#this is not a hiatus announcement bc i’m still posting here and there btw. i’m just not making gifs djdjdj 😭😭😭

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really sad i didn’t get a straw hat badge on this account 💔 bring it back!!!!!

[goldenhypen]

hiii quick announcement post… i am officially back from my hiatus !! omg i’ve missed you guys sm like <//3

to update you guys on some stuff that’s been happening in my life while i’ve been gone,,, well everyone has their ups and downs but overall i’ve been doing pretty good !! ,, omg it’s been so many months, literally almost half a year sorry y’all 😭 and thanks again to all of you who have waited patiently for me to come back. i feel i don’t even deserve you all to be here yet here you are 🥺💗 and huge shout out to every one of my moots and friends too btw :( <3 there’s a bunch of y’all that still took the time to reach out to me despite being gone and i rlly appreciate that and love you :( big heart for you guys 🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻

during my time off, i did lots of thinking and reflecting and honestly there were many times where i was highly considering coming back here only to say that i’ll stop writing. i was having a huge motivation loss and during that time surprisingly even started drifting away from enhypen. i’m still recovering (for a lack of a better word) from these things and even finding my way back to enha. they’ll always hold a special place in my heart tho, i can’t get rid of them that easily haha.

anyways, i have a lot prepared for the future of this blog,, and beyond,,, and so i’m rlly excited, and i hope you look forward to it !! also bc i’m slowly making my way back into things and i have lots of new stuff prepared, i’ll be clearing out my old requests that i never got to months ago, i’m so sorry to those who requested and i’m so grateful for you 🫶🏻 but thank you for understanding.

[dearly]

some responses/questions to my vent post under the cut. 

everything we’re seeing? i started to think they might be broken up in 2017 and everything that has happened since the “hiatus” only makes sense to me if they broke up at some point after it took place. 

i mean, even in the beginning of 2016 there were indications that they were still together, imo, including matching travel patterns and the bears until their deactivation. but that fell apart later in the year and i have a hard time imagining how they could still be together when the label that is rolling out a red carpet for harry is the same one that is stifling louis -- especially when harry has the azoffs on his side. i can’t reconcile the tightening of louis’ closet and the loosening of harry’s with them still being together.

of course, i could be wrong. they could very well still be together. i’m open to that. but i also don’t think it’s relevant. their images and their career paths have diverged to the point that it would be incredibly difficult for them to be a public couple. so i don’t see the point in thinking too much about it, if that makes sense? my focus is on

well as you’ll see below a lot of people disagree that there were any stacked cards. and the media... i’m sure they know bc papa azoff has his fingers in all the pies but they’re not going to report it as such. 

i honestly have sooooooooooo much to say about this. i’m legit curious as to where you’re coming from. are you a present day larrie? or just a harrie that saw this post and decided to complain? because i have a hard time understanding your perspective. it’s not about if he’s with louis or not. regardless of who he is dating he has received opportunities and treatment and hype that is way beyond what i think he deserves. RS cover, talk comparing him to legends before a single song was released, the SNL debut, the BBC 1 year solo celebration 4 months into his solo career (like i’m sorry but i will NEVER get over that.) how many times did he co-host the breakfast show? twice for the full duration? a whole WEEK on corden. that excessive grammy pondering campaign. this is just what happened the FIRST SIX MONTHS of his solo career.

you’re really comparing that to niall doing local iheart shows? (btw! if you’re seeing a lot of similarities between harry and niall when it comes to performances and tours... it’s because they literally have the same booking agent. so there u go.) and liam being a model for hugo boss 4 years into hiatus after establishing himself on the fashion scene (maybe you’re just not keeping up with him but uhh... yeah he worked for that?? are you kidding?)

additionally-- harry being “the face of 1d” was not organic. you realize that, right? his exposure multiplied when the azoffs entered the scene, and h*ylor contributed to that as well. it was a very deliberate move. 

i think it’s disingenuous to pretend like a lot of harry’s praise has come directly from distancing himself/dissing 1d and especially louis. it’s not about harry making sure everyone gets the same opportunities--he was already taking every chance to stand out when he was still in the band lol why would he help anyone else now?-- it’s about HSHQ not shitting on the others and using them as springboards and exacerbating the situation. it’s about him blacklisting the band. doing a “rebirth” commercial. having his bisexual headlines coming with a side of “not like that homophobe louis tomlinson.” do you understand? or do you just not care/not see it because harry is your priority?

and to be clear i don’t subscribe to the ‘winning’ narrative. but it’s out there and it’s having an effect regardless of how i feel about it. 

idk if this one belongs to the three parter above but... you’re missing the point. the met isn’t going to “change” people’s minds because it’s playing into the existing narrative. i can be annoyed about how that’s still being reinforced. and i am. 

i honestly try to keep perspective and i’ve been doing pretty well but i think the universe spitting in louis’ face just as he was getting rolling has really affected me. i cannot imagine what he has gone through, and i want him to get everything he deserves.

i was so hopeful that things would resume properly once they announced he was going back to work but it’s just been the same shit we got two years ago. this is garbage promo. and i don’t know how long i can hold on with that going on when everyone else is sailing past.

and here is a side note unrelated to these asks... i think i’m also really frustrated by a lot of the larrie excuses i see for what’s going on. i don’t engage in conversation about these things because i think everyone is entitled to what they believe and my input/pov is not necessary and not asked for. but it still....bothers me... to see the blatant hypocrisy in how harry v louis are treated by people who are supposed to root for them both. it bothers me to see people blame louis for things that he has no control over? the good ol houie narrative is so fucking annoying and it doesn’t make sense. it bothers me that people so easily dismiss louis’ ambition and suggested he didn’t want to go solo--to the point of rejecting evidence that refuted an ANON. anyway. i’m just a ball of venting today. that is all.