#this tiny speck in the ocean of the internet should reasonably not be a place that should worry or upset you

[impeccablebackside]

I'm sorry but as an adult how are you ok with having something think this on a platform when Minors could see it. They don't have to follow you or interact with this stuff to see it. Stuff like this can seriously mess a child up and as adults we should be aware of our impact on children. You can't guarantee that children won't see this and it's wrong to perpetuate this type of shit. It's ok to think about this stuff but talk about it in a space when you can guarantee minors won't see it.

Another thing is the way you objectify actresses is disgusting you might like the character but they did not consent to be part of some weird twisted dream for you. That is a person okay they're not this character and you can think they're hot that's perfectly fine but saying nasty stuff about them is wrong. I'm sure you probably don't care but I can promise you they care. Just because they're a performer does not mean they can send it to any of this.

I really hope you take all of this into consideration and think about your impact on not just the people around you but the people you're talking about.

First off, apologies for not answering this earlier. It has been a while for you get a response, and even though your message is one of general negativity related to the existence of this blog, it still gets addressed accordingly. Whether or not you trust that I was ignoring you or not for the past month is not important, as I do genuinely appreciate the message anon. That being said, I was / am conflicted on if answering this is even worth the effort as it feels like bait more than anything. As it was mentioned very early on this blog though (long before anyone really followed it), I am open to discussion and criticism. They are some of the most effective ways of how we can foster growth and learn in life regardless of the context.

As a start to this post, I do want to say that we are clearly on two opposing ends of opinions and no matter what I do not think we will find a mutual agreement of what is considered good or bad in relation to NSFW content in this fandom or really in fandoms on a global scale. There is of course nothing wrong with that anon, just merely differences in opinions and perspectives. Fortunately (or unfortunately depending on one's viewpoint), people are permitted to consume fictional media in different ways, regardless of how they interpret things for better or worse.

For the intent of this blog, this post will act as is a reply to you, but also a general statement of sorts as well. I will be addressing your two main points separately to an extent, even though they do obviously correlate. I will let you know anon that I have gone and retroactively labeled all of the posts on my blog (aside from my pinned post) as being 'Mature: Sexual Themes' as per Tumblr's newer content rules, so you did have a good point to ensure accountability on my end. Much of this blog actually pre-dates such platform functionality, which I why it has not been used until now. Realistically, that should be it with your concern, but you did choose to bring up other points. Anyway, I suppose much of this is going to end up as sounding like me defending and justifying myself, but it is meant in general terms as well. I promise I am not being defiant and I do take your concerns seriously.

Something that is an immediate 'flag' of sorts for me with your ask is the simple question of: How did you find this blog? I have a fairly strong idea / theory given the wording of your ask, particularly in regards to your second paragraph and the date when I received your ask. While I do not really make any provisions to keep this blog secretive, I have always ensured that it stays out of the larger public fandom. The total lack of proper fandom tags and the attempts at reasonable 'censoring' such as using shortened character names or avoiding other specific words have all been done with the intent of keeping content within this blog more or less contained. Someone does not just stumble upon this blog through happy accident. The only external link outside of Tumblr to this blog is me publishing my fics on AO3 and putting the blog address in the end notes for interested parties.

Perhaps a misinterpretation on my end, but I have to assume that you are either relatively new to fandoms / online spaces (being around them for less than a year) and / or simply a younger (and hopefully not minor) user because your first concern is in my opinion certainly misguided and overblown anon. It almost sounds like you have never seen sexually explicit content in an online fandom space before. To explain it in the most simplest way that is going to sound patronizing, the internet is a big place with what could be deemed everything that is good and bad in the world contained within it and accessible with relatively minimal energy. It is unrealistic and frankly irresponsible to expect that every corner of it is 'baby-proofed' and smoothed over for consumption by minors. It is incredibly easy to find content of literally anything that is far, far more explicit than the posts on this blog without even trying.

