#this isnt even loona related really

[loona4eva]

WE NEED AN IDOL WITH LEG HAIR

[wickymicky]

♡︎𝑼𝒍𝒕 𝑮𝒓𝒐𝒖𝒑 𝑻𝒂𝒈♡︎

Tagged by @ins0mnia

im gonna do this for dreamcatcher and weki meki! i could also do loona and fromis but i’ll just keep it at my top 2

1. Who was your first bias?

Dami

Yoojung

2. Who is my bias now?

Yoohyeon (and Jiu, and still Dami a little bit too haha)

Yoojung

3. What was the first mv I watched from them?

Piri

Crush

4. What’s your favorite mv?

Scream, Boca, or Odd Eye... it’s hard to choose lol

hmmmmmmm... Picky Picky? its the kpop music video ive seen the highest number of times, so... lmao

5. If you could only listen to one of their songs for the rest of your life, what would it be?

Squeam

Piggy Piggy

6. Who would you want to see them collab with?

hmmm... Ateez maybe? WJSN?

Fromis 9! i think their energies are similar lol

7. What (mv) concept do you want to see them do?

oh thats difficult... something totally unexpected, something ridiculous lol. a concept so wild that nobody could even think of it, not even me. like pentagon’s naughty boy concept lmao. or gugudan chococo. this goes for both groups lol i just wanna see more weird and unique concepts

8. Have you ever had a dream with any of the members in it?

actually no lol, despite their concept

yes but it was a weeeeiiird nightmare... yoojung was like... cutting her leg off or something... it was bizarre lmao. i mean the only reason she was in my dream is cause i watched a video with her before falling asleep, my brain just decided to use that face. thanks brain. really appreciate that. 

9. If you could spend a day with one member, who would it be and what would you do?

oh jeez uhhh hmmmm.... a whole day? that’s too much man idk if i could do that lmao... im not interesting enough.... i guess i’d talk to yoohyeon about languages or something lol, or dami and we’d talk about one piece

god im tempted to say yoojung but idk if i wanna meet my heroes lol... uhhhh what do i have in common with the other members... uhhhhhhhhh.... idk, i give up lol, this isnt really something i would wanna do anyway

10. Which member do you think you would get along with the best?

i relate to yoohyeon the most but im not sure if that would mean we’d get along or not haha. maybe handong since we’re the same age and i think she’d be funny and chill

again i’m tempted to say yoojung since i relate to her the most but that makes me think it might actually be doyeon lmao, since if i’m similar to yoojung then.... nah actually i’ll say suyeon, i feel like i would get along with suyeon’s personality. but again, the thought of actually meeting them and spending time or whatever is not super appealing to me because i am ashamed of my Self

11. Which member do you think you would argue with?

HAHA oh man huh.... hmmm.... that’s not something i’ve thought about before.... sua maybe? she would yell so i’d be tempted to yell back lol. jokingly, of course

rina but i have no idea why haha. that just seems true. maybe it’s because of a part in weki meki mohae where they’re cleaning up after making a lot of food and she’s one of the only ones NOT goofing off, and she scolds the other members, including suyeon the leader and oldest member lmao. and in this scenario, i am suyeon

12. If you had to let one member scroll through your tumblr, who would it be?

Yoohyeon would understand

Lua would understand

hmmm i was gonna tag people but i realized that i barely talk to anyone on here anymore.... i used to have a neat little community of mutuals back in 2019 lmao but idk, life happens. i also just havent been online enough in the last couple days to know who else has done this, if anyone. also its kinda long. anyway thank you for tagging me haha, this was kinda fun!

[wjsns]

i did a quick little astro-analysis of loona below :*

haseul has her sun in leo and her moon in aquarius (sister signs!!!) she has a libra venus and a scorpio mars as well. i loooove sister sign placements! she has a broadened perspective from this and the ability to put her sun sign in the back seat. leos are great performers and love the spotlight. aquarians love the arts and finding beauty in anything, haseul was born to be a performer! her libra venus means its very important for her to have harmonious relationships in her every day life. this combined with a scorpio mars means she may internalize a lot of her feelings and her leo sun makes sure she is always projecting the perfect appearance. she is a leader who cares for those around her and often times puts the needs of others before her own. 

