#this is the most swing ass relationship ever i go from hating yall to loving yall in the blink of an eye i swear

[dawnbreakersgaze]

HERE IT IS MY FUCKING PREDICTION

I knew it i knew it i knew it i knew i knew it

Thank you, papergames 😩😩😩😩😩 Thank you for giving us Greyson, and now Jeremiah ♡♡♡

You may have fucked me over on the whole Dawnbreaker thing but honestly I'm willing to forgive you over this one 🥰

Yo I’m calling it right now-

Thomas helped you plan Raf’s bday trip and he already had a 3d model

Grey is helping plan Zayne’s party so he needed one

Whomst is gonna help you plan Xav’s?????

If Jer doesn’t get a 3d rig it will be the single biggest injustice in LNDS right behind the abuse of poor Dawnbreaker 😤

[santigarcia]

Floppy Disk 💾

Human Touch Part Six

Part One | Part Two | Part Three | Part Four | Part Five

word count: 1.2k

rating: T for sexual references, some angst

summary: You see something you weren’t supposed to and things get heated. 

a/n: thank you all so much for reading this series! let me know what yall think! thank you to @punkpascal​ and @sergeantkane​​ as always!!

“So, are you coming with me or not?” You ask Nathan from your bed. He’s in the bathroom brushing his teeth, the door is open so he can hear you. “My mom is dying to know if you’re coming.”

You’re going home for the holidays, and you want to bring Nathan with you. Especially now that you’ve been together for almost a year. You miss your family, and you want to introduce him to them.

“I don’t know,” he spits in the sink and leans against the doorway. “What if they love me more than you? I don’t want to hurt your feelings,” he slowly starts to smile, and you throw a pillow at him, which he catches.

“Are you worried they won’t like you?”

“Oh, I know they won’t like me,” he laughs. “I don’t need their approval, but I know you do.”

“Is that what’s been bothering you?” you reach for him as he sits down on the bed. “Something is bothering you. Makes me nervous.”

“Nothing to worry about, okay? Now you get some sleep,” he presses a kiss to your forehead.

“Where are you going?”

“Burning the midnight oil. Got a new idea, I need to work out the kinks.”

“Don’t stay up too late ok? And please decide. What if I say yes that you can fuck me in my childhood bedroom?”

“Fuck really? Then count me in as a yes!” he throws you a wink. He taps the doorframe with his hand before he leaves for his lab.

Since you can tell you’re going to be alone tonight, you get out of bed and make your way to the kitchen. You grab a snack (some chocolate- you made Nathan get you some when new freight came in) and go into your bedroom. Not the one you share with Nathan, but yours. The one he gave you.

Each room in the house is temperature regulated, some of which are for Nathan’s projects. His bedroom is a few degrees colder. He runs hot and if he’s too warm he gets drowsy. And he’s a little shit and turns it down colder so you’ll curl into him and your nipples poke through your shirt. But your room, your room he has a little warmer. If you’re ever in there it’s because you’re sleeping without him, and most times those are occasions like this when he’s working into the night.

You take your chocolate and curl into your bed, enjoying the warmth already. You’re not quite sleepy yet, so you pick up the TV remote and decide to watch some “Nathan TV” as you call it. His lab is on one of the channels, and you flick it over to watch what he’s doing.

What you see shocks you.

Nathan has another woman pinned up against the wall. He’s naked and so is she. You can hear his groans and you watch as he thrusts hard into her. You turn it off in horror before you can see anything else. Your mind starts racing, your blood runs cold. Surely, he didn’t bring another woman into the house without you knowing. Right?

You sit trying to catch your breath. The chocolate is half eaten and now melting in your hand. You scream and launch the chocolate bar at the TV and swing the bedroom door open. You storm down the hallway towards Nathan’s lab.

The door is closed, but it’s not locked. You shove it open and you find a very naked Nathan writing something down, he’s leaning over the tall tables in the lab. Normally you’d have delighted in seeing his ass, but not right now.

“Who is she? Where is she?” you start crying as soon as you open your mouth.

“Who?” Nathan turns, his expression quizzical and it makes your blood boil.

“You know who. I saw you on the TV.”

“You sure that wasn’t some footage of our greatest hits?” he smirks, “I like to play those sometimes.”

“Nathan, you ass. Her hair is a different color than mine! I thought you were better than this.”

“I hate to break it to you, but I have had other lovers here. Like I said, old footage.” He shrugs and goes back to making notes.

“Ok, then why are you naked?”

“What’s with the interrogation? Fuck. Sometimes I like to work naked. And yeah, okay I fucked a robot. Happy?”

You’ve had arguments before. Every relationship has disagreements. Most of your arguments with Nathan are small, easily resolved. Most revolve around habits he has due to being alone for years. Either you interfere with a train of thought, or he works too much and leaves no time for you. But those are worked around.

But this, this one feels different. You feel betrayed, and he’s acting so cold.

“A robot? So now you have to lie to me?”

“It’s not a lie.” His voice is dry, he very intentionally does not look up from his notes.

“Right, I forgot, you don’t mince words. And I guess that answers that then. I’ll go home alone.” You reach for the door, unable to look at him before he whips around.

“No, it doesn’t, don’t walk away!”

But you do. You don’t want to hear it. Robot or not – it still hurts. He picked them over you. You saw the woman, she had curves in all the right places you didn’t.

Why did she have to look so perfect if this was for science? And why is he so defensive? Are you not good enough?

You hoped this day would never come. But it hurts too much to stay. You call your cousin and it’s not long before she picks you up.

You fly home for the holidays, and you don’t fly back. Nathan texts you and calls you multiple times a day, but you ignore them. It hurts too much to talk to him. And you don’t trust yourself with him. With one word he could have you crawling back and you’re angry.

You’ll grow to regret ignoring him, but after some time the texts and calls stop. The last you hear from him is a few months later when boxes of your stuff arrive at your front door.

Months pass. A year or two goes by and you thought you moved on. You’re engaged now to a man named Jack. He’s kind, but honestly boring. You thought that’s what you needed, but there’s no passion in your life anymore. But he’s safe, and after what happened with Nathan, it’s more your family’s decision than it is your own.

Your life is simple. You live with Jack on his ranch, with little reminders of Nathan out there.

Until one day, you see a news story.

“Bluebook CEO, Nathan Bateman, survives a near fatal AI accident.”

You gasp seeing the story, causing your fiancé to look at you with question. You grab your phone and search all news stories related to him. From what you can gather, one of his AI’s stabbed him. Twice.

Tears well up in your eyes. What if you had been there, you could have stopped it. And you feel bad for him, this wasn’t how he would have wanted to show his AI masterpiece to the world.

“That’s not about your asshole ex is it?” Jack asks with a snort.

“Yes, it is actually,” you shake your head and continue to read. You look for where he’s recovering, you want to see him.

xx

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[stripper-patrick]

Adorn👊🏽 Viktor Drago

Song: Adorn- Miguel

A/N: HOW TF DO I GET WORD COLORS LIKE YALL USE FOR PRIDE😤

Warnings: angst (reader and father), smut, fluff

Relationship: Viktor Drago x black plus sized reader

“What’s been the biggest challenge you’ve overcame” I ask

“Um facing my fears what about you?” Viktor looks at me. We’re both laying on my bed in a deep conversation. Something we do a lot.

“Accepting myself I never thought I was pretty and I just said well it costs too much to pay for how I really wanna look”

“Y/N” I look at him “you are the most beautiful person I’ve ever met. Inside and out. I see the way you look at yourself and your stretch marks but I need you to tell me your beautiful I really want you to feel it. Tell me”

“I’m beautiful” he smiles and goes back to looking up at my ceiling.

