#this shit rly said ( deceased )

[moriors]

𝐼. ⸻ general.

name. giovanni de viscardi. alias(es). vanni, gio. gender. cis male, he / him age. 375 ( as of 2019 when his story takes place. ) spoken language(s). italian, fluent in english and french, proficient in mandarin and russian, okay at german and spanish, learning latin. sexual preference. bisexual. occupation(s). old man ( prev. work in little odd jobs! )

𝐼𝐼. ⸻ appearance.

eye color. brown. hair color. black. height. 5'6. major scars. literally everywhere, most notably the big scar on his chest from tearing out his heart.

𝐼𝐼𝐼. ⸻ favorite.

color. black. song. waltz in b minor, chopin. food. chocolate croissants, homemade ravioli. drink. coffee coffee coffee

𝐼𝑉. ⸻ have they …

passed university. dude has been in and out of higher education since the 1700s had sex. yes. had sex in public. yes gotten pregnant / someone else pregnant. yes. kissed a boy. yes. kissed a girl. yes. gotten tattoos. yes! full sleeves on both arms :) gotten piercings. yes, earlobes. been in love. yes :( stayed up for more than 24 hours. yes.

𝑉. ⸻ are they …

a virgin. god no! a cuddler. situational. maybe. ( yes, when he lets himself. ) a kisser. yes. scared easily. no. jealous easily. yes! too easily! trustworthy. debatable, no. dominant. absolutely not. submissive. yes!in love. he'll say no. ( he is lying ) single. yes.

𝑉𝐼. ⸻ random questions.

have they harmed themselves. yes. thought of suicide. yes. attempted suicide. yes. wanted to kill someone. pff .. yes. have / had a job. yes. have any fears. being the last living soul at the end of the universe.

𝑉𝐼𝐼. ⸻ family.

sibling(s). matteo and niccolo rossi ( stepbothers, deceased ) cornelia de viscardi ( half-sister, deceased ) parent(s). francesco and felicita de viscardi ( parents, deceased ) marietta de viscardi ( step-mother, deceased ) children. martino de viscardi. ( son, deceased. ) significant other. benedetta de viscardi ( wife, deceased. ) pet(s). none.

tagged by. @saintwolf !! tagging. anyone who hasnt already done it :)

[crimsonandcloverwrites]

fuck it. sign your X on the line reaction time

THE ARTWORK???? Oh I am in trouble

bartender jamie pulling all the girls numbers my beloved......

jamie being kindred spirits w a grumpy old man hahahahahaha

lmao straight to it i love u praise kink queen dani (does this article actually exist asking for a friend)

dani and jamie being absolute horn dogs for each other so true!!

LMAO JAMIE INSTANTLY GOING IN FOR THE KILL

“something about Dani that made her feel like knocking down walls with a sledgehammer” pls i love that so much

Hannah and Owen being the kindest souls n taking the girls under their wings I know that’s right!

“She was a vision, and Jamie was so fucked.” mood

eep this like. honeymoon phase attraction and affection looks so good on them oh my god I am yearning

Dani intentionally fucking w Jamie akjdhfkfjdfghdkjfh I love her

ohhhh Jamie v much likes being told what to do huh??? i wonder how that is going to make me lose my mind later

Damn Dani sdkjdhfkdjgh she is working and ur just gonna send her racy pics?? nice

lmao they are so horny. we love some across the room foreplay. HAHAHAHAH HANNAH KNOWING EXACTLY WHAT THEY’RE UP TO

how u gonna go from horny as hell to soft as a marshmellow just like that lmao i love

obsessed w this being tagged edging and we’re a good third of the way in and all we’ve had is teasing THE LAYERS

bro i am losing my mind Dani Clayton queen of texting sjdhdkjf

they’re so soft Jamie being all I know I’m a grinch and Dani being all sweet and reassuring abt it and THEN Dani is texting her pure filth I am deceased

JAMIE DOING RESEARCH SO SHE CAN GET IT RIGHT PLS I LOVE HER THAT’S SO SWEET

the way I have to keep taking breaks so I don’t spontaneously combust

fuck they are so sweeeeeet. Jamie decorating her whole place just for Dani they’re so in loooooooove

the way they keep teasing each other is so cute like “No,” Dani huffed, brow pinched. “Shut up, I’m trying to do something.” is so affectionate??? they can be silly goofy in the middle of it all and it only makes it better pls I love them so much.

godddddd Dani making Jamie undress her is so top fucking tier I am beside myself

dfgkjhdfkgjdhf not Karen not now

ok jesus fuck they’re doing it it’s happening.

hmmmmmm Jamie being all bossy and in control I am malfunctioning

god fuck this is hot I am blushing

oh my god Jamie you absolute teeeeease adkjfhdkj that’s so mean but like... go on

hnnnnng Jamie promising she can do the same to her another time. fuck

poor Dani. Jamie u r so mean (but like.... good job sdjfdhjdh)

christ they really are just getting started huh. iconic. stamina of the gods

hnnnng I LOVE Dani getting what she wants good for her.

“It was only fair that Dani got to unwrap something too tonight.”  dfgkjdfhkjghfkjhgkjdf yes exactly it’s equality.gif

god Jamie is such a teeeeease lmfao I love her

get it ladies

aww Jamie buying fancy accessories for her girl

danggg they are really going for it whew

aww Jamie softly taking care of her afterrrrr

and Dani also “taking care of” Jamie after skfhdkfjgh match made in heaven

dang ok Dani Clayton is so much in the best way I adore her

holy shit ur really doin it I am fucking hyperventilating lol

jamie really said once more from the top!

honestly good for them I hope they sleep for like 27 hours after this they really did it gold medals all round

plsss why are they so soft I love them I want to be them

Dani spoiling Jamie w jewelry is so cute like both of them getting to give/recieve rly sweet meaningful things they’ve not really had w other people is so cute I cant

oh my god this is so !!!!!! “I want to watch flowers grow with you” aaahhh my heart

a keeeeyyyyyy aww Jamie u big softie dfjdgfhg but then getting all worried it was too much as if babe

god that was so cute and hot and ticked so many boxes adkjgdfh ok now I have to try and go back to normal life when I wasn’t reading this??? how

[lookwhatilost]

i’m going to reheat some ancient tea for the elders here, and i’m not expecting anyone to remember this bc it was 5 years ago at this point and i never rly talk abt it. but this story is fucking wild so i may as well retell it, for the newbies and anyone who may have forgotten. i definitely think it’s peak tumblr insanity even though it was nowhere near as high profile as the bone stealing witch et al. apologies in advance for my recollection of this being an inchoate, stream of consciousness mess.

so. in 2015-ish i was. erm. involved w this girl, and she’d told me that some weirdo ass freak on here had taken some of her pictures and pretended that she was his dead ex-gf (“sam”). so i obviously went to gawk and not only was he face-claiming her, but he also had written her into this elaborate narrative abt a trafficking ring he’d Apparently been in as a child. and that her “sam’s” father was responsible for getting him into this. which was like... obviously a rly fucked up thing to lie abt. so we both bugged him to take the shit abt her down but instead of responding, he jst went on this dumbfuck public tirade abt how it’s fucked up to tell Victims(tm) that they’re faking it

so i dug up all this old shit on him (found him blogging on a MCR fansite in like 2011, when the events of his narrative were allegedly happening) and he had been posting a lot abt his Trauma, but it was abt an abusive psychiatrist and not... like... well... you know. i think the abusive psychiatrist was what actually happened tbh, but she was dead in that narrative too. “sam” died in 2010. “sam” died again in 2014. and every time he made a new profile online, he added more gruesome details to his story until it evolved into... child trafficking torture dungeon (where your abusers respect your pronouns). because that’s definitely a normal thing to make up and pass as something that happened to you. sam also was apparently a real person he knew and wasn’t close to, but her family had to threaten legal action against this guy bc he wouldn’t stop saying weird and crazy shit abt her family.

he’d also done this pictures stealing thing in the past w another dead friend he apparently had (“danny”), and got called on that before. said something that deflected all accountability – “you wouldn’t BELIEVE how traumatized i am and this is something i did to cope” –  i’ve seriously never seen a worse apology in my life. and continued to talk abt the danny thing anyway. 

anyway she ended up filming a video on her own blog jst of her saying “i’m not sam. fuck off” and people dogpiled on him, so he did something rly cool and rational – faked his own death. to the point where even his internet friends were under the impression that he’d actually passed.

he was still alive and jst remade his blog & fb, was still updating on amazon and liking shit on depop. didn’t do much to keep his cover. so i posted the receipts and they spread enough that people who’d talked to him on here were aware of what’d happened. some of his internet friends contacted me and told me that he’d made all these fake profiles and talked to them (& sent them letters? like physical letters?) as if he was “sam” and it was jst... what the fuck.

so the public shaming didn’t rly stop him or anything, and i didn’t rly think abt it much anymore, considering that everyone who defended and enabled him stopped doing that for the most part. though i did occasionally check his socials only to find that he made the trafficking narrative increasingly more graphic (now featuring cannibalism, bestiality, and more preteen pregnancy!) it wasn’t something that rly made sense to continue commenting on bc like... clearly this situation is beyond any delusion of hope.

so why am i talking abt it now?

well, i checked my messages on my other blog yesterday, and got some on the sideblog where’d i’d anonymously published the callout, asking me for any updates and telling me to take the blog down “out of respect”. so i googled his name and his obituary popped up. apparently he killed himself. i think i’m jst going to ignore the messages but. you know. two things

1) this is surreal. i dnt doubt that basing your entire personality on rly fucked up and deranged lies is unsustainable, but i never thought he’d actually go through w something like that

2) i dnt... think he’s deserving of any respect, death or not. there was something very seriously wrong with this guy, and he didn’t care that he was lying to or manipulating people who cared abt him if they gave him sympathy. he didn’t care that his libelous stories used real people’s names, people who threatened him w legal action. i’d never seen anyone w a fake trauma story use that to discredit actual trafficking victims... i dnt think i’ve ever met someone who was such a dyed in the wool piece of shit. and him being deceased doesnt change the way i feel abt it. shrug.