vivi is a sagittarius sun, scorpio moon and venus, and a virgo mars... while all sagittarius’s are free spirited and flighty, her scorpio moon (ruling inner emotions) is going to give her a sense of depth that sag’s usually run away from. that paired with her scorpio venus mean she feels things a lot deeper and longer than a typical fire sign (whos emotions are normally explosive but short lived). her virgo mars DEFINITELY pulls in those scorpio placements and her sagittarius sun. both are known for being dramatic and they can get overwhelmed easily. virgo pulls all that together in a tight little box and really gives her chart a nice sense of control. mars rules actions and reactions, so its a nice filter on her true inner self. vivi definitely has a lot brewing under the surface.

heejin is a libra with her moon in cancer, her venus in scorpio and her mars in virgo. she shares 2 placements with vivi! my favorite part about heejin’s chart is her cancer moon. the moon is at home in cancer, this means heejin is extremely attuned to other peoples needs and emotions. paired with her libra sun, you have the perfect giver. she is effected by others emotional well being. if someone around her is upset, she is too. with her mars in virgo and libra sun working together she is highly analytical and an excellent problem solver. libra and virgo, earth and air. the two more unemotional elements paired with her 2 water placements give her a great emotional/logical balance. heejin has one of the best charts ive ever read!

hyunjin is a scorpio and has a cancer moon as well. she also has a capricorn venus and a libra mars. her elemental balance is really nice. cancer and libra paired means  she really looks out for others, and, like heejin, her emotional well being revolves a lot around the emotional wellbeing of those closest to her. capricorn venus is a very stable placement. capricorns are achievers and realists. she strives to be the best she can be and wants to bring others up with her. it is hard for her to express how she really feels about something, capricorn makes her competitive, cancer makes her sensitive and emotional, libra makes her rational and scorpio makes her work hard to mask all of that. she is very careful and deliberate. 

yeojin our second scorpio, her moon is in aquarius like haseul, her mars in libra like hyunjin, and her venus in scorpio like vivi and heejin. i think its also worth it to note her mercury is also in scorpio (i dont put too much emphasis in mercury bc i feel like mars and moon overrides it in general analysis). we have a triple scorpio! all this mystery paired with an aquarius moon is really interesting, essentially a bleeding heart for herself with a bleeding heart for humanity. she gives off a really cool vibe. scorpio and libra :) scorpio, partially ruled by mars is paired off nicely with libra, ruled by venus. these placements have a lot of power and its easy to see in everything she does. the libra mars helps her control and direct her scorpio energy into a very relatable and “extroverted” manner.

kim lip, aquarius sun, sagittarius moon, pisces venus and scorpio mars. whew a lottt of scorpio in loona!!! aquarians are known for their individuality. sagittarius also like to be the “odd one out” and can be flighty. with these two paired in a chart, you have someone who prides themselves in being different. they dont try to fit in or be anyone else, in fact, others try and emulate them. gives off a very cool girl vibe. the two water placements, pisces venus and scorpio mars are a great harmony. pisces is a dreamer, she has plenty of aquarius and pisces dreams but not a lot of “doing” placements. pisces sees the world through rose tinted glasses, and combined with sagittarius, even her overthinking aquarius & scorpio placements cant get her down for too long! she is a thinker for sure. a really nice elemental blend. fire is rare in loona, and you certainly can see kim lips spark! 

jinsoul our first of a long line of geminis! her virgo moon and mars stand out, and her cancer venus gives a great splash of water to her chart. she also has a gemini mercury (gemini is at home in mercury, this girl is great at communication). geminis are notorious for their “two faces” but in reality, they really are very versatile. they need to connect with others to thrive. jinsoul has a couple of virgo placements too, which keep her very composed at all times. geminis have a tendency to get a little too weird and unconscious of themselves, but her virgo placements take care of that. she is eternally focused and has a pretty linear drive. geminis strive to connect intellectually, and her cancer venus strives to connect emotionally. overall, i see a chart that really relies heavily on human connection and needs to have people to confide in. she is driven to work and play hard. 

choerry our next gemini, im excited to do her chart because this is loona’s first aries placement!!!! scorpio moon, aries venus, and sagittarius mars complete choerry’s chart. this is a lot of fire compared to the rest of loona! gemini and aries together in a chart mean one thing, impulsiveness. and because choerry doesnt have any earth, she really doesnt have a whole lot of control over her actions. this doesnt mean she isnt disciplined or anything, but she is very expressive. her scorpio moon also seeks out intensity in everything, i bet choerry loves roller coasters :) sagittarius is no help to this wild girls cause, overall i see a girl whos chart indicates she is sporadic and exuberant. she acts on impulse and charms others with her gemini relatability and her aries childlike innocence. by far my favorite chart so far. 

yves, our 3rd gemini, who also has a gemini venus! along with her sagittarius moon and virgo mars :) we have another sister sign sun and moon pairing!!! gemini and sagittarius feed off of each other, the eternal student and teacher. for yves, there is always more to learn and perfect. the thirst to do more is never quenched! virgo mars is the key placement (as all earth mars’s are) to keeping all that sporadic gemini tied up neatly. it controls her impulses and actions and makes her acutely aware of her decision making process. our awkward girl simply has a virgo mars behind the wheel! 

hope you guys liked this im such an astrology nerd it was hard to cut these off and not make them too long!!!

