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sugarcoatedtooth · 2 days ago

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THIS IS SO CUTE AOHSOWHOS

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heyy! can i ask for a killua x fem! reader, where the reader is a healer and killua comes back with major wounds/scars from a fight and the reader has to take care of him,even thought she's just a novice hunter 🥺 thank you and take your time. have a nice day!💞

ahh i was thinking about writing something like this! i tweaked with it a little, i hope you don’t mind 🥺 thank you so so much for requesting! <3

pairing: killua zoldyck + reader

warnings: descriptions of wounds, blood, and slight agnst. overall fluff 🥺

with every footstep, the grass below you rustled.

heavy pants left your lips, the feeling of exhaustion slowly increasing. you fought the urge to stop, though your legs were practically screaming in protest.

every stride had gotten faster, the adrenaline fueling your speed.

you needed to get there as quickly as possible.

no amount of certainty could calm you down - your head was spinning and the aching feeling in your gut wouldn’t loosen.

the dreadful phone call you had recieved only minutes ago was stuck on replay.

the fright that was easily heard from their tone of voice - it haunted you.

“y-y/n! you have to come! killua-“

at the mere sentence, you had hung up and rushed to where you last saw your group.

he promised you that he’d be careful.

he promised that he’d come back unscathed.

he promised you that everything would be alright.

it were bare promises made by the link of your two pinkies.

now, he had broken it.

killua was strong and skilled. you knew that. he had endured a lot within his entire life.

rarely was he ever injured.

which meant that when he was, it was bad.

reluctantly had you let him and gon leave without you.

their reasoning was that you were “the most important element of the team” and with your abilites, it put you at a valuable position.

though you weren’t as nearly skilled as they were in combat, your ability to heal wounds made you the anchor of the group.

if someone got hurt - you’d be there to save them.

but regardless of how powerful your nen was - it didn’t have the ability of preventing injuries.

all you could do was make them better.

you wished there was a way to shield your friends from harm’s way. you hated to see them in pain. yet - you were grateful you were gifted with the power to eventually take that pain away.

it was hard to see in front of you - the moon barely granting any light to your surroundings.

you trusted your pure instincts to lead the way through the dark forest, mentally giving yourself words of encouragement to ease your anxiety.

he’ll be okay.

you’re going to help him.

don’t slow down now - you’re almost there.

and with another turn, you faintly made out the sight of bright green clothing.

a boost of energy ran across your body and you suddenly began to sprint. your heart felt like it was going to beat out of your chest - the aggressive pounding becoming admittedly concerning.

“gon!”

you watched as his head snapped up, his eyes growing wide as he noticed you.

you reached him in mere seconds, panting heavily. sweat ran down your face - your figure tembling in exhaustion.

you couldn’t stop - not now.

hastily, gon grabbed your wrist rather roughly, pulling you along as he headed toward a larger tree.

your head spun as you followed him, the lack of rest slowly catching on to you.

you disregarded your condition - eyes trailing on gon’s dark hair.

he hadn’t said anything.

“w-where is he?” you questioned, fear crawling on your skin as you noticed his lack of words.

his back was faced toward you, his head down low as he increased his pace.

“gon? gon! where’s kil-“

as you turned the corner, you felt like you were going to pass out.

upon a tree laid a far-too-familiar boy.

his body covered in wounds.

never, had you seen injuries as bad as the ones your eyes were currently laid upon.

for a second, you forgot how to breathe.

the condition he was in was almost scarring - you felt sick to your stomach.

“killua!” you exclaimed, dropping to your knees beside him. your hands shook as they cupped his face. his chest was rising rather slowly, each breath labored.

to your relief, his eyes slightly open, half lidded as they gazed upon you.

the blue was rather dim, now supporting more of a depressing gray.

the sight made you let out a whimper, your head quickly shaking in disapproval at your action.

now isn’t the time to panic.

“o-okay,” you breathed, swallowing the sob that threatened to come out. “you’re going to be okay - alright, kil?”

it was more of a rhetorical question.

and as much as you didn’t want to admit it -

it sounded like you were trying to convince yourself more than him.