“What’s your biggest fear?” He asks

I hesitate for a moment “losing you”

“Why?”

“Because you keep me sane” I smile. He grabs his phone and checks the time “shit”

“What?” We both sit up

“I have a match tonight and I’m gonna be a little late my dads gonna kill me but it was worth it”

“Go head”

“Will you come?” He asks

I hesitate again. I don’t like seeing my best friend specifically being beat up.

“I understand if you don’t”

“I’ll think about it” he nods and stands up. I hug him and walk him out the door.

“Bye” he waves. I wave back and watch Viktor walk off.

I close the door and sigh. It’s a big night for him but he knows how much I hate seeing him hurt. It gives me anxiety.

I groan and go to my bathroom turning on the shower water.

...

I look in the mirror at my outfit. I fix my hair and walk out the door with my keys and purse in my hand.

I drive to the venue and get through security.

I walk to his dressing room remembering from the first and clearly not the last time I was here

I knock on the door and Ivan, his father opens it. His face hardens and he says something to Viktor in Russian. I roll my eyes and open the door all the way seeing Viktor suited up in shorts with some dark blue and a little bit of lavender but no gloves on.

“I’m so glad you came you look good” he smiles

“Thank you” I blush

“What is she doing here” Ivan says

“I’m here to support him” I’ve tolerated his shit long enough. He hates me and thinks I’m a distraction for Viktor

“He doesn’t need your support”

“And I don’t need to explain myself any further to you or YOU” I yell pointing at his father and mother.

Viktor yells in Russian and his parents leave the room leaving us alone.

“I’m sorry maybe I shouldn’t have came” I’m about to turn away but he grabs my hand.

“Please I need you Y/N please don’t leave me right now”

I can see he’s scared in his eyes.

“Ok” he hugs me and I smile.

“Ok listen go out there and make me proud you always do so it should be easy” I cup his face smooshing his lips together.

“Only if you promise to walk out with me” I nod letting go. I help him get his gloves on it was a struggle with my long nails.

“Ready?” He nods taking a deep breath.

We walk it and Ivan glares at me. I flip my hair and continue walking with him. His theme music hits and we walk out. The crowd is cheering him on and all the girls are glaring at me. I could care less.

“Go be great with your lavender” he laughs kissing my cheek. I sit in the front and his father sits next to me.

“You’ll never be good enough for my son he’s only using you for the ass you have” he whispers in my ear.

I nod staying quiet. The announcer screams the names in the microphone.

“In the right corner we have 6’4 245 lbs of steel Viktor Drago” Viktor waves towards everyone keeping his eyes on the opponent “and in the left corner we have 6’4 212lbs Javier Hernandez”

Everyone boos for him and he keeps his eyes locked on Viktor. The announcer leaves and the referee explains the rules and stands to the side letting the boys square up.

...

Javier has the slight upper hand. I’ve been cheering along the way.

“Come on V” I cheer clapping. Just then he gets side swiped and knocked to the ground. I cover my mouth losing my breath for a split second.

“Viktor get up” I scream. He’s still out and the referee is already at 3. I go up to the gate and scream his name.

“Viktor get up come on” he opens his eyes and the ref is at 6. He jolts up and it was like a lightning bolt watching him get up. The ref stops the count and lets them go at it again. Viktor pops him with an uppercut and Javier stumbles a little”

“Come on V” he watches me and Ivan touches my arm.

“Don’t touch me” I warm pointing my finger at Ivan. His wife walks up and gets in my face.

“Shut up what are you gonna do” he asks stepping towards me.

“Don’t test me Ivan you got the wrong one and I don’t know why you have your little lap dog in front of you like either of you will do something”

The referee starts counting and I see Javier on the ground. It feels like a lifetime waiting for him to get to 10. Javier tries to pull himself up at 8 but by the time he gets to 10 it’s a TKO.

I scream smiling. They open the ring door for us and I hug him.

I kiss his plump lips and he looks at me hungrily. He kisses me again and his mother grabs my hair. I start seeing red and wild out swinging on her in every direction.

Strong arms grab my waist pulling me off and I get out of his grip going back at her. I’m pulled off again and when I realize who grabs me I see it’s Ivan yelling at me in Russian.

He’s really in my face like nose to nose. I slap him hard across the face. Security grabs me taking me out the ring as I struggle to get out of their grip.

I’m pulled into the lobby of the venue and they handcuff me.

“Let me go” I yell. Viktor runs out holding my purse and demands they let me go.

“Let her go she didn’t do anything”

“Sir are you sure-“

“Yes he’s sure” I yell

“Yes I am”

They release me and I look at Viktor who has a smile on his face.

“I was wondering when you were gonna pop off”

“I’m going home” I shake my head turning on my heels. He grabs my waist and kissing my neck.

“I’ll stop by ok?” I nod. Viktor leans down kissing me again this time the kiss lasting much longer.

“Viktor they want to interview you. Now” Ivan scowls at me and I roll my eyes sighing.

“I’ll talk to him” I nod and peck Viktor once more before leaving.

....

I’m sitting at home in an oversized t-shirt watching friends. I jolt when a pound goes off on the door.

I get up and look through the peephole seeing it’s Viktor. He’s fuming. I open the door.

“Ba-“ he stops me mid sentence with a breath-taking kiss. Viktor pushes me against the wall picking me up.

“Is this ok?” He stops searching in my eyes

“Yes please I need you” I’ve been wanting him to fuck me for the longest time.

“Do you mind if we go rough I need to let this anger out but promise me you’ll tell me if I’m hurting you”

“I promise” he goes back to that mind blowing kiss. Viktor pushes my arms above my head and pulls up my t-shirt. He slides his hand down in my underwear collecting my wetness and using that to rub my clit. I exhale harshly and push my hips forward for more.

He pushes one finger inside of me. Then another. I close my eyes as he juts his fingers upward on my g-spot. My breathing becomes heavier and I take my arms down holding him in another kiss.

“I need you inside of me” I beg. He removes his fingers and sucking off my juices and trust me there were a lot.

V drops his pants and grabs a condom from his wallet.

Viktor reaches down rolling it on. He’s as hard as a rock and bigger than I expected. He sinks me down slowly. It’s a little painful.

“You ok?” He stops

“Keep going all the way” He watches me as he continues pushing forward. Once he’s all the way inside of me I squeeze myself around him. He groans and starts slow. I’m finally used to him and I can’t the vanilla shit anymore.

“Viktor if you don’t drill my shit” I groan. He puts one hand on the wall and relentlessly pounds into me.

“Just like that” our bodies are knocking against the wall but my moans drown out those sounds.

“Look at you taking my dick so we’ll baby” he starts speaking in Russian and I moan louder. My hand moves down to his butt trying to push him further into me.

“I love the way that tight fat pussy wraps around me don’t you beautiful”

“Yes yes Viktor I’m cumming” he pushes my knees against the wall thrusting further into me. “Lemme hear you Y/N” he pounds harder into me and I scream in undeniable pleasure.

“That’s it” he grunts a few times as his thrusts become sloppier and slower.

Once we’re both exhausted he just stays inside of me.

“Was that too rough?” He asks

“No it was amazing. Do you wanna talk about it?”

“I told my father either he respects you or I find a new manager”

“Viktor you didn’t-“

“I know what I have to do Y/N and I chose you whether or not he agrees with it”

I kiss him smiling “can you carry me to the bed I need another nap”

“Nap? Baby I’ve just gotten started” he carries me to my bedroom closing the door with his foot.

[spnbaby-67]

Craving You!