EDIT: im adding the final three girls!

chuu, another libra girl <3 she has an aquarius moon as well which is quite different than heejins cancer moon. she also has a virgo venus and a capricorn mars. aquarian moons are learners and thinkers. this combined with a libra sun means that chuu has a very optimistic outlook on life. libra is all about keeping the balance and aquarius is the “humanitarian sign”. I would say chuu has a very strong moral compass, and is an independent thinker. because of her earth placements, i would say chuu is a very developed libra. she lets her “cute” out even though her capricorn mars makes her a more serious planner and goal setter. her virgo venus means that structure and order are important in relationships, they don’t like flashy or loud, they prefer laid back people they can get along easily with. 

go won another scorpio, this time with a virgo moon, capricorn venus, and libra mars. Overall, she has a very similar chart to chuu! all 3 of our scorpios so far have their mars in libra as well. this is really cute because although scorpios are known for being mysterious and a bit closed off, libra mars’s strive for balance. they aren’t as extreme as other scorpios might be (with traits such as introversion and closed off-ness), but they still have the passion and the mischievousness we can see in both scorpio and libra! with a virgo moon, go won views her emotions as a list to check off or as messy things to be dealt with quickly. she’s pretty much the opposite of hyunjin’s cancer moon. I would say go won brushes off the emotional intensity scorpios are used to feeling. her capricorn venus is also interesting because in her relationships with people, she strives to look competent and responsible. this paired with her libra mars means go won keeps her social interactions under strict control. 

olivia hye honestly im scared... loona has sooo much scorpio energy. miss olivia hye has a scorpio sun and venus, a libra moon, and an aquarius mars. she is an intense person who has intense relationships. her inner emotions are settled when she perceives everyone else to be happy, because her libra moon cannot be at rest until the scales are balanced. communication is not a strong point of hers, but the libra moon helps. she would rather step back and not cause problems than outwardly stick up for herself in most situations and cause a “scene”. her aquarius mars also gives her a very outward emotional view. aquarius mars are a little more independent, however, emotionally she needs the people close to her to be happy before she is! by having aquarius, libra and scorpio in her chart, she can be an excellent manipulator! she hates to cause a scene but that doesnt mean she cant get what she wants! 

ot12 is complete! we have a lottt of scorpio energy, not just in sun signs but in the rest of the girls charts as well! in fact, jinsoul and yves are the only girls without any scorpio in their basic chart.... crazy! There is also a huge lack of fire! Vivi and Haseul are the only fire signs, and choerry has the only aries placement in all of loona. we’ve got a water/air dominated group on our hands and i can’t want to see how all their charts interact with each other in the future!!! 

[wickymicky]

you know, i used to say that Egoist or Hi High were my number one favorite kpop songs (it went back and forth, i think i was most vocal about Egoist being my number one but there were times when i felt like it was Hi High), but like... idk... like aside from So What, i feel like i’ve barely listened to Loona at all so far this year, and honestly it’s been like six or seven months, maybe eight or nine, since i regularly listened to Loona every day (again, aside from So What).... i’ve listened to Egoist, a song that i considered my favorite kpop song hands down for the majority of the time i’ve been into kpop, like ten times this year and that’s it... and some of those times were because i had the thought “oh jeez i havent listened to this song in a long time, i should do that... i’m betraying it...”

i wonder if i only kept saying/thinking that egoist is my favorite kpop song because i said it once and i had to stick to it... i think its pretty clear to any mutuals i have that my actual favorite kpop song is something like picky picky though, a song i actually post about all the time and listen to really frequently...

