#this is my first time writing boyf riends

[rad-rat-with-a-tophat]

If you still happen to be taking prompts, 46 for richjake or boyf riends?

i will be taking prompts for as long as this blog remains my friend

sorry if this sucks by the way.

Jeremy was fine. He was just fucking peachy in fact. He totally wasn't panicking over his huge gay crush on his best friend, Michael Mell.

It was the middle of winter break and as per usual, Jeremy and Michael were him the latter's basement playing video games and being stupid teenage boys.

Being stupid teenage boys largely meant Jeremy looking after his slightly high best friend. Jeremy had tried weed once but since he had week-ass lungs and asthma that did not end up well for him. At all. Seriously, he had an asthma attack. It sucked.

So now Jeremy was trying to pick up the trash off the basement floor while Michael dozed on a bean bag.

"Jeeeeeremyyyyy," He whined, face smushed into the bean bag, "You don't have to pick the trash up, my moms' don't care,"

Jeremy started carrying empty soda bottles to the recycling bin upstairs, "Yeah but your moms' are super cool and I don't want to inconvenience and if I didn't pick the trash up and I'm pretty sure they'd hate me." He said, halfway up the stairs.

He quickly went to the kitchen and dumped the bottles into the recycling bin. Michael's moms may be super cool but Jeremy is still an anxious mess so he'd rather not talk to anyone who isn't Michael or any of their assorted friends.

When he got back to the basement, Michael is still lying on the bean bag.

In Jeremy's humble, very bisexual, and heavily biased opinion Michael looked absolutely adorable right now. His dark hair was messed around, his glasses slightly skewed, and he looked so huggable.

Yes, yes, Jeremy did know he was pathetic, but in his defense Michael was literally perfect in every single way. He was his longest and closest friend, he cared so fucking much, and the fact that he was arguably the moat cuddle-able person on the planet helped.

And he was looking straight at Jeremy. Great.

"You have been standing there for like an hour," He stated.

Jeremy was panicking but when wasn't he panicking?

"It actually was like thirty seconds... So, um, you're wrong?" He said uncertainly.

Michael mulled this over for a second.

"Yeah, no, but whatever. Wanna deathmatch in Spelunky?" He asked, beckoning to the second beanbag.

Jeremy snorted, "You're setting yourself up for failure. I spent the time when you were in the Philippines over the summer fucking mastering this game."

Spelunky was a simple 2d video game where you'd choose a character and explore abandoned caves. Spelunky also had a deathmatch option where you could fight other players, whic is what the pair tended to prefer.

It was the one thing Michael was bad at and Jeremy basked in his superiority at a random video-game.

"What the fuck. What the actual fuck. This is stupid and I hate it. I fucking quit." Michael had announced after Jeremy had beaten him the tenth time in a row.

Jeremy had just laughed and stuck his tongue at him.

Michael shot him a glare. "Don't you fucking dare gloat. You know what, switch to adventure mode, by yourself. From the beginning. Let's see how braggy you are then."

Jeremy smiled at Michael, switching the game mode and satisfied knowing that he had already beaten the game just in case something like this happened.

Jeremy was half-way through the third stage when something heavy plopped into his lap.

It was Michael.

Oh my god, oh my god, oh my god. This isn't a big deal. You guys have had physical contact many times. This is normal, Jeremy thought to himself.

So why does this feel different?

Just then, his tiny little 2d figure died on screen.

Michael turned his head to Jeremy.

And, Oh my goodness. His freckles. His fucking freckles!

Michael was close enough that you could see the freckles that dusted his light brown skin. His hair was soft, fluffy, and perfect. His warm brown eyes peered up at Jeremy through his dirty glass lenses.

"Dude, you just died." Michael stated.

While trying (and failing) to fight back his blush, Jeremy answered, "I did- I did in fact, um, die. Yup!"

Michael narrowed his eyes at him, scanning Jeremy's face. This only made his blush grow, climbing from his neck to his cheeks.

Great. More blusing.

"Yeah well, don't do it again." Michael said.

Jeremy awkwardly grinned, "I won't dude,"

"Good," Michael huffed, dragging his entire body onto Jeremy''s bean bag until he was basically lying on top of him, his head pressed into Jeremy's chest.

His blushing dialed from fifty to five-thousand real quick, as well as his heart beat speeding up drastically.

Wait, wait, wait, wait, can he hear my heartbeat? Oh my go what of he can? What if he can? Would he be able to realize I like him? And if he did how-

"Dude, chill," Muttered Michael, breaking Jeremy's nervous inner monologue.

Yeah okay, he could do that? Right?

Michael started shuffling, trying to get more comfortable and ended up placing his head on left shoulder, breath tickling Jeremy's neck.

Yeah he could absolutely not be chill about this. When your crush of almost a year starts cuddling on you you're not gonna be fucking chill! Who would?!

Before Jeremy could organize his thoughts, his instincts took over and placed a soft kiss on the top of Michael's head.

What the fuck?! Why did I do that?! Why did I think that was a good idea! Hell, did I even think?!

Before Jeremy could stammer out an apology, Michael made a content little sigh, looked up at Jeremy and nodded, as if something just clicked in head and Jeremy's heart melted before a fragment of a sound could leave his mouth.

Michael pulled himself up and sits criss-cross on Jeremy's lap.

He stared into Jeremy's eyes, and Jeremy could feel himself heating up and his heart about to beat through his chest.

Michael swallows, "Hey, Jeremy?" He asked.

Jeremy stares back, the video game completely forgotten.

"Yeah, Michael?" He asked, his breath coming out quick and short, his heart feeling like a hummingbird, pounding in his rib cage.

"What happens if I do this?" Michael asked before softly placing his lips into Jeremy's.

Jeremy froze. No thoughts, no rambling, no nothing.

Though he's frozen in shock he notices when Michael starts to tense up and his brain lets him actually talk.

"Apparently, I get really flustered and freeze up."

Michael looked at Jeremy, scanning his face for rejection and disgust.

"Not I mind or anything," Jeremy continued, "Just unexpected, you know?"

Michael grinned, "It would suck ass if my crush since seventh grade hated me for kissing him so..."

Jeremy look at Michael, bewildered, "Seventh grade? That's like, a long time. I've barely been able to survive a year!"

Michael laughed, "Yeah you learn to get used to it you know. Now, are you ever gonna finish this stage?" He looked at Jeremy, smirking a stupid, endearing, little smirk.

Jeremy glared at him, "You know what? Fuck you," He said, pushing Michael off the beanbag. At that both of them started laughing, finding themselves unable to stop.

@gay-stranger-things don't know if this what you meant by wanting me to tag you in "more" but you weren't clear so that's kinda on you.

[zer0expektation]

a man, his canon girlfriend/wife, and the pining best friend that doesn't realise they're also part of the relationship >>>

[lunaryuwu]

3 8 9

3. What is the main program you use for writing (google docs, the ao3 writing text box, etc.)

I used to be a google docs girlie but now i’ve become a 90% notes app 10% google docs girlie(google docs reminds me too much of bad times)(not elaborating for personal reasons)

8. Least favorite ship to write?

I don’t really have a least favorite ship to write?? I mean if i disliked a ship i wouldn’t be writing it in the first place. Boyf riends and richjake are my life and my occasional deere moments are enjoyable too so can’t really think of a least favorite ship to write at the moment

9. Biggest pet peeve while writing?

Forgetting that sentence idea/constantly misspelling the same word/suddenly getting stuck on a part but other parts are smooth(writing makes me go crazy in the most extreme negative and positive ways)

[biscuitbakerbecca]

Oooo fun!!!

When did you post your first fanfic?

May 2018 and I have since deleted that fic because it was too cringy for me to deal with. I also posted the first fic I kept around that time too!

First character you wrote for?

Hmm…Technically Tony Stark, but for consistencies sake I’ll say Evan Hansen

Main character(s) you’re currently writing for?

Jeremy Heere and Michael Mell for Fragility, and all other side projects are Peter Parker

Character(s) you haven’t written for yet but want to write for soon?

Uhhhh…I’m not currently interested in expanding my blorbo collection atm, but anything is possible! I’d like to get back into DEH since I have some WIPs that I never finished

Fandom(s) you’re currently writing for?

Currently I am a Be More Chill girly with some Spider-Man on the side. No I will not be attempting another Spider-Jer fic that boat has already crashed and burned

Platonic pairing(s) you currently write for?

Honestly writing the inner workings of the Squip-Squad has been really fun in the Weakness AU!

Romantic pairing(s) you currently write for?

Boyf Riends and SpideyPool babyyyyy

Top three AO3 tags?

Uhhh… Fluff, Happy Ending, and uhhhhh Getting Together if I had to guess

Current Platform?

BeccatheBiscuitBaker on AO3!

Snippet from current WIP?

This will be from chapter sixteen of Fragility (holy shit sixteen chapters???)

“Shit!” Chloe yelped, her stupid skinny heels slipping out from under her. They both fell down, Michael moving fast and managing to catch both of them. Jeremy sighed, finding himself being carried like a potato sack while Chloe was only saved from falling on her ass by Michael pretty much dipping her like you would in a dance.

“And good morning to you too, Jeremy,” James laughed from his desk.

Tags?

How about… @maybe-i-should-try-harder

❦ ➷ get to know your fellow fanfic writers better ༊ ✧.*

I had fun doing this! ♡

when did you post your first ever fanfic?