[pasttorn]

       -- SHORP. hey it’s shorp back at it again with her mushy ramblings ! ! this time i just wanted to take a quick ( not rly quick but you get what i mean ) moment to tell you guys how ? ? happy i am to be here ? ?

       -- I’VE been remaking this very multi for years now-- starting it back 2016 by mistctch-a’s archive ( & even earlier than that, but i deactivated the previous mutli bc i didn’t need it anymore ), & remaking this one back in may 2018. though not all muses have stayed & there’s been a bunch of new muses since then ( with exception of shoei, rempo, luke, gaius, leon, lang & the rest, since i’ve been writing them since the very first blog ! ), it’s never been as fun to write on here as it is now ? because ! ! being a multi is one thing, but being a multi fandom mutli & with most of them being from unknown / deceased rpcs, it’s been tough to keep the motivation to write here for long periods of time-- which usually caused me to escape to my indie single muse blogs or other multi’s based on a single rpc ( like my fmab multi & bleach multi ! ) in order to completely devote myself to my muses with people who’re willing to develop them with me; returning to this blog only briefly every couple months in order to continue certain interactions / threads i’ve had with those few people who were willing to interact with said unknown muses ( since i just couldn’t bring myself to abandon my writing partners / muses from the multi because i adored them so much ) & just ! ! ! 

       -- IT’S kinda like i’ve been having the exact opposite problem lately ? i’ve been completely ignoring my other blogs because i have such a hard time staying away from this blog because there’s always something to look forward to every day & always so many people who’re willing to plot with me ( which is ! ! something i adore ! ! i remember closing discord / skype completely at times simply bc i didn’t have anyone to plot w/ on it & it just drained battery life ) & just ! ! the security that comes with being able to reblog a meme & knowing there’s always going to be someone who’s going to send something, or post a headcanon post & know there’s going to be people that read it is ! ! ! something i’m ever so grateful for ! ! ! i have only you guys to thank for this & while i may be shit at answering im’s / commenting on y’all’s post & all that stuff ( because i’m Awkward & usually never know what to say / if i’m close enough w/ y’all to joke about stuff or yell about certain things ) i ! ! genuinely am super, super glad to get to talk to so many of you & to have gotten to know you all & to have gotten a chance to write with all of you, because the support you all have given me is so sweet & kind & i ! ! love all of you what the heck ♡♡♡♡♡♡

[veronicamarz]

Umm Beth rly got hers, gave Rio his cut and then said bye-bye. I am deceased.

man, that was cold. that was the coldest shit i’ve ever seen. colder than beth’s disappointment to dean being alive, colder than her ignoring him tied up to check on her money, colder than her reaction to him calling her out for sleeping with rio. because baby girl cared so much, she was so disassociated from that whole damn moment, telling him it was over. she couldn’t even watch him leave, she had to literally turn her back and stay in the bathroom.

and it so obviously mirrored the way he called it off with her in 1.09, right? him abruptly going into the warehouse, her abruptly leaving the bedroom. y’all can expect many more lengthy posts about my feelings on that scene cus aksjjdsjjs

[secretagentspydetectiveninja]

hey so remember like last year when i was re-reading misadventures and fixing typos? (well, i say that, but it was just an excuse to re-read it and write some absolutely absurd commentary on it...) i found old notes in my phone from january with even more so guess i may as well post it because people seemed to find it funny at the time, it’s basically just The Misadventures of Aish Realizing Things though

[yeah so here’s the original notes i’m not even gonna change anything even though lots of Lore has happened in the show and we Know things now, you just get to see what january aish typed]

ok well let’s go then chapters 31-35 oh god

oh yeah the ML Blackout! I remember that

hm it’s occurring to me maaaaaybe I should post a bit of a warning on this chapter. like “yes this starts off stupid and cracky and fluffy but takes a complete 180 in the middle and you will end up sobbing.”

or maybe I should put that as a disclaimer on the whole fic cause it’s one hell of a ride

THE AROACE SCIENCE JOURNAL YESSSSSSS THAT COMES BACK LATER

yeah the reason why the early parts of this chapter are very lighthearted is honestly because the fic was getting a bit too bleak, I needed something cheerful, so paper planes and arm wrestles it was

wait... isn’t this just that scene from Anansi??? where like Nora challenges Nino to an arm wrestle but then he wins because Someone Else Nearby Did A Thing

also this is Peak characterization, damn Aish, you rly outdone yourself, congration

any time I drop the word “inkling” into a fic it is always 100% a splatoon reference

MAX WOW TONE DOWN THE GAY

heh... BI-ceps...

oh my godddd Max trying to play off his ogling as “ah yes I am scientifically studying Kim’s arm muscles ofc, it’s science I swear” is SO frickin funny I’m already losing it

Alix: “scientifically speaking I’m hot therefore you have to lose this arm wrestle” hshdhdghshskkjkdhshs

^literally the kind of nonsense every single teen I know spouts irl

including me when I was a teen, I just said things

(I still just say things)

you can’t bring up the sports bra thing goddammit, I agree it’s cheating because it has the power to one-hit kill anyone in the vicinity

I love how Max thinks his crush on Kim is “under control” while like. visibly swooning over him

OH MY GOD THE PILLOWS SHHDJDHDHDHSKHS

OKAY SO LIKE I was supposed to put the thing about Kim snogging a pillow in chapter 20 but I forgot or something and then I just had to get it in somehow, oh it kills me dead just thinking about it, I’m dying, I’m dead

and the fact that he admits to it as well, holy moly

KIM

K I M

THAT’S GAY

OH WOW

this is the moment when Alix’s Kimax shipper heart was suddenly feeling validated like “omg wait Kim DOES like Max??? like for real??????”

awwwww Kim, Max doesn’t have those kind of superpowers, you just have a crush on him that’s all <3

THE SKATEBOARDING SNEK!!!!!!!!!!!!

“What the heck is that?” “My snake.” DYINGGGG

Kim trying to figure out if the snake is sitting or standing is a whole mood

ohhhhhhhh my gosh poor Alix trying so damn hard to subtly ask Kim if he likes Max and Kim’s just. so DUMB he doesn’t even get it no matter how obvious she is

she’s even trying to pull out those stupid amatonormative “so is he MORE than a friend???” questions just to get this idiot to figure it out because she knows allo-romos are Like That and he still doesn’t get it,,

[future aish says: the word is alloro, past aish. it’s alloro]

AND SO NOW SHE ASSUMES THEY’RE NOT INTO EACH OTHER BECAUSE SHE THINKS EVEN KIM CAN’T BE THAT STUPID

YOU UNDERESTIMATE HIS STUPIDITY

oh no... oh NO.... the letter.... here we go....

btw yes Gabriel had Kim’s grandad assassinated, it was indeed his doing

...isn’t this lowkey the plot of The Lion King?

or Long Live The Queen

hmmm let’s just say in the sequel poor Kim really will have to deal with the stresses of ruling a country >:D

NO MY POOR SON HAVING A BREAKDOWN, I WANT TO HUG HIM

(also can I just say like... this chapter is actually well-written for the most part? I’m actually kinda impressed)

unfortunately I know the feeling of wanting, needing to return home, but it fills you with dread... *hugs Kim forever*

Kim crying all over Max both hurts me and sort of heals me because Max is so sweet and comforting about it ohhh my heeeaaart

AWWWWWWWWWWWWWW

THIS IS LOWKEY A LOVE CONFESSION I SWEAR, IT’S SO CUTE

chapter 32 being called “Un chat noir” is kinda dumb af but also it just so happened that I accidentally had the chapter called “Coccinelle” be chapter 64, aka exactly double of 32, so that was kinda neat

Plagggggg!!!!!!!!!!

and Wayhem lol, I think I’ve already mentioned how originally this noble was just some random irrelevant unnamed OC until I decided way later it’s gay stalker fanboy

oh yeah that’s how the nobility recognize the royalty, I forgot lol

(also nobles from countries with widespread newspress or tv will recognize them from news reports and stuff I guess)

the fact that Plagg just hates Wayhem is funny to me for some reason

MISADVENTURES

HOLY SHIT I ACTUALLY THREW IN THE ACTUAL WORD

except it was in reference to Adrien... let’s just say that The Misadventures of Imperial Prince Adrien may or may not make an appearance in the sequel >:D

...the Adrienette is literally just in this fic so that people would read it, ngl

hhhhhhhhhhhh okay it’s true Alix is an aro idiot who doesn’t know anything about romance but for once she’s RIGHT, Kim IS in love with Max, but she assumes she’s wrong hshgshdjhdnsnsh

oh my god noooo timeline twin go away and stop giving me nightmares

I still love how they hate each other, that’s some top-notch self-hatred right there and I need to get on their level

[future aish note: no past self!! be nice to yourself!! you are a cool bean!! own it!!]

