#this isn't happening to my mutuals but it's happening to me and i'm at my wits end

[fluxweeed]

hi i'm a grouchy old hag muttering to myself in my hut in the woods

1. not everyone finds it hurtful to find out that people are discussing their fic in private discord servers or on tiktok, actually. i for one passionately don't care that people aren't only mentioning my fic where i can see it. ofc i'm curious when one fic gets a sudden unexplained boost in kudos for a few days. am i HURT that i don't know exactly where the new readers are coming from? am i upset that the boost in hits/kudos isn't accompanied with a flurry of praise? am i sad that i can't jump into the discussion? i am not.

2. the messaging of "okay but you wouldn't post the fic if you didn't enjoy validation" makes me want to delete my ao3 immediately kasdjhfg. people post things for all sorts of reasons thank u!! my personal motivation is i'm trying to make myself feel better about making imperfect things!! the idea that by posting fic i'm inherently coming across as seeking praise makes me want to throw up. (since this discussion started, i've considered disabling comments on my fic for this reason – but i'm worried that move is so non-standard that it'll end up coming across even MORE that i want attention, so i haven't taken the plunge yet)

3. i also pretty firmly disagree with "commenting on fic builds community!" (i made this joke in a grouchy bluesky rant already so if u saw that pretend u didn't) but personally i feel the community spirit when i'm in a server discussing which weasley has the biggest dick (percy). i don't feel it when people are being nice to me in my fic's comments. i'd almost go as far as to say community CAN'T be built when one person is praising another bc there's an inherent imbalance. sure, writers can mutually read and comment on each other's fic and become friends/community co-members that way, but what if u don't write? who's in YOUR comments telling u how great u are? idk about anyone else, but when i am in a community space (like a discord server) and someone starts being nice about my fic, i feel awkward. the focus shifts from a shared enjoyment onto something inherently UNshared, because one person is the creator and the others are readers. that's not to say that these interactions shouldn't happen, but imo it's disingenuous to say that's the core of fandom community.

4. i really can't stress enough how crazy it makes writers when they're writing for praise/validation. i've had conversations with very well-known drarry writers where they've been genuinely upset that nobody is reading their fic (the fic in question had hundreds of comments). i've had conversations with people who take part in fests, only to continually sort the works by stats and feel awful that theirs isn't at the top. i've had conversations with people who have had multiple devastating life events happen to them so they're struggling to write, and the lack of New Fic Comment Validation makes them feel 10x worse. i can't help but feel like if you ARE posting for feedback (or "recognition" or however you want to package it), it's genuinely not good for your brain.

5. obviously there's nuance to all of this! it's a big topic! but notice how we're talking about it on tumblr, not in ao3 comments. it would probably be even more productive in a discord server. in a voice chat. you know – fandom community spaces like that.

6. can y'all keep the next round of discussions to like 700 words max pls lmao i have stuff to do

[tethrras]

deciding to headcanon that the lighthouse makes people feel Calm and Docile and Relaxed to excuse the fact that more of the companions aren't as mad as lucanis that ANY of this is happening

[sealrock]

I hate the new face bones I hate the new face bones I hate the new face bones-

seriously how do you explain this

[beef-brisket]

Lucifer smiled: Adam? How would I know? I haven't seen him since the meeting- poor guy was real tense, though. Maybe you're over working him~.

Lute: Cut the shit! He's not over worked- you were the last person to fucking see him- so where is he!?

Michael: Adam has been attacking strange these last few months-.

Sera: With all due respect, High Angel, that is unrelated. The fact of the matter is: Lucifer, you were the last to see him. Adam couldn't descend to Earth without Heaven knowing. So that leaves Hell. Tell me where he is Lucifer, or I will rain the powers of Heaven upon you- now. Where. Is. My. SON!?

Lucifer glared at Sera. But didn't say a word.

Lute: Where is Adam, Devil!?

Lucifer growled as Lute pointed her spear at him.

Lucifer: You dare threaten me. In my own home!? I wouldn't know where he would have gone. We haven't been on the best terms, if you haven't noticed.

Sera: ...I know you have him, snake. You can lie all you want. But I will find him. And I will tear apart you "home" to do so. I will destroy everything you love, Lucifer, if you don't give me back my son.

Lucifer: ...are you threatening my daughter, Sera?

Sera: You've taken my son. I will easily do the same to your daughter. Give him to me. Right FUCKING NOW.

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Adam sat in shock, his fingers pressed to his lips. Why did he do that? They've been at odds since Adam got here.

They've argued, they've fought, Lucifer has left Adam with a bloody face more times than he can count.

So why kiss him? Why now?

Adam: S-Stupid fuck- trying to get in my fucking head... just like Eden. I can't do it again, Ave. I'm sick of being hurt... all the time- every partner, every try at something more- they never work out. But things have to stay mutual between me and your daddy, sweetheart.

Adam picks her up and hugs her.

