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A/N: SoâŠPatrickâs sister, this was supposed to be shorter but I uhâŠI got carried away, enjoy anyway!! <33
As patricks sister, you always understood the dynamic; Patrick is the overprotective annoying older brother and you are the nerdyâhe saysâ younger sister.
So obviously, growing up with him was an interesting experience to say the least.
Before going to MRTA, heâd usually bring his friends over after school, and of course you being the pretty little thing you are, theyâd always joke around about how Patrickâs sister was hot, (literally average twelve year old when they see any female) and well Patrick, Patrick was pissed, so this is when the golden ruleâhe calls itâ came in.
Patrickâs sister is off-limits.
Which eventually stopped being a big deal when he left for MRTA, since youâd only see him for holidays and breaks, and you didnât really get to meet any of his friends.
Then Art comes into Patrickâs life; Bunkmates since they were twelve, both in their first year away from home.
For the first summer break, Patrick left to go to your familyâs lake house with you and your parents, and Art went back home to visit his nana, he knew his parents would most likely be away workingâas per usual.
But he actually finds out that his nana had already been sent to a retirement home 15 minutes out of his home town, so he visited every couple of days during that summer even though his nana kept telling him, âArtie, you donât have to visit an antique like me, go be a kid, enjoy your summerâ however he insisted in staying around her to keep company.
So when they get back, Patrick âloud mouthâ Zweig rants to Art about his summer, and Art simply nods thinking about how heâd most likely stay in the academy next summer, not like he had much to go back to at home.
Fast forward a couple of months, itâs Christmas; Art is helping Patrick pack last minute when thereâs a knock at the door, then they hear a feminine voice.
âCome on dickwad, mom and dad are waiting in the carâ
Patrick groaned as he started to shove his things into his bag, then looking back at art as he folded some of Patrickâs shirts.
âHey, Donaldson, mind getting the door? Itâs my fuck ass sisterâ he said casually as he grabbed the shirts from Art.
âSureâ Art mumbled not thinking much, only trying to imagine a female Patrick behind the door, seeing as heâs never met you, so there he goes, he opens the door and findsânot a female Patrickâ but the prettiest girl heâd seen just standings there in the most angelic way.
âHeyâŠ?â
âArt, itâs uhâ my name is Artâ heâs stumbling over his own words in the stupidest way possible.
âWhat kind of name is Art? Are you like an Arthur or something?â He cringes internally but before he can answer Patrick pushes past him.
âItâs just Art, leave him alone, heâs my best friend, only I can make fun of him, find one yourself, kidâ Patrick speaks as he walks out the door with his things then turns to Art, âgoing home for Christmas, Donny?â
Art despised that nickname, the tips of his ears went red as his whole face flushed, but he shook his head.
âMy parents said they wonât be able to make for Christmas and Iâ I donât want to worry my nana soâŠâ he said shyly and a bit disappointed but, they were the same parents that had forgotten his birthday a year ago and days later brought a cake that said âhappy 14th birthdayâ when he was turning 12.
âAweâŠthat sucks man, Iâll talk to my parents, you can tag along with us to our lake house next summerâ
And thatâs how the tradition all started, every summer, Art would spend it with Patrickâs parents, you and Patrick at the lake house, which gave him enough time to catch a little something his nana called a Lovebug, essentially, his was crushing hard.
But of course, there was the golden ruleâ totally off-limits.
And Art wasâŠfine with it, itâs not like youâd ever like him back, he was probably just âPatrickâs quiet best friendâ to you.
Little did he knowâŠ
Then fast forward a couple years later, coincidentally, you would also be going to Stanford without actually knowing Art had already been there for a year.
And Stanford was full of frat parties, Halloween costume parties and in general, any party within a 10 mile radius.
And you, pretty little freshman had been invited to a frat party by one of the juniors in your econ class, and I mean, you canât be rude, right? You have to go.
So, you do.
You wind up in a frat house with a shit ton of people, some cigarette smoke and, a whole bunch of red disposable cups, so why not grab one, whatâs the worst thing it could have in it, beer probably?
Wrong.
Something that to you tasted exactly what rubbing alcohol smelled like, so it goes straight from the cup to your mouth then back to the cup as you cringe letting out a single dry cough.
âYou alright there?â A gentle voice popped up from behind you, familiar but you couldnât quite tell, but as you turn there he is; Art fucking Donaldson. With a backwards red Stanford cap and a grey Stanford hoodie.
Oh.
âOhâ ArtâŠheyâ you chuckle softly still smelling the mysterious alcohol from your mouth.
âThis isnât quite your scene, huh?â He spoke as he took a sip from his cup with that goddamn side smirk of his.
âYeahâ no, I mean, Iâve been to parties, fun, fun parties. And this, this is so my sceneâ you rambled nervously, it was already embarrassing enough you, a freshman was at a frat party with a pretty floral skirt and a crochet sweater.
âReally? OhâŠthen have fun, fun girlâ he laughed as he lifted his cup a bit towards you to then walk away.
Fuck it. You were gonna get wasted.
And so, that you did; Somehow ending up in just a soaked tank top, a soaked skirt, hair dripping water and, squeaky wet shoes as you stumbled out of the pool from the backyard.
âHey, watch itââ Art turned as he felt your body bump against his, âoh itâs you, fun girl.â He giggled as he saw you, clearly too drunk to even know what was going on, and he couldâve just laugh it off and get back to the party, but Art wasnât like that, and specially not to you, youâre such a pretty little thing all wasted and soaked past midnight, plus, you were Patrickâs sister. He had to.
So he said his goodbyes and grabbed you as you both walked out of the frat to go back to campus.
âSo tell me, miss Zweig, how does one, as drunk as you, not drown in a pool?â He said as he saw you hold onto his arm for dear life trying not to trip, which might have just dug up something he had buried years ago.
âYâknow, im fun, and this is so my peopleâ you said looking up at himâjust barelyâ as you let out a hiccup.
He blushed as he heard it, clearly it was your first time getting drunk drunk, adding on to the wet hair and your shivering body,
âRight, fun girl, my badâ he chuckled âcome on youâre shivering, hereâ he pulled his hoodie off as he handed it to you, âcanât let you catch a cold, how else will you go to your next party, miss fun girlâ
âThank you, Artie.â You said as you grabbed the hoodie sliding it over your head feeling the warmth it carried from Arts body, accompanied by the faint smell of his cologne.
Meanwhile, Art was feeling like his spine had just been ripped out; Artie.
You hadnât called him that since the summers at the lake house, where he had attempted and failed to forget his crush on you.
âYeahâ I uhâŠyeahâ he blushed even harder as he fumbled his words not knowing how to react.
You just shut your eyes and breathed in the scent of his cologne to then open them up, there you were, doe eyed looking at him, in his hoodie, hair soaked as you unconsciously made it harder for him to be a good friend to Patrick, he felt horrible.
Not only did the disgusting thought of wanting to fuck you against his jeep popped into his head, this is Patrickâs sister heâs fantasizing about.
âCome onâ I uh, I gotta get you back on campusâ he cleared his throat as he looked away avoiding your stare.
âYouâre no fun anymore, ArtieâŠâ a pout made itself present as you took a step closer, your hands landing on his shoulders, âcome on, DonnyâŠâ
Fuck.
Fuck.
Fuck.
âPatrick would kill me, you know that.â
âI wonât tellâ
He wasnât proud of himself for turning back to look at you, but you were just so pretty, lucky he didnât have a boner, if he hadnât given you the hoodie to cover your very visible nipples against the tank top, heâd probably have you bent over his cars hood.
âI reallyâ I canâtâŠâ he mumbled, his face inches away from yours, noses brushing against each other.
âYou sure?â You whispered as you stared down at his lips, ânot just this once?â
âFuckâŠâ he muttered under his breath, wellâŠthere goes his willpower, he was in too deep already.
Next thing he knows, youâre riding him in the backseat of his car, all flushed, tits out, him whimpering as he dug his fingers into your hips holding on for dear life throwing his head back, and windows all fogged up.
Yeah, he was so screwed.
He will most definitely be breaking the golden rule forâŠwell, letâs just say itâs not a one time thing.
#art donaldson#mike faist#patrick zweig#josh o'connor#challengers#art donaldson x reader#art donaldson fic#Patricks sister au#artick#baby moon yaps
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(For the kids)How do you feel being your parentsâ child? What kind of person is your carrier/sire?
Skystrophe:
Oh, these questions are⊠unusual. (Look around anxiously) So am I allowed to say anything..? Will they watch this showâŠ? OkâŠ
I wanna say that many bots say itâs lucky for me to have Optimus and Megatron as my parents⊠but the truth is, having them as parents really brings me a lot of pressure. Itâs⊠not so easy to be the only child of two extraordinary people, and you know youâre not so extraordinary yourself. I mean, I am only âjust okâ at many things they can easily do great. Itâs just⊠Iâm still trying to figure out.
My carrier is a very strong bot. By that, I mean heâs powerful, not only in battles and strategies, but in the will. I think thereâs nothing in the world that can defeat him, or make him feel defeated. When heâs with us, heâs always happy, confident, full of energy. When sire feels unsure, he is there to boost his spirits. When I feel insecure, knowing that he is there for me, always makes me feel better.
My sire, on the other hand, is umm, stricter. I know he means well. He told me all about those stories of heroes and primes, and responsibility comes with strength. Heâs a lovable bot, of course. And heâs gentle with me. Itâs just, I donât know. Maybe itâs the way he talks. He makes me feel⊠nervous.
Jinglestorm:
Being my parentsâ child, itâs a lot of fun! They both like to play, so Iâve got plenty of time playing with them. We go racing on the plains, have a picnic in the woods, or play chess and other board games at home. Oh! And they love video games too! We also play video games.
And my sire, heâs a wonderful bot. Heâs fun, energetic. He talks a lot, which is sometimes a little bit annoying. Hmm. But heâs actually the decision maker in our house, kind of? Him and my carrier take turns being the brain. But because of my carrierâs âunstableâ issue, sire did play the brain most of the time, though he sometimes came up with bad ideas and I had to stop him from dragging us all in.
My carrier isâ very well known among us kids. The cool triple changer, the only one alive by now.* He is also not very stable, and we know that. Besides that, my carrier went through a lot in past wars. Sometimes heâs still haunted by his past ghosts. But he doesnât need to worry, because I am always there for him.
*Itâs my headcanon and part of the plots of Heroic Nonsense, where Blitzwingâs triple changer form came from a secret experiment project carried out by autobots. The project failed because most of the subjects suffered serious complicationsâ they developed split personality disorders and became overly aggressive and easier to get killed in the battlefield. Blitzwing is the only survivor.
Clobber:
Hmm, I donât know. I guess Iâm lucky to be my parentsâ child. Iâm happy and comfortable living with them. My parents knew each other for very long before I was born. They have a tacit understanding that made everything simple. We three are quite alike as well.
My carrier is the brain of our family. Itâs easy to tell. Sire even calls her âGeneralâ as a loving nickname. And also, sheâs really my role model. Her talents go beyond military strategies. She has wisdom and courage to deal with a lot of trivial stuff as well. As for my sire, heâs more of a kind-hearted, good tempered bot. He cooks really well and takes all the gardening work. By that I mean, work like making a fishpond in our backyard. More delicate job like planting is done by me. I heard that they were notorious decepticon war machines in the past. I always imagine how badass they can be! But I donât have the luck to witness that. All I got are two big bots fond of their own hobbies and get along well with the neighbors.
Just for the reminder:
Skystropheâ Megatron and Optimusâs son, Megatron is the carrier
Jinglestormâ Blitzwing and Bumblebeeâs daughter, Blitzwing is the carrier
Clobberâ Strika and Lugnutâs daughter, Strika is the carrier
More worldbuilding see my fanfic Old World, New World
#fic: old world new world#maccadam#transformers#transformers animated#tfa#megop#optimus prime#megatron#blitzbee#blitzwing#bumblebee#striklug#strika#lugnut#strika x lugnut#transformers âfanchild#tf oc#tf ocs#skystrophe#jinglestorm#clobber
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Summary: you have an anxiety attack and he comforts you
Content: depictions of anxiety and panic, comfort, fluff, established relationship. Brief mentions of blood but nothing graphic
A/N / Disclaimer: I lowkey hate this đ„Č but if you struggle sometimes like I do, hereâs how I think Leon would help you (I think he knows what heâs doing because heâs been through them too đ„ș). Little disclaimer that everyone is probably different and I just wrote based on the anxiety experiences I have. Sending love and hugs to anyone who deals with anxiety everythingâs gonna be ok <3 muah k luv you bye
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Longest day of your life. Youâre more exhausted than a mother of five in a coffee shortage. Yet here you are, lying awake, stiff as a board in your bed, staring at the ceiling. A car goes by on the street outside, the light filtering in through the blinds and casting shadowed stripes across the walls and ceiling. You swear you can hear the ticking of the clock in the kitchen from here, and you let out a puff of air through pursed lips.
Itâs driving you insane.
How many hours past midnight have you counted again? Oh right, 20 minutes. You feel like youâve been lying here for eons, counting the even breathes beside you. Youâre a little jealous watching Leon sleep peacefully beside you. Usually this is a him problem, and not yours. Not even the consistent, rhythmic rise and fall of his chest has calmed you. Usually his presence made you relax, and from there youâd grow sleepy.
But not tonight for god knows what reason.
You really do know, though. The day youâve had keeps replaying over and over in your mind. Everything seemed to go wrong, your anxiety was horrible, and to add insult to injury youâre pretty sure your period is coming in a couple of days.
The joys of womanhood. Isnât it fun?
You blow another breath through your mouth. All jokes aside, you feel like youâve been doing worse lately. And the worst part about that is that you feel like you havenât been able to tell Leon about it. You donât really know why. It feels kind of humiliating to admit youâre not doing good, and you canât figure out how to even broach the subject in the first place.
So you stay quiet, suffering alone in your silence like a devoted martyr to your anxiety. You wonder how holy youâd be by now if constant internal panic was measured in penance of some sort.
Leon hates it when you do that. Heâs told you so many times to just come talk to him. And even though you want to, you canât seem to break down your wall of pride and let him in. Even though the little girl in you is screaming for someone to hold her when the room goes dark, you still canât bring yourself to tug on his sleeve and ask for help. You feel like a pick me begging for attention.
You sigh and sit up. You canât stand your thought process anymore as it drifts to this uncomfortable territory, and you throw back the covers to go get a drink of water. Itâs your own greatest enemy, your mind. And the worst part is, you can only run from it for so long. Because no matter how much you bottle things in, it will catch up with you sooner than you think.
You flip on the soft oven light for a little guidance, but not enough to chase away any traces of sleepiness that might be lingering as you fill a glass with cold water from the sink. Your head kind of hurts as you turn to rest against the counter and take a sip of water. Your chest tightens as soon as the water hits your stomach and you donât really feel good.
You try to brush it off at first as low blood sugar or something. But it doesnât go away, and becomes a little more insistent, and suddenly your chest aches.
Shit.
Your hands start to shake as that familiar feeling creeps back in to compress on your ribs. Itâs a sick feeling, like youâve eaten too much cake or like youâre really thirsty but no amount of water can help. As it gets worse, you feel like you canât breathe. You hadnât had an episode in a while, but all that stuffing your feelings nonsense got to you. Not healthy.
You go to set the glass down on the counter, but you donât quite clear the edge and it knocks the water out of your hands. The loud noise of it shattering on the tile irritates you more, and your shoulders jolt. Every nerve feels on needle-point edge, the sudden overstimulation making your head feel like itâs gonna explode.
You press a hand against your chest, breathing having grown rapid as your vision blurs around the edges.
âHey.â You donât even see or hear him until Leon has your shoulders and speaks right in front of your face. Your shoulders jerk again when he grabs you, and your hands fly out to grab at something. They find his arms.
âI-I⊠I canât breatheâŠ!â You tremble, your head growing light and tingly from the shallow panting.
âI know⊠I know, easy.â Avoiding the broken glass, Leon lifts you effortlessly onto the counter. Heâs calm, his voice deep and even and a little rough from sleep.
âI-⊠I canâtââ
âDonât think about it.â His voice an anchor somewhere in the haze of reality youâre struggling to get back to. âTake a breath.â
You try. Your lungs are shaking. It hitches, and you almost feel worse. He takes your hand and lays your palm flat agains his chest.
âLike this.â He sucks in a deep demonstrative breath through his nose, out through his mouth, making sure you can feel the way his chest rises and falls with the motion. âYou know how, baby.â
âI-I canât!â
âYou can. Do it with me, câmon.â
You focus your energy and your frayed concentration on the way his chest feels under your hand, the way the warmth creeps up your arm. On the way his breath sounds and feels. On the way the air feels spilling into your own lungs.
Gradually you regain control.
Leon tilts his head, trying to get a look at your face in the dimness of the stove light.
ââOkay?â He murmurs, and you nod, letting your eyes crack open and your head fall back forward to look at him. Youâre suddenly aware that your feet hurt and feel kinda sticky.
âCâmon.â He reaches for you, and you wrap your arms around his neck as he carries you carefully out of the kitchen and down the hall to the bathroom.
The light blinds you when he turns it on, and you squint and blink as he sets you on the counter, and your feet in the sink. The amount of blood on your feet scares and sickens you, but Leon lays a warm, gentle hand on the back of your head as he sets the first aid kit next to you.
âItâs okay. Donât look.â
He makes sure thereâs no shards of glass in your skin, he cleans the cuts gently and disinfects them. You watch quietly as he bandages them up, wrapping up the balls of one of your feet.
The silence is a little unsettling. Is he mad? Obviously heâs probably not too mad about the glass. Heâd probably say itâs replaceable. But now he kinda knows there was something bothering you, and you clearly didnât talk to him about it before it got bad.
âSooo⊠what no lecture?â You finally blurt as he ties off the gauze. He glances up at you as he lowers your foot from the counter.
âFor what?â You watch as he washes his hands in the sink and puts the first aid kit away.
âYou know⊠for not⊠talking to you sooner, I guess.â
He gathers you into his arms again and you wrap yours around his neck as he flips off the light and carries you back to bed. He kisses your temple on the way back down the hall, watching as your eyelids droop sleepily when you donât sense any tension in his body.
âMaybe tomorrow morning.â
He carries you back to bed and tucks you in. Laying down beside you, he holds his arm out for you to come a little closer and curl up under it. You scooch.
He rests his hand on the back of your head, his thumb brushing your hair behind your ear.
âI will say this thoughâŠâ He murmurs deeply as you look up at him from your little spot in the sanctuary of his arms. âYou know you can come to me, you know youâre not a burden and I like being there for you.â
He smoothes his thumb over your hair.
âI love you⊠k?â He presses a kiss to your forehead.
âOkay.â You reply in a little voice. You know heâs right. You know he means what he says. Leonâs not the type to waste words on sentiments he doesnât mean. And hearing it again makes you feel a little silly for overthinking it.
âOkay.â Another kiss. âGet some sleep, yeah?â
This time, youâre out like a light.
#leon kennedy#resident evil#leon s kennedy#leon scott kennedy#leon kennedy imagine#leon kennedy x reader#leon kennedy x you#leon kennedy fanfic#leon kennedy fanfiction#resident evil fanfiction#leon kennedy x reader fluff#leon kennedy fluff#leon kennedy oneshot#resident evil 4 leon#comfort#anxiety
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What if you just had fun?
When I'm really bored at work and need something to distract me, but can't get TOO distracted (due to the aforementioned work), I like to watch challenge runs. This inevitably leads to me getting other videos that are tangentially-related to the game that was the subject of the video I just saw, and that's how I stumbled upon this one:
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And it was fascinating to me in a way that made me feel a need to say something about it. Not in, like, a mean way (I'm aiming for a gentle ribbing, at most). There's been thoughts stirring in me for a while now about how disconnected I can sometimes feel between the ways I experience games and how "content creators" play games that are simply fascinating to me.
Although I do recommend watching at least some of the video to get the gist of what's happening, I'll do my best to accurately summarize the main thing that prompted this whole post: the author has played Skyrim a lot, almost always with a bunch of mods, and nearly always played it the same way: stealth archer. However, he recently tried a challenge playthrough that essentially forced him to engage in a bunch of systems he never paid much attention to before: alchemy, blacksmithing, mining, herb gathering, and shouts to name just a few. He even found himself using fast travel less, because it meant he could do gathering and transmutation magic while going to his next destination instead of going out of his way to grind out everything right before he needed it. This ended up giving him a greater appreciation for how an un-modded Skyrim actually works and is deeper than he originally gave it credit for.