January 2017, I think. wow, it’s been 6 years! (no, I’m not giving you my Wattpad username)

first character you wrote for:

Joker. it was during my Wattpad era. I have zero regret, but I’m not giving the link lol

main character(s) you’re currently writing for:

Daniel Harrow & Henry Creel (as in separate fics that aren’t crossover, but wouldn’t it be nice if I wrote a crossover with these two…)

character(s) you haven’t written about before but plan on writing about soon:

Henry Morgan (from Forever tv) !! also, I’d love to write more about Captain Jack Sparrow

fandom(s) you’re currently writing for:

Harrow & Stranger Things

platonic pairing(s) you currently write for:

Daniel Harrow & Simon Van Reyk (Harrow), Henry Creel & Eleven (Stranger Things)

romantic pairing(s) you currently write for:

I know it’s been more than a year since my last update so I can’t say currently, but Loki/Mobius. other than that the more recent one is Will Byers/Mike Wheeler but even then, it’s still rare. so I guess I focus more on writing platonic relationships lately (honestly it just depends on the characters whom my hyperfixation is on and whether their relationship with the other characters is romantic or platonic.)

your top 3 tags on AO3 (if you post your works on AO3):

whump, hurt/comfort & angst

your current platform where you post your works:

tap HERE for my AO3

snippet of the wip you’re currently working on:

should be posted hopefully within the next few days!

But Harrow forced a smile as he greeted Simon with a hug. And when he hugged Simon, his smile became real. And for a moment Harrow could forget the guilt and the shame he carried with him. For a moment, he could really breathe, knowing that Simon was safe. In his arms.

* aka a fix-it fic where Simon lives.

🏷️ no pressure tags at random: @foodiewithdahoodie @queereldritch @bebataylor84 @ohfallingdisco @eddiemunsons-missingnipple @sillylittlerock @jcbbby @maladaptive-jcb @highwarlockofphilly @can-of-pringles @mirilyawrites @chaos-monkeyy @harringroveera @medium-rare-bimbo @deliaqbower @ripcreel @rins-love-wins @okilokiwithpurpose @lokisgoodgirl @loki-is-my-kink-awakening @daddiesdrarryy @loki-hargreeves @zodiyack @cha-melodius @insert-witty-user-name-here @dewdropreader @blackbirdofasgard @mimisempai @underwhelmingalchemist @excusemefangirlhere @abitofboth @worstloki @littlekinng @andiwriteordie @cluelessbees @suzieburself @waroftheposes @drop-of-infinity @bookinit02 @bizarrelittlemew @ghostalservice @pilkingtonian @thefatedthoughtofyou @brbsoulnomming @spooky-brakers @cosmicanamnesis @cranberrymoons @onirislanding @thefreakandthehair @thisapplepielife — if I didn’t tag you and you’d like to join, please do! everybody is welcome

[razanartuk]

about me tag game thing

i was tagged by the wonderful @nothingunrealistic! thank you very much ily <3

under read more bc i was not capable of keeping my answers brief this time around

why did you choose your url?

this...was supposed to be a short explanation but it turned into quite a tale so strap in i guess because we are going on a ride. back in 2017 i was just getting into musical theatre rp and i was still feeling too shy to really talk to anyone ooc so i would just wait for people i wanted to interact with to post starter calls so i could just do things in character with them the easy way. So i did this with my friend cam, who posted a starter for me using a lyric from If I Could Tell Her. she linked the song so i could listen to it, so i did and i went ‘wait a minute, is that Ben Platt from Pitch Perfect?? (and other things too, but i only recognized his voice at the time bc of the acappella girl movies)’ and yes it certainly was.

i had zero idea what the plot of Dear Evan Hansen was about at that point, and for some reason based off Just That One Song and the poster art of who i assumed was Some Guy in a Polo Shirt i started to think it was about some jock guy who broke his arm and had an emo/goth friend who had either died or gone missing under mysterious circumstances. also i intuited that Evan had a crush on his friend’s sister but he couldn’t tell her that directly or his emo friend would kick his ass. so i was like mostly wrong, but a little bit right.

oh and i knew jared and alana were characters from the show bc cam said that they were i think?? but i had no idea what their role was. so after listening to if i could tell her, i listened to good for you and all i really got out of that was that evan the apparently not-jock guy had done...something... that really hurt jared and alana. and at that point i finally decided to go look up a plot synopsis and i found out i was waaay off base. but honestly this is why cast recordings should include scene dialogue in the songs bc otherwise you just get soundtracks like dear evan hansen where the songs have like. zero context. we really just go from waving through a window to for forever to sincerely me without like. any reason as to what is happening huh. It’s honestly not a surprise anymore that all those people on twitter had no idea the plot isn’t about gay teenagers.

anyways. cam was writing jared and she made a post at one point about wishing somebody would write alana and i was like ‘oh i could do that!’ (after i had actually Seen a bootleg and finally knew what the whole story was, of course) so i made a multimuse rp blog featuring alana beck, nabulungi hatimbi, chloe valentine and some other characters, and cam started sharing her headcanons with me that alana is trans, jared and alana were close friends when they were little kids but they sort of drifted apart as they got older and their priorities in life changed, jared was the first person alana came out to when she realized she’s trans, etc.

one night i started talking about wanting to pick a more theatre-relevant url for my blog and trans-[character name] urls were getting pretty popular, and at least 3 of the friends i made through rp had changed theirs to coordinating trans-[character name] and i think it was cam suggested i should make mine be trans-alana so i did. eventually i realized the unhyphenated version was available so i changed it to transalana with no hyphen and i have lived here ever since. sometimes i think about changing it but i feel like transalana has become a part of My Brand and i am not so great with coming up with cool names for things.

any side blogs? if you have them, name them and why you have them

in theory, i have sideblogs... i don’t really use them, but of the ones i do have, there is:

emsbookblog - this was supposed to be where i would post excerpts of the book that i’m working on, but i think i did that maybe one time roughly 2 years ago and then promptly forgot about it/got nervous about my writing and was scared to share anything else. the rest of the stuff that is there is assorted writing tips. i don’t really know what to do with it now. i probably should post all my little thoughts about em and anita and caleb there instead of infodumping on my main from time to time, but if i do that then i have to promo a sideblog and direct people over to it which is always annoying to me when i could just do it on this blog which is much easier

dearnovelhansen - this is basically no longer used, but was a sideblog i made specifically to talk/complain about the novel adaptation of Dear Evan Hansen which was about 3 years ago?? maybe? i can’t be trusted to understand the passage of time. but to summarize: i thought it was an honor just to have the story be made more accessible since many of us couldn’t see the stage performance, but i hated a lot of the creative liberties that were taken. my main grumbles are that everyone who isn’t evan or connor is done so dirty in the novel. connor’s still kind of done dirty in the book, but not as much as like. heidi, alana, jared, and zoe are.

horseisle3 - this one was meant to be a place where i could just enthusiastically post screenshots from hi3, but instead it turned into a blog where i occasionally reblog other players’ hi3 content and bitch about how bad the game admins are bc hi3 is the tumblr famous (infamous?) homophobic horse game. the game where it was once okay to call your club store the gulag bc according to their head of hr, ‘it’s just a russian word for prison’ but you can’t say ‘im gay’ without somebody accusing you of corrupting young children who play the game. unfortunately there aren’t very many good interactive horse games out there, so this one is still about as good as it gets. it’s either that or star stable and i don’t care about star stable.

mlaenie - i’ve had this url saved for i don’t even know how long. way way way back in the day when i wanted to escape from the clutches of the onceler fandom i abandoned my first blog where i basically had an alter ego i guess?? and i decided to just be myself on the new blog. i don’t fully remember who came up with it, but one of my sister’s mutuals suggested that if you scrambled the letters in your name you could come up with aesthetic-looking urls. so lauren’s url became lrauen, and to match with her mine became mlaenie, which i abandoned on tumblr after about a year or so? but have continued to use as my main username on twitter, reddit, youtube, xbox, steam, and discord. i barely ever use any of these accounts aside from twitter, steam, and xbox, but yeah. so i’ve decided to try and turn this empty sideblog into a place for video game thoughts maybe. we’ll see how long it lasts this time around.

how long have you been on tumblr?

i made my first tumblr account in december of 2010, but i didn’t understand how to use it at all or how to customize my theme to look cool and unique so i quickly abandoned it. i made a new account in september of 2011 after some kids at school and my sister told me i should and i have been trapped here with varying degrees of activity/inactivity ever since. i have witnessed the rise and fall of the lorax/onceler fandom, hyperfocused on lord of the rings, star wars and back to the future all at the same time, and for the past 4 years i’ve mostly been a musical theatre blog with assorted other fandom stuff mixed in. i feel i have seen everything and nothing, but mostly i’m just tired and bored.

do you have a queue tag?

no bc i don’t use a queue. i’ve tried using it in the past but i irrationally feel pressured to sustain a coherent theme to queued posts and my brain simply does not vibe with that so i just don’t use it at all anymore. Instead i instantly reblog or post several unrelated thoughts in succession and then don’t post again at all for 3 days. the way god intended

why did you start your blog in the first place?

my very first blog was intended to be a place for me to post all of my petz 5 animals’ profile info, but i didn’t have any understanding of how coding worked at all and i don’t think i really wanted to learn, either. so it just sat there, unused. my second attempt at blogging was as a classic rock fandom person, so as you can probably imagine i was pretty pretentious about ‘modern pop’ vs the beatles, the rolling stones, the who, the monkees, and so on. and then i slowly devolved into a lorax fandom blog and everything went to shit so i made a new blog for lord of the rings/the hobbit which later evolved to include star wars and back to the future blogging. and then for the past 4 years i’ve been mainly a musical theatre blog with other random stuff i like thrown haphazardly into the pot. wonderful.

why did you choose your icon/pfp?

because my url is transalana and two of my most prominent lgbt headcanons are that alana beck is trans and a lesbian. i gotta be shouting out @kinqmike though bc she’s the one i adopted the trans alana beck headcanon from in the first place!

