#this only works for the fall and winter
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Love going to work on less than an hour of sleep. I can feel my entire body attempting to tilt over as I wait for the train. I'm gonna write so good today.
#no regrets !!#thats a lie.#some regrets.#im gonna risk falling asleep at work today in taxi its gonna be so bad#winter taxi is always the longest#good news tho: only a solid 3 weeks late Im finally writing chasing shadows ch 6 !!!#minato and kakashi interactions...save me minato and kakashi interactions........#im gonna try to have oro show up hut tbh he miiight get pushed back to ch 7 just depending on how long Minato and Kakashi do their together#birds rambles
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I need 10 jägerbombs
#back at the bar in 9 days i'm getting plastered this time#going for a show but i can't really go all out with my outfit because the band is more punk-ish high energy rock n roll#yk for glam gigs dressing a little slutty in a cool way is easy but here i might js go for ripped jeans and leather jacket and a band shirt#still figuring out whether i'll stay the whole night until 5am or leave kinda soon after the show#it's set to end at 11:15pm but knowing this place it probably won't be until midnight#allegedly there will be an opening band but no news on that yet tho even if there's none they like to go on at 10pm#i don't have anyone to go with this time so staying until the bar closes could be a bit boring :/#and i'm not sure if this band is the kind who stays for the whole afterparty or leaves early because i've seen both#also these guys aren't really my type as in i'd do anything to hook up and stay until the morning lol#one woman of their management team works at the bar so idk if they'd only hang with her and her local friends anyway#either way i need to do something about my fall/winter concert drought asap#mel talks
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#I dont wish for this post to show in any general tags in any way shape or form. consider it a vent#d*scord has been banned as a lot of other different things and I can't fix it especially with my Computer Curse (tm)#which is frustrating to say the least. it's not like I've been there often but I Did contacted a lot of ppl through it#there is always people who has it worse and I feel like even thinking about it makes me a horrible person but#as much as I hate posting about stuff like that I genuinely believe that my country slowly tries to become second n*rth k*rea.#and it heavily affects me even if I live in the countryside.#first you ban gay people from existense so I can't even hold hands with same-sex friends in public and if my social media is leaked I can b#send to. like. an actual pr*son. which is very real and not a joke at all.#then you ban every online payment services so I'm forced to work double time to be able to feed myself since commissions are barely availab#anymore. and THEN you ban ways for people to connect. don't get me started on how much is fucks up my calling scheldue w friends & I miss#servers I used to visit to get my mind off of all of this bullshit#this is just upsetting. not gonna lie#with a cherry on top that the winter is close I'm freezing dead in my living space & the roof is leaking & my phone is dying &#I thought the vicious thunder the other day was another midnight b*mbing LOL. at this point I have no idea how I'm still sane#not gonna say Ive got it bad because I'm slowly reaching my goals and it's gonna get better eventually. it's just one of those days#where all of the things come at once overwhelmingly and I'm paralyzed to start anything on my to-do list#I think I need to go outside and stop overthinking it as I usually do.#I'm absolutely gonna miss LN3 release and will slowly fall out of fandom (but not stop being interested in it. at this point it's impossibl#sigh#tumblr is the only way for me to contact outside world and even tho the real world is not so bad I'm still missing a lot and falling out of#my interest in fandom & art in general. if they're gonna ban tumblr I think I'll fall out completely and vanish#bcause runet algorithms are not fandom- and/or art-friendly & I'm not really popular in my space to gather any meaningful interactions#I'm gonna boil in my already-formed company and that's as much as I can get. pretty much a foreseeable death of me as an artist.#how it's gonna affect me is unpredictable and I'm not gonna grief for inevitable future#but I'm sure I'm gonna be very sad. as if there's not enough weight already on my shoulders.#let's pray they won't do that. but I'm ready for the worst already since they're trying to make people's lifes as much miserable as they ca#overthinking wins for today fellas. it seems.#memento mori by will wood starts playing#vent#its bad to say but the w*r doesnt affect me much since Ive been living in a horrible conditions this whole time. it truly can't be any wors
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i've done so much research on medieval farming and all it's gotten me is more questions
