with the arrangement, I was able to warm up to it, after all I really like how the 2nd half of the song sounded.

I really like that I could hear loud and clear the voices of the members, definitely, there is no weakest member in the gorup in terms of vocals. Damn.

  ——————————

  Vivid Midnight

Ooohoohhohohoho. I didn’t expect this song to be this good. This song is so KPOP. Hahahahaah, at the same time, its so JPOP. This is so weird.

I really really like how fun and bright this song is. I am not always a fan of this kind of songs of Juice=Juice cuz I find them abit boring. But this one, this one is really different. I can’t really pinpoint much who the hell is singing cuz I’m enjoying listening to the song too much. LOL. The instrumentals in the background definitely is the star of this song. You can hear random sounds that unexpectedly fits well with the song. Uuuggghhhh…why is this so good?!?!?! The vocals, well, of course they are on point. Though I am a bit worried that the adlibs near the end might be oversang by the members. Other than that, I’m so into this song.

The vocals, the arrangement, the lyrics, oh my its so good.

  OOHH YES!! This single is sooooooooo SOLID. Its been awhile since I have encountered a single were all the songs are top tier. I can’t believe I am actually liking this new Juice=Juice. Their new music is so my jam, I can’t stop listening to them. Oh booiiii…I think I am falling for them. THIS IS BAD!!

Anyway, that’s all.

Thanks for reading!!

  PS: If I am going to become an avid follower of this group, then my ultimate bias of the group would be my Yanamin. I loved her since her CG days, so I am going to continue to support her here in Juice=Juice.

Music Feature: “SEXY SEXY / Naite Ii yo / Vivid Midnight” by Juice=Juice From one H!P single to another. You might be wondering why I had been consistently posting Hello!