:/

so yeah, there’s no easy way to say this, but it really feels like i’m hanging on to Loona out of a sense of loyalty more than anything else :( it’s hard to put into words but listening to Loona feels kinda different these days. knowing more about how they decided things on the fly and how rushed the selection of the final members was (and how little the members were told) kinda... like... doesn’t it change how you listen to a song like New or Egoist? it certainly gives a lot more context to Yves being really shy in those first loonatvs she was in... and Olivia’s experience with her debut was such a whirlwind, like, she was just kind of thrust into the group... i have soooo much respect for all the members for being able to handle it, and i think it’s a fuckin miracle that it worked and they ended up with twelve incredible members, all of whom are so talented and any group would be lucky to have them, but even still just... some of the fun is lost a little bit for me. and I can’t listen to Everyday I Love You, one of my favorite Loona songs, without thinking of how much Vivi’s potential has been wasted. it turned a song that i have fun while listening to into one that makes me frustrated or sad. 

for whatever reason, i feel less of that when listening to ot12 stuff, even if some members get shit for lines, tho tbh, and this is a really hot take and i’m sorry... but i’m really mostly just into their three title tracks (and Favorite i guess), i rarely listen to their bsides.. they don’t hit me the same way, i guess. anyway though it’s the predebut stuff that makes me frustrated or sad. i cant help but empathize and think of what they must be feeling in the predebut era... happiness and excitement sure, but also nervousness, anxiety, stress, etc... the one by one debut concept was novel and it ended up working out in a sense, but at what cost? it was able to work out because the yyxy members were brought in at the last minute, Hyeju literally with only like 24 hours before they were gonna reveal the next member, and with all the changes we know about like Vivi probably being intended to be in OEC and things like that, and trainees that BBC had who for whatever reason ended up being rejected also probably at the last minute in favor of the yyxy members who were brought on... sigh... idk

it feels like it’s getting harder and harder to be a fan of this group, too. as they get more popular and more recognition, the fandom is growing, and with that comes a lot more drama, none of which i particularly care about (aside from the stuff relating to the group itself, as i’ve been talking about). they got their first win, and i was happy at the time, but... i’m worried about their future. it’s not that i wish they didnt get their first win, it’s just... i hope this doesnt make BBC feel validated in overworking and over-controlling them, you know? i want to believe that a lot has changed for the better since after Butterfly, especially when Jaden Jeong left, but we just have no way of knowing that for sure. there’s evidence for both sides, so at the end of the day, all we can do is speculate, and that doesnt really help anything. 

it sucks to admit this to myself but i feel like i’m losing interest in this group because of all this. whenever i’ve watched loona content from the So What era, sometimes they do seem happy, but even then there’s this feeling that they’re stressed and tired. are they happy? again, we can only speculate, so it’s best not to, but i cant stop my idiot brain from assuming the worst and picking up on signals that might not even actually be there, it’s just confirmation bias. maybe i only feel like theyre not at 100% because i’m already worried theyre not at 100%, you know? hmmm. also, i just... don’t think i feel the same connection with this group that i used to. maybe i never really did, tbh. they were my first group, my introduction to kpop, and i genuinely love some of their stuff still, but i feel like as i’ve gotten sooooo much more understanding of this whole kpop industry and i can put loona’s discography in context with aaaaaallllllll the other kpop songs i’ve listened to.... i feel like a lot of their stuff hasn’t aged as well as i would want, for me. you know how sometimes you wonder how much of what you like is really stuff you like, and how much is only because other people like it so you subconsciously feel you have to too? well, at first i would have said i genuinely love all of it and i could explain why, but idk i think i was convincing myself of some of it... as ive found more stuff that i genuinely love, it becomes clearer what are my things and what arent, you know? when i only knew 30 kpop songs and had 5 super-favorites, it was easier to overestimate some things, but now that i know hundreds and have a really deep pool of super-favorites, some of that early stuff i found is overshadowed, i guess. maybe egoist isnt as special to me anymore cause like.. at the time, i hadnt heard many kpop songs like it, but now... i have. and some of them do what it does just as well................. if not better............... sigh, i feel like im punching my past self in the gut

if this hurts you to read cause you’re a huge orbit, trust me, i know what you mean, it hurts to admit this. it kinda sucks to realize that you’re slowly losing interest in something you once loved and was incredibly important to you. 

oh and by the way, when i talk about losing interest, i dont mean that i dont care about loona anymore lmao, i just mean theyre going from my number 1 or 2 or 3 spot down to like my number 5 or 6 or 7 spot haha, alongside other groups that i like a lot but don’t follow the same way i follow my ults. so like even if i continue feeling this way about them, theyre still one of my favorite groups lol. like i guess i would kinda place them around where i would place twice or another group like that in my top 10? anyway... i just had to get this all off my chest. it started out being a post just about egoist and kinda hi high too, but then i realized i had a lot more to say haha, sorry. hopefully this doesnt upset anyone, idk, i hope you understand where im coming from :(

