#this isnt to say they shouldn’t ever have a creepy gay character like no because then that goes into the stereotype that gay people cant

[autistichanseo]

^^^^ wanted to reblog but also include @braceletofteeth ‘s tags bcos yes exactly I never thought ab Moon-jo’s homosexual undertones this way but we need more non-creepy gay characters mixed in with a few Moon-jo’s here and there (just like we had Jong-woo who wasn’t a creep but then we had Nam-bok and Byeong-min which…. Yeah…) and honestly I really can’t think of any non creepy/horrible canon gay or implied gay characters in kdrama so :/ considering the demonisation of lgbt in korea (though I heard that it’s getting better nowadays) I’m not entirely surprised however

There is something to be said about how when Korea want to make a psychopath (or a character look like one) they make them flirt with men since homossexuals are so scary. Not that I am complaining since I eat it up.

[thetribalmoth]

REVIEW: We Are The Ants by Shaun David Hutchinson

*warning: suicide, rape, drug abuse, parental abuse, depression, assault, severe relentless bullying, violent psychotic breaks, miscarriages* If you can easily relate to the main character or any of the characters really, please seek professional help. 

 1/5, if it was possible to rate this thing a zero or in the negatives on goodreads I would. 

This entire story is sad, drespessing and horribly screwed up. And not in a good way. I'm all for telling a real, hard and unpleasant story but this isn't something anyone should subject themselves to. Reading it makes me concerned for the mental state of the author. If you are suicidal or depressed in any way DO NOT read this. This might as well have been a How To on how to push someone towards suicide. Sure a good chunk of the book is all about trying to convince Space boy why he should save the world and thus not die. But it comes off cheap and is immediately followed by a reason to die and how everything is completely pointless and how he should just be dead. Further I'm convinced the author is severely pessimistic and either has repressed sexual aggression or thinks all teenagers have severe repressed sexual aggression. 

I do not want any preteen or young kid reading this and thinking this is how teenagers are, it will mess them up. I do not want teenagers reading this book and thinking this is the way other teenagers are or what the adult word is like. It will mess them up. An adult can read this and recognise that it's inaccurate crap but even then it's not a healthy read. I recommend this book to no one. Further no one should read it. I have hated books before but this is a different kind of hate. This book shouldn't exist, it shouldn't have been written. 

Now I'm going to be calling the main character by his nickname/insult Space boy. Largely cause I hate the book. Also because Space boy is all the main character thinks his is or will ever be, he's right. Also I'm going to be swearing and the like a bit, it fits the book. 

For the writing style, it's egotistical yet completely self depricating. The intro is like a small child writing their first book. The chapter titles are just dates, which fits the whole "this is a journal" narrative but it feels lazy and childish. Right off the bat you're hit with the vulgarity of a small child who just learned what swears are. Frequent swearing, references to crotches, describing pensis as arms, pissing yourself, masterbation, porn, etc. Teenagers are often vulgar but not like this. It's supposed to sound like it's been written by a teenage boy, but it feels more like a weirdly sexual small child. Completely unrelatable. At many points it tries to be poetic, but it tries TOO hard to be poetic. The little "chapter" things were it's just a blurb about science stuff is pointless and slightly pretentious. The book near the end explains why it's in what's basically a boys journal. But the explanation is just totally annoying and weak. The ending is a non-ending and that's mildly infuriating. There are many parts that are freakishly sexual: Every. Single. Interaction between Space boy and another male that he isn't related to is filled with sexual stuff. Everything is sexualised. Being dead? Sexualised. Getting electrocuted? Sexualised. Paint? Sexualised. Mirrors? Sexualised. Even a damn trash can lid is sexualised. Dear author: see a sex therapist. 

Some more quotable sexual shit: "Wearing a grocery bag as underwear, covered in hickeys I couldn't explain" that's someone's fetish probably. "Ejaculated a chorus of baby angels from every pore of my body" look another fetish. But why babies? That's just fucking creepy. "You used to love when I jumped you in the showers" with the circumstances this is both extremely sexual and complete horrifying. 

Now for characters: The characters are all really messed up, half of them are walking embodiments of stereotypes, one dimensional and unrealistic. It would make more sense if all the characters, save for one character (not the main character), were the aliens. Since they don't behave or think like real human beings. Diego is the only half decent or half enjoyable character. When he behaves like a regular teenager would, the main character thinks the behaviour is psychotic. Funny enough I figured Diego was an alien desguised as a human the minute he was introduced in the book. Partly cause he seems like a real human person (and no one else does) and partly cause he thinks the world's worth saving. I would have far preferred the book to have been about Diego, he's a character that would have been genuinely interesting to read from the point of view of and he's the only one who isn't one dimensional. Audrey has the occasional cute moment but she's a completely broken mess of a person. It would be fitting for an adult but not for a minor, specially when that brokenness is her entire character. Further she seems to only exist as a crutch for Space boys emotional blame of Jesse's death. Space boys mom has only one real moment of humanness and it's all about a damn mirror. Also, Apparently the main character doesn't have fingers? Or the wording is god awful. This is mentioned only once and never affects anything. 

Some completely unrealistic or wtf moments that aren't spoilers: Sorry but A gay boy isnt able to hook up with 3 different boys in the span of a few months in the middle of Highschool while also being consdiered the biggest freak and loser in the school. "Teenage boys who are dead probably can't masturabte" wtf " it made me sad to think about Jesse stuck in the after life, lonely, frustrated, and unable to get off" WTF. "He believed in Jesus" "but he believed in Meth more" wtf. I like this line but still. You don't tell your basically boyfriend you big secret but you imdeiatily tell his family the minute they ask? That is beyond stupid. 

Some other things: There's no build up to the whole suicide thing. Just oh yeah and Jesse hung himself so his advice is shitty. But from then on the main character is practically obsessed with Jesse killing himself. "Books are for ugly people" really? Really? Fuck you to then. I never want to see the word "tut-tutted" again. I also never want some to say "eat the bacon" in reference to lover ever again.

Finally the cover: the cover hints to some things that happen in the book however due to the whole "we are the ants" premise, it renders the cover lazy. The number one thing any one relates to the idea of alien ubduction and be "like ants" is the sky. But the cover isn't horrible. 

Over all: do not read this book, it's horrible and not a good time. If I hadn't gotten to read this book for free via Riveted, I would be furious at my self for spending money on it and I would be destroying the book. If you take this book to heart and really get into it you will come out miserable, pissed off and a little bit more screwed up.