#this is what i do on my insta stories sometimes just talking forever like this

[cozybearz]

(sorry long post this got rambly but i needed an outlet for it oops)

having. brain thoughts that i cannot articulate and its very annoying

not new thoughts either but i guess just sort of boils down to like-

when theres stuff that you know is best practice ethically or health wise or whatever else and you do care and want to do your best with it but Also you actively have to check yourself from getting Too into it. which probably comes off weird like “oh why would you actively keep yourself from doing the better things all the time”

but its because if you get too nitpicky or perfectionist about it your brain is gonna eat itself alive worrying about doing the right or wrong thing over shit like. buying something from a brand owned by a shitty corporation because its the more affordable option

or throwing out something that might actually be recyclable but you’ve been hoarding it thinking you’ll figure out the best way to recycle it but our recycling systems suck and nothing i do with my own recycling can guarantee that it actually gets reused and now i just have trash sitting around and if i dont throw it out its just gonna be bad for my mental health

or like. water usage when washing dishes and feeling guilty for wasting water knowing theres gotta be more water efficient ways to do it but also if i get too caught up on that im never gonna do the dishes bc of sensory issues etc.etc.

idk its like this combination of some kind of moral paranoia + perfectionism (and then also some level of demand avoidance that can kick in if i get too strict with myself) and its a pain and kind of hard to explain to people so i hope this makes any kind of sense dhdhd