YOU FOOL... EVERY CLASSMATE WOULD TAKE A SWORD TO THE HAND FOR ALIX, WHY WOULDN’T THEY

ỳïķèš,,,

honestly I probably should stop being lazy and actually go back to like idk chapter 8 and put in an actual monopoly game (it had to have been before the oracle sessions in ch10 at least)

fun fact!! I have indeed very nearly had a fist fight over the last dark blue card in a monopoly game!! also I blatantly cheated, and the main opponent locked someone else (an 8 year old btw) in a cupboard... it was Wild(TM)

me and my irl friend actually came up with the butterfly thing when we were at the cinema once, she made up this random angry gardener OC who stepped on a butterfly after being fired or something lol

I mentioned Rose liking unicorns!!!! before Captain Hardrock!!!!!!!

shdhdhkshs Alix is such a moody emo brat in this fic I adore it

“The only real difference between you and me is one dead butterfly.” goddammit that’s the creepiest fucking thing, I’m genuinely shaking

technically it’s a butterfly’s fault for ALL the timelines which means that we’re all one butterfly away from death at any moment

cheerful stuff

no, no, you’re not trying to block it out on purpose... I’M trying to block it out on purpose bc I’m highkey shamelessly projecting

god I wish my timeline twin would manifest in the astral plane and punch me in the arm too

“Count yourself lucky you’re not a pillow, idiot.” in-context this is contender for Most Cursed Line I Have Ever Written In My Life

and yes Alix was about to straight-up swear

Mylène rollerskating is extremely blessed and good

pfffffffff Max you coward, I stand on swivel chairs all the time

*me, chanting at the spider in my room* KIMAX! KIMAX! KIMAX!

Kim literally making every excuse to not put Max down is amazing honestly

Kim and Max’s origins story is sooooooooooo cute wtf

THIS IS SO BLESSED OH MY HEART

HE’S JUST STANDING THERE CUDDLING HIM I’M

DECEASED

I,,,, swear to god,,,,,,,

so like. I know it’s now canon in the show that Kim really is as oblivious to his feelings as I wrote him in this. but MY GOD. IT’S FRIGGIN PAINFUL

KIM YOU ARE IN LOVE WITH MAX, FULL HOMO, THAT’S WHY YOU’RE FEELING LIKE THIS, IT’S NOT THAT COMPLICATED DAMMIT

oh yeah I wrote the kimax bits rly early and my old url was @queenkubdel haha

aight now a no-kimax chapter, but at least it’s a goodun

there’s that catradora-esque weather girls frenemyship again

Kim having a full-on breakdown when he finds out Alix’s hair isn’t really pink is actually really blessed, no lemme explain

so this universe has magic, right?? so he thinks to himself that the reason his friend has pink hair is because she must be some sort of anime protagonist or Really Important and Cool or something, and it never even occurred to him to doubt her

in other words he’s betrayed because he WANTED HIS FRIEND TO BE A COOL SHONEN HERO

which is both hilarious AND very sweet

...oh wait I’ve scrolled down and it turns out I literally explained all that in the fic itself hhdgjdvzjdjhs

and yeah honestly I can’t blame poor Kim for taking it so badly, he’s still reeling from his grandfather’s assassination so it’s natural his emotions are not exactly Regulated atm

actually when are his emotions ever regulated

1703-1899 hm... might change that since the fic takes place in 1957-1960 so even though it’s a commissioned history of the empire it was before Gabriel was even born so like why would he even care lmao

“Great Western Ocean” so pretentious, just say the Atlantic omg

I’ve been playing way too much civ because the first thing that came to mind was that everyone’s denounced Agreste due to the high warmongering penalties of the industrial/modern eras

Chloé and Kim is one hell of a brotp okay I still firmly believe that

also Chloé still loves her rococo fashion, she’s just toned it down enough that she can fit through doors and it’s not quite as “in your face” towards commoners

listen I know in the show Kim still liked Chloé for a while after Dark Cupid but in this he got over her quicker because his crush on her wasn’t as deep in the first place

Kim literally tells Chloé he gave the brooch to Max and yet STILL doesn’t realize he likes him!!! KIM!!!!!!!!!!

Chlodemption arc yesssssssss

also she’s a lesbeean

(ye Pollen will be in the sequel don’t you worry)

god I’m so proud of her <3

it feels believable too, so I’m proud of myself!! (I’m trying to be nice to myself before next chapter where I will no doubt roast myself so badly I’ll never recover)

outdated laws about marriage... jeez was that cursed foreshadowing or what

YES IT’S IVAN, I LOVE THIS BOY, HE’S SO GRUMPY AND ANGRY ALL THE TIME AND HE HATES KIM

...actually wait this is sibling culture

I literally speak like this to my brother and he’s my best friend so in conclusion Ivan thinks of Kim as an annoying brother

Jalil why are you a historian. just go be a psychologist and stop your sister accidentally hecking up the country

omg the Antarctica thing, I’m just imagining Jalil in the freezing cold with a massive coat on and getting chased by penguins

I love how the timeline twin’s plan was “escape school, force Adrien to get a venomous pet, then abandon him immediately in the middle of nowhere” and later on it turns out she skipped step two and just ditched him lmaoooooo

being so ace that your brain goes straight to “death and murder” before anything else is the biggest mood, I speak from experience

Jalil knows... he had that conversation with Kim in chapter 20... he Knows

“a bit unsupportive” um that is an extreme understatement good grief he was more savage than ME

RISE OF THE KIMAX SHIPPERS

oh don’t worry the venom death still haunts me too

chapter I Hate You... “A rather rotten winter party” well it should have been named A RATHER ROTTEN CHAPTER DO YOU KNOW HOW IMPOSSIBLE THIS ONE WAS TO WRITE OMG I HATE WRITING MYSELF INTO CORNERS

you see I had to have a motive for the timeline twin to explain things properly so that I could put in a really really dumb pun later but that meant I had to unfortunately suffer many allergic reactions again

[future aish note: forgot to mention, i also needed a motive for kim to stop eating chocolate forever, so i had to Curse this chapter as a sacrifice in order to save his life later on]

alright, alright, here we go, I’ll stop procrastinating and just get this over with

oh yeah it’s chapters like these that the fic’s rated T lol

the Adrikim friendship is indeed important... for later... like, plot-relevant levels of important... life-saving levels...

“some event” is the Peace Ball actually and I can’t wait because that chapter’s actually a good one

KIM BRAGGING ABOUT KISSING ADRIEN LAST YEAR IS SO FUCKING FUNNY OH MY GOD I’M LOSING MY MIND???

like last year he was LITERALLY LIKE “oh boo hoo I cannot tell anyone about this because Adrien is Ã Bøyê” and now he’s just like “yeah I kissed a hot boy and what about it???”

to be fair he is on an extreme sugar rush from all the chocolate he ate, which will... be a plot point in just a moment...