why did you choose your header?

in 2017 i was hyperfixating on Dear Evan Hansen (and Be More Chill, but there weren’t many gif-able videos then considering it ran for a month in New Jersey in 2015 and there was only one yet-to-resurface 35 minute bootleg) so i just grabbed a random gif off of google. i really should get to replacing it with a new header of my own though. i just don’t know what i should do for it.

what’s your post with the most notes?

i have lost track of how many notes it has (i think it’s somewhere around 200 now?) but when Will Roland and George Salazar performed Two Player Game on Good Morning America, i posted a screencap of their Jeremy and Michael along with that one quiz answer meme that says stuff like ‘i want to see it grow up healthy’. i didn’t tag it with any ship names or anything because i was anxious about having it show up in the tags, but somebody who reblogged it from me did tag it as boyf riends and i firmly believe it took off because of that. i don’t think i make posts that are relevant enough to amass thousands of notes, even by accident. which is probably a good thing bc if i did i would have to block so many of them.

how many followers do you have?

on this blog? 175 according to the counter. how many of those are still real people and how many are bots and abandoned accounts? i have no idea.

how many people do you follow?

i try to keep it somewhere around 200. i think i’m sitting at 180 right now but i kind of need to go through and clear out the really inactive blogs.

have you made a shitpost?

let’s think about this for a second. i’ve been on tumblr for nearly 10 years. you might even be able to say i’ve made more than one. they’re just not what you would call...popular shitposts.

how do you feel about ‘you need to reblog this’ post?

that stuff makes me so incredibly anxious that i have to fight the urge to want to yeet my laptop or mobile device through the closest window whenever i read it, so i try very hard to avoid any sort of ‘if you don’t reblog this, i’m judging you’ posts. i find them very manipulative and not particularly helpful

do you like tag games?

yeah babey!! i just frequently forget to do them, but please know that if you have ever tagged me in a tag game i felt incredibly touched by the gesture and the @mention even if i completely forgot to do the thing afterward

do you like ask games?

i do! but also rip to literally anyone who has ever sent me an ask meme bc it takes me so long to answer them. i’m still working on a micro fic prompt from a few weeks ago. also, horrified to realized that it has in fact been a few weeks and not 3 days anymore.

which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous?

i don’t know that any are tumblr famous as a whole. but probably @neverheardnothing

do you have a crush on a mutual?

in any sort of romantic connotation? no. not that i’m aware of. there are mutuals that i have friend crushes on where i want to be friends with them but i get so anxious when it comes to meeting new people that usually nothing ever comes of it. i’m really not good at small talk or other casual conversation either which, as you may or may not be able to imagine, sucks. i just wanna skip over all of the awkward introductions and ‘hey how are you, how is life, what are you doing with yourself?’ stuff. not because i don’t care about it. i do, but i think most of my friends/the people i want to be my friends are also depressed and anxious so asking these basic questions about life tends to uh. make us all nervous. and i don’t do much with my life so i always have the most boring answers anyways.

i’m not tagging anyone officially bc the @ thing has just completely given up on me at this point, but if you want to do it, go for it. and then say i tagged you so i can read it c:

[theowlsarequeer]

Reblog to tell your followers the entirety of Be More Chill (more musicals to come)

Jeremy Heere, a high school junior, is a social outcast. He lives with his recently divorced father, who works from home and makes Jeremy uncomfortable by refusing to wear pants in the house. At school, Jeremy is bullied by popular student Rich Goranski, who writes "boyf" on his backpack. His "best friend", Michael Mell (on whose backpack Rich has written "riends"), tries to comfort Jeremy by telling him that being a loser is okay. Jeremy's long-time crush Christine Canigula signs up for the school play, and he decides to as well. Jeremy wonders if someone can help him "more than survive" ("More Than Survive").

As they wait for the first play rehearsal to begin, Christine professes her love of theater to Jeremy, because she can play different people and always knows what to say and performs ("I Love Play Rehearsal"). The drama teacher, Mr. Reyes, reveals that the school play will be A Midsummer Night's Dream set in a post-apocalyptic future, re-titled A Midsummer Nightmare (About Zombies). During rehearsal, Jake Dillinger, one of the popular boys, flirts with Christine, making Jeremy jealous ("More Than Survive (Reprise)").

Jeremy is confronted in the bathroom by Rich, who tells Jeremy how he managed his rise to popularity: as an unpopular freshman, he took a pill called a "super quantum unit Intel processor"—a "SQUIP"—containing a computer that implants itself inside the user's brain and tells the user what to do and say. Rich suggests that Jeremy buy one in order to become cooler ("The Squip Song").

While playing video games with Michael, Jeremy tells him about Rich's offer. After an awkward conversation with his dad (still not wearing pants), Jeremy decides to check the SQUIP out. Jeremy assures Michael that, no matter what happens, they'll always be a team ("Two-Player Game").

The two visit the mall to buy the SQUIP from a dealer at Payless ShoeSource. Jeremy, as instructed, swallows it with green Mountain Dew. When the SQUIP activates, it causes Jeremy to have a seizure in front of Christine and Jake ("The Squip Enters"). The SQUIP (in the guise of Keanu Reeves), criticizes Jeremy's appearance, personality, and behavior, telling him that everything about him is terrible ("Be More Chill, Pt. 1"). The SQUIP orders him to go to a store to buy a new Eminem shirt. Jeremy encounters two popular girls from school, Brooke Lohst and Chloe Valentine, and the SQUIP helps Jeremy fabricate a story in order to create empathy with the two girls. They offer Jeremy a ride home ("Do You Wanna Ride?"), which the SQUIP demands he accept, but Jeremy declines because he does not wish to leave Michael in the mall. The girls leave, and the SQUIP lies to Jeremy and tells him that Michael has left the mall. It tells him that in order for its plan to improve his social standing to work, Jeremy needs to obey every order it gives him ("Be More Chill, Pt. 2").

The next day, Jeremy heads to school with renewed confidence, wondering if he might be less invisible than before. The SQUIP delves into the inner psyche of the student body around him, giving Jeremy insight on the fears and insecurities of his fellow peers. Jeremy's SQUIP syncs itself with Rich's, instantly making them friends. Jeremy heads confidently to the play rehearsal ("Sync Up"). Christine tells Jeremy about her feelings for a guy she knows, who Jeremy initially believes is himself, but who turns out to be Jake ("A Guy That I'd Kinda Be Into").

Afterward, the SQUIP informs Jeremy that Christine won't date him until his social standing drastically improves. Encouraging Jeremy to use an interested Brooke as a stepping stone to greater popularity, he hooks up with her, while Jake asks Christine to come to his house ("Upgrade"). Overwhelmed, Jeremy asks the SQUIP to shut itself off for a few minutes. Immediately, Jeremy sees Michael and is elated but Michael states that Jeremy has been ignoring him all day. The SQUIP explains that it was using "optic nerve blocking" to block Michael from Jeremy's vision and that in order to be more popular he has to "upgrade to Jeremy 2.0." Jeremy eventually decides he is tired of being a loser and turns on optic nerve blocking, leaving him alone with the SQUIP ("Loser Geek Whatever").

Act Two

On Halloween, Jake hosts a large party that features alcohol and other shenanigans ("Halloween"). Christine arrives in a revealing princess costume, hoping to please Jake, but he brushes her aside to party. Jeremy arrives to meet Brooke, but Chloe, who is jealous of Brooke, tries to seduce Jeremy. Jeremy is uncomfortable and tries to get away, but the SQUIP forces him to remain in the situation as it escalates to Chloe making out with Jeremy ("Do You Wanna Hang?"). Chloe also has Jeremy drink alcohol, causing the SQUIP to malfunction, and then feigns having sex with him, angering Jake and breaking Brooke's heart.

Fleeing from Jake and the girls, Jeremy runs into a bathroom, where he finds Michael, who has crashed the party. Michael tries to warn Jeremy of the dangers of the SQUIP, explaining that someone ended up in a mental hospital after they went crazy trying to get it out of their head. Jeremy accuses Michael of being jealous of his popularity and calls him a loser. Michael, devastated and angry, locks himself in the bathroom, where he has a panic attack and sensory overload as he mourns the loss of his best and only friend ("Michael in the Bathroom"). Jeremy talks to Christine without the SQUIP's help and he asks her out in a burst of confidence ("A Guy That I'd Kinda Be Into (Reprise)"). Christine, who has found herself in an existential crisis after breaking up with Jake, declines.

Meanwhile, Rich goes around the party frantically asking people for Mountain Dew Red. Jeremy's SQUIP finally reactivates and reviews the events of the night, prompting Jeremy to leave the party immediately. Rich, alone and desperate, talks to his SQUIP and then sets the house on fire. The next morning, Jenna Rolan, the school gossip, informs everyone that Rich had burned down Jake's house at the end of the party, sending Rich to the hospital and causing Jake to break both of his legs jumping out of a window while trying to escape. The news spreads throughout the school through text and tweeting ("The Smartphone Hour (Rich Set a Fire)").

At home, Jeremy is confronted by his father (still not wearing pants), who brings up Jeremy's new personality and change in attitude. Jeremy reprimands his father for his behavior since the divorce, calling him a loser as well. Shaken by Jeremy's words, Mr. Heere realizes that something is very wrong and that he must take charge. He tracks down Michael and asks him to not give up on his friend. Michael reluctantly agrees to help, on the condition that Mr. Heere puts on some pants and becomes a better father ("The Pants Song").