#but that's work for tomorrow#luckily the more i learn about what goes into a medieval farm#the more natural i can make the lulls in my comic be#cause there will be a lot of character interactions that will take place over chores#so i gotta know what would be accurate daily and seasonal chores#ALSO i realized recently that so many of my plotting problems got solved simply cause i got a calendar for the Celts#because there's events i need to take place to teach Dante lessons#but they dont need to actually be in any particular order because it will happen regardless#the only things that follow a necessary timeline is Dante's emotional learning curve#so by getting my hands on The Celtic Book of Days#(i actually now own two copies cause the authors targeted this subject very differently from each other so there was benefit in having both#i can now plug my scenes into a sensible order cause harvests happen in the summer (during Beltane) and in the fall (during Lughnasa)#and vegetables also get planted in Beltane and Lughnasa so anything related to planting sowing and harvesting will be within this timeframe#and then winter starts with Sanheim (both as a fesitval and also the name of the season) which is what set off the final arc#because Sanheim is the start of the year (November 1st btw) which is perfect in my opinion to finally resolve the original conflict
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why is shopping for parkas so fucking awful omg
#i realized after our first snowfall that I have gained a shit ton of weight over the last year#because I couldn't even get my parka closed let alone zipped up#so THAT was a fun body image crisis to have at 7:00 am before work#(as if I haven't been spiralling into a dark fog over body stuff this year to begin with)#and I can't find ANYTHING i like better than the parka I already had which I loved because it wasn't bulky and it was sleek#everything i've tried on makes me feel like the michelin man#and the only ones I can find online that are similar to the one I have are like $1k which no fucking thank you#UGH I HATE WINTER#I've just been wearing my down vest under my fall coat so far maybe i can get away with that#because it's making me feel awful in about a million different ways#why is everything these days puffer style i don't want puffer style give me something classy UGH I HATE WINTER CLOTHES SO MUCH
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oh it's joever for my white ass

i'm gonna be boiled steamed fried cooked sautéed ect ect ect made into a fine melted paste that you'll have to scrape off the pavement
#<- guy who walks to work#luckily i only work saturday BUT STILL#...saturday is also the one day it storms come on man#CAN IT BE FALL OR WINTER ALREADY#and actually act like it too please thank you#🐁.txt
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just wrapped the first christmas present of the year ❤️
#for my friend who hates presents of course 😂#its the stupid teddy bear onesie he has magically instantly putgrown BOTH the previous times i got him one it fit him for like a week 😤#so i got it in the next two sizes up and that's that!!!!#babies grow so fast wtf never buy clothes as a present for a baby that's all i can say#but i can't accept defeat so here we go#his mom will appreciate it even tho she doesn't like getting presents tho lol#and its insane to give christmas presents before thanksgiving but for all i know this baby is gonna outgrow them both by then#i literally bought the size 9-12 months like last month#i ordered it immediately after his mom told me she THOUGHT HE WOULD BE IN THAT SIZE SOON#and it was already too toght on him when it arrived a week later 😭#so now i got size 12-18 and size 18-24 this baby's gonna be cozy this winter or else!!!#i cannot afford this btw#the original onesie was pretty cheap it was o. sale for like $17 but then i bought it twice#and the size maxed out at 9-12 months#so i had to upgrade to a toddler one and it was $22 and i got two of them again plus shipping#and i only make 14 dollars an hour and i'm lucky to work even two days a week at my new job lol#im putting off getting a second job until after i cover a coworkers maternity keave in feb tho bc then i def would be full time#for at least 6 weeks#and its possible she might decide not to come back or another aide would leave by then#so i might have an opportunity to be full time by then ir at least close to that#anyway#no money november fr 😔#just realized my tags are confusing my friend is the mom not the baby 😂#she's the one who gates receiving gifts bc she feels awkward lol#but she's broke af and can't afford clothes for her baby let alone cute ones and she loved the onesie when she fot it at her baby shower#but then the baby came a week and a half late#he was supposed to be a march baby he was born in april#and all of a sudden it was too warm for the onesie and he inly got to wear it once#so i was like ok i will get another one in the fall/winter then#but alas
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Roughly once every four years I ponder the alternate timeline where I didn't get scared and quit college rugby after a single practice