“stay strong for me, please.” you begged, gently pressing a hand on his abdomen - where his most severe injury was.

killua jolted against your touch, hissing at the painful contact.

the wound was deep - blood had completely soaked the clothes around it. from what you had seen - it looked like a miracle that he was still conscious. the blood loss was extreme.

“i know, i know.” you cooed, smoothing out his hair, trying your best to comfort him.

the amount of energy it’d take to completely heal him would be.... draining.

but if it meant that he’d be alright in the end - you’d do it a hundred times again.

lifting his shirt, you smoothed your hand across the damaged skin, whispering an unintelligible phrase under your breath.

killua had seen you heal people dozens of times.

he could never exactly hear what you muttered to yourself before you healed someone.

he was sure it was the name of the ability - but he never dared to ask. since you said it so lowly each time - it was clear you wanted it to remain a secret.

your eyes closed in concentration, carefully directing your aura to your hands.

you had been blessed with an ability to take away pain.

something that so many people craved - you could easily do in within seconds.

the aura in your hands glowed a bright white, shielding the view of killua’s injuries.

it grew slightly difficult to keep your hands in place - your eyes shutting even tighter as you drew a deep breath.

killua laid still, his eyes widening as the aching pain all over his body began to dull away.

all traces of blood were fading - the deep wounds on his skin slowly closing.

is this what angel’s breath felt like?

he could hardly remember.

when he had originally experienced it, it was on the lands of greed island.

his hands had been severely damaged due to the game of dodgeball against razor.

an adrenaline-filled memory, to say the least.

he recalled the use of the angel’s breath card.

when it had been used on him, it felt like a refreshing gust of wind. it had happened too quick for him to completely remember.

but this - your ability felt much different.

from the second you laid your hands on him, he immediately felt better. the comfort of your presence - you were the angel.

nothing was too quick. he could perfectly engrave every single detail in his mind.

he could see your nen.

he could see his injuries being restored.

his eyes didn’t miss one detail.

and he certainly didn’t miss the look of desperation on your face as you gently comforted him, begging him to keep his eyes open.

“killua?”

he blinked, nearly jumping at the sudden call.

you sat beside him, your expression full of relief. exhaustion was also part of it - but you could manage with it.

you had done your best.

with the amount of pure concentration it took - you managed to stop all the bleeding and heal all of the major wounds.

thankfully, your best had been enough.

“how do you feel?” you softly asked, your expression full of worry.

you felt guilty that you couldn’t completely heal him - you lacked the energy to. any more longer and you’re sure you would’ve passed out.

killua attempted to sit up, though immediately fell back, a groan leaving his lips.

your eyes widened, your arms wrapping around his torso to help him.

“i-i’m so sorry i couldn’t be more use - i promise i’ll heal you better, just give me five min-“

a harsh pull into his chest shut you up.

with a surprised gasp, arms wrapped around you. you felt him bury his face into your neck, his breath slightly tickling you.

“i should be sorry, idiot.”

you froze.

“i promise you i’d be careful.” he continued, closing his eyes. “i’m so sorry for breaking that. along with everything else.”

slowly, you copied his actions, embracing him.

he shouldn’t feel guilty. especially after what he just went through.

“don’t be. i’m just glad i made it to you on time.” you whispered. you felt his grip tighten.

“thank you for that.” he breathed. from his hold on you, he still felt your body shaking.

it was reasonable - a few minutes too late and he could’ve died.

the mere thought of it drove the two of you anxious, the need to embrace one another growing stronger.

a quick thought circled your mind, your head lifting from killua’s shoulder as you inspected the area around the two of you.

gon was no where in sight.

sensing your tensed body, killua pulled away, raising a brow at you.

he noticed your wandering eyes, realization hitting him.

“he went to get everyone else.”

you blinked, tilting your head at the white-haired boy.

the sudden absence of your green-clothed friend worried you, anxious thoughts appearing in your mind.