My first reaction to this was perhaps a little uncharitable: "Were you even playing Skyrim at all until now?"
In a previous video he made (which I also watched), he talks about why stealth archery is so popular. He posits that it's the only combat method that plays well with Skyrim's other systems, since its damage scales well, it's precise (very little worry about hitting friendly NPCs), it's the easiest way to engage in stealth mechanics, and it's just generally pretty powerful. I'm mostly sympathetic to that opinion, and I'd be lying if I said I didn't find stealth archer to be my favorite way to play.
However, I was completely blindsided by someone saying they didn't engage in so many of these other systems. Like, yes, you can simply buy armor and weapons and potions, so alchemy and blacksmithing isn't mandatory. You can ignore it if you want to. But to not EVER try to engage with it?
I've encountered this sort of disconnect before in a way I found much more frustrating. You see, I really like the Civilization games, but I'm kind of bad at intuiting the systems at play on my own. I often look up videos from much smarter people to help me build a foundation of understanding so I can then I can at least make terrible choices on purpose rather than on accident. I was watching one particular Youtuber's reactions to some Civ 7 gameplay previews and found myself constantly baffled by the statements they were making. There were several little things that irritated me, but the one that finally made me turn off the video was a criticism of Civ 7 trying to implement story events like Paradox games do. They mentioned they hated that kind of mechanic and completely ignored the writing, just picking whichever choice offered the best mechanical advantage at the time. It was then that I realized that this analysis video was going to be completely useless to me. We had very different priorities, and they had no interest in considering that changes from any angle other than the very narrow one they've always used. Like, sure, maybe it will end up being bad, but this is one preview video of one playthrough. Being angry at just the concept of story events seemed absurd.
There are folks out there who like "solving" video games. They find the most efficient, most powerful thing they can do, and they do that. Over and over and over again. I think what hit me most about the Skyrim video was that I wasn't expecting to find that kind of playstyle applied to that game. Skyrim exists so you can play in it. I sometimes make characters that run up to guys and hit them with a big sword not because it's the best way to play the game, but because it's just funny to hit guys with a big sword. I explore the map because Skyrim's world is beautiful, and I like simply being in it. I gather herbs because it gives me something to do while hiking and I like how the plant's graphic changes after I collect it. I do things in Skyrim not because I'm forced to, but because I want to explore what the game has to offer. And lately, I sometimes choose to not do things because I want to play a role.
The more I thought about Thane's Skyrim video, the more I grew fond of it. It starts out as just another challenge run where he's thinking about mechanical efficiency, and ends with him appreciating just how many different things he can do in the base game (Building a house! Marriage! Praying at shrines!) and how these systems interact with each other. That's neat! I genuinely love that someone who plays these games from a completely different mindset than I do can keep an open mind and learn share my love of these mechanics. I wish I saw it happen more often.
#skyrim#sorry for yelling about youtube essays#genuinely no shade to the skyrim guy though he seems chill
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Every time you think, "Oh, I don't have [x condition], I'm basically cured!" that is the devil talking. You aren't cured, you are likely going through periods of your symptoms waning. Don't cease whatever you're doing to help yourself, like medication, for instance, because it's likely you still have the conditions or symptoms, even if you aren't noticing them as frequently or severely.
#disability#this is a callout post about myself#i genuinely thought my GAD was cured because my symtoms had lessened significantly since i've transitioned#turns out my anxiety is just as killer and awful - it's just muted slightly#i am currently laying down with my brain convinced that i'm About To Have a Heart Attack#(and not in the fun demi lovato kind of way)#(that song is a little over a decade old... what the bingle)#anyway please don't do what i do whenever i experience ANY level of symptoms getting better because it will shock you...#...when those symptoms come back and remind you that you Do Indeed have [x condition]#i now know how a wolf girl feels when they say they are Actually Feral because that's how i feel rn đ#even I'M not immune to the idea that the things i suffer from are things that can Disappear Magically đ#it's wishful thinking and almost like... imposter syndrome because you're *so* desperate to prove to yourself you're Fine or A Faker#and you become hyperfixated on picking every tiny little waxing and waning of symptoms like you're a fortune teller#and honestly it's really stiffling and it's a lot of work to kill the cop in your head that says you are secretly Not All That Affected...#...that you're either exaggerating to the Extreme or you're just a bored faker who's trying to Get Attention (bad somehow)
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fuck it. formal time
#friends at the table#sangfielle#marn ancura#pickman#sangfielle pickman#pickman sangfielle#ernestina pickman#i feel like i can't use her full name. i don't know her personally.#my art#traditional#traditional art#watercolour#fineliner#watercolor#added a bg digitally BUT#fanart#this was a fun little experiment and i kind of like how it turned out :]#i love these two. they are Just A Little Guy and Just Some Bloke but animal women.#not intended as ship but if you want to tag it that way then be my guest#i hope the alt desc on this is okay i have No Idea what i'm doing and am receptive to feedback
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its so hard to watch time pass when things like careers and assignments exist. what do you mean im supposed to take that seriously
#I have an assignment that was due a week ago and I really really dont want to do it. I have to but i dont want to#im probably making it worse because my brain has built a wall around it so now i canât do literally anything else until thats done. but#because I donât want to do it Iâm just kinda stuck. turns out this is what they meant when they said emotional regulation is part of#exec dysfunction.. Iâll have a thought like if I get a little bit of it done now i can get it over with. I can just submit something#and then not even 5 minutes later itll be like ugh but I have to draw all the assets out. I have to write things and make spreads ugh#and its just flopping between those two things. i hate it when ppl are like well how much time do you need to work on one thing#because BOY id love to know too. Iâd love to know exactly when my brain wants to cooperate with me and work around that but I cant#even my period canât decide when it wants to punch me in the stomach. which is kinda funny in the grand scheme of things but still#its so weird im just lying on my bed thinking abt all this like damn.. the time will pass anyways no matter what I decide to do.. damnâŠ.#if I submit that assignment now and take the L I literally wonât die. itâll just be a deduction on an assignment nobody will ask me about#I know this but Iâm still stressing myself about it so my thoughts arenât really connecting to my body. weird#maybe its because Im having a hard time looking forward to things. theres definitely a lot I should be living for but I donât really feel#a strong attachment to it I guess? itâs been like this for a while with holidays and meeting with friends so I just donât#I kinda figured its because im pretty passionless and its more like passing interest. but itâs not very fun when it feels like Iâm going to#be living distraction to distraction for the next 70 years or so lol#idk it kind of feels like slowly bleeding out. which is funny because I actually did experience blood loss this week#had a 30 minute nosebleed and literally could not stand. also it felt like someone was pinching the back of my brain which was interesting#yapping#does this count as vent#vent#Ive just been making an oc carrd and contemplate changing my blog header for the past 3 days honestly
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Thank you for writing the (messy but neccessary) farcille breakdown. You handled it so wonderfully aaaaaaaah!! Like the other anon I was wondering how far "rock bottom" could get (because chapter 4 already felt pretty rock bottom) but. Yeah. That's pretty rock bottom, huh. The tragedy of loving someone but the other person not understanding <- this applies to both of them.
I think it was really neat how you flipped the question on who's reaching out to who with the academy flashback and the final scene with Namari, because... Marcille clinging onto Falin really is just a reversal of their academy days, isn't it? To everyone who met them after they reunited, it was always Marcille chasing after Falin, but to those who were at the magic academy, it was Falin chasing after Marcille. From picking flowers and berries to eat together, inviting Marcille out to see a play, and generally monopolizing her free time... I'm sure any of them would say the same thing as Namari, but in reverse. No wonder everyone thinks Marcille is just another friend to Falin. They weren't there to witness her pining /j. Idk!! I was rereading the chapter and the academy flashback girl was like "why do you hang off of Marcille so much" and I screamed to myself, "hey wait. HEY WAIT."
#asks#a little creature#im SO glad you pointed out how falin was the first to pine and chase but was discouraged#its a very very important part#i think a really common wlw experience is to internalize that first rejection forever#whether it came from the object of your affections or an outside observer#the first time you encounter disgust for what felt like just happiness and affection#it stays with you. it can turn into a cage for the rest of your life but what you dont realize is that#at some point youre strong enough to open the door for yourself and you have to be able to do it#ironically ive only been the perpetrator of this platonically#pushing away my friends and hurting them bc i didnt think that i mattered enough to affect them#romantically ive been mostly on the other end just begging a girl to meet me in the middle at the very least#because even if they feel intensely as i do its not fun to chase and chase and get nothing bc someone else in their past was cruel#so it dhsjjd shows up in my writing a lot#self loathing as a queer experience is almost universal. but are you able to stand up and grow beyond it? because you need to.#staying locked in your own head and never looking outwards is just another kind of selfishness#i dont always try to do it but lmao my writing almost always touches on this at least a little bit in various degrees as like#maybe my best attempt at a compassionate way of portraying this self-erasure as a kind of selfishness that needs to be addressed
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hnggghhggg
#just realized a little too hard that im packing my entire life up into a single suitcse and hitting the road for a month. in a month.#im also turning 24 in a month#both of these things perturb me in some direction or another.#its also 1030pm but i am Vibrating unfortunately#also realized vividly today that ill be attending my college graduation less than 48hrs after landing back in canada#and that will be after 30+ hours in transit coming directly from a 12 hour time difference#so that'll be fun#not really how i imagined graduating when i started my freshman year?#actually dear lord i could not have fathomed Being Here when i was 19 and starying college#i remember hearing about the program im currently doing and thinking 'wow that's incredibly cool but im just not the kind of person#who can do that sort of thing'#i still periodically have moments where i just look around and have to be like Yes I Really Am Here#and yeah turning 24. in a month. that's far too grown up of an age for how i feel inside.#and yeah trvaelljng to 5 vountires in a month again? wild.#didnt think anything could top seeing the great pyramids for out of body wild experiences And Yet. we sure are gonna be going some places.#also being in a serious relationship huh. didnt think this was going to happen until i was 35 if ever.#skmeone needs to tell me why my brain decided to watch wedding dress youtube shorts today with a vague expectation that might be relevant#to my life within a decade.#so yeah all that to say my life feels fucking insane to me.#I Am Not Qualified For This Experience Help#(this is not entirely negative im just ??????)
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fixation
in which you love spencer reid's hands so much you could... well, you could practically eat them. or at least let him put his fingers in your mouth.
18+ (fluff, suggestive) warnings/tags: finger sucking...lol....., established relationship, ummmm d/s adjacent dynamics, like softdom spencer but there's no sex, pet names, teasing a/n: this was inspired by @gublersg1rl who said 2 nights ago she would suck spencer's fingers as he was reading a book. my beautiful angel with so many great ideas in her beautiful head. anyway this will not be my magnum opus in terms of quality but its just a fun short little thing I hope u like :D
Spencer is reading.Â
He got home forty five minutes ago, and heâd hugged you and heâd kissed youâand they were good hugs and kisses, but as you sit curled on the opposite end of the couch from him, watching him read, it doesnât feel like enough. Three days isnât the longest heâs been gone, but you missed him like he was gone longer. And now, heâs not truly ignoring youâbut heâs not giving you enough attention. Itâs unintentional, but itâs making you feel all kinds of needy and overly-affectionate anyway.Â
Especially when heâs so gorgeous. Ankle crossed over knee, lithe fingers skimming over the page to keep track of his place. Those hands are truly distracting. Itâs unlike you to be struck by such wildly inappropriate thoughts so out of context, but here you are, having been without him for days, practically feverish on the couch as you imagine all the things they could do. All the things they have done. The way they've traced down your bare spine, up your side, so lovingly in the middle of the night... how they've touched you elsewhere...
And... that's enough.
Despite the whole committed relationship thing, you still feel a bit scandalized picturing him like that. And you know from experience these thoughts will only get worse if you stay over here, staring at him, wanting him, so you crawl across the couch and under his arm, settling your head in his lap and looking up at him expectantly. He chucklesâa quiet, dry thing, that says heâs only partially surprised by your behavior.Â
âWell hello,â Spencer says, taking one hand off the book to settle on your leg.Â
âHi.â
For a moment he just studies you, affection seeping into his eyes along with the humor already there. âCan I help you?â
âMhm.â
His brow darts up.Â
âWith what, baby?â
Baby. Your whole body tingles. He only calls you that when heâs feeling especially soft toward you and your whims. In turn you soften, and you both become rather mushy.Â
Unfortunately your brain is not excluded from melting, and you look up at him helplessly.Â
âUmâŠâ
Spencerâs hand falls from your knee, taking an unnecessary but appreciated route down your thigh and up your stomach before settling on your cheek. He brushes away a few baby hairs before two knuckles begin drawing soft lines from the corner of your mouth up toward your ear and back again, and your stomach becomes a hail of butterflies. Heâs got this soft smile on his face and you love him so much and heâs so sweet and perfect, you could justâ
Youâre not thinking very clearly when you tilt your head, angling your chin up until you catch his fingers against your lips. His eyes remain on yours as he traces the shape of your mouth with those same two knucklesâuntil youâre slowly parting, obstructing his path and offering a very different kind of invitation. Spencerâs eyes narrow fractionally and you watch the way his focus changes, the way he only tests the waters at first, letting the tips of his fingers trace the length of your bottom lip, before barely tugging down just enough to feel the soft warmth of the border of it. They skate over the ridge of your teeth and find the tip of your tongue, at which point you canât help from closing your lips around his fingers, eyes fluttering contentedly as you draw them deeper into your mouth. His brows draw together, and those pretty pink lips part soundlessly like youâre the eighth wonder of the world in a way that has your thighs clenching. You hear the book shut and fall carelessly to the side table. He doesnât even bother saving his placeâtoo busy bringing that newly freed hand to your hair and combing gently against your scalp.Â
Itâs strangely calming to have him like thisâheâs undeniably with you, undeniably close, against your lips and tongue. All your worries about his distance dissolve and you feel incredibly comforted. With his other hand, his thumb begins stroking a line from the bridge of your nose up your forehead, and you could pass out.Â
âComfy?â He asks after a long moment, slowly withdrawing his fingers from the heat of your mouth. You pout.Â
âIÂ was.â
Spencer hums, eyes soft on you. âI donât think I should be nurturing your oral fixation, angel.â
âYou didnât like it?â You challenge, turning your head inward to nose at his stomach. He  cups your cheek with damp fingers and pointedly turns your head outward again. If he wasnât so blushy and flustered and cute you mightâve cared more about the feeling of your own spit on your skin.Â
âDonât make it about me.â
You allow a minute to pass in silence.Â
Fine.
âIÂ liked it,â you say shyly.Â
Spencerâs response is deeply fond as he smiles down at you. âDid you?â
Like he couldnât tell.Â
âMhm. You should let me do it all the time.â
His smile flickers wider the way it does when heâs about to tease you.Â
âI donât know if you deserve it. I donât know if you can be good all the time.â
You make a face. âShut up.â
âIs that what we say when we want something?â Before he can pull his hand away, you nip at his fingers. He laughs. âYouâre off to a terrible start. I think you need to work on your manners. Not bite the hand that⊠goes in your mouth.â
âIs that the saying?â
âIâm pretty sure,â he nods sarcastically, helping you up until youâre sitting across his lap. He lovingly tucks hair behind your ear, eyes warm as they flit across your face up close. âYou know, that was incredibly unhygienic. So much bacteria it boggles the mind.â
âYeah? That kinda turns me on.â
Spencer leans in to kiss you sweetly, choosing your mouth over his worry about bacterial transmission. âYou are so psychologically concerning,â he whispers against your lips. You sling your arms around his neck.Â
âBecause of the bacteria thing or the oral fixation thing?â
His hands settle on your hips. âBoth, lovely. For so many reasons.â
Itâs only another tease, but you pull back anyway so he can see the full force of your pout. âDonât say that. Itâs mean.â
âI was kidding! It was a joke. I was joking.â
âIt was mean.â
âOkay,â Spencer begins, patient and happy to untangle this ridiculous snag if thatâs what it takes to make you content again, âFreudâs psychosexual stages of development are contentious at best. Iâm not worried about your oral fixation because I donât really believe in such a thing. I was just teasing you, but Iâm sorry I hurt your feelings.â
âSo youâll let me do it again?â
Spencer pulls you back into another kiss.Â
âYouâre kind of insatiable, you know that?âÂ
When you donât answer, only wait for him to respond, he sighs goodnaturedly.Â
âYou know you can have any part of me whenever you want it.â
You give him a winning smile and kiss his cheek in reward.Â
âYouâre so nice, Spence.â
âI thought I was mean.âÂ
âNow youâre nice.â
âBecause you got what you wanted?â You nod enthusiastically. He seems not quite as thrilled, though perhaps distantly amused by his own helplessness when it comes to you. âYeah, I feel like that happens a lot, doesnât it?â
But it clearly doesnât bother him that much. Heâs still smiling when you kiss him again.Â
#spencer reid fanfic#spencer reid x reader#spencer reid smut#spencer reid fic#spencer Reid fluff#spencer reid fanfiction#spencer reid#spencer reid x fem!reader#criminal minds#spencer reid x you#criminal minds fic#criminal minds x reader#criminal minds imagine
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pairing: gojo satoru x fem!reader
summary: you find yourself in a marriage that you never wanted in the first place. your husband seems to hate you and you begin to wonder if anything you used to think of him was even true. who would have though a marriage to gojo satoru would be so difficult?
warnings: 18+ mdni, arranged marriage, misunderstandings and just not talking shit out, mentions of cheating, slight angst (with comfort), eating out (fem! receiving), fingering, gojo doesn't really know how to husband for some of it
word count: 10.9K (whoops)
note: part two is up! i really had a lot of fun writing this so reblogs and comments are always appreciated! as always, thank you to @jadeisthirsting for beta reading <3
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never did you think that youâd be stuck in a marriage to a man who didnât love you, but thereâs a first for everything.Â
you should count yourself lucky that heâs not old and bald. heâs pretty. in fact, heâs the prettiest man youâve ever seen. his eyes are the bluest, bluer than the sky. his hair mirrors the winter snows, and his back ripples with muscles whenever he fights.Â
his agility is unlike any other man. he fights swiftly and cleanly, never taking more than a couple minutes to get rid of whatever it was that stood in his way. heâs charming with his words (or so youâve heard), and he knows how to make somebody swoon if he really wants them to.Â
and he seems to despise you.
you had known gojo since you were a child, the two of you running around each other's fields as you chased him with your wooden sword. you remembered watching him in training, wishing him good luck whenever he went on a hunt. you could even remember how he would stutter whenever he tried to talk, something he must have worked on because he never seemed to stutter anymore.Â
he was always nice to you, his cheeks rosy whenever you kissed him goodbye. he was kind back then, grinning brightly whenever he saw you.Â
but as time grew and you with it, and it was only a matter of years before the two of you went your separate ways. it didnât help that once he turned thirteen he had to leave for training and fighting in whatever it was that was needed of him, but you had hoped that he would be able to write back.Â
you would send him letters whenever you could, it was tradition whenever the two of you were separated for too long to do so. each letter telling him about new experiences and embarrassing things that happened in your life, but he never responded. you liked to send one every week, sometimes including little tokens you thought he might enjoy. but you stopped sending them after the first two years and stopped asking about his whereabouts after three.Â
but you were hopeful that when you saw him that night so many months ago, heâd be civil with you. you were nervous, sure, but who could blame you? you had recently gotten news that his time to serve his clan was over and that he was finally back home. it wasnât as though the two of you had left on bad graces, so you were hopeful that he would at least remember you. but he could barely meet your eyes whenever you tried to catch him from across the room, acting as if you had never existed.Â
he looked so different since the last time you had seen him. he was taller than most of the people in the room, his white hair just as bright as it used to be. he had gained muscle mass almost everywhere, and you felt yourself wondering just how much training he had to go through to look this way. you could see him talking to a girl, a smile on his face as he tilted his head to look at her better. you gave him some time to socialize, not wanting to intrude on anything.Â
after an hour you decided that it was long enough, and tried to weave your way through the crowd to get to him. you had tried to call out to him, waving to him despite your mother quickly shoving your hand down, saying how improper it was. he heard you and you knew that he was purposely ignoring you, so you began to feel heavy-hearted after a couple of attempts at trying to catch his attention, eventually giving up.Â
and now, despite you wanting to, you canât even blame him for hating you.Â
ever since your mother caught you, alone with him, a man you hadnât seen in so long, she had swiftly and promptly proposed the idea of marriage only a few days later. it was really to save face for the two families, but it helped that this marriage would unify the two clans.Â
you were sure he had ladies lined up to marry him, and you werenât somebody he was actively trying to pursue. you didnât even know if he was in love with somebody else if he shared a connection with a girl who was surely not you and cursed you for taking that away from him.Â
not that it mattered now.Â
all you wanted was to reconcile, to catch up on all the things happening in your lives. you wanted to hear all the stories he must have racked up over the years, not for this to happen. all the things he wanted for himself were ripped away because of one night from one simple act of kindness, and so you couldnât find it in yourself to hate him for the way he acted.