As the cast prepares for the play, Jeremy encounters Christine, who is shaken and upset about the fire. Jeremy is unhappy with the relationships he has damaged and angrily blames the SQUIP for his misfortunes. The SQUIP instead blames it on "human error" and tells Jeremy he can improve the lives of the rest of the students, and eventually the whole world, by providing them all with SQUIPs. In Rich's locker, Jeremy finds a box full of SQUIPs, which Jeremy then pours into a beaker of Mountain Dew ("The Pitiful Children").

Backstage during the play, Christine confronts Jeremy over his use of the SQUIP, causing him to doubt the plan. However, the SQUIP has already begun to take over others in the play. The SQUIP reveals its intention to sync the entire student body, and then the whole world. Jeremy comes to a realization: Mountain Dew activates the SQUIP, while Mountain Dew Red deactivates it. Michael reappears from the audience with a bottle of Mountain Dew Red, which he gives to Jeremy after making him apologize for his actions, but a SQUIPed Jake dumps most of it out. Jeremy and Michael fight off the controlled students until the SQUIP reveals that Christine has been SQUIPed, and under its influence, she professes her love for Jeremy. Jeremy, however, realizes this is not what he had wanted and makes Christine drink the last of the red Mountain Dew: this causes a chain reaction that destroys the rest of the SQUIPS ("The Play").

Jeremy wakes up in the hospital, sharing a room with Rich, who proudly comes out to Jeremy as bisexual and is ready to finally be who he really is. Michael visits Jeremy and the two reconcile, and Mr. Heere (finally wearing pants) visits Jeremy as well, informing him that he'll be a better dad. Surrounded by his friends and family, Jeremy realizes that there will always be outside influences, but he needs to learn to make up his own mind instead. He asks Christine out again (for bowling alley performance art), and this time she accepts and kisses him. The SQUIP reveals itself to still be alive, weakly taunting Jeremy from inside his head, but Jeremy ignores it, happily proclaiming that "of all the voices in my head, the loudest one is mine" ("Voices in My Head").

[yo-musicals-are-nice]

Who and what I can write

Hello! So, this is my first post on this so I thought id say what and who I can write. Please feel free to request any of this! 

Note: I only write x readers, sorry. 

Who I can write: 

Hamilton (Modern only)                                                                                       

Alexander Hamilton 

Hercules Mulligan 

Lafayette  

John Laurens 

Eliza 

Angelica 

Thomas Jefferson 

Aaron Burr 

Hamilsquad (Lafayette, Hercules, John, and Alexander) 

Southern Democratic Republicans (Thomas Jefferson, Aaron burr, and James Madison) 

Newsies (Modern or in their time) 

Jack Kelly 

Davey 

Crutchie 

Racetrack 

Be More Chill

Micheal 

Jeremy 

Boyf riends (Micheal and Jeremy) 

The Outsiders 

Dallas Winston 

Darry Curtis 

Sodapop Curtis 

Johnny Cade 

Ponyboy Curtis 

Dear Evan Hansen 

Evan Hansen 

Tree boys (Evan and Connor) 

Jared Kleinman

Connor Murphy 

Zoe Murphy 

Sincerely Three (Connor, Evan, and Jared.) 

Heather’s 

Veronica

Heather C. 

Heather M. 

Heather D. 

JD  

Ouran High School Host Club 

Tamaki

Kyoya 

Mori 

Hikaru 

Karou 

What I can write: 

Lemons 

fluff 

agnst 

Headcanons 

x readers (only female or non binary readers. I don’t have anything against men who read x readers I just have a hard time writing for men) 

[dragonairice]

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

63

2. What’s your total AO3 word count?

59,068

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Mostly Be More Chill, Sanders Sides and The Two Princes currently but I've written for more!

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

A Thousand Cuts but I'm still Standing

So This is Love

Fashion Choices, Gay Results

Name Shame

Caramel Latte

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

Absolutely! I love getting comments <33

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

I guess One choice can ruin a life? I've certainly thought up angstier fics but I never wrote them

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

OHH THIS IS HARD BECAUSE MAJORITY OF MY WORK IS FLUFF,, I think I'll go with caramel latte because I am. biased <3

8. Do you get hate on fics?

Not that I can recall? If I do ever get hate though I'd just delete it. I don't want any negativity in my comments unless it's deserved

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

Thought about it but never actually wrote it. I think I'm too ace to write smut* *Wanted to clarify that this is a joke and asexual people can still read and write smut

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written?

I think the only crossover I ever wrote was BMC and DEH and literally half the fandom has done that

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not that I know of, I hope not

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Unless they did it without permission - nope!

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Not officially, but my friends help me with writing a lot and we used to write fics together back in school :)

14. What’s your all time favorite ship?

Boyf riends!!! They're my comfort pairing <3 Honourable mentions go to Percabeth, Caleo, Prinxiety (only platonic / familial in actual canon), Plunderbunnies and Playride <3

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

Oh I have. so many. old BMC ideas, a lot of TLKOE I don't think I'll get back to till the fandom has me in a chokehold again, and some Deltarune and Ducktales fics too.

16. What are your writing strengths?

Dialogue my beloved <333 I think I'm really REALLY good at dialogue like it's the best part of my writing I think.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

Actually writing /j

No but seriously, I'm not the best at descriptions, I tend to make them too long or too short but I've gotten better at it! I also sometimes accidentally shift pov halfway and only notice when editing-

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

It's always very fun!! I've learned a lot of fun phrases (and curse words) in other languages from fics, and I myself like including language that I know! As long as there's an easily accessible translation I think it's great <3

19. First fandom you wrote for?

The first fanfic I posted was for pokemon but I might have written something before that and just don't remember. Technically my friends and I wrote PJO fanfic with our OCs first.

20. Favorite fic you’ve written?

I think this is a tie between 'Caramel Latte' and 'So This is Love' because I'm super proud of both of them and my friends beta read them for me! I'm happy to say I do love a lot of my own fics though <3

no pressure tags!

@h0n3yk1tt3n, @mountain-dew-tickledpink

20 Questions for Fic Writers

@rmd-writes @welcometololaland @three-drink-amy thanks for providing me with procrastination material <3

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

58

2. What’s your total AO3 word count?

957,577. with the unpublished words of meet you after dark, I'll be very close to 1,000,000. I'm almost certain I'll hit it by the end of the year (at least that's my goal)

3. What fandoms do you write for?

911 Lone Star

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

anchor up to me, love (this being my top fic by kudos is so shocking to me lol it's just a 3x05 coda that I think I wrote the day after the episode aired, I really didn't think it was that special)

pushing boundaries

haunted by the ghost of you

one single thread

yours for the weekend

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

Yes, I try to respond to them all! That being said, I've very behind right now but I promise I'll get back to you!

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

hold on - This is probably the only 'unhappy' ending I have, but it's more so just unresolved because it's a 3x01 coda written before any of the other episodes in that arc aired. and 3x01 is not a happy episode lol

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

they pretty much all do in general so I don't think I could pick one specifically that stands out

8. Do you get hate on fics?

Not really, but it has happened a few times

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

Yes, but usually incorporated within a story, not as a standalone. I think the only PWP fic I wrote is when push comes to shove. and even that has some plot

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written?

No crossovers

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

As far as I'm aware, no

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

I don't think so

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Not officially

14. What’s your all time favorite ship?

Carlos and TK <3

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

idk if I can call this a WIP, but there's always been an idea in my mind about writing a fic inspired by the book Carlos was writing in as if you were a mythical thing. it's a 1970s camp counselor slasher murder mystery style fic that I wrote a little bit of for this prompt fill, but I don't know if a full au will ever come out of it. shame because the playlist and moodbord would slap

16. What are your writing strengths?

world building, banter, angst that feels like a punch in the gut, giving the happy ending room to breathe

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

smut I feel like. need to learn new ways to say the same exact thing

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

I think it makes total sense and feels authentic for it to be there every once in a while for non-crucial story details if a character speaks another language

19. First fandom you wrote for?

911 Lone Star

20. Favorite fic you’ve written?

I'm going to go with your first string. I think that has my most full-fledged character arcs and full circle storyline. It's my longest fic and I never really got sick of writing it, which is a pretty good indicator that I enjoyed it

no pressure tagging @reyesstrand @carlos-in-glasses @theghostofashton @orchidscript @freneticfloetry + anyone else!

[ao3feed-bemorechill]

Boyf Riends 30 day Smut Challenge (Oneshots)

read it on the AO3 at https://ift.tt/2X5k8Eu

by Bhirdd

Decided to do the 30 day smut challenge as a way to practice writing smutty/sexual stuff.

These are all one shots, unless stated otherwise, so none of the stories are linked.

Oh! Also, some of the one shots will feature trans Michael because, as a trans guy myself, I like being able to write about trans guys in my work.

Not gonna be uploading everyday, just gonna keep this book casual and work on it as I please.

Hope you enjoy! And go easy on me, haha this is my first time writing smut.

Words: 1258, Chapters: 1/?, Language: English

Fandoms: Be More Chill, bmc - Fandom, Michael Mell - Fandom, Jeremy Heere - Fandom, boyf riends - Fandom

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Warnings: Underage

Categories: M/M

Characters: Michael Mell, Jeremy Heere

Relationships: Michael/Jeremy, Michael Mell/ Jeremy Heere, boyf riends

Additional Tags: Smut, Fluff, some transducer michael, Trans Michael Mell, fluffy smut i guess, smut challenge, 30 day smut challenge

read it on the AO3 at https://ift.tt/2X5k8Eu

[acindra]

Cin’s Boyf Riends Fic Masterpost

I don’t know how active this fandom is anymore but I figured I’d put all my stuff in one place in case someone wants to read them during the quarantine. Sadly I’ve not written anything new since 2017, but I figure its been a couple years so maybe they’ll be new to someone!