#everyone was cool i was just intimidated coming from softball and karate into a full-contact team sport#after one practice i was like 'this is not for me' and didn't go back#and i do feel this way during most olympics. but especially after watching a bunch of women's rugby yesterday and today lol#maybe this'll be the year i finally get buff. im realizing that i really need to get regular exercise so im looking for stuff to do#I've enjoyed softball a lot this year and last but it's only in the spring/summer (our season just ended)#i wasn't really able to play last fall bc my work schedule gets crazy in sep/oct and i work some weekends#gyms are so fucking expensive and i really prefer having a structured activity to just free workout time#i've tried a couple of apps (just started using a new one that seems promising) but i can never stick to them as well as a team or class#i gotta figure out what sports run in the winter and where the chiller recreational teams are#i do feel like i lucked out with my softball league. it's not so casual that it's a boozefest but not so competitive that it becomes unfun#some of my softball teammates have talked about doing basketball together and like.#im a good sport im willing to try most things despite being fat and slow but i am Extremely not built for basketball lmao#idk idk. i just turned 30 last week and have started having trouble sleeping in the last few months#regular moderate exercise will not solve all my problems but it will probably help#j rambles
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- If I had a nickel for every time I posted a photo of a goose and it ended up getting over a thousand notes, I'd have two nickels. I would say 'who can fathom the whims of the tumblr audience', because photos I love often go totally unappreciated in favour of something random I shared on a whim, but clearly there is a trend here. Also, the first time around I warned new followers the goose was a one-time phenomenon, and clearly I lied. There may well be future geese, just keep your expectations reasonably low.
- The other day I was talking to a Japanese friend about how jarring it is to overhear one's native language when living somewhere it isn't spoken often. Forced to eavesdrop because you can't not understand it! (Unlike the blissful white noise attained by zoning out around a language that requires some focus to understand.) Recently a loud American guy has started turning up with a companion at my local breakfast joint and inflicting this very situation upon me at high volume. I might not mind so much if I couldn't still hear him when they sit at the very back of the shop and I at the very front. To be fair, a) they come at the same time daily so it's within my power to simply go earlier and b) I'm sure I've tormented enough people with my own public English conversations (although I don't think anyone will ever accuse me of being loud, after a lifetime of complaints that I'm nigh inaudible). In a moment of pettiness, however, I decided to bring my loud Canadian friend today and sit in the back at their usual table. "I can see why you call him your nemesis" he commented, after witnessing [hearing] the state of things. I felt somewhat validated.
- Further brekkie shop gossip (what a fulfilling social life I have, you see): my slutty bisexual summer completely failed to manifest, but we can still have awkward bisexual autumn. Last week the cute guy who also eats there regularly and I ended up putting our trays away at the same time. He looked at me (probably on the simple basis that I was standing next to him). I glanced back and then quickly away. Outside the shop, he was organising his scooter when something possessed me to make direct eye contact. He gave me the nod, and something possessed me further to smile radiantly in response (albeit under the mask). He smiled back. I ran away.
- Because I agreed to model for a friend at a rope class this weekend, I have been faithfully abstaining from anything that could overly aggravate my ribs in their healing (although this also means I haven't been socialising much, hence the most interesting thing recently being the breakfast shop dynamics) and just going biking instead (safe enough so far). The blissful but brief window of perfect fall weather I waited for all summer has already started edging into "I could go outside and gambol about without getting too sweaty, buuut actually now I'm cold and would like to stay under the blanket." (Complain as I might, I actually do appreciate the return of boot & coat season. Or at least for myself, raised somewhere around the 43rd parallel north, since it's apparently always boot & coat season for locals.)
- I suppose the counselling I started has been having some effect, because I've begun to get some of my shit together (some, not all, but better than nothing). However, I think I will still have to do my December visa run (that ironic ticket to Macau). Because I haven't bought a return yet, I started to ruminate on the possibility of getting another Chinese visa (my previous one was invalidated when I updated the personal details on my new passport)- I could in theory take the ferry to Hong Kong and do it at the same agency where I got my first one, except that things have changed post-Covid and one must enquire personally about their rates and conditions. I may have enquired and am awaiting a response...