you rarely come down for dinner whenever heâs there, but when you do, you feel those eyes turn icy, tracking your every movement till you sit down opposite of him. he doesnât say much, just mutters a quiet âgood eveningâ and youâre sure heâs only doing it so the maids donât start to gossip.Â
whenever your hand brushes his you feel him snap back, flexing his hand as though your touch burned him. he rarely came by to ask you about how you felt, and so you stopped trying to act kindly towards him if he didnât want anything to do with it.
any semblance of romance you had dreamed of as a young girl quickly dissipated when you realized your husband wanted nothing to do with you, so you didnât try to pursue any sort of love, deciding itâd be easier if he just did his part and you did yours so the two clans wouldnât worry.Â
he was always gone, which might be the best for the two of you. when heâs not training new men then heâs gone in a hunt. if heâs not in a hunt then heâs somewhere in his endless home, hiding away.Â
you donât know if he does this for him, for your sake, or for everybody else.Â
âdid you see your husband this morning?â one of your maids said excitedly as she tugged the undergarments over your raised arm, a gleeful smile on her face as she rambled about something gojo had done. you couldnât help but return a smile of your own, although it didnât quite meet your eyes.Â
âyes, briefly. heâs busy with having to worry about the feast,â which wasnât a total lie. youâd seen him hurriedly brush past you, quickly glancing at you as if he had forgotten you were his wife. you felt your chest tighten up with the way he glanced at your hand, and then quickly left.Â
it was only a few nights away and you knew that it was the only buzz of news anybody seemed to talk about. unfortunately, for you, it meant having to socialize with other clans. you were fine with that aspect, youâd been doing it since you were young, but this time they had a right to be nosey. you knew there would be endless questions asked about the honeymoon stage of your marriage, to which you had no answer.Â
sure, youâd been making up answers to hypothetical questions, but you didnât know what gojo would be answering with, so you were only praying some of your responses would line up.Â
for a night the two of you would have to pretend to be husband and wife, and while the people around you knew you were anything, you knew you had to commit to the role for the sake of you and your familyâs dignity.Â
but all this worrying isnât good for your head, you could already feel the pang as you squeezed your eyes to try and get rid of it. you tried to move on from your worries, going to comment on her necklace, it seemed new, but a knock interrupted you. the two of your heads popped up, looking at where the sound came from.Â
âcome in!â you called out, buttoning up the last bits of your top as you thanked myra. she nodded, bowing as she went to open the door. you could hear her faint footsteps, not bothering to look up as she greeted the person behind. you guessed it was franchesca coming with the fabric samples.Â
âsir,â you heard myra say, and your head swirled around, only to see the topic of your conversation make his way into your room, excusing your maid with a swift motion of his hand. she glanced once at you and then to him, ducking her head as she left, closing the door behind her as she left you two alone.Â
you felt heat prickle at the back of your neck as he looked at you and then to your room. the two of you slept separately, as per your request the first night. you couldnât bear the agonizing silence between the two of you, and he obliged.Â
he was dressed for sparring. he had a loose-fitting tunic on, and pants that would allow him to move freely and without constraint. it was in moments like these that you were reminded of the fact that gojo was the strongest warrior that any of the clans had seen, that the child who once splurged on sugar in his tea was capable (and has done so before) of taking down entire armies.Â
he had matured so much since what you last remembered from him. he no longer acted rashly nor spoke without thinking about what it was he wanted to say. but you still saw him eating sweets with the same fervor he did as a kid, and it never failed to make you smile, hiding it behind your hand so nobody could hear your quiet giggle.Â
it had been a while since it was just the two of you, alone, and all you could think about was that night. your cheeks heated up just thinking about it, and it seemed that gojo could tell your discomfort with the way he cleared his throat, running a hand through his hair as he began to speak.Â
âgood morning,â he started, his eyes darting around, never setting on yours. it was funny if it didnât cause your heart to hurt irrevocably, at how the strongest warrior in all the land could barely look at his wife.Â
if only you knew.
âgood morning.â you offered him a quick, disingenuous smile, moving around until you found your vanity, rummaging through your laid-out earrings as you kept your back to him, not trusting your face to give you away if you were to look at him for too long.Â
you heard him take in an audible breath, but he continued whatever it was he wanted to say.Â
âwith the feast coming up, i want to clear some things with you,â you turned around, looping the earrings in as you nodded for him to continue. it was such a shame he was so stunning, effortlessly attractive as the sun caught off his cheekbones, bouncing off of his chest. he rested his hand on the hilt of his sword, and you wondered if being here was just as painfully awkward for him as it was for you.Â
âwe should act like weâreâŠâ he trailed off and you felt yourself itching to leave, knowing what he meant without having to say it.Â
âin love?â you finished and he slowly nodded, gnawing on his lip as you brushed past him, going to find the mirror so you could adjust your jewelry. you could see him fidgeting in the corner, and for once you could see a hint of nervousness and unease on his features.Â
and a part of you hurt. you would never admit out loud that you harbored a crush on him for as long as you could remember. it hurt knowing that you acting like you were in love was perhaps the lost genuine form of love you could show.Â
âwhat if they ask about the night we met?â you ask after a couple of seconds, looking up from what you were doing. deep down, you knew somebody was bound to ask. even if it was just your mother who had caught the two of you alone in that garden, the news of it somehow spread (she was always one to talk).Â
he scratches his head, shrugging as he eventually settles on an idea.
âjust tell them the truth.âÂ
the truth.Â
tell them how he followed you after you had run outside, sick to your stomach after a man, who was as old as your father, had introduced himself as a possible suitor. how gojo, the most ruthless warrior in all the land, had carefully put his hands on your back as you retched, offering you a towel he had fetched from inside to clean yourself up.Â
tell them how you hadnât seen him in years but the first thing you had done was to hug him tightly. how his hands wrapped around your back as though they were the only things keeping you afloat. perhaps they were.Â
tell them how he murmured words in your hair to bring you back to reality, his thumb running up and down your arms to calm you down. how it seemed like even though it had been years since you two last saw each other, it felt so right, so normal, to be back in his arms.Â
tell them how he had looked at you with such worry, such care, unlike anybody else had looked at you, and you for once felt safe in somebodyâs arms.Â
tell them how your mother found you two in such a compromising position, with your head nestled in his chest as he tried his very best to soothe your cries. it was humiliating and embarrassing to be caught with a man you had only seen back in your teenage years, and especially so in such a vulnerable position.Â
you shake your head, scoffing at the idea, âiâll just come up with something,â was your answer and he nods along, realizing how the story would be too private to share with people you barely knew.
âand we need a reason for why,â he cleared his throat once again, pink dusting on his cheeks as his eyes dropped to your stomach. your eyes met his in the mirror, and one of your eyebrows raised, âwell, youâre not exactly looking like youâre carrying a child at the moment.âÂ
you quickly looked away, the tension in the room increasing as you moved away from the mirror, doing anything you could to keep your hands occupied. you flushed at the comment, your throat drying up as you glanced at your stomach.
the two of you have barely touched, much less been intimate with each other. you were glad he hadnât forced the idea onto you, instead, leaving it to you to bring up the topic. you only talked about it, once, the night of the marriage, and then never again. you knew that it would have to happen eventually, but you couldnât do it right now, not with your state of mind.Â
you scrambled to say something. in all honesty, you had been dreading this question. you hadnât been answering any of the letters your mother sent, and you knew people were expecting to hear the news of a pregnancy.Â
âweâll just say weâve been so busy and preoccupied with the politics of marriage that we couldnât⊠consummate.â you offered and he just shook his head, pinching the bridge of his nose as if this was the biggest inconvenience to him.Â
you knew that this marriage was brought upon quickly and before either of you could object to it, but at least you tried to hide it away. if only he hadnât acted so rashly that night, his hands on your shoulders, eyes bewildered as they racked over your figure. if only he had been more careful, or you were smarter in picking some place to be more concealed, you wouldnât be put in this position.Â
but neither of you was thinking ahead, and here you were. but he was certainly making sure that you knew of his contempt for this arrangement far more than you were. it was irritating, it scratched at your skin and ate away at your mind the more you saw each other.
âlook,â he couldnât take his eyes off of you, off of the way you were fiddling with the ring he had delicately placed on your hand so many weeks ago, âi can come up with whatever they ask, so just try your best to do the same.â you say, your voice tinged with anger, the ring on your finger acting as an anchor to the depths of the sea with the way it weighed down your movements, feeling your chest swell as he stayed silent, watching you as you opened the door.Â
âi donât-â
âum, i wonât be joining you for dinner, so donât wait on meâŠi apologize, i need to work on some things for the feastâŠhave a good day.â you swiftly murmured, shutting him in your own room as you left, your heart thumping erratically in your chest as you almost ran down the hallway.Â
you had no idea how you were going to persuade the masses that this marriage was working if you couldnât even persuade yourself.Â
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the feast of clans came earlier than you expected.Â
you found yourself perched at the end of the table, gojo next to you, your stiff bodies mirroring each other as the people around you joyously helped themselves to the vast variety of food offered.Â
you could barely touch the meal in front of you, your stomach churning uncomfortably with the sheer number of people that surrounded you. back home, you hated these feasts, opting to leave after a couple of bites and finish the rest of what you could pocket in your room, but here, as the clan leader's wife, you had no such luxury.Â
âare you not hungry?â you looked to your side, gojo staring at your plate and then to you, his eyes squinting as he tried to decipher what you were feeling.
âi canât eat,â you murmured, playing with your utensils as you swallowed thickly, âi donât do well in large crowds.âÂ
he nodded once, looking out into the sea of bodies as he inched a little bit closer to you. he was donned in expensive fabrics, although his hair still messily fell all over. the candle that was lit in front of you had different hues of oranges and reds bouncing off of his pale skin, and if you didnât know any better, the blush on his nose and cheeks could have been from the frigid winds from outside.Â
âiâll have myra save you a plate,â he said, giving you a curt smile as he went back to eating.Â
you were momentarily taken aback by his comment, but tried not to show it, going back to fidgeting with your ring as you looked at the sea of people. nobody had thankfully come up to you and bombarded you with questions, but that didnât mean that it wasnât going to eventually happen.Â
âthank you,â you say, glancing at him and then back to your plate.Â
âanything for my wife,â he replies. itâs only for show, you remind yourself, after all, when was the last time he referred to you as such?Â
âgojo,â an old man had walked up to your table, his face lined with wrinkles and a beard, dressed in orange as he offered gojo his hand to shake, âiâm glad to see that you finally settled down.â
gojo blushed deeply, trying to offer him a smile as he motioned to you.Â
âitâs hard to resist marriage when such a woman offers it.â he says, and you feel your eyes widen as you try to laugh off his statement.Â
âyes,â the old man chuckles, eyeing the two of you. he looked familiar, and you were sure you had seen him around these sorts of gatherings before, âit was only a matter of time before it happened. we all knew just how much you liked her back when you were children.â
the two of you sputtered on your coughs, and you felt a little smile grow on your face as gojo did what he could to usher the man away.Â
you could tell with the way he shifted uncomfortably in his seat that gojo wasnât expecting that, and before you could realize what you were doing you found yourself talking.Â
âiâm not a fan of feasts.â you quickly said, the words tumbling out of your mouth before you could stop them. itâs not like you felt you owed him an explanation, but you said it regardless.Â
gojo looked up from his plate, grabbing his cup so he could wash down his bite.Â
âany feast?â he asked, and you could feel the way the air shifted. he was glad you brought up a different topic.Â
âoneâs as big as this,â you twisted your ring back and forth on your finger subconsciously, âi get nervous in big crowds.â
âi remember,â a small smile grew on his face as he thought back to when the two of you were children, âyou would hide under the tables and force me to come with you.âÂ
you chuckled, blood rushing to your ears at the fact that he remembered this about you. it was the bare minimum of what you remembered from him, but you had convinced yourself that he had washed every memory of your last selves from his mind.Â
a rush of distant memories came to your head; nights spent under the tables, laughing as you two tried to keep your voices down as you tried to dodge the feet. you could still hear his whispers of staying quiet, trying to sneak out so he could smuggle in some pastries for you to eat.
âthe adults scared me; they were always loud and insistent on asking personal questions.â
âlike they are now?â he replied back, a tilt in his voice as you nodded feverishly.Â
âyes!â you covered your mouth with your hand as you let out a laugh, a genuine one as you tried to look as put together as you could, âi swear, itâs even worse than when we were young. just the other day a wet nurse came to me and told me the best positions to get into when giving birth!â it really was a mortifying moment, your eyes darting all around as the old lady even took it upon herself to demonstrate the movements, but gojo didnât seem to mind, laughing along with you. his eyes twinkled as they took in your giggly state, years since he had last seen you like this.Â
âi feel like i should apologize,â he starts, having to cover his own infectious smile as he ducks down his head in shame, âi had her sent up to your chambers.â
your mouth dropped open in shock, lightly smacking his arm as he grinned at the look on your face.
âto mortify me so that i would never leave?â your thumb moves your ring back and forth and gojo watches you as you do it.Â
âyou seemed sick at breakfast, but i guess she thought it was a different sort of sickness.â gojo tells you as he cuts off some of his meat, not knowing just how much his words affected you.Â
you had forgotten how simple and easy conversations were with gojo. although this was under a guise to fool people, you felt at ease with him, as if you didnât have to be on guard with your emotions when he was around.Â
âdo you still want to hide under the table now?â he asked a couple of seconds later, chewing on a potato as you shrugged, looking around before your lips grew into an apologetic smile.Â
ââŠyes,â you admitted bashfully and he smiled at your honest response.Â
âif you want to hide, iâll-â
âsatoru!â a booming voice interrupted your endless spiral of thoughts as the two of you glanced upwards at the sound, âitâs been too long!âÂ
a man with hair as dark as night and a smile wider than any ocean had come up to your table. he was the first one to do so all night, but gojo didnât seem bothered by it. he seemed to smile, crescents forming around his eyes as he took his friend's hand.
âtoo long,â he emphasized with a charming grin, motioning to you and then back to the man in front of you as if he suddenly remembered the two of you and never met, âsuguru, this is my wife, y/n. y/n, this is one of my oldest friends.âÂ
you extended your hand outwards and the man, suguru, took it, placing a soft kiss on the back of it as he shot you a playful smile. he wasnât at the wedding, but then yet again, it was a rather quick one. the only people who had attended were your families.Â
âitâs a pleasure to meet you.â he greeted, and you nodded in agreement, sitting back down next to gojo. you felt his long fingers reach for yours, enveloping your hand in his as your heart sputtered at the touch.Â
âlikewise,â you answered and the man grinned politely before he slightly tilted his head, looking at the two of you sitting next to each other.Â
âheâs not bothering you, is he? i know satoru can be fiendish when he wants to be, so call for me and iâll take care of him.â he teased and you could only smile tightly and laugh along, gojoâs fingers slightly tightening around yours as he moved your hand to rest on his thigh.Â
âi can take care of him when heâs fiendish. i just have to take the sugar away, right?â suguru snorted and gojo glared, but it was playful the way he looked at you.Â
his hands were warmer than you would have expected. you could feel the indents of calluses on his fingertips, could feel his thumb moving back and forth on your skin in a calming sort of manner. he didnât look over at you as he did it, playing it off as second nature.Â
âi apologize for not having much time to get to know you, but i have something i need to talk to gojo about. would you mind? it will only take a minute?â he asked, and gojo let go of your hand at the time of his friend's voice. you had to control your urge to roll your eyes, shifting in your seat as you motioned for suguru to talk to your husband, watching as he stood from his seat, leaving with the man as they went somewhere a little more secluded.Â
you watched as gojo leaned down to hear whatever it was that suguru was whispering in his ear, pulling back with a frown on his face. he snapped something that only caused suguru to reel back, cast a quick glance at you, and then shake his head in clear annoyance.Â
you saw gojo look up, his eyes landing on somebody from across the room, and you followed his stare, only to land on a girl.Â
she wore a dark yellow tunic and skirt, colors from a neighboring clan. you hadnât seen her before, but that didnât mean she wasnât known. just one look at the men surrounding her and you could pick up on their lovesick expressions.Â
she motioned for gojo to come to her with a bend of her finger, slyly brushing her hair out of her face to make it look as though it was nothing, exiting from the dining area and vanishing into one of the halls.Â
you looked down in case either of the men glanced over to see if you were staring. your eyes pierced through the meat on your plate, bile rising up your throat.Â
you gave yourself some time, counting up to a minute before you looked back to where suguru and gojo were, finding suguru standing alone. you looked at where the girl was and saw a flash of white hair before it disappeared, your heart sinking as you glanced back at suguru, only to find him looking at you.Â
you looked back at your plate, picking up a knife and fork as you stabbed the meat. you couldnât keep anything down but itâs best to pretend.
---
gojo didnât return until half an hour later, and you refused to talk to him.Â
âdid anybody bombast you with questions?â he teased, his smile not quite reaching his eyes. he didnât seem to pick up on your darkened mood as your fingers dug into your dress.Â
âi had a woman ask me if you had disappeared with your mistress, but that was it.â you remarked, silence filling the void between the two of you and you realized that all you had thought of him was crumbling down.Â
you didnât care for your image anymore, giving curt answers to any questions somebody had asked. you could feel his stare on the side of your face but you didnât humor him in looking over, focusing on your plate instead.Â
so what if he was seeing somebody else? you would have been naive to think that he wouldnât wander. the two of you barely touched each other.Â
once all the guests had left over the course of the following days, you did everything you could to steer away from gojo.Â
you no longer came down for breakfast or dinner, choosing to eat in your own quarters. if he wanted to have his own secrets, he could do whatever he pleased.Â
though you rarely saw suguru after the feast, he did try to talk to you the morning after it took place. he cornered you after you had left from breakfast, his once playful demeanor turned serious as you tried your best to end the conversation.Â
âwhat you saw last night-â
âis none of my business,â you finished, raising your hand as you cut him off, âif gojo has his own private matters to deal with, iâm indifferent to them all.âÂ
âyou know thatâs not what it was.â his hand hovered over your arm, careful not to touch you but not wanting you to leave either.Â
âi ruined his life, didnât i?â you tilted your head a bit in questioning. after all, thatâs all you could hear from the women who gossiped as they folded the laundry, or behind the hands of the girls who watched you and gojo interact and the mothers who wanted their daughters to be set up with him only sneered at you from across the tables.Â
âyouâŠwhereâd you get that from?â his brows scrunched together in confusion as you scoffed, hoping he couldnât see the tears welling in the corner of your eyes at the sting of your own words.Â
âi can see it on his face. if gojo wants to have his own affairs, he can have them. itâs not like weâre in love. hopefully, i find my own way out so that the two of us look happier and this marriage looks somewhat presentable to the public.âÂ
you didnât want to see the look on his face, but youâre sure he reported this all back to gojo because he didnât look at you once after it.Â
you heard from a maid a week later that he was gone for another meeting with a clan, a southern one from what you picked up, and that you should probably go and wish him some luck.Â
leading up to the night of his departure you anxiously paced around your room, your feet padding on the floor as your nightgown swished behind you.Â
you hadnât talked to gojo at all that day, and purposefully so.Â
it was petty, you know it was, to not want to see him, but a part of you still aches when you look back on that night. at how he didnât explain where he was even after you asked, at how it was suguru he had sent to fix his dirty work for him.Â
ây/n?â a muffled voice came from outside your door.Â
your head shot up at the familiar sound, quietly dragging yourself out from your bed as you grabbed the candle, hovering on the other side as you waited for him to say something else.Â
âare you awake?â you heard a soft thud from his side, almost as if his head or arm had hit the door.Â
you didnât answer, still, waiting.Â
âiâm leaving tomorrow and i wanted to see you before i left.â your heart skipped at his words, careful not to make a sound as you near the door.Â
âif youâre sleeping i wonât bother you anymore but if youâre not,â you could hear the old stutter he had coming back, his words meshing together as he tried to regain control, âand youâre choosing to stay quiet, iâŠâ he sighed, his forehead thumping down as he rested it on the door, âi wanted to apologize for the feast. i shouldnât have left you alone, and if youâd open the door, i would explain whyâŠâ he could see the flicker of the candle from underneath the crack, and saw the way it blew away, darkness following suit.Â
you walked back to your bed, turning your back to the door as you set the candle down on your table.Â
âgoodnight,â his voice was quieter than before, and you felt guilty, but pushed the bitter feeling down.
