#this shit rly did shape me like i'll never forget how it felt and how it made me want to rip my skin off lol

[fairycosmos]

girl that thing u posted abt the fuckhead calling u ugly on askfm reminded me of this kid on the school bus in middle school that said something about the "girl in the blue shirt with fat arms" (me) and his friend was like "i think thats a guy" and it haunts me to this day but it really just means kids are dumb and mean and they'll say some dumb shit to anyone and it doesn't matter if their insults r true or not they just like to be rude

OMG i cant even describe the visceral feelings that flashed through me reading this bro but i just.................want to set something on fucking fire and watch the world get engulfed immmmm. losing it. i literally had something similar happen to me almost down to a T. im so sorry you had to go through that, seriously. that kid was a fuckin cunt for real?? im about to build a time machine so i can throw hands with a 13 year old from the past?? seems like he was just being obnoxious for the sake of it. but i know shit like that sticks with you and lodges itself into the foundation that you build your core beliefs + your self worth around, whether you want it to or not. i hate it so much cos the people who said it probably never thought about it ever again but for us it was like they killed smth inside that still haunts our heads to this day. and theres just nothing we can do to stop remembering it is there. but yeah, i’ve had to come to terms with the fact that a lot of what i was put through was done by insecure hurt children who were projecting all of that onto me. which doesn’t excuse it, and i still carry so much pain and self hatred because of it, but it’s like you said.......they just had a compulsion to be rude and that was THEIR problem. i swear i could just be sitting there and they’d be mad. it was ugliness to the core but at least we can say whole heartedly we were never like that 😌