#this month is 'intensly irrational anxiety' as if my baseline anxiety wasn't shitty enough | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

kennexara · 1 year ago

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getting real fucking sick of the fact every month my brain spins a wheel with 3 sections labelled irrationally angry, irrationally sad, and irrationally anxiety and then spins another wheel with one section labelled ‘eat sugar until you’re sick’ and makes me live by the two results for an entire week and then afterwards looks back and is like ‘damn bitch you live like this?’ as if it isn’t fucking responsible.

#i don't use the label #ignore me #any longer bc i don't want to imply my thoughts are worthless #but i think bringing it back for this kind of post is valid #don't get me started on the whole #'well you already take birth control and antidepressants so there goes that solution'#'and since your cycle isn't consistent enough to take an extra dose of antidepressants just the first week or whatever of every month..'#'there's nothing we can do'#i also hate the whole 'well you only ate raw cookie dough until you threw up once'#when the takeaway should be #'every month i am exerting an extreme amount of effort to keep myself from eating raw cookie dough until i throw up'#sending five emails took five fucking hours today i swear to fuck #this month is 'intensly irrational anxiety' as if my baseline anxiety wasn't shitty enough #i'm especially mad because i exercised last night aka something that usually helps my anxiety a little #so for it to be so bad today is such fucking bullshit #mother i crave violence

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