“how do you know?” you questioned, furrowing your brows.

killua sighed at your cautious self, shaking his head. he knew you were still on edge - rightfully so.

“i told him before he contacted you. in case of an emergency like this.” he explained, his bright blue eyes looking at you.

relief soared through you, a sigh leaving your lips.

“alright.” you replied, nodding.

your gaze turned to killua, scanning his face.

a few small cuts were scattered across the skin - though nothing bad.

“we need to get you cleaned up.” you mumbled, gently running a thumb over a tiny bruise on his jawline.

killua hummed in response, his eyes closed.

with a heavy sigh, you leaned against the tree behind you.

for a moment, it was peaceful.

the wait for the rest of the group was filled with long talks.

you almost lost each other.

you felt the need to bask in one another’s presence.

for every laugh that was shared, you felt your heart grow more and more.

if you hadn’t been there in time...

you could’ve lost him.

though, here he was.

right beside you.

a smile on his face.

staring at you with the most loving eyes you could ever imagine.

and you thanked the world for it.

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salem-witch-slut · 2 months ago

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These Trembling Hands(18+)

Sevika X Fem!Reader

SYNOPSIS: Since Silco died, you hadn't seen Sevika after months of her visits nonstop. When she finally comes back to the brothel, you couldn't help but notice one thing... She looked so, so tired.

WARNINGS: Descriptions of past sex (very minor), breast fondling (also pretty minor), only rated 18+ because dirty things were mentioned. Pretty tame overall. Brief mentions of SA of a minor (TRIGGER WARNING)

WORD COUNT: 4K (EXACTLY OMGGG)

A/N: This is a sequel fic to my Prostitution kinktober prompt. I loved it too much to hang it out to dry. And damn, you guys are eating that fic up. Over 1K notes in 2 days. Bunch of whores, the lot of ya!

DIVIDERS MADE BY @cafekitsune

You had heard rumors of Silco being killed, but that was all you heard of it. You could see from your shitty home terrace deep in the underground of the Undercity. People were scared, things were chaos, and the gangs were at war with each other. Without their leader, the Zaunites were rogue and killed whoever they saw fit. Luckily for you, you weren’t exactly a target as a brothel employee.

It was more valuable to keep you alive, and everybody knew you were loyal to one Zaunite in particular that even after everything, she’s still as powerful as ever. Still a force to be reckoned with, but does not act unless prompted to.

Sevika hadn’t been back to see you since Silco’s confirmed death. You simply assumed she had far too much work to do as the leader of keeping the peace between the gangs. Which was insane, because peace talks were never her job.

You hated to admit it… Oh, fuck that, you would scream it from the rooftops. You missed Sevika so bad. You missed her touch like it was what kept you alive. She saw you nearly every single week before Silco’s death and now the only way you know she’s alive is from the whispers on the streets.

Every day you would come in and hope for her presence, but you were never lucky. You never got to see her handsome face and your body begged for an actual release, or that cool metal from her cybernetic arm. You loved the chills you got from the sharp talon like fingers raking over your rear and leaving marks in your skin.

God, you missed her. You missed her husky voice, how she held you when you came on her fingers, how she encouraged you to bite her, the praise she gave, mixed with degradation… You were addicted to Sevika, and it was embarrassing.

The entire staff knew about your obsession with her. She once left a handkerchief of hers in your room after she used it to wipe the sweat from her face and you kept it. Oddly enough, it smelled just like her and you simply enjoyed having it in your presence. Sevika made you feel wanted. Was that so wrong to love?

You kept it with you all the time. You had it in your pocket even as you walked into work that day.

It was just like any other morning as you entered through the backdoors and got set up in your assigned room that you had, over time, personalized to fit your personality. You had a thing for dark candles and burning herbs that had been known to have relaxing properties. It made your life much, much easier and Babette encouraged it so you wouldn’t need to call out of work once again for your bruised cervix.