Most important to your whole message is that I am absolutely not responsible for curating the online space of minors and never will be. It is my online space on a website based around adult users. I do not invite people to find this blog, or promote it in any places, and the 'soft' general platform warnings about '18+ / NSFW / adult-only' are all there. Cannot stop someone if they trespass in a restricted, but still open area and cannot set up guardrails for others who happen to drive by. That all being said, someone has had to put (a subjectively not huge by any means but still deliberate) effort into discovering any of my posts, and if they do that it is their willingness to 'be here'. There is only so far one can go to putting up signs to warn of mature content.

It is also pertinent to realize that as per the Tumblr terms of service, users must be at minimum 13 (in the US) or 16 (in Europe) years old to be allowed to have an account. While those are unequivocally still legally minors anon, I would hardly say that the content of this blog could 'seriously mess a child up' if the child we are talking about is a teenager. They are already very likely constantly exposed to a myriad media that has mature or explicit themes without a specific 'filter' in place to stop it. Adult themes of violence, drug / alcohol use, and sexual content are found in music, television, movies, and all over the internet without any blocks that stop them being shown to those under 18. This does not even consider minors who willingly falsify their ages and seek out adult content that would be 'off-limits' to them otherwise. The best option is to label and warn about the content, much like this blog was already doing for almost four years now. The expectation for anything else is honestly naïve, at least certainly for an online microblogging platform that was once flooded with pornography and has been active for decades at this point.

Specific to this fandom, it is vitally important to note (or perhaps better to say remind) that Cats is not meant to be a children's specific form of media in any way and never has been. In fact, the show was choreographed to be sensual and sexual, and Dame Lynne did not waste her time and energy for the musical to be stripped of that essence by puritans 40 years later. Obviously the appeal to minors is there do not get me wrong, and I am sure a number of those in the fandom may have discovered it at a young age, but it does not overrule my point whatsoever. If we are discussing how minors / children can see things they should not be seeing, there are plenty of instances of actual pornography of characters from legitimate children's media that are much easier to find and likely much more accessible. I could think of Pokémon, Nintendo games, or even Disney / Pixar media as prime examples. Acting as if adult sexual interpretations of any media should not exist or should be locked away creates a rather dangerous precedent of censorship in my opinion.

In comparison to sexual themes conflated with actual children's media, my blog is almost entirely text posts, with very little visually explicit posts (and even then those are all reblogs from other users). It is not very outwardly explicit at all. Otherwise, something that I am curious about is what you mean by 'it's wrong to perpetuate this type of shit' anon. Perpetuate what exactly? Sexuality? Pussy? Cock? Ass? Horniness? I have never discussed anything that is legitimately taboo on this blog, so what I am perpetuating is nothing radical in the slightest. This is where you lose me a bit anon, because in normal society, the old adage of 'sex sells' rings so loud and true that it is inescapable. As mentioned already, the concepts of sex are so tangibly integrated into things as trivial or mundane as ads for deodorant that people are constantly bombarded with sexually charged imagery in daily life. You should be more upset about that.

This blog exists on what I am aware is the only online fandom space for the musical, so where else does one go if they, as you infer, should talk about it in a space where I can guarantee no minors see it? How do I even ensure that no one younger than 18 is blocked from seeing my blog? It is online just like all the porn anyone could ever want, and it only takes someone clicking 'I am 18 years old' to bypass all the efforts Tumblr and I could ever put in place. As I have said in response to positive messages / asks in the past, this blog is here as place of subjective sexual freedom within the fandom. This blog serves me quite well (as I made it for me) but has slowly grown to be a subjectively important / noteworthy (but incredibly small) aspect of the fandom as (what I believe is) the only ongoing NSFW spot for Cats. It serves the greater needs of the fandom as a whole in a way to have that side reflected, but obviously in a very niche way.