Summary: What happens when you find out that your co-workers have been getting raises behind your back, and you so want to say something but in reality you know you can’t. You take off to a Starbucks you go to everyday, and everyday it’s the same thing. Until today! You run into him. 

Pairing: Jensen x Reader (eventually others) 

Angst, anger, mood swings, unexpected meeting. 

A/N Hi this is my first ever fic that I am willing to share, I am nervous as hell as i normally don’t share my writings. Comments would be awesome, just go easy on the hate ones. I am very easy to get depressed. But excited to see what you think. Once i know how to do a masterlist, it’ll be located under that. Also a big thank you to Taylor  @impalaimagining for beta. She's amazing ya’ll and has many great series and one shots to read, go check her page out to. I forgot to add @secretlyfurrydragon she helped me as well and she has an amazing story to I love to read. this work is my own idea and is to not be shared without asking. Thank you! This is an Au, so let’s pretend Danneel is happy somewhere else, I love her to bits so no hate on her.. Jensen is single for the sake of this story.

Warnings– none on this chapter.

                                                     Chapter 1

I opened the door to the ladies room so I could wash off the unknown sticky substance that I had acquired when I signed for a package. The room went from chatty to dead silent. A  huddle of four of my fellow co workers looked relieved when they saw it was me "Y/N did you hear about Kali?" I shook my head no as I soaped up and rinsed my hands The one who's name I believed to be Ellen stepped toward me the expression on her face looked like the cat that ate the canary "Kali the woman who just started last month, well she came out of a meeting in the the CEO's office this morning and according to his secretary, Kali has been made head of our department and apparently a big raise to go with it." 

I was beyond speechless all I could force out was "I see."

Now that I had this news of what Kali had done, I was mad. No, I was beyond mad try pissed. I couldn’t believe she would stoop that low to get a leg up on the rest of us that had far more seniority than her, at a job where everyone was supposed to be equal. Once we were hired, we were told we were a team, we work together as a team, we were all on the same pay level and from what I've been told more than once nobody is getting a raise and believe me I tried. On several occasions I was practically ran out of the office for that reason. Madison the Ceo’s secretary told me a few months ago that the company had been struggling, so I dropped it.

No I’m better than you attitudes were not allowed in this office we are a team; that’s what attracted me to this place from the beginning  Fast Forward to five years later, and I was fuming.

In fact, I felt my blood pressure rise to the point that when I stood up I felt faint. Not what I needed to deal with on today of all days. My hands closed into fists almost in slow motion, till the tip of my nails connected with the flesh of my palms. My eyes squinted at the mere mention of her name. My heart pounded uncontrollably, like a drum solo gone wild. So yeah, I was fuming.

If I saw her even walking by my office smiling and acting as if nothing had happened, I did everything I could to keep myself from going out there and banging her damn head into the wall. Call it jealousy, or anger, or whatever but I was pissed. No, pissed was no longer the word for what I was feeling. It was more like deeply hurt and very confused.

I sat at my desk with a pencil in my right hand, tapping it with a nervous tick, trying to figure out what I wanted to do. Should I confront my boss? Should I go and punch Kali in the face? Should I quit my job and leave the company for lying to me? I sighed, knowing that no matter what, I couldn’t quit.

This was my job and my career. I had built a relationship with the company and people, so leaving was definitely out of the question. For now, however, I could go and confront my boss and find out exactly what had changed, but in the end I knew it would probably go nowhere. I dreaded the thought of updating my resume and I for sure didn't want create a mountain out of a molehill and risk getting tossed out on my ass, but to be passed over like this?

I took in a long breath, then I slowly let it out as I laid my forehead down on my desk, closed my eyes to keep an impending stress headache from taking over. My arms fell to my sides, hanging low in defeat, my heart rate slowly returning to normal.I decided I needed coffee.

Coffee from Starbucks in fact my most favorite place in the whole world. Vanilla bean frappuccino was my go to drink on days like this. No matter what happened to make me feel like my life had been sucked out of me, Starbucks had always been and would always be my best friend. I sat straight up, stood up from my chair, grabbed my purse from the bottom drawer of the filing cabinet and ripped my headset from my ears as I walked out of my office.

I pushed the button to the elevator and waited for it to come to my floor, quite impatiently, I might add. I decided to take a brief look around the office to see if I could see her, though I knew I wouldn’t, since she was lucky enough to have a conference call.

“Good for her,” I snarked to myself, then I entered the elevator.

I could smell the coffee before I opened the door, the rich aroma of different flavors tickling my senses. I was on a mission, one that would pacify my anger and calm me down,I got my order, and of course they messed it up. Yuk!! soy with no sugar? Really?  But I waited patiently yet again for them to fix it.

“How hard is it to make the same drink every day? I’m sure I’m not the only one who orders this all day long.” I huffed under my breath. After a few moments I got my corrected order, so I turned to go out the door back to work.“Seriously?” I closed my eyes as I felt the drink I had waited for twice over, the drink that was supposed to be my saving grace, smash against my chest and spill all over my clothes. “Great, just fucking great.” I muttered out loud, ready to bite the head right off the person who had done this to me… until I saw him.

[foreverholdmedown]

SHORT: TIME

“Lee, get these ties here. I can’t do this with my left.”

Robyn held out her right arm for Leandra and passed over the heavily jeweled connected wrist and hand ornamental band for her to handle. With her free hand, she put in her left oversize diamond hoop earring and stared down at her soon to be one year old son as he zipped past her yet again in his walker. The sound of the wheels gliding across the marble floors and the pattering of his feet were a mixture that she nor anyone else could get enough of. His obsessed grandmother had the Finding Nemo themed contraption on wheels awaiting their arrival to the island and he’d spend just about the entire day in it if you let him. Whether he was crashing into walls or knocking things over with it, his giggling and the clapping of his hands never ceased.

“I can’t wait until your husband returns and sees you in this. I need the laugh that I’m going to get from how aggravated he’s going to be at the sight of it. You promised him that it wouldn’t be too sexy and bitch ya lied.” Her obnoxious laugh caused Robyn to slip out a giggle and she lightly shrugged her shoulders.

“This isn’t that bad. Lauren sent over a couple of sketches and there was one with pasties. I was close to choosing that but I really liked this design out of all of them. This is tame as far as I’m concerned. He’ll be okay.”

“I had my bumpa on his crotch this morning. So he should be nice and relaxed.”

“Okay, you could have kept that to yourself.” Leandra playfully rolled her eyes and left Robyn to stand there finishing the task at hand.

She reached for the brush she’d tossed on the table while donning herself in the various accessories that were apart of her costume package and she gave the aqua blue wig another brushing and finalized the entire look with the headpiece.

“Cole’s going to have a fucking heart attack. You look good though sis.” Mike stood in the in the entry foyer glancing into the living room at Robyn while holding a bottle of Hennessy in one hand and a red plastic cup in another. A day like this is literally the only time she wouldn’t side eye anyone for having alcohol in their system before noon. She herself had been sipping a drink for the past hour while putting together all of the intricate details with her glam squad.

“Did you have a heart attack over your wife’s costume?”

“No. Mo’s a Victoria Secret angel. I’m so used to it that I can’t even complain. Now you on the other hand, you love testing your overprotective husband’s limits. My nigga is still pissed about that LUI shoot. I’m starting to think you get off on seeing his high yellow ass look like a tomato.”

“I do.” She couldn’t deny that. Though she certainly wears what she wants whenever she wants, there’s nothing like seeing him tick, flinch, and nearly blow a vessel over her and her attire whether it be because he likes it or hates it. Even the times when he does his best to bite his tongue, his body language says it all and the majority of the time it’s absolutely hilarious to witness and not just for her. It’s becoming a running joke amongst everyone, including their parents.