You chewed on your thumbnail as you sat yourself down, prepared to get dressed in your signature outfit of dark colors that the clientele loved, when the curtain pulled back to your room without warning. Your entire body went rigid as you looked up, and your breath got caught in your throat.

She came back! You tried to not let your excitement show as you stood up from your seat, cursing at your frumpy outfit. Baggy sweatpants and a baggy sweatshirt that kept you warm in the dark underground city. Your hair was a mess and you hadn’t done your makeup yet but she barely even blinked as she stood in the doorway.

“S-Sevika, I–” You stuttered, looking at the cloak on her shoulder and then up to her face… Oh, she looked so, so tired. Her eyes had dark circles under them, partially bloodshot and her cheek was cracked, evidence from the overuse of shimmer from her cybernetic arm. She had a fading bruise on her brow, and healing cuts over her neck and near her cheeks. “Sevika?”

The tall woman finally made eye contact with you and you watched her toss off her cape and throw it to the floor. You noticed her arm was missing, and there was a frayed wire sticking out of the socket. It looked like it was ripped out of the mechanics on her shoulder as she slowly approached you and made you stumble backwards until your legs smacked into the bed.

Sevika watched you fall onto the bed, your face turning pink as she let out a long, big sigh and got down on her knees. For a second, you thought she was going to eat you out… But then you simply felt her head rest on your thighs and her arm wrap around your waist.

“Sevika, are you–”

“I’m tired,” She said, her voice wavering and cracking. You could smell the alcohol on her body and you could feel your heart almost breaking for her. “I’m so… so tired…”

“Oh honey,” You cooed softly, your hands reaching up and gently rubbing at her scalp. The crime lord visibly relaxed, feeling you remove the hair tie from her brown strands as you slid it on your wrist and raked your fingernails over her head. “You must be just exhausted… You’ve been doing everything out there.”

“Shit never stops,” Sevika pushed her nose into your thigh. “It’s always something… Someone is always getting killed, and I have to fix it. I used to be the one with the blood on my hands, and now I’m cleaning it off someone else’s.”

“I know,” You said, combing your fingers through her hair. “You’re the best at what you do.”

“What I did,” Sevika scoffed. “Doesn’t matter now… It’s just me holding it together.”

Words seem to fail you as you simply rubbed at the back of her neck, one hand sliding from her hair and down the back of her shirt, nails crossing over her skin and making the muscular woman shiver in your hold. This was completely different from what you two had grown used to.

Normally, Sevika would be making you scream at this point. She would stretch you on her fingers and praise you as you pulled on her hair and called out her name like it was the last thing you would ever say. But now? Sevika was too exhausted to do anything… Why was she here then? Why not at her home, sleeping?

You sat there with her for almost ten minutes, simply playing with her hair and rubbing her back. After a while, you could feel her breathing get a bit heavier and you frowned, looking down and seeing how she was almost asleep in your lap.

“Sevika,” You said gently, feeling her hand flex in your shirt as she looked up and then visibly relaxed at seeing your face. You smiled sweetly before scooting back on the bed and removing your sweatshirt. You flopped backwards in your plain white tank top before patting the space next to you. “Come here.”

“Y-You know, this isn’t what I pay for,” Sevika stuttered, her ears going pink for a second. You had never heard her stutter before! It was adorable. You simply rolled your eyes and reached out with both hands, undoing the fasteners on her shirt. The woman’s breath hitched as she went tense for a second, her hand reaching for your wrist out of instinct. “What are you–”

“Just relax,” You spoke softly, reaching up and sliding the shirt from her body down onto the floor. Underneath was a simple black stained shirt with tears near the collar. You scooted back once again and patted the mattress. “How long did you pay for this time?”

Sevika hesitated as she sat down on the edge of the bed, reaching down and undoing the buckles of her boots. “All day?”

You chuckled, rolling your eyes and wrapping your arms around her waist. Sevika looked down, used to being able to reach down with her cybernetic arm but now it was simply phantom feelings.

In seconds, you two were crawling into bed as Sevika immediately wrapped her arm around your waist and pushed her head against your soft chest, basking in your warmth and listening to your heartbeat.

