#this predicated by the fact i’ve developed TMJ and gum recession from intense teeth and jaw clenching and grinding

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i’m so mad bc i’m realizing that i can’t escape my emotional and psychological issues by thinking them through or literally running away from them. i have to FEEL my feelings? in my BODY???

like i know i’ve been avoiding that kind of work for a long ass time but goddamn. i wanted to keep avoiding it. i wanted to keep being self punishing with intense workouts and not ever slowing down and hoping that’d be enough physicality to deal my emotions but nooooo. i have to actually feel them. wtf