PILLOW GIRLFRIEND

I’m the amused nobles, they are me

oh my god Kim we get it you want to kiss someone (Max) and you don’t want to outright say it

holy shit do any of these kids ever think before they speak??? not to sound like the timeline twin or anything but alix... you could have avoided this if you’d bothered to use your one (1) brain cell

[future aish note: bold of me to assume that alix has a brain cell]

Kim wants to now fight his PARALLEL SELF oh my god, get on my level Kim, I want to fight my actual self like right now so there

stfu all of you, this is poisoning my liver

Max is the biggest mood and at least mildly sensible thank god, but he really shouldn’t have left those two alone for even a second

I AGREE PLATONIC LOVE IS UNDERRATED

the chair... the fucking c h a i r... I’m already lying down but I need to lie down harder just to process the absurdity of this

(I think I was gonna have Alix fall off the chair just because that’s hilarious but I forgot)

look I can’t take heartrate seriously but if you ever write it then you are legally required to put in kissing contests or you’re doing it wrong

fudgin Adrienette kiss offscreen and irrelevant

DJWIFI!!! AND ACTUAL PROPER DJWIFI!!!! I was sick of seeing it treated as some kind of pair-the-spares beta couple so I flipped the script and had them literally call out that trope while treating Adrienette as irrelevant instead, which is also why the sequel will be extremely djwifi-centric

“super swanky bae” please stop misusing commoner slang I’m begging you

THERE’S THE PLOT POINT I WAS TALKING ABOUT

Theo was right here, he witnessed with his own eyes how much chocolate Kim ate, so he knows for a fact that if you give Kim chocolate he will scarf it down without a second thought... so hypothetically if one sent him poisoned chocolates... dyou see where I’m going with this...

oh and Theo still has like every job btw

Alya!!!! no!!!!! hire him again!!!!!!!! then he won’t send the chocolates!!!!!!!!!! aaaahhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!

there goes me hinting how alyadrininette is the ultimate ot4 again

...do I really wanna scroll down and keep going? no I don’t but I guess I gotta, and relive every one of my most embarrassing school sleepovers in the process

full offence to everyone bothering to read this but kissing sounds gross, actually

(for the record it was probably like... 10 seconds or something idk it was Not Long At All)

“probably not more than 5 minutes” omg I just said it was 10 seconds??? hmmm m okay like 20 seconds maaaybe, Kim just has no sense of time perception

neither do I based on my microwaving skills

SHIT THIS IS LITERALLY A SCHOOL SLEEPOVER

INNOCENT DUMBASS AROACE ASKING “what does that mean? what’s this? what’s that? it’s okay you can tell me :-)”

omg I forgot the snake was there ahshdhdkshfs I’m the snake, probably wants to launch itself out of the window so big mood

most of the fic so far had Alix being really aro so I was like damn... gotta make her really ace too

(if I ever bother writing the Kimdine AU then you actually get an aro character who isn’t ace, because we need more of them, but I won’t say who) (okay fine it’s Luka)

I tend not to be too British in my writing so as not to give the Americans heart attacks whenever they see someone referring to their mother as “mum” etc, but like... sometimes you just gotta throw in the word “snogging”

(I’m typing this out on my phone rn and it has exactly 69% battery, I hate this and also hate that I felt the need to mention that)

THE HOCKEY THING MAY OR MAY NOT HAVE BEEN BASED OFF A REAL LIFE THING. *SWEATS NERVOUSLY*

honestly I was soooooo tempted to actually write The Talk bit, it would have been the funniest thing ever, but I was also 99% sure I would have to change the rating to M (despite it not even remotely being smut lol, just a regular biology lesson) and there was no way I was doing that, pretty sure I pushed the T rating at some points as it is

[future aish: god i am still so tempted to write it. man, i’m tempted. it would be the funniest thing. but no... i have sworn not to write anything above a T rating so guess i won’t.]

YEAH THE THROWING UP THING TOO WAS DEFINITELY NOT BASED ON REAL LIFE OR ANYTHING *MORE NERVOUS SWEATING*

(it genuinely wasn’t a flowerpot though. it’s my life’s goal to throw up in a flowerpot and I still haven’t achieved it.)

all of this is an Ace Mood(TM)

also I love how elaborately I’ve worded this, like yeah idiot royal teenagers are too royal and posh to ever bother just saying the word “sex” like a normal person

to any 17 year old aces: you aren’t too young to know, I told myself that aggressively when I was 17 but now I’m 22 and I’m still just as ace as I always was sooooo yeah

I also hope I can wake up tomorrow and forget I read this trash

well tbh... it’s not total trash... it highkey reminds me of my school days, like, maybe that was subconscious or something... god who even knows

jeez if timeline twin slapped me in the face I’d just keel over and die from sheer terror, other than that that’s HILARIOUS

timeline twin: “YOU HAVE ONE (1) BRAIN CELL NOW P L E A S E CONSIDER USING IT”

fuckeninf hell listen,,, so when I was writing this chapter I didn’t know I was aro... I mean, I was kinda questioning it?? but all I knew was I was ace, and that me not knowing that as a teenager almost totally screwed me over because like

to be normal or to feel normal there’s things you do or say that you don’t want, and things you know would happen or whether you want something or not you’ll take it because you think you’re expected to, because otherwise you’ll have to confront yourself with the fact that something is wrong with you and you don’t know what or why or how to fix it

and being aro on top of that is misunderstanding how to navigate close friendships because of this fundamental fear that if you want to be close with someone then friendship can’t suffice, that how much you care about them doesn’t matter

and things I did or almost did, or had the chance to do and only stopped because (awfully enough) crippling anxiety which ironically saved me (let’s just say the dude turned out to be a creep)... yeah basically this is all a callback to that aroace teenager feel where you can’t help not being true to yourself because you don’t want to, because you don’t know what’s wrong or right, only what’s “normal” and the ache of knowing that you’re not, no matter how much you try

and I didn’t know I was aro while writing this but in hindsight it’s easy to see how that played into it too, and writing this definitely played a part in me realizing I’m aro and was somehow trying to work through some very pent-up feelings about friendship and closeness with people, as well as pent-up feelings about being ace and how that tied into everything too

...in short, do not phuck the pharaoh or you will get HOUSE ARRESTED and DIE

(jk jk she’ll just be awkward around you forever lol, and then SHE’LL get house arrested and die, because you’re not commoners so your actions actually have consequences you dumb idiots)

this entire thing is just a whole mood and lowkey my teenage years holy fuck holy fuck I hate that I’m only just realizing how bloody hard I was projecting

I literally read a post the other day about how unrequited love is only ever usually explored from the perspective of the person who’s in love, whereas aros are usually on the receiving end of it and it’s a tragedy in its own right that you might do things that wind up driving you apart because you can’t bring yourself to love them back but you can’t tell them because of the fear that it’ll push them away... and I gotta say, I totally nailed it 💪

...you know what I’ve changed my mind, chapter 34 is good actually, and now I need to make a time machine and go and hug my 17 year old self for living this, and then hug my 20 year old self for writing this, I’m sorry I was mean to this chapter it’s very relatable and I shouldn’t keep beating myself up over it

thinking makes me miserable too!! that’s why it’s optimistic nihilism only lads

impulse control, hmmm... someone who’s good for him, hmmmmmm... it’s almost like someone like that is right there and exists and is already in love with him 😏

so apparently timeline twin’s idea of “fixing her life” is burning all her bridges and then hecking off to the Kazakh wilderness for over a year

did Alix just... ask the snake if it’s aroace too???

I mean it definitely is, but...

UGH SNAKES DON’T BLINK, I’M STILL SO ANGRY ABOUT THIS

chapter 35, thank god, the title “Finally!” is very apt

(because I can finally change the music from Death Valley to something else lol)

oh poor Max, his heart goes on a real rollercoaster these few chapters doesn’t it? it’s okay buddy, in like 10 chapters you’ll get your man...

NO BUT SHE H A S FIGURED IT OUT!!! SORT OF!!!

I just misread “despite” as “despacito”, I’m going to bed and continuing this tomorrow dammit

alright I am now funky refreshed and ready to roll, let’s get this kimax party started

Max is angsting internally like “no one’s realized I like Kim :( well except Juleka but she’s a lesbian so she doesn’t count” ashgdjsghskk that mlm/wlw solidarity is holding out I see

YES ALIX YOU DO NEED TO TALK TO NATH MORE, THAT’S YOUR FREAKING BEST BUD IN THE SHOW MAY I REMIND YOU

this is all so Irony it’s murdering me dead

okay yeah I’m gonna be really honest and salty here for a second, this bit where Max is annoyed that Alix takes Nath more seriously as a contender than him was me being a bit salty over the fact that like... kimnath/tomato ketchup is a great rarepair but got so weirdly popular amongst people who didn’t seem to care about Max as a character at all despite how close he is with Kim in canon, and as a Max Stan it made me sad because he’s already not very appreciated in fandom

[future aish note: HE IS NOW BABEY!]

THERE IT IS

I WANT TO HUG MAX TOO, BLESS HIM

I also want to hug Alix because godddds I’ve been in that situation where if you were allowed to just TELL the idiots that they like each other then all their problems would be solved but noooo, you’re sworn to secrecy... *sigh*

“I’ll make sure that doesn’t change, ever...” me: *thinks about the sequel and cackles evilly while cracking my knuckles* well,,

A R O M A N T I C

listen it was VERY IMPORTANT to me that I actually put in all these actual words in the fic and made them relevant, like gay, lesbian, bisexual, etc (I think the only one I didn’t was trans, oops?? gotta remember that for the sequel, at least Nino IS trans in this even though I never said the word)

[future aish note: i feel like i didn’t say pan either, or nonbinary... more stuff for the sequel folks! i can’t put in everything but i may as well try!]

bc you see all these tv shows where a character is bi but they say they “don’t like labels” or a character with no love interest get suddenly paired up with someone random at the end... like NO I wanted to do the OPPOSITE of that bc people’s identities are IMPORTANT so I wanted to MAKE IT RELEVANT 💪

and even though I didn’t yet know here that I was aro and highkey projecting, there’s already a fair few fics dealing with asexuality but not aromanticism?? so I rly wanted to make the aro side of things important

almost relieved??? Max, you buffoon, she IS relieved, extremely

Malix friendship is good and severely underrated and I still haven’t forgiven myself for not putting more of it in this

“He was never eating chocolate again” HO-HO-HOLY SHIT THAT’S SOME FORESHADOWING RIGHT THERE

Rose is a distinguished bi who doesn’t realize Kim is a disaster bi

Kim oh my god you can’t just out Adrien “just about functional bi” Agreste like that

I love that Rose calls Kim a casanova even though he’s very much not... how many people are even into him over the course of the fic? Max, Adrien, it’s implied Marinette used to be, Lila is ambiguous, same with the lacrosse guy later, oh yeah Ondine highkey lmao along with 90% of the teenage population of Saharan Africa, Kim himself in about 2 chapters time...

