#this is so corny i hate myself😞

[tiffysdeath]

HE LOOKS SO ADORBS IN THIS PIC UGH

[dadkisser15]

Bitter

I’m so bitter right now, I feel so bitter knowing that if I was her you would’ve probably stayed and spoke so more. Instead I was met with silence and I am oh so bitter. If she asked to match you would’ve said yes, I got a maybe and I am so extremely bitter. I feel bitter knowing I showed my body off to you just to be treated like an after thought, I desperately want your attention and reassurance yet all I’m receiving as of now is just snippets of your attention. You couldn’t even have an actual conversation with me, no distractions; a genuine 1 on 1 when that’s all I’ve been craving these past few days. Just to simply enjoy some time with you, make you laugh and just be able to bathe in the warmth of your sweet voice. Was I only good for lust? Was it really just that? I feel so bitter knowing that I probably don’t mean a lot to you. I really do have strong feelings for you and this just hurts me so bad. Is it because you don’t like me anymore? Why am I being treated differently, am I not your princess? It sounds corny but a lot of the things you say to me mean so much, the hold you have on my heart is beyond words. I just want something with you, I don’t want something “causal”. Maybe I should just give up on this, even though It would hurt me so bad. I really thought my company and affectionate meant something to you; after that one conversation we had. You told me you felt as if I was giving up on speaking with you, I hadn’t asked to call or hang out that entire week or so and you were right, I was slowly giving up; it wasn’t because I didn’t want to do any of that but because I was aware you were hanging out with another girl but it’s like the same thing is happening again but you don’t care this time. I’m actually trying this time because I thought iy meant something to you, yet I got stood up two days and today you barely spoke with me. I was so excited to speak with you even though my faith was diminishing, i was so excited to hear you but you were distracted the entire time and it made me feel shitty since I was sitting there doing nothing since I really just wanted to do something together or just talk. I was grateful for your company but I wanted to cry the whole time. I even did my makeup because I wanted you to see me, call me pretty maybe? I also wanted to see you but again i was given a maybe 😞. I feel like giving up because you aren’t giving me any of your time but im afraid this time you’ll actually just forget about me and I still want what we have. God kev. Kevin. My baby. ☹️ I just want you and your love. I wanna tell you what’s hurting my mind and I wanna express myself but I’m so unsure about everything. I hate feeling bitter towards you, it isn’t like im mad just I feel so disappointed and insecure.