#this simply has to be the strangest way for me to undergo a huge life change and its knocking out whatever is left of the air in my lungs

[ceru-draws]

I feel unmoored. Untethered. Sick with a mystery illness causing me to cough up my lungs and currently out of a job more abruptly and dramatically that I thought I was going to be. Maybe, hopefully, hopefully, starting a new career soon that will change my life for the better in so many ways, given that I did not fuck everything up by being on flu medicine during my pre-employment drug test. I feel floaty. Mote-like. Fuzzy and shapeless. The end of a year is hurdling towards me and all I can do is drift here until my body finds me again.