Rose giving Kim the gay talk is so blessed omg I need more interaction between these two

“If you swung one way you were gay, if you swung the other way you were straight, more than one way made you bisexual, if you didn’t swing any way at all then you were probably just Alix...” I will literally NEVER be able to outdo this line, this is Peak

hmm I don’t think at any point in the fic Max says to Kim that he’s exclusively into boys... I guess he said it offscreen then lol, point is He’s Gay

OMG KIM, YOU FINALLY REALIZED WHAT THE NOSEBLEED SCENE MEANT, GOD BLESS YOU

this is like in Syren when he realizes the mermaid is Ondine and that she was trying to tell him she likes him... except this is the gay version of that

yeah Rose I really do need to get more sleep, that one was directed at me and I know it was

Kim being all like “fellas is it gay if you take off your shirt and a guy swoons at you 🤔🤔🤔”

no, no... Max is definitely a complete trainwreck at romance, just slightly less than you

god freaking dammit not the sports bra again,,, I s2g later in the fic all Ondine would have had to do is to show up in a sports bra and Kim would immediately go full ot3 mode no questions asked,,,,,,,, (I mean he does see her in a swimsuit but that’s not the same??? sports bras are in a different league okay shush)

psssssst!!! you should read heartbroken!!!! it’s a kimax fic and it’s so good!!!!! this was a lowkey shoutout!!!!!!!!

genuinely tho, even if Kim hadn’t liked Max too here, he’s being so sweet about it?? he’s worried about his poor friend’s emotional state and wishes he could have done better to help!! gahhhh their friendship/relationship is just So Blessèd

hsndhkdhdkshdh I only noticed it after finishing the fic and occasionally skimming back through, but so much of the time whenever Alix shows up Kim’s all like *ungrateful* “oh not you again” like WOW that’s one way to greet your friend?? mood tho

[future aish note: i did the exact opposite in No Romo, funnily enough! kim’s not in it much but whenever he sees alix he’s like “friend!!! friend!!!!!” and she’s just like -_- “oh it’s that guy again”]

he’s not even paying attention to her omg she’s trying to save the timeline here you idiot

POOR ALIX how frustrating,,, and also I’ve literally been there,,, the woes of being a wing-girl indeed

and now Kim wants to fight himself, why am I not surprised

aND YES HERE’S WHERE IT HITS HIM, THE EXACT FUCKING MOMENT

WHERE HE’S SUDDENLY LIKE “OH WAIT MAX’S LOVE FOR ME ISN’T UNREQUITED??? I LIKE HIM TOO HOLY SHIT????”

aaaaaaand he immediately asks the aro for love advice, why is he like this omg

gosh this is sooooo sweeeeeet

I did not let up, did I? just went ahead and made this as cheesy and cutesy and over the top as I could because It’s What Kimax Deserves

(there wasn’t rly much Kimax content yet in the fandom at this point so I had total free reign and went all-out with it)

sfjsgskdhs and there goes Alix getting her wing-efforts sidelined again

“I’m never asking out someone on a whim again. Or, uh, confessing that I like someone on a whim either.” so uh... you know how I said I’m considering making the sequel Kimaxdine? well if I do then uh. hm. this might change. because reasons.

I don’t know why I made nothing Alix ever says make sense but I’m glad I did because she’s so freaking funny

I swear I talk about Max’s eyes being “magnified in his glasses” multiple times in this fic, either that or I’m having serious deja vu

Kim’s so cute dammit!!! now that he knows he likes Max he’s just swooning over every little thing and it’s!!!! adorable!!!!!

(I wonder if this is how it was with Kimdine in the show? it does seem like Kim already liked her but just hadn’t noticed...)

huehuehuehue Kim later on you do indeed recklessly propose to Max on the spot... in like 18 chapters or so

also the fact that Kim thinks things through better when he’s around Max is just the total sweetest and also what Alix was basically trying to aim for

I love Kim showing off that he can pack all his stuff in half an hour like buddy, the porters can literally help you with that, you’re royalty remember

omg I’d forgotten I left a note here later for binge-readers!! being all like “drink water and eat food and go to sleep uwu”

lmao guess I’ll take my own advice then and leave it there for now

[future aish note: same, goodnight]

[lokiarsene]

like yesterday, here's a bullet list of my thoughts for episodes 18~21

thoughts on episode 18:

oh no, it's the beach episode.

-- i really like how they show the way the PT take care of futaba. ren patiently cleaning up her room in between hours at the florist, them playing vidya with her, or just having lunch together in montage moments is very sweet. it makes me wish the anime had much slower pacing, more slice of life-y kind of drama.

-- watching yusuke, ryuji, and futaba lose their freakin minds over good curry is VERY relatable.

-- i still don't understand why ann and makoto thought that a two piece frilly bathing suit was the way to go with futaba. a one piece that she could wear under a long wrap or a hoodie would've made so much more sense... but >male gaze

-- have i told y'all how fucking tired i am of the sexualization of the teenage girls in p5 yet, and how it is one of the several things that fuckin ruined this game for me

have i?

well here it is again

none of the previous games were as bad as this b t w and p4 had one of the dungeons be a STRIP CLUB.

-- yusuke and his lobsters are wonderful.

-- oh god i forgot COMPLETELY about the whole 'mental shutdowns' thing in this game's plot. i think because it's all so pointlessly convoluted. p3 had something similar but even there it was just people turned catatonic for weeks on end when the monthly boss-shadows drew near.

i think the reason i find this so hard to understand is because from p3 to p4 the rules of shadows didn't really change so much. p3 had the persona users go up against shadow bosses; p4 had people confront the shadows within themselves, either accepting them completely (which then turned into persona), or the shadow 'absorbed' the person and ran rampant as a monster. neither of those rules really contradict each other, but in p5 personal shadows for persona users are gone completely, and how you deal with other people's personal shadows doesn't even involve them being present to complete the merge.

mona says that persona users can't have palaces, but persona users in 4 could and DID have 'dungeons' within the shadows' worlds. these dungeons dealt specifically with what was at the core of the shadows' emergence--a deep secret and a hidden truth that caused the shadow to grow, a place that was a replica and a distortion of reality based upon that suppressed truth. so that sure sounds like a fucking palace to me.

so....................... unless there's like, multiple realities folded into our own, and persona users can only access certain ones.................. i'm just super confused.

like, i know it's because the rules change game to game, but p3 to p4 didn't have any contradictions, and p2 didn't contradict anything in p3, either. it just went from a full party of wild card users to a singular one.

-- i'm glad ann's getting a little screentime here. i was just thinking about how other characters' development was lacking after makoto and futaba got so much focus.

-- mona's so sweet to ann ;-; now that he has a human form in p5r, i hope they become really good friends. she needs a kind guy friend that'll be reliable~ plus he makes her laugh.

-- sojiro talking about the anniversary of wakaba's death is......... really interesting........ considering that screenshot of futaba sitting next to a woman with the exact same haircut as her "deceased" mother.

-- ren reassuring mona that he absolutely has to be human, that he will return to who he used to be once they figure out what's happening in the metaverse is jsut jdfklasd

AND HIS LIL ROUND OF APPLAUSE WHEN MONA TALKS ABOUT ALL THE THINGS HE'S GOING TO DO TO KEEP THE WORLD SAFE ;-;

AND THAT SHOT OF HIM SLEEPING CURLED UP ON REN'S STOMACH

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

-- listen i know mona isn't rly a cat but he's the BEST cat

thoughts on episode 19:

oh it's the hawaii episode.

-- man what the hell kinda budget do these school's got that they can just go overseas with dozens of students on a yearly basis? that's impressive.

-- ryuji: "whoa, awesome! ..... i don't really get it, but awesome!" fjdsafds okay that got a laugh outta me. good one, ryuji.

-- ren: "i'm excited, too." (said in a monotone) fjklsadsl BLESS THIS BOY

-- ren's FACE when he learns that futaba installed a spying app on his phone and can hear him/see pictures he takes is...... kind of hilarious. especially if you have the headcanon that he and akechi send dumbass snapchats to each other a lot--which i do. and which you do now, too.

-- mona's depression is ten times more sad because he's a cat okay :c why they gotta make the cat so cute

-- ren, ryuji, and ann's lil sleepover is adorable. especially since ann chastises ryuji for not knowing one of the basic rules of a sleepover: if you start talkin' about your crushes, you gotta start with your own~ thems the rules lads

-- rip principal bloatneck.