a couple of seconds later you heard him let out a sigh of defeat, his footsteps leading away from your bedroom as you curled into yourself, hoping you would let your heart stop taking control of what your head should be doing.Â
---
gojo didnât return for a while, and you grew more impatient by the day.Â
it normally took him and his men a week at maximum, and once two had passed, you felt yourself growing uneasy.Â
you tried to act as passive as you could, but even myra could pick up on your growing apprehension. you have never voiced your worries over your husband before, but she knew this wasnât like any other time.Â
when you went to bed, the only thing you could dream about was that night, your brain re-running the images as you tossed and turned.Â
âare you alright?â he asked, his hands on your elbows as you could barely speak, your blurry vision impairing your sight. you could only see a mop of white in the darkness, your stomach betraying you as you tried to keep the sick down.Â
âi donât feel too good,â you mumbled, trying to put some distance between the two of you as you pushed him away, only to feel him coming closer as he placed a hand on your forehead and then to your cheeks.Â
âyouâre burning up,â he muttered under his breath, guiding you gently so that you wouldnât trip over your feet.Â
âiâm sorry, you can go back inside, i donât want to keep you out here.â you were slurring your words as you tried not to throw up on him. you wiped at your eyes so that you could see him better, only to reel back in utter shock to see the face of your childhood friend frowning down at you.Â
your mouth formed in the shape of his name, going to say something else, before you hunched over, feeling his strong hands pat your back and keep the hair out of your face as you felt your world tilt on its axis.Â
you ate your dinner at the table, eyeing his empty seat as you tried to shove his last night out of your mind. you shouldnât feel this way, especially about a man who feels nothing towards you, but your little heart was churning in its confines the more you let yourself think about it.
sitting in the same spot where the feast took place only brought back the venomous taste in your mouth, and so you pretended that you were back home, eating somewhere without the worry of your life weighing you down like a thousand weights on your shoulders.Â
myra tried her best to distract you, but she could see the distant look in your eyes, how your voice never seemed too genuine. she began to worry for you, but it seemed like your mind was fixed on one thing.Â
until you found yourself pacing around your room, just like you were the night you last heard of him, playing with the ring on your finger as the moon carded through your window.Â
âmy lady,â you heard myra through the door, her voice shaky and a bit more on edge than usual, âthereâs-â but before she could finish it slammed open, revealing the man youâd been biting your nails over, standing in the flesh.
his eyes were a dark blue, squinted as they looked right through you. his chest heaved as he looked like he was trying to catch his breath. you could see the streaks of blood that lined his usually clean clothes, the red that stained his cheeks and jaw.Â
he looked feral, and it was throwing you off balance.Â
âout.â he snapped at myra, and before you could scold him for his tone she fled, the door shutting roughly behind her.Â
the two of you could only stare at each other. you didnât know what to think after weeks of uselessly worrying over him, not knowing about his well-being, to see him here, in front of you, but looking different than he ever had.Â
âare you alright?âÂ
you could barely get it out, the works sticking on your tongue as you took a tentative step forward, not knowing what to do with his state of being.Â
he eyed the blood on his shirt, wiping at his cheeks as if he had forgotten it was there. he didnât look too dirty, less dirty than one would expect from a five week endeavor through the woods, but he didnât look too good either.Â
âyou were awake.â is all he says, his chest still moving up and down as though he couldnât breathe properly.Â
âthat night i came by, you were awake. i saw your candle, i heard your footsteps.â he says this as though itâs fighting its way out of his mouth as if itâs all he could think about to tell you.Â
âi,â you pretend that you donât care, shrugging, âi wasnât up to talk.âÂ
âyou were with suguru.â he snaps, his tone shocking you, and he steps back as if he had shocked himself. he jammed his palms into his eyes, tilting his head upwards before he looked back at you.Â
âfor five weeks you were all i could think about. i wanted to come back, i wanted to tell you what i felt but we kept running into issues with other tribes and clans.âÂ
âwhat could you possibly think about that occupied your mind for five weeks?â you so desperately wanted your voice to come out strong but it sounded weak, as though you were hanging off of his every syllable.Â
âyou had told suguru that you were going to find yourâŠown way out,â he took a step forward, and here you could see the scratches on his chest, the cuts on his arms, âi was praying to every god there was that you hadnât found somebody in these past weeks, that you hadnâtâŠâ
you could barely believe his words, not knowing if you should feel offended, shocked, worried, or a mix of all those three.Â
âwhat business would it be to you if i did?â you hate that this was the response you settled on. hurt flashed across his face but he tried to regain his composure.Â
âyou are my wife-â
âand you are my husband!â you snapped and watched as he was momentarily taken aback by your outburst, but you continued your nose flaring, âyou cannot argue with me on this when you left with some girl in the middle of our feast!â you felt all your emotions finally pouring out and you had no control over them, âeverybody was talking about it, everybody was looking at me in pity!â your voice cracked, tears poking at your eyes as you pointed an accusatory finger at him.Â
gojo looked down, running a hand through his hair as he pointed a finger back.Â
âif you had let me explain myself, you would have known that she was trying to do what you thought she was. i left as quickly as i could but you would barely look at me!â you wanted to rip your hair out, cursing yourself for ever feeling any sort of worry for this man.Â
âi know that this marriage was the last thing you wanted but at least you could play the part of a husband! you didnât send a single note, anything to tell us that you were okay, that you were alive!â you heaved, fidgeting with your ring as you wiped at your cheeks, âand you come back here accusing me of adultery? all everybody could talk about was the fact that you were warming somebody elseâs bed! they said a meeting never takes this long unless somethingâŠsomebody else comes up.â your voice wobbles at the end, and you find yourself furiously rubbing your tears away, hiding your sniffing as though that would do anything. Â
he paused upon seeing you cry, his face falling as he tried to step forward but you angled yourself away from him, hoping heâd get the hint.Â
he wanted to hold you, to tell you that all the rumors you were hearing were false and that the only room he had left in his heart was for you. but he couldnât blame you for feeling or thinking this way. hell, he was so sure that heâd open the door to find another man comforting you that he didnât even stop to consider what must have been going through your head all these weeks.Â
âone of the clans tried to attack us, and we werenât ready for it. that is why we took so long.âÂ
you sniffle again, not caring for his explanation although it did soothe a part of your past self.Â
âyou could have at least sent a letter telling me what happened,â you fidget with your ring, your thumb running over the diamond, âeverybody asked me questions that i should have had answers to, but i had no idea where you were or what you were doingâŠâ he nods, his lips pressed into a thin line as he agreed with you.Â
âyou're right,â his voice was thick with emotion, the words slurring in his mouth as he found himself anchored in place, not knowing what to do. but you were rambling, your thoughts going on and on and you couldnât stop yourself.Â
ââŠbut i know you donât like letters, so the least you could have done was send a parchment saying iâm alive or something like that.â you rub at your nose again, feeling like all the weeks of worry weâre coming to a standpoint.Â
he looked confused now, if anything, and scratched at his jaw.Â
âwhat do you mean?âÂ
you scoff at the audacity, rolling your eyes as you feel anger prickle at your skin.Â
âyou never once responded to any of my letters. in my eyes, that must mean you have some sort-â
âletters? what letters?âÂ
you glance at him, taking in his shaking form.Â
âcome on gojo,â you feel embarrassed as he urges you to speak, having to spell it out for him, his eyes pleading with you to continue, âthe ones from when you left for training.â
his mouth opens and then closes, looks at the ground and then back up to you as he shakes his head. you could hear your fireplace crackling in the background. the only sounds circling the room were the pops of ember and your breathing.Â
âiâŠâ he feels like thereâs cotton in his mouth, hoping that youâre lying, âi never got any letters.âÂ
the fire crackled once again and you could almost hear a pin drop as you shook your head vehemently at his statement.Â
ân-no, no you did. i wrote to you every week, i sent one every week for two years and you never responded and my mother said that you must have forgotten about meâŠâ and you trail off, the tears in your eyes stoning as he furiously wipes at his own eyes, and for the first time since you had seen him fall down when he was a kid, you saw his own tears staining his cheeks.Â
ânobody gave me your letters. i thought that you,â he takes a deep breath, tongue poking inside his cheek as he tried to control himself, âi thought that you didnât care for me anymore.âÂ
you hug your midsection, your emotions running wild at his words.Â
âi was under the impression that you hated me.â you admit, and he looks as though you stabbed him through the heart. if only others could see the powerful warrior now, stripped bare to his conscience and all he could think about was you.Â
âwhyâŠwhy would you think such a thing?â you two inch closer without knowing it, longing to touch each other, wanting to know that the other was really there and that this wasnât a figment of your imaginations.Â
âgojo, you could barely looked at me that night at the gala and now it seems as though you, well, look at you - youâre flushed!â youâre grasping at straws, motioning towards his face, twinged with pink as you rub at your nose, âyou seem angry whenever i am near-âÂ
âthe only person i am angry at is myself.â gojo whispers, but his voice echoed around the expanse of your skull.Â
âyes, iâm aware,â you feel cold despite the fire in the corner, your tone carrying an air of know as you scorn, âi know the last thing you expected by comforting me was a marriage but-âÂ
âyou think i am angry because i married you?â he was moving closer, his hands shaking, his eyes wet. you could see the ring on his finger glow in the dim light of the fireplace, how it shined brighter than any of the night skies, âthe only good thing that has happened to me these last few months was being able to introduce myself as your husband. i know that i stripped you bare of any love you may have had for any other man, but call me selfish for feeling glad that i did.âÂ
you could barely focus on what was happening, his words sinking deep into your skin, going to your bones.Â
âi told myself that you had forgotten about me those years i left. when i saw you that night i was so sure you had come with the intention of finding a suitor that i didnât want to distract you, but then i saw that man come up to youâŠâ and he couldnât finish, choking on his words as he stuttered, and you saw a glimpse of the boy you had fallen in love with so long ago.Â
âand i followed you out. if i knew that simply being alone with you would have gotten me married to you then i would have cornered you in a closet the moment i saw you enter the dining hall.âÂ
a tear rolls down your chin, splattering on the ground beneath you as you struggle to make sense of what he was saying. it felt as though the months of being married to him were weeks spent pacing around your own rooms, thinking the same worried thoughts, and not having the strength to confront each other about it.Â
âyouâŠyou donât hate me?â your voice is timid, almost not believing yourself as the statement tumbled out. gojo had the audacity to laugh a bit, shaking his head as strands of his hair fell into his face.Â
âmy every waking moment is spent thinking of you. when i was in training, you were all i could dream about, hoping that when iâd come home i could finally have you to myself.Â
âyou have control over my emotions, my mind, my soul, and i cursed myself for taking away your options for a husband, but the only thing iâve wanted to do these past few weeks was to hold you in my arms. to tell you just how deeply i yearn for your love back.âÂ
he wiped at his cheeks, glistening in the faint light. he looked angelic, despite the grime and blood that decorated his clothing. you didnât want to think about the men he had killed just to come back, to come back to you, and the thought of ever losing him hurt you more than when you spent nights wondering why he never responded to any of your letters.Â
you couldnât stop your feet from leading you toward him, and you could only watch as he met you in the middle, catching you with all his strength, holding you as if you weighed nothing, and it only took a few seconds before your lips collided.Â
it was rushed, and messy as you felt his hands holding you as if you carried the weight of the universe. your teeth clashed, your tears staining each other's skin as your hands gripped at his hair, using it for leverage as he slipped his tongue into your mouth, enjoying the whimper that escaped your lips when he nipped at yours.Â
it was what years of longing and desperation felt like. how it felt like you two just molded into each other as if your bodies were cut out with the other in mind. you felt like your heart was about to stop beating, and you knew gojo felt the same with the way heâd whine against your lips, wanting you more than you could have ever imagined.Â
âweâve been stupid people, havenât we?â you whispered as you pulled away, trying to catch your breath as he smiled against you. if only you knew just how much heâd been wanting to kiss you like this, to see your swollen lips as you looked at him from beneath your eyelashes. you were his venus, his only saving grace, and he could only vex himself for ever making you feel anything but love.Â
âvery, â he pressed a kiss to the corner of your eyes, âvery,â to your nose, âstupid,â his lips were on your cheeks, feeling like he was breathing in new air at the sound of your laughter, âpeople.â he pressed his lips to yours again, cherishing in the way you whined at the harshness.Â
he had spent months convincing himself that you no longer cared for him. weeks of perilous training to only come back to a bed and dream of a girl who didnât share his emotions when in reality you did. he wants to track down the letters you had sent him, to read every word carefully, as if each sentence carried its own riddle inside of it. he wanted to apologize for never having the honor of experiencing your skilled penmanship, for leading you to believe that he had simply forgotten about you.Â
âgojo,â your fingers curl in his tunic, your heat transferring, trying to be rational in such an irrational state of being, âyouâre bleeding, i should call for the doctor.â he didnât stop kissing your face, moving to your jaw as he smiled hearing you shudder.Â
âitâs not my blood,â he murmured and you wanted to smack him for how cocky he sounded, âand donât call me gojo.â he nipped at your lips again.Â
âhusband?â you found yourself smiling at the title, but he shook his head. you saw how he was trying to hide his own grin.Â
âsire?â you tested it out teasingly, hating how it sounded. he seemed to agree with the way he grimaced at the name.Â
âmy lord?â he wanted to bottle up your laughter forever, knowing he could get drunk off of the sound. his nose nudged up at your jaw, pressing wet kisses wherever he could.Â
âhmm, what about my liege?â you're curling a strand of his hair around your fingers letting him settle you down on your vanity as you spread your legs so he could slot between them.Â
âmy men call me that.â he says, cringing as it falls off your mouth. you pretend to think, not knowing how you were able to live without this banter for as long as you did.Â
âsatoru?â you felt breathless saying it after so long. but he still didnât seem to find it satisfactory enough, a pout on his lips as he wanted you to find a better one.Â
âclose, but only when youâre angry with me.â you tuck that information in the back of your mind for if you ever need to scold him, your cheeks flushed as he interlocks his fingers through yours.Â
ââtoruâŠ?â his lips broke into a giddy smile, and you had to control yourself as he swooped back in for a kiss. his eyes were so much softer when he laughed, the kind ones you fell in love with so many nights ago.Â
âthere it is,â his voice was husky, raw as your fingers gripped at the baby hairs at his nape. he was taking your air away with him and you couldnât find it in yourself to fight back for it.Â
âi forgot how cheeky you can be,â you bite your lip to keep the moans inside, feeling feverish as his tongue ran over his love marks, not knowing what to do yourself as you scrambled to grab onto something to keep you afloat.
âyou have no idea how much self-control itâs taken not to ravage you,â his breath is hot on your skin, and heâs tugging at your shirt, fingers slightly brushing upon your breasts, âevery night youâd come down for dinner i wanted something different to eat.â
âstoppp,â you mewled, not used to this. he chuckles as his slender fingers work to untie the knot keeping you together, tugging at the string until it falls, revealing your naked chest, heaving as the fabric pooled at your hips.Â
you wanted to cover yourself up under his heavy gaze, to take the fabric and hide, but you felt pierced by his stare. his eyes darted to yours as if checking to see if you were okay. when you gave him a timid nod, it seemed as though it prompted him to finally move.Â
his fingers were gentle as they ran across your waist, large as they covered the soft of your stomach, eager as they went upwards. he looked like he was crazed and starved, as if you were his last meal and he couldnât wait for the sweetness death would give.Â
your breath stuttered as his fingers found your mounds, rubbing a soothing thumb over your nipples as his pupils grew. he was eager as he flicked them over and over, a cheshire grin growing as they hardened under his touch.Â
âyouâre perfect,â he murmured, dropping down so he could suckle at your tits, his spit shining in the light of the fire, and you tilted your head back, soft moans escaping as his tongue drew circles around your buds.Â
âf-fuck, âtoru, thatâs,â you couldnât even finish your sentence, his second hand coming to cup your other tit, not wanting to leave her unattended as he sucked and bruised, wanting to forever leave his mark on your untainted skin.Â
âgood?â heâs so cocky, and you want to smack the smug smirk off his devilishly handsome face.Â
his knee is purposefully rubbing against your clothed clit, and you feel yourself subconsciously rubbing yourself against it. you hope that he canât feel how drenched you are from him just sucking your tits, but he pinches you, pressing his tongue flat against your skin as he looks up through his lashes.
âhorny from just me touching you?â heâs teasing you, itâs so painful the way you want, need him like oxygen. you tug on his hair roughly, bringing his spit-soaked lips back to yours as you bite down on his lower one, enjoying the groan you draw out from him.Â
âdonât be mean âtoru,â you taunt, and you feel him melt in your fingers, nodding to your request as he lowers himself down.Â
he presses wet kisses down your torso, stopping just above your hips, his fingers hooking along the rim of your underwear, being careful and slow in his movements as he waits for any objections, making sure youâre okay with this.Â
but you were in your own world, hitching your leg over his shoulders, drawing him in closer to you, sweat dotting your forehead as he licks a stripe over the cotton on your pussy, smiling to himself at the taste of you.Â
you were so sweet, sweeter than any desert heâd indulge himself on. he was sure that once he had a taste of you heâd be able to repent, to go before any god, and to tell them that you were his religion.
he had spent countless nights, tossing and turning in his bed, the only thing putting him to sleep being the idea of coming home to you. running after you that night was him running home to you, regardless of where you were. he was glad he got your hand in marriage, but if he had to, heâd wait another ten years just to hold you in his arms again.
he peels your underwear off, a string of your arousal connecting to it, and he tucks it in his pants, for safekeeping.Â
âyouâre going to be the death of me.â he says against your heat, his nose rubbing against your clit as your eyes wring shut in pleasure. his hands grip your thighs, making sure you stay in place as he kitten licks around where you need him the most.Â
âdonât letâŠdonât let any of your enemies hear,â your voice comes out in bits, your hand resting on the back of his head as your leg tightens around him, âdonât want them to come after me or something.âÂ
he snorts, pinching your thighs as if anybody could come within a ten feet radius of you without losing an eye.Â
his lips come closer to where you desperately want him, a finger prodding at your tight entrance, his tongue finding your clit as he begins to suck.Â
itâs all too much, the sensations far better than your own fingers have ever proved to be.Â
his fingers are skilled, long enough that they reach deep within you. he sinks one fully in, your walls clamping around him as he continues sucking your clit, his teeth grazing it every so often, making your head thump against the wall.Â
âtalk to me, how do you feel?â his mouth discontented from your bud and you whine at the loss. he sinks in another finger to make up for it, but he doesnât move them, waiting for your response.Â
ââs good,â one of your hands is fisting your discarded robe, trying to hold onto your senses as you desperately nod, âdonât stop âtoru, please,â and he obliges, loving the sounds of your begging, but loving the sound of your pleasures more.Â
his fingers stretch you open and you welcome the sting, your nails digging into him as you long for more.Â
he switches his mouth with his hand every now and then, his tongue taking the place of his fingers as it licks at you, groaning at your taste as he eats you out with his entire being, his chin shining with your essence and his spit as his thumb rubs furiously at your clit.Â
âmmhhh, just like that, fuck!â youâve never heard your voice at this pitch, never knew it was possible to feel this way. his other hand reaches up to flick at your nipple, the extra sensation making white dot around your vision.Â
you feel yourself getting closer to the sweet release, feel your wall clamp around him even tighter as that knot in your stomach builds to a crescendo.Â
âcome on, let go fâme, know you want to, know you can.â he spurs you on, his fingers unrelenting as they piston in and out of you, reaching that gummy spot that makes you go dumb.