Putting it all under a cut because there’s 35 fics. (Alternately, my writing tag)

Series

Two Gays and a Baby

Don’t You Ever Fear, I’m Always Near- 10.407 Teen

“You would deny the father of your child some innocent hand holding?�� Michael asked, faux shocked, as he laced his fingers through Jeremy’s. “You’re a cruel person, Jeremy Heere.”

(Michael and Jeremy spend a week taking care of an electronic baby doll for their Home Economics class)

Don’t You Ever Fear, I’m Always Heere- 1.983 Teen

Jeremy and Michael get married.

Don’t You Ever Fear, You Are My Dear- 887 Teen

Jeremy and Michael get a real baby.

Glitter In The Air

If I Can Live Through This I Can Do Anything- 1.273 Teen

Jenna Rolan spreads a rumor about Jeremy

If You Just Give Me A Chance You’d See What I See- 1.281 Teen

The group finds out about their relationship

One Shots

It’s Time For Us To Take A Chance- 1.284 Teen

"Is this really how you want to spend your Sunday morning- talking about our feelings and molesting me?"

I Think I Was Meant To Be Next To You- 2.687 Teen

“I really like you. In a “I want to hold your hand and your dick sometimes” kind of way.”

(Michael takes Jeremy to see the sunrise on the beach)

When You Smile At Me You Know Exactly What You Do- 4.295 Teen

“I don’t think I have the stamina for 'all the time' but I’m glad you’re optimistic about our sex life.”

(Jeremy and Michael go to the county fair)

You Were The Song Stuck In My Head- 703 Teen

Jeremy wakes Michael up with a kiss

Do You Got Room For One More Troubled Soul- 4.247 Teen

“Stop. Buying. Things. From. Japan. You. Idiot.”

“You weren’t complaining when I showed you the hentai!” Rich protested, batting away Jake.

(Mistletoe and the squip squad's Christmas party)

Til The Morning Dawn’s Bright- 2.279 Teen

5 times Michael came out to Jeremy and 1 time he didn’t have to

You Are Better Than Butter On Bread- 1.946 Teen

Jeremy walks in on Michael wearing a dress

The Glitter is Gone- 1.283 Teen

Jeremy walks in on Michael decorating his wall with paper butterflies.

Look at This Photograph- 2.592 Teen

Jeremy accidentally incites a contest to get the best picture of Michael

Your Promises, They Look Like Lies- 1.516 Teen

He had been in love with him as a child, and even more so after puberty smacked him upside the head with its baseball bat and made him a ball of raging hormones.

(Jeremy has a list of rules in regards to Michael)

Live Your Life With Arms Wide Open- 1.117 Teen

���Jeremy, you trip when you walk.”

“I do not! Things get in my way.”

Michael snorted. “Yeah. Like the air.”

(Jeremy borrows Jake's hoverboard)

You Are The Treasure That I Seek- 4.051 Teen

It's Valentine's Day and Jeremy has a secret admirer

I’m Thinking About Cats Again- 1.139 Teen

Michael tries to seduce Jeremy by wearing cat ears and a tail. It goes about as well as you'd think

Our Scars Remind Us That The Past Is Real- 750 Teen

Jeremy tells Michael about the squip's abuse

So Here’s To Living Life Miserable- 19.11 Teen

Jeremy has trouble balancing his time between his new friends and Michael

The Ocean Looks Like A Thousand Diamonds Strewn Across A Blue Blanket- 1.666 Teen

Christine sets Michael up on a blind date to the Zooquarium

And In The End I’d Do It All Again- 1.715 Teen

Jeremy and Michael have a picnic on the Fourth of July

Cute, Gay, And Here To Stay!- 1.912 Teen

Jake bets Michael he can't go a week without wearing his hoodie

Until My Heart Explodes- 1.372 Teen

"Why do you only kiss me when I'm sleeping?"

You Move In Circles Hoping No One’s Gonna Find Out- 2.091 Teen

Rich dares Michael to kiss his crush at midnight on New Years Eve

With A Touch Of My Hand I Will Turn Your Life To Gold- 1.477 Teen

Jeremy and Michael go on a double date

I Love Every Kind Of Cat- 1.551 Teen

Michael wakes up having grown cat ears and a tail

Fahr: Manuala- 1.878 Teen

Michael plays a game, Jeremy reads a book.

And It Makes Me Feel So Fine- 1.197 Teen

“P-put your money where your m-mouth is.” he challenged.

“How about I put my mouth where your mouth is?”

I’m The Kind of Human Wreckage That You Love- 1.204 Teen

Jeremy is having a bad day (trans!jeremy)

We Only Want To Have A Good Time- 3.778 Teen  *Incomplete

“You don’t need to attack my face with your face.” Jeremy told him, rubbing at where he got poked. “It’s a kiss, not a competition.”

“It is too a competition- and I’m gonna win it!”

(Jeremy asks Michael on a date)

Need You, Hate Me- 1.575 Teen

“Like, y’know, nya.”

(Jeremy and Michael take a walk downtown)

How’d You Get To Be Happiness?- 1.604 Teen

Michael thrust his fist of flowers out to him. “You’re the prettiest person I’ve ever seen!” He blurted out, loudly.

(Michael and Jeremy meet for the first time, kid!fic)

Heritage- 598 Teen

Michael feels out of touch with his ethnicity because he was raised American (vent!fic)

We Need Sweets Every Now And Then- 3.574 Teen

He launched himself onto his friend with a squeal, knocking Jeremy backwards with a soft thump. “You made it!” He shouted into his friend’s chest, hugging him.

Jeremy giggled under him, hugging him back just as fiercely. “I said I was gonna!” He told him.

(Michael and Jeremy go trick or trick or treating, kid!fic)

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I hope you enjoy!

[latestageyouth]

Fashionably late

I know this is not sanders sides but I got a sudden burst of passion pls don’t kill me (this is a human au where the squip is just Jeremy’s older asshole brother) (also his name is Sawyer)

Pairing: Boyf Riends

Word count: 1,761

Warnings: crying?, also squip

Summary: Sawyer just wants some dinner when he hears sobbing coming from the bathroom. Dad? No, he’s over at the office. Jeremy? But he has a date or something, right, why is he here then?

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Sawyer opened the door to his room and stepped out. Surely there must’ve been some leftover cake from his father’s birthday. He was in front of the stairs that he stopped and heard soft sobbing. Was dad home? No, he went to the office. Jeremy? Why was he here, didn’t he have a date or something?

Sawyer contemplated for a moment if he should go eat something because his stomach will probably start eating itself soon, or if he should follow the muffled sounds. Internally cursing at himself for caring about anyone but himself, he decided to follow the sound.

And that was how he found himself standing in front of the bathroom door. Okay, he’s gonna do this, and he will do it well. Cause he’s good at everything, even comforting people who are crying in the only bathroom in the house in the evening. 

He took in a quiet breath and knocked on the door. The crying stopped. Sawyer raised his eyebrows.

“You do know that I still know you’re in there, right?”

No response, just some shuffling that he was sure wasn’t mean to be heard. He sighed and opened the door.

“Jerem-” Sawyer looked around, no one in sight. Oh, of course he would hide in the bathtub. Sawyer walked over to open the shower curtain to reveal Jeremy, his cheeks crimson red with tears running down. And his hair more of a bird’s nest than normal. Also, he has a suit, what the heck.

“Get out, Sawyer, I am not in the mood for your mocking,” Jeremy brought his knees closer to his chest and buried his head in them.

“I don’t even need to mock you, you look like a mess,” it sounded more surprised than judgemental, but Jeremy scoffed. “First of all, what are you doing in the bathtub? Are you trying to hide from me?”

“Anything to stay away from you,” Jeremy still hasn’t moved his head from his knees.

“Also, why are you wearing a suit?”

Sawyer could practically feel Jeremy tense. Sawyer had to strain his ears to figure out what he said, “Me and Michael are going on our first date and I don’t know what to wear…”

The older one scoffed, “Oh, Jeremy, if you’re not going to a wedding or a funeral I don’t see why you should wear a suit.”

“Thanks, but I didn’t ask for your opinion.”

Sawyer looked away, it was more of a tip than an opinion, but whatever. He pitied this fashion confused, crimsoning child. He had once upon a time also been a panicky loser. Well, he had nothing better to do, so why not help him out, “Okay, get up, you’re not just going to sulk in a suit while Michael waits for you at the arcade.”

Finally, Jeremy looked at him, “We’re going to a restaurant.”

Sawyer furrowed his eyebrows, “Then why the suit?” it sounded more like a demand really.

“I don’t know, I panicked!” Jeremy shrugged, wiping his tears with the back of his hand.

Once again, the taller one sighed and pinches the bridge of his nose, “You always panic, Jeremy…C'mon, get up, we’re going to fix you up,” he reached out his hand to Jeremy, who just stared at it.

He hiccuped, “W-what?”

Sawyer quirked his eyebrow, “Do you really think I want to be associated with a sweaty teenage fashion disaster? No, thank you. So get out of the bathtub, or I will drag you out by force,” he slowly retracted his hand, but Jeremy caught it by the wrist.

“No, wait! Okay, just don’t make me into your copy,” Sawyer pulled Jeremy on his feet, the teenager stepping out of the bathtub, “So, what now?”

“Now into your room. You’re not going to Dennys in a suit,” he dragged Jeremy into his bedroom, what a fucking mess. Clothes scattered all over the floor, and Sawyer was pretty sure that plate with a half-eaten dinner was from two months ago.

“We’re actually going to Dominos but whatever…”

Sawyer opened his closet if you could even call it that with only half the wardrobe actually in it. First, he browsed through the jeans. Ripped. Black. Ripped on accident. Dirty. Well, black will do. He took the pair of jeans and threw them on Jeremy, landing on his head, “Okay, now to the t-shirt…” he mumbled to himself as he closed the jeans drawer. Dirty. Ripped. Ugly. Dirty again. That’s a girl shirt. Too formal. Too informal.

