#this isnt even getting into the actual intruder fears that are much broader and more agoraphobic in a home with all 4 exterior walls | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

mothmvn · 20 days ago

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i can't fathom living in a stand-alone single family home. ive been alone in them and i felt lost; every noise that wasn't mine was a tense discovery waiting for me in one of the rooms i couldn't see, if not a potential intruder from the outside world. no wonder americans keep making movies about haunted houses! i wouldn't survive, not even with a pet to write off the noise. i need the comfortable cacophony of shared walls, floors, ceilings, to know there's other people around me and not just other ghosts, to know someone else is alive nearby, continuously affecting my life with theirs and perhaps even vice versa

#this isnt even getting into the actual intruder fears that are much broader and more agoraphobic in a home with all 4 exterior walls #my window is 4 floors off the ground and my front door is 4 floors away from being accessible to passersby. im arboreal baby!#but even without that — the stress of Knowing im alone and judging every noise within that context hits me every time #i cannot be freaking out about thumps and bumps in the walls whether its my neighbours or the building settling or even ghosts #personal #i told my first boyfriend when we were at his house and he looked at me like i had 3 heads. he'd never lived in flats before our shared one #bad neighbours will ruin your life shared walls or not. i prefer having the shared walls; we don't have to talk - just to be neighbours

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