âfuck, âtoru, mâgonna, mâgonna come!â you cry out and youâre sure anybody walking past you could hear the debauchery. your thighs were starting to shake and you felt it all go black as you reached your high, your orgasm washing over you unlike anything youâve ever felt.Â
you creamed around his fingers, gushing around him as you wailed out, tears dotting your eyes from the overwhelming pleasure you were feeling. you squeezed around him, wanting to never lose what this felt like, trying to catch your breath as his mouth never stopped sucking at your nub before he was sure your climax was over.Â
when he finally pulled away the only thing that could be heard was the two of you, trying to come back down as stupid smiles made their way onto each of your faces.Â
he was boyishly charming as he stood in front of you, licking yourself off of his fingers as he grinned at the taste. you couldnât be bothered to be embarrassed after having him just between your legs, but you still felt a heat blossom in your chest.Â
âsoâŠâ you awkwardly start, sweat dripping down your face from just how hot the room had suddenly gotten as you avert your gaze, âwhat now?âÂ
he shrugged nonchalantly, despite the fact that his heart was about to beat itâs way out of his chest. you let him pick you off of the vanity and tucked you safely away into his chest as he led you to your bed, gently setting you down in your mountain of pillows and blankets as you felt sleep etch away at you.Â
âiâm going to clean you up,â he pressed a kiss to your hair, smiling at the way you giddy smiled at whatever he did, a dopey grin on your face as your hand searched for his, interlocking you fingers with his as if you didnât want to watch him go, âif you let me.âÂ
you yawn, your head tilting as he sat down at the edge of your bed, still not letting go of your hand as your fingers run through the soft pelts beneath you.Â
âand what about you?â your chin points the obvious hard-on growing in his pants. he looks down as if suddenly realizing, and he plays it off by looking back up to you with a wink. you felt your mouth going dry at the size of it, not knowing if you could even be able to take something as big as that.Â
âfor another day,â he promises, and youâre sure heâs not going to forget it. not like you want him to.
âand then?âÂ
your question lingers in the air. you donât want to wake up to him acting like this never happened, as if your feelings were only a figment of your wildest dreams. but his eyes hold onto yours, never letting go as he brushes some strays away from your face.Â
âand then i get a bigger bed for my room because thereâs no way iâm letting you sleep here alone after this.â his thumb runs along the palm of your hand, his fingers tracing patterns into the soft of your legs.Â
âand then?âÂ
âand then you tell me all the things i missed out on when i was gone. iâll tell you about the time suguru shaved my head, and youâll tell me about anything on your mind.âÂ
âwhat if i run out of things to say?â sleep is overtaking your voice, and youâre already nodding off, not even truly knowing what you were asking.Â
âthen iâll make up stories so that youâre not bored.â he finds a clean towel, soaking it in water from a nearby pitcher as he drags it slowly across your body, as if your fragile and made of porcelain.Â
âhow do i know youâre not a dream? you might just be,â you yawn, rubbing at your eyes as your finger traces his ring, âyou might just be my own mind tricking me.â your eyes are shutting, but the teasing smile on your face never leaves.Â
âbecause a dream wouldnât hide under a table with you if you asked.â he whispers, kissing your lips with a soft peck as he pulls the blanket over you, letting you sleep into a slumber as he crawls in next to you, holding you to his chest just as he did that night, just as he will every night from now on, and just as he longed for those nights he wished you next to him.
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pairing: drew starkey x you ft brooke starkey
summary: when you and brooke decide to pull a prank on drew during a casual saturday lunch at his house, itâs all in good fun. drewâs protective streak as both a big brother to brooke and a boyfriend to you has always been one of his most endearing and amusing qualities. so, when you drop a casual bombshell about having a âmale waxerâ at the spa, drewâs reaction is priceless. shock, confusion, and hilariously protective instincts take over as he tries to process this unexpected bit of news.
warning(s): english is not my native language. light humor, playful pranks, and drewâs classic overprotective antics, no use of y/n.
au: like, reblog and feedback are very much appreciated. please be nice, thank you and enjoy.
Drew was in high spirits as he set the table for lunch, a relaxed grin on his face. Heâd spent so many months on set for Outer Banks, and it was clear he was thrilled to unwind with the people he cared most about. Little did he know, you and Brooke were about to test just how protective he could get.
As you and Brooke shared a mischievous look across the table, you kicked off the prank.
âHey, Brooke,â you began casually, glancing at Drew to see if he was listening, âthanks for recommending that spa the other day! It was, uh⊠an experience.â
âOh, you finally went!â Brooke said, playing along perfectly.
âHow was it? I told you theyâre really good, right?â
You nodded, trying to keep a straight face.
âYeah, they assigned me a guy for the wax. Super professional and all, but, you know, unexpected.â
Drewâs fork froze halfway to his mouth, his eyes snapping to you, wide with surprise.
âWait⊠a guy? Like, for⊠the wax?â He looked genuinely baffled, trying to process this information.
You fought so hard keep your expression neutral, nodding casually.
âYeah, he was great at it, honestly. Didnât feel a thing. Super smooth process.â
Drewâs face morphed from confusion to full-on disbelief. He put his fork down slowly, his mouth opening and closing as he searched for words.
âWait⊠you mean⊠like a full wax? By a⊠guy? Thatâs even legal?â
You shrugged, pretending not to notice his growing panic. âYeah! Brooke goes there too. And of course it was legalâ
Brooke jumped in, barely able to suppress her grin.
âOh, yeah, I get a guy a few time. Theyâre just more efficient, you know? Totally professional.â
Drewâs jaw practically dropped. He looked from Brooke to you, then back to Brooke, struggling to comprehend this new reality.
âWait, Brooke⊠you, too? Both of you⊠by some random guy?â
You could see the protectiveness flaring in his eyes. Drew was always so protective of both of you, and he looked like he was about to burst with a mix of confusion, disbelief, and was that a hint of jealousy? not sure.
âYeah, babe, itâs not a big deal,â you added, feigning nonchalance as you twirled your fork in your pasta.
âHe was a total pro, super respectful.â
Drewâs eyes narrowed.
âRespectful or not, thatâs still⊠strange, right?â He looked at Brooke, hoping sheâd agree with him.
âI mean, you donât think thatâs, like⊠kind of weird?â
Brooke shook her head, acting entirely unbothered. âNope. Honestly, itâs easier you know they donât make a big deal out of anything, and theyâre more⊠whatâs the word; thorough.â
Drew looked absolutely bewildered, his eyes flicking between you and Brooke as if waiting for one of you to reveal it was all a joke.
âWait⊠thorough? What⊠what does that even mean? And how is that not weird?â He turned to you, looking betrayed.
âAnd why didnât you tell me about this?â He asked.
You raised an eyebrow, trying to hide your smile.
âI mean, Drew, itâs a spa treatment, not a big deal. Itâs not like Iâd come home and say, âHey, I got waxed by a guy today.â with a very proud face on.â
âBut maybe you should have!â Drew said, crossing his arms with a pout. âI thought we told each other everything.â
âOh, come on,â Brooke teased, nudging him with her elbow. âDonât be so overprotective, Drew. Itâs just a wax.â
Drewâs face was priceless with half annoyed, half helplessly confused.
âIâm not being overprotective, Iâm just⊠I mean⊠come on!â
He ran a hand through his hair, looking genuinely baffled.
âThis is just⊠I canât believe both of you think this is totally fine.â
You and Brooke exchanged a glance, both struggling to keep from bursting out in laughter.
âOh, Drew,â you sighed, leaning over to give him a reassuring pat on the shoulder.
âHeâs a professional. I didnât even feel anything, it was so quick and easy.â
ââDidnât feel anythingâ?!â Drew repeated, looking even more scandalized.
âI donât care if it was painless! It was still a guy, right? Like, a random guy?â
Brooke grinned, piling on, âOh, heâs not random. I think his name was⊠Carlos?â
âOh, mine was Vincent, heâs Italian by the way.â You said
Drewâs face turned red.
âCarlos?! and Vincent?! So heâs got a name now? You ladies on a first-name basis with these guy who⊠I meanâŠâ He trailed off, clearly struggling to articulate his thoughts.
âDoes this Carlos, Vincent know I exist?â
You bit your lip, feigning a thoughtful look. âHonestly, I didnât mention you. But maybe next time?â
Drew groaned, burying his face in his hands. âNext time? Oh, come on, youâre kidding me.â
âDrew, calm down,â Brooke said, barely containing her laughter.
âWeâre just trying to live our best, smooth-legged lives here. Can you blame us?â
Drew looked at her with an exasperated expression. âYeah, but does that really have to include some guy named whatever his name is? You know, itâs kind of my job to protect you both from⊠well⊠guys like that!â
At that, you couldnât hold it in any longer. You and Brooke burst into laughter, doubling over as Drew continued to stare at you both in utter disbelief.
âWait⊠are you two⊠Are you serious?â Drew asked, the realization slowly dawning on him as he watched you both laughing uncontrollably.
âOh my god, youâre messing with me, arenât you?â
He continue, âOh, yes you are, and itâs not fun ladiesâ
Through your laughter, you managed to say, âYes, Drew! Thereâs no Carlos or Vincent! Itâs a prank!â
Drew let out a sigh of relief, slumping back in his chair, though he couldnât help but laugh along with you.
âOh, you two are evil. Seriously, Iâve been through a lot on set, and this is what I come home to?â
You wiped a tear from your eye, grinning. âWell, we missed you, so we thought weâd welcome you back with some⊠excitement.â
Drew chuckled, shaking his head as he reached over to pull you into a playful hug.
âExcitement, huh? You know, paybackâs coming for both of you. Iâm just warning you now.â
âOh, weâre ready,â Brooke teased, crossing her arms with a smirk. âHit us with your best shot, Drew.â
Drew rolled his eyes, unable to keep from smiling.
âYou two are lucky I love you, because if anyone else pulled something like that on meâŠâ He shook his head, feigning a serious look.
âCarlos and Vincent, though? Really?â
You laughed, leaning your head on his shoulder. âWe knew that would get you. What a sexy name for a manâ
âYeah, well, it did,â he admitted, sighing as he gave you a playful squeeze.
âBut next time, Iâm not falling for it. Just so you know.â
âOh, weâll see about that,â you said, grinning.
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daddy's home
summary: boyfriendless, jobless and hopeless, you rush to take the first opportunity you find, which is a nanny position. but the kids are not the only ones you grow fond of... pairing: seungcheol x reader genre: fluff, smut, single dad x nanny AU warnings: kids (triggering, i know), age gap (unspecified), mentions of past cheating, abandonment issues, potential therapy, male masturbation, confessions, blowjob, kissing, eating out, protected sex (unbelievable), dirty talk, size kink, pet names (sweetheart, angel, darling, little girl), sir+daddy kink, unprotected sex (with baby-making goal), breeding kink, creampie, more kids (sorry im ovulating) author's note: this is loosely based on the sitcom the nanny in that there's a single dad with three kids but minus the dead wife trope cuz that's too depressing for my tastes word count: 4.3k
You are desperate. Your shitty boyfriend cheated on you, broke up with you and you also lost your job. So itâs been a couple of terrible weeks. Now, you would take pretty much any kind of job as long as it pays enough for you to afford food and the bills. ASAP.
Single dad looks for a live-in nanny for his three kids. Full-time with Sundays off. Contact this number for more details.
Okay, truth be told, youâve never considered yourself as someone who is good with kids. But how hard can it be? Have you mentioned youâre desperate?
âListen, Miss L/N,â Mr. Choi, your potential future employer starts. âI appreciate your enthusiasm but Iâm not just going to hire you. Iâm looking for someone with experience.â
âWell, I have a bunch of nephews, if they turned out alright under my care, then I guess that counts for something,â you chuckle.
âThatâs very nice but Iâm talking about professional experience. Have you been a nanny before?â
âTechnically, no, but how can I get experience if you wonât hire me?â
âTouchĂ©,â Mr. Choi laughs.
âHow about a trial period? Let me spend some time with your kids under your supervision and prove myself capable.â
Mr. Choi nods reluctantly.
âWell, youâre in luck since my little goblins have driven away five nannies in the past month.â
Oh, dear. Five nanniesâŠAnd here you were thinking this could be an easy job.
âSo, whatâs one more?â you chuckle nervously and Mr. Choi shakes your hand, agreeing to give you a chance.
You are excited when meeting his kids. The eldest daughter - Chaerry is 15, very elegant and polite. You think that youâll have no problems with her and youâll have lots to talk about. The middle child and only son - Dino is 10, extremely mischievous and loud. Youâll definitely have problems. Finally, the youngest daughter, Elsie, is 5, sheâs such a cutie but leaves a mess of her toys everywhere she goes. Itâs easy to trip if youâre not careful, but nothing you canât handle.
The trial period goes by in a flash. Dino attempts to get on your nerves by pulling pranks like hiding fake spiders in your bag and spraying your outfit with ketchup, but you accept all that with an easygoing laugh. Elsie constantly asks you to play with her toys and you need an unlimited source of ideas to keep up with her wild imagination, but it feels more like fun than a job. Chaerry is quiet and doesnât share much at the beginning but eventually tells you about this boy at school she has a crush on. So, you count that as a success.
âI must admit, Miss L/N, I had some worries at first but seeing how quickly my kids accepted you is remarkable,â Mr. Choi shares his observations with you at the end of the trial period.
âSo, am I hired, then?â you beam with excitement.
âAbsolutely, yes. The kids have taken a liking to you and changing nannies so often is probably not great for them, either.â
âSo true. Kids need stability and I would be happy to stick around for as long as youâll have me, Mr. Choi,â you are thrilled not only because you will have a bed to sleep, food to eat and money to spend, but because you are genuinely looking forward to spending more time with these little munchkins.
And spend time with them you do. You're not sure what exactly it is that makes the kids warm up to you, but whatever the reason, it's working.
With Chaerry, you talk about boys and high school drama and make-up. On one occasion, she tells you something that sincerely touches you.
âThank you for being my best friend, Y/N. I know I shouldn't keep stuff from my dad, but he can be so overprotective sometimes it's difficult to talk about...well, going on dates with boys, mostly.â
âAww, Chae, you can tell me anything. It'll be our little secret,â you give her a wink, followed by a hug.
You're not exactly sure what the correct response here is. But you'll make sure to maintain some kind of balance - both look after her safety so that Mr. Choi sleeps peacefully at night and not betray Chaerry's trust in you.
With Dino, after the initial phase of silly pranks passes, you notice that he's become more honest and calm.
âYou won't leave us like our mom and all the other nannies did, will you?â he asks you one afternoon as you're watching TV together.
You haven't asked Mr. Choi what exactly happened with these kids' mother because frankly, it's none of your business, but something is telling you they're a lot more hurt than they let on.
âI'm not going anywhere, Dino,â you promise, though really, it's up to Mr. Choi to decide that.
âGood. It would really suck if you left.â
That's a lot, coming from the kid who damaged like half of your wardrobe with all kinds of sauces.
With Elsie, another strange situation takes place due to the fact that the kid has no filter.
âLet's play family!â
âUm, okay,â you agree without thinking much.
âThis will be daddy,â Elsie points at a stuffed lion plushie and then grabs a tiger plushie, âAnd this is you, mommy!â
âOh, honey. I'm not your mommy,â you try to explain as gently as possible.
âBut can you be? Daddy says our mommy left and has a new family somewhere else.â
Okay, that's a lot to unpack here. Though you don't think it is your place, you'll need to have a conversation with Mr. Choi, because the kids obviously have some kind of unresolved trauma...
One evening, after the kids have gone to sleep, instead of going to your room, you wait in the living room for your employer to come back from work, so you can approach the subject as delicately as you can.
âGood evening, Miss L/N. Kids go to bed?â he greets you as he takes off his coat.
âEvening, Mr. Choi. Yes, they did. I was wondering if we can have a chat. It can be a sensitive topic, I'm sure, but for the sake of the kids, I think it's important.â
Mr. Choi nods and takes a seat next to you on the couch.
âAbout their mother...â
âI was wondering how long it'd take you to bring that up,â he chuckles bitterly. âOther nannies wanted me to spill the tea on day one.â
âWow, seriously?â
âIt's not like it's this big secret, I just prefer not to talk about it unless absolutely necessary. My ex-wife...cheated on me and got pregnant by another man, so we had a divorce and I kept the kids, because she said she wants to start anew with this other guy, and...well, the kids said this is their home and that they won't move. So, I suppose the judge took that under consideration.â
âMy God. I had no idea.â
âYou couldn't have known, considering I just said I don't enjoy revisiting those painful memories.â
âYes, of course, I only meant that...I guess it explains some things. Forgive me for saying this, but I think the kids have some kind of abandonment issues. Elsie and Dino, in particular, they seem to have a fear that I'll leave just like...well, their mom and the other nannies.â
âAnd are you? Leaving, I mean.â
âNot if I can help it. Mr. Choi, your kids are very vibrant and precious to me. I genuinely love my job. But I'm worried that what happened with your ex-wife affected them more than they show. Maybe you should look into therapy?â
âI will definitely take that into consideration. Thank you for your candour, Miss L/N.â
âYou're most welcome.â
âWhat about Chaerry?â
âWhat about her?â
âYou said that Elsie and Dino express these abandonment issues. Does Chaerry not have them?â
âShe probably does, but at the moment she's too busy thinking about boys.â
âBoys? At her tender age? I don't think so,â Mr. Choi immediately goes into ultra alpha protective dad mode and you honestly find it kind of funny. And hot.
âOh, relax, Mr. Choi. It's just typical high school drama. There's nothing to be worried about.â
He shakes his head disapprovingly.
âI'm counting on you. Does it ever occur to you how quickly they grow up?â
âI suppose it's more difficult for you. I've only known them for a few months but I think I get what you mean.â
âYeah...How strange, it feels like you've been part of this family forever.â
You try not to think too deeply about it. He...considers you part of this family. Elsie called you mommy. Dino doesn't want you to leave. And Chaerry talks to you about boys. A topic, which girls usually discuss with their mothers. Oh, sweet heavens. Maybe, this nanny gig is becoming more than a job...
One Monday Mr. Choi texts you not to come to work this Saturday, as the kids will be spending some time with their grandparents (aka Mr. Choi's parents). However, the moment you receive the text, you're too busy trying to escape from Dino who is chasing you with a water gun in the garden. So, you somehow forget to put it down in your calendar.
Saturday arrives and poor Mr. Choi thinks you'd be in your own apartment. Finally, some peace and quiet. His parents picked up the kids early in the morning to go to the park with them so he's all alone and free to do as he pleases.
But alas, you go down the stairs of Mr. Choi's enormous house and make your way to the kitchen to prepare some breakfast for the kids. However, it's too quiet. Hm, how strange. Maybe, they're not awake yet? You shrug as you pour some milk and cereal in a bowl.
Oh, you hear some noise from the living room. Is that the TV? Your curiosity gets the better of you and you enter it only to find Mr. Choi in a very compromising position. He is touching himself, watching very obscene things on the big screen!
You are on the verge of chastising your boss for doing something like that in the living room, where the kids could walk in any minute, when you remember. The kids...They're with their grandparents today. Which means that...Fuck, you're not supposed to be here. You should be at your own apartment instead of being witness to...your very sexy and very single employer taking care of his needs.
You are going to sneak back into the kitchen and wait for a more appropriate time to leave the house when you hear it. At first you think you're hallucinating but then you hear it twice. Your name.
âY/N...please, let me-â Mr. Choi moans, his eyes closed, he is unaware of your presence.
However, he doesn't get to finish his sentence because you are so shocked that you drop the bowl of cereal, which shatters on the ground with a loud noise.
âFuck, I'm so so sorry,â you murmur nervously as your boss finally notices you watching him.
His cheeks flushed, his lips pouting, he is the most adorable you've ever seen him. He hurries to tuck his cock back into his pants and turn off the TV.
âN-no, I'm sorry...Miss L/N, what are you doing here?â
Oh, so you're Miss L/N now...Very well, then.
âI apologize. It must have slipped my mind that the kids are with their grandparents today.â
âIt must have,â Mr. Choi repeats coldly, obviously embarrassed by this situation.
You wonder if you should tell him what you heard. Would that be unprofessional? But then again, he is the one who said your name, so...what is professional anyway?
âDo you want me to leave?â
He sighs deeply.
âWhat's the point? You already saw me...fuck, I feel so humiliated.â
âWhy would you feel humiliated? Am I so undesirable that my presence immediately turned you off?â you ask bluntly.
âThat's not the case and you know it.â
âI'm not sure I know anything anymore,â you admit. âYou...said my name. How is that supposed to make me feel?â
âYou were never meant to hear that,â Mr. Choi hides his face behind his hands, the redness refusing to leave his complexion.
âBut I did. So, what now?â
âPlease, don't quit. I realize that what I did is unforgivable but...the kids care about you so much, it would devastate them to lose you.â
âI wasn't even thinking of quitting. But...are the kids the only ones who care about me?â you need to know.
âNo...As it so happens, I care about you.â
âSo, stop hiding from me,â you don't know where that boldness comes from as you grab his wrists and remove his hands, so you can look at his face. Fuck, he's so pretty.