“What about this one?” Sawyer turned around to look at Jeremy. There was a pause, full of judgement and aversion.

“You are not wearing that crop top.”

“Why not? You said you liked it when I first bought it!”

The need to facepalm was almost too strong, but Sawyer was stronger, “Yes, on a normal occasion, but you are not wearing a crop top that says ‘thick thigs thin patience’ on a date! A first one at that!”

Jeremy dropped the crop top and crossed his arms, giving Sawyer a frustrated glare.

“You know what? Screw this. Stay here, I’ll be right back,” before Jeremy could react, Saywer was out the door and headed to his room, opening his clothing drawer and sorting through the old shirts that he didn’t wear anymore. Too revealing. Too me. Too…actually this one is kinda good. He picked up an old red henley shirt. That’ll do. He closed the drawer and went back to the room, opening the door and glancing at Jeremy on his phone.

“Michael is asking why I’m late.”

“Tell him you are gonna be fashionably late, also that I said fuck you.”

Without a response, Jeremy typed something out and put the phone back in his pocket, already changed into the black jeans. He looked at the shirt and back at Sawyer, “I am not wearing that,” he shook his head.

“Yes. Yes, you are. You have no other option unless you wanna go in a suit,” he tossed the shirt to Jeremy, who caught it this time. Jeremy looked up at him and Sawyer frowned, “Well?”

“I am not changing in front of you, that’s weird,” Jeremy looked away and shrugged his shoulders.

“Jeremy, may I remind you that I once caught you sneaking out of dad’s room in only boxers with a biscuit in your mouth at three in the morning? There is nothing ’'weird” that could top that.“

Jeremy opened his mouth to say something, but nothing came out. Then he took off his suit, tie that wasn’t even properly tied and his shirt and instead pulled on the henley shirt. Even though it was one of Sawyer’s older ones, it still did not fit Jeremy completely, being a tad bit oversized. Not off shoulder oversized but it definitely shouldn’t be and wasn’t this wide when Sawyer wore it.

"I look stupid,” Jeremy scratches his cheek with the most acne on it, a nervous gesture as Sawyer recognized.

Sawyer came closer to Jeremy and placed his hands on the other’s shoulders, “You look fine, let me just-” Sawyer unbuttoned the first two buttons, leaving only one in place, “See? You don’t,” Sawyer made quotation marks with his fingers and mimicked Jeremy’s speech, “Look like a copy of me,” Jeremy rolled his eye at the gesture, “And you also don’t look like a complete loser, I would say it’s a win-win.”

“Yeah, I guess…” Jeremy twitched his lips upward in what could be considered a smile. Sawyer’s eyes trailed up to look at his hair.

“We still need to do something about that.”

Jeremy looked up at his hair, his hand coming to grab a piece of the front strands, “Yeah, but quick. I don’t want Michael to wait too much.”

Sawyer rolled his eyes, “Do you have hair gel?”

Jeremy went to his table, “Uh, yeah, I think I should.”

“Not lotion, hair gel.”

“Bold of you to assume I don’t use hair gel as lotion,” Jeremy shot him a narrow-eyed glare.

This time, Sawyer actually facepalmed and dragged his hand down his face, “Fucking Christ, Jeremy…”

“Here, hair gel,” Sawyer looked down to see, in fact, and to his surprise, actual hair gel. He took it from Jeremy, opened the cap and poured some on the hand. He put the bottle away, rubbing his hands together to spread the gel, “Now, hold still.”

Jeremy’s curly, dishevelled hair was something else, but it was not something a̶ ̶l̶o̶t̶ ̶ a little hair gel couldn’t fix…Sawyer thinks. After a few minutes of messing around with it, Sawyer finally got the shape he wanted. Fancy but not too much, somehow a very Serious Jeremy hair. He stepped away, looking at his work. Wow, he should really become a hairdresser, maybe then he won’t have to write ten-page essays about programming, “Done.”

Jeremy went to look in the mirror next to his closet. He couldn’t deny the smile that crept onto his features, “Thanks…a lot…”

Sawyer couldn't help but smirk a little bit, “Now, do you want a ride or will you just walk there?”

Jeremy’s eyes widened, “Seriously, you would? Oh my god, you would be my saviour, I’m already late as it is!”

Sawyer turned around and went to his room for his car keys. Snatching them off of his nightstand, he walked back to the hallways, shouting for Jeremy to follow him. They got to the car, Sawyer in the driver’s seat while Jeremy was riding shotgun. He pulled out his phone and texted Michael, while also giving Sawyer directions.

Sawyer stopped in front of the Dominos, Jeremy opened the door and stepped out, “Here we are, you owe me ten dollars.”

Before he could pull up the window, Jeremy stuck his head in, “Wait, what?!”

Sawyer paused, looking at Jeremy, “…You didn’t actually think I was doing this for free, did you? Oh, Jeremy, you’re so naive sometimes.”

“Jeremy! You’re here!” they both looked in the direction of the voice, Michael. He ran and hugged Jeremy tightly, then he looked at Sawyer. His smile faded, a grimace replacing it, “Sawyer…”

Sawyer just smirked, “Told you, he is fashionably late, and don’t tell me it wasn’t worth the wait, I know my stuff.”

Michael just rolled his eyes, sliding his hand to interlock with Jeremy’s, both walking towards the Dominos front door. Jeremy turned his head around to look at Sawyer, who was now mouthing 'Get some’ to Jeremy and winking. At last, Jeremy rolled his eyes and turned his head back, but couldn’t help a small smile.

[usukimpala67]

Post the First Line of Your Last 10 Published Fics and Tag 10 People

I was tagged by my twin @corancoranthemagicalman! And since I don’t really publish fics;; Im just gonna do ones I’ve officially shared, most can be found on AO3 or under the #my writting tag on my blog here

1. (im doing two since the first line is really short) Keith hated Shiro. Well, hate was a strong word for how he felt. Lance Realizes Vampires are Kinky Voltron (Vampire/priest au) Ships: Klance with a little bit of Adashi

The famous vamp au me and C (the person who tagged me) did! Oh boy was this a fun story to work on in progress. If you want more just follow @official-vampire-lance  or @official-priest-keith and go from there

2. Today we're going to be discussing one of the most out of this world topics we've ever attempted. Buzzfeed Unsolved: Kerberos Mission Voltron and BFU (crossover) Ships: none, Klance if you squint

I had fun working on this one and imagining Shane and Ryan’s voices

3. In hindsight, Keith should've known the mission was bound to fail. Of Space Mice and Aliens Voltron (canon au) Ships: Klance and Hunay

So when I say canon au, I don’t mean it’s based on canon I mean it’s based on that one alternate universe allll the way back from season 3

4. Lance had always wanted to see the stars as a child. A Boy From Cuba Voltron (Wavelength Kaxpha AU) Ships; none

This was one of the many Kaxpha au’s i wrote for lol, probably one of my favorites if Im honest

5. For as long as he could remember, which to be fair wasn’t very long, Blue had never known where he came from or what he was. Remember Me Voltron (Kaxpha au) Ships: Klance

I think yall are sensing a pattern with my most recent ships lol

6. Arthur finished the last sentence as the bell rang, signaling the end of the period and the start of lunch. Bad Touch Trio Hetalia x Heathers (crossover au) ships: UsUk

A fun little crossover I started in middle school for fun

7. Kiku shut his locker after pulling out a few books. An Unrequited Love Hetalia (human and high school au) ships: Ameripan one sided, UsUk

i actually wrote this one for a creative writing class and I may post it along with my huge selection of hetalia highschool fan fictions if yall are interested!

8. “JEREMEY WAKE THE FUCK UP” There’s a Book? Clusterfuck BMC (Crossover) ships: Boyf riends

Now we’re getting back into my Be More Chill phase where I used to write stories from @i-used-to-wear-the-fedora (sorry for dropping so many of them bro >_<) and this is one from their infamous clusterfuck au where every alternate version of Jeremy and Micheal meet

9. “Welcome to the first official meeting of all the fifty United States of America,” America stated cheerfully to the room at large. Till we’ve given a day to every state. Hetalia (OC’s) ships: none

Ah that one time I decided to create 50 oc’s for hetalia

10. Sirens blared from behind Lovino and Feliciano as they ran down the street. Great Minds Think Alike Hetalia (alternate universe) ships: none

my clever as fuck hetalia fan fiction, please talk to me about it Im super proud of it

Im tagging @dragonbroodmother, @i-used-to-wear-the-fedora @jeremyheereprotectionsquad and anyone else who wants to do it

[thelowlysatsuma]

BOYF RIENDS 23 I'm sorry but thaT SHIT C O O T

it REALLY DO BE AAA

23 - How do they hug? Kiss? Tease? Flirt? Comfort?

okay okay okay so uhhhh

even after they’ve been dating for like. a million years. they still do the bro hug. you know the one. with like the handshake-high five thing and then pull it into a hug and slap each other on the back. that one

(okay okay but like they also 1000000% fall asleep playing video games together and wake up cuddled up and tangled together like frickin octopi. like michael has his arms around jeremy and jer’s head is tucked against michael’s chest and it always ends with jeremy having a frickin crick in his neck the next day from having bent it funny but like. worth it.)

uhhhhh lbr their first kiss was not intentional. like. they definitely had help, and i’ll bet like 50 bucks that rich was involved somehow. and like. mistletoe (mistlebro) or tripping into one another or being locked in a closet or deadass having their heads shoved together by a very fed up chloe or some cliche shit. it’s great. uhhh they’re both hella shy at first and though jeremy’s the first one to like. be less shy about pda, once michael gets more comfy with the idea he’s definitely the more brazen one

speaking of, michael? hella flirty. like. just. he has so much fun seeing how red jeremy’s face can get. he privately likens it to unironically quoting a dead memes, just to see people’s reactions of disgust. pure schadenfreude. he loves it. also? pet names. a l l the pet names. jeremy, on the other hand, is very good at being flirty while acting, but absolutely awful at it in terms of it with his bf(f). he tries so hard and unfailingly ends up a stuttering mess. what a time.