Adam: I can't let anything happen between us... you deserve stability, baby. I wish you could be in Heaven. You'll be so much safer there- and I wouldn't be chained here... but it's okay, you'll be okay. I promise.

Avery yawned, and Adam kissed her head. He stood and rocked her, slowly her eyes closed.

Adam: Such a little angel, aren't you? Everything about you is Devine, isn't it my love?

Adam smiled as she looked up at him, her eyes wide and pure gold.

Adam: ...I'll get you out of here. I promise.

What about an au where Adam goes to Hell for night trips, wher ehe just parties and fucks. He has a disguise (it's just a slightly different looking helmet).

Lucifer joins his daughter and her friends at a bar, where he sees "Adam". He instantly knows it's him, but he's curious as to what he's doing.

So Lucifer spends hours flitting with him and buying him drinks to get him drunk. But Lucifer actually finds himself having a great time.

Long story short- they fuck, Adam doesn't let Lucifer know he's Adam. He goes back to Heaven and after a few months, he finds out he's pregnant.

Which is fucking weird cause he's definitely a dude, and he's very dead. But Lucifer's the Devil 🤷.

He basically has to play it off as him getting fat. It's working until the next meeting with Lucifer happens during his ninth month, and he's goes into labor right in front of Lucifer.

Lucifer: Why didn't you tell me your were fucking pregnant!?

Adam: Because you didn't know it was me!!

Lucifer: Yes I did! You have the same face!

Adam: ..... Oh..

[faunabel]

i still will never understand why the fandom decided to demonize mabel pines

it made me angry even back when i was 14

spoilers for gravity falls btw if you happened to have not seen it

you're telling me that if YOU were placed in your ideal paradise where you have everything you wanted just like that, NO LIMITS NO NOTHING, and your brother who you just had an argument with comes in and demands you leave to go back to an apocalyptic wasteland and try to save it from ruin, you're telling me you wouldn't even be SLIGHTLY tempted to say fuck it and stay in your perfect little fantasy land where there are no problems? and again may i remind you you have EVERYTHING YOUR HEART DESIRES NO MATTER HOW UNREALISTIC OR WHIMSICAL, and she is being asked to give that up not to return even to the regular world, but to life as she knew it UNDER CONTROL OF A DEMON FROM ANOTHER DIMENSION SHE'S EXPECTED TO HELP DEFEAT. YOU ARE TELLING ME DEADASS YOU WOULD NOT BE TEMPTED TO STAY? YOU DO NOT AT ALL SEE WHERE SHE'S COMING FROM AS SOMEONE WHO'S SCARED AND HURT AND TRYING TO RUN AWAY FROM THEIR PROBLEMS?

not to mention that she probably felt so GUILTY for CAUSING that apocalyptic wasteland and was trying to avoid that guilt through indulging in the fantasy land!!!! and dipper confronting her made her shut down and deflect because she didn't want to acknowledge her own guilt! (she is such an e7)

i do NOT get it. i may have mixed up some of the facts of what happened bc i haven't seen gravity falls in years but my overall point still stands.

[katsigian]

[arklay]

MR. & MRS. WESKER 🤍

i was able to commission the lovely @rcehb-art on twitter for this piece of diana and wesker during their strange after-the-fact reception for their very private wedding. i am just so in love with this and how it turned out, and i can't thank rc enough !! she is so kind and amazing to work with and i can't recommend her enough if you're looking to commission artwork ♡

[snepfeathers]

I need some good advice.

About 2 and a half year ago. I had a close friend ghost me on a lot of platforms.

But Recently I found them on ticktok with a discord link.

What sude I do.. ask them way they ghosted me or just let it go and realized that friendship die a long time ago.

you have received.... a trick!

your emoji kitchen combination is: ghost and alarm clock!

happy halloween!

[famewolf]

I'm gonna be a little quiet on here until after I start playing Dragon Age. I don't want to be spoiled and the urge to click on posts that have DA tags blacklisted is mounting. And just like with Inquisition, I want to go in totally blind.

[desalvar]

ayo i'm not dead!

[izzy-b-hands]

I keep forgetting I can't seem to get the current version of xkit to work on my new laptop and going to do stuff that it let me do fjldksafjdlsaj

[fitzselfships]

Who would've thought that being exposed to one of your triggers (that you only recently found out is a trigger) on a daily basis would be bad for your mental health. Save me f/os </3

[elytrafemme]

why doesn't anybody talk about schrodinger's mental illness? seriously i think i'm onto something here

[ct-hardcase]

It itches at my brain far too often that one of Hamato Xiono's primary colors the few times we see him in Resistance is gold.

[arabellaseraphim]

Has anyone ever see this one game a lot of people love to talk about and make content of and as you explore bit by bit about said content, it proceeds to take over your mind like it's your new obsession now even though you haven't got yourself to play that game/watch their full playthrough yet?

[running-in-the-dark]

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