“It is kind of funny though. He’s been a jealous ass since high school.”

“Exactly. That’s why you just have to laugh at it and keep it moving. He just likes to have something to say. That man knows I’m not worried about anyone else other than him and our children. This is cultural anyway. This of all things, he should have nothing to worry about.” Just as she finished her statement, she could hear Yari chasing after her brother while loudly calling his name somewhere near the kitchen. She and the rest of the women that makes up her friendship circle and entourage had taken her to Junior Kadooment just days ago so she could have some fun playing mas with the other children around the island. Yari was in full costume as she danced and had a overall good time with the Xante Mas Band. After just one experience, she already had the next year on her mind and was promised that for as long as time permits it, she’d be able to come down and be apart of it every single summer.

“True. I’m excited. This is my first time being apart of some shit like this, so you know I’m about to wild out.”

“You should have gotten a costume.”

“Hell no. I’m not going shirtless and wearing feathers and shit. That’s for the ladies and y'all look damn good doing it might I add. Ash showed Ib the male version of her costume and he hid that shit from her.” She giggled at the thought of how mortified Ib must have been and shook her head at their “too cool for school” mentality about everything. Their Dreamville shorts and t-shirts they all chose to wear will damn near look like uniforms once they all stand together and pose for pictures. It’s their usual though and she didn’t expect anything more than that.

“Baby Girl, I could not find that brand of white wine that you wanted. We went to three stores. I promise. I just grabbed a couple of bottles of the Barefoot. Is that cool?” She tossed the brush on the table at the sound of her husband’s deep, husky, and raspy voice and slightly smirked. She couldn’t even see him and yet the goosebumps were forming on her skin and the tingling within her core arose just as it does any other time. She had one hell of a dosage of his flesh as soon as she opened her eyes this morning and yet that still wasn’t enough to satisfy the urge within her. You can read a dozen articles and each one will give you a different timeframe of when that newlywed bliss wears off but she and Jermaine’s hadn’t budged whatsoever. If anything, she’s looking forward to when they press the reset button and extend the time when they renew their vows at their up and coming Parisian wedding.

“That’s fine babe. I told you that before you left to go.” Robyn glanced over at a tipsy Mike and shook her head at the devious smirk on his face as he awaited his best friend’s verdict on her carnival attire.

“I got the Pinot Grigio and Pink Moscato; three bottles of…” His footsteps halted and his large eyes widened at the sight before him. Robyn didn't know whether to cringe, laugh, or be overwhelmed with nervousness as he took in every aspect of the sexy, loudly colored, and feathered filled jeweled costume.

“That’s fire baby.” He nodded his head in approval fairly quickly and both Robyn and Mike’s eyes widened at his reaction. As she spun around to give him the opportunity to take in all of it, a huge smile arose on her face and the gleam in his eyes matched her own.

“Yeah?”

“Hell yeah.” As he neared her, he  ran his fingers over the feathers and nodded once more.

“You hardly ever wear colors this bright so this is different but in a good way; a great way actually.”

“Wow. Hell has frozen over.” Mike drank the rest of what was remaining in his cup when he made that statement and Jermaine chuckled at the slight jab.

“I told your bitch ass that I’d most likely love it. You know I’m always interested in seeing different cultures so why would I not be excited about my wife’s?” His eyes hadn’t left her body and he continued to take in every single detail as Mike insulted his physical appearance and “nappy” grown out hair while refilling his cup. As her husband’s hand met her waist, she placed hers on his shoulders and chuckled bashfully as his eyes locked on her breast.

“Dennis got some shots of this yet? How fucking cool.”

“He’s been capturing me as I readied myself. I’m glad you like it.”

“The way you look in it only makes me want to take it off.”

“This is why I don’t like coming around yall. There’s never not a moment when y'all aren’t saying or doing some nasty shit. Where’s my wife? It should never take that long to put a damn wig on.” As he flopped down on the couch in frustration, Robyn could barely contain her laughter.

“I got Elijah on swing first ask questions later alert if any guy tries to dance up on you.” As soon as he finished his statement, Robyn cut her eyes at him and lightly smacked her hand into his chest. His nonchalant stance was all the confirmation that she needed to see to understand that he actually did tell him to do that.

“And here I thought you were handling things better.”

“Hell ain’t freeze over yet Rob. You got a long ways to go.”

Robyn left the both of them to stand there and bicker amongst one another and went to find Yari and Jaxton. Just as she expected, she found them in the kitchen with her mother as she prepared a dinner that she told her she didn’t have to do more than once. She hired a chef to save everyone the hassle of being in the kitchen or heading out to restaurants for every single meal they have but her mother insisted on cooking at least once or twice while they were in town and today’s one of those days. With the way things were smelling, she wouldn’t knock it whatsoever.

“You sure you’re going to be okay with the both of them?”

“Robyn. I had three children. You all are not far apart in age either. Are you kidding me with that question? You go out there and enjoy yourself with your friends and be careful. Drink lots of water because it’s hot today and the humidity is up. You see anything funny, you all get off of the road and come back. You going to the parties later?”

“Probably not. I think we’re just going to come back here and have our own little set up. I’ll probably invite some people over.”

“That sounds nice.”

“Mema and I are making tamarind balls.” Robyn turned to look at Yari and smiled at the name she’d given her mother. She’d gone from calling her granny to mema since meeting her and it’s so suitable for the additional grandmother figure in her life. Their relationship is amazing and she’s up under her every second that she gets. The only time they weren’t hanging around one another was for the Junior Kadooment but it didn’t stop her from being right there when Yari was getting ready and taking dozens of photos of her for keepsakes.

“Save some for your dad and I.”

“I’ll think about it.” Robyn lightly poked Yari in the side and planted multiple kisses on her face while she giggled and did her best to dodge them.

“You better save us some and look after your brother also. Okay?”

“I will.” Robyn planted another kiss on her cheek and quickly leaned down to plant a kiss on the back of Jaxton’s head as he stared in the opposite direction. She didn’t want him to notice her leaving and he didn’t as she swiftly left the kitchen. Had he saw it, he would have thrown a fit and cried non-stop for quite some time and that’s the last thing she wanted her mother to deal with though she’s dealt with many children throughout her life. If he doesn’t know she or Jermaine is  leaving out, he won’t think anything of it and he’s as jolly as he wants to be for as long as he’s fed, changed, and has his toys to play with. They’d done well enough in not overly spoiling him.

After taking pictures, they all packed up in three vans and met up at the start up point of the route to find Rorrey’s Aura float. Once they found him, they piled on with bedazzled traveling bottles filled with alcohol for the fun. He’d chosen their long time childhood friend to dj and Trinidad’s own Machel Montano to handle the occasional live entertainment while they made their way down the road. Along the route, with three well known supermodels including their very own, Jermaine, and Machel all on board, it was a given that the majority of the attention and the street flooding was centered around them and in between dancing on her husband and enjoying her friends, she was reaching out to shake hands with her people, taking as many pictures as she could, and throwing out colorful beads to those who were within reach. She hadn’t partaken in a Crop Over since her childhood and she couldn’t let this years go by without coming down to enjoy herself. Jermaine wouldn’t either. He wanted to come just as much as she did. Robyn then reached out to everyone in a group chat and the plans to have their crews come down and enjoy her culture were set.

“It’s so fucking hot. My jewels are falling off of my face.” Robyn threw her hand around Jermaine’s neck as he held her waist and she took a large gulp of water instead of having another sip of the rum.