(also? in my mind? this video? 10000% canon)

as for comforting one another, they’re both actually really great at it, in their own ways. they’ve known each other for so long it’s impossible for them not to be. michael’s the one who needs verbal affection when he’s not doing so hot. he can get pree insecure about whether jer actually still likes him. thankfully, jeremy is pretty good at reading the signs when michael’s not doing too well, and whenever he notices anything wrong he’ll take michael to a private place and sling an arm around his shoulder and tell him, again and again, that he’s there, and that he’s not going anywhere. many classes have been skipped for this purpose. on the other hand, whenever jeremy feels like shit he needs physical comfort. not necessarily hugs – sometimes they can feel too constricting to him – but often just being able to touch michael helps, whether it be laying a hand on his arm, or michael gently rubbing his back, or just leaning his head on him. it helps. it always helps.

sskdnjkjkndnjsk @steppystar this was so fun to write tyyyyy

Send me a ship and a number!!

[lunaryuwu]

6 15 16 22!

6. What ship(s) captured your heart?

Richjake is a nice add on to my boyf riends brainrot

Rewatched sherlock and remembered how much i love johnlock(still do)

That’s pretty much it

15. Rec a fic you wrote or posted in 2023

The Genius Is Heere is always my proud creation(first completed longfic hshahajbaianl)

16. What were your go-to writing songs?

Usually I just shuffle my writing playlist but my go-tos are either classical music(usually Tchaikovsky’s stuff, love the violin concerto) or some good ol Taylor Swift(mostly songs from the albums 1989 or red)

22. Share an excerpt from your favorite scene

This is more of a wip but it’s a fic nonetheless

And yes it’s the light/dark academia au

At one point in time, Jeremy Heere might have been an innocent child, but his hands are stained with blood and he cannot deny it. His own choices have haunted him since, leaving him to wonder if he could ever go back to that dark forest, where it used to be just them, where they used to stay up till 3 am trying to finish that dreaded essay, where he thought he would have the happiest time of his life, where it all began, just to see if he could find a shred of forgiveness buried deep beneath those scattered bloody leaves and the guilt of everything he could have done.

But he knows he can’t.

—“Untitled” Prologue

[staystrange]

Things I Noticed at the First Sunday Matinee of Be More Chill on Broadway -- 02.17.19

It took me so long to write this post because I had so many thoughts, but I get to post it now in honor of opening night, so I guess it works out : )

NOTE: I have never seen the New Jersey production, so any references I make to that version of the show are based only on the original cast recording. I saw the Off-Broadway production once, back in August, and I wrote a very long and detailed post about that, which you can find here if you are interested. I tried to remember as much as possible from both the Off-Broadway and Broadway productions, but my memory isn’t perfect, so apologies in advance if I misremember anything. Enjoy!

OTHER NOTE: When I saw the show Off-Broadway, I saw Troy Iwata as Jake, and when I saw it on Broadway, I saw Troy Iwata as Michael, so any comparisons between productions for those two characters could either be actual character changes or just changes because I saw two different actors play those characters.

Act 1

Jeremy’s bed isn’t onstage at the top of the show anymore. It gets moved onstage once the music starts.

JEREMY WEARS GLASSES!!!!! The Squip fixes his eyesight later, which is a cool way to bring up the fact that the Squip has control over Jeremy’s optic nerves before the optic nerve blocking part happens. As far as I can remember, Jeremy doesn’t wear the glasses again at the end of the show. But still, I was just so excited to see that he wears glasses now. Yay glasses!! (EDIT: I HAVE SEEN PHOTOS AND HE DOES WEAR THE GLASSES AGAIN AT THE END OF THE SHOW)

Will says “Good morning, time to start the day!” a LOT more sarcastically than before.

The dialogue in More Than Survive is different. The conversation about Madilyn being a slut / Jake being a player / etc. is gone and instead there’s a conversation between Jake and Chloe about how he thinks they should both see other people and she pretends to be mature about it but she’s actually upset. The part where Rich writes “BOYF” on Jeremy’s backpack is still the same, though.

At the end of the first round of “Christine…” Will sings it up the octave and it sounds so good and so perfectly Jeremy and I love it. Whoever made that decision deserves an extra round of applause.

There’s an extra bit of dialogue before Michael’s entrance in More Than Survive. Jenna walks onstage with Chloe and tells her that she saw Jake flirting with Madeline, and Chloe stops and says “I want details!” before shoving food in her face and walking offstage.

When I saw the show Off-Broadway, George got entrance applause, and I’d heard that Troy had gotten entrance applause in previous performances the weekend I saw it, so I was all ready for there to be entrance applause when I saw the show. There wasn’t any. It was just me awkwardly cheering.

When Will says “you’re listening to Bob Marley again, aren’t you?” he raises his voice to be heard over the music that is for sure blasting in Michael’s headphones.

The “I wrote Christine a letter telling her how I feel” dialogue is gone. I don’t remember if it was there Off-Broadway either, but it’s such an iconic line and I miss it. I’m glad it’s preserved on the OCR, though.

Michael gets so excited when he sees that the backpacks say “boyf riends” and he says “my mothers will be thrilled!” and takes a selfie with them. When I saw it on Broadway, either the audience laughed too loud or Troy’s mic didn’t work for a second because the first part of the line was cut off and my friend who had never seen the show before totally missed the fact that Michael has two moms.

When Michael says “there’s never been a better time in history to be a loser!” Jeremy responds by saying “thanks” in a way that is exactly like that video with the girl who gets an avocado for a gift. You know the one.

There are new Michael/Jeremy “Christine…” harmonies!!

The cast doesn’t hold out “Canigula…” as long as on the cast recording.

The end of More Than Survive is as heartbreaking as ever and I cried.

CHRISTINE’S BOOTS ARE RAINBOW NOW!! Also, I want them.

I thought they may have cut the “I’m joking!” “I’M JEREMY!” part but nope, it is still there, and it’s still one of my favorite moments of the show.

I Love Play Rehearsal got about a hundred times dorkier for both Christine and Jeremy and it was perfect. Stephanie Hsu is so perfectly dorky off course but the way Will as Jeremy reacts to everything she says and does during that song is so spot on and it just shows how incredibly talented Will is. Aside from that, I Love Play Rehearsal has barely changed.

After I Love Play Rehearsal, Jeremy says something about how he wishes he loved something as much as Christine loves play rehearsal and I thought it was really sweet.

The first More Than Survive reprise is still there! Untouched! Yay!

The Squip Song scene didn’t stand out to me as having any significant changes, aside from Rich now being noticeably affected by his Squip.

I’m not 100% sure but I think there was an extra section in the actual Squip Song that wasn’t there before.

Jeremy’s Squip Song reprise is still there, too.

The dialogue in Two-Player Game is a little bit different, though I already knew that because I was at the Be More Chill event at the Guggenheim that day when it was FREEZING. Michael mentions that Jeremy’s like the Crystal Pepsi he got from Spencer’s Gifts, and Jeremy asks, “Not safe for human consumption?” and Michael replies, “Better with age.” I’m pretty sure Michael referenced a different drink in previous versions of the show, though I’m not 100% sure about that. Also, the choreography is different.

I have now seen three different combinations of Michael/Jeremy perform Two-Player Game: George Salazar and Will Roland (Off-Broadway and the Guggenheim), George and Joe Iconis (Two-Player Game at 54 Below), and Will and Troy Iwata (Broadway). I just think that’s pretty cool.

When Michael sings “I’m your favowite person” he like leans back on Jeremy instead of hugging him.

When Michael and Jeremy sing “it’s just what we do, we make it a two-player game,” the note on PLAY goes up instead of staying the same. I’m not sure when this change happened because it’s the same as the original version on the Two-Player Game album but every time I’ve seen it live since Off-Broadway, it’s had that change. Whenever it happened, I love it and I’m glad it’s a permanent change.

The “I spent all of my bar mitzvah money on a winter-green tic tac!” line is still there. Jeremy is still Jewish. REPRESENTATION!!

When the Squip first appears, he sings this like intro to Be More Chill Part 1 that has part of the old version of Upgrade in it and I was not expecting it at all whatsoever but I like it!

Will looks so proud of himself when he says “I am a masterbater” and it’s hilarious.

Instead of “Jesus Christ” Jeremy says “This was a mistake” and it’s so funny.

The Squip jumps up on the top of one of the clothes racks and sings from there and it’s great.

The mall characters are still as hilarious as ever.

THIS is a big change: The second More Than Survive reprise was almost completely cut and replaced with a new song called Sync Up, which is about Jeremy’s first day of school with the Squip and how it helps him connect with the other characters. It’s a pretty cool song! The “all in all a not too heinous day” part of the More Than Survive reprise is now part of Sync Up, and everything else is gone.

This isn’t a change, but Will Roland dramatically reciting Shakespeare lines will never get old.

A Guy That I’d Kinda Be Into is pretty much the same as Off-Broadway (which was changed from the original), though the bridge part has like a couple extra notes at the end.

The Squip Lurks instrumental might be gone but I don’t remember for sure.