I think being hindered or discouraged about the sexual side of any fandom space is regrettable to begin with, so if this blog can offer a beacon of sorts, that is a remarkable thing to me. There reasonably should be no shame in anything related to enjoying or wanting content like this, but push-back like this would be a reason why so few are open to sharing. That is another reason why this blog was created and left hidden in plain sight of the (adult) public eye. There simply was no place or content for thirst posts about Cats, and I needed an outlet to explore this 'side' of me and the characters at the extent I have up until now. There is a lot to be said about simply being open about these interests and carving a space in the fandom that was unfortunately not there previously to the necessary degree. It does make it possible for others to connect or embrace NSFW themselves. This blog is still important for what it represents, and attacking the subject matter / content of this blog is to quite literally trying to force it away and sterilize the fandom as a whole from anything sexual in its only online space.

In regards to your second paragraph, you definitely have a point anon, and I am not going to say that you completely wrong. In my slight defense, the vast majority of the 725 posts to this point have nothing about actors and have only been about the characters. Posts here and there that mentioned names have always been reasonably respectful (and usually censored so they cannot be searched and found), as I have historically treaded carefully with stuff like that. I have always had reservations about being 'direct' about anything on this blog from a privacy standpoint, as I am a rather private person outside of this blog. As I can surmise based on when I received this message from you (alongside another one that was sent off-anon a bit later on, which I am not sure if that was you again or someone else who happened to have a very similar criticism - if so here is an answer to both), this all stems from my more recent(ish) posts where I have been too overzealous about 98 Rumple and roped in her actor a bit. It is regrettable in some ways anon, and I get that. I should have been better at separating character from actor. Those posts are all in the idea that 98 Rumple is my personal preference and ideal manifestation of the character, and I would smash her in supposedly 'nasty stuff' ways. It is hard to separate actor and character when you are trying to talk about a specific appearance, but I understand that is not a good excuse. I have gone and done some minor rewording / deletion of some of what I said, but I do stand by the posts from a character perspective. Although, not to justify we (being I) are talking about an actor portrayal from 27 years ago. At this point, it is quite literally a dream.

Something I have seen discussed and conflicted about, and this is probably due to being old enough to have grown into the internet being a fairly central part of my teenage / adult life (although you have no appreciation for just how little I have used it compared to others my age anon), is that there seems to be a newer stigma against anyone online saying that a real person (celebrity for the most part) is hot or finding them sexually desirable. As you say, I can think it, but I cannot express it without it being taken negatively or being called a creep. I do get why, but it is really not some 'twisted dream' where I am doing anything drastically harmful anon. There is actual written and illustrated smut about real people in so many fandoms (NHL, F1, or band fandoms for example), and my blog is quite reserved and removed from those mindsets. My posts may (rarely) mention real people, but the sexual content is not intended to be about said real people and is not written as such. It is admittedly questionable depending on one's perspective to say that you (being me in this case) would fuck a stranger, and that is a reason why I have typically avoided it or simply generalized. Pretty much anything that went beyond the 'this actor is hot / beautiful' with perhaps a passing and non overtly sexual comment on their body was always my open limit, but I suppose I did become a touch too comfortable and hypocritical recently. The actors deserve all the privacy and respect afforded to them that can be reasonable with them being 'public figures' so to speak, and I do apologize if some of my comments had gone too far. It does worry me about any (much more current) actor finding this blog, but it is still astutely a personal blog buried on a relatively small social media website that has exceedingly little explicit content about anyone specific.

One place where I do disagree is that you say I objectify or sexualize the actresses. I have been championing the beauty of all the actors since starting this blog, and have never properly objectified or degraded anyone. The recent posts mentioning Jo spoke about the character and not specifically the actor herself (again - impossible to separate them), but I do appreciate where you are coming from. Even then, being told I am disgusting for saying someone has a nice ass seems like a bit of an overreaction, at least to me. I never made any comment on any other parts of her body, and limited posts about other actors never went any further than mentioning how nice in general their legs or bodies were (if they were even mentioned - most of the others posts just stated any given actor was hot / beautiful). Saying that someone, who once dressed in a skintight cat costume to perform in a sensual show, is hot or sexually desirable does not seem like it should be seen as overtly sexualizing them. If so, I do again apologize.

