#this is soooo silly but it’s good practice getting back into full time macden thinking. remembering who they are to me

[badnew2005]

silly little i can’t remember how i used to format posts but i am so full of thoughts i need to share. the macden of it all blue neighbourhood …

wild - fun macden song, both povs apply, it’s just they’re good and they like eachother .. and it’s good !!! s5 specific maybe

bite - similarly generic macden good relationship - both povs, they’re hooking up !! or !! could be applied to the ptsdee dream maybe ?? could have angst but . fork found in kitchen u know

fools - north dakota song. dennis pov . he thinks he wants that life with mandy but just can’t make it work he just can’t do it - key just just, he’s trying, it’s what ge wants obviously, this is what anyone would want. but he cant. and it’s ronald mcdonald he’s gonna leave this suburban esque i can’t think of the word life for. again.

ease - Another north dakota song. dennis pov again. missing philly missing the gang and his life, missing him and mac - missing honey and vinegar. ed bad. gave mac the wrong phone number. again this is the life he thinks he wants so badly, it’s the life he should have. “i’m afraid of the life that i have made”. it’s not him, it’s suffocating. wants to go back to before, pretend he never left that everything’s the same - that mac hadn’t come out that their relationship was still secret and wasn’t something that needed to be addressed (his own sexuality becoming public) etc etc etc

the quiet - north dakota MAC POV ! also post north dakota. their relationship is nothing. it’s silent. there’s separation. he left you. and then came back, but honestly he never came back. begging and pleading for everything to go back to normal to before - but dennis doesn’t want that before. you’ve come out and everything’s changed. you’re not going back into the closet though. not for him. but nothing should have changed, physically nothing changed but dennis was distant before leaving. the relationship was the same in macs eyes, he’s finally accepted the gay label publicly, but dennis won’t - and now that mac’s publicly out its as if their relationship is going to get that label too. they were best friends. everything. but now it’s all quiet, silent. even willing to start fights just to get him to say anything to you.

dkla - dennis pov, reflecting on their relationship, emotional and physical, but again he’s scared that mac coming out will get people to think he’s gay and he’s not ready for that - needs to cut mac off, make everyone Know for sure he’s not like mac or with mac. he hates mac even. having to keep reminding himself this, rather than reminiscing on how much he enjoyed their relationship when it was good.

talk me down - honestly i see this from both of their povs. obviously link to gets romantic just lying in bed together. early stages of their relationship or rebuilding that relationship, it Is emotional not just sexual. both struggling to accept that. building the emotional relationship, reaching out and acknowledging its not just sexual. it’s not like any of their relationships with women, they want to stay together after sex. theyre eachothers home.

cool - again could be seen from both povs, just thinking each other is Cool and wanting to be like that. i like thinking ab teen macden w it very awkward unsure of who they are and being infatuated w eachother and not quite understanding it. but that continues well into adulthood (and they still don’t understand it)

heaven - obviously SUCH a mac song. struggling with his sexuality and religion. maybe i don’t want heaven with goes to hell. there’s obviously a lot to say about mac’s struggle with his religion and sexuality and i don’t think here’s the righht place to explore it but, the song focuses on the same battle :) mac finds his pride dance ofc. and even though it’s only a scene the ptsdee dream where he’s just come out and the crucifixes usually behind his bed are laid down when he kind of acknowledges and accepts he Does have Feelings for dennis

youth - back to fun happy macden when their relationship is good. they gave their youth to eachother !! teen/young macden soooo fascinating to me. early seasons macden too. always feeling young together. stuck in time. and it’s nice

lost boy - dennis songggg. it could be both tbh but i like looking at things from dennis’ pov. pieces of shit !! accepting they’ve treated eachother badly. and not ready to Be Real be a real relationship. wanting to just keep having fun and calling it fun guy stuff, not serious relationship things.

for him - again cute happy macden song. idiots in love. you don’t have to say i love you to say i love you. changed the music industry forever. s5 macden prime happy silly in love.

suburbia - dennis pov, wanting to go back to philly and back to the gang and back to mac. wanting to go back to happiness. could be north dakota. i like thinking penn dennis. nostalgic (for disaster) also when applying to north dakota i like subverting ‘suburbia’ - he’s In suburbia with mandy but it’s not right - the traditional warm family feel of suburbia is what he associates w philly. just accepting he can’t let go of philly. it’s cute

too good - could be both again. second guessing their relationship. knowing it’s going to end. can’t stay fun and casual forever. someone’s gonna bring it up. call them an old married couple. bring attention to the gay undertones. and it’ll end. but just for tonight they’re still good. nobody’s talking about it. it’s just them. together

blue - mac pov. their relationship suddenly changed. dennis got distant. he’ll do anything to make dennis stay, or to stay with dennis. where they used to be. Who they used to be. and then dennis came home. all of a sudden. but it’s not dennis. they’re not mac and dennis anymore. that struggle wanting their relationship back after north dakota, after the lottery ticket.

wild - good relationship macden song, i like from dennis’ pov, still being in love with bossy mac who wants him soooooooo bad. and it works. a conversation between the two of them. wildly devoted, infatuated. never knew loving could hurt this good. “leave this blue neighbourhood” could be den leaving maureen leaving the marriage he thought would fix him because . it’s mac. it’s always going to be mac.