#this kinda sucks but idc im just using this blog as an archive for my writing

[god-wept]

thou art creature of transcience.

warnings ; mentions of blood, religious imagery, metaphorical descriptions of gore, the act of harming one's self in pursuit of divinity. or rather, the hope of it. I took the words literary nonsense and went with it. meaning can be up to anyone's interpretation.

poeticism can be ugly and beautiful, good and bad, right and wrong, righteous and evil.

as I sit on my chair—scribing hymns and whatnot, jotting down literary nonsense—a thought suddenly occurred.

I must be lonely.

it was a wordless musing from out of the blue—subtle, sudden. it was a thought pushed into the back of my skull, its existence there yet not quite. a ghost of some meaningful sentence that once roamed the tip of my tongue.

though, even as the sudden amalgam of excerpts and writing—the flick of my wrist as starry ink stained parchment—led me to come to a dreary conclusion ; somehow, it imprints itself into my head, like anxiety embers from sparksun and indeed, it is a shard of my person.

ire bursts at my skin, soared across the plane of my existence, licks it up as would a gentle yet prickly caress from the scorch of desert heat. I was subjected to pen and paper, flesh and mortality : chagrin.

and then suddenly, my fantasy ripples and cracks and becomes a broken-off piece from the mirrors of reality. mindlessly, I held my breath and braced myself from nonexistent impact. tears trekking its pathway of sorrow and solitude.

my ribcage is open and in my hand is my beating heart, it bleeds sanguine as red as the seeds of pomegranate. it was a desperate attempt after scars etched themselves onto my skin—a constant reminder of my humanity.

I will never bleed gold, ichor ; I am not divine—rather, the epitome of vice.

undoubtedly so, I am human, was a human, and will be a human ; in this perpetual cycle of blasphemy from playing a higher being and throughout this arduous journey of chasing my false stoicism.

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