âYou're not...grossed out by me?â Mr. Choi blinks at you in surprise.
âKinda flattered, actually,â you confess. âBut I'd like it much better if you let me take care of your frustrations.â
âYou would?â he is unable to believe his luck when you drop on your knees in front of him and take him out of his pants again, engulfing his cock with your pretty mouth. âY/N...â
The way he says your name is enough to make you even more enthusiastic, sucking him deeper and bobbing your head to the best of your abilities. He grips your hair tightly and you make sure not a drop is spilled as you swallow his cum down your throat. You wipe off your lips and sit down next to him, unsure of what to do next.
âMr. Choi...â
âCall me Cheol, please.â
âCheol...may I kiss you?â
Seungcheol doesn't respond and instead kisses you passionately, grabbing your face with his hands. His tongue is exploring your mouth in ways you'd never imagined could bring so much pleasure and you can't resist the urge to sit in his lap. Somehow, against all reason, he's hard again, as you grind against him. Fuck. He's so hot and sweet and amazing you just want to make him happy. How anyone could cheat on this fine man is beyond you.
âUm...not to assume or anything, but do you have a condom?â you ask sheepishly.
âI do, yes,â Seungcheol goes to his coat and brings a package.
âI mean, don't get me wrong, I love kids, but I think we should be responsible considering this is our first time together and you already have three of your own,â you're probably talking too much but oh well. Better safe than sorry.
âNo, I understand. You're totally right.â
âWill you fuck me?â you inquire.
âHere? On the couch?â Seungcheol is in disbelief.
âWell...you were touching yourself here, but I guess it's whatever. Your home, after all.â
He chuckles, suddenly embarrassed again.
âCome on, let's go to my room.â
Seungcheol offers you his hand and you follow him upstairs excitedly. Is this really happening? Are you seriously going to do this with your boss?
He lifts your chin up because he notices you're not meeting his eyes out of nervousness.
âLook at me,â he commands you easily and you're on the verge of falling apart and he hasn't even undressed you yet. The power this man holds over you... âWe don't have to do this if you're not ready.â
âIt's not that. I do want this. It's just...I don't remember if I told you but I was also cheated on. A little before I came to work here. And like, I haven't been intimate for a while, so I'm nervous. What if I mess something up?â
âOkay, first of all, give me that asshole's address, I just wanna talk. And second of all...darling, I haven't been intimate since way before my divorce took place. Trust me, I'm a lot more nervous than you right now.â
You shake your head.
âWhatever you do, I'm sure I'll find it like super hot.â
Seungcheol laughs and tilts his head, kissing you again.
âYou're so cute,â he whispers against your mouth. âI can't wait to ruin you.â
And just like that, it's as if a switch is flipped. He pushes you onto the bed and leans above you menacingly, a devilish smirk painting his pretty face. Seungcheol pushes your dress up hurriedly, touching you all over.
âYou really thought you could get away with it, huh? Walking around my house in those dresses of yours looking so sexy? Tempting me?â
âN-no, s-sir,â you murmur, not knowing where the title is coming from.
âGod, I'm such a clichĂ©. An old man unable to resist the gorgeous young nanny...â
âYou're not old, sir,â you try to reassure him. You're not sure if he's just engaging in dirty talk or is actually having some insecurities. He's still young in your eyes. Whatever the case, you're there for him.
âDon't lie to me, sweetheart. I'm too old for ya...I have three kids. What do you have, hm?â Seungcheol speaks while caressing your pussy through your panties.
âI have you, sir,â you smile and palm his dick teasingly.
He sighs wistfully and buries his head between your folds, licking and teasing until you're a soaking mess for him.
âS-sir, p-please...C-cheol, don't stop,â you cry out helplessly.
It feels so good, too good. He holds you down, hands gripping your thighs as you cum against his tongue. He barely gives you any time to recover as he rolls up a condom on his cock. You stare at him hungrily, impatient to have him inside of you.
Seungcheol is like the drug everyone warned you about. Once you have him, you won't be able to quit.
âAre you ready?â he asks softly in sharp contrast with his previous behaviour.
âPlease take me, Cheol,â you would beg if you had to.
And take you he does, entering you deeply with his big cock.
âFuck, you're so tight, barely fitting me in,â he speaks, stroking your clit in circular motions with his thumb, while he fucks you harshly.
âIt's okay, I won't break, sir,â you try to convince him.
âWhat if I want you to break, little girl?â Seungcheol inquires, his voice half-joking, half-serious, as he.
âThen, I'd be happy to serve you, daddy,â the word slips from your lips before you could think twice about it.
âDaddy, huh? You need daddy to make you cum?â you are grateful he plays along instead of making fun of you in this very vulnerable moment.
âYes, daddy, please, I'll do anything for you,â you promise in a daze.
âCum for me, sweet girl, let daddy take care of you,â his deep voice is enough to bring you to the edge.
âFuuuck, daddy...Cheol,â you mumble repeatedly, as white appears before your eyes.
You're shaking in his arms but it feels like flying.
âI've got you, angel, daddy's right here,â Seungcheol comforts you, as he rides out his own high, spilling inside the condom. Then, taking it off and throwing it in the garbage bin, he hurries back to you.
You make grabby hands at him and he envelops you in a hug.
âI'm here, sweetheart,â he kisses your forehead gently and you melt against his chest.
âCheol...I think you just murdered me a little,â you laugh.
âWell, then, I better make sure I revive you, because I can't imagine my life without you.â
âGood. You ain't getting rid of me.â
âThat sounds perfect because me and the kids would like you to stick around.â
âOh God, the kids! What time are they coming back?â
âWe've got time, don't worry, they should-â
âDaaaad, we're home!â you hear Dino's loud voice from downstairs.
âFuck,â Cheol curses under his breath and the two of you hurry to make yourselves look somewhat presentable.
Once dressed and back in the living room, you can only hope that you're not too obvious about what went down. However, you can't stop yourself from glancing at Seungcheol and he's just as flustered as you.
âOh, hi, Y/N,â Dino greets you as if it's completely normal for you to be there. As if you belong.
âHow was your time with your grandparents?â you ask, trying to act casual.
âWe had so much ice cream!â Elsie squeals excitedly.
âGrandma and Grandpa took us to the park,â Chaerry starts telling you about everything they did in great detail and you are glad that the shy girl you first met is becoming a confident young woman.
Elsie is asking for more ice cream but Seungcheol is explaining that it's lunch time. Dino is painting the table with mustard and honestly, that's so on brand for him...
It is funny where desperation brought you. You realize this is the happiest you've been in a while.
Later, when Seungcheol catches you alone after spending the afternoon with the kids, he asks:
âI know we kinda messed up the proper order of things, but...would you like to go on a date with me?â
âOh! I'd love that, Cheol. Is it okay to still call you that?â
âYeah, it's alright.â
âWhat about in front of the kids? I'm not sure to what point you'd like to mix professional with...personal life.â
âIn front of the kids is okay, too,â he laughs, scratching the back of his head. âActually, do you know what Elsie keeps asking me?â
âWhat?â
âWhen will you make Y/N my new mommy?â
âYeah, that definitely sounds like something Elsie would say.â
âSo, um, no pressure. But I think you're more than the nanny to me.â
âWell, I would certainly hope so. I didn't raise you, mister!â
Seungcheol can't miss the opportunity for a joke. He takes hold of your hand and places it on top of his...very hard dick.
âYou raised him, though,â he whispers.
âMr. Choi!â you hiss, scandalized. âI mean...Cheol.â
âDid you mean daddy?â Seungcheol teases you relentlessly.
âStop it, you deviant!â you shake your head. âFuck, you'll never let me live this down, will ya?â
âDo you kiss your boss with that mouth?â he smirks.
âDon't mind if I do,â you reply and bring your lips to his.
A year passes by quickly. You love every day of your life. Whether it'll be spending time with the kids, or going on fun dates with your boss turned boyfriend, or having mind-blowing sex with said specimen, you are truly happy with how things turned out for the best.
With one tiny thing missing.
âCheol, can I ask you something?â you mumble one evening, as you are playing with his soft, fluffy hair.
âOf course, sweetheart,â Seungcheol turns towards you, giving you his fullest attention.
âHave you ever thought about having more kids?â
âHmm, it hasn't crossed my mind. I already have three kids. But it depends. Is that something you're interested in?â
âNot till now. But if it's with you, I'd love to have a kid,â you confess shyly.
âWell, then, let's make you a mommy,â Seungcheol quickly makes it his mission and for the first time, doesn't use a condom.
âYes, please, daddy, give me your cum,â you moan wantonly, as he fucks you deep.
âTake it like the good girl you are, I'll give you all I've got, fuck a baby in ya,â he grunts in your ear, sounding even more excited than you are.
âI love it, feel so full,â you whimper and can't stop kissing him. You can't believe this beautiful man is yours and wants to give you another present.
âThat's right, sweetheart, I'll stuff you full of it,â he moans and releases himself inside you. Your walls clench around him, pulling him deeper, as you reach your high.
Seungcheol gently pushes the cum that's spilling out of your pussy back inside and lifts your legs up.
âDo you think it'll stick?â you ask doubtfully.
âCan't hurt to try again until it does,â he shrugs, determined to succeed.
Nine months later, as you welcome the twins into the family, you realize you've never expected to achieve so much happiness.
âYou really had to outdo yourself and give me not one but two babies,â you playfully push Seungcheol's shoulder.
âIs it too late now to say sorry?â he grins nervously.
âDon't be. I'm more than satisfied. But you'll have to give me a raise!â
âI'll give you something better than that,â Seungcheol promises and pulls a diamond ring out of his pocket.
âOh my God,â you are in shock.
âY/N...you've given me more than I could ever hope to deserve. You started off as a nanny but you became my three kids' best friend and now, the mother of two more angels. You became my closest person, my source of joy, my sweetheart. Knowing that I can come home to you is the best thing that's ever happened to me. Will you do me the absolute honour of becoming my wife?â
âYes, of course, yes!â you say through your tears and kiss him, as he slides the ring on your finger.
âCan I call you mommy now?â Elsie peeks her adorable head behind the door, followed by Dino and Chaerry, who are all excited by the good news.
âCongratulations, Y/N!â Chaerry greets you with a hug and whispers: âThanks for taking one for the team and making our lonely old man. happy.â
âHey, I heard that!â Seungcheol complains loudly.
Dino jumps on the back of his dad with a loud squeal.
âYou better treat her right, Dad!â the boy warns. âOr I'll ketchup your room!â
âWhy do I feel like I'm the one being welcomed into the family?â Seungcheol bemoans his fate but he's never smiled wider.
âYou'll get used to it,â you joke. âCome on, guys, meet your new brother and sister.â
âHii, babies!â Elsie and Dino jump excitedly around the twins.
âOh, they're so cute! Aren't they so cute, Dad?â Chaerry coos at the babies.
âThey are, but it's too early for you to think about how cute babies are. Look at me...I already have five. Isn't it tragic?â Seungcheol keeps messing around.
âIt could have been twelve or something,â you play along.
âI can't imagine,â Seungcheol cries out indignantly. But deep down, maybe he can.
The End
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â how to get a girlâs attention
luke castellan x fem!daughter of demeter!reader
warnings: near-drowning experienceâŠ
summary: as the daughter of demeter, youâre the first person that everyone turns to when injuries need to be tended too, questions need to be asked, and any type of advice is required, however whatâs going to happen when youâre the one in need?
a/n: this oneâs quite lengthy guys! i really just got derailed like ten times and love adding details and the ending is kind of basic but whatever; donât mind me making up random camper names btw lol đŒđŒ
waking up to the sound of constant bickering was just a normal tuesday morning as your younger half-siblings were already at each otherâs throats about some stupid thing. yesterday it was borrowing boots and the day before it was who had to take the trash out.
you groaned, wishing that you could still sleep in peace and quiet but your cabin clearly suggested otherwise. so you gradually got up and put on your little slippers, approaching the main fighters who continued to argue with each other.
âhey hey hey, whatâs going on now.â you had to physically get between the two children, separating them with your arms.
âhe slipped paint all over my skirt and now itâs ruined!â the young girl cried, holding up her stained skirt to prove it. you took the clothing in your hands and knelt down to face her.
âwhy donât i go to the river later today and try to get the stain out myself. it seems washable to me, what do you think?â
with a slight frown, she nodded her head to comply. you were relieved to say the least before turning to the boy, âhow about you apologize and come with me to the river after breakfast?â
the boy stayed silent with his arms crossed, trying to avoid your insisting stare. but intimidated enough, he looked to the floor and whispered a small âfine, iâm sorryâ with a glare.
you smiled as the situation was deescalated and told the rest of the kids surrounding the pair to hurry and make their beds in order to head to breakfast.
holding hands with the now puffy-faced girl, you tried to tell her about all the fun activities she could do today to forget about the unfortunate morning incident.
before reaching mess hall, the child already had a a bright smile just thinking about the bracelet making and embroidery you promised for the later evening. pleased with your peace-making skills, you sat with the rest of your campers and half-siblings that you were in charge of.
as the eldest sibling and one of the camp counselors, you took on the responsibility of looking after the young ones and caring for almost everyone at camp.
thus, when most of the camp half-blood children had troubles or dilemmas of any sort, they would disregard their own counselors and go straight to you. your kindhearted, yet sociable personality rooted from your mother: demeter.
you were often found laying around in the fruit fields or by the river listening to the water flow through the ground and hit the rocks. like your mother, nature was where you felt at peace, especially with the lack of quiet in your own cabin.
but you still loved your fellow campers and half-siblings, except for one boy who would not leave you alone.
luke castellan.
he liked to push your buttons and see how far he could take you until youâd explode. of course, you always kept your calm until either you just left the conversation or it would be interrupted by a camper in need who was like a knight in shining armor.
it wasnât that you didnât like the guy. you liked everyone at camp, including mr. d for gods sake! but something about luke was different. you occasionally saw him with his campers or his friends, he would joke around but never act like he does with you.
when you least expect it, he sneaks up behind you and gets close enough to whisper something in your ear. it could be just a random comment or sentence started but in an alluring voice as if you were friends or even more.
he knows what heâs doing. the moment he finishes, you flinch and get flustered, cheeks heating up and instantly standing up to avoid making eye contact. as you walk away, luke only watches and smiles to himself.
he knows how much power he holds over you, as with just a few words he can make you nervous.
âokay so once everyoneâs done, weâll first go to the archery range and youâll stay there with counselor clarisse while damien and i go to the river to get that nasty stain out.â you explained and first looked at the boy who begrudgingly agreed to helping you earlier and then winked at the little girl you promised to help.
âcounselor clarisseâŠ!â one of the boys exclaimed.
âoh no sheâs the mean one!â âyeah, sheâs a bully!â your campers all started to agree and mutter remarks about their fear in staying with clarisse.
you couldnât help but chuckle at their scared little faces, âclarisse? oh gods no! clarisse is not scary, she loves you guys and sheâll take good care of you.â
the children stared at you in disbelief while chowing down their eggs and bacon. âwhy canât we just come with you to the river?!â one of the girls begged and began to pout alongside the other ten kids beside her.
you sighed and pursed your lips into a thin line, trying to come up with a compromise but you couldnât.
âplease itâs only for a couple of hours and then iâll be back for the rock wall and some capture the flag!â you persuaded, trying to lighten up the mood.
but the kids still looked dissatisfied, now poking their breakfast around with their utensils in objection.
âwellââ before you could plead another case why clarisse is a perfectly reasonable and responsible counselor and guardian, you were cut off by the one and only.
âaw donât worry guys, you should listen to your counselor. plus iâll be there too so if counselor clarisse gets even just a little too scary, you can come and hang with awesome counselor luke!â a voice announced from behind you.
you nearly choked on your food, startled in the surprise voice cutting you off. but the campers were overjoyed to see their second favorite counselor appear. there were an overwhelming amount of comments from the once so silent children, mostly regarding âluke!â and âyay!â
you whipped your head around to face the boy, standing right behind you with nothing but a smug grin on his face. then he leaned in just as he always does and whispered a quick, âyouâre welcomeâ and turned to leave just as fast as he came.
âcan we please hang out with counselor luke instead of clarisse?!â all the campers plead with their hands put together and lower lip puckered. left with no other choice by that damn castellan again, you inhaled deeply and slightly nodded which was shortly followed by an array of cheers and excitement.
after dropping off all of the campers in the hands of luke, you put a hand on damienâs back and led him to the river. but before leaving, you had to make sure luke would actually clock in as a responsible counselor.
âso i can count on you to keep them safe for the next couple of hours?â
âwow you sound like you doubt me!â luke said and took a step back with his hands up in fake surrender.
âenough with the games, castellan. are you going to make sure they donât kill each other and stay unharmed until i return?â you asked again, ignoring his previous comment.
luke tried to hold back his smile after you called him by his last name. most of the time, his sparring partners or other counselors would use his last name rather his first. however, when the way you let the ânâ slightly my drag after saying it sent chills throughout his entire body.
to hide his delight, he lightly scoffed and crossed his arms at your hesitation. âi assure you that i will protect them with my life. i mean i am the best swordsman at camp,â he added as the corners of his lips just couldnât help themselves to lift a little.
you rolled your eyes at his self-confidence and how he kept complimenting himself. luke only did it to impress you though, something that hasnât been very successful.
âokay well alissa has a nut allergy, georgie has a bee allergy, and please keep thomas and will away from the poison ivy. i do not want to spend another summer knee deep in tomato juice.â
luke could only watch and admire as you kept expressing your deep concern for all the kids. he loved how much you cared. but a few more seconds and you would be driving yourself crazy over all the possibilities of something going wrong.
thatâs when luke stepped in and softly grabbed your right arm.
âhey, itâs fine. go do whatever you have to do and iâll come running down to the river if anything goes wrong but i doubt it, iâm pretty responsible yâknow.â he reassured and stared straight into your eyes, indicating his sincerity. his smile wasnât conceited or to drive his ego but rather held a tender emotion.
you looked up into his hazel eyes and suddenly the worries stopped and your nerves were calmed, other than the ones beginning to stir in your stomach. but this was far from the regard about the kids.
this feeling was something else. something new.
âare we going to go already?â the young boy you almost forgot about, whined and rugged on your orange camp t-shirt.
snapping out of your trance and back to reality you answered, âo-oh yeah, i think counselor lukeâs got it from here.â
with that you turned away from luke and immediately headed for the river alongside damien but the paint-stained skirt was farthest from your mind now. you tried to shake the new feelings and thoughts out of your body and replace them with your past ones of the kids.
until, âis that guy your boyfriend?â
you quickly looked down to the boy asking the question, with such seriousness in his eyes.
âcounselor luke? gods no! i wouldnât even call him a friend!â you answered swiftly, picking up your pace and hurrying damien in front of you.
âgeezâŠi was just asking!â
as soon as you two got to the river, settling on a few rocks by the edge, you started rubbing the blue-stained skirt with the clear water. damien sat next to you, fiddling his thumbs and staring at the waterâs constant movement.
âso are you going to tell me why you did this or not?â you began, keeping your eyes on the skirt.
âi just wanted to.â
âdamien.â you urged and this time, you stared directly at him with your eyebrows raised.
he sighed in defeat and gave up on lying to you.
âokayâŠwell i just didnât know how else to get claraâs attention,â the boy admitted and refused to look at you.
his response warned your heart and prompted your to smile to yourself.
âso you did this, just to get claraâs attention?â
you held up the now drenched skirt and demanded damien to look at you. for a moment, he did and nodded quickly before instantly going back to staring at the rock he was sitting on.
you stifled your laughter at how adorable the young boy you were with was being.
âdamienâŠthere are a lot of different and more efficient ways to get claraâs attention. may a suggest one that doesnât destroy her belongings and ends up with her being angry?â you insisted and squeezed the excess water out of the skirt.
he looked up and nodded again but this time he continued.
âwhat should i do?â
âwhy donât you make her a bracelet when we go back and sincerely apologize.â you suggested while laying out the wet skirt on the rock to dry.
he smiled at your suggestion as you went to sit closer by him. before speaking again, he pulled out a small daisy from his pant pocket and presented it to you.
your eyes focused on the blooming flower that lost a few of its petals due to being stuck in the boyâs pocket for a while now. but the remaining petals still standing were enough to maintain the flowerâs beauty.
âwhen did you become such a gentlemen?â you nudged his shoulder and took the flower from his hands.
âoh, iâve been giving him some lessons.â
alarmed, you turned to see the familiar face that had been surprising you all day.