-- honestly that truck shoulda at least TRIED to stop.

-- "A LO HA." goddammit that's adorable

AND HE GIVES THE LEI NECKLACE TO MONA FJDSKFJDSKL ren you're so SWEET.

-- I TOTALLY FORGOT THAT MONA CALLS SAE "ONEE-NO-NIIJIMA" FJADSKLFJDSKL ahhhh it's so cute.

-- the PT targeting okumura, who is essentially the dave thomas with political ambitions of the persona 5 world, is far funnier now that i phrase it like that.

-- ANN, OF ALL FUCKING PEOPLE, SAYING THAT THEY PROBABLY BROUGHT THIS RECENT TROUBLE ON THEMSELVES, IS A FUCKING STUPID WRITING DECISION. I CAN'T BELIEVE SOMEONE DIDN'T LOOK AT THAT AND GO, "ANN WOULDN'T SAY THIS. ANN HAS NO REASON TO SAY IT." god. lmao PLEASe let p5r be a goddamn second draft.

-- mona's totally right that ryuji's just concerned with getting popular and his dick wet. like,,, that's why this argument only made me hate ryuji more than i already did. he gets pissy when mona points out the truth.

god he sucks lmao

I'M SORRY I'M SO SALTY YOU GUYS

LOOK I'LL SAY SOMETHING NICE: SAE AND AKECHI ARE COOL

-- i really like how guarded akechi's face looks in his conversation with sae, and how off his guard he looks when she tells him that she's not going to hold back, especially since the culprit is doing such dire, awful things. he's not exactly surprised, but he's definitely uneasy and shaken by what he hears. which makes me wonder who he’s really concerned for--himself, or for ren (and the PT by extension, but akechi only really seems to care about ren, so).

the reason i like that is because the okumura arc in p5 is really where akechi's mind starts its downward spiral. principal kobayakawa's death obviously rattled him, especially since the only reason the principal died was because shido saw him as useless and disposable, something akechi is desperate NEVER TO BE. and it's that + what happens with okumura that really kicks him over the edge.

i hope p5r will give us the chance to pull him back from it. he deserves a better chance than the game's subpar writing gave to him.

thoughts on episode 20:

-- ren wakes up in a panic because he thinks he sees mona on his bed ;___________;

-- goro snoopin' on the PT's LOUD, TOTALLY CONSPICUOUS conversation in front of okumura foods' HQ is kind of adorable if you remember he clearly loves star wars (HE HAS A LIGHT SABER), and the camera cuts to his face right as they're talking about big bang and outer space lingo.

-- oh, haru. i really wish you were the black mask. that would've been so much cooler--and an actual twist. her total hopeless panic about being a beauty thief could still be a thing (because it is actually endearing), it'd just be an act. but that's me talkin' fix-its again.

-- i really like the scene of haru defending mona to the PT on the rooftop, then cutting to show just how strained her relationship is with her father. she exists to be useful to her father's ambitions and nothing else, and that scene really drove home just how painful that is for her.

-- REN TWIRLS HIS HAIR BETWEEN TWO FINGERS WHEN HE'S DEEP IN THOUGHT. AHHHHHHH I FORGOT HE DID THAT

-- oh hey remember how the game went through the trouble of showing how haru's fiance is a sexist, violent, animal-hurting piece of shit and then promptly failed to actually separate her from him in game (i think you only can do that in her s-link?? the s-link you can barely finish in your first run of the game??), and in t hEN SHOWED HER IN THE CAR WITH HIM LATER, LOOKING HORRIBLY UNCOMFORTABLE?

god this story makes me so fucking mad lmfao STOP PUTTING GIRLS IN PHYSICALLY OR SEXUALLY VIOLENT PERIL AND NEVER ACTUALLY ENSURING THAT THEY'RE SAFE, YOU DAVID CAGE LEVEL OF HACK BULLSHIT WRITERS.

-- ryuji running into the attic, all worried about mona, with a first aid kit, is..... very good. very good and endearing. good on you, ryuji.

-- haru gently encouraging mona to tell the truth is also really good. idk if i just missed it in the game or what, but i really like how she's presented in the anime. she's like a counterpart to ren--soft, sincere, observant, patient, yet she's made of pure steel beneath all that.

thoughts on episode 21:

-- WHY WAS HARU'S GRANDFATHER GIVING COFFEE TO A FIVE YEAR OLD

-- haru, the reason your father's heart grew twisted is thanks to capitalism. you gotta change the heart of capitalism.

-- not to be all poochie here but whenever akechi isn't on screen, all i can ask myself is whERE'S AKECHI?

-- HOW CAN I TAKE THE EVIL DAVE THOMAS SERIOUSLY WHEN HE'S DRESSED LIKE FUCKIN MEGAMIND?

-- okay see this is where i'm thrown completely out of the story or even really liking haru. haru just listened to her dad's shadow saying he would PIMP HER OUT TO HER FIANCE WITHOUT A SECOND THOUGHT. and she still is just like ~no i want him to go back to being kind~

bitch are you nuts

are you NUTS

youR DAd SHOULD DIE AND YOU'D BE BETTER OFF

CONSIDERING HOW THE GAME GOES, YOU ARe BETTER OFF

god. i'm getting so mad again lmao

-- ren approaching haru to point out that if the truth of her father's crimes comes to light, she'll forever be associated with him (and with all the harm and ruined reputation that brings) is, once again, further reminder of just how... damn good ren is. he doesn't hesitate to speak from the heart nor does he ever fail to listen to someone else speak from theirs.

-- also not for nothing but uh

how did the cops not like

figure out how the PT phan-site was set up within the first few months and track it down to mishima? was that ever addressed at all?

-- honestly another reason why i get so fucking mad about this okumura stuff is the game goes SO FAR OUT OF ITS WAY to make you feel BAD that he died, when he was by all rights a fucking shitheel monster, yet when akechi dies it's like 'oh well. that sucked.' fuck off, atlus. the death of a greedy, heartless CEO isn't more sad just because his gaslit daughter is conditioned to be sad about it.

i understand that a large part of the shock after okumura's death is because the PT don't know if they did anything wrong. but okumura was in no way a good person. he was in no way a person whose redemption overruled all the hurt and harm he did. that has been the case for EVERY PT target before this, so why the fuck is okumura suddenly so different? why SHOULD he be?

the difference between him and, say, akechi is that okumura et. al. all made those choices on their own to do terrible things. they delighted in it, they enjoyed it. but akechi, much like futaba, was forced into a cycle of self-destruction--it’s just that in futaba’s case, her self-destruction targeted herself, and akechi’s was quite literally weaponized and used against others. he approached shido as a young teenager and was then used by him for years.

a teenage boy being used as a magical hitman by his shitlord father is far more deserving of sympathy and redemption than grown adults who willingly make the decision to harm, abuse, and prey on others. but no, the game didn’t want to do that.

this is another big problem i have with p5's second and third acts: it's so tonally dissonant and sloppy. it's like they didn't try to actually be as rebellious and hellraiser-y as the first act WANTED to be, and it all ends up being such a limp-dick shriveled mess of "let's fight against this rotten society!! ......... as long as it in no way actually upsets anyone or does any REAL change." fuck off lmao

that's not me even commenting on the "twist" and how it needed to be explained MULTIPLE TIMES to the player for it to make any sense.

and it still doesn't make sense to me btw.

so that's another thing i hope p5r fixes.

-- rip evil dave thomas megamind.

-- akechi floating the idea to sae that the phantom thieves had nothing to do with okmura’s death is............................ interesting.

[diamcndclawsa-blog]

𝘽𝘼𝙎𝙄𝘾𝙎 ,

full name.     selina kyle pronunciation.     suh-lee-nah kai-uhl nickname.     sel,  cat,  catwoman,  irena dubrovna,  selina calabrese,  +  various other aliases. height.     5′7″ age.     typically around the latter half of her 20s to mid-30s,   or teens in her gotham verse,   but i’m willing to play her at various ages. zodiac.     i haven’t totally worked out her chart,   but she’s 100% a   scorpio sun.    probably a leo moon  &  sagittarius sun or vice verse,   but i’m definitely not set on those yet. spoken languages.     english,   primarily,   and a decent amount of italian & some spanish.   also a sprinkle of russian,  japanese,  etc.  just from the rich criminals coming through gotham. 