[wickymicky]

Okay so I just spent some time thinking about what I consider to be, out of all the kpop songs I’ve heard so far, the perfect 10 out of 10s. There’s a lot of songs I love... but I could only think of a couple 10/10 songs lol. For me what that means is that I have to love every part of the song, if there’s even one part where I’m not like deeply in love with it then it’s not a 10/10, it’s probably like a 9.9 or something lol. And like, this is based purely on my own personal enjoyment, not anything objective or like music theory-related lmao, this is all suuuuper subjective. But so anyway, here’s what came to mind:

Peekaboo by Red Velvet

Dumb Dumb by Red Velvet

Egoist by Loona (Olivia Hye)

I Don’t Like Your Girlfriend by Weki Meki

Katchup by DALsooobin

honorable mentions (ones that i think could be in that list but i haven’t made up my mind. i’m leaning towards including them rather than leaving them as like 9/10s, but again, i haven’t made up my mind):

TT by Twice

Noir by Sunmi

Up&Down by EXID (this isnt even my favorite EXID song lmao... it’s a weird case where yeah i think it’s pretty dang perfect and so iconic, there’s really not a part of it that i don’t love, but yet... it’s not my favorite EXID song)

Ah Yeah by EXID (this is my favorite EXID song lol. i think. but is it perfect? it’s close... i’m not sure. 

and uhhhhhhhhh those are all the ones I could think of. 

I don’t feel nearly as confident about any song as I do about those 5 up there though. 

[wickymicky]

i got tagged by @chuukitten like a month ago lmao oops

rules: answer 21 questions and tag 21 people (im too lazy lol im sorry i just like to talk about myself so thats what im gonna do HAHA)

im gonna put this under a read more cause it got long

1. nickname: my bf calls me cube

2. zodiac: i dont do zodiac shit lol sorry

3. height: i dont actually know, im bad with remembering things like that

4. hogwarts house: the “fuck jk rowling” house (okay fine im hufflepuff)

5. last thing i googled: farmersonly… dont worry about it

6. favorite musicians: i mean yall know my kpop ones haha… loona, dreamcatcher, fromis 9, pentagon, exid, red velvet, twice, eyedi, weki meki, etc……. outside of kpop oh man where do i begin… its tough cause ive basically only listened to kpop in 2019 but okay so i’d say the band idles, death grips, grimes, streetlight manifesto, huh idk i have a lot that i like but i dont know who else i would consider my “favorites” at the moment

7. song stuck in my head: right now its pirate king by ateez

8. following: 1800 lol

9. followers: on this blog 264, but 724 on my main

10. do you get asks: occasionally

11. amount of sleep: i should sleep way, way more than i do

12. what are you wearing: pajamas

13. dream job: hmmm. i mean i dont dream of working, i dont have a dream “job”, but if the question is about my dream “thing i wanna do a lot of in my life” then i guess my answer is… idk… something where i can just engage in whatever is interesting to me at the moment. like in the vein of my tumblr blogs where i can just post and talk about stuff im interested in. idk if that means being a youtuber or journalist or just someone who does something else and engages in my interests as a hobby, but yeah. or something to do with linguistics of course. though like i dont wanna be a teacher and thats basically the only path lmao (that i would even consider, anyway)

14. dream trip: you know i dont actually have a lot of interest in travel. idk, it stresses me out. i cant think about going places without worrying about how i’ll get around, what i’ll be doing, what i’ll be able to eat since i have a lot of food anxieties… idk. if someone i love wanted to go on a trip with me i’d probably be down, but i dont really know on my own.

15. instruments: i wish i could do music lol

16. languages: are amazing and i love them. okay fine lol i only speak english, but i took german in middle and high school, i took latin in high school as well, then took latin and ancient greek in college, and then after college i did a lot of looking into hungarian, vietnamese, a little bit of indonesian, turkish, and polish, and then recently i’ve been pretty focused on korean for obvious reasons. i speak none of those languages tho, lol. if i heard someone speaking some of those i could get the gist of what types of things theyre talking about most likely, but honestly my whole thing with languages is that im more interested in learning about the intricacies of how languages work and especially how they change over time than i am in actually learning the language. i’d love if my dumb adhd brain allowed me to focus hard enough and really commit to becoming fluent in a second language because so far i’ve only steadily approached being barely conversational, i’ve never actually reached even that point yet lol. and being only fluent in english makes me feel like a stupid american lol. i pick up bits of language really easily, but the rigor of learning ALL the vocab and ALL the little details you need to become actually fluent is where i fall off. 