âwhat are you doing here?! how about the kidsâwhoâs watching them?!â you immediately stood up and marched towards the too calm figure standing amongst the trees. but he caught you with both arms, preventing you with ease.
âwoah woah, take a breather, theyâre with clarisse.â he said and stopped you before you ran back to the mess hall.
reading your expression, luke could tell you were not convinced nor pleased so he had to fix his answer.
ââand annabeth and chris.â
with that you stopped fighting against his grasp and stepped back, finally exhaling.
âyou havenât answered my first question.â
âoh! i just uh wanted to um come and tell you that theyâre asking for damien back at camp. they were practically begging me to come over here and get him!â
you narrowed your eyes after he finished, easily indicating the lie.
âokayâŠyou can go damien but remember what i said,â you smiled and patted his shoulder before sending him off back to camp.
the young boy ran off without a care and ready to make that bracelet with a formal apology. luke stood there, quite surprised that his lie that chris helped him think of in fact worked.
âsoooo do you need help with whatever that is?â luke pointed at the skirt laid out on the rock.
âno.â you shortly responded and walked back to your rock but luke followed like a lost puppy.
âare you sure? i mean as head counselor for cabin 11, i can cook up a mean batch of laundry,â he insisted and trailed behind you.
unbeknownst to him, you rolled your eyes and cringed at his wording.
âyour words donât even make sense.â
caught in a lie, luke decided actions spoke louder than words and walked past you to the skirt. you furrowed your eyebrows in confusion as he picked it up and crouched down near the water before dunking it back into the water.
shocked and a little annoyed, you hurriedly ran to him.
âwhat the hell are you doing?! i just washed that! iâm waiting for it to dry dumbass!â
âoh she curses!â he exclaimed, finally getting a real response from you.
you reached for it until luke raised it a little higher, just out of your reach. using his height as an advantage, he held out the clothing as far as he could and to the river.
fed up and exhausted, you went on your tippy-toes and lunged for the skirt. swiftly, luke pulled it close to his body just as you reached leading you to accidentally lean too far.
with a splash, you fell straight into the freezing cold water, unknown to how deep the river was. lukeâs eyes widened, he thought you falling in would be funny but once you hadnât resurfaced within a few seconds he became worried.
without a second thought, he dropped the skirt, pulled off his camp shirt, and dove into the biting waves. as soon as he saw your bright orange t-shirt in contrast to the clear water, he put his arm around your waist and swim towards the surface.
pulling you out to the rocks and laying your body on the ground, he waited for you to gain consciousness. luckily, you started to gasp for air and spit out gulps of water as you sat up.
luke sighed in relief at once. you wiped your face of water and blinked repeatedly until your sight returned to normal. then your eyes were fixated on something else, rather someone. his bare chest stood directly in front of your face, it wasnât like you were trying to stare!
âiâm sorry, y/n. Iâm so sorry, i didnât mean to do that and iâm really sorry.â luke recited.
âi-itâs okay.â you stuttered, the cold water chilling your body.
âhere take off the wet one and take mine.â
luke grabbed his discarded camp shirt and handed it to you. if you werenât on the verge of frostbite you wouldâve refused, but without another word you agreed and luke turned to face the trees as you pulled the wet shirt over your head and put on lukeâs.
âthanks. for saving me and the shirt.â
luke turned back to face you and smiled, âi mean i was the one to make you fall into the water in the first place, itâs the least i can do.â
âarenât you cold?â you signaled to his bare chest.
âno, iâm okay donât worry. but your jeans are still wet so letâs head back to camp.â he reassured and helped you get up.
you nodded and let him take the lead. with your wet shirt and skirt in one hand and the other grabbing onto lukeâs arm, you two finally made it back to camp. before dropping you off at your cabin, you had to ask.
âwhy did you come to the river anyway?â
luke awkwardly put his hand on the back of his neck and looked away.
âoh. i just uh wanted to spend time with you.â he admitted, ultimately facing you.
you stopped attending to your dripping pants and looked up at him. he had a genuine smile, now with both hands shoved into his pockets.
how was it that you had never noticed the golden flecks in his deep brown eyes? or the way the orange hues of the sunset highlighted the amber shade his eyes would turn?
âyâknow, there are a lot of other ways to get my attention in the first place, that doesnât involve us falling into freezing cold water.â
luke laughed at your comment which eased the awkward air.
âi had this almost exact same conversation with a little boy of about seven years, and gave him some valuable advice.â
âwhat was the advice..?â he carefully asked.
âto make her a bracelet and apologize, one ofâŠyouâve already done profusely.â you raised your eyebrow to imply his previous attempt in apologizing nonstop.
âah, a bracelet you say, okay got it,â luke said and nodded his head.
with that, he bid you a good day and you asked to meet him later at the campfire to return his shirt.
âalright you two sit there, i donât want to see anymore fighting over the dinosaurs, you can sit here with him, and you three over thereââ guiding the campers for the campfire that was just about to begin, you made your way to an empty bench.
smiling to yourself, you watched as your campers finally calmed down and enjoyed the music, giving up on fighting and arguing with one another. someone jumped over the bench and leaned back to sit right next to you, and you had a feeling who it may be.
âluke?â
âyes maâam.â he replied with a tilt towards you and two fingers from his head.
the campfire lit up his face and highlighted his sharp features that you had somehow missed until this moment. his charming smile urging his dimples alongside his dark curls freshly washed with a new scented shampoo was enough to make you realize you were hooked. damn.
âoh i have a little something for you, give me your arm and close your eyes,â he spoke up and put his hand in his pocket.
raised eyebrow, you reluctantly closed your eyes and gave him your right arm. suddenly in fear of some bug or scary animal on your hand, you slowly retracted it back to yourself until he gently got a hold of it.
he pulled your arm towards him slightly and slipped something on around your wrist. waiting for his approval, you sat questioning what the mystery item could be.
âokay, open.â luke did a little âta-daâ motion once you flickered your eyes open, adjusting to the dark yet orangish lit surrounding.
you looked down at the intricate, handsome bracelet that appeared on your wrist. it was similar to the camp necklaces but the beads were translucent with flowers imbedded into them. except for one bead that was painted a heavenly green, your favorite color.
astonished and at a loss for words, you observed the bracelet, moving around the small beads on the string.
âiâm sorry.â
snapping out of your trance, you instantly stared up at luke after his words in confusion.
âwhat?â
âyou said earlier, âthere are a lot of other ways to spend time with you that donât involve us falling into freezing cold water, for starters make a bracelet and apologize.ââ he repeated your words from back by your cabin. he remembered.
âso you made me a bracelet and apologize just like i said?â double-checking, you glanced once at the bracelet and back to the dashing boy who looked as if he had stars in his eyes, waiting for your reaction.
ânot only for you, i also helped damien make one for that girl heâs got a crush on,â he continued and looked over to the little boy doing the exact same hold-out-your-arm-and-close-your-eyes trick on the girl sobbing about her stained skirt earlier.
she opened her eyes to a freshly washed skirt and matching bracelet, along with a smiling boy who was apologizing and waiting for her reaction. she leapt into his arms with a bunch of âthank yous.â the boy then briefly peered at luke who proceeded to wink and give an approving nod.
happily surprised, you sat gaping at the boy you thought was so infuriating just a couple of hours before. luke knew exactly what he was doing. he knew how much you cared for the campers and your half-siblings, how you would always chose their safety and happiness at the expense of your very own.
it was one of the traits he admired the most about you. even when in a bad mood or not feeling your best, you would put on a brave face and make sure to put their needs in front of you own.
he witnessed it first-hand last week when your campers wanted to go rock climbing but there were dozens of poison ivy already there. thus, to not disappoint the kids, you stayed up all night removing the dangerous plant and relocating them to another area deep in the forest for them to grow.
even with your plant manipulation abilities, with the large amount of the poisonous plant, it took you quite a while. afterwards, you went as far to replace them with lovely daisies you summoned from the gardens in front of your cabin.
during the move from the rock climbing course to the forest, luke had spotted you while some late-night sword practicing because he couldnât sleep due to apollo cabin next door.
he debated approaching you and settled on only admiring you from afar after you almost finished anyway. he didnât want to disturb you or aggravate you further than you already were. but leaving you here in the forest during midnight would be wrong.
what if a monster were to come? how were you to defend yourself if you were distracted! therefore, it was just common sense that luke had to keep watch, i mean he even had his sword with him after all.
but once the sun peeped from the tall mountains, he came to a realization that he had just sat and watched you for more than a couple hours. so in order to not get caught, he ran off back to his cabin before anyone would wake up.
only a little after luke headed to bed, morning arrived and you were the first one to break the happy news to your campers that today would be the day for rock climbing. greatly proud and feeling accomplished, you even invited other cabins to join and have a spin at it. including lukeâs.
now he was the one to show you how much he cared for the campers as well, focusing on a feature you had great respects for. your shocked expression softened and now leapt into his arms.
âthank you, castellan. really.â
blood rushed to his cheeks and he tried to hide his excitement, but you felt his genuine smile on your shoulder. before pulling away, he stopped by your ear and whispered.
âdo i have permission to kiss you, counselor?â
you couldâve giggled at his words and how close his lips were to your ear. without wasting another breath, you pulled his face closer to you and put your lips on his.
feeling the warmth of his breath, you could taste the sweet taste of strawberries he mustâve eaten earlier. only centimeters away, your bodies were attracted to each other almost pressing. the kiss wasnât long but not short either, somewhat leaving a lasting impression on the other.
yet again you felt a small grin of his lips during the kiss, making you pull away for air. but your eyes were still glued to his, moments away from repeating the act but you both realized where you were and how irresponsible it would look as counselors. so instead he grabbed your hand, now giving you the absolute cutest puppy dog eyes before asking.
âdo i have your attention now?â
#luke castellan x y/n#luke castellan x you#luke castellan x reader#luke castellan#pjo x reader#pjo tv show#pjo series#percy jackson#lc#castellan
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Winndy Rambles And Gushes About Chuck Tingle
Wanted to ramble a little about one of my favorite authors, creators and overall just super rad people; Chuck Tingle.
Like many people, when I first heard of Chuck, I took him as some sort of meme. A troll, a joke, someone not to be taken seriously. After all, the majority of his works are "silly short erotica stories around dinosaurs, cryptids and even living concepts and items". How COULD this be serious? It's a question I asked before, years ago, and one that many still do to this day.
One holiday season, a friend had made a post on FaceBook saying "first five people to comment I'll gift you a book". So I did. The book I got was a physical copy of the "Space Raptor Butt Invasion Trilogy" by Chuck Tingle. Since I had a book of Tingle's now, I really had no excuse to not read it for myself.
Erotica normally isn't my thing (I'm pretty ace and grey aro too), but very quickly, I was charmed by the prose. As you read Chuck's stories, there's a fact that becomes very apparent. Chuck Tingle is a great writer, a really great writer. How he writes, how the words flow together, one sentence going into the next. The characters, the plot, the little bits of lore, dialogue and all he puts in... You quickly begin to see; this is NOT a joke.
It is not a meme. He is not trolling you. It is art. Passionate, sincere, genuine art. And it's beautiful. The more you read, the more definitive it gets.
I will admit, I have read aloud many a Tingler for friends and others in Discord servers, both to share my joy of Tingle with others, but also, it is fun to look at how different his works are. It's fine to laugh along with them even.
The moment that really was like... angels singing, light shining down and there's bishi sparkles and a heavenly soft pink background appearing for me though was the summer Chuck Tingle released on of his first full novella's; "Trans Wizard Harriet Porber and the Bad Boy Parasaurolophus". Like many, I was crushed and gutted at JKR's extreme turn to committing to transphobia (and of course the hindsight of realizing... the HP books and universe were not as kind and welcoming as I remembered growing up). So when Chuck Tingle (in one weekend mind you) came out with a 50k novel affirming trans people and their belonging in not just queer spaces, but being on this Earth, as fellow human beings, it was... affirming. It was the welcoming feeling I had gotten with the original HP books all those years ago, but it was real. (Also please read both Trans Wizard Harriet Porber books. They're delightful, fun and the magic system Tingle creates is so, so cool and interesting).
The next thing that got me just mega hype for Tingle was his first foray into horror; "Straight". "Straight" is Tingle's answer to the ever popular trope and genre of zombies and the apocalypse that comes with them, and what a fun turn of tables he takes on them. Zombies in the Tingleverse are not undead beings, they're not humans afflicted by a virus, instead a strange cosmic event happens once a year, when one night, all cishet people on Earth get this animalistic, violent urge to brutally harm and even kill all queer people. I won't get too spoilery about it but it is a very fun romp, and as someone who has been fatigued by zombies, it is a welcome new perspective.
Not long after this, Chuck came out with two full, traditionally published horror novels; "Camp Damascus" and "Bury Your Gays". Both are very different experiences in horror, both a joyful celebration of being queer and your authentic self even in the face of those looking to silence you, permanently if they must. I had the pleasure of meeting Chuck (twice!) while he was on tour for both of these books, getting my copies signed (along with my copies of the Trans Wizard duology and my beloved copy of the Space Raptor trilogy) and was able to tell Tingle myself just how important he is to someone like me; another queer autistic creator. (I was also one of the few people to win the little mini games he gave, twice, but that's a different story).
Ultimately that is what I am trying to get at. Growing up, and even for all of my 20s, there wasn't really someone like Tingle. Someone unabashedly authentic, themselves, queer, open and imo most importantly, joyously so. One is often told "just be yourself" but that can be hard to do when it seems like the world is against you for one reason or another.
Seeing a creator like Chuck shows how important it is to have such a presence in the world, and I was glad I got to tell him myself. I've had a lot of hardships in life, a lot of losses, a lot of grief, but someone like Chuck is there to tell you to keep trotting and remind you; Love Is Real.
And that's truly the ending message:
Love Is Real.
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Can you please make something like y/n losing her virginity to Gojo and when she wakes up she misunderstood that Gojo just wanted to have one night stand and as he never make contact with any of his one night stand, so y/n left writing some notes for him. But Gojo genuinely loved her and then he searched for her finding y/n passed out somewhere or finding her getting attacked by some cursed spirit.
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First Time
Summary: You lose your virginity to you friend and co-worker, the strongest sorcerer of the modern age; Gojo Satoru
Pairing: Gojo Satoru x FAB!R
Word Count: 5,848 (oops!)
Warning: loss of virginity, mentions of drinking, fingering, jerking off, oral sex, smut, fights, assault, choking (not the fun kind)
A/N: Well this, this was a lot of fun! đđ I got super into it Nonnie!! Thank you! Enjoy!!
âNo, absolutely not. That is a terrible idea.â your best friend and colleague looked you in the eyes, not once breaking contact.
âWhat do you mean itâs a bad idea? Do you think he has something?â
âDo you honestly think I would know if that man had any sexually transmitted diseases?â
âWell, youâre saying itâs a bad idea. So I was just curious as to why you think that is.â
Nanami let out an aggravated sigh, âI don't think I know itâs a bad idea. I went to high school with the man, for God's sake. He is a serial cherry popper.â your best friend took a sip of his beer, aching his head as he did.
âSo he has some experience in doing so.â
You ran your finger over the rim of your margarita glass. You were ignoring the cold, judging eyes of your best friend. Nanami knew you had a crush on Gojo for the last few years. The two of you were constantly flirting with each other, and just recently, he had gotten a little more touchy-feely with you, rubbing your shoulders and brushing his hand against yours. He went as far as to kiss your cheek. Nanami knew what he was playing at. The blue-eyed menace was buttering you up; he saw you as his next target.
âIt doesnât matter if he has experience. If youâre looking for anyone with experience, you could always come to me,â he whispered. Thank God that you were a little too out of it to notice what he said. He was trying to make a point; you both were nothing more than friends. The point he was trying to make, though, was that if you were that desperate to lose your virginity, you could always rely on him. âGojo is notorious for having one-night stands. Heâll get what he wants and be gone the next day.â
âDo you know that for a fact?â Frustration began to rise in your chest. â or is that just part of the rumor train?â
Nanami wasnât sure how to answer that. He hadnât personally met any of Gojoâs past relationships. He did know that several women had claimed he had popped their cherries and left the next day. So, of course, he was nervous for you. Nanami could see the glittering glaze in your eyes whenever you looked at Gojo. You were so into him it was almost painful.
âRumor train,â Nanami confessed, looking away andâThen itâs settled!â despite your best friend's warnings, you got up and headed straight to the bar where the Gojo Satoru stood.âHey Gojo.â
Your colleague and massive crush turned to look down at you. His hair was a fluffy mess, his dark sunglasses shielded, his beautiful eyes from you., and he had a smile on his face that could give anyone cavities. You both had been flirting with each other nonstop for the last three months. You have been waiting to see if he would be the one to ask you to go home with him, but you were tired of waiting.
âHey, sweetheart~ having fun?â He took a sip of his soda.
âI'd be having a lot more fun if you took me back to my place.â
Satoru choked, sunglasses sliding down the bridge of his nose as he coughed into his fist. Regardless of his initial reaction, you could see the desire in his eyes. He wanted as bad as you. The constant flirting, lingering eye contact, and subtle touches had brought you both here. Were you, for the first time in your life, inviting a man to come back to your apartment to have sex?
Losing your virginity didnât have to be special. You were fine as long as it was with somebody who knew what they were doing. From how Satoru acted, there was no doubt in your mind that he knew how to please a woman. It was your virginity, and you chose to give it to Gojo Satoru.
âSeriously? Are you sure?â
âIâve never been more sure of something in my entire life. So what do you say? Wanna come to my place?â
There had been no questions asked. Satoru grabbed your hand and led you out of the bar and back to your apartment. Thatâs how you found yourself being slammed against the elevator door, Satoruâs mouth eagerly moving against yours in a fiery kiss. His hands reached up, massaging your breasts, causing mewls pleasure to leave your mouth.
âFuuuck, oh fuck.â Satoru growled, his lips pressed against yours eagerly in between each word. âYou have the most perfect tits.â His tongue gently flicked over your bottom lip, and the second you opened it for him, his tongue was in your mouth, gently moving against yours.
The raw carnal need behind his caresses of your skin and the way his lips moved against yours had you dizzy. Never once in your life had you ever felt so desired. Satoru wanted, but no, it was more like he needed you. Knowing that had your panties soaking wet.
âOh fuck, Toru.â As Satoruâs fingers slid under your shirt, trailing over your heated skin, you arched your back off the cold middle of the elevator. âT-Toru~â
âFuck youâre so goddamn hot.â Lips latched onto your neck, sucking and nipping at the sensitive skin there. âYou taste like a fucking gourmet meal~, and that's just your skin.â he took your earlobe between his teeth, nipping on it. âCan't wait to taste that cunt. I bet she's already wet~.â
His long fingers slid under your bra, brushing over your hardened nipples, rubbing the sensitive buds. âI-Iâm so wet, so fucking wet.â Satoru hummed in your ear, and one of his sinfully skilled hands trailed down, slipping into your pants. âHoly shit!â you cried out as his long fingers gently rubbed over your throbbing clit.
âOh fuck, you weren't kidding.â His fingers rub and tease your sensitive clit. âYouâre soaked.â soaked was an understatement. Fisting his jacket, you bury your head in his shoulder as he trails his fingers lower, teasing your tight virgin entrance through your panties.
âF-Fuck, oh fuck.â Satoru pulls back, glancing down at you as the elevator reaches your floor.
âYour pussy is throbbing.â
âI need you, Satoru. Need you so bad it hurts.â
His soft pink lips find yours again in a searing kiss as he pulls his hand out of your pants. âThen take me home so I can take care of you.â Not needing to be told twice, you grab his wrist, dragging him to your apartment.
The second you're inside, Satoru kicks the door shut with his foot, hands locking it before they grab you. He is slamming you back into the wall of your entryway. His fingers make quick work of your shirt, unbuttoning it, tossing it to the side, his lips never once leaving yours, leaving you a breathless mess. He pulls back, giving you a chance to gulp down ark, as he pulls his shirt off, allowing you to run your hands down his toned abs.
âBedroom?â he asks, lips attacking your neck as he lofts you off the ground.
Your legs wrap around him as he starts blindly moving forward. âFirst door on the left,â Satoru growls against your skin, turning right. âT-Toru, that's the bathroom, left!â The extremely sexy man grunts in response, making a swift left, nearly sending you tumbling over.