Anyway, I will (and do) take your message into consideration anon, so thanks for sending it. I would like to return the favour in a way and advise that you do some reflection on why you felt entitled enough to take time to chastise me. In the nicest way, do you not have anything better to do? As a friend once said, anon hate is like breaking into my house to write on my walls because you do not like how I decorate. It is honestly baffling. Your wording is all quite negative and downright accusatory as if I am legitimately hurting people, so I do encourage you to be even slightly more accepting that you will assuredly see things that you may find to be unsavory (but y'know - not illegal or actually harmful) or disagree with. Stop worrying about what other people are doing and live more freely, as it has to be tiring (and contradictory too) to police the world around you. You are constantly going to encounter things / people that you cannot relate to or agree with, and the best thing to do is simply ignore it and move past it like any normal adult would. Believe me, I used to be like you in a way seeing people be perhaps too open with thoughts and getting upset, and it is just not worth getting bothered by it at all. It may (or is) indeed subjectively creepy or gross in parts, but that should really not worry you too much anon. Just ignore it, block and move on. As 'Rule #10' on my pinned post says, if you do not like it avert your eyes. We will both feel better having not let someone else get under our skin.

In general, puritan reductionism that equates anything sexual to be 'evil' is far more damaging to mental health (particularly in minors) than anything on this blog will ever be. Someone is not going to be scarred for life if they read how bad I want to bang Victoria silly style, but they may be scarred if they feel like such an urge in them is uncouth or shameful. The issue I have is that it is always being phrased as being morally reprehensible to be horny, as that is quite alarming. People like you are equating the most extreme parts of what could be possible with sexual freedom and generalizing it with anything you may not particularly like or agree with. With that, you are also demonizing people who are simply using online spaces as outlets for their normal interests and saying that they are dangerous / damaging, and that they 'don't care' about their supposedly 'harmful' actions. Why must there be an assumption that someone who creates adult content has to have a mind that is so fucked up that they would not care or appreciate if someone disagreed with them or brought up a concern? Anon, this is my space and I do care. I am not some sort of sex-obsessed cretin who is so deranged they no longer appreciate what their words mean or the impact they could have.

The point of this blog is to be a place for expression and openness for me and for others that never existed previously in the fandom. I assume, potentially in a foolish way, that you are LGBTQ+ ally anon given our mutual fandom. Your push to hide or scrub the greater fandom of an accessible (yet still adult only) place that speaks to sexual content is the exact same type of shit people who hate LGBTQ+ people try to do. They always try to say you are being disgusting and gross or that you are guilty of doing something wrong because kids may see it. Employing that mentality to shame me is an unusual stance to say the least.

If someone has critical thinking skills and can see perspectives of others, then this whole diatribe is truly a null point to some extent. It becomes one of those things where fiction and non-fiction and intent have to be taken into consideration. So long as it is reasonably justified and not truly real life, it is a form of sexual expression and exploration. Otherwise, there would be a lot of people (and a lot of spectacular content) in the wrong throughout every single fandom space. While I may not agree with everything or necessarily be comfortable with every way of thinking, the choices of other (adult) people should be respected for the most part. Especially given my own thoughts with everything that has been presented here over the years that someone else (maybe you, by chance) may not agree with or be comfortable with. There is of course some wiggle room with dismissing things that are less favourable, but I digress.

To end, I would like to reiterate that I am not interested in wading into any discourse at all on this blog, so this is essentially as a far as I am discussing this (and I have already spent long enough on it). There is merit to trying to be neutral to things anon. I would certainly prefer to keep the subjective negativity to this post only, and not have this grow and become a recurring series of accusatory asks going forward. While it is merely a request on my part, I do hope you oblige. Apologies if I come across as being aggresive to you. This blog is purely for enjoyment separate from anything else, and I would like to keep it that way.