#my friend thinks this is far too much fuss and i should just go to manila#he also didn't have a great time on his first and so far only china trip this fall#ngl i still want to take the train to mongolia one day (but not in winter! hence why i'd only apply if i can get multiple year & entry)#i think i considered applying to work at a visa agency or document authorisation agency once but the salary was not thrilling#if you are reading this and recognise yourself as the Loud American Man tbh we could possibly be friends but also shhhhh
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ah, good old duvet cover as a makeshift blanket trick
#i am COVERED which feels infinitely more safe than before#this only works during the warmer seasons. tried it during winter once#couldn't fall asleep for hours because i was freezing my everything off. most horrible night of my life tbh#anyway. makeshift blanket and wolf plushie by my side <3
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hozier didnt lie when he said "to all things housed in her silence, nature offers a violence" violence of course being -20 degree celsius in early winter
#it is very violent indeed#feels like my hands and nose are just gonna freeze and fall off every time i step outside#needless to say a 10 min walk to the bus stop after work is absolute torture#idk how ppl like winter#its only been 15 days and ive had enough#blood upon the snow#hozier
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roommate has covid (again) (I hopefully dodged it bc I've been out on a work trip all week but still). I apparently got assigned awhile ago to lead next week's work trip but today is the first I heard about it so I'm scrambling to prepare everything on time. a covid conscious person I connected w/ online is coming to visit tomorrow and I'm stressed bc I have to get a bunch of work done before then and also I hope the vibe is cool in-person and that we can be friends! also none of my coworkers have said they can cover my shift tomorrow even though I put the request in the group chat weeks ago and I cover their shifts whenever I can. i am on day 32 of a 41 day stretch of working every single day with only two days off including 9/5 and tomorrow (IF one of my coworkers steps up...) . and then my next day off, in October, isn't even really a day off because I have to drive 4 hours round trip to the nearest city to get an MRI to see whether or not my recently diagnosed genetic disorder has given me internal cysts or tumors. I am hanging on by a thread haha
#god I fucked myself over so bad by having multiple part time jobs instead of one full-time + maybe a flexible side gig like I did last year#don't do it folks#anyways I finally get 4 days off in a row in October and I am going to sleep soooo much#the only thing keeping me afloat today is that I met w/ my former boss abt working for him doing rare books stuff this winter#and it's pretty much the perfect side gig#so i'm going to quit my other one the first week of october i think. finally#personal#im also sad and mad bc my roommates ruined the last batch of fireweed i harvested and bc i've worked so much this month i haven't been able#to go harvest more#i'm hoping that the covid conscious person & I can do that tomorrow! they'd like that i think#but ugh i wanted to forage so much this fall (prickly pear and rose hips and whatnot)#and i haven't had the chance bc i fucking work all the goddamn time and now most things are done#i also haven't checked on my community garden plot in weeks and i know im missing so many ripe tomatoes and peppers and stuff#god it just enrages me how much i have to work just to scrape by. how work demands all of me and leaves no time or energy for anything else#antiwork
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I bought new jeans today and I got a whole bag of free yarn, plus I got a new vintage-y (but new) cardigan last week, so finally, FINALLY, my wardrobe is properly growing and I'm so happy about that
#I went from only having 3 pairs of (long) trousers and no skirts in spring#to having 5 pairs of trousers and a skirt#and also a couple of new shirts and stuff#I have actual choices now#and don't HAVE to do laundry every week just because I ran out of clothes again anymore#I'm still working on expanding#a lot of the stuff I made is for summer#I'm starting to work on autumn/winter#including the slipover I'm knitting#I'm also looking for a new biker jacket#because my old one is falling apart (it was a cheap fake leather one so I'm surprised it's lasted me 7 years to begin with)#(but all the ones I find now are pleather and cost like 90 euro#and tbh if I need to spend that amount of money anyway I'm gonna get real leather)#(anyway there's no point to this post other than that my wardrobe is in perpetual crisis#but it's in slightly less crisis than a couple of months ago#and now it's with a bunch of handmade clothes! stuff I made! which is also very exciting)
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I think I may never be sad ever again. There is a statue entitled "Farewell to Orpheus" on my college campus. It's been there since 1968, created by a Prof. Frederic Littman that use to work at the university. It sits in the middle of a fountain, and the fountain is often full of litter. I have taken it upon myself to clean the litter out when I see it (the skimmers only come by once a week at max). But because of my style of dress, this means that bystanders see a twenty-something on their hands and knees at the edge of the fountain, sleeves rolled up, trying not to splash dirty water on their slacks while their briefcase and suit coat sit nearby. This is fine, usually. But today was Saturday Market, which means the twenty or so people in the area suddenly became hundreds. So, obviously, somebody stopped to ask what I was doing. "This," I gestured at the statue, "is Eurydice. She was the wife of Orpheus, the greatest storyteller in Greece. And this litter is disrespectful." Then, on a whim, I squinted up at them. "Do you know the story of Orpheus and Eurydice?" "No," they replied, shifting slightly to sit.