UPGRADE. Upgrade is seriously like 90% a completely different song than the version on the cast recording. It has changed even more since Off-Broadway, but it’s so much better now!! Instead of just being about Jeremy and Christine each “getting an upgrade,” it now reveals so much about the other characters and adds so much depth to them. I wish I remembered every single lyric, but I remember there’s one part where they all sing “I’m tired of being the person that everyone thinks I am” and it’s just WOW. But yeah, seriously, Upgrade got a serious upgrade.

Loser Geek Whatever is pretty much the same, though the orchestration and staging are slightly different. The song starts with Will sitting on the bleachers on the right of the stage (from the audience’s perspective) and he eventually gets up and just sings it on the otherwise empty stage like he did Off-Broadway. I figured they weren’t changing it much since they already released the studio recording of it. I definitely cried during it though, despite this being my third time seeing Will sing it live. It’s just SO GOOD. He really leaves everything out in the open onstage and I could feel it, even up in the balcony.

Act 2

Halloween has a couple changes. The Squip dances during Halloween with the rest of the cast, which is an interesting change from Off-Broadway. Also, there’s a new section in the song with a new melody and lyrics and I wasn’t expecting it but I like it!! Will did a cartwheel during this song Off-Broadway but didn’t on Broadway and I was disappointed (but not for long — see below).

Christine still wears the princess costume and the whole Prince and princess misunderstanding between Christine and Jake is still there, but now Christine doesn’t wear her Juliet costume. Instead, she wears a low-cut princess dress that she would normally never wear, but she’s wearing it because she thinks it’ll impress Jake. YAY CHARACTER DEPTH!!

Do You Wanna Hang has not changed as far as I can remember.

When I saw Michael in the Bathroom Off-Broadway, I remember that the introduction music for the song started while the audience was still laughing at the joke that preceded it, and I have never heard a room of people go silent so quickly. The shocking effect of it really stuck with me. This time, though, the band waited a couple seconds for the audience to laugh before starting the song, which still works, though it doesn’t have quite the same effect. Also, this may have been because I saw Troy Iwata as Michael, but there were some lines that were sung slightly differently than before, and I think the song is a bit slower overall, too, though it may have been that way Off-Broadway.

OH ALSO THERE IS A THEREMIN PART IN MICHAEL IN THE BATHROOM NOW!!

The A Guy That I’d Kinda Be Into (Reprise) scene on the couch with Jeremy and Christine is still one of my two favorite scenes in the show. I absolutely love it. It has not changed very much, though I did notice that when Will sang “Christine… will you go out with me?” he sounded a lot more insecure and quiet than he did Off-Broadway. This version works better for the character for sure, though I miss the belting version of it because it sounded SO GOOD. This version sounds good too, though, for sure.

Instead of carrying a bottle of gasoline, Rich carries a jack-o-lantern right before The Smartphone Hour.

There are some new harmonies in The Smartphone Hour!! Also, Troy Iwata and Jason Sweettooth Williams were lowered down onto the stage at one point and it was great.

In the scene right before The Pants Song, Mr. Heere still asks Michael “Do you love Jeremy?” but instead of Michael responding like “wHAT?!” he now responds like “…what?” if that makes sense.

I honestly cannot even tell you if The Pitiful Children has changed any more from Off-Broadway because I don’t remember what any of the new lyrics are. Chances are it’s changed at least a little bit more.

The Play has a few notable differences. First of all, though, I finally got to be part of the huge cheer during “My Squip says I can go all the way to Broadway!!” because I saw the show Off-Broadway before anyone, even the cast, knew it would be going to Broadway. I have been waiting MONTHS for that moment. It was worth it. For Michael Makes an Entrance, Troy ran through a wall and it was so epic. During the fight sequence between Jeremy and Michael, the movements made it look like Jeremy was glitching as he fought with the Squip for control of his own body, and it was so cool. Also, Will did a cartwheel during this scene instead of Halloween. I’m pretty sure Jake’s part in this song is different, though I don’t remember for sure. The Brooke and Chloe part definitely changed a little bit. During Christine’s part, instead of just singing Jeremy’s name once, she sings it three times to mirror the way Jeremy always sings Christine’s name three times.

The final scene is my other favorite scene in the show, and while it’s mostly the same, it has a couple changes. The “oh my God I’m totally bi!!” line is of course still there. Voices in My Head still starts as Jeremy gets choked up about his dad wearing pants (and I still started crying immediately). Michael still sings his line up the octave. HERE’S THE BIG CHANGE: the lyrics of the second verse of Voices in My Head are COMPLETELY different. Totally rewritten. I don’t remember what they are, but I do remember it ends with something about them being Jeremy’s squad. I did NOT expect that AT ALL, but I like it!! I do miss Will being like “what, this?” in response to the line about the acne, but I love the new lyrics too. THE OTHER CHANGE: when Jeremy asks out Christine, instead of saying “lunch? just the two of us?” he says “bowling alley performance art? just the two of us?” This is a reference to the A Guy That I’d Kinda Be Into scene where Christine describes this idea she has for bowling alley performance art in response to Jeremy saying that his screaming in the mall after taking the Squip was part of a performance art piece. It’s a perfect moment. Jeremy and Christine still kiss adorable, and Jeremy still squeals in the dorkiest way possible. At the very end of the song, Christine goes up to Jeremy, leans into him, and says “ready?” leading to Jeremy screaming “LET’S GO!!” and going into the end of the show and it’s perfect. Some of the costumes are different, most notably Michael wearing a red jacket instead of his hoodie and Jeremy wearing Hello Kitty shoes for some reason.

Curtain calls are the same.

Overall, the show is fantastic, even better than it was Off-Broadway!! I’m sure they’ve made even more changes in the preview performances since I went, so I can’t wait to go see the show again after opening and see what changes they kept and what else is different. I hope as many people as possible get to see this show live because it is truly special and beautiful.

Happy Opening, Be More Chill. Thank you for everything.

[gayass-phannie]

Boyf riends Angst

for @to-bad-im-pretty-sad

please don’t credit as your own and all that jazz reblogs are appreciated :D

~WARNING~ MAIN CHARACTER DEATH

~Michael~

It happens one night in the seventh grade.

Michael’s jolted awake when he realized he’s choking, coughing like mad and struggling for breath. He can feel something stuck in his throat, and eventually manages to get it out. The thirteen year old clicked on the lamp on his bedside table and slipped his glasses on, his eyes going wide when he realizes he’s coughed up a daffodil petal into his hand.

He immediately springs out of bed, pulling on his familiar and well-worn red hoodie, which is far too big for him, and makes his way out of the house in a hurry. His parents aren’t home, they never are, there’s no one to notice he’s gone. Not to mention he’s walked to Jeremy’s house on his own too many times to count. He’s shivering in the chill of the nighttime autumn air, but he doesn’t seem to care all that much as he picked up his pace. He’s almost halfway there when-

“Christine.”

Jeremy’s voice echoes in his head. He feels his heart sink, tears slipping down his cheeks. The voice doesn’t get softer, it just continues.

“Christine, Christine, Christine.”

Before he realizes it there’s another petal in his hand.

And another,

And another,

And eventually he realizes for the first time that there’s something he can’t tell his best friend. He turns around and walks home, still coughing up petal after petal. He finally makes it back to his house, trudging up the steps to his room and collapsing into bed, his hoodie still on and tears still falling from his eyes. He sobs and coughs and sobs some more, until he finally manages to get to sleep. He wakes up the next morning with a pillow covered in tears and daffodil petals, and cries some more.

A few days pass.

The coughing doesn’t go away, neither do the voices.

Then days turn into weeks. Weeks turn into months, months turn into years.

Then it’s four years later, his junior year of high school.

Michael's here, trapped in a bathroom at Jake Dillinger’s Halloween party, sobbing his eyes out. He’d grown used to his feelings for Jeremy not being returned, and he was okay with it. He didn’t mind the consistent flowers clawing their way out of his throat too much anymore, it was just an inconvenience. As long as he still had Jeremy as a friend, he could get by. That is, until now.

Jeremy had been ignoring him for almost a week, and everything was getting worse. The voice was louder than ever.

“Christine, Christine, Christine, Christine.”

It seemed like less of a word now and more of a constant drumming in the back of his head. A constant reminder of the girl he had no right to resent, but did anyway and couldn’t understand why.

The petals had stopped being petals. Soon full flowers were finding their way to his mouth, and the coughing and choking only became more frequent.

So here he was, sitting in the bathroom sobbing and surrounded by flowers. He’s so trapped in his own head that he doesn’t notice the smoke drifting into the room, invading his lungs and only making the choking and coughing and crying more prominent. Someone finds him eventually, unconscious and surrounded by flowers, tears still rolling down his ash-covered cheeks.

More time passes.

Jeremy and Michael become friends again, Jeremy and Christine start dating. He pretends it doesn’t hurt.

They date for a few weeks, weeks turn into months, months turn into years.

Sophomore year of college, three years later.

Jeremy’s been his roommate for the first two years of college, but it still isn’t getting better. The flowers are getting harder to hide. They start coming out bloody now, he’s guessing that means it’s gotten worse. He can’t even bring himself to care anymore, though. It’s almost a month until the end of the school year when it happens.

He’s just doing homework, reading mindlessly through his textbook for the assignment, and he starts choking again. He’s sobbing, blood and flowers spilling from his mouth. He collapses to the ground, the voice practically screaming now, pounding in the back of his head.

“Christine, Christine, Christine, Christine, Christine, Christine.”

He eventually stops coughing, the flower blocking all his air. His eyes close and everything goes black.

Jeremy finds him two hours later, covered in blood, tears and daffodils.

AGAIN SORRY FOR MY SHITTY WRITING I DON’T LOVE IT AND ITS DEF NOT MY BEST WORK BUT THERE YOU GO FAM