𝙋𝙃𝙔𝙎𝙄𝘾𝘼𝙇 𝘾𝙃𝘼𝙍𝘼𝘾𝙏𝙀𝙍𝙄𝙎𝙏𝙄𝘾𝙎 ,

hair color.     black. eye color.     green,   leaning towards a   jade. skin tone.     fairly light & a faint smattering of freckles on her nose.    leans toward a   light medium   when she sees sunlight,   but that’s an immense rarity considering in the day time she’s typically asleep,   lounging with her cats,   or dealing with other various business indoors.    still,   selina doesn’t need a lot of sun to tan,   and she seldom burns. body type.     incredibly fit from   years   of practice in martial arts,  gymnastics,  freerunning,  &  general melee fighting.    selina doesn’t carry a lot of obvious muscle,   but she’s incredibly toned in her upper arms,  legs,  and core.    that said,   she’s also quite curvy.    rly fills out the catsuit xo accent.     typical american accent.   she tends to speak pretty casually.    it also gets pretty low & sultry when she’s teasing & flirting.   when it comes to jobs where she has to play a   part,   though,   she can easily put on different accents or talk more   ‘ proper ’ dominant hand.     she’s ambidextrous,   but she does favour her right hand a little more posture.     fairly straight,   with her shoulders pulled back.    there’s no room for bad posture with the kinda shit she does,   so it’s just sorta second nature by now.    when she’s relaxed,  however,   she tends to lean against things a lot,   or stands with her hip jutted to the side. scars.     surprisingly,   she doesn’t have any significant scars with stories behind them.    the only ones lingering from childhood are just from particularly rough scrapes   (  the kind that takes off skin  ).    but she typically has various bruises from fights,   and a fuck ton of random ass scratches bc u know....    she’s a crazy cat lady.   :/ tattoos.     none.    she’s thought about it quite a few times,   of course,   but getting something that distinguishable when she tries to keep under the radar isn’t exactly the wisest decision. most noticeable feature.     her ass and her eyes.

𝘾𝙃𝙄𝙇𝘿𝙃𝙊𝙊𝘿 ,

place of birth.     havana,  cuba hometown.     gotham,  new jersey birth weight.     about 6-7 lbs. birth height.     about 18 1/2 in.    on the lower end of average,   but nothing abnormal. manner of birth.     a private hospital her mother’s family had connections at.   her mother had better care than the average pregnant mother giving birth in a normal hospital,   despite how downhill things went down in selina’s earlier years first words.     it’s cliché but uh....    it was 100%   ‘ cat ’.    her birth mother had a cat,   and it would hang around her crib a lot,   so...    y’know. siblings.     magdalena kyle   (  sister from her adoptive family  ),   aiden mason   (  estranged brother  ) parents.     rex calabrese   (  father  ),    anita cortes   (  mother,  deceased  ),   +  i’m not bothering with her adoptive parents’ names rn but their last name was kyle,   obvs parental involvement.     honestly ?    very little.    she spent a short few years living with her mother in cuba,   before rex tried to bring them over to gotham.    her mother was killed by one of his enemies,   and baby selina barely made it out.    she spent roughly ages 2-8 with rex,   after which he decided it was too dangerous to keep her around,   and she was put into the foster system.    the kyles adopted her,   but mr. kyle was a raging alcoholic,   and mrs. kyle eventually left the family completely.   selina didn’t get on with either of them growing up,   and wound up running away from home after a few years anyway.

𝘼𝘿𝙐𝙇𝙏 𝙇𝙄𝙁𝙀 ,

occupation.     cat burglar  &  occasional vigilante current residence.     gotham,  new jersey close friends.     holly robinson,  alice tesla,  lola macyntire,  killer croc,  bruce wayne  (  sometimes  ) relationship status.     single,   though she’s got a long-running fling with batman,   and various flings  &  hook-ups with others.   engaged or married in other verse,   though. financial status.     heavily verse dependent.   in her younger years,   she’s literally on the streets,   stealing to eat.    she spends the earlier years of her life as a cat burglar not   too   much better,   especially when her apartments end up compromised half the time.    later on,   however,   she gets enough money stowed away in various bank accounts that she’s pretty well-off.    not exactly a millionaire,   but she can afford the fancy penthouse. driver’s license.     about five or six fake ones,  though she’s never   officially   taken the test.   she knows what she’s doing,  though. criminal record.     an extravagant list of burglaries,   with a sprinkling of unintentional manslaughter,   and a teensy dash of murder vices.     liquor,  thievery,  sex,  smoking

𝙎𝙀𝙓 & 𝙍𝙊𝙈𝘼𝙉𝘾𝙀 ,

sexual orientation.     bisexual romantic orientation.     biromantic preferred emotional role.     submissive  |  dominant  |  switch  |  unsure preferred sexual role.     submissive  |  dominant  |  switch     (   being anything other than dominant is   incredibly   rare,   however.    she’s really gotta trust someone to let them take control.    bruce is probably the only one i can think of whose gotten that privilege,   and even that is verse dependent.   ) libido.     pretty damn high.    it’s a thrill,  a form of stress relief,  and a way to keep control in   her   court.    she’s not opposed to fucking on a rooftop,   in the middle of a job,   or after she’s just escaped a barrage of bullets.    in fact,   that’s when she enjoys it best. turn on’s.     guys with scruff,   delicious abs,   girls with pretty hair,   nice asses,   successful burglaries,   a good challenge in a fight,  getting anything expensive  turn off’s.     people talking about their feelings,   commitment,  anyone too  ‘ vanilla ’ love language.     nuzzling  /  general cuddling,   possessive touches,   sharing food,   little gifts relationship tendencies.     almost exclusively running flings or one-night stands.   a few nights,   if someone gets lucky.    she’s not really into long lasting relationships.    her line of work doesn’t really allow for getting close to people    —    they get hurt that way.    and beyond that,   she’s just not that fond of opening up.    it takes a lot for someone to get her to open up,   but if she gets there,   it’s a lot more likely a relationship will be more than just a fling.

𝙈𝙄𝙎𝘾𝙀𝙇𝙇𝘼𝙉𝙀𝙊𝙐𝙎 ,

character’s theme song.     oh god i’m the worst at theme songs.    but honestly,   probably something from the ost of   ‘ to catch a thief ’   bc...   ya know.... hobbies to pass the time.     watching old hollywood classics,   napping or playing with her five hundred cats,   going for jogs on the rooftops,   drinking,   shopping physical illness.     none left or right brained.     a little more left-brained,   i’d think fears.     getting close to people and finding them dead,   feeling helpless,   living a monotonous life self confidence level.     pretty damn high when it comes to her capabilities.   when it comes to herself as a person ?    not great,  lol. vulnerabilities.     expensive things   (  especially if they sparkle  ),   street kids,   holly robinson,   lola macyntire,   bruce wayne,   katherine kyle   (  verse dependent  ),   helena wayne   (  verse dependent  )

tagged by.     @lxdrlappen  ♡ tagging.     @sparkadream   (  harley  ),    @guiltspelled,    @shieldthrow,    @godslaer

[tornparts]

okay but it’s this fic wow.. the way y/n ended up there bc her bestie was a fan and would meet jimin of all of them first. who’s great idea was it to play during their rut season that’s torture also hot af but poor babies. the way y/n said jungkook you’re so intense it’s a little intimidating and scary at first so ofc she went with jimin who’s more approachable fun and flirty 🥴🫣 JK rly snatched y/n up and said no mine only for them to find out she got a recessive gene of omega from the great grand dayum. and Baby over here presenting as a alpha go off— i died and then died again only to die once more before coming back to life and being within an inch of dying again i was able to process the heterochromatic eyes both of them being half red amber & brown i melted i pine i crumble deceased gone dead as hell.. fr though i loved all the members being in this and their dynamics always makes this so fun. so much happened that was somehow fitting like tae instigating with his beta self still cute yoongi being the fed up yet most observing wbk hobi is the one to break up confrontations 100% jin is the one who checks on everyone after shit gets real and namjoon always comes back to shit going down 😂 all bc he wasn’t in the room at the time poor best leader. he does his best fr. imagine that many alphas though joon, hoba, jiminie and jeongguk 🥺 sounds like paradise til they are start fightin for dominance but others the warmest cuddle party ever for an omega or human 😆 (homie hopping in the fictional world bc that’s bad irl and we don’t do that) n e ways this is me heading out after leaving my long ass reblog/review. it was such a blast to read and i enjoyed it immensely premium soup i’ll be rereading this if i ever have a certain taste in fic bc this hit all markers. thank you and annyeong 💜(no i’m not gonna reread whatever i wrote i’m sorry for the menace i am sksksk)

Lunar Violence (jjk)

Summary: You’re not a big fan of your best friend’s favorite band, Lunar Violence. Their werewolf gimmick makes you roll your eyes, even if the music isn’t too bad. When she drags you to a concert just as the blood moon rises, though, everything changes.

Warnings: werewolf sex, possessive behavior, choking, knotting, marking, heats and ruts so whatever consent issues you feel are within that realm, unrpotected sex, werewolf dick, abo dynamics

Word Count:7445

Rating: Explicit

You’re not normally a fan of gimmicks, particularly with your music. So when your best friend begs you for a solid week to go with her to this concert, you’re wary when you do a simple Google search.

Lunar Violence might be the dumbest fucking name for a band you’ve ever heard, but they certainly seem like they’re going for a certain vibe. You’d definitely have been into it when you were a teen, the fake fangs, the facial piercings and torn leather pants, the howling they do at the ends of some of their songs.

The music itself isn’t bad, the lead singer is stupid hot and has a smooth low tenor and bedroom eyes. 

You flip through only a few of the member pictures before making a decision based on the fact that they’re good eye candy, at least.