"Would you like to?"
"Sure!"
So I told them. I told them the story as I know it- and I've had a bit of practice. Orpheus, child of a wishing star, favorite of the messenger god, who had a hard-working, wonderful wife, Eurydice; his harp that could lull beasts to passivity, coax song from nymphs, and move mountains before him; and the men who, while he dreamed and composed, came to steal Eurydice away. I told of how she ran, and the water splashed up on my clothes. But I didn't care. I told of how the adder in the field bit her heel, and she died. I told of the Underworld- how Orpheus charmed the riverman, pacified Cerberus with a lullaby, and melted the hearts of the wise judges. I laughed as I remarked how lucky he was that it was winter- for Persephone was moved by his song where Hades was not. She convinced Hades to let Orpheus prove he was worthy of taking Eurydice. I tugged my coat back on, and said how Orpheus had to play and sing all the way out of the Underworld, without ever looking back to see if his beloved wife followed. And I told how, when he stopped for breath, he thought he heard her stumble and fall, and turned to help her up- but it was too late. I told the story four times after that, to four different groups, each larger than the last. And I must have cast a glance at the statue, something that said "I'm sorry, I miss you--" because when I finished my second to last retelling, a young boy piped up, perhaps seven or eight, and asked me a question that has made my day, and potentially my life: "Are you Orpheus?" I told the tale of the grieving bard so well, so convincingly, that in the eyes of a child I was telling not a story, but a memory. And while I laughed in the moment, with everyone else, I wept with gratitude and joy when I came home. This is more than I deserve, and I think I may never be sad again.
Here is the aforementioned statue, by the way.
#witchcraft#witchblr#spirituality#grimoire#pagan#wizardry#orpheus#orpheus and eurydice#eurydice#storytelling#true story#wholesome#children#helpol
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I had a really bad experience with Wellbutrin a few years ago. A few days after I started taking it, I had a seizure. Thankfully it doesn't seem to have had long term effects, except now I'm on epilepsy medication (and probably should have been before, due to childhood incidents we thought were fainting, but were likely seizures) . My doctor at the time said the Wellbutrin did not cause it but it was the only change I had made to my lifestyle right before the episode happened...Anyway I'm glad you're off that stuff, heat or not!
I'm really sorry about that, anon.
Wellbutrin, or rather bupropion in general, can be a real bitch.
Hope you're feeling way better and that your new meds are working fine! :)
#teach says#anon#frankly i should still be on medication because the adhd adjacent symptoms of my autism are severe enough to be a pain in the ass#but not severe enough for them to have their own diagnosis#to put it simply#HOWEVER#i really like not passing out 3 times a month or more in summer#my blood pressure is next to nonexistent on its own and am prone to fainting even without drugs so yeah#i could technically go all fall and winter ON meds and go OFF meds in spring and summer but like#which is actually what i tried to do#except i never remembered to get back on meds again 💀💀💀#id forget to take them daily honestly#i wouldnt be surprised if it turned out that i took like 3 pills a day within 45 minutes multiple times or that i did not take any for a#week straight only to start again as if it never happened#i had sort of found a solution which was taking the meds at work#until the day i cleaned my bag and forgot to put the pills back in 💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀#what a disaster
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My phone tells me it's 6. But my brain tells me it's midnight. I love this part of the year.
#fuck you fall#fuck you winter#give me sweltering southern heat and sunshine until 9:30pm or give me death#how am i supposed to walk my cancer dog in these conditions????#the sun is down by the time i get home from work. it's obscene.#someone turn the sun back on plz#I'm tired of the cold already and it's only been a week
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