If there’s one thing you didn’t expect from today, it was this. You were expecting another hard, rough day with no rest and no breaks between clientele, but this was a very, very pleasant surprise. Your hands stayed put, rubbing at her back and holding her forearm that was draped across your middle. You could feel her breathing become more heavy, and you simply looked down before smiling.

She looked so peaceful… Her lips were parted slightly, the gap in her front teeth more prominent as she breathed heavily, a snore escaping her as she dug her fingers into your side. It was then that you realized something. Something that you definitely should have realized before after all these months with Sevika being your favorite client– No, favorite person.

You felt something for her. It went beyond simple affection or fascination with the woman. It was every time you saw her come in. You felt your heart skip a few beats and you were wrapped up in her arms almost immediately. Sometimes she stops by just for an hour, sometimes she’s here for almost four hours. But no matter how long, she never neglected your feelings.

Sevika was a rough lover, but she was so good at taking care of you, even if her aftercare was slightly condescending. She would wipe you off while calling you a messy whore. She would wrap a blanket around your shoulders while gently slapping your cheek. She would laugh at you as you lay in the pile of pillows on the floor, but still managed to get you water if you asked nicely.

And yet, even after all these months, there was one line you two had yet to cross, no matter how badly you wanted to. It felt too personal… A big jump between client and lover. Sevika couldn’t possibly see you like that. She pays for this. She has never attempted to see you outside of working hours, and you were sure she could easily find you. Not like you went anywhere outside of work and home and the occasional food stop.

The thoughts plagued your mind as you watched her sleep on your chest, seeing her lips move as she mumbled something and pushed her face deeper into your tits. You raked your fingernails slowly over her back, being gentle enough to keep her sleeping, but not so light that it tickled and woke her up. You were fully content with being like this all day long. If she paid for an all day session, this would be more than enough to keep you happy. She didn’t even need to touch you to make you happy. Sevika being here was good enough for you.

As the time went by, you could feel your eyes growing heavy with every passing second. You wanted to close them so bad, but every moment with Sevika felt precious to you. You wanted to kiss her. You had never been able to do that before… you wanted to so badly, it was eating at your soul and making your heart race. Your stomach was filled with butterflies and part of you felt like you would throw up, but it was simply eating at you.

Would she push you away? Would she refuse to come back? Or worse, would she retaliate? It felt like Sevika liked you too beyond just a body to play with, but you weren’t sure… Well, asking was out of the question. You knew words would fail you and you would sit there stumbling on your sentences like a moron. This was your only option.

Very carefully, you slid down the mattress and felt her lift up her head so she could rest it on the pillow as you moved. Sevika made a face of disappointment as she opened her eyes and blinked a few times in order to readjust to the soft lighting of the room. From this close, you could see how the candles reflected off her irises and you could see the flecks of purple around the corner from when she would use shimmer.

She stayed quiet, simply looking at you as you slowly reached down and grabbed at her hand. Her brows creased, seeing your slight distress and scooting herself slightly closer. Her body heat had your breath hitching. “What’s wrong, doll?”

Fuck, that nickname made your heart flutter. It felt like a rabbit was kicking at your chest behind your ribs as your hand slid up the length of her arm. You could feel the muscles underneath flexing, almost like she was teasing you on purpose. Her body was solid muscle and all strength; with sharp edges and tough skin. You loved every single inch of her.

“Sevika, I–” You tested your voice, and felt it crack like glass. Your face went pink as the smirk that did reside on her face slowly began to vanish. The silver irises glinted with confusion. She was genuinely concerned now as she saw, and felt your hand shaking as it slid up her arm and carefully rested on her cheek.

“What are you doing?” Sevika asked, her voice barely above a whisper. You blinked slowly, biting your lip before scooting closer.

A moment passed, and you simply couldn’t take it. “Screw it.”