“Hell yeah. You still look perfect though. I know I fucking look like I’m melting.”

“No baby, you’re getting that tan that you always get in the summers. You get it every year. It’s when you actually look like a black man.”

“Fuck out of here. I always look like a black man. I might be light skinned but the features are black as hell.” Robyn reached up to dig her fingers into his grown out mini afro and kissed his lips. It’s no secret she loves when he grows his hair out and this time around, it seems like he has no plans of cutting it anytime soon. He’s been growing it out for a few months now.

“The tan is sexy though. You look all golden and you have a glow.”

“You making it sound like I’m pregnant.” She couldn’t help but to laugh while playfully rolling her eyes. He always points out how she can’t take a compliment but he can barely take one himself.

“I am not. I’m just saying that I like it. You are glowing. Seriously.”

“Because I’m happy. Now give me a whine.” When he concluded that statement, she laughed as she ran her hand over his face to wipe the beads of sweat off it and kissed his lips once again. She then turned around, pressed her body against his, and gave him exactly what he wanted.

In all of their boldness, Robyn, Monica, Ashley, and Melissa hopped off of the float and hit the street to dance in front of it and nearly gave security and their spouses panic attacks as they all worked to keep the crowd from being too aggressive in their approach with all four of them. The Stiffy, Lil Rick, Alison Hinds, and Porgie tracks were far too much for the enclosed space on the float. They needed the room to whine their waists, wuk up, and dance on one another. Jermaine, Mike, and Ib eventually jumped off the float and joined them and whether they danced or walked, they were in the street until they decided to end their time on the parade route.

Back at the resort, they freshened up, changed into comfortable attire, and enjoyed the meal Robyn’s mother prepared for them while they were out. Though they didn’t intend on going anywhere, they still went to to an afterparty for a short while and eventually returned to do just as Robyn said; have their own gathering amongst one another with music, drinks, and snacks outside around the pool and lounge area. The cool air from the beach front was the perfect feeling and setting for all of them, and they basked in the ambiance of the resort and the beautiful island while relaxing.

“Why won’t you want to go to sleep my love?” Robyn held Jaxton in her arms, close to her chest, while swaying from side to side as his big brown eyes stared up at her. He’d taken in so much of his father’s looks that it become beyond ridiculous. Jermaine’s baby pictures and Jaxton’s are nearly identical. Literally the only part of her he inherited was her ears and when staring at his face, it’s not even noticeable.

She used her fingers to wipe the remainder of his tears and smoothed out his thick curls. He refused to go to sleep for his grandmother, even after she soothed his teething gums. Instead, he cried and continued to go so until Robyn came inside and got him. She gave him a bottle of warm milk nearly a half an hour ago while sitting off to the side alone with him and he’s been fighting his sleep ever since.

“Tonight’s a stubborn night huh?” A chuckle slipped past her lips as she continued to caress his curls. His blinks were slow and those beautiful eyes were hazy and yet he fought to stare at her so she did what she always does; sung to him. Her song choice “Never Knew I Needed” by Ne-Yo from The Princess And The Frog soundtrack. She’d watched the film more than enough with her step-daughter to know the lyrics to every single song sung by the characters or played as a mood setting background track. By the time she’d gotten through the second verse, he’d fallen asleep with his mouth slightly ajar and one of his hands clinging to her shirt. That didn’t stop her. She continued to sing until the song was completed because she became immersed into the moment and most of all, into her greatest gift. In the ending silence, she continued to rock him until she glanced over and noticed her husband looking on at the moment. She didn’t know how long he’d been watching, but the peacefulness in his facial expression and smile said it had to have been a while. While standing up and clutching Jaxton close, she gave Jermaine a small wave and took their son inside to lay him down in the bed with his grandmother.

“What are you working on? You’ve been over here since we came back.” Jermaine looked up from the notebook in his lap and he rested the pen down in the nape of it. She'd been stealing glances at him throughout the night and no one interrupted the zone he’d been in. He had no headphones on. It was just him, the notebook, and his pen.

“An idea came to mind and I needed to get it down on some paper.”

“Am I interrupting? I can come back later.”

“You’re not interrupting at all. Take a seat.” After closing the notebook and setting it aside, he patted his lap, and Robyn eased herself down until she was comfortably sitting where he requested. Silence fell between the two of them as he reached his hand up and ran it through the strands of her hair. As Robyn stare into his eyes, she attempted to read his mind and figure out his thoughts but she came up short. What she did notice is his admiration for her within his glare. He’d yet to stop staring into her eyes while his mind remained embedded in whatever was in his thoughts.

“I love you so much.” His hand left her hair and he ran it down her arm and eventually over her thigh.

“I love you too. What’s up babe? You have something to tell me?” Robyn chuckled while raising an eyebrow at him and he laughed while shaking his head.

“No, not really. I just love you. You’re my heart. I’m a lucky man.”

“Jermaine. Are you drunk? What’s in that cup?” She reached over towards the table beside the chair and grabbed his cup. She took a whiff of it and there was no Hennessy in it; it was just juice. The failure of her assumption made him snicker in victory.

“I was staring at you while you were putting Jax to sleep and that was beautiful. Us, this morning, was beautiful. Just seeing you with the kids and us being a family means everything to me. It’s everything I’ve ever wanted and I just want more of that. I want more of you.”

“Jermaine, I’m your wife. It gets no higher than that. You mean another baby?” Her face contorted into confusion as she lightly dug her fingers into his hair.

“I want that eventually but right now, I mean you. All that we have right now. I want more time.”

“More time? Babe. I don’t understand.”

“Don’t worry about it. You’ll understand me soon.”

“Understand what? You’re scaring me Mr. Cole.”

“This isn’t anything to be scared of. It’s just me figuring out what matters and what I need. I know now more than I ever did before Mrs. Cole.”

Once more, she searched his eyes for the explanation that furthered his seemingly cryptic statements to her and he smiled while running his fingers over her face. His eyes held that peacefulness that often comforted her while they were teens in the Ville. The assurance within them were her security blanket and the knowing is what she fell in love with. Yet again, he'd given her a moment of knowing more than she did and said enough for her to trust that no matter what it is to come, it’s what’s best and will fulfill them.

“Well, whatever it is, I’m ready.”

“No, Baby Girl, I’m ready.”

With that being said, he leaned in and intertwined their lips.

[survivorwakea]

Episode #2: “yee yee can’t wait to DOM” - Anabel

a joint tribal!?!?!?! THIS IS JUST TOOOO FUCKING MUCH!!!!!! 

Tbh like I wanna win but I also don’t want to put in a lot of effort just for us to lose Bc I fully expect some other tribe to go try hard and I can’t see our sorry sack of losers being the best at any challenge much less one that requires effort

Okay so like anybody who thinks that this round is going to be anything near simple is absolutely oblivious to what game we are playing. This is going to be complete chaos. Whatever game plans you have come up with you can just toss out the window because I don’t think there is a single person that has any idea of what to aspect or even how the hell to handle this. Shot completely shot

I’m starting to get more and more annoyed with these people as time goes on. Are y’all aware this is for immunity and yalls games are on the fucking line? Because it definitely doesn’t look that way. NO EFFORT AT ALL BEING PUT INTO CHALLENGES. And the stakes are higher than fucking ever this round.

this fucking challenge is legitimately draining me bc i keep fucking up and i feel like joey and jared hate me lol.... i might jump out a window but we’ll see

it’s 1am, jared just told me he was proud of me and im legitimately SOBBING. this is the most exhausting challenge i have ever participated in.