Your friend Jia jumps up and down excitedly when you tell her and shows you the signs she’s made. She’s got a thing for the one they call Happy, a lean bassist who has a bright smile and a sexy glare.

“What are with these names? The seven dwarfs? I think they’re mixing metaphors.”

Jia snorts. “They call the drummer Baby because he’s the youngest. It’s not that dumb and the music is really good, you’ll love it, I promise!”

“This is so dumb. You owe me.”

“If I get close enough to Happy to make eye contact I’m gonna make him mine and then I’ll give you anything you want.” Jia says determinedly.

It’s a few weeks before the concert, so you find yourself listening to a few albums and actually getting pretty excited about it. It should be a fun time, get you away from the stress of your every day life, at the least.

You had no way of knowing that the night of the concert would complicate your life tenfold.

Keep reading

[himbo-prime]

I wanna know about your super precious boyfriend

*PEERS*I don’t know if this is just u being goofy and NOT GOING TO BED BUT I WILL TAKE LITERALLY ANY OPPORTUNITY TO GUSH ABT MY AMAZING BF!! *DROPS A KEEP READING BREAK FOR PPL WHO DONT WANNA SEE MY SAPPY ASS GUSH*

we met over a year ago in discord thanks to the8bitdrummer who is a super positive, cheerful, extremely talented dude who improvs drumming to literally Any Song Ever on twitch

he had a discord server n we hit it off there and like a couple months after we met we were in this voice chat in my own server and it was me, him, and another friend of ours named Corm and cub just casually slipped this bs into voice chat “i mean everyone knows i like you but,” and i just fuckin fell apart and i’ve never been more flustered in my life tbh it’s still a really fond memory for me 

but like we both kinda ,, rushed into it and it was kinda sloppy and the relationship fell apart kinda fast and it was sad,, but in retrospect i’m glad we had that experience because went through SO MUCH ShIT together cause of it. like. every single thing life could possibly throw at us it did. more shitty relationships on my part, a failed polyamorous relationship that left all of us in tatters, emotional shitstorms and Real Life being a total dick, but somehow, we stuck through it. cub went from being a bit of a flopped relationship and awkward friendship to being my closest friend, confidante, and someone i knew would come to defend me even when i was 110% convinced i didn’t deserve it. he supported me through all my 500 different identity crises, spearheaded the efforts in my server to adjust to my new pronouns and ultimately boosted my self-esteem more than it’s ever been before. i am who i am now because of his support. 

until recently i tried to keep things kinda down low abt it cause i was with my ex, and even though that relationship was going downhill so so fast i didn’t wanna cross any lines. but we kinda,, re-confessed to each other shortly before the end of it. i had somehow convinced myself that he’d moved on because he did such a good job about keeping it under wraps and being an amazing friend to me even when i bitched to him about my ex and the troubles we were having. i was honestly startled to learn he still loved me through it all. 

and then we got to meet irl a little less than a month ago. *hoo boy*

that was literally the best day of my life, and i’m so sad i only had one day w/ him

his parents hate me so i was so scared of meeting them, but they wanted to see me in person and assess who I really was I guess and i did my best to b polite but i was so scared y’all i was finna Piss Myself right in front of these two and Cub (who was not yet my bf again yet) and my parents didn’t look any better either

but miraculously they didn’t call down a lightning bolt from God on me and they left and cub and i got to wander around the zoo together. 

y’all

cub was so fuckin cute i can’t e v e n. kept pointing out to me that he was rly nervous/awkward and i was (miraculously) totally calm/cool about it and was like no dude ur good i’m just glad you’re here, i literally don’t expect anything from you (”that’s somehow worse”, i remember him saying) 

then ok there’s this fuckin

train that goes around the zoo and it’s literally just supposed to be for little kids and their mothers but we got on it anyway and That’s Where Stuff Started Happening, right there on that stupid plywood train that went all of 3 miles per hour in a big, 4-minute circle

i don’t remember what he said but it was fuckin adorable and i told him as much and like nudged up against him and was like UR FUCKIN CUTE and he flustered so hard and it was ,, fuckin Light Of My Life man i’ve never been more amazed that so much cute could exist in a single person

and a bit after that (i think) he put his hand on my leg and was like “is this awkward” and i took his hand and held it and was like “hell no it ain’t”

the rest of the day went so much smoother after that breakthrough; he didn’t feel awkward anymore and i kept fuckin STARING AT HIM BC HIS EYES ARE BEAUTIFUL AND I COULDNT BELIEVE HE WAS W/ ME 

he kept sayin some rly sappy shit to me all day and we were both flustered as fuck like a solid 80% of the time i think but i’ve never been happier 

towards the end of the evening we were chillin in my hotel’s lobby, cause my parents went to bed early (we’d been up since 4am) and we wanted a bit of time to ourselves i guess, and 

we were sitting on this couch, next to a fireplace, lookin out like 10 windows while the sun finished setting and he faux-casually goes “y’know i’ve never been kissed” FAM!! FAM I WAS SO NERVOUS I FUCKIN DIE DUDE I WANTED TO KISS HIM LIKE LITERALLY ALL DAY BUT NOW I WAS FINNA DO IT AND MY NERVES!!! MY NERVESSSSS

i’m ,, so glad i managed the courage tho that kiss (and the goodnight kiss a bit later) was like,, the highlight of my Life and i wish i could do it again like a thousand times fuk i’m hella gay y’all 

anyway i just , really love him i know this post is super long and it’s way longer than i meant it to be but i’m so gay. so so gay. he’s my soft boy and i wouldn’t trade him for anything and i can’t wait to be with him again fuck @alchemicalraven I LOVE YOU SO MUCH OKAY ?? SHIT DUDe

*floats into the gay-ass abyss* goodbye i’m deceased

[jungk0oksthighs]

I'm scrEAMING

Anonymous said to jungk0oksthighs: ok i know abstract is about taehyung but the fact you didn't pin yoongi as an asshole rather the sweet peach he is rly makes my heart happy and i hope you know that i love and appreciate you, you precious, precious bee 🐝

Anonymous said to jungk0oksthighs:" do you remember your safe word" I AM DECEASED. TRULY DECEASED

Anonymous said to jungk0oksthighs: *sees notification for Abtsract* ".....oh shit?..... OH FUCK" *reads* "....I need water"

Anonymous said to jungk0oksthighs:RIP me, my brain, my bias, my ult bias, my bias wrecker, RIP these panties and most importantly RIP that holy water I threw away.

thank you all so very much. i’m really glad you liked the first chapter of abstract! i’m looking forward to posting the rest of the series! and disclaimer: i’m loving bff yoongi he’s the cutest. thanks again flowers x 

[transrightsjimin]

work / money rant part 9786543

whenever i share a post or tweet by someone asking for donations bc theyre struggling financially, i wonder if i should do the same, bc my friends dont have money either and my parents were able to support my finances partially before, but that was a loan thingy that my mom would forgive if i ever finally get a job, and the other money they gave me was from one grandma who is now struggling financially and the other bit was from my deceased grandma bc she had some money left behind in an envelope. so maybe asking family is better but i feel so indebted to my parents / guilty but i dont want to make life more difficult for my friends either. :(

id end up w -300 euros on my bank acc by the time right before my next paycheck + money from parents for healthcare + healthcare benefits come in, but that is only like around 400, + 65 + 107 = 572 euros and then id still need to pay rent and groceries and healthcare bills and phone bill after that which is all like..  at the very least 850 euros but thats only counting aforementioned monthly costs and not even some more irregular stuff like medication or healthcare appointments that arent fully covered by insurance and that stuff can also go up into hundreds of euros.

tomorrow and tuesday im going to speak to ppl abt this job im still applying for and the work environment didnt sound ideal, but the other nicer sounding environment didnt have job offers open, and either way id at least itd be paid more fairly than w fucking mail delivery. but even then i wonder how many hours i have to work to be able to support my finances. like yea they said i can build up my hours and get trained in the job by them at my own speed bc disability, like first starting w e.g. 16 hrs / week instead of 22 or 24 (at least they said that w the other institution :S ) but idfk what the pay even is, and if i work 16 hours a week at first and the pay is minimum wage, thats still not nearly enough to pay everything.

i just hate how ive been bordering on burnout for so many years, or maybe i already got it multiple times or maybe never got out of that since 2013, and the only fucking way to get out of it is to get a job and then hopefully some time finally get a fucking vacation. and again i feel rly depressed in vacations bc no schedule and being sad in bed, but at least i would some time finally not have as strong of a sense of guilt when im resting, like properly resting and not *being student and working extra in the only two holidays(? vacations?) my uni offered* *not having real holidays bc of study delays or overlapping studies at two different unis or internship delays* *working at this shit job as mail deliverer and missing out on income when i take a week off bc they only pay my contract hours then, which is 4 so 4x10.50 euros for that week*.

LONG CHUNKS OF TEXT but long story short im mcfucking losing it. also my room is a mess and not sleeping last night rly fucked me up. i only slept 2 hrs this afternoon.