You grabbed the back of Sevika’s neck under her hair and pulled yourself upward, your lips finally connecting with hers. The woman went stiff, her entire body rigid against yours as her eyes widened and she made a noise of surprise. A noise you had never heard from her before. It made your legs press together as you refused to breathe until you separated from her.

It scratched an itch deep in your brain that you didn’t know was eating at you. It felt like a hot shower after a cold day. It was like breathing after being underwater. It was everything you had expected… Minus Sevika not reciprocating…

When you broke off from her lips, you saw that she was laying there in pure shock. Her eyes were wide and the hand on your hip twitched as you looked down, refusing to meet her eyes. You were worried now. She looked almost upset with you as you refused to meet her gaze, scared of the repercussions.

“I’m sorry,” You said, close to sobbing. “I-I don’t know what came over me. I didn’t mean to overstep and I was just– I don’t know what I was–”

Your words were cut off as Sevika gently tucked her knuckle under your chin and tilted your head back up to meet her eyes. And you saw her cheeks tinted a soft pink and her eyes were sparkling. And that was the last thing you saw before she was jolting forward and recapturing your lips like she couldn’t live without it.

Instantly, your hands went around her neck and you pulled her close, drowning in everything that was the woman named Sevika. How intense she was with every aspect of her life and how she gave 100% with all her actions, and that included kissing. Her tongue gently teased at your lips and you responded with your own, pressing it against hers and slipping it passed her teeth.

Sevika groaned, grabbing at your hip and pressing your entire body against hers, allowing you to feel how warm her skin felt on your own. It was like touching a livewire; you couldn’t break away even if you wanted. You couldn’t get enough, and you wanted more. So, so much more…

Your stomach twisted in your gut as you began sitting up off the bed and before you could stop yourself, your legs moved until you were sitting on Sevika’s hips, holding her down and breaking off from the kiss for a brief second.

There was a look in her eyes, almost like she was challenging you. Her brows knitted together as she panted, her hand curling against the bedsheets and her chest rising with each harsh inhale she took. Dear fucking Gods, she was sculpted by deities you didn’t even know existed. Her taut abdomen sucked in with each breath and you saw the outline of her abs through the shirt riding up on her waist.

Maybe someone else would have been put off with her only having one arm, but you didn’t care. It didn’t diminish her strength, and she could fair fine without it. Even with just a hand, she was able to break you and you would thank her.

“Someone’s being bold today,” It was that same flirty condescending tone she used with you all of the time. You ate it up as your fingers traced down her chest, between the valley of her breasts before stopping to trace a few little patterns into the flesh showing below her shirt. You felt her abdomen tremble at your touch, and you smirked. “Get that smile off your face.”

“I can’t help it,” You said, fingers twitching as you reached forward a little more and began sliding her shirt upward to expose her stomach and staring at her chiseled muscles in full view. Your breath hitched and you felt your toes curl up. “So perfect…”

Sevika groaned, putting her hand over her face and covering her eyes. Almost like she was embarrassed of your words, but that would be silly. Sevika doesn’t get embarrassed. She isn’t capable of that. Is she?

The veins almost popped in her forearm as she grabbed her face, feeling your soft, uncalloused fingers stroke along her ribs and slide up even more. You could feel yourself getting wetter with each passing second as you breathed hard, licking at your lips. This was a huge moment for both of you.

You had never seen Sevika without a shirt before. Never seen all of her and hardly ever got to touch her like this. You felt like you were in control. This was insane.

“S-Stop me if it’s too much,” You said, voice wavering as you pushed the shirt up the rest of the way. Your insides damn near melted at seeing her breasts for the very first time. You had a feeling it was just as strong as the rest of her, but you didn’t have proof until now. And another suspicion you had? Yes, her nipples were pierced. You fucking knew it.

“You done?” Sevika snapped, looking down at you and narrowing her eyes. You blinked, not realizing just how long you were staring at her until she knocked you out of your stupor. “Not some sideshow attraction here, doll.”

“Really?” You chuckled, reaching up and cupping her breasts with both hands. “Because I think I should be paying to see you.” Your fingers traced over her piercings and Sevika gasped, her body jerking towards your touch like she was desperate for it.