So, we finished in second again. That is the good news. The bad news is, only one tribe wins immunity. So we’re at tribal with Haumea and Kanaloa. The question is, do we go with Haumea, and take away potential swing vote power from Kanaloa, or do we go with Kanaloa, and try to whittle another tribe down to 4? Decisions, decisions.

wow y’all i just called jared for like 45 minutes and he might be the kindest human on the planet ugh... im keeping him. he’s the new johnny. bye johnny helLO jared. and jared isn’t even straight!! so that’s another thing he has over johnny BESIDES being nicer than him (just kidding i love johnny so much johnny if ur reading this u will never be replaced)

can’t believe we won immmmm this is crazy i love this tribe and this game and that challenge yee yee can’t wait to DOM

So it looks like a 14 person joint tribal is coming like what the fuck! I'm excited though. This vote I can see being based off of activity. It's probably the safest move but I am saying that now, things can change later.

this joint tribal really got me fucked up. of COURSE we lose immunity. what a shocker. it’s not like ben fucked up two times in a row when we were so close to being in the 30s... if he would have never fucked up, we LITERALLY would have won. i’m so mad. but ugh. anyway. being at this joint tribal is a blessing and a curse. a blessing because i have 24 hours to kinda build other relationships outside of my tribe incase of a swap, while the other immune tribe is missing out on building relationships. a curse for the obvious.. i don’t wanna be voted off! yes, i have the idol, but i wanna just play like i don’t have it for now and i don’t wanna rely on that. i need to save that for the future. obviously, i have elmo’s back. even fucking bens back even tho he got me real mad. ian? he can go at anytime, i truly don’t give a fuck. he’s rude and disrespectful and i’m sick and tired of his slick ass remarks. adam? a non motherfucking factor. but i don’t want ian nor adam leaving in this tribal, just because i think i faked it so good and they actually think i like them. justin messaged me and i LOVE justin so i’m feeling good about that. taylor messaged me and he’s a king in training.. he could use a little more work. and johnny messaged me and he seems iconic. only red flag is.. he’s straight..! i know.. a big red flag. other then that, i have chloe on the other tribe and i talked to her a bit and i think we’re on a mutual understanding not to vote eachother out. so as of right now, it’s kinda just a wait and see who wants to thro the first name out, because i don’t. and to be completely honest, i don’t care who goes home. it’s to early to even throw a random name out and maybe have it come back and bite me in the ass. i really don’t care who it is. i’m willing to vote out absolutely anyone right now besides myself and elmo. so. we’re gonna have to sit and wait, but i’ll make sure it’s not me.

this is an interesting round bc i think logically in a normal situation a tribe with fewer numbers would be in the middle here but since the general vibe at least right now is that the blues (bar chloe and thomas i think?) are inactive so that tribe could end up being targeted

I think that there isnt rly a reason to make a big move at f19 in the game so i think most ppl will jump to whatever vote they hear first but at the same time usually u dont want to be the first one to throw a name out because ppl can pin the vote on u and make u a big threat etc i definitely need to talk to everyone on my tribe just to get their vibes i talked to zack and ben a lil and they both seem to agree that we should work with haumea

idk who will be the target but my prediction is either asya or dean honestly rn im just trying to be social with everyone bc if there is a change of plans or whatever then i dont want to be the one who will be paying the price

anyway im somewhat calm right now? i dont know if there is a plan already in the works without me but i highly doubt it also if there will be a plan that shouldn't involve me, im fairly certain that i would hear from it

What’s going on? Honestly idk. Not even sure who is on the other tribe and we aren’t far enough into the game for me to care too much (jk jk I care but also damn I don’t have time to get to know 5 more people). Luckily I already know and love Elmo. I’m really hoping I can sway him to vote for someone on his tribe instead of ours. But we will see. I don’t have much time today to play so I’m hoping I use the little time I have wisely.

So major Internet connection issues  forced me to unofficially sit out of the challenge. They carried over today and now I've barely spoken to anyone about tribal. I'm so out of the loop it's actually hilarious

Heading into what I believe will be a three tribe swap of 6 players each, I feel good. Not having to go to Tribal is making me a bit nervous tho, I need to get some blood on my hands in order to establish a place for myself in the game.

So first tribal for our tribe Haumea, and it's a joint tribal! Whoa! I've never been a part of a joint tribal, but I'm just trying to lay low and let everyone else decide what will happen. Of course socially I'm trying talk with everyone so I don't get targeted for NOT talking to people. It's also great for starting to build that foundation with some of the other players so when the eventual swap comes I can already have  connections. It's like using 2 -in-1 paint & primer🖌️ it's just more efficient, and time saving 😂 It seems that the consensus may fall on Dean from Kanaloa. I think it'd be a smarter move because it would anger the least amount of people. Leaving Kanaloa with only 3 members. But of course some things are never that easy, So i guess we'll see. Connections-wise I really like Elmo and Zacky, and would be interested to know more of and potentially work with Asya too. Johnny has definitely taken the leadership role of our tribe, which I'm completely okay o. Takes the pressure off of me and means I can just sit back, relax and enjoy the shield.

Oh god I feel so sick right now writing this. Being chucked into a tribal with like 12/13 other people most of whom I didn’t know was insane. Especially sort of feeling like I was on the bottom. All day people have been saying to me about Dean being inactive and I’ve been like ok cool I’ll vote him if that’s how it swings. And not it’s basically confirmed he’s the vote I feel sick that I have to turn my back on someone I’ve worked with the last couple rounds and who would told me he’d look out for me. But at the same time how can you look out for me if you’re never here and have put in very little effort to ensure that we didn’t end up in this position. I barely even had a proper chance to talk to the guy he’s been so inactive but I still feel like such a terrible person

https://soundcloud.com/bodhi-small/week2/s-seqAf

my tribe won immunity but we thought we lost it so that was funny

it allowed me to exercise my connections with people. it showed me that me and jared are close and that me and joey arent close! so im gonna go fix that if i can but hopefully we can win to the end

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Dean is voted out 11-1-1.

[survivorsolomonislands]

Episode 7 “a clusterf*ck of paranoia”- Daisy

WEFUC K WE  SDFEDSX JUST VTOTED OUT KAREN FUCK AND I'M TRYNA RALLY OUR SPIRTS SBACK UP AND THEN ISAAC STARTS REMOVIN PEOPLE'S GRASSY ASSES FUCK FUKFCJD FUFK FUCK WE FEDS THIS HAS GOT TO BE A FUCKING MERBE A MERGE AT 14 HOLY GOLLY GOSH GOOD MOLLY MOSH WHAT THE FUCKDJX FUCK FUCK FKPDSOF I NEEDED MORE TIME FRIFODKF FCK

(a little bit later)