like whenever i go through an anime phase, i pick up lots and lots of japanese. like if they keep using a word i’ll see it in the subtitles and figure that it must mean that, and then i’ll pay attention to the endings they use and how they inflect it and i’ll make little inferences about what those signify, so then when i hear a word that i dont recognize but it has a grammatical ending that i know, i can infer the meaning of the word from context, and im going through this same learning process with korean now and it’s super super fun and i’m loving how much progress ive made (though i could have been making progress like three times as fast if i was actually taking a korean class)… but the actual work of learning common phrases, learning the sheer volume of vocab, all that stuff… yeah that’s where i fall off. so idk how fluent i’ll get in korean, but i’m down to find out, lol. maybe this is the one i’ll really try to focus on and achieve it with!

17. 10 favorite songs as of now: of all time????? um okay i cant possibly do that without spending a looong time thinking about it, so i’ll just do the first ten songs that come to my mind when i think of songs that i adore more than most others

keep the streets empty for me by fever ray

colossus by idles

watch it crash by streetlight manifesto

lucky girl by fazerdaze

realiti (demo) by grimes

egoist by loona (olivia hye)

picky picky by weki meki

mother by idles

peekaboo by red velvet

hi high by loona

18. if you were an animal: red panda maybe haha

19. favorite food: pizza cause im a garbage trash person

20. random fact: idk... if yall couldnt tell and didnt already know this, i’m a linguist haha. i went to school for linguistics, i majored in linguistics and classics (latin, ancient greek, etc) though honestly i was only into the languages, roman and greek history is cool and all but not really what i’m most into. majoring in classics was a mistake lol but oh well. i didnt end up graduating though because of unrelated reasons.... adhd, depression, just a general sense that the way the whole system works just wasnt made for me and it didnt click with me and ive never been good at forcing myself to be good at school... and like i was tired of hearing from professors that i have “a very organized mind when it comes to linguistics stuff” (something a greek professor said that meant a lot to me) or that i “understand how language works better than most other students my age” and that im a natural and that its impressive how nuanced my understanding of these concepts is.... while also failing or almost failing all of the classes whose professors said that about me. like basically all those statements were followed by a “, but” or a “, so if you just-”.... sigh. so i guess i’m not “actually” a linguist. whatever “actually” means there. 

so other random fact i guess, which is still related but anyway... i have a conlang! that’s a constructed language. ive been working on a language for like 6 or 7 years. its at a state right now where it’s not really something i can just like... speak? it was at one point, maybe. but basically what i like to do is try out various ideas i have about language and phonology and morphology, so my language is kind of like a sandbox lol. if youre a scientist you conduct experiments, if youre a linguist i think you should try making a conlang. its not a common hobby but its something i spend an unconscionable amount of time thinking about lol. like basically 24/7. i’m almost always thinking about my word for x thing im seeing or thinking about, or like some sound change i heard that some language had, and how that would sound if applied to the words in my language... 

like the reason my language isnt at a point right now where i can speak it is because getting into korean has made me think about massively reconfiguring how the grammar works. its always been kinda like latin and german, cause those are what i was taking when i started, and then it got kinda like ancient greek, so the grammar has/had a lot of complicated conjugations that are just honestly so superfluous... its such a mess lol... i have a much better understanding of how those systems come about in language now, so even if i remake my language to have verb conjugations like latin or greek, it’d be a much more coherent and natural system than the one thats existed in my language for years... but after learning about hungarian and korean in particular, i really wanna try making it a lot more logical like those languages are. but my big thing is phonology (speech sounds), so i just get hung up on sound changes and cool new consonants and vowels to add, so i keep putting off actually fixing my language lol. also ive become attached to my awful, amateurish words haha. im so bad at this... a real conlanger like tolkien or the dude who made the languages for game of thrones would look at mine and scoff haha. most of my words are just straight up stolen from words in latin, german, many others, but predominantly... english. i just mangle english words and call it my own lol, and ive been trying to replace those words with original ones that i made up arbitrarily... like my word for nose is just “nass” and my word for dog is “handir” which is just based on english “hound” and german “Hund” and stuff lol. i wanna change those

21. my aesthetic: if you actually read this long ass post, you know that my aesthetic is just “too much information” but not in a sexy way or even an interesting way