Sevika was a vision. And you were desperate to see more.

It wasn’t long until you were reaching down for her belt and unzipping her pants when she reached out with her hand and grabbed at both of your wrists. You immediately stopped, looking down at her and seeing the wild look in her eyes and how her body was almost on the offensive.

“Wait,” She pleaded. Your heart broke. “Just… just wait, please, give me just a minute.”

“Sevika,” You frowned, releasing her belt and scooting closer towards her. Something was off about this, and you just had to know what was going on. “What’s wrong? Talk to me.”

“It’s just that… I just…” Her entire face fell as she sat up and dropped her head down. Her hair covered her face as you reached forward and pushed it away to look at her. “No one has done that before. I haven’t… let anyone touch me like this.”

“Honey,” You cooed, leaning down and looking into her eyes. Sevika pressed her lips into a thin line and looked up through her lashes, the bruises under her eyes more prominent from this angle. “Talk to me.”

The woman scowled. It was an internal battle for her to admit any of this, especially to you. Sevika knew how you saw her, and this was just crossing some kind of line in her mind. You saw her as a strong, unmovable force that could never be injured or taken down. You saw Sevika as a god, and she was about to shatter that illusion.

“It was when I was a kid,” Sevika admitted. “I was a scrawny little shit, you know? A gutter rat… an easy target,” For a brief second, her eyes watered but she blinked it away. “I didn’t stand a chance back then.”

There was a moment of confusion before the pieces clicked into place and you felt your entire body go rigid. You felt sadness, empathy, compassion… rage. Pure, blood-boiling rage as you pressed a soft kiss against her forehead. You couldn’t show your anger, but you wanted to hunt whoever it was down, and watch them bleed out slowly. How could anybody do that to her? To a child?

“I’m sorry, I–”

“Don’t,” Sevika looked away immediately, her lips curling into an almost snarl as she looked down at the sheets, trying to distance herself. You tried not to flinch as you scooted back in the bed and gave her space. “I don’t tell people shit for that reason. I don’t need pity. I don’t want it either.”

“Okay,” You bit down on your lip, tucking your legs under your body and putting both hands on your thighs. Sevika noticed your sudden change of attitude and she stood up from the bed. Before you could ask what she was doing, she started pacing back and forth, rubbing at her jaw and trying to sort out her thoughts. You sat there silent, scared if you said a word that she would snap and the moment you two shared would be over.

It was almost three whole minutes before she stopped pacing. You felt like you were trapped in a cage with a wild animal. So unpredictable and volatile, but just scared of what you could do to them and they feel the need to defend their existence. Your heart went out to her, and you wish you could take back your actions because now everything was shattered, just as you feared.

“What the hell are we doing?” Sevika muttered into her hand. She turned to look at you and saw that you weren’t looking up at her, and almost like it was happening in slow motion, a tear slipped down and splattered onto your leg. You didn’t look up… until she said your name. Your real name, not a nickname or pet name.

“Look,” Sevika said, sitting back down on the bed and reaching out to take your face in her hand. You leaned into her touch and held back a whimper. “This all got out of hand… Somewhere between us, the lines started blurring. Went beyond me paying to fuck you–”

“You’re not coming back,” You shivered. Sevika visibly recoiled at your words. “Are you? I ruined this, and now you won’t come back again.”

“Hey now,” The woman immediately grabbed at your chin and forced you to look up. “Don’t put words in my mouth, doll. I never said that.”

You whimpered. “Then… What are you saying?”

A gasp left you as she pressed her lips into yours once again and sighed, her hand tangling in your hair and rubbing at the back of your neck. It was just as fucking amazing as before and you were visibly upset when she broke off.

“I’ve got a reputation to keep up, you know? We just… have to keep this quiet, understand?”

“You mean,” You said. “Like a secret?”

“See?” Sevika chuckled before kissing your cheek. “I knew you weren’t dumb, sweetheart.”

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