I'VE BEEN DYING TO MEET JOHNNY AND I FINALLY DID AND HE'S FUCKING EVERYTHING I'VE EVER FUCKING WANTED IN LIFE HE CALLS ME HOMIE AND I SWEAR TO GOD HE'S NOT LIKE EVERY OTHER FRAT BOY YOU'VE MET HE'S BEAUTIFUL AND GLORIOUS AND I WANT TO TRAVEL THE WORLD WITH HIM BUT I ALSO WANT TO KILL HIM AND STRANGLE HIM BUT I FUCKING LOVE EVERY SECOND OF THE EXPERIENCE I LOVE HOW MUCH I HATE HIM

https://youtu.be/JNaS_mOM3yY

first off rest in peace karen i thought you were supposed to be good since you play so much but.. i suppose the mighty power of the chicken wing is not a force in tumblr survivor. anywho, so we switched like everyone expected but for some reason everyone thought it was a fun idea to freak out and be like "omg is it merge???" "WHATS GOING ON" "I DONT UNDERSTAND" ctfu yall literally knew damn well what was happening. its final 14 like it aint rocket science. as for my tribe, ive said it before and i will say it again - I HATE PURPLE!!! GET ME OUT OF HERE!!! it is just not flattering against my skin tone and that is literally my number one concern at the moment. that might insult those who play this game like its life or death but to me... this is a very big aspect of my luck in the game. every time (literally not even joking) i get some ugly ass color, im fucked thats just the way it is and the weird blue that luca insists is cyan - get a crayon set pls - was working just fine for me! i was slayyyyinngggg without doing anything meaningful which is all that matters to me since its really fun watching people go crazy while i just sit here eating my nuggets in the break room. current thoughts of my tribemates and fellow one worlders: johnny - king of making final 2's and being in a frat. a dumbass who spilled his entire game once we swapped and got ratted out the second he did. stupid stupid stupid! i need him as a number tho so i cant be hasty with my opinions tho so like a 6/10 dana - has a paper to write. thats all i got right now 4/10 l.a. - A LITERAL FUCKING GODDESSSSSSS! all of the rookies should be bowing at her feet for trying so hard to make them safe cause if i was her... they would get a stern talking to and no help at all (plus she can clearly count which is more than i can do). 100000000/10 luca - literally victor next (i dont actually think he is victor but this dude is seriously wack like i just do not understand why he had the need to call me a grandma when im not even that old? like where is the residential hag when i need her zzzz. also he said he likes skype emojis and then used the cactus emoji which victor also uses so clearly something fucked up is happening!!!!!!!!) 1-ish/10 mitchell - fake hoe next (tho i do love the flattery so i guess they are right in saying it gets you everywhere cause ya got a ticket right on the bottom - word of the wise btwwww, next time you play pls stop taking advice from ya eggs cause they clearly do not help just ask karen in prejury hehe) 1-ish/10 ryan - king of all things survivor. how has he not won a ts season.... 10/10 allie - is from florida so either an icon like me or is like cole tbd. as luca said, can "air hump" really well??? not really useful info but thats all i got so next??? aro - im the 1. next. daisy - i hate the smell of flowers :| next jacob - legend was tagged in some nice pictures on facebook recently so he can stay. matt - lmao next willow - our friend willow teas? what comes after 6.gif. next. i really do not like talking to people and sadly i must. tho i just finished this one kdrama and it was like 50 episodes and the dad died literally in the last half hour of the entire show.... im crying i really am HE WAS A GOOD FUCKING PERSON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! the world is so cruel and so harsh to the loving but so kind to the evil where did we go wrong :'( PPPPPPPS : [4/18/17, 11:29:35 PM] nancy.sweitzer: shut up trump supporter [4/18/17, 11:29:42 PM] nancy.sweitzer: i have receipts of you supporting trump BB i need some food to watch this with so lets have reward hm?

I'm both so happy and scared about this swap. BLESS ULAWA BEING GONE. THAT WAS THE WORST TRIBE. IT DOESN'T DESERVE TO EXIST. But yeah, a few people came to me and were like you carried that tribe and are amazing, and as nice as that is, YOU DON'T WANNA HEAR IT ON SURVIVOR. Cause now I have a huge target on my back for being a "challenge icon". I do not trust Daisy or Aro at all either so I'm worried they will gun for me, but they are both on the other tribe so that's a plus... Maybe, this one world thing doesn't help me there. Now I have to catch up with Jacob, and the rest of the alliance and see where we all stand. I'm trying to set something up with Johnny as well cause we sort of clicked at the start and I need people.

im too sick to carry on. i cant even see the light im too far gone

Hi MTV welcome to my own private corner of Hell. Seriously I guess my burning desire for some action really warranted this swap that put me in a terrible ass position. I love the One World beach because I can wave to literally every single person I was working with as they wear their Makira buffs with pride and I am stuck with all Rookies and Zak! The only people I know are Zak and Jacob, and Zak threw Daisy's name out and Jacob says he trusts Daisy so I can't even wrangle all my loose allies to form a little alliance. I'm just going to use my social game to earn favor with people like Willow and Allie so that I can maybe survive juuuuuust long enough to make it to the merge and reconnect with my homies. I'm sort of praying for a miracle, but I'm also going to do whatever I can to survive, and if that means throwing Jacob or Zak under the bus then so be it. I am scrambling like eggs in the morning. Hopefully I can convince people to target Aro for his wishy washy nature and because I have planted the seed that he has an idol, and honestly maybe he does, so I smell a blindside coming up, but if they're not willing to budge then I could be a dead boy walken.

Dana mom doesnt approve of the act of sending nudes but like I don't spread em like seeds in a pumpkin patch (like this swap is doing w my alliance tbqh) or anything not everyone gets to see the goods

(a little bit later)

All right binches here's the tea! Daisy has an idol, and is trying to get people to think aro has the idol bc he made up a lie about a fake idol that he doesn't have, which saved his ass a few rounds back, and Jacob and Allie are saying Aro is sketchy. NOW thats not what I like hearing because Aro is my husband and all, so automatically my Worry Senses are tingling as they usually are it would seem. What I'm tryna do is scrape together a me/willow/aro/Matt majority (since allie apparently doesn't trust aro so I can't trust her) but I suck at approaching people so it sucks that dana and Mitchell aren't on my tribe to help me :( but get for being the least experienced vet in tumblr left in this game I think I'm in a moderately decent position

Well Day 2 of NuNuTemoana is quite interesting, I'm starting to create scenarios that will hopefully put me in a good situation. A) NuNuMakira will throw the challenge and vote out Luca or LA and B) I create an alliance with Willow and Allie and we become the swing votes between Jacob/Daisy and Zak/Aro and if Daisy or Aro have idols they're shooting their bullets at each other and I've got a bulletproof vest. Fingers crossed.

I'm gonna model the rest of my game after Cirie bc boy does she have me fucked up seven ways to Sunday right-about-now o'clock Also I'm not gonna be home again after tomorrow until May except for one day in between so this whole new tribe/quickly approaching merge thing is gonna get really sad for me when I randomly just disappear forever :)

The past few days have been a whirlwind. From uncovering that dirty business with Matt to this One World swap, I find myself in a tribe in which I'm not sure if I can stay safe. It hurts that I can't compete in this next immunity too. I trust Johnny/LA, but as far as the rest? Question marks all over. I like Mitchell a lot, still haven't talked with Dana much, I have no clue about Ryan/Lexi but Johnny says Lexi is tight with him. So I'm really not sure what happens if we lose an immunity here, and winning challenges might be my only shot to stay in the game. So what happens next? No clue.

MMMMHMHMHMHMHMHM YES!!! Willow finally spilled the tea which confirmed our suspicions on Karen :))) now alls I need is Lexi to get the fuck out and I can be satisfied by outlasting all the snakes

So I've officially worked my way into an alliance with Allie and Willow, hopefully they're not playing me and we can actually work towards getting out Daisy or Aro. Now Mitchell wants me to get Daisy out so we can rope in Aro and Zak at the merge but I also have somewhat of a relationship with Jacob from nuTemoana and he seems to have a relationship with Daisy so I am hopefully safely in the middle of this tribe and will be deciding this vote, but there's also a large chance I'm gonna get squashed smack dab in the middle. I mean ideally we win immunity and the other tribe can get out LA or Luca which would be great. I need these rookie numbers thinned like the mints so that I have options if I'm in the merge. I have my Doofenshmirtz Evil Inc. Alliance which is Ryan, Mitchell, and Dana, I have nuTemoana which is Johnny, Jacob, Lex, and Ryan, and I have a possible alliance with Allie, Willow, and Mitchell. Preferably I wanna work with Mitchell because I trust him the most so far. But of course none of these numbers I'm running in my head matter if I can't make it until the merge which is crazy to me.

i wasnt successful in covering up my misery. i dont even know why i said i could do it since the only thing on that entire menu (all of the drink choices included) i actually do enjoy is the oreos so who knows what i was thinking. im going to get voted out i really am

tag yourself. im luca saying he cant compete cause they use blue solo cups instead of red solo cups in his country. isaac is la's roommate not letting her use her waterbottle. andrew is ryan only having glass in his house. pippa is matt actually doing this. stefan is willow beating the crap out of me. IM GOING HOME

Well I couldn't get it done today and that's a little disheartening, I definitely feel like I could be in danger and when you have the chance to save yourself and don't do it it sucks. I guess now my focus is on playing this game for like the first time this season honestly, a lot of things are at stake in this tribal, there's idols there's alliances there's tribe swaps, there's beef in this game, and I feel like hopefully I can shift the attention towards Daisy vs. Aro, but there's also a lurking nuMakira alliance that might form and getting an Ulawa out wouldn't do anything in the long run but I need to play to make it so that I'm safe until tomorrow or else there won't even be a long run. I wanted to be in a position where I could run a marathon but instead I'm like running a relay race tribal to tribal. If I get rid of Daisy Jacob may lose trust in me and join a Makira alliance, but also maybe I'll just join the Makira alliance myself? I mean I told myself I would do what it takes to win, my obligations are to myself at this point, not Temoana not Makira, not Vets, but MESELF. Well who knows at this point what's gonna happen, hopefully my plan works.

MATT STFU CALLING ME OUT IN THE MAIN CHAT YOU MOTHERFUCKER! Literally your ass would not be in this game right now if I didn't win the challenge where we counted in our confessional. The plan was in play, you were going to be gone, we had the numbers, and now you're on a tribe where it's minority veterans, so hopefully Allie and Willow aren't idiots, and they just take out Matt because he's kind of an arrogant prick, but I'm sure that something sketchy is going to happen, and they're going to take out a rookie, probably Aro or Daisy since apparently they're being sketchy motherfuckers. Grrrrrrrr Matt needs to stfu. I still have quotes of him talking about LA, so I might use that to my advantage, but we'll see how this goes for now. I'm not ready for merge and these unpredictable motherfuckers in Allie and Willow.... I have no idea where either of their heads are at. As for my tribe right now, I'm 99% sure that Lex, Ryan and I are in the driver's seat on this tribe, with Luca, LA, Mitchell and Dana all wanting to work with us. I wouldn't mind losing to get rid of Dana, because I really really really want her out, simply because I haven't spoken to her as much, and I'd prefer to have good relationships with everyone once we get to merge, and I don't want anyone to think about taking me out of this game because I don't have a good enough relationship with them, so we'll see for now. Ryan hinted this morning that he'd prefer Mitchell to go home over Dana, but I want Dana to go home, and I wanna keep my brolationship with Mitchell for as long as I can. This is just fuel for fire I can use against Ryan if I have to, to get Mitchell to trust me, since according to Ryan, Mitchell is obsessed with me.. I also won the challenge for my tribe single handedly because I'm the king of this game, and no one is on my level strategically, socially or physically if we're being honest. I just need to NOT be known as that big threat once I get to merge. Time to just pit people against each other and throw shit and sound dumb like I always  do ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Fuck this is so nerve wracking. I hate that I'm at tribal again. And I've recently been really anxious about the fact that L.A. knows I have an idol, and just now I found out that a lot of people know that I have it. Which means L.A. has been telling people. Which also means that I'm kind of screwed. I want to get out Aro because I know how tricky he is and how terrible he is in challenges, but he has the idol and if he plays it I could very well be going home. Plus I'm realizing that I don't really have any solidified alliances with a lot of these people so I could easily be targeted, especially since they think I have an idol. Honestly part of me just wants to play it tonight and get rid of it and get it off my back. Or give it to someone. But if I give it to someone, then other people will still think I have it and I'll still be a target. I could try to split the votes, but that seems kind of aggressive and I don't want to make myself a target if I'm not one already. Ugh, fuck. I wish I had someone to talk this over with.

(a little bit later)

Whew I know I just submitted but I have so many thoughts right now. Aro seems to think things are gonna go along tribe lines and it's gonna be me and him as swing votes. Willow brought up Aro's name to me. I'm nervous that Willow maybe brought up his name to make me feel more secure about it, and maybe I'm the target. Maybe Aro is right and things are gonna go along past tribe lines but I don't really want to work with him. Maybe I could try to split the votes between me and Aro and I'll play my idol and get rid of it. That would be dumb though, right? I hate that we have so little time and that like, no one is online right now. It's so hard to plan. Jacob told me he cast his vote for Aro because he only had a couple minutes before he had to leave and he wouldn't be gone. So theres gonna be at least one vote for him. Unless everyone is lying to me. Fuck I'm so paranoid right now, but I don't know how to figure out if its just paranoia or if there's actually something there. Also I'm trying to seem invested in planning out the vote with Aro so that he doesn't think I'm targeting him, but he could also quote me to others and make them think I'm targeting them. So now it seems like I have Willow, Matt, Jacob, and Allie all voting for Aro with me. Aro wants to target a vet and apparently he's close with Zakriah which means we may want to divert Zakriah too so that he doesn't leak to Aro and have him play an idol. But now I'm worried by suggesting that we divert Zakriah I'm playing too aggressively. Ugh. Aro said he's gonna talk to the rookies and see who they would rather vote for, I told them I'm trying to divert him so that they're not confused or surprised that he says I wanna vote for a vet when I already targeted him. This is a lot to deal with, and we don't have a lot of time. Tbh this confessional is a clusterfuck of paranoia.

Okay so I'm out with friends and don't have time to write a real confessional but I don't wanna get a strike. So if I get home in time I'll write a real confessional yeah

I think for the first time in Survivor history one of my plans is actually working, it seems that Daisy is totally sold that Aro is going and voting me and it's awesome if she ends up getting blindsided as intended. Jacob is getting two votes because he sucks and I want him to know he should be worried, he threw my name out, and he's untrustworthy, even after like I pretended like i was interested in his crush that he talks about at least once a day, it's almost more satisfying knowing that I can flip and get him out if I really wanted to. In fact I have my choice to vote Daisy, Aro, or Jacob, and if I'm not getting played that wold mean I've spun this terrible swap into a great spot for myself, and I love it. See what happens when I get a chance to really play?

I am so screeeeewed. So basically everyone except Daisy and Jacob wants to vote for Daisy but I am about 90% sure this is bs and I am getting set up for a big blindside. Well, it wont really be a blindside now but rip me

Okay so I only really have 13 mins to type out a fuck ton of information. This vote is crazy, so much has happened and we only had a few hours to strategize for this tribal. Anyway originally me and Allie were thinking about voting Daisy bc she told LA she has an idol, but then LA sent screenshots of Aro's idol. So I was panicking for a moment bc I thought it was real, but I talked to people, and he was probably really desperate, so i think were sticking to voting out Aro. I'm just typing out the short version of what actually happened, bc I don't have a lot of time, but basically me and Allie are the swing votes and I hope everything goes as planned.

As we near tribal Im starting to get the teeniest glimmer of hope. Willow, Allie and Matt seems to be pretty interested in working with me. If it goes according to plan its going to be 3 votes Daisy, 2 votes Jacob and 2 votes me. However Im still about 80% sure that Im going to get blindsided tonight so fingers crossed