âSor-â kiss, âsorry, I just can't wait to get inside of you.â The man youâve had the biggest crush on for years tosses you onto your bed. Satoru doesn't even give you a chance to react; his hands unbutton your pants, yanking them down. âFuck you smell so fucking good.â
Heâs trailing kisses up your inner thighs, his teeth gently nipping at your skin. Skin that had never been touched by another person other than yourself. The sensation of his fingers, his lips, his teeth on you doing things you had only dreamed of him doing. It had you breathless.
âSatoru.â The man between your legs let out a hungry groan.
âI love hearing you say my name like that. Say it fucking more; I want to hear you scream my name.â his fingers hook under your underwear, yanking them to the side., allowing his tongue full access to your dripping cunt. âSay my fucking name.â
His warm tongue is on you before you can even process what heâs saying. His tongue laps at your entrance before slowly sliding up and down your lips, teasing your clit but not touching it yet. Being eaten out for the first time is like seeing God. Satoru is so skilled with his mouth that it has you digging your heels into the bed, toes curling, and your eyes rolling back.
Satoru hums against you, eyes brows furrowing as he seals his mouth around your dripping sex, sucking on it, teasing it with his tongue. His eyebrows knit in concentration, his eyes never once leaving your face. He is entranced with you and with your reactions. Satoru wants to make you cum; the man is determined to do so.
You didnât stand a chance against him or his skilled tongue. The second he started flicking your clit with the tip, you lost all control. Reality seemed like it shattered into one million pieces as Satoru drove over the edge of your first orgasm with someone other than yourself. You buck up against his face, your head thrashes against your pillows, and you cum harder than you have in your entire life.
âMmmphm, fuck.â Satoru growls from between your legs. âThatâs it, baby, give it to me, give it all to me.â His tongue continues to lick and lap at your folds, making sure to leave not an inch of your unexplored with his mouth.
âT-Toru, oh fuck.â He had left you a pile of useless limbs. âN-Need you, want you inside of me.â you sit up, hands reaching for his pants, undoing the button. He sucks in a breath as your hand gently rubs over his hard, throbbing cock. âS-So thick, and it-itâs hard.â
âYeah?â The smugness in his voice has you pressing your thighs together. âWanna touch it~?â
Giving him a nod, you pull back, allowing him to lie down against the headboard. His breathtaking eyes never leave you, following your hand that slips under his boxers and pulls them down. His cock sprung up, bouncing as it stood straight in the air. The tip was a throbbing dark rosey color, the tip dribbling out pre-cum as it twitched in the cool air of your apartment. His hair is trimmed short, a happy trail leading from the v-line down to the base of his cock.
It draws you in like a siren calling sailors to the sea; youâre drawn to his cock. Your fingers try to wrap around it, but you canât; heâs too thick. Satoru moans out in pleasure, feeling your warm, soft hand wrap around him. Itâs so velvety and warm that your curiosity gets the better of you, urging you to stroke him up and down. You give in to the desire, jerking him off slowly.
âFuuck, ooh fuck.â Satoru calls from above you, his thighs twitching, body shaking as you continue your movements. âFuck sweetheart, feels so fuckinâ good.â
âI-I don't know what to do.â At the sound of your confession, Satoru chuckles.
âWant me to help you?â He watched as you bit down on your lip with a soft little âmhmm.â âAlright, just follow my hand.â he wraps his larger, rougher hand around yours. âHere we go.â
Satoru drags his hand up and down his shaft, Allowing more pre-cum to dribble out of the tip, coating his shaft in the slick, sticky substance as makeshift lube. You know you should be paying attention to how his hand is moving. That way, you would know how he liked to be touched. But you canât help but look at his face. His pale ivory skin is flushed, his lips are slightly parted as he whines, and his eyes are narrowed, focusing on your hand that is jerking him off with his.
Eroticism is not the way you would describe this; this was pure filthy porn for you. His face, the way he took his bottom lip between his teeth, gnawing on it, would forever be in your spank bank memoryâhis abâs clenched and moved, and time with his deep raspy groans of pleasure. Satoru was losing himself in the pleasure of just your hand. You couldnât wait to see the expression he made when he was inside of you.
âSweetheart, fuck.â He groans, jaw twitching as he clenched his teeth together. âFuuuck, your hand is so soft. If you keep it up, Iâm gonna cum all over you.â
Hearing him say that, knowing that you could make the Gojo Satoru cum, you jerked your hand as fast as you fucking could. You swatted his hand away, taking complete control. Satoru threw his head back with a roar as you licked your bottom lip, focusing all your attention on how you were moving your wrist. Up and down, twisting and pulling it as he had shown you. Your free hand reaches down and his heavy balls, massaging him gently, urging him to spill his seed all over your hands.
His cock throbbed twice in your hand, and you thought for just a moment that he was about to cum for you. But before he could, his free hand swooped down and squeezed himself at the base of his cock, preventing himself from cumming all over your hand like you had wanted. His chest was heaving, and the flush on his face had spread the base of his neck down to his pectoral muscles.
Satoru swallows hard, wincing as you run your index finger over his slit, spreading the precum over his throbbing tip. âWhy did you stop? Weren't you about to cum?â Strong hands grab your upper arms, flipping you so youâre the one underneath him.
âI was, but I would much rather cum inside of you.â those filthy words have your cunt drooling, your slick dripping down to the bed underneath you. âIs that okay~?â
âYes, god, yes, please, please fuck me, Satoru.â
âOh, you beg so nicely; how could I deny your request like that?â He slots his body between your thighs, and he rubs the head of his cock up and down your lips, smearing his pre-come over your clit. âWant me to grab a condom? I have one in my wallet.â
âNo, I have an IUD.â
âSuch a dirty, needy girl.â He presses the tip against your tight entrance. âYou sure about this?â
He knew you were a virgin; you had mentioned it to him in passing in between your flirting the last few months. For him to take the time to ask you if you were okay with this made your heart sing. Nanami was wrong about him. Gojo wasnât just going to up and leave; he genuinely seemed to care about you and what you wanted.
He was the perfect man to lose your virginity to.
âI'm positive.â
Hearing your consent, Satoru sighed in relief. âAwesome, just let me know if you need to stop.â
His cock gently pushes into you. You awaited the dreaded sharp, stinging pain you have been told about your entire life. But the pain never came. It was just a sensation of being full and some slight pressure. The unfamiliar sensation had you gripping Satoruâs biceps, digging your nails into his delicate ivory skin as you tried to adjust to the new feeling.
âYou okay, sweetheart?â
âY-Yeah, I just needed a second. Itâs just a weird sensation.â
Satoru gently peppers kisses over your neck before meeting your lips once again. âRelax, I got you; I got you, baby.â Everything Satoru was doing for you had your muscles less tense as he pushed further inside of you. âYou're taking me so well, such a good girl.â
âSatoruu~â your hands finally managed to leave his arms before wrapping around his neck, pulling him tighter against you.
âThat's it, youâre gonna be good for me, right? Gonna let me bottom out inside that sweet tight cunt?â
You didn't even need to give him permission; his hips meet yours as heâs balls deep inside of you. You are breathing heavily against each otherâs mouths. Your soft whimpering mixes in with his deep guttural groans.
âTight, you're so tight, almost had me blowing my load like I was the virgin.â he pressed his mouth against yours and gave a soft, gentle kiss. âAre you okay?â
You nod, a wanton moan leaving your mouth as he begins grinding his hips into you and not entirely pulling out to thrust back in. But the simple grinding of his cock inside of your pussy, hitting your g-spot, made you squirm underneath him. Satoru repeats the grinding for a few minutes before his lips leave yours.
âI'm gonna start moving, okay?â Your little moans and nods were the only signs Gojo needed to see and hear to know he was ready to move. His poor little sweetheart hadnât even been fucked thoroughly yet, and she already couldnât find her voice. âHey, if you need me to stop, just let me know.â
His hips move, gently pulling back before snapping forward, burying himself deep into your tight heat. He groans breathlessly, eyes shut tight as your walls clamp down on him. âOooh fuuuck, fuck, you're so tight, so tight, baby.â he pulls out again, leaving you gasping before he immerses himself back into your cunt. âFuck you feel that~ feel my cock sliding in and out of your wet pussy? Does that feel good for you, baby? Huh?â Satoru growls as he sets a gentle pace, gently fucking you into the bed.
âS-So good T-Toru, haaa haaah fuck you're twitching.â At the sound of your voice, Satoruâs cock twitched again, this time even harder, making you shudder at the knowledge you were making him feel this good.
âOf course, Iâm twitching; you're so fucking wet and warm; it honestly feels like my dick is melting inside. So yeah, fuck, fuck,â his pace speeds up, âmy dick is twitching inside of you because you feel so fucking good.â
Having sex felt so good! Having sex with Satoru, well damn, it was like heaven on earth. Well, you didnât have anyone else to compare it to, but you knew that your first time was monumentally better than anyone else. He was so gentle, kind, and patient with you. You couldnât think of anybody else that would be that sweet. God, he made you feel so good.
Your back arched off the mattress as you dug your nails into his back, climbing up his muscles with your nails. The pain dialed him up, pushing him to fuck you faster and deeper while trying to be as gentle as he could, knowing the fact that you were a virgin. He could only maintain his composure for so long thought.
âF-Fuck, ooooh fuck, fuck.â His cock is dragging against the spots deep inside of you that felt like pure pleasure every time he brushed against them. With each touch of those sweet spots, your wall hugged his cock, letting him know you were closer to your orgasm as much as he was. âYeah, you like that baby? Like it when I fuck you like this? I popped your cherry, and now Iâm fucking you into the mattress.â Youâre so loud that your moans reverberate off the walls. âYeah, you love it. You love my cock inside that pussy.â
âY-Yeah! I love it!â A coil deep in your abdomen begins tightening and tightening. âI-Iâm gonna cum!â eyes locking on with Satoruâs âOh fuck, fuck Iâm close, Toru!â
âCum for me, milk my cock, sweetheart~ that's it~ that's a good girl~ yeah~â his thrust no longer has any rhythm; all thatâs going on in his head is making you cum and filling you up.
Your orgasm hits you hard in the gut like a punch to the stomach. Itâs not painful in the slightest. It is a pure, unfiltered pleasure. The kind pleasure that has you seeing white spots. You scream into the void as you squirt all over Satoruâs cock and the bed. The image of you cumming so hard sends Satoru tumbling over the edge right after you. He curses and grits his teeth before he latches his mouth into the crook of your neck, nipping and sucking at your skin, leaving marks for only him to see.
Youâre a shaking, sweat-soaked mess by the time Satoru pulls off of you, falling onto his side next to you. His lips gently press against your cheek before finding your lips. They move against yours in a symphony of pleasure and pure bliss. Satoru spoons you, his arms wrapping around your body, pulling you flush against his naked form.
âYou did so good.â His voice is so soft, lulling you to sleep. âSuch a good girl~ thank you for letting me be your first.â
You hum, happily turning to kiss him on the lips before resting your head against your pillow. Slowly losing yourself in the warmth of his body against yours. âThank you for making my first time so special.â His fingers gently graze over your skin as he breathes heavily against the nape of your neck.
âMhmm, you're welcome. Get some rest, okay?â
You donât even answer because youâre already sleeping. You dream the most peaceful, beautiful dreams. Ones where you, Satoru, have sex, go out on dates and enjoy each otherâs company. God, you couldnât wait to see you the next day took you. What did the future have in store for the two of you? More happy-go-lucky memories like this? If you could live through days like this, you would be the happiest woman in the entire world.
Dopamine and serotonin spread through your veins throughout the night while you sleep and find you in the early morning sunlight. Youâre under the crisp, cool sheets that cradle your body. Itâs when you move to turn to look at Satoru that you realize just how sore your body is. You hurt in places that you didnât know were even possible to hurt.
All you needed was a nice hot shower with your extremely hot partner, and you should be all set to go. Rolling onto your side to look at him, your smile fades. Satoru isn't there.
You reach for the side of the bed he had fallen asleep in, trying to see if his lingering warmth was there. Hoping that if it did, maybe he was in the bathroom or the kitchen making you breakfast in the movies. But the crisp sheets under your hands are cold. He must have left hours ago.
Sitting up in bed, you reach for your cell phone on the nightstand next to you. Unlocking it, you search for a message Satoru may have sent you about why he would leave after such a perfect night. There is no message. No missed calls, no text messages. Nothing. He had slept with you, taking your virginity, and he left you with nothing.
Everything from the night before was perfect. You both had a great time, so why would he get up and leave without telling you? Even if he went to get breakfast for the two of you, he could have at least texted you to let you know that. Even when you pulled yourself out of bed with wobbly legs, you discovered he wasnât even in your living room, let alone your apartment.
The truth hit you like a wrecking ball. Nanami had been right. He warned you. Your best friend warned you that Gojo was a serial cherry popper. You didnât listen to him. You thought you knew him better, but the months of flirting back and forth, the late-night conversations on the phone, and the missions meant more than just one nightstand.
The hopes of there being any connection between the two of you left your apartment just like he did. You would never not listen to Nanami again; he was always looking out for you. Since you hadn't heeded his warning, you had to suffer with the heartache you had brought upon yourself. That Sunday, you cried yourself back to sleep curled into a ball and mourned your stupidity and the loss of a relationship that never even existed
The next day, you texted Yaga, letting him know you wouldnât be coming to work for the next couple of days. You needed time to think about what you needed to do next. Gojo was your colleague and a man with whom you were forced to go on missions and teach the next generation of jujutsu sorcerers. Being around him would be challenging. If things had played out differently, and he didnât just up and leave you alone in the apartment, maybe you wouldnât have to be weighing your options.
The way you looked at it, you had two different choices. You could completely ignore Gojo when you return to workâkeeping things strictly professional between you. Or you could ask to be transferred to Kyoto, where you would never have to see his face again.
You return to work on Wednesday, and the second you step through the school gates, Gojo stands there waiting for you. His hair was fluffed up as his blindfold was pulled over his eyes, but you could tell his gaze was locked on you.
âHey, we need to talk.â He tried speaking to you, but you ignored him. âSweetheart, please just listen to me.â
âI have work to do, excuse me.â
The entire day, Gojo kept bugging you and begging for you to stop to listen to what he had to say. Whatever excuses he had come up with, he could shove them up his ass. He had left you without any explanation at all. So he didnât deserve your time of day.
You finally found some peace when he was forced to teach the first years for his class. As he left, he pleaded for you to set some time aside so that you could talk things out later. There was no way in hell you were going to sit there and listen to whatever bullshit excuse he came up with. You couldnât, not when you had been told what kind of person he was, and against your better judgment, you went through with sleeping with him.
Before you could find yourself in another stupor, the door to your classroom opened, and Yaga stepped inside. The higher-ups had requested your assistance with a curse downtown. Specifically, they asked for both you and Gojo to assist. He was preoccupied with his students, so you decided this was easy to handle.
Instead of waiting to talk to him personally about taking on this mission on your own, you did exactly what he had done to you days prior: left without saying a word. You grabbed your shit and walked out the door; being courteous enough, you left a note behind on your desk. It also colorfully told him you had nothing to say about sleeping together.
Your words described how you thought he was different, how you had assumed there was more than just a one-night stand between you, but he had other ideas. At the end of your note, you wished him a long and happy life; there was nothing more to say after that. Writing that note allowed you to get all of your frustration, everything, off your chest without actually saying it to his face.
With the note behind you, you had one of the assistant supervisors drive you to the location of an abandoned building. Luckily, with the curse inside, you didn't have to lower a veil. This was, hopefully, going to be a simple in-and-out mission. At Least, you thought it would be.
Stepping inside the building, you automatically sensed the presence of the curse. One that was a grade four curse, making it super easy to take out. You honestly did it in record-breaking time, but it wasnât the curse you had to worry about.
The curse user watching you the entire time you fought against his little monster charged you the instant his curse spirit dissipated. He pinned you to the ground, his hands wrapped around your throat, squeezing down on it. You choked, kicking your feet underneath him; your talisman paper was just out of reach; your fingers grazed over it, but you couldnât grasp it. The man above you looked at you with dark black eyes, determined to kill you.
âI worked so hard to train that curse!â the man shouted as you gurgled on your saliva. âThen you come in here and just destroy it?! How are you any better than they are?!â
Your nails dug into the flesh of his hands, yanking and pulling at his fingers, trying to free yourself as your shoes slid against the dirty floor. Black spots began to appear in your vision; you were so close to passing out. Maybe you should have waited for Satoru. He may have been an asshole but at least he wouldâve had your back.
âYou sorcerers all deserve to die!â
Help me.
âDie and rot in hell when you belong!â
Please, someone, anyone!
âYou deserââ
A flash of red floods the room as the man is sent flying through a wall, well, several walls, finally freeing you from his grip. You curl in on yourself, coughing and gulping down air. You donât even have a chance to fully recover before youâre scooped up into arms, arms that had held you several nights before. Gojo says nothing as he carries you out of the room you had almost lost your life in.
Silence remains thick until he takes you outside and sits you on the concrete stairs leading to the alleyway. âStay here, Iâll be right back.â The urge to run away is as strong as your need to take deep breaths. There was no point in running now, especially after Gojo had saved your life.
He returned several minutes later, waving at the assistant supervisor's black car. His hands are shoved into his pockets as he watches the car turn the corner before he turns in your direction. His blindfold is still entirely on hiding his eyes from you. But just like this morning, you can feel his gaze locked solely on you.
âWe got ten minutes before the cops show up.â You give him a thumbs up, winning a frustrated sigh back. âI got your note.â
âGood.â Your voice cracks as you try to clear your throat.
âNo, itâs not good.â He snaps, stomping towards you, crouching down in front of you. âYou honestly think I didnât feel anything that night? That was just a one-night stand?â
âYou left!â You cough roughly. âYou left without a word, Gojo! What else am I supposed to think? To me, you leaving without a word is pretty plain and clear.â
A large hand cups your face, holding it gently. âYaga called me in for an emergency. I was needed at the Kyoto school that morning.â You blinked back tears. âAnd I was going to call you, but I left my phone at the bar because I was so excited to be with you finally.â His head dropped forward with a heavy sigh. âBut the more that I think about it, the more thatâs like a shitty excuse. I shouldâve woken you up before I left, but you looked so peaceful that I didnât want to. I shouldâve known and done better. Iâm so sorry for hurting you.â
âYeah, you should have asshole,â you sigh, â at least you have another cherry under your belt.â
âI donât just want you to be another girl in the notch of my belt!â His hand tightens around your face. â I know I fucked up. I didnât get to truly talk to you and tell you how I feel about you.â Your eyes met his. âThis isnât an ideal situation either, having just saved your life, and I almost killed that man.â He yanks his blindfold down, revealing his blue eyes to you. Eyes that are solely focused on you. âThis is a terrible time to tell you that I love you; I love you so damn much.â
For the second time today, you find it hard to breathe. Your eyes widen in shock as Satoru stares at you, waiting for you to respond to his confession. If he had told you this several days ago before he had left without a word, you wouldâve been over the moon. Now, you werenât sure how to react. Part of you was still happy that he felt that way, but he left without a word; he should have handled things differently. That was in the past, though there was no point in crying over something that had already happened.
Deep inside your heart, you knew how you felt regardless of what had happened days before.
âI love you too, you idiot.â The white-haired man before you perks up, grinning wide. âBut Iâm still pissed off. You owe me big time for leaving me after popping my cherry dick.â
âBaby, Iâll do anything you ask, anything.â His hands are gripping yours, planting kisses against the back of them.
âI want you to take me on a date. A real date with food and dessert.â
He smiled softly, his dimple visible as he planted another kiss on your hand. âDinner and dessert, I can handle that.â He helps you stand, ushering you forward, his hand in yours. âI could sweeten the deal. Maybe I could make you cum on my tongue all night? You donât even have to worry about me. Just let me worship you if you want.â While his offer is tempting, you lean against him.
âHonestly, Iâd rather go on a date and have mind-blowing sex like the other night, just without you leaving me.â
âI can do that too.â
Satoru is true to his word; he takes you to the nicest restaurant he knows. Buys you a bottle of champagne, orders a five-course meal, and every dessert on the menu. After your wonderful first date, he takes you back to his apartment and makes sweet love to you all night. He had you arching, gasping, and clawing at his back for the second time in your life.
The following day, you wake up finding him missing again. The bedroom door opens before you can grab your phone to see where he is. Satoru comes in with a massive tray of food. Mixed berries, coffee, pancakes, and eggs and bacon. He sits on the bed beside you, setting the tray between you.
âGood morning, sweetheart. Sleep well?â He offers you a steaming cup of coffee that you gladly take,
âI slept great.â